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AUTHOR NOTES: As promised, here is another continuation of the Pureness arc. My fanfic lovingly and solely devoted to the romance of Misu Arata and Shingyouji Kanemitsu. This is dedicated to my dear friend June (last_sky16) whose uber enthusiastic love for the pairing has further inspired me to write this fic. And to each and every Takumi-kun fan in this forum and those who have read my previous works, my heart is filled with immense joy of your support and love. Thank you so much for staying with me. I have cried a lot writing this story and it was quite challenging. This has been an emotional ride for me as well. I hope you enjoy reading and leave me your comments and questions, I would greatly appreciate them. To set the mood, allow me to share these wonderful images To Be Near You The story so far: This story takes us back to Misu and Shingyouji in Shidou. A life-changing event is about to take place that will put our heroes in a situation they have never encountered before. Math hasn't always been Shingyouji's favorite subject. If things were up to him, he would have preferred kendo more than anything. If Math was in a dojo with him, he would have easily smacked its sorry ass to kingdom come and that would be the end of it. But then he remembered how Arata-san would pour his time at the executive room doing all those innumerable calculations. If I could only be as dedicated as Arata-san then perhaps even this way I can reach his level and be closer to him somehow. Shingyouji smiled at the thought and adjusted himself on his seat and straightened his back to help him focus more towards the teacher. Class was momentarily interrupted when the PA system announced: SHINGYOUJI KANEMITSU, YOU HAVE A PHONE CALL. As he walked towards the hallway, he couldn't help but wonder who would call him in class at this very hour. Maybe Arata-san wanted to check up on me. He almost laughed out loud at the very thought of the senior student wanting to call him. Misu along with the rest Student Council members along with Saki Giichi and Akaike Shozo were on their way back to Shidou from a three-day academic retreat. “Shingyouji desu. Moshi moshi?” He chirped. “Shingyouji-chan...?” Came the filtered reply. “Aaah! Obaa-chan! (grandma) How nice of you to call. I wasn't expecting this at all. How are you doing? Everything all right with you I hope. I miss you, you know.” Shingyouji clearly adored his grandmother. She was the kindest and most loving person in his family. He was always especially close to her since he was a young kid. She was always very proud of her beloved grandson. “Shingyouji-chan...I'm so sorry to call you at such a time. Now I need you to listen to me very carefully, okay?” “Hai.” A long pause. A sniffle. “Obaa-chan...what's going on? Are you alright?” Now Shingyouji was worried. It was surprising enough that of all people who would call him in school was his grandmother and the long pause and the sniffle only aggravated his worry. “Shingyouji-chan...” His grandmother sounded like she had been crying for days. Her voice was a bit hoarse. “Your mother and father....I'm so sorry, my love.” “Eh? What happened to my parents?” Shingyouji's eyes rounded. Panic was setting in but he fought to remain as calm as possible and braced himself for her reply. “The divorce has been finalized. You have to come home as soon as possible.” Her voice broke. Shingyouji felt like the entire room was spinning. His lips began to quiver. He could barely focus his eyes. But his hands held onto the phone very tightly. “Shingyouji-chan...are you still there?” It took several seconds before Shingyouji was snapped back into reality. “I'm still here. Alright...I'll pack my bags and take the bus.” He replied slowly. “I need you to stay calm, my darling. Now which of your teacher should I talk to regarding this matter?” “Anou...I think I'll be the one to talk to them.” “No. I will handle the talking. You just go and pack your things. I am not sure for how long you will need to be away from school. For all we know it could only be a few days or perhaps a little more...what's important is that you come home as soon as you can.” “I understand.” “Shingyouji-chan...I am so sorry to have been the bearer of this news. No matter what happens, your obaa-chan loves you. Be safe on your way home. Now tell me which of your teachers should I be talking to?” _ _ _ _ _ _ Misu Arata felt a sense of relief as the mini van they were riding entered the gates of Shidou Academy. Their debate team won but it did wore them out. Saki has been massaging his forehead all throughout the trip. Shozo was nodding off to sleep. The other members of the team in the van looked restless and fatigued. They couldn't wait to jump out of the van and get into the dorms. The image of a certain sophomore greeting him with a wide toothy bunny smile suddenly popped in his mind. He can imagine him pestering him endlessly with questions and probably even ask for a present. What an idiot. Misu's eyes softened and a small smile escaped his lips. But what he really craved now was to lay on his bed and try to get much needed rest. He can always talk to Shingyouji tomorrow and give him his present. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ “Misu? I could stay around with you if you like.” A hopeful Ooji asked him. There were only the two of them and much to his relief the noisy Shingyouji has not been making his habitual visits to the Excecutive Room for a week since they arrived from the trip. Misu frowned at the paperwork in his hands. For the life of him he was struggling to concentrate at the task at hand. He had made several mistakes with the calculations of the expenses during the three-day trip. The added frustration of not hearing a single word from Shingyouji was getting the better of him and it annoyed him even more. All he was ever told by Matsumoto-sensei that Shingyouji received a sudden call from home and had to leave within the day. He pressed for further details but that was just about the only information he was given. Apprently, some of the students who caught a glimpse of Shingyouji reported that he looked very shaken and distraught. But he barely spoke a word to anyone and some have seen him carrying a large backpack as he left the school that night. “Misu?” Ooji looked at him with concern. “What is it?” Misu snapped realizing he wasn't alone in his thoughts. Every time the door opened, he found himself frowning more to look up and see who it was. But Shingyouji never came. He didn't expect that he would actually look forward to the enthusiastic greeting of the younger boy. “I can stay with you if you like. As long as you need me to.” Ooji replied gently. Misu gave him a quick glance and returned to his paperwork. “No. I'm fine. You can go now. I'll handle the rest of this paperwork.” “But...” Ooji began to protest. Misu looked straight at him and handed him three folders. “These will need to go to Shimada-sensei. I'll be leaving soon anyway. There's no need for you to stick around with me.” Ooji looked dejectedly at the folders in his hand but he had no choice but to follow Misu's instructions and quietly left the Executive Room. It always seemed to be this way. Misu looked fatigued and he had been rather in a foul mood and sometimes distracted. But he was willing to overlook that. He tried to stay attached to Misu as much as possible during the academic retreat but he felt like he was trying too hard. Misu only talked to him on a need to know basis. He fervently hoped it was his chance to get to know Misu a whole lot more but the three-day event ended and still Misu treated him nothing more than just a classmate. It must be that damn Shingyouji again. Damn noisy brat. He was seething. What did that guy know? Always so clingy to Misu. Always following him around. Not giving him peace. Always so annoying. Doesn't he realize that Misu does not like him around? That he's only tolerating his presence. Whenever he shows up, I get to be kicked out of the room. And that brat isn't here, why am I still being kicked out of the room? I hate this! Misu popped a headache pill and an iron tablet and downed it with the cold water bottle. He irritatedly moved the rest of the paperwork aside and rested his face on the cold oak table. Damn it! IT'S BEEN A WEEK ALREADY! And I haven't heard anything from that idiot. Not even a damn call. Nothing. Misu wondered whose neck was he going to break so they would tell him exactly what happened to Shingyouji who decided to take off just like that. But the memory of that day was creeping into his brain again. I could have done something that time. He sighed deeply. He hadn't been able to get any proper rest that fateful evening reflecting on Shingyouji's face. He skipped breakfast the very next morning and dropped by Shingyouji's room only to be greeted by his bleary-eyed roommate Nowaki who was absolutely clueless as to where Shingyouji was. Looking at Shingyouji's empty bed and empty side table, Misu felt a sickening feeling rising up in his chest. Shingyouji was really gone and he didn't even say goodbye. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

Misu rubbed his eyes and stretched himself on the grassy bed. He looked up at the clear blue sky. He savored these moments where he can be alone in his thoughts and there were no students around to bother him. It was getting late in the afternoon. He felt it was better to do his reading at the school grounds instead of being cooped in the library for hours. Here in the outdoor where he could breathe the fresh air and enjoy the shade the trees provided. The 15-minute nap surely was rejuvenating. He sat up and gathered his books and notebooks and stashed them in his leather bag. As he walked back towards the dormitory, he suddenly developed a craving for something sweet. Chocolate. Maybe the cafeteria had some but stopped himself. The thought of chocolate reminded him of a memory he didn't want to be reminded of. What was the point of it anyway? It's not like he's ever coming back. Who cares what happens to you? I hope I don't ever see you again or else I might as well beat you up. You stupid idiot! What the hell is wrong with me? Forget the damn chocolate. I think I'll have some coffee instead. But he quickly dismissed the thought again. What used to be a pleasureable relaxing time for him to enjoy a cup of coffee in the cafeteria was proving to be a pain now. Coffee also reminded him of Shingyouji. Shingyouji slurping his tempura soba while he drank his coffee. The first time they ever shared a table together. The time Shingyouji suddenly confessed to him. Everything happened in that damn cafeteria. Damn it! Misu decided to return to his room instead so he could put his bag away. Maybe a slice of pastry would be better. He was still craving for something sweet though. Or maybe a glass of iced tea or a can of soda. Why did he feel so jittery all of a sudden? Weird. As he turned the door knob, he noticed it wasn't locked. Wait a second, I remember locking this or didn't I? But he shrugged the thought. Tsk, it's not like there's anything interesting in this room anyway. As the door opened, the sight before him caused him to drop his bag on the floor. No words came out of Misu's lips. Right before him, a sleeping Shingyouji occupied his bed. Misu's heart was loudly beating he felt thought he would grow deaf from it. He carefully pulled his chair to sit beside the bed. The quiet longing, frustration, stress and loneliness draining away now replaced by growing relief and gratefulness. He noticed Shingyouji's bangs were fuller and covered a part of his face. He looked so peaceful just sleeping right there. He had imagined so many scenerios how they would be reunited but none of them came close to how good this one felt. Judging from the large backpack at the corner of the room, he felt his heart swell with the knowledge that it was him that Shingyouji sought to see first before anyone else. The urge to touch him again was overpowering his senses. Oh how many times he had wanted to punch Shingyouji out of madness and shake him violently for suddenly leaving like that but none of those feelings came over him at this very moment. Shingyouji would never leave him for some flimsy reason. They've been through so much in the past but none of them warranted for him to leave for so long. There has got to be a much deeper reason why he would leave. Misu closed his eyes and remembered that fateful night again when he brushed him off when all he wanted so desperately to talk to him. I could have had my answers that time. And if I did, would I have still let him go? He did not expect the magnitude of the loneliness he felt when he was gone. A month may seem so short for some people but Shingyouji always remained close to him. Always made every effort to follow him. And though Misu seemingly rejected him outwardly, he was always incredibly touched by the devotion the young man lavished upon him. He missed him so much it really hurt. A month without a word from him was torture. It made him weak. It made him mad at himself. Did he really deserve Shingyouji's love when he was so selfish? But Misu loved him, oh he really did. He knew he will always love him in his own way. He felt his heart skip as he watched Shingyouji rubbed the side of his cheek on the soft pillow. A satisfied smile etched on his lips. His tired eyes slowly moving and lazily opening only to close again. Misu just kept staring at him curiously and smiled. Shingyouji began to move again only this time he stretched his arms and yawned. He slowly opened his eyes to adjust his vision. His eyes widening for right beside him was Misu watching him. He immediately sat up from the bed. His cheeks were red with embarassment. The last person he wanted to see him catch in this position was Misu. He shyly looked back at him to assess if Misu didn't look annoyed at him. But Misu's smile never left his face. Shingyouji felt a deep sense of warmth coming over him. This smile meant just for him. “Arata-san...tadaima...” Shingyouji was first to break the stillness of the room. “Okaeri, Shingyouji.” Misu stood from his chair and sat beside Shingyouji and just looking at his face. He felt a sudden need to get close to him. His fingers slowly touching the side of his face. Shingyouji's eyes turned misty from his touch and immediately lunged himself into Misu's arms tightly. He felt Misu's arms around him. A hand slowly rubbing his back as if to comfort him. He nuzzled to his neck and inhaled Misu's scent which was a nice mix of his favorite cologne and fresh cut grass. Oh how he loved his scent. Oh how he missed this scent. It never ceased to turn him on and comforted. Misu closed his eyes and pulled him even closer to him. He planted a light kiss on the side of his neck which sent shivers to the younger man. It felt so good to have him in his arms again. So close. Just the two of them in the room basking in the reunion of their hearts. So many, many questions he wanted to ask Shingyouji but he could not find it in himself to ask them now. He didn't want to think. He just wanted to feel. Want. Need. Desire. Misu released him slowly from his arms and put both of his palms on the sides of Shingyouji's face. He could see that the other man wanted him too. The undeniable desire in his eyes. To feel. To touch. To hold. To be possessed by him and only him. “I am so in love with you.” Shingyouji breathed. That was all it took and they completely immersed in heated excited passion. He stradled Shingyouji onto the bed and began to take off his shirt off as Shingyouji fumbled with the buttons of Misu's shirt. Misu smirked and stopped his fingers and he unbuttoned his shirt himself and flung them to the side of the bed. “You want me?” Misu teased. His voice heavily laden with lust and want. “Always.” Shingyouji could only manage to moan in response. To feel Misu's skin on top of him again was all he ever dreamt of. As their lips touched, Shingyouji felt he was truly home again. This is what he always wanted. To be near him. To be just like this. To be his. Always. The deeper the kiss became, the ache he felt from their separation was ebbing away. A sweet tango of tongue, saliva and moist lips. Oh he loved kissing. He loved being kissed by Misu. No one can ever make him feel this way. To make him want another person so much as Misu did. Misu craved this taste. Was this the reason why felt so jittery earlier? Is this why he was craving for something sweet? Nothing was anything sweeter than this. Nothing could make him feel this good than holding him so close. Possessing him. Feeling this body surrender implicitly to his touch. It drove him mad with an even much stronger desire to posses him. To mark him. He didn't care anymore. Shingyouji was his and will always be. Their hands intertwined. Their noses touching. Their eyes glazed from passion. Shingyouji's cheeks were burning. His lips swollen from the searing kiss they just shared. Misu moved rhythmically on top of him. His legs gripping around Misu's hips. He could feel Misu's hand over his thigh and gripping them tightly to his side. It was all Shingyouji needed to keep himself from wildly trashing on the bed. He wanted to be restrained by Misu. Misu smirked in response as he watched the passion and want overpowering Shingyouji. He loved the fact that only he could get this response from him. Only he had the exclusive right and privelege to see this side of him. That only he could elicit this level of heightened lust from him. “Shingyouji...” “Yes? Arata-san...?” Shingyouji gasped. “I am never ever letting you go again. Ever.” _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Hayama and Gii returned from their date. But as he tried to open the door to his room, it would not budge. Did Misu just lock him out? A confused Hayama walked towards to Gii's room instead and knocked on his door. “Anou...Misu-kun's room is locked. He never locked me out before. Do you think he's annoyed that I'm back so late?” Gii pulled his lover to his room and closed the door behind them. “I got a very interesting report from Shouzo while we were out.” “Eh? Really? What's it about?” “I'll tell you all about it in the morning. I still have one more birthday present to give you tonight.” Gii whispered to his ear. Hayama blushed and smiled. ~~~~ Owari?! AFTERTALK: OMG! I'm shaking like a leaf here. Another story finished. Oh God..this wasn't easy at all. It's so hard to write and cry at the same time. I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now.

“Shingyouji-chan...would you like some tea?” “Hai.” Shingyouji smiled at his grandmother. So many things happened all at once and seemingly so fast around him. His parents' divorce have finalized and the court granted full custody to his mother. His mother decided to move out of their old apartment in the city. But Shingyouji begged that he would stay with his grandmother in the province after the divorce proceedings instead of having to choose which of his parents he will be living with for the meantime. A decision both parents reluctantly agreed. It wasn't long his father also moved to another part of the city leaving their old apartment vacant. Shingyouji loved both his parents very much. But having been a witness to their neverending quarrels even as a young child, he developed a deep sense of insecurity and instability. He enrolled in Shidou hoping to escape the trauma only to be dragged back to where it all began. All the hurt and despair enveloping him a thousand-fold. Worse, he missed Misu. But did Misu miss him? Did he even care? “You know I worry a lot when you get all quiet like that.” His grandmother watched him as she poured a cup of tea for both of them. “Oh..I'm sorry, obaa-chan. I'm just tired, I guess.” “I understand. A broken home is no home for any child. It's always the children that suffer the most in this kind of situation. But don't ever give up, my love. I may be old and using a cane but I can still protect you.” “I know. You've always been very good to me. Thank you for letting me stay with you.” He smiled. “You're my precious grandson, of course. You're the only one your late grandfather and I have. If it were up to me, I'd have taken you in myself so you don't have to put up with all this messy custody battle.” “Perhaps it would have been better that way.” His grandmother looked at him thoughtfully as Shingyouji took a sip of his cup of tea. “Whatever happens, always remember you are loved. By me. Your friends and even your parents. As troubled as they are, they do worry about you in their own way. And you stand by your decision to make a better life for yourself and your future. You will be a full-fledged adult in a few years. One day all this will become a memory for you and you take whatever lesson from it that you can use to improve your life.” Shingyouji put his cup down and looked around the living room. “You and grandfather have lived in this house for so many years. How did you manage to stay despite all the memories you have here? Doesn't it hurt? Did you ever want to leave?” “Your grandfather and I built this house with our hands. Every corner of this house is a remembrance of him. It's been a part of us. When your grandfather passed away, I thought I was going to lose my mind but I have this house. This is his memory for me. It doesn't always mean that just because two people are apart means that nothing binds them together. There will always be that place that holds memories of you both.” Shingyouji reflected on his grandmother's wise words. This is why he longed to escape his home which brought nothing but painful memories of his parents neverending arguments. Other than his grandparents' home, Shidou was the only home he longed to be. He was happy there. But now he wasn't sure anymore if he could ever return to that place where he spent two years of precious memories of his love. “I love you, obaachan. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for being there for me all this time.” He cried as he embraced his grandmother. “I know...I know. I love you too. I will always be on your side even when I'm gone from this world. Promise me, you will never ever give up on your happiness and fight for it. Don't let anyone tell you different.” “I promise.” _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ “Ah, Misu-kun!” Hayama greets him happily. Misu enters the room and sits on his bed. He notices Hayama's casual stylish attire and figured right away that he was going out on a date. “Where are you going?” “Eh? Anou...Gii said that there's this new movie he wanted to watch. Today is also my birthday so maybe it's nice to go out on a bright Sunday like this.” Hayama blushed. “Ah...sorry..I didn't know it was your birthday today.” Misu shook his head. Hayama chuckled. “Don't worry about it. It's not like I advertise it anyways. Don't you usually go out of town during Sundays?” “Not this time, I guess. I have some stuff to do.” “Try not to overwork yourself. This is what Sundays are for. You should take it easy sometimes.” “Hayama...I know I've been rather short-tempered lately. I really have a lot of things to deal with right now. Hope you understand.” Hayama notices Misu's sullen mood and he sits on the bed across him. “I understand. You don't need to explain yourself. It's been a month already and still no word from him. I miss him too.” Hayama looks at him sadly. He suddenly felt guilty for telling Misu he was going out with Gii. He hoped he didn't appear like he was showing off. He was genuinely worried about Misu and he really did miss his good friend Shingyouji. Misu clenched his jaw trying to keep his irritation in check. He knew exactly what Hayama meant. He also knew his roommate meant well but being reminded of that fact never sat well with him. “You better get going. I don't want Saki coming here to check on you.” Hayama nodded, stood up from the bed and headed for the door but just before he leaves, Misu calls out to him. “Hayama!” “Hai?” Hayama blinks. “Happy birthday. Have fun.” Misu gives him a small smile. Hayama flashes him a grateful smile and nods. “Thank you, Misu-kun. Try to take it easy today, okay? Ja ne!” Misu stood up and walked to his closet and pulled out a fresh change of clothes and a bath towel. He thought a good bath could somehow improve his mood. Having skipped breakfast again, he decided he'll take his brunch at the caferia after his bath. Do some reading at the library and study for the coming exams. To others what seemed like a Herculean effort of Misu to pour himself into studies and school council activities, for Misu it was only his means of getting rid of the void he felt. Redirecting his attention to school-related matters hopefully would stave off the ache in his heart. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

After the phone call, Shingyouji felt numb with fear and trepidation. He remained quiet while Matsumoto-sensei was talking to him in the conference room. The teacher was very concerned about him and though he appreciated it, he wanted so badly to get out of the room. There was only one person he had in mind that he believed strongly would calm him down. Just one person was all he needed desperately to see. If he saw him, everything would be fine. He'll face anything. He needed to be assured. He wanted so badly to see him. His first instinct was to proceed to Hayama's room and wait for him there. They should have been back by now, he thought. But the sudden vision of Hayama's worried face didn't sit well with him. It wasn't his face that he wanted to see right now. He wanted Misu. He only wanted him alone. And by sheer luck, he sees Misu who was walking along the hallway to the dorm building and all he could do was chase after him before he could enter the door. “Arata-san! Arata-san! Wait up!” Misu pretended not to hear and just kept walking towards the door. He was tired and he was in no mood to entertain the younger man. He felt a strong tug at his arm which irritated him but as he turned to look at the known offender, he was surprised at Shingyouji's flushed face. “Arata-san...we need to talk. Please. I don't know what to do.” Shingyouji was still gasping for air after the sprint he just did. “You could try letting my arm go because I am tired and whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. I really need some sleep.” “But...” “I said let go, Shingyouji!” But Shingyouji shook his head. All the protests that screamed in his head fell flat in his tongue. No words came out. That's not what he wanted to hear right now from Misu. He wanted him to listen even for awhile. But he sensed Misu's rising irritation in his eyes. He did look weary from travel. Yes, he needed sleep. Whatever it is, I'm sure it can wait. Shingyouji slowly released his hold on Misu's arm. “I'm sorry to bother you. You should go. You're right, this can wait.” Shingyouji bowed his head slightly and sat by the stairs. Misu studied him for a moment but his fatigue was getting the better of him. He'll be fine, he assured himself. I'm no use talking to anyone if I'm tired anyway. But as Misu climbed the stairs and entered his room. Hayama was nowhere in sight. Probably visited Saki's room no doubt, he thought. He realized that perhaps it wasn't too bad if he had stayed for a bit to talk to Shingyouji earlier. He looked like he was very disturbed about something. He was afraid of something. He looked desperate for some reason. But then he quickly dismissed those thoughts and laid on his bed. I'll just talk to him tomorrow at lunch time. Shingyouji remained in the stairs. He was grateful that the sun was about to set in the horizon. He was grateful that there weren't any students around to see him like this. The tears that he was trying to hide the whole time began to run down his cheeks. He felt so weak. Shingyouji buried his face in his hands and wiped the tears. He dreaded what awaits for him when he gets home. But he did miss his grandmother. He suddenly felt an overwhelming need to see her. To comfort her. She had been the only one who stood by his side. The only person he could go to when his parents fought. The only person who didn't mind his tears. The only person who could understand what he's going through. Oh God, I'm so scared. But he had no choice left. He headed to his room and started to pack his things and shoved them in his large backpack. His room mate was not in the room. It was better that way so he didn't arouse any suspicion. Shingyouji was in no mood to explain himself. The one person he wanted to be with right now didn't have the time for him. It was better this way. Leave the school quietly. Matsumoto-sensei has already called a cab for him since it would be too late for Shingyouji to catch a bus. “Matsumoto-sensei...arigatou..” Shingyouji bowed to his teacher who patted him on the shoulder. “Don't worry. This will be only be between me and your family. Your grandmother was very insistent to keep this matter private which I totally understand. I do hope you'll come back to Shidou soon. You take care of yourself, Shingyouji-kun.” As the cab drove past the school, Shingyouji leaned his head by the window and watched the row of lush pine trees that lined the long road. Memories started flooding back to him. His coming to Shidou for the first time. Meeting Misu for the first time. How much his life has changed since then. He vowed he would be stronger. He tried so hard. But in the end, he was all alone after all. I need you, Arata-san. I don't know what's going to happen to me when I go home. Will I ever come back to Shidou? Will I ever see you again? I just want to stay here by your side. Oh God..what am I saying? This is exactly what Arata-san hates. I'm such a crybaby. I'm still a brat. Damn it. So stupid to think I'm someone he could love. Maybe leaving Shidou isn't such a bad idea after all. Maybe he'll be relieved I'm gone. All I do is annoy him. It's all my fault these things are happening to me. He squeezed his eyes shut. He had a deep sense of foreboding of what's to come when he arrives home. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Three weeks have passed and still no word came from Shingyouji. Misu has reverted back to his old habits of skipping meals and overworking himself. Hayama watched his roommate collapse on the bed still wearing his uniform. It has become a typical scenario. He tried to encourage Misu to somehow watch his health at least but Misu only gave him a glare and told him to stay out of his business. It wasn't just Misu's bad habits that bothered Hayama...his attitude was getting worse as well. He was snappy. He was curt. He was cold. He was more distant. It worried him and it also scared him. Hayama had shared such matters with Gii but his lover simply warned him to stay out of it. He might have been lucky last time to get involved in Misu's way at Tanabata Day but he wasn't so confident now. Gii and Misu may not get along that well but Gii also knew that he didn't want that civility they shared would turn to hate just because Hayama was too sensitive of the affair between Misu and Shingyouji. He wished so badly that there was something more he could do. Shingyouji was a good friend of his and he worried for his friend. But they were all left at a standstill when he left. No one knew the true reason for it. So many speculations and rumors proliferated in Shidou, some plausible and some were just downright impossible. Gii and Misu who had very little to zero patience with rumors and wild speculations have tried in their own way to seek the truth but nothing came up with their search. Not even teachers would say anything. The one teacher they had hoped to help them was Matsumoto-sensei but even he could not be pressured to divulge anything. It was bad enough that Shingyouji didn't own a cell phone since his parents did not see the point in giving him one since he would be living in the school anyway. They did manage to acquire Shingyouji's home address but the number they called was already disconnected which made them suspect that the home address is no longer reliable either. Perhaps they have already moved. The possibility only made Misu worse than ever. He had been keeping much to himself and poured most of his time to school work and his duties at the Student Council. When he did have some free time, he was either at the library or sleeping. Consultations with him were now referred to Gii and Shouzo. Shouzo at one point confronted Misu regarding his workaholic state and distant behavior but Misu told him that since his academic standing was in no way suffering then the school had nothing to complain about him and neither should anyone. It was best that they just leave him be. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _

My native language is Korean... So... let said... 살아가면서 가장 힘들고 어려울 때 생각 나는 사람이 나이기를... 너에게 다시 일어설 힘이 되어 줄 수 있는 사람이 바로 나이기를... 언제나 네가 손 내미는 그 곳에 내가 있다는 걸 잊지마! I wish when you are in hard time the first person pop up in you mine should be me... I wish the person who give you strength to pull up from that hardship is me... Don't forget that I will alwasy be where you can reach when ever you need! Something like that... ^^;;;;; Everyone have a nice day!!! 모두 좋은 하루 되기를... ^^

Since I'm bored I might as well something odd about swedish (and I guess scandinavian culture)... Idag är det midsommarafton. Svenskar är udda, dansar runt en stor fallos och sjunger "små grodorna". Translation: Today it's midsummer eve. Swedish [people] are odd, dancing around a big fallos and sings "little frogs". I guess I have to show a video of it, so you guys see what I'm talking about... [video=youtube;Ut-tDvlSIU4]

2011/06/22 Fourth Stage Hello, everyone! The cast remains in the blue uniforms were moved to the fourth stage been set. Everyone casts and director on the stage for the fourth time, emerged with emotion of over warming that so many people came to see and cheer for the movie. Director Yokoi said, "The movie “That, sunny blue sky” was made by the voices of the fans got a lot of applause make me very happy. " Now they talk about a scene during a break in the greenhouse Hamao-kun playing with Lingling (cat in the movie) and he said with smile, "Kawaikatta ~(So cute~)!" For that host said with smile, "To me Mao-kun right now is cuter!" "I want to take that kitty with me." Hamao-kun said. "Mao-kun, I want to take you back with me(that is what she said I think)." said by host again, attack attack (laughs) It was little by little came out at all four stage about story behind the snooker tournament. First thing in the scene was the Akaika giving a description of snooker. There was a small mistake, Takiguchi-kun didn’t know that he had a line on description of snooker just before the shooting The camera was rolling, ‘Are(what)? Nothing to say?’ that was a atmosphere surrounding like that time. Frantically he had to memorizing line from there. Snooker rules are so hard, "I have a look that I know during explained, but I was the person who doesn’t know most." said Takiguchi-kun. Everyone was laughing. Next up are three things in a confrontation with Gii Snooker state(?). Actuary it was Baba-kun first time playing snooker. "Even I made the face like pro, but can’t even make a break to the balls" In the fourth stage Baba-kun was asked by host, “So could you do the snooker?" "How should I said I could or couldn’t, true is I just couldn’t do it at all!” That was he answered. (Laughs) He felt like a person who taught Snooker to him, "I could hear his heart saying." Takiguchi-kun asked, "What was it?" Baba said in Dylan’s(?) tone, "Oioi(Hey), what are you doing ~" For that even Baba-kun himself was laughing. So now is the scene of the break three states shot. The tense in the air and Baba-kun walk to the snooker table. Then he hit the lamp with his queue made a NG you can also see this in the making, Watanabe-kun said, "Please, try repeat that more times!” (Laughs) Tomorrow, "the preview of completion bonus" I will talk about little more about event.

Title: D.Nd : Poisoned ('Death Note' doujin game) Made by: Akane Story: Wammy's House is an orphanage ubicated at south of England. Brilliant orphans from around the world are gathered and trained to fulfill a purpose: Become copies of L, the greatest detective of the world.Living in a battlefield called everyday and trapped by his obsessive mind and his great intelligence, 14 years old boy whose allias is Mello struggles day after day to become number 1, always being surpassed by a boy who uses the name of Near.Mello's sick obsession to surpass his rival and become the best candidate to succeed L, aggravated by his troubled and addictive personality, have made Near become the center of his world. Though he sees this feeling as pure hatred and anger, the pale boy might mean more for Mello than he'd want to admit.When Roger decides to assign them both a project they must work in together, they might be able to discover the greatest mystery of their lives: Each other.However the chemical reaction as result of their relationship might not be the desired result Roger was looking for... Minimum System Requirements: MicrosoftR WindowsR 98/98SE/Me/XP/2000 PC with 800MHz IntelR PentiumR III equivalent or higher processor At least 128 MB of system RAM 1024x768 or better video resolution in High Color mode DirectSound-compatible sound card Download: Mediafire For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Sensei wa Dummy Drama CD Plot: Yunogi have no working experience, but after being tricked into thinking he got a normal job out of luck it turns out it's not so normal after all. Yunogi have to act as the horror writer Kirino Shuusuke's dummy Groups Scanlating : yonezou fans Author : NEKOTA Yonezou Genre : Comedy Doujinshi Yaoi Download Sensei wa Dummy Drama CD: http://www.mediafire.com/?i2h0fihq4kli47a For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Alternative Titles: Bokura no Ai no Kanade, 僕らの愛の奏で Director: Kusano Yoka Year of Release: 2008 Country: Japan Subs: xSayaPinkyx Duration: 70 min Genre: Drama Synopsis: Maki is a young gay music student who's completely smitten with his classmate Ruiku, who plays piano with incredible passion but is cold and distant to everyone. Maki decides to do whatever it takes to get Ruiku to return his feelings. Watch Bokura no Ai no Kanade BL Movie Online: Bokura no Ai no Kanade Download Bokura no Ai no Kanade BL Movie: Link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Junjo Romantica, Junjo Romantica: Pure Romance, 純情ロマンチカ, Junjō Romanchika, Pure-Hearted Romantica Genres: comedy, drama, romance, yaoi Running time: 30 min/ episode Number of episodes: 12 ep/season; 2 seasons Plot Summary: Misaki is suddenly having some unexpected and odd problems. What started as a need for some college entrance exam tutoring has somehow led him to being romanced by a suave older man who also happens to be his big brother’s best friend. Confused by all of his brand new emotions, Misaki struggles to deal with his suddenly very odd life. And if that wasn’t enough, his suitor, Usami, has plenty of issues of his own. A man-child who decorates his room in giant teddy bears and toys, Usami is a famous novelist who also writes steamy boys’ love novels on the side. When Misaki cracks open one of these books and reads sentences like “Misaki licks every inch of Usami’s hot body”…well, let’s just say that all hell breaks loose. Download: For Season 1 subbed in English, go here: Junjou Romantica (Eng Subs) Watch Junjou Romantica Season 1 Online (HD Quality): Junjou Romantica Season 1 Online Season 2 (watch it in BSPlayer or VLC Player) EP 01 EP 02 EP 03 EP 04 EP 05 EP 06 EP 07 EP 08 EP 09 EP 10 EP 11 EP 12 DVD Special Junjou Romantica Watch Junjou Romantica Season 2 Online (HD Quality): Junjou Romantica Season 2 Online Junjou Romantica, Egoist and Terrorist anime were licensed long time ago. Since the Company announced they'd report and sue all the online site providing links, YO isn't and won't be updating links to download Junjou. Sorry for the inconveniences.

Many users asked it, so here it's a guide on how to set/ change your avatar: 1. Look in the top right corner of the forum (near the Log Out button) and you'll see a Settings button. Click on that. 2. That will take you to your Control Panel. Scroll down a bit and in the right side of the screen you'll see this list Click on Edit Avatar, as marked in the image. 3. Once here, you can either choose to use a - custom avatar (if you want to set as avatar an image from your computer). Make sure your image is not bigger than 150x150 px. - pre-defined generic avatar (you can choose from one of the available avatars) 4. Click on Save Changes For a guide on how to set a signature, please check this thread.

Title: Golden Bomber Movie - Suri Nokoshi Ta Natsu Synopsis : A movie by Japanese visual kei band Golden Bomber. Two boys go to seaside to spend summer, and they meet some guys and problems start to arrive... Country : Japan Download Golden Bomber Movie - Suri Nokoshi Ta Natsu: Mediafire download links: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 English Subtitles *thanks to tiny-tin and distressedcoma for the subs For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Loveless dubbed with dual audio Loveless + Extras Twelve-year old Aoyagi Ritsuka lost his only kin when his brother, Aoyagi Seimei, was killed under mysterious circumstances. One day, he meets Agatsuma Soubi, who claims to know his brother. It turns out that Soubi and Seimei used to be a fighting pair, whereby Soubi was the "Fighter" and Seimei was the "Sacrifice". Now that Seimei is gone, Soubi 'belongs' to Ritsuka who will become his new "Sacrifice". After learning that Seimei was killed by an organisation known as the "Nanatsu no Tsuki", Ritsuka decides to join forces with Soubi and investigate the truth behind his brother's death. This series run a total of 12 episodes with 6 Extras To view these extras correctly please watch 2 episodes then an Extra....continue this pattern untill you have viewed the entire series Container = .MKV image resolution = 512 x 288 file size = specials 16mb+...episodes 260mb or less..OP 19mb/ED extended version 135mb ..bonus music 1.4mb~ Duration = 2 mins for specials ,24 mins per episode (more or less) Frame rate = 29 frames/second over all bit rate = 155kbps more or less Video Sample rate = 24 bit Video Compression = Xvid [8bit] Audio 128kbps = 0- english dubbed(2 channel mp3)(default) Audio 128kbps = 1-Japanese(2 channel mp3) Vob soft subs = english songs/signs Vob soft subs = english subs for japanese audio track(default) Downloads Loveless Anime Dual audio:Hosted at Mega Episode 01 .. Episode 02 .. Episode 03 Episode 04 .. Episode 05 .. Episode 06 Episode 07 .. Episode 08 .. Episode 09 Episode 10 .. Episode 11 .. Episode 12 Extra-01 Sub only .. Extra-02 Sub only .. Extra-03 Sub only Extra-04 Sub only .. Extra-05 Sub only .. Extra-06 Sub only Opening from dvd .. Ending from dvd ~BONUS~ Opening tv size fandub ..~BONUS~ Ending tv size fandub ...any problems ..please PM me For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Mirage of Blaze Drama CD (Cobalt Tokimeki Telephone 1-7 ) Plot: Takaya Ohgi is just a typical high school guy who wants nothing more than to protect his best friend and live a normal life. Enter Nobutsuna Naoe, an older man who informs Takaya that he is in fact the reincarnation of Lord Kagetora. Naoe, himself a possessor, awakens Takaya's abilities to exorcise evil spirits and fight the Fuedal Underworld. While most possessors remember their former lives before being reincarnated, Takaya does not. Naoe is thankful for this, considering his passionate and abusive past with his Lord Kagetora. As Takaya improves his abilities , he also begins to remember what Naoe did because of his love for him. Meanwhile the dark forces of the Hojo and Fuma clans begin their attack as the Fuedal Underworld descends upon the living world. Download Mirage of Blaze Drama CD: http://www.mediafire.com/?4no0nvguneu For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Mirage of Blaze Baito Jigoku Meguri Hen Drama CD English Translation: Takaya Ohgi Voiced by: Toshihiko Seki Yoshiaki Tachibana ,(Nobutsuna Naoe) Voiced by: Shō Hayami Kosaka Danjou Voiced by:Kenyu Horiuchi mirage of Blaze belongs to Mizuna Kuwabara :hamtaro-005 (17): Download Mirage of Blaze Baito Jigoku Meguri Hen Drama CD: http://www.4shared.com/file/kuIOiUVH/Takaya_Baito_Jigoku_Meguri_Hen.html For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Jounetsu no Young Man Author: Takahashi Yuu Plot: 1-6) Ono slept with Yamada, a high-schooler, when he was drunk because of a break up with Hidenori. Ono thought of it as a one-night stand, but Yamada went to Ono’s workplace to look for him the next day. On top of that, Hidenori requested for reconcile. Who will Ono choose? Will it be the passionate love with a high-schooler or a steady relationship with his ex-lover? 7-8) F.D. Shibata and Ookouchi are fire fighters in training, but the physically superior Ookouchi is making Shibata feel inferior 1 Volume (Complete) in English Read Jounetsu no Young Man Online: Jounetsu no Young Man Download Jounetsu no Young Man Manga: Download link removed by scanlator's request

スキップ・ビート！ (Japanese) 華麗的挑戰 (Chinese - Taiwan) 스킵 비트! (Korean) Skip Beat! (スキップ・ビート!, Sukippu Bīto!?) is a Japanese shōjo manga by Yoshiki Nakamura. It is the story of Kyoko Mogami (最上 キョーコ, Mogami Kyōko?) a 16-year-old girl who discovers that her childhood friend and romantic goal, Sho Fuwa, only keeps her around to act as a maid and earn his living expenses, as he works his way to become the top pop idol in Japan. Furious and heart broken, she vows to get revenge by beating him in show business. In Japan, the manga was first published in Hakusensha's shōjo manga magazine Hana to Yume in February 2002, while in the United States, it began publishing under Viz Media's Shojo Beat label in 2006. As of February 2011, twenty-seven volumes have been released in Japan, and as of April 2011, twenty-three volumes have been released in the United States. In 2002, a drama CD adaptation was made and released by Marine Entertainment, and covers the first volume (chapters one to five) of the manga. An anime adaptation is produced by Hal Film Maker, and began airing October 5, 2008. It ended airing with episode twenty-five on July 12, 2009. [ from http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Skip_Beat! ] Plot Summary: Kyoko has devoted her life to Shotaro. When Shotaro came to Tokyo to debut as a singer, she followed him and worked to provide for him. But one day, Kyoko overhears Shota telling his manager that Kyoko means nothing to him. She's just convenient, a housekeeper. This makes Kyoko furious, and she vows revenge on Shotaro. But Shotaro just laughs at her, saying she won't be able to touch him because he's now a popular singer and she's a nobody. So Kyoko decides to get into showbiz and become even more popular than Shotaro to humiliate him. Unfortunately, Shotaro has destroyed Kyoko's ability to love, and she discovers that it is a prerequisite for her to debut from her chosen company, LME. The president of LME puts her into a new section made for those who caught his eye but have something missing. It's name... Section Love Me. [from Anime News Network's] This is onging manga I love to read right now... Not like My Girl... this is romantic comady... First time I saw this manga I just love it... It's so funny... but, also heart worming story... You could try reading in online manga site down there to see if you like it... ^^ Also, I am posting the manga homepage and anime homepage... Even anime is finish the site still there so if you want to see more about anime go see it... ^^ I hope more people enjoy this manga as much as I do! ^^ Manga homepage: http://www.hanayume.com/skipbeat/index.html Anime homepage: http://www.tv-tokyo.co.jp/anime/s-beat/ Online Manga read site: http://www.mangareader.net/117/skip-beat.html

Status: Discontinued Author Note: The promised surprise and possible continuation of the Misu x Shingyouji romance from my previous oneshot fanfic titled ImPure. Thank you to each and everyone who have loved and read my previous fanfics. I am deeply grateful. Lovingly dedicated to all Takumi-kun fans. The inspiration was so strong after watching Pure. I hope you will find it a pleasure to read as I had so much pleasure and excitement writing it. Before we begin to read, let us reflect on this image to set the mood. ------------------------------- rabbit8 PURENESS “Okay..what in the world is that?” Misu frowned as he looked at his young lover strangely as Shingyouji wrestled with his white fluffy costume. “I'm a bunny rabbit. I'm doing this as a favor for my boss. It's his kid's birthday party. Isn't it cute?” Idiot, you're already cute even without it. Misu smirked but he won't say it out loud. “So when do you start your rabbit gig?” Misu sat on the chair and merely observed Shingyouji who was admiring and waving at at his reflection in the mirror. “Tomorrow.” Came the response. Shingyouji proceeded to take off the costume and stuff them in the big bag along with the fluffy bunny ears and pink nose. “Alright.” Misu stood up and went to their kitchen and saw there was curry on the stove. He poured some of it in a bowl and took it to the table while Shingyouji began setting the table. This particular dinner time was special as they didn't share the same schedules. Misu being a hospital intern and Shingyouji balancing his part time job as a convenience store clerk and college taking up Phys Ed. “By the way, I have a surprise for you.” Shingyouji smiled and pulled out two tickets out of his messenger bag. “Where did you get these?” Misu looked at them surprised. “My co-worker sold me those tickets last week since he won't be able to attend it with his girlfriend due to some family matter. I thought it was so timely since the tickets have already sold out even online.” “These premiere movie tickets are for tomorrow night.” Misu stared at them. Premiere tickets to Francisco Nagoya's art film feature. He had been a fan since high school. He was quite impressed that Shingyouji managed to get tickets for this. “Yes. I figured since my rabbit gig will be in the morning and I don't have classes tomorrow. I have already informed my boss that I will take the night off for tomorrow so we could watch the movie and maybe have dinner afterwards. What do you think, Arata-san? Will you come with me?” Shingyouji looked at him with his eyes sparkling with hope. “Well, I don't see why not. It's my day off tomorrow anyway. Yeah, sure. Let's go.” Misu shrugged. “Yatta!” Shingyouji lunged forward and gave an amused Misu a tight hug. “Thank you, Arata-san. I'm so happy.” He whispered to his ear and as their eyes met, Misu gave him a light kiss on the lips but still melted the younger man. ============================== “That was a really good movie.” Misu nodded as he read the movie pamphlet. Shingyouji looked at him proudly. Actually, he didn't quite understood the film being cerebral and a bit too artsy for his taste but spending time with Arata-san was all worth it. How he wished they could spend more time like these but he knew living together was the ultimate dream he had that's come true. He should be more than happy. As they were on their way to the lobby, a familiar voice called out from behind them. “Misu-kun!” “Sagara-senpai!” Misu turned and his eyes lit up. Very pleased to see his old friend and senior. Shingyouji could only look at him in shock. What is he doing here? Why now? “I wasn't expecting I'd see you here. This is a nice surprise.” Sagara-senpai smiled as he patted his kouhai's head. Get your damn hands off him! Shingyouji's jaw was clenched. He was fighting the urge to drag Misu away from the older man but he could only clench his fists inside his coat pockets in silent frustration. “Ah...Shingyouji-kun, yes? I remember you. It's been a long time. It's good to see you.” Sagara-senpai patted him lightly on the shoulder. Shingyouji could only manage a slight bow and a forced smile. “Yes, it's been a long time, Sagara-san.” He couldn't do it. He can't risk embarassing Misu. He loved him too much. “We're going out for drinks. Would you like to join us, senpai?” Misu asked an amused Sagara who easily agreed. Shingyouji wanted to fall apart but kept his cool and nodded in agreement instead. They arrived at a relaxing yet classy bar. There weren't much patrons around and happened to be Misu's favorite as was suggested by his co-interns. A piano player onstage playing jazz music. The atmosphere was sublime. The waiter was courteous and attentive who took their orders. It had a nice air of privacy and comfort. But Shingyouji was finding it difficult to absorb the atmosphere because right before him was his beloved who is now deeply engaged in a conversation with his senior and old friend. Tonight was supposed to be just for the two of them. He could have been the one Misu would be deeply engaged in a conversation with. He could have been the only one Misu would be focusing on right now. He could have been enjoying all that attention right now. This was an evening for only the two of them. He felt oddly out of place now. He knew too well that once these two met, there was no pulling them apart. Shingyouji looked at them sadly and manage a polite smile. He considered just walking out of the bar and not looking back. Make up some lame excuse. Would Arata-san follow me? Would he leave Sagara-san to be with me? He felt his insecurities rising again at rapid speed. He reached for his cell phone and pressed for a ring tone. What the hell am I doing? But I can't stand this...I don't wanna embarrass Arata-san. The longer I stay here...I'll embarrass myself as well. “Oh, I'm sorry..I have to take this call.” Shingyouji waved slightly and stood up and walked to the corner of the bar as Misu watched in passing. The waiter arrived with their drinks and so did Shingyouji with the most apologetic face he could express. “Anou...I'm really sorry. But something's up at work. I need to leave. It was very nice meeting you again, Sagara-san...Arata-san.” Shingyouji bowed and turned to leave quickly. Misu having noticed the change of mood from Shingyouji excused himself to follow him to the door. “Where are you going? You told me that you took the day off. Now they want you to report for work?” Misu held squeezed his arm slightly to make the younger man face him. “Yeah. Well, it's rather unexpected. But it's alright. I'll see you at home, Arata-san.” Shingyouji tried to smile. Misu studied his face for a minute before releasing his hold on Shingyouji's arm. There was an unsteadiness in his tone. The smile that didn't quite reach those eyes yet continued smiling nontheless. He understood Shingyouji's work ethic and dedication to his job but why did it seem so hurried?

Title: Zettai Fukuju Meirei, Absolute Obedience, 絶対服従命令 Platform: PC Denre: Yaoi, Dating simulation Rating: 18+ Gameplay: Player input is limited to the ability to choose one of two paths. However, these choices do not give the player the ability to truly affect the storyline, only the endings. The primary goal is to fulfill the client's requests and complete the mission.But despite the simple gameplay Absolute Obedience offers a variety of very complex character designs for the main characters as well as their "targets". Each of the 12 stories have up to 4 different endings, leaving the player with the choice of 42 different endings and 2 additional endings. In order to obtain a good ending, the player must select the correct choices in a specific order. Some Requests lose some of their options at some point and become listed as "expired". This may be related to the order the specific Requests are fulfilled in and/or rankings received in each Request as it is completed. Therefore, it is rather difficult to get every ending and every scene without help. Also, each mission is given a grade: A, B, C, or D, D being the worst. When the game has been successfully completed with an A grade in each requests, the game unlocks two additional secret missions for both Kia and Louise, in which more of both their pasts is revealed. GAME IS LICENSED For those who get an error message asking to insert a CD: go to the setup text file, and delete the lines that say DISCNO=1 and DISCNO=2. Then the setup won't look for the CDs For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Summary: The band is in a meeting planning a performance in an Art Gallery. They discuss the clothes they'll get. After the meeting, Hyde ends up at Ken's place and bedroom. Status: Complete :hamtaro-005 (10): Hyde :hamtaro-005 (22): Tetsu :hamtaro-005 (12): Ken :hamtaro-005 (13): Sakura Rated 18+ for naughty language. “Okay, I called this meeting so we can discuss possible gimmicks we can do for our show next week.” Tetsu adjusted his glasses and clasped his hands together then looked at his companions. Ken was making smoke circles with his cigarettes. Hyde was making a concoction of soda pop and strawberry milk. Sakura was sleeping. “Guys?” Tetsu pretended to ignore their antics for the third time in a row since he announced the meeting. “Why don’t we get some sexy girls do some kind of a cabaret show while we are singing and then they’ll start doing acrobatic moves on us or at the audience then of course they should have cigarettes while they’re at it?” Ken looked at him momentarily putting off his cigarette. “No. You can’t do that, man. That’s just so wrong. There could be kids and lots of old people there and they’re going to get weird and stuff.” Hyde shakes his head and is now tasting his milk soda concoction. “You talk about weird, what the hell are you drinking??” Ken looks at him like Hyde grew another head but suddenly develops a curiosity with Hyde’s little formula. “Sakura?” Tetu looks at the sleeping drummer. “Huh? What? Sure, yeah. Right.” Sakura suddenly is jolted. “So you have something to say?” Tetsu tries to focus at him while trying to avoid looking at the two knuckleheads fighting over Hyde’s mystery drink. “Just one sip, Haido!! What the hell?” Ken is leaning over the shorter man. “DAME! ZEN ZEN DAME!!!” Hyde hugs the tall blue glass to himself. “You selfish short bratty spoiled stuck-up little prick stunted cute-faced little runt!!” Ken yelled. “Oh haha! You just had to say cute-faced, ne?” Hyde grinned. “I always knew you love me Ken-chan.” Hyde stuck out his tongue. “I threw in the cute face so you could give me that damn drink!” Ken demanded. “No!” Hyde is threatening to drink it all to Ken’s horror. “Hand it over!” Ken contested. “No. I made it. You said it was weird. What’s your problem? Leave me alone you overgrown horny perverted chimney-like hot booze-headed sex-crazed idiot monster you!!!” “AHAHAHAHAHAH!!! YOU SAID HOT!!!” Ken almost fell back on his seat. “SHUT UP AND I’LL TOTALLY DRINK ALL OF THIS!” Hyde raised the blue glass with a smirk. Ken immediately looked pale. “FOR THE LOVE OF GOD!!! CUT IT OUT BOTH OF YOU PSYCHOS!! DEMMIT!!!” Tetsu stood up and slammed the table and looked crazily at the warring duo. Ken raised his hands in surrender. Hyde puffed his cheeks but still holding onto the tall blue glass securely. “Can we please have a decent meeting for once? This will take just a few minutes of your precious time then you can do whatever it is you’re doing.” Tetsu sat down and tried to sound as gently as possible. “What is that Haido-chan?” Tetsu pointed at the precious possession at the vocalist’s clutches. “It’s soda milk.” Hyde showed him a peek through his fingers while holding the blue glass. “And he won’t even let me taste it.” Ken interjected. “Ken-chan….” Tetsu pleaded. “Oh okay.” Ken rolled his eyes. “Will you let me taste it?” Tetsu eyed him. Hyde looked down and smiled and pushed the tall glass at Tetsu. The bassist took a straw and sipped and slowly pushed the tall glass back to the grinning vocalist. “How was it?” Ken eyed him curiously. “It tastes like….” Tetsu pursed his lips. “Like what?” Hyde’s eyes rounded. “Later.” Tetsu waved at them. “Awwwwww, man…..” Hyde and Ken chorused. “So can we have our meeting now?” Tetsu was actually trying very hard to swallow the drink. It tasted like crap but he didn’t have the heart to tell Hyde. He probably will tell Ken later or maybe not. He couldn’t risk getting Ken on a field day harassing poor Haido-kun either. “Guys?” Tetsu looked at them pleadingly. “hai....” Hyde and Ken chorused again but in a resigned voice. “Okay the thing is we have been invited to this party. Well, actually it’s a art gallery thing and they are doing an exhibition for Takamiya Nogoya’s works.” “Who’s that?” Ken frowns. “He’s an artist, you dumbass!” Hyde baps his head. “Of course, I know he’s an artist but who is he really?” Ken retaliates by tugging Hyde’s hair. “ITAI!” Hyde yells. “GUYS!!” Tetsu ran a very agitated hand to his hair. They keep up with this, we are never going to accomplish anything, I swear. Whatever possessed me to form a band in the first place? WHAT? Oh yeah, because I couldn’t wait to get out of high school. Oh good decision, Tetsu-sama. You’re the coolest! “So as I was saying, this art exhibition is a showcase of Takamiya Nogoya’s works. Now all I know about this guy is he’s an old man. Most of his works have been compared to Picasso. So yeah, he’s that good. He also has a thing for indie bands and has a reputation for supporting them. That’s where we come in.” “Have you met him?” Hyde looks at him curiously. “No I have not. That’s all the information I got from the booker.” Tetsu adjusted his glasses as he took out his yellow notebook. “This is an art gallery show. Aren’t there usually a lot of snobs in those places?” Sakura pulled out a cigarette. “I don’t really know for sure but I’m sure there will be different types of people there. Basically they’re there for the works as well as the music.” “Hmmmm….works, music, lots of people…so that means….FREE FOOD?” Hyde beams. “Gods! Isn’t that all you ever think about? With that tiny body of yours, I wonder where you stuff all your food.” Ken sneers at him as he takes another drag in his cigarette. “I’ll be the judge of that.” Hyde makes a straight face at him. “So I thought we need to do prepare for this occasion. We have about 5 to 6 sets to play. Nothing too loud and just the usual slow tracks we play. I’ve already noted what those songs would be and we’ll practice them later. For now we need to decide what our theme would be.” “Oh you mean what we will wear for the occasion?” Sakura looks at him. “Yeah.” Tetsu nods while looking at his notebook and underlining DORESU. “Oh that’s easy! I’ll dress up as a vampire!” Hyde smiles at them. “Vampire? That’s an art show not HALLOWEEN!” Ken looks at him as if Hyde grew another head. “Well, I’m sick and tired always dressing up in those frilly clothes with all these gunk and ribbons and stuff in my hair. I want to be a VAMPIRE, OKAY? IS THAT SO HARD?” Hyde punctuates each word while poking Ken’s shoulder then looks at Tetsu wearing the most adorable smile he could offer. “Tet-chan, can I be a vampire, please?” “Huh?” Tetsu is suddenly face to face with a very pinchable Haido. How now, brown cow? Hyde wanting to be a vampire in an art show is totally out of place but aren’t vampires artistic too? Hmmmm…I remember reading about this in high school. I know…but if he dresses up as a vampire, what will that make us? A vampire lair? A vampire den? A bat cave? Are we all going to dress up as vampires like him? They might kick us out of the party. Plus I am sooooooooooo not vampire material. “Tet-chan?” Hyde sounded hopeful. “Anou…I’ll think about it.” Tetsu flashes him a tight smile. Hyde sits back and crosses his arms and frowns. “You’re just saying that but you don’t want me to dress up as a vampire.” “Haido…” Tetsu shakes his head uneasy with Hyde’s pouty behavior. Sakura stands from his seat and joins Ken and Hyde on the couch. He puts his arm around Hyde as if consoling a little child. “I don’t think it’s the time and place to dress up as one, Haido. Although I’m pretty sure you’d make a very good-looking vampire-chan.” “You really think so?” Hyde smiles. “Yeah I think so.” Sakura nods. “I think you’d make a gorgeous vampire too, Saku-chan.” Hyde leans closer. “I have a better idea!” Ken crushes his cigarette on the Stop Smoking or Die ashtray. “What?” Tetsu gives him his full attention. Sakura and Hyde also look at him. “Let’s do some body paint. It’s an art thing, ne? So that’s what we’ll do. Or we could role play. I’ll dress up as an art dealer.” “I didn’t know art dealers had a dress code.” Sakura chuckles. “Yes they do.” “No they don’t.” Sakura shakes his head. “Well I’m sure they do and I’m dressing as one. No contest.” “If you’re an art dealer, what am I?” Tetsu frowns. “You could be a curator!” Ken points at him. “So curators have dress codes too?” Sakura was trying to control himself from bursting in laughter. “Yes they do. What do you say, Tet-chan?” Ken grins. “Hmmm….I’ll think about it.” He had to admit at least Ken’s idea though a bit surprising but at least it wasn’t as bad as Hyde’s. He could be curator, whatever that was. “And you my friend!” Ken looks at Sakura. “Yeah?” “You’ll be the work of art!” Ken smirks at him. “I’M A WHAT?” Sakura looks at him aghast. “You’ll be the work of art. There will be some body painting done on your body so basically you’ll be half-dressed in the venue. Don’t worry, man. Hey! It’s not like you haven’t done that before.” “I had random characters written on my face which screamed Perversion, thanks to you.” Sakura rolled his eyes. He remembered waking from a nap during one of their gigs on the road then getting dragged out of the bus by Ken. He also remembered how a mother screamed at him and how strong was that old woman who beat him with a stick. If Ken wasn’t such a good friend, he’d be long dead and gone for what he drew on his face that time. Good times.

i will also add Takayuki Utsunomiya x Kazuki Hino (papa to kiss in the dark) all Sekai-ichi Hatsukoi couples oh O_O and also Asami x Takaba (Viewfinder)

@Hama71....well i loved him too much... once he smiled and showed his bunny teeth....IM MELTED!!!! and when he acted as shingyouji i was so touched....ahahaha he's a very talkative person...lol but once he talk he became 4 dimensional person which is my ideal type... i rmember how he scratched his leg while photo session...so weird n I LOVE IT!!! *im weird too* well....baba chan n dai is a great actor.... they r gud in resembling their character in takumi kun... ahaha...i love baba chan goofiness and dai charming...^^ also my goofy Tackey n innocent Mao... and i love all takumi kun actors very much... they hve their own sweetness...and special character...^^ they've been friends for quite long time... Tackey is quite close to Taiki becoz he always hve same stage together... their friendship is SOOO CUTE!!!

Your welcome!!! ^^ Well Baba is good actor... what ever it is he will do... But, in the making he really do show how tense he was at time... I feel sorry for he when Dai-chan said don't try to making a making(Baba joke about may be do stuff for making)... That was when Takiguchi said to explane about snooker... Taiki trying to listen what he said... But, truth is Takiguchi himself couldn't understand about it... --; Dai-chan... he is like older brother who look after his younger brother in set... ^^; He is easy going with almost every one and try to get everyone in one... So that shoting together feel nature to them... Yes, not only look but he is friendly to almost everyone!! ^^ ^^; Well, Dai-chan(Gii) some time like that... Looking Mao(Takumi) like a most precious person in the world... that is why it was looks like grandfather hug by grandchild... and also sound like old man... ^^; That part was when director explain Mao-kun how he show act when he was love by Gii... Mao-kun said, "I got it!"... Think about it... Young boy who don't love and understand the love for first time... Don't you think that is cut!!!!! I think that is how Dai-chan felt that time... So that is why he said cut and smile like that... ^^ When Dai-chan smile he mean it... that is why people who see can not help to smile with him... Mao-kun is cut and do his best... but, some time I just feel that he make his smile... I feel so sad... that he should enjoy little more... well he was got better later on... But, still he just try to hard... I just hope some day he will be like Dai-chan, who could enjoy himself and same time other to enjoy what they are doing... ^^ Baba-kun and Dai-chan are really can change to their charactor in second... I just have to see the movie first to say he did good job or not... Because in making he was so tense even I can feel that... So I hope in the movie that don't show... --; You love Taiki so much... well in the backstage of Tenimyu and making of Takumi show Taiki is easy going and make people laught... I think that is he charm... ^^ Takiguchi... well he didn't know any thing about it until shooting start... It wasn't his fault but still he had to face that feel of guilt... --;;; Dai-chan... he is just the guy who could make friend with any one... ^^ Almost every one in set they have one thing in common... They all work in Tenimyu... Takiguchi was 3rd Seigaku, Dai-chan and Mao-kun was 4th... Baba and new guy was 5th... Taiki was HyouteiB... Takiguchi didn't had time to work with them but other are know each other before the Takumi-kun series start... ^^; So it is nature for them to get along well... ^^

Kyyyyaaaaa....yojichan..... I've read everything you've posted so far in one go, i just couldnt stop.........oh man you're good ;p Ty so much for posting such good story, keep up keep up...i'm definetly reading it *hugs*

So you're ss501 fan... well Yu Hee the witch... I don't know that one... I have to find what is that first... Oh... I like that song too... ^^ But, still from Nana... Mike is my favorite... ^^;

well wat tht Ooji didnt know tht it is him who Misu irritated with...lol yeah...im knew u could manage it...^^ u r a great writer for me..*hugs* u know my friend told me she wants to register here juz to read ur continuation of Pureness... i dunno why but it seems like my classmates loves Misu x Shingyouji couple so much...ahaha one of them didnt even watch BL movies but when they saw Misu x Shingyouji pin in my phone... they suddenly fell for them...weird rite??...lol and ur fanfic helped them filled the excitement more...and mine too...so thanx so much!!!

Imi place aceasta comunitate si prietenii mei de aici :leaf3: Translation: I love this community and my friends here :leaf3:

Waaaaa! Sooooooo sweet and romantic! :leaf15: Thanks a looooooooot Yojichan! :leaf3: You just made my day! *dances of joy* rabbit4

Yojichan another great story! Very romantic and beautiful..I have to recognize! It's only my opinion, or your writing skills are getting better and better?

ahahha...he DESERVE it...huhu~~~we're soo mean....anything for our bunny yeah she resembles a lot in shingyouji's life...he smiles n smiles n smiles no matter how he was hurt... and he never give up chasing his happiness (Misu) as his obaa chan alwys told him... kyaaa...thinking of it...makes me wanna cry...lol i'll make sure my friends appreciate it...^^

woohoo...gay teacher is dangerous to students...lol like in my sis' college...there's a scandal between male student n male lecturer...*hot news* but i havent met one except bisex friend...he's handsome n cute...but... he have both gf n bf...ahaha...he even recommended me some guys...and say.. "hey Junnie (my nickname)...look at there...isnt tht guy is cute???".... my face was like...WTF??..==''' ahaha...and he's my class monitor too...*always nag*

WUAHHH!!! I LOVE BoF OST!!!...especially "because im stupid" well...im ss501 diehard fan...they r the only kpop band tht i adore...other r vkei indie bands... and i also love Yu Hee The Witch OST...and My Girl OST... ermm...also Full House OST!!...there's so many...==''' and for j-movies i like Nana OST...Olivia lufkin's song is amazing...especially Starless Night...

and Oojii being kicked out again makes me happy..lol *wat am i saying* his obaa-chan is very lovely person indeed...i can feel how important she is to shingyouji...amazing obaa-chan!!!! and all shingyouji's childlish is becoz of his loneliness...and im so proud of u for expressing it here.... itz normal things for a writer to feel her story like tht...and now...look at the results...itz AMAZiNG!!! im used to represent my school on poems...so i know how to change the mood and i can feel u... the way shingyouji felt loneliness and scared...and the misery and guilt feeling of Misu... u expressed every inched of it amazingly....i hope all ur ongoing pureness will be this GREAT!!! im gonna print diz and give diz to my friend...she ady going crazy waiting... asking me bout the story again n again...*annoyed*

i can feel all the emotions u poured in diz fanfic....itz juz deeply touching story... the way Misu felt....itz overwhelming... kyaaa...i cant stop reading it...ur fanfic is great!!!... and i love how u include takumi x gii too...ahahha.....great extras...^^ and i really hope i can see our bunny sleeping face...it'll be like "sleeping beauty"...lol gosh...im gonna read diz again n again!!!!

kyaaaa!!!! im crying now...:cuteonion58: itz juz sooooo GREAT!!!!!....kyaaaaaaaa!!!! our poor bunny....:cuteonion57: and Misu....ahaha....i can feel that he missed shingyouji TOO MUCH!!!! ur story is SAIKO!!!...the intensity...the emotion...the love.... gosh im speechless....thanx for posting diz...and itz for me???... ahhhh!!!! i love u!!!....onion6 keep it up!!!!....itz AWESOME!!!

Can you handle the blood? Is it something you hate? Does the violence excite you? Am I too twisted and broken for you? Or is that why you keep coming back to riffle through the pages where I live? Returning to see if I will change, if the villain can become the hero? You see all my flaws, all my hidden thoughts, yet you keep returning. You have fingers as soft as the paper they caresses, eyes deeper than the black beyond the edge of the universe. You twist your hair as you read of my trials and tribulations. You bite your lip as I am wounded and left to bleed. You call my name in your sleep. You love me, you hate me, you want me, you rape me. I suffer gladly through it all. Just hoping you will return to do it all again. ~dedicated to JenovaVII~

Wow... I love it... Well but I think it's better with the movie... ^^; Somehow sound better when it was with movie... It well match... ^^ Thank you again!!! ^^

Totally hooked on Episode.0 [video=youtube;-SuBjr6hJb8]http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=-SuBjr6hJb8 And beware of the fanservice, it's Fragrance live Also, I just love Emu~For my dear~, it's my all time fave song My other all time fave is U+K... (: Love the Sixth day and seventh night version of it. And the whole ending is awesome. Never seen that a big wave before O_O http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=W3hDVFcHuGU

One of my best friends is gay... I've met him by chance in one of the companies i've worked for. He is not the most handsome man, nor is his boyfriend, however he is very delicate, and very fragile as well. When i fisrt met him he was having an affair with one of our co-workers(gourgeus as hell) who was not gay but was into trying different things, and things,well they turned very ugly. I was there to pick up his pieces after they broke up(very complicated to handle cause honestly i didnt understand anything at the time, for me it was just a relationship like any other).But it turns out that he really loved that person and just kept saying that anyone was going to love anymore if he left him....he just couldnt let go... He stalked him, he phoned him at 2/3/4 am...well serious business... But then he met another person and he's ok now, he is happy and that's all i can wish for him

in 4shared http://www.4shared.com/file/T81uPPfu/Oujisama_ni_Narenai_L-B_Hunter.html

“Arata-san...” Shingyouji's eyes wandered nervously and curiously as he felt Misu taking his coat off. His mind began to protest as he watched him begin unbuttoning his blue-checkered shirt. But no words came out of his mouth. Misu looked very focused in the task and he sensed that authoritative silence. It didn't frighten Shingyouji but he knew better than to stop the quiet ministrations from the older man. It was almost a similar feeling he had when they were in the dressing room not so long ago as Misu buttoned his shirt up and that kiss they shared. The memory of that kiss made him feel a little hazy. No way he can stop Misu now. He knew too well that what Misu wants, he gets it and who was he to deny him that when he wanted it so much as well? The younger man could only stare in silent awe to what his lover was doing. First the coat then his shirt and now he felt fingers slowly unfastening his belt buckle. He wondered if Misu could hear how loud his heart was beating now. But even if he did, the older man did not show any signs of stopping with his activity. The belt dropped on the floor with a mild thud. And now his pants has dropped to his feet and he stepped out of it. Shingyouji was only wearing his boxers and his socks. A naughty glint showed in Misu's eyes which made Shingyouji both excited and nervous at the same time. “I'll get you a robe.” Misu left him standing there for awhile and he knew what that meant. He took off his socks and walked into the shower and closed the door behind him and took off his boxers. Shingyouji turned on the cool shower as it sprayed generously on his heated body. He leaned his forehead on the bathroom wall and allowed himself to calm his wildly beating heart. He then adjusted the water temperature to warm when he felt his nerves calming down. All the frustrations and stress he felt last night was slowly draining away as quickly as the water drained on the floor. When he opened the bathroom door, Misu was standing with the bathroom robe ready for him to slide into. He felt Misu's fingers loosely tie his robe around him then motioned for him to follow to the bed. Misu sat on the bed and held the towel he placed on the bed earlier while Shingyouji was in the shower. Shingyouji was feeling his body slowly heat up again as he approached and stood before him patiently waiting for his next instruction. Misu looked up to him and he could see the glassy look Shingyouji was giving him. He surely had no idea what he had in mind and he liked that....very much. “Kneel.” And Shingyouji obeyed and knelt before him while Misu took his sweet time massaging and drying his dripping wet hair. Shingyouji closed his eyes, raking in all the gentleness and control. His hands are now on Misu's thighs. He rubbed his hands slightly on the cottony material of Misu's pajamas. This was a rare occurrence they were having now. He wanted to enjoy every second of it. He never expected how good it felt when you have the person you love do something like this for you. From Misu's perspective, he could feel Shingyouji's muscle relaxing. His hair was nearly dry and as he took off the towel, the younger man still had his eyes closed. He smiled. He held his face with both hands and Shingyouji opened his eyes to look deeply into his lover before him. “Arata-san...” “Shingyouji...” Their foreheads touched. Their noses touched. Shingyouji felt Misu's cheek rub on his face and a light kiss on his forehead. He felt himself being pulled forward. The gentleness in Misu was making him weaker in the knees. If this went on, he was sure he'd fall back on the floor. Misu sensing this guided him to lie on the bed. As he lay down, Misu sat beside him and leaned towards his side. One hand slowly fiddling with the bath robe tie. Shingyouji felt a shiver run from the his nape down to his.... “You know...you should learn to be a little selfish sometimes.” Misu's voice was deeply seductive and resonated to Shingyouji's ears. “Our relationship....has already come to this....there's no turning back and we both know that.” Shingyouji nodded and tried to keep his eyes focused on Misu's. “Now tell me what you really desire...” Shingyouji felt his heart race at those words. Really? What he really desired? And then it dawned to him the reasons why Misu behaved earlier when he took off his clothes. It wasn't the actions of someone who merely cared for him. He was making up for the time they could have spent together last night. It was Misu's way of apologizing and oh, what a truly seductive apology it is. Every bit of uneasiness he may have felt had already disappeared now that they lay so close together on their bed. “I only want you to be mine. Mine alone. I don't want to share you with anyone...not even Sagara-san...you're mine. You're mine first....and always.” Shingyouji's words though seemingly possessive sounded more like he was pleading which made Misu smile. “You know I'm yours. Stop being afraid, Shingyouji.” He slowly lowered his head and as their lips touched, Shingyouji clung to him. He matched his kiss with much fervor and passion. The bathrobe now undone and revealing the dewy and smooth alabaster skin. The scent of his shampooed hair only further ignited the flame inside of Misu as his lips traveled down Shingyouji's neck. His hands tracing every inch of his lover's taut skin. Shingyouji stretched his neck allowing more access. “I love you...Arata-san...” He moaned so sweetly which made Misu's heart swell with even more heightened desire. “Shingyouji...” He breathed into his ear and Shingyouji felt every pore in his body come alive. He smiled in complete satisfaction. The fears and insecurities disappearing fast. No matter what happens in the future, they will always have this moment to reflect and treasure. To each other, they truly belonged. No one can ever come in between them. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: I feel my cheeks heating up after posting this last part. My hands feel numb with giddiness. LOL. Aaah...I finally got to write this. Feels so good. I debut this fanfic here in YO before I publish them on my FFNET page. To see the link to my page, check out my Homepage at my Profile. Thank you!

4:30AM Misu stirred as he heard the door click. He rubbed his eyes and adjusted to see Shingyouji trying his best not to make a sound as he carefully laid his bag on the chair. “You're back.” Misu broke the silence as he sat up on the bed. “Eh? Ah....anou...I'm so sorry, Arata-san..I didn't mean to wake you. I just came for a change of clothes. I'll be leaving soon.” A very startled Shingyouji stared at him. Misu stood up and turned on the lights. Shingyouji kept his head low and was obviously trying to avoid his intense scrutiny. He felt Misu's hand slowly cup the side of his face and lifted his chin slowly to finally face him. “Where have you been? I was worried. But I didn't know where to find you. You even left your phone.” Misu tried to keep his tone low and evenly paced. He didn't want to frighten his already-agitated lover. It was painfully obvious that Shingyouji's eyes revealed fatigue and sadness. “I was at work.” Came the nervous reply. “Where is it? I mean....where do you work?” Misu felt like a complete idiot right about now but he didn't care. It felt like the right time to ask such a question. “Sakura Grocery. The convenience store ten blocks from here.” Shingyouji blinked at him. He was rather surprised to be asked since Arata-san didn't seem the least bit interested in his work before. Misu made a mental note of that information and considered visiting him there one of these days. His confidence returning. Relief overswept him to have the younger man before him. Talking to him again. He's safe. He's home. That's all that mattered. They remained standing at the center of their apartment just looking at each other. “I'm sorry about last night.” Misu whispered which elicited a shocked look from the younger man. “Eh? It's no problem. It's okay really. I understand. Besides you and Sagara-san haven't seen each other for a long time. It was rather sudden for him to show up like that but I guess it was a good time for you both to catch up on things. I'm sure you have lots of stuff to talk about. And then there was that call...and I needed to be at work anyway...so yeah...it's fine really. I mean...I wasn't expecting you'd be already home either. I thought you guys would be hopping at bars and stuff. It's a good time to unwind, you know...I remember a friend of mine had this reunion and they...” “Shingyouji! You're rambling!” Misu interrupted him and shook him and right there he saw the tears that the younger man had been forcing to keep at bay began to flow unstoppably. He pulled him into a fierce embrace and tried to soothe him by gently rubbing his back with circular motions. As the tears subsided he felt him slowly relax in his embrace and Misu closed his eyes. So that was it. Shingyouji's insecurities have played up again this time. He's tried to assure him that there was nothing between him and Sagara-senpai but he guessed he can never ease the unrest in his lover whenever his senior appeared. He always seemed at a complete loss. Like he didn't know where to belong. But instead of exercising assertiveness, his lover chose to retreat like he did in the past. Though he loved him in his own way, their relationship in high school cannot be clearly defined despite Shingyouji always keeping close to him as much as possible. He has admitted to himself he actually enjoyed the devoted attention basked upon him by the younger man. But it is only when they moved in together and has been together for a year that finally they have a semblance of a relationship they can actually clearly define now in their terms. Several minutes passed. Misu looked at him with his eyes thoughtful. A slight curve of a smile evident in his lips. Ah, yes..he loves Shingyouji. He knew he can never find another lover as devoted as this. He knew it would be a torture to not have him close like this. But he did admit that there were lots of times that he did find a guilty pleasure of getting his lover flustered around him. Call it possessiveness. Call it whatever you like but by doing so also proved that only he had that much influence to make Shingyouji feel this way. If only....

Shingyouji walked inside their apartment and the first thing he did was lay his cell phone on the dining table. He reflected for a moment what he was about to do next. He paced around scratching his head. He sits on the chair and stared at the bed they shared. His eyes wandered to the calendar on the wall. He had planned for this evening two weeks in advance. He knew that Arata-san had always admired the films of that movie director so he was so excited when he got to buy those premiere tickets. He wanted to see his lover smile and take him out of his stressful job as a hospital intern. He wanted to make the evening special and the unexpected presence of one person simply dashed those dreams away for him. Perhaps he could have been more assertive and insisted that Sagara-san leave them be. But he couldn't do that. He didn't want to appear childish and selfish to anyone especially to Arata-san. He didn't want him to worry. He wanted to appear as adult and pragmatic as possible. That he was all over this. That it was okay. That it was alright. That it totally made sense for Arata-san to be chummy with his senpai since they haven't seen each other for quite some time. The fear of rejection from Arata-san weighed more to him than his truest desire to monopolize his lover to himself. Shingyouji's lips quivered and suddenly tears ran down his cheeks. He wiped them off impatiently and grabbed his messenger bag, grabbed his keys and walked out of the apartment. His cell phone remained on the table. =========================== 11:00PM It was the umpteenth time Misu had been glancing at his wristwatch while trying to keep up with the conversation with his senpai. Sagara-san had been exceptionally chatty. Misu smiled at the thought since he knew that the alcohol had added to that chattiness of his. They talked about a lot of things and discussed about the movie they just watched. They were both fans of the director and wouldn't miss any of his films when they were in high school. 11:35PM Misu excused himself to make a call. All he got was a continuous ring. Shingyouji was not picking up his phone. Normally he would pick up in three rings but this was different. Must be busy at work. Damn it where the hell did he work again? He knew it was a 24-hour convenience store. But what the hell's the name of that store? Which branch was it? A 7-Eleven? No. An independent one? What the hell is it? It suddenly dawned to him that he was at a loss. Agitation started to set in. Damn it...I don't know where he works and he's not answering the phone. Why didn't I even bother asking him about it? He returned to his seat with Sagara-san who noticed the change in his mood. “You look worried. What's wrong? Is there an emergency? You need to go to the hospital?” Sagara-san looked at him concerned. “Ahm...kind of an emergency but it's a different matter really. I'm really sorry, senpai. I wish I could stay longer but I really have to go.” Misu stood up and bowed. “Oh okay..I hope nothing too bad happened. I think I'll stick around here for a little while longer.” Sagara-san smiled. Misu felt the rising anxiety creeping inside of him. Something was definitely not right. Shingyouji would never have dreamed of not answering the phone whenever he called. He would never miss out on something like that at all. But where could he be at this hour? How was he going to find him? Where would he start? He thought he'd return to their apartment and hopefully find some clues around there. He felt so stupid for not even asking his lover's work place. He thought he knew enough but something as simple like this made him feel pathetic. He failed at this. He didn't like the sound of it at all. What kind of a couple were they if he didn't know about these things? Has he been so absorbed in his internship and taken it all for granted that Shingyouji would be fine as things were? The apartment was quiet. He turned on the lights and saw that everything seemed to be in place as they have left it. He sees the cell phone on the table and his heart sank. Did he leave this intentionally or forgot about it? 12:15AM Misu's eyes were bleary as he stared onto the wall clock. He's gone through Shingyouji's phonebook but all it had were names he didn't know of other than Hayama, Saki and Akaike. He could call Hayama perhaps he knew where Shingyouji worked but quickly dismissed the thought. That would have made him a complete idiot and Saki's sensitive lover would have worried too much. Worse, he didn't want Saki to be involved either. Not that he'd care anyway. They somehow managed well enough to tolerate each other's presence. Hayama and Shingyouji were good friends though. He could call everyone in the phone book but that would only raise unnecessary panic on them at this hour. What would he tell them anyway? How would he introduce himself to them? Just a concerned friend? Was that all really? Misu changed into his sleepwear and laid down on the bed. He pressed his face on Shingyouji's pillow and inhaled his scent. They shared the same shampoo but somehow it always smelled pleasantly different on him. His mind must be playing tricks on him. He shouldn't worry so much, right? It's not like his lover was a child and would get lost. He's an adult for God's sake. I have to trust him. He probably is just at work. He'll be home soon. I'll be here when he does. It's gonna be alright. I am worrying for nothing. He only forgot his phone. Nothing more. I should definitely ask him where he works.

Oh you read it! hahahahah!! Thank you! thank you so much, Fei. I totally appreciate it and for seeing the coolness of Misu in my story. He's such a cool character and I can't help it but write him that way as well. Thank you! OMG! 5 times! Heheh! I know the feeling, hahahahaha! I'm re-watching the film and I still get really giddy and excited with the scenes of Misu and Shingyouji. I mean, I don't know understand what they're saying yet the way they express themselves really crosses the bridge of understanding how much they love each other. How so in love Shingyouji is. And we could all relate to that and it's so special. I'm very grateful that this fic has made the movie experience even better. I feel quite good about myself too since I really love the couple so much. I'm no longer the writer...I am just a fan and I'm really happy to read this again. I have a surprise coming up and I hope you all like it. I'm almost done. Thank you so much for reading my story.

i like his 2nd blog...that song really nice...

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“Okay now what about me? Who do I get to dress up as?” Hyde crossed his arms to his chest and giving Ken, ‘the evil eye’. “Haha! You my dear sweet darling Haido-sama will be THE PAINTER!” Ken gestured with his arms wide. “REALLY? I’LL BE A PAINTER! THAT’S THE COOLEST EVER!!! YOU’RE A GENIUS KEN-CHAN!!” Hyde clasped his hands and was now seeing Ken in a very different light. A very bright light actually blooming with flowers and feathers and sakura blossoms and humping rabbits on the backdrop. “Of course I know that. What do you think I stayed in college for?” Ken smirked with his hands on his hips now. “But you quit college.” Sakura raised an eyebrow at him and chuckled. “I did it for friendship.” Ken looked intently at Tetsu and put an arm around him and squeezed his shoulder for further emphasis. “Anou…you wanted to be in a band cuz this was a place to get a lot of girls, you moron.” Tetsu and punched him in the stomach. “Well that too.” Ken grinned like a Cheshire cat who caught a fish. “Haha! You are such a pervert, Ken-chan!” Hyde snickered and shook his head. “Oh yeah? Look who’s talking Mister-I-May-Be-Small-But-Not-In-Bed! I bet that’s all you ever say to anyone you try to score and you have the nerve to call me the pervert!” “I will take that as a compliment then.” Hyde crossed his arms and nodded his head confidently. “Isn’t it supposed to be like it’s not about the size but how you use it?” Sakura interjected. “Guys, maybe you ought to be thinking like it’s about who you use it for?” Tetsu frowned. He didn’t even know exactly what made him say it but he didn’t want to look like a prude. “Well at least I know who I use it for!” Ken grinned. “Me too!” Hyde smiled. Sakura just laughed. “Gyah! Enough with this pervert talk, so before we wrap up this meeting, it has been decided that we will all dress up according to Ken’s idea. We prepare 6 to 7 tracks for the show. We start practicing tomorrow at 9 AM. Please try not to be late again.” “Why are you all looking at me?” Hyde appeared confused. “Because you were late, little prince and because of you, we almost did not make it to the bus for Hokkaido for our gig there.” Ken leered at him. “I thought we were already okay on that. Why are you bringing it up again? Tet-chan….?” Hyde pouted and looked like he was going to break into tears at Tetsu. Tetsu blanched. He did not really mean to bring it up. It’s just that, well…okay…he did bring it up but of course he has forgiven Haido for it. The poor guy already learned his lesson. He just did not want a repeat of last time. It was not everyday they could be booked for a reasonable gig as this. For once, playing in art exhibit would be a sweet break from the live houses they usually frequented. Hyde continued to pout. “You still hate me. You still haven’t forgiven me.” “Now..now..Haido…of course, Tetsu-san has forgiven you. It’s just that none of us have been late for a gig except for you. But that’s all in the past now. Right, Ken?” Sakura tries to console Hyde using his deep sexy bedroom voice. “Yeah. Just so you remember that, you little brat.” Ken nodded. “Right, Tetsu-san?” Sakura looked at Tetsu. “Of course.” Tetsu smiled gently while looking at Hyde squeezing himself in Sakura’s arms as the drummer rubbed his back consolingly. “Are you alright now, Haido-chan?” Sakura looked down at the bundle (Hyde) attached to his arm. “I guess so. I’ll be good. I won’t be late like last time.” Hyde looked down. “That’s good, Hyde.” Tetsu smiled and tucked his yellow notebook in his pocket. “Anou…would it be okay if I stay at your place tonight, Tet-chan? That way I make extra sure that I’d wake up on time?” Hyde beamed. “Sorry, man. I’m afraid that can't be possible. My family will be visiting and they’ll be occupying the entire flat.” Tetsu looked anguished. “How about you Saku-chan?” Hyde looked at Sakura. “My place is very small and there is only one bed.” Sakura shrugged. “I promise I won’t take too much space.” Hyde smiled. “Yeah right! Before you know it, Sakura would be kissing the floor because of you. You sleep like a clock, Haido! You have your arms and legs spread out like an eagle. Not only that, you have the annoying habit of hogging the blanket to yourself and worse, YOU SNORE!” “I DO NOT! YOU’RE MAKING IT ALL UP! You should see yourself how you sleep! If I only had a camera, I’d have proof.” “Oh come on! You don’t! You’re just trying to turn this on me!” Ken waved him off. Sakura shook his head and lighted another cigarette as he watched the two bickering again. He never had a problem having the diminutive vocalist crash at his place whenever he pleased. He had the run of the apartment anyway. Maybe he ought to get a duplicate key for him. Note to self, make duplicate key for Haido-chan. :hamtaro-005 (8)::hamtaro-005 (18): "Okay remind me again why in the world did I end up here at your place?" Hyde poked Ken's back while Ken was opening the door to his apartment. "Because Sakura got a sudden call from his brother to meet him that's why." "I thought they didn't like each other much." Hyde followed him inside as they began to take off their shoes. "Yes they do. They're just not that icky mushy type." Ken placed the keys on the counter top table. "I wonder what it would be like if I had a sibling. I'd probably spoil them to death." Hyde mused. "I don't think so. You're such a brat, Haido." Ken snickered. "Not my fault!" Hyde pouted. "Just so you know the only reason i am sleeping in your pad because Saku-chan and Tet-chan cant be available and that I need to get be on time for our practice tomorrow." Hyde uttered matter-of-factly with his hands on his sides. "Yeah..yeah..." Ken took off his jacket and hanged it on the back of the door. "So where do i sleep?" Hyde smiles. "Duh? The floor of course! Just get the extra futon inside the cabinet to your left." Ken was patting his pants for his lighter. "WHAT?! YOU CANT MAKE ME SLEEP ON THE FLOOR YOU IDIOT! I'M A GUEST HERE!" Hyde looked at him aghast. Talk about hospitality. Ken may be a genius but he can be such an ass. "Guest? Are you out of your mind? You are forced to CRASH at my place so I could be your human alarm clock. I'm actually doing you a HUGE favor letting you sleep here and FYI! You can't be a guest. We've known each other far too long for us to go into this proper host and guest shit." Ken walked to his kitchen to get a cold beer. "Then why is there a cat on your bed?" Hyde pointed accusingly at the big ball of fluff nestled comfortably right smack in the middle of Ken's bed. "That cat has a name and it's Elizabeth. SHE has rights, you know. SHE lives here. You don't." Ken shrugged and took a swig of his beer. Hyde narrowed his eyes as he watched Ken opening the fridge for a can of tuna. Hyde shot another glance at the cat who has now woken up to see what the ruckus was all about. Elizabeth looks at Hyde. Man and cat are now locked in a staring battle. This goes on for another 30 seconds. Owner of cat notices the two still eye locked and shrugs and enters the kitchen to pour cold milk on Elizabeth's cup. BACK IN THE BEDROOM. Cat blinks. Hyde twitches. Cat stretches and simply jumps off the bed, walks out of the bedroom and enters kitchen and rubs herself on Ken's legs. Ken picks her up and rubs her back as she is positioned comfortably with her head tucked on his shoulder. Inside the room, they hear a yell. "WHAT THE HELL, HAIDO?!" Ken looks at him surprised. Elizabeth gives him the evil eye. "HAHA! I WON! I WON!!! VICTORIOUS!!! HAHA!!! NO ONE CAN BEAT ME!!!" Hyde was jumping and laughed triumphantly. Author notes: I hope you enjoyed this dizzy fanfic of mine which I wrote years ago. I posted this to distract everyone till I can post my promised Takumi-kun fic. Hehehe!

Manga - oh it's so hard to choose one! Hmm... Well, Muraki x Tsuzuki is a must. (YnM) And then... Taki x Goh (Yellow) is pretty nice too... AsamixTakaba (viewfinder) is lovely! ...And gah, so many T_T The worst part is I can't remember their names T_T Drama - I love TakumixGii, but wouldn't GiixInoue be so awesome? IRL - well one could dream about Mana-samaxGackt haha... Or to make it even better GacktxMana-samaxKözi (if you haven't watched the live performance of Illuminati from merveilles, you really should! Gackt sandwich ahahaha)...

Try to go to the setup text file, and delete the lines that say DISCNO=1 and DISCNO=2. Then the setup won't look for the CDs