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I've been thinking if I should finally reveal myself. Here goes...a pretty sucky digital attempt at channeling my seme and uke side. :hamtaro-005 (15): Oh i'm nervous now.. rabbit5

Your eyes have pierced my very soul Your lips have made me yours. You touch has made me lose control It’s reached into my core Your voice has made me fall again Into a world unknown I know I’m always near you then Yet I still feel alone Your kiss I feel it on my skin Its better than a dream Could this be yet another sin Or more than what it seems. Your hands have found my very heart To reach it has been tough But as I feel the caressing start I cannot get enough. You’re song has reached into my ears The harmony so sweet I wash away my doubts and fears We were destined to meet

ya...letz juz wait patiently....maybe it takes a month more... and i was like going crazy watching 34 seconds video again n again n again... dammmit!!!!...http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=O3gmMzfq3lY gosh...the kiss is healing me.....ahahaha....*being a perv untill the movie is out*

My dear diz movie is not out yet even with no subs.... but u can find some part of the story from youtube... thre's someone juz post it in parts like "misu and shingyouji part" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=SY3yGpWsbLI or "takumi and gii part" http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9jpsUcqDHHU with no audio juz music... and u can find the kiss scene too...but no full movie yet...^^

Some Texan How are ya'll ? Translation : I use it to mean everyone XD Btw I dunno why but I put ' in a different place _____________________________ Want some Coke ? Translation : Want some soda ? _____________________________________ I am fix'in to go to out to eat. Translation : the above explains nicely . ____________________________________________ Oh one more not sure its just "Texan" but a lot of us say it XD. Where is my thingamajig ? Oh you mean whatchacallit ? XD ( thingamajig can be any thing you cant think of the name for or are lazy to say . Same goes for whatchacallit. XD ) Translation :Where is my hair bows ? Oh you mean the silver ones ?

Amander : So pretty love the outfit Cloudy : Love the hair and it is a good shot . And Shim-Nii-Chan I love that photo Ok well I don't take a lot of good pics ...since 1. Im one the taking them . 2. Lately been breaking out. But here's a decent one from me at my baby shower a week I think before I had my twins.

Kenta I stared at Ryuu. “What?” He raised his eyebrows at me his voice hard. “You heard me.” He turned to walk back down the stairs and I rushed to stop him, grabbing his arm. “Ryuu, why-“ I rocked back a step, the side of my face on fire. Ryuu jerked away from me, his glare hurting almost as bad as my face. He’d just fucking slapped me. I blinked several times as his face blurred. I’d been punched, kicked, beaten with a baseball bat, tazered, cut, and stabbed, so why did this pain hurt so much worse? No beating I’d ever endured had prepared me for this kind of agony. It wasn’t that the slap didn’t hurt. It fucking did. What hurt worse was the fact that he’d actually fucking hit me. He’d never once, ever been mad enough at me to hit me. Knowing he was that upset with me was fucking painful in way I wasn’t ready for. “Don’t touch me. You think I’d forgive you so easily for pulling this kind of shit Arakaki?” “Ryuu please! Don’t be mad at Kenta.” “Shut up Hasu. This has nothing to do with you.” I wanted to say something, anything, but no words came. They couldn’t get passed the horrible pain that was making breathing next to impossible. Ryuu was still talking but I couldn’t really tell what he was saying over the pounding in my ears. I didn’t understand. Why would he fire me? Why was he so upset? I’d said I was sorry. I’d tried so hard to keep them all safe. I know I hadn’t been able to protect them like I should have, but fuck . . . “ . . . Are you even listening to me?” I looked up, Ryuu’s grey eyes harder than granite. He crossed his arms over his chest. “I asked you a question.” “Oh . . .” He sighed. “Never mind. I don’t care anymore. Nakamara will send you your last paycheck.” Was this really fucking happening? “Wait, Ryuu-I don’t understand . . .” “Of course you don’t.” I flinched at Ryuu’s biting tone, the ache in my chest getting sharper, threatening to break through the thin wall I was just barely keeping up. “You are such an idiot. I don’t know why you thought trying to do all this yourself was a good idea. Why do you have to be so fucking bull headed and stubborn? If you’d just admitted you needed help-fuck it. I’m done with you. I’m done with wondering when or if you’ll come home. I’m not going to be cheated on by some fucking illiterate thug who can’t even do the one fucking job he’s got. Give me your phone.” I was shaking, but I couldn’t stop it. Why was he doing this to me in front of everyone? It was humiliating. I’d never thought he could be so cruel. Pulling my phone out of my pocket I held it out not looking up. He snatched it out of my hand. He messed with it for a minute then handed it back. “Alright guys, let’s go. We’ve got better things to do.” Numb I stared down at my phone. He’d deleted his numbers, both his cell and his house number. This was it. He was breaking up with me. “R-Ryuu . . .” I gulped not sure what to do when my voice cracked. “I’m done talking to you Arakaki.” “Please Ryuu-“ I couldn’t talk anymore. My throat wouldn’t let the words out. “Shit Ryuu! This is too much!” Sora’s voice washed over me, but I was too drained to do anything but stand there. It was like I was back in the apartment the day I lost Ayame, I was losing everything all over again. I’d tried so hard but it was useless. I was useless. I’d failed Ryuu, failed Hasu, failed Ayame. I was nothing but a fucking failure. “Fuck Ryuu . . . do you have to be so mean.” I slowly realized I was alone standing on the sidewalk in front of the police station. My whole body shaking and I felt like puking. I glanced up as a shadow fell over me. Sora’s smile was pained as he looked at me. “Kenta . . . Kenta come on. I’ll talk to Ryuu, please stop crying.” “-m n-not crying.” “Sure, okay.” Taking my arm, Sora led me to a small café and had me sit down at a table in the very back. Everything felt completely unreal. I looked over at Sora, finally feeling the wetness on my face. Wiping it away I tried to get a handle on myself. “He broke up with me.” “Yeah he did.” “Why?” Sora shook his head and reaching over brushed some hair back from my face. “He’s just really upset and hurt right now Kenta. He still thinks you were cheating on him, all the stuff with Naoki aside.” “No! Not fucking ever.” “You don’t have to yell at me Kenta, I know. Hasu told me what happened. How you tried to help him. Now just try to calm down and breathe. Things will be okay I promise.” I nodded feeling light headed, yet also too heavy to move. I had to fix this. I couldn’t leave it like this, with Ryuu thinking I’d cheated on him. I loved him. I loved him and I didn’t ever want to be without him. I covered my face with my hands as another round of sobs overtook me. I’d lost so much in my life and I wasn’t about to lose Ryuu. I’d kill someone first. I hadn’t cried once since the day I’d found my sister dead. It seemed I was making up for lost time cause I cried till I puked then I cried some more. Sora was there through it all talking to me, trying to calm me down and getting me water when I needed it. I was really glad he’d taken me somewhere half way private so I wasn’t making a total ass of myself. I finally ended up sitting curled up in the chair clutching the water bottle Sora had given me. I was so fucking furious with myself it wasn’t even funny. “I gotta fix it Sora.” “Kenta . . . honestly I’ve never seen Ryuu this upset. He’s hurt and angry and feels betrayed. He’s not going to listen to reason until he calms down.” I nodded, my head feeling like someone had stuffed it full of spiked lead balls. My stomach hurt and just thinking of Ryuu made the pressure in my chest swell until it threatened to choke me. I gasped softly as I was suddenly being hugged by the big redhead. “Kenta . . . I am so sorry things turned out this way. I can’t stand to see you this upset.” Sora’s voice was soft. “I’m sorry Ryuu was so hateful about everything. You are the best thing that has ever happened to him and he knows it. Once he calms down and listens to Hasu, he’ll apologize. I know he will.” “I need to go talk to him. I have to tell him what really happened.” Sora let me go and sat back. He took a breath and slowly blew it out. “If you think so Kenta. Don’t expect him to listen at first though.” “I know.” *** I rode the bus over to Ryuu’s apartment. The setting sun was reflected in the windows of the different apartments as I got off the bus. I wondered if I should even bother going up. Ryuu's apartment felt more like home now than anywhere I'd ever lived and the thought of never going back there sent a sick hollow feeling through me. I headed inside trying to think of ways I could make things up to Ryuu. It was not going to be easy. Everyone distrusted me now and I knew that was going to take a long time to fix. I was staring at the floor as I got into the elevator and didn't look up as someone joined me. A soft snicker make me look up and I nearly gasped in shock, my hand instantly going to the knife on my belt. Rame never gave me a chance to pull it. Grabbing me around the neck he slammed me into the back wall of the elevator. "I was looking for you." I tried to fight him, but it was like I had no strength left. I found himself marched out of the elevator and to the door of Ryuu's apartment. "Open it." Rame’s breath was hot on my ear and I jerked my head to the side. "You have to let go of me." I managed from between clenched teeth. The grip on my wrists lessened and I winced as I was able to bring my arms down from where they had been twisted up behind my back. I was already trying to formulate a plan. If only I still had my knife but it was on the floor of the elevator. My fingers trembled slightly as I unlocked the door. Rame didn't give me a chance to open it, grabbing my arm and shoving the door open himself. I stumbled into the apartment, trying to right myself. I shifted getting into a fighting stance only to have Rame laugh at me. "You really think you can fight me in your condition? Pathetic. What does that idiot singer see in you anyway?" I blocked the punch to my face and deflected the one aimed at my ribs, but I was already worn down and exhausted. Rame wasn’t. I yelped as the next punch sent me sprawling, cracking my head on the tile. I struggled to get my eyes to focus as Rame leaned down over me. "You've got a lot of payback coming your way, bitch." Rame’s chuckle made the hair on the back of my neck stand up and I flailed trying to get loose. "Struggle all you want Kenta. It turns me on."

I like this pic of me because I'm wearing my favorite skirt

say whatever you want using your native language :cuteonion45:(but make sure to write the pronunciation and the translation in English) so we can read and understand للمرأة حقوق سواء كانت ذكرا أم أنثى (Arabic):cuteonion44: it's pronounced like (lel mara hokook swa kanat thakara aw ontha):leaf5: it's translated as (Women have rights,Whether they are male or female):leaf12: i have found it at a site for msn topics:leaf20: Qui a dit que l'amour est réservé au français (French):cuteonion7: it's translated as (Who said that love is reserved for the French)leaf4 my mother said that once:cuteonion45:

Would it be too much to ask To hear the way you feel To know that when you say the words Each one of them is real Would it be too much to ask To be held in your arms. To know that if I need it You’ll keep me safe from harm Would it be too much to ask To feel your tender kiss To know that when your lips touch mine It’s ecstasy it’s bliss Would it be too much to ask To feel your silk smooth skin To make it feel so good It has to be a sin Would it be too much to ask To make forever real To promise me no matter what It’s how you’ll always feel.

Bloodstained hands, Tear filled eyes Hidden truth Revealing disguise Wandering stranger Lost his way On his own Yet another day Answers forgotten Shadows near Fate’s new puppet Dances in fear Beaten walkway Untraveled road Secrets shared That shouldn’t have been told Mysterious watcher Always aware Do not look back He’s no longer there Confusion begins Memories gone Just another dream Never real all along

How can I ever thank you for posting these links here? I thought I was gonna lose my mind watching 12:46 of clips of Baba-chan and Taiki together. I was so close to crying. OMG!!! I'm sooooooooooooooooo happy watching this. I'm trying very hard to contain myself or I'll just scream my head off. They're soooooooooo good together. Can I say they both look so damn sexy? Can I say I love them as a couple? Can I say they have amazing chemistry and it really, really shows on film? Can I say that was the sexiest KISSU ever? OMG! the dressing room scene. aaaaah!!! I am so excited to watch the entire film. And then 6:41 clips of Gii and Takumi. Wow. Pure hanyan moments. Major hanyan moments. I love the scene where Takumi and Shingyouji are chatting. Two ukes together and then the seme appears. hahahahahhaha!!! Gii looks so handsome standing by the door and watching them and Takumi is smiling so much. So cute!!! aaaaaaaaaaaaaaaahhh!!! I love them all.

relax...i feel the same...but itz for fun...ahahah... damn...i hope thre's nobody recognise me here...even if do...nevermind... diz is my favourite pic becoz i juz cut my hair and starts gain a new meaningful life after tht... and diz hair makes my junior fan likes me...ahaha

Hello, my name is Amanda and I absolutely love yaoi! Translation: Hello, my name is Amanda and I absolutely love yaoi! foxy4

This is me!! Dont get fooled. Im a GAY dude! hahaha! well, it show's btw.

I dreamed once about my baby brother being killed ... when I woke up that morning I was crying and quickly ran to my brother's room. He's sleeping soundly in his crib while I silently cried ...

Jag håller med Paul, yaoi och det här forumet är bäst :3 Translation: I agree with Paul, yaoi and this forum is the best Guide to pronounciation: http://www2.hhs.se/isa/swedish/chap9.htm#pronunciation

My native tongue is Dutch. It goes like this: "Hallo allemaal! Mijn naam is Paul en ik woon in Amsterdam. Ik houd erg veel van Yaoi en van dit Forum." Translation: "Hello everybody! My name is Paul and I live in Amsterdam. I like Yaoi and this Forum very much". For pronunciation guide look at this site: http://www.pronunciationguide.info/Dutch.html

Some more . The Nights Are Long. The nights are long when your away , The days drag on endlessly , My heart waits on pause , Ready to jump when you walk in , Can't you see how I race to you , How my eyes light up when your around, Can you hear how loudly my heart pounds , How my breath gets shallow , I wait on pins and needles , Till I can see you again , You overflow me , Taking my mind away from me , But giving me something worth so much more , So I can't help but to feel a little sore , When you have to go out the door , Even though I know you will return soon , The nights are long when your away , The days drag on endlessly, Its hard to eat , Its hard to sleep , Its hard to think , When your away , And I hope that sometimes I enter your mind , For you dominate mine , The nights are so long when your away , I truly wish you could always stay, But its ok , For my love seems to grow when your gone, It makes every moment spent with you , Even more special , But baby please don't stay gone long , I don't think my heart could take it , I don't think I'll make it , For the nights are long when your away , The days drags on endlessly, My heart is on pause , Please come give it just cause. ____________________________ Just Can't Contain This Love . There's a fire starting in my heart , And whose fault do you think it is, You came in burning like a hurricane , Don't ask me what's on my mind , Because I can't contain it this time, They say I am crazy , But its already to late , There's a fire burning in my heart , Should have known from the start , Every moment with you , Is a moment of pure bliss , Every moment apart , Is a moment to long , There's a fire raging in my heart, Rushing in like a hurricane , And whose fault do you think it is , Don't ask me whats on my mind , Because baby this could be the last time , I hold on breathless , I hold on helpless , I hold on aimless, There's a fire burning in my heart , You came in burning like a hurricane , You ask what is on my mind , Its too late , Baby I just can't contain this love, I shout to the world , I sing out to the deepest sea , I scream out on the highest mountain, Just how much you mean to me , There's a fire burning in my heart, Rushing in like a hurricane , You ask what do you want of me , I laugh , Why can't you see , What you already gave me, Loving you , Knowing you , Is all I need, Baby call 911 , Its to late for me for , Theres a fire raging in my heart , Rushing in like a hurricane , And whose fault do you think it is , They say I'm crazy , I say they are hazy, Just don't ask me whats on my mind , For I can't hold it in this time, I hold on breathless, I hold on helpless, I hold on aimless, Why can't you see what you do to me, Your love is burning in my heart , You came in rushing like a hurricane, So please don't ask me whats on my mind , For I can no longer contain this love. _________________________________________ The grass isn't greener .. The grass isn't greener on the other side , I wish you could see this as you look in my eyes , You say your in pain , Well I am vivid player in that game , My tomorrow is set , While you have possiblitys , But all you want to do is talk about yesterday, It should have been you , It should have been us , I grit my teeth , Just what are you remembering , I gave you my all , And you let it fall and fall , I begged for you to see me , But you looked the other way, Now tell me does this sound ok , The grass isn't greener on the other side , I'm longing for a place to hide , You say your in pain , Well darling so am I , My tomorrow is gone , But you have many battles to be won , Your stuck in the past , The shadows have been cast, You say it should have been me , It should have been us, I hold my breath , Then why didn't you try , I gave you my all , You let it fall and fall , I loved you , Did you really love me , I think its time to say goodbye , The grass isn't greener on the other side , Can't you see the hurt in my eyes , You say your in pain , Well I'm a vivid player in that game , My tomorrow is set , You have possiblities , Stop talking about yesterday , It should have been you , It should have been us , But darling you never tried , So go on and live your life , You have to pay to play the game , The one you long for is no longer the same , Your stuck in the past , The shadows are cast , I begged for you once to see me , And now you seek the ghost of me , Oh how you cry , But years pass and you never try , The grass isn't greener on the other side , Can you see the fear in my eyes , You say your in pain , Well so am I , Stop talking about yesterday , Saying it should have been me , It should have been us , Stop chasing shadows , You no longer need to see me , You see the grass isn't greener on the other side, So Darling please go and live your life .

Ryuu I looked up as the bathroom door opened. I was sitting wrapped in a blanket on the couch in Akira’s apartment. Sora and Hasu were on the floor at my feet. Sora had Hasu wrapped in another blanket and was holding him. Hasu had finally calmed down and was dozing. Akira was in the kitchen getting us all something to drink. Reiko came out of the bathroom looking haggard and too old for her eighteen years. She’d been crying. That much was easy to tell from the bloodshot eyes and the way she tried to hide under her bangs as she walked into the living room. "A-Ano, I talked with Nakamara and he's going to take care of things. We have to stay put though. We are safest here." Sitting down she kept her head bowed, the long dark blue striped hair hiding her face. "I'm sorry guys. I really am." "Wh-what is going on Reiko?" I was trying very hard to keep my composure. After everything that had happened yesterday and this morning I was afraid to ask. Before Reiko could answer, my phone rang. Instantly recognizing the tone, I grabbed it up seeing the text message notification. I held it, just looking at the display for a moment. I was frightened to see what he had to say. Part of me didn’t ever want to see him again while the other part was desperate to get him back. I knew he was hurt and had spent the night in the hospital, but I’d been so wrapped up in what had happened at the apartment and dealing with Hasu’s hysterics and my own panic attacks I hadn’t called or even texted him. I slid the phone open and hit the button. I love you and I'm sorry. Shutting the phone I stared at it. A foreign surge of anger rushed through me for a moment I just stood there before throwing the phone across the room. It shattered against the far wall the pieces clattering to the floor. Hasu yelped and I heard Sora cuss but it barely registered. “I’m going to beat him. Who the fuck does he think he’s fooling! This whole time and he never once-not fucking once-says he loves me. Until now. I swear I’m gonna find him and beat him-“ “Ryuu, calm down.” I turned to glare at Reiko, not about ready to calm down. This was too much. “No! He’s cheating on me with some nasty little escort and then he lets Hasu get kidnapped by Naoki who did who knows what to him-” “Ryuu!” “No Sora, I know Naoki, I know what he’s like. For Kenta to let this happen and then you getting hurt too, I’ve had enough. He’s lied and avoid me for long enough. I’m going to go find him.” “Ryuu you can’t! Just think for a minute okay. I know you are upset, we all are, but putting yourself in danger is not going to help anything.” Sora grabbed my arm before I could open the door. “Ryuu! Sit down and think for a minute. “ I didn’t want to think. It was too painful. If I could be angry then I didn’t have to feel the hurt. The feeling that something was clawing away my insides until a hollow bleeding shell was left was replaced by the hot ache of anger. After everything we’d been through together, even before we started dating, how could he betray-not just me-but all of us? If it had just been him screwing around with some escort I would have been upset, but I could have forgiven him. But letting Hasu get kidnapped and possibly molested by my ex-boyfriend and his former cell mate? When he knew and had known for a while that we were being targeted and had kept everything to himself? I couldn’t forgive that. I wouldn’t. After a moment I realized Sora had led me back to the couch and made me sit down. Hasu laid his head over on my knee, his brown eyes somber as he glanced up at me. “Ryuu . . . I’m okay. He didn’t-he didn’t do what you think. Please don’t be mad at Kenta he came to-” “Guys, Kenta got arrested.” Reiko burst into the apartment startling me. I hadn’t realized she’d left. She slammed the door behind her and took a deep breath. “Naoki named him as an accomplice. The cops picked him up at his apartment and he’s in jail now.” “They can’t do that!” I jumped started by Hasu’s outburst. “Sora we have to leave right now. Reiko where is the station. God damn it get up! We have to go now!” I blinked a few times never having seen Hasu in such a state before. He was on his feet, the bruising livid against his pale skin, but his eyes were sharp and dared any of us to disagree with him. Sora and I looked at each other. I shrugged, not sure what else to do. Hasu never demanded anything. Except food. We arrived at the police station about half an hour later. I hung back as the others headed in, Hasu in the lead. Sora was right behind Hasu, but kept looking back at me as if he wasn’t sure who he should stay with. I waved him on. I wasn’t sure if I was ready to face Kenta yet or not. “Ryuu, come on.” Reiko took my arm, gently pulling me forward. “I think you need to hear what Hasu has to say.” In the end none of us got to hear what Hasu told the detectives. They took him to a private room. We sat outside the station on the steps, none of us really talking for the hour he was gone. Sora was the first to see him when he came out. “Hasu! How did it . . . Kenta?” I got up turning to see Kenta standing behind Hasu. A stab of pain shot through me seeing him bandaged and bloody. Though that wasn’t what really caught my attention. He wouldn’t look at us. His eyes focused on the ground. Hasu on the other hand was beaming. “I told them everything that happened. They had to let Kenta go because he didn’t have anything to do with it. In fact Rame tried to-“ Hasu stopped looking back at Kenta who had put a hand on his shoulder. He shook his head slightly and Hasu nodded. “Anyway, we can go home now! Everything is better . . . right?” Hasu was looking at me. I started up the stairs and stopped in front of him and Kenta. Kenta didn’t even look up. It irritated me. He’d gone and been his usual bull headed self and it had gotten all of us hurt. “Kenta.” He finally raised his head, our eyes meeting. The pain in them was raw and it would have been easy to let it sway my decision except that Hasu was right there, bruises and all. No it was too late. “You are fired.”

*** I left the hospital the next morning with a bag of meds and instructions to not lift anything over ten pounds. Ryuu hadn’t come to see me and not a single person had called or texted me. Looking up at the clear blue sky, the cool November breeze seemed to chill me to the bone. People were coming and going, but I might as well have been part of the scenery for all the attention anyone paid. Fuck, what the hell was wrong with me. I needed to just go home. I had a sudden mental image of Reiko and her telling me never to come back. I must have stumbled or something cause someone grabbed my arm and asked if I was alright. I nodded, trying to say thanks, but nothing came out. I really needed to fucking snap out of it. Ryuu’s apartment wasn’t my home, even if had started to feel like it. I took the bus to my old neighborhood. I got off at the usual stop and stood there for a long moment. Turning away from the stree, I looked up the hill. The neighborhood was even more run down than I remembered, that or I’d gotten too used to luxury penthouses. Though even the neighborhood my apartment was in looked better than this. Businesses were boarded up and abandoned. Trudging up the hill, I kicked trash out of my way. Stopping a narrow alley between two buildings I stared down it. This was it. The path I’d used to take home from middle school. It was dirty and dark just like I remembered, just with more graffiti and a stronger shit smell. I felt like I was walking down a tunnel that was slowly dragging me into the past. Stopping at the narrow crumbling steps that led down to the entry to the abandoned building I tried to decide if this was a good idea. My past was ripping my life apart at the moment . . . did really want to visit the place I’d lost everything once before? Fuck it. I hadn’t been back since that day five years ago. Might as well see if anything was still there. Though doubted it. The door was gone, that didn’t surprise me. What did surprise me was that nothing had been touched. The furniture, what little we’d had, was still sitting around the tiny apartment. I stood in the doorway for a while trying to convince myself that I shouldn’t go inside. I did anyway. It was a mistake. They had never cleaned it. Once I got inside the dark stain on the floor was clearly visible and my stomach twisted up into a hard knot. If I closed my eyes I could see her laying there. Face down on the floor, her clothes torn and bloody. She looked even smaller and more fragile dead. “Ayame . . .” The sound of my voice startled me. Turning around I walked back out. I had to fix things with Ryuu. I had to do something. No fucking way I was gonna to let those fuckers get away with hurting Hasu and going after Ryuu. This time I wasn’t going to fail. I’d die first. My phone rang, making me jump. I glared at the name on the screen. What did that bitch want? To cuss me out more for fucking up and getting my ass beat? “What is it Kurosaki?” There was a soft sigh from the other end, “Kenta . . . I-I’m sorry. I shouldn't have assumed you were cheating on Ryuu but you got to look at it how it looked like, especially to us. You lied about where you were and who you were with and to top it off you made Ryuu cry. That's- That's not why I called though." Taking a breath, she let it out, her voice quivering slightly as she spoke, "Rame got away. He-he's basically on the loose now. The boys are going to Akira's where Jiro is and Hayate and Isao are going there to keep an eye on them till he’s caught. Kenta- I- . . . You need to explain yourself to Ryuu. He loves you, he really does and me being protective won't stop him so make up with him, fix this. . . please." I didn't say anything, thinking about what she'd said. Rame was one unforgiving bastard. He’d never stop harassing me as long as both of us were still alive. I sighed, rubbing a hand across my forehead. If I'd just told Reiko what was going on I would have had the whole picture right off. I’d just been so scared that Ryuu would panic knowing that someone was stalking the band. I should have just risked Ryuu's hysterics and told them. It wasn't worth all this pain. Hearing Reiko say my name I looked down, clearing my throat so I could speak. "I'll see what I can do." Shutting the phone I glanced back at the apartment building. If Rame was out there, I would find him. No one hurt the people I loved and lived to regret it.

wah i love ur tatoo....and you so cute.. and this is mine..i like that winter cloth hehehe

Okane ga Nai / No money OVAs Title: No Money / Okane ga Nai Genre: yaoi Year Published: 2007 Type: OVA No. of Episodes: 4 Duration: 25 min / ep Plot: Yukiya Ayase is a university student. His cousin Tetsuo Ishii betrays and sells him in an auction to settle his heavy debts. Ayase is bought by Somuku Kanou for 120 million yen. Kanou does this because he remembers Ayase from four years ago, when Ayase, a stranger, helped him. Now Kanou wants to keep Ayase close to himself, and uses the debt of 120 million yen to force Ayase to live with him. As Ayase is still a student and does not have a job, he is forced to sell his body to Kanou for 500,000 yen each time they have sex. FORMAT: RMVB Watch Okane Ga Nai OVAs 1-4 + Extras 1-4 Online (HD Quality): Okane Ga Nai OVAs 1-4 + Extras 1-4 Online Download Okane ga Nai OVAs: OVA 1 OVA 2 OVA 3 OVA 4 Mirror link: OVA 2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Wild Fangs Manga ALT. names: ワイルドファングス Original run: 2006 Description: Mao, who has a rare bloodline of a beast, has gone on a journey to find the "Master" he has never seen. He then meets Syon, a bounty hunter... Manga-type: Manga Written by: Yamagishi Hokuto Drawn by: Yamagishi Hokuto Published by: Gentousha Group(s) Scanlating: Nakama Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Adventure, Drama, Fantasy,Romance, Yaoi Categories: Drama, Bestiality Main Characters: Mao, Syon Adaptations available: - Related Series: Wild Rose (Sequel) Recommendations: http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/7213-crimson-spell-by-yamada-yugi-%5Beng%5D Read Wild Fangs Online: Wild Fangs Original name: Wild Rose Manga ALT. names: ワイルドローズ Original run: 2007 Description: The sequel to Wild Fangs, this chronological prequel follows Mao's brother Kiri's and his master's backstory. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Yamagishi Hokuto Drawn by: Yamagishi Hokuto Published by: Gentosha Group(s) Scanlating: Nakama Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Adventure, Drama, Fantasy Romance, Yaoi Categories: Drama, Bestiality, Master-Slave Main Characters: Kiri, Mikhail Adaptations available: - Related Series: Wild Fangs (Prequel), Wild Wind (Sequel) Recommendations: - Read Wild Rose Online: Wild Rose Original name: Wild Wind Manga ALT. names: ワイルドウインド Original run: 2008 Description: From Nakama: Long ago in a distant land, when the heavens ruled the earth, the two of them met by a trick of destiny... Called the “Wise man of the woods” and given much respect by the villagers, ********* of heaven Olgrius is searching for the origin of the incessant outbreak of storms. Then a villager, speaking riddles of an attacking beast, appears. The being that Olgrius sees when he returns to the scene of the crime is a savage beast fallen from heaven. But the beast differs from the rumors—he touches Olgrius gently, and protects him from danger...!? Manga-type: Manga Written by: Yamagishi Hokuto Drawn by: Yamagishi Hokuto Published by: Gentosha Group(s) Scanlating: Nakama Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Adventure, Drama, Fantasy, Romance, Yaoi Categories: Drama, Bestiality Main Characters: Olgrius, Shui Adaptations available: - Related Series: Wild Rose (Prequel) Recommendations: - Read Wild Wind Online: Wild Wind Download Wild Series: New Download Links Wild Wind Link Wild Rose Link Wild Fangs Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

REN AI SHINDAN STORY 4 (engsub) Name: Ren ai Shindan - Unmei no Kodou Country: Japan Summary: Kei, a doctor, nearly drowned while swimming in the pool until Kanade, a young lifeguard, noticed and rescued him. Soon after, Kanade is diagnosed with terminal heart disease. Kei tried to learn from this console. However, because Kanade did not want his pity , he tried to leave Kei. When an incident occurred at the hospital, all the responsibility fell on Kei. The hospital director threatened him that he wouldn't accept Kanade if both were still seeing each other. Because the hospital was the only option to recover Kanade, Kei had to finish with him.But fate has its ways ... T_T A beautiful story, It's really touching. Watch Ren Ai Shindan - Unmei no Kodou Online: Ren Ai Shindan - Unmei no Kodou Download Ren Ai Shindan - Unmei no Kodou BL Movie: (4shared, thanks to chiakaiyuki) [Episode 1] [Episode 2] [Episode 3] Download (Depositfiles): Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Subtitles (Depositfiles): Sub 1 Sub 2 Sub 3 Subtitles (MF): Sub 1 Sub 2 Sub 3 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Original name: ミューズの学園で逢おう Manga ALT. names: Let's Meet at the Campus of Muses, Muse no Gakuen de Aou, School of the muse, See You in the School of the Muse, Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Original run: 2007 Description: Outstanding student of Misonoi Campus Tadafumi Hanai of has to tutor Still's lead member Ohtsuki Yuu, who is Hanai-kun's schoolmate. A scholar vs a star! Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Tateno Makoto Drawn by: Tateno Makoto Published by: Animate USA, Libre Shuppan Group(s) Scanlating: Countless Time Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: Only up to volume 2 Genres: School Life, Yaoi Categories: Jelaous Lover; Teacher-Student Main Characters: Tadafumi Hanai, Ohtsuki Yuu Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Futeki ni Romance, Koakuma no Sanctuary, Heart ni Goyoujin, Acid Flower Read Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Online: Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Download Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Manga: Volume 1- Mediafire , Megaupload Volume 2- Mediafire , Megaupload For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Ever done something that you want to confess about? Something you regret or something thats weighing on your conscious? Confess it here lol My confession: I made out with a guy and a girl at the same night once Lol and i liked it , i feel bad. Also i got so drunk once and i felt so sick i vomited into my neighbors mailbox LOOL ^^ What the fuck did you do? Confess

Boys Love Theatrical Edition Mediafire Megaupload Size: 63Mb Pwd: redspiderlily

Synopsis The story takes place in Seoul, 2011. Lee Yoon Sung is a talented MIT-graduate who’s working on the international communications team at the Blue House. He encounters dangerous situations while solving a variety of cases, both big and small, for people who need his help, and eventually becomes a “city hunter.” cast Lee Min Ho as Lee Yoon Sung Park Min Young as Kim Na Na Lee Joon Hyuk as Kim Young Jo Hwang Sun Hee as Jin Soo Hee Goo Ha Ra as Choi Da Hye City Hunter Trailer ... [video=youtube;j5Dk-0W3tTk]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=j5Dk-0W3tTk&feature=related For Lee Min Ho Fan ..Enjoy The Drama :leaf12:

Summary: What happens when Nagasaku, the president of the most popular cafe "Lotus" and Kouzuki, the number #1 host of the most popular club "Adonis" wanted to rent the same 2 million yen lavish apartment in the exclusive King's Hill? Room share, of course! Two unlikely roommates agreed to co-habitate the same apartment with very strict conditions. Will this arrangement really work out between these two semes...?

I'll post my poems in here . My Heart Breaks . My heart breaks again today , Why did you have to go away , They say it gets easier with time , But you keep flooding my mind , I wish we could go back to yesterday , There is so much I long to say, I want to see you smile on more time , And watch you shine , My heart breaks again today, The tears just wont go away , It is always this way, Till April leaves for May, They say it gets easier with time , But your always on my mind , There is so much I long to say, I should have told you everyday , Just how much you meant to me , My heart breaks again today , I wish you never had to go away, The say it gets easier with time , But you are a very dear friend of mine, I wish we could go back to yesterday, So I'd have no regrets today, I want to see you one more time , And watch you shine , I miss you , My dear friend of mine . My heart breaks again today, There's just so much left to say. _____________________________________________ Here comes this feeling again. Here comes this feeling again, Bringing me down, Dragging me under, Taking me away further, I try to stop but I cant, Try to hold out , But its hard, I'm going down, I'm going under, Suffocating, Going down down down , Going under , Here comes this feeling again, Bringing me down , Dragging me under , Is there any hope for me , Maybe I'm just not as strong as I used to be , Is there a island in this sea , Can anyone save me , I'm going down, I'm going under, Suffercating, Going down down down , Going under , Here comes this feeling again, Bringing me down , Dragging me under , The sun slips away , And the night is here to stay , Im going down , Im going under , Slipping into a forever slumber , I'm going down, I'm going under, Suffocating, Going down down down , Going under , Here comes this feeling again, Down and down I fall , I'm suffocating , I'm drowning, Can you be the one to set me free , Because Im not the strong person I used to be , Not sure if I can make it , How long must I take it , Living while drowing , Please just let me breathe , I'm suffocating , I'm drowning, I reach out one last time . _________________________________ Poison. You are poison , You enter my mind , Making me lose feeling and time , You slip away for awhile , Just enough till I can finally smile, You make me anxious , You make me restless , You make me helpless , I try to fight you , But I can't , Your always in the background, My heart is a battleground , You are poison, You steal my happiness , And make it worthless , Lifetime of memories , Up for the remaking , Don't cry , Be strong , I tell myself , Days sometimes go by , And I say I have won this time , But how long can it last , Your die is cast , You are poison, You slip into my mind , Making me lose feeling and time , You make me anxious, You make me restless, You make me helpless , You are poison , My mind is poison , But the sun will rise tomorrow , And I live on to fight another day, You are poison , But I will overcome you one day. ______________________________________ As time passes by. As time passes by, I feel myself slipping away, I try to hold on to my last string of strength , But its just to far out of reach , The days are getting slower , And I feel myself getting colder , A shadow of myself passes by , Taking with it all my dreams , As time passes by , I feel myself slipping away , Where is my strength , Why is it out reach , If I kick and scream , Will anyone hear me , A shadow of myself passes by, And all I can do is cry , As time passes by , I feel myself slipping away , I try to hold on to my last string of strength , But its just to far out of reach, And thats when you found me , You smile and offer your strength , I hold on and reach , And find a reason to breathe , A shadow of myself passes by , But you tell me not to cry , Together we will find the new me , As time passes by , Sometimes I want to slip away , But you tell me it will be ok , When I lose my strength , I know you will be in reach, When the days get slower , And I find myself colder , You lend a shoulder , A shadow of myself passes by , I miss her I won't deny , But I don't mind since your by my side, Thank you, For giving me a reason to breathe, With you once again I can dream.

This is probably one of my very favorites of yours so far. It has this surreal feel to it, that is definitely dream-like. Bloodstained hands, Tear filled eyes Hidden truth Revealing disguise This stanza caught me and I was totally hooked. Love the juxtaposition of the 'reavealing disguise'. Just brilliant.

Another cool drawing with G & C I like it a lot!

Lmao brohne i eat icecream like that to tease people, i always lick my lips and things like that ) I like to tease people:leaf5: Also i fall asleep everywhere rabbit6 At school, I often sleep during English class. I fell asleep in the bus, I slept during a rock concert LOOL I fell asleep at the beach, on the street in the park LOOL :cuteonion53::8onion73:

At school, I often sleep during English class. I fell asleep in the bus, I slept during a rock concert LOOL I fell asleep at the beach, on the street in the park LOOL Maybe i should post this under bad habits too? )

CHapter 16 of S-CONSCIOUS is up! http://nezumidoll.livejournal.com/9559.html

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While we're working, I keep having these *ahem* weird thoughts about us doing .... stuff. I tried to stop it but it's so hard 'cause my co-worker's so gorgeous !! In the end I told him I like him and up to this day, he's still not giving me an answer :|

I like guys and girls too but there was this one girl that I used to really like named Tiana and me and her.... did a few things together lol. Well, I really liked her and I thought she liked me back but it turned out she was just pretending to so she could get with my ex-boyfriend.... I regret wasting my time with her T_T

Sometimes I let people think I'm a boy cause it amuses me. Plus I think they believe a girl can't write good gay romance. Romance is romance, ne? Just the parts are different. lol

lol. Thats a secret 8)

Riku (25) 180cm singer character own by aoi

im grounded lol

thank you!!! it helped me with my error problem!! ^^ thanks a lot!

Thank You Kaoru some more old ones . Two poems but they go together . Where were you ? Where were you when I was all alone , When they stomped all over my name , As I lay shaken in my shame , All I can remember is the pain , Where were you , When I fell to pieces , Crying out for help , Where are you , The darkness is reaching out for me , Whispering my name , I'll never be the same , You promised you would never leave me , I watch helplessly as my mind slips away , Never before have I felt so alone , Where were you , When my world fell apart , When I lost my heart , My hands grip the rails of this old bridge , Where are you as I look into the crashing waves , Trying to find a answer , To why I excist , I try hard to remember what you said , But there's too many voices in my head , Where are you , My dear friend as I raise my hands, And sail through the sky , Embracing the waves below , Where were you when my world fell apart ? ======================== I was there . Where were you , When I fell to pieces , I never left your side , I too fell to shame but I took it into stride , I held you when you cried for hours on end , Even when you said I wasn't a real friend , Why cant you see me , As your mind sprials out of control , I scream your name but you can no longer hear me , Didn't you think my world would fall apart , When you lost your heart , I beg you to stay even now you cry out my name , I fall to pieces as I watch you helplessly sail through the sky , A moment to late and you throw away your fate , I wanted to tell you don't need a reason to exist , Just embrace the good things in life , That we can make it through all this strife , Where are you as I watch them carry your body away , As I lay flowers on your grave , Where are you as your Mother screams out , As I lock my feelings inside , I can't help but think you could be by my side , I was there when your world fell apart , But where were you when you broke my heart ? _________________________________________ Wind The wind stole all the words I meant to say , As I laid the roses on your grave , There was so much I wanted to say, But I stood there speechless, As I looked on helpless, I'll always remember the day we met, And the day we last spoke , If I could turn back time , I would, to see you one more time , The rain stole all of my tears , As I laid beside your grave , I believe you knew what I wanted to say, But I lay there speechless, I never felt so helpless, I'll always remember you , The pain wont stop because I can't forget you, The wind stole all the words I meant to say, As I laid the roses on your grave , But I swear I heard you whisper in my ear "Everything will be ok " . ______________________________________________ Without You. My tears are calling you, Without you I don't know what to do , I wish I had another chance to tell you how much I love you, Stolen from this world , There's only so much pain I can hold , You fell from life's fold, I want to see you face , And behold your grace , It just not the same without you here in this place, My tears are calling you , Without you life doesn't feel like its supposed to, The only thing I can do is never forget you, Stolen from this world, I wonder how many more stories will be left untold, Of the boy who touched everyone he could behold, You will never know what its like to become old , I wan't to see your face, And be in your grace, But no matter how many tears I cry , Or the pain that fills me up inside , I know from the bottom of my heart that you are in a better place. _________________________________________ Its Your Birthday Its your birthday, And I long to smile , But all my tears fill up like the Nile , I promised myself this year I would be strong , But its just another sad song , And everytime it seems to go wrong, But.... Its you birthday, So I'll ice the cake, With all my love that I can take, I'll add another candle , To the life you should have had , And try my best not to be sad , Its your birthday , So I'll try to smile , Beacuse that was always your style , So I need to be strong, You are where you belong, Even if it sometimes feels like it is wrong , But.... Its you birthday, So I'll ice the cake, With all my love that I can take, I'll add another candle , To the life you should have had , And try my best not to be sad , Because your memory still lives inside my head, And I'll always treasure what you said , Its your birthday, So I will smile , Even if my tears fill the Nile, I will be strong , So it will be a happy song , Doing anything else would just be wrong, Happy Birthday. Michael Yves Corpuz July 3 1988 - April 27 2007 Where were you and I was there is based on emotions I have dealt with in the past both sides . The poems are just stories a way to think things out . Wind,Without You and It's your birthday I wrote dealing with the loss of my friend . The first two made in 2007 the last in 2009 .

Oh, this is really bad, but I tend to keep my silence, or not to talk at school, and the reason? Because it is English (not my native language), talking is tiring (sometimes), I don't feel the necessity to do so and I'd rather read manga. My classmates know about this (because they asked me, telling me I speak rarely but when I do, I talk a lot XD)

. .supah like this :leaf12: . .so pretty

this was the image i want to view and share.

I made a video installation guide, you can check it out here: Miracle No-ton Video Installation Guide