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Title: Bed no Ue no Tengoku Manga ALT. names: Bedtop Paradise Author: NOMORI Mina Original run: 2006 Description: 1) Bedtop Paradise Hata and Hoshina both work at the same video game company. Introduced by a mutual friend at work, Hoshina and Hata move in together as roommates. But when the sloppy, laid-back Hata starts demanding time in uptight Hoshina's futon so he can sleep better, their relationship as roomies takes a step in a new direction, especially when Hoshina realizes he can't sleep with or without Hata... 2) Your Gentle Hands Mother always tells you not to talk to strangers, but one day, while roaming through the park looking for his lost dog, a young uke stumbles across a homeless seme. Given the name "Kuro", will the compassion and love of this young uke help Kuro get the strength to face his past and begin to live life again. Will he always be called "Kuro"? 3) Perfect Lovers Fujisaki is given an important project to work on by Manager Sakaki, but Fujisaki questions why he is given the job. Is Sakaki misusing his authority? And even if he is, does Fujisaki really mind when his manager looks and smells SO good? Another one-shot revolving around salarymen, big business, and what really happens on overnight trips. 4) Land of The Distant Sky Pressurized by the moral ethics, the boys will have to make a decision. Family, friends and love, it's a tough choice. Will they finally be together? A teary story about the struggling of our boys from high school to adults. 5) Let's Become a Family! Nakura is a salaried man and has a daughter in sixth grade. When he found out that his neighbor, Sudou, is a gay, he's kinda glad. An inner perspective of a loving father who doesn't really know how to express himself well, will he fall for Sudou instead? 6) Bedtop Paradise extra Manga-type: Manga Series Published by: Biblos Group(s) Scanlating: Attractive Fascinante; Tsuyu; Tsuyu Translations Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Romance, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Co-workers, Master-Slave Main Characters: Nakura, Sadou, Fujisaki, Sasaki, Kuro, Hata, Hoshina Recommendations: Suki mo Kirai mo Jikangai; Koibito wa Magnum!!; Nemureru Kimi no Barairo no Kuchibiru; Mokuyoubi no Koibito; Kotonoha no Hana Download Bed no Ue no Tengoku Manga: ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Download link removed by scanlator's request Read Bed no Ue no Tengoku Online Bed no Ue no Tengoku

Here's chap 7. Hope you guys enjoy Kiss* Spell… Chapter 7 I remembered everything… The images were popping in my head like a slide show… The warm weather, the sweet smelling breeze that caressed my face and my hair… It was like I was feeling it right then. It was May, two years ago. Me and Shu were together only for a few weeks then, we were so much in love, and I was the happiest person alive. There was nothing in this world that could make me feel bad or sad, nothing could disturb that happiness…nothing could come between us. Shu was invited by one of his friends to a Sakura sighting reunion, people would just show up to eat, drink and watch Sakura trees in bloom. An enormous mansion, the greenery that went till my eyes couldn’t reach, the pink and the green mixture was unbelievable, it was hard to believe such thing existed. I was happy he brought me along. It was just perfect for a walk in the sun. The person, who was holding this gigantic party was introduced to us. The first thing I noticed was this formal appearance and attitude, I was taken aback, I wasn’t expecting this kind of grandness, in a party where we were only watching trees… This old looking person was wearing a kimono, and you could see the different air around him, like royalty. “Shu this is kind of…” “Yeah I know, they’re one of the biggest families in the word of kabuki, ever heard of it?” “I know what kabuki is, but I really don’t like it that much… is...(whisper)well, kind of boring…” “Ahahah, well it is, but it is considered to be one of the greatest forms of art in Japan, and they are the biggest name in this business…” “Well, what’s so good about a bunch of old man dancing dressed as women…? I really don’t get it…” “Well you’ll see what I’m talking about later… My friend told me their youngest son is considered to be the best and the most beautiful person in the kabuki industry. There isn’t a single idol company that doesn’t want to get him…” “Young…How young like 40?(laugh)” “Ahahah, Hana I know the person we just made acquaintance was old but his sons are not old at all. One is 25 and the younger is only 16.” “Oh…ok then. Let’s check out their talent shall we, but watch out, I’ll be jealous if you keep staring at them too much(smile).” “(Whisper)I won’t, but you’ll have to repay me when we’re back home…” He caressed my face, and started playing with my hair. “Shu…don’t, there’s to many people. We can be seen…” “We won’t…after all the main source of attention are these beautiful Sakura trees… There’s nobody watching us.” “Is quite a sight isn’t it, I’m overwhelmed…” “You shouldn’t be…You can beat these Sakura in their most beautiful bloom any day…There’s nothing more beautiful than you in this world Hana…” We hid behind one of the trees and kissed I really don’t know if someone saw us, and right then I didn’t care… It was bliss. “Now let’s go, we’ll finish this at home.(smile)” I was still breathing heavily and blushing so much I was afraid to step out of our hide out. As soon as I turned away, I saw a shadow hiding between two trees not very far from us… “Shu, I think somebody just saw us…” “Never mind that, whatever happens we’ll just say you weren’t feeling ok and just went to rest behind a tree, I was just helping you.” “And what if they saw us kiss, that’s troublesome…” “We’ll just deny it…don’t worry, nothing will happen.” “Ok…if you say so.” It was then…Right then…That I first saw him. Something moved behind the trees and showed himself to us… This kid, was standing right between two Sakura trees staring at us. He had a very white make up on his face, and some sort of scarf in his head , it was hard to see who was he… But the way he looked at me, made me feel nervous even then. Black penetrating gaze that could leave you breathless. He was staring only at me, and I started to blush too much. Did he just saw us, well it was just a kid, I don’t think he would even understand what happened. I stole another glance and he was still looking at me, I felt like I was being kept in that place, my feet were turning so heavy I was hard to move them. I stared back at him, blushing so much…Why couldn’t I avoid my eyes from looking at him…what was happening? And suddenly he smiled. All the colours around me went pale, the Sakura turned grey, the greenery turned black and white. The sky that only a few moments ago was bright blue was pitch black. It scared me. I turned away. It took all my strength to do so, I could no longer look at him… He bothered me, he shook my peace, and all inside of me was burning… I was a second away to ask Shu to leave, I didn’t want to stay there anymore, i felt cold, I was disturbed… That wasn’t natural, how could someone gaze make me feel like this… I tried to remember the face of the culprit, but I could only see was the white plaster, the black in his eyes and that smile, that powerful weapon he was bearing that wreaked my chest. “Shu…I don’t think I feel so good, I think I better go, besides if there’s any trouble, it would be better if you’re alone, right?” “What, wait Hana, I thought we were going to watch the show now…it’s almost starting…We’ll leave after the break, ok so just hang on for a little while longer…please?!” “Ok, only because it’s for you, I’m not going to enjoy a bit of this…” “Hum(smile)thank you, besides it would be disrespectful for the people who invited us right? Let’s go.” We sat far in the back so that when the break starts we would leave. Even so, as soon as the music started, once I looked at the stage, I felt my chest hurt again. He was wearing a wig now, dressed in a long white kimono, he was as surprising as before, only the attitude changed. The other person standing beside him, had the same air as him, but in a most adult posture, it was lovely to see the two interact. It was stunning, I thought kabuki was boring but truly that was such a performance…it was one of the most emotional things I’ve seen in my life. “So let’s go?!” “Ah, yeah sure…” “We have to go greet them, you don’t mind do you, I would like to thank them for their hospitality…” “Sure, I don’t mind.” We went to find Shu’s friend first and thank him for the invitation. Then we followed him so we could greet the family. They were reunited, all four of them sitting on a tatami, like they were meditating. Grandfather, father and the two sons. I felt like we were disturbing, it seemed peaceful there… He immediately looked at me, and I took a step back. Shu went and started to greet each and everyone of them, while I stood there trying not to look at the young boy staring at me. I could catch that their family name was Shirou but couldn’t understand any of their first names… They all stood up and bowed at us, we bowed at them and when I stood up he was staring again, with this bright smile in his face. I couldn’t say if he was that gorgeous or not with that thick make up but you could say that he had something about him, but the smile…That smile was the reason, my chest felt pain right now. That smile put a spell on me. You couldn’t look away, you couldn’t run away, you were his prisoner, you couldn’t be released unless he wanted to, unless he allowed to. He was called and the smile got undone, I turned away the fastest I could. I wanted to leave, I wanted to go home, I wanted to hold Shu, I wanted to kiss Shu. I wanted to take this feeling out of me, rip it out of my chest, to feel free from this pain… I didn’t want it, I didn’t need it. I wanted to let go. As soon as Shu got to my side, I took his hand and rushed him to the car. “Drive…” “Hana what’s wrong…” “Drive please…” He didn’t ask anything anymore, he just started the car and drove off. Halfway I was still felling disturbed, I wanted to feel free from that smile. “Shu stop the car, here…” “What the hell Hana, you ask me to drive, you ask me to stop, what’s going on…” As soon as he stopped the car, I jumped on him I kissed, I hold him with all the strength I had, I started to strip him down, I took away his shirt and listened to his heartbeat, it was a calming sound… But it wasn’t enough. I kissed him all the way to his pants, and I opened them. I took him in my mouth, and tasted him till I felt him come. “Hana…(breath)…please…wait...” “Don’t say anything, please…Just enter me…now.” “But it’ll hurt, Hana, I have to prepare you first…” “NO!!…like this now…Shu please do it…take me, hold me, do it to me like you always do…(whisper)love me…please.” He took me in his arms, holding me close. He started kissing me, caressing my chest, he sat me in his legs, and when he entered me…I felt his love, he didn’t want to hurt me, he was gentle, but I wanted him to ravish me up, to mess me up, to take me to a point of no return… He must have been confused at that time, but still he didn’t question me. After that crazy scene of mine he still, kissed me… I hold on to him… “Aishiteru…Shu” “Wakata…(smile)” I will forget…I will…for you, starting now…I would forget. _____________________________________________________ Hope you guys liked it... BIG kiss fo' you :leaf3:

Summary: Shingyouji keeps having this dream where Misu has a car accident. When knightmare becomes reality, how will they cope with the aftermath of the tragic event? Status: In progress Author's notes: "We were given: Two hands to hold. Two legs to walk. Two eyes to see. Two ears to listen. But why only one heart? Because the other was given to someone else. For us to find."

"10 days of Pure" Day 7 Hello Now the day 5 of shooting "Pure" The first shooting was the Kyudo Yoshizawa’s in Kyudo-bu(bu mean school club) scene. The location was nearby British Hills, a archery club we borrowed to shot this scene. And back from that we shot the scene of "Shingyouji running in the rain.” The scene of Shingyouji ran 'In the Rain’ it’s not in the original story. (Please see the Questions) If you look closely, the previous restaurant scene had fine weather. When “Shingyouji came out from cafeteria the sky gradually became cloudy and start to rain.” The weather change in this scene was like reflection of the emotion that Shingyoujiand in. Because of that, this scene made into a double sorrow. Next up, the scene of the Medical Room after Misu collapse. It was also in the Making, than changing room was more hard then the shooting the scene. Then the scene in room 400 with Yoshizawa and Takabayashi, that they talk about 'we been miss cross each other.’ Same as "Detail of beauty," we change Gii’s room #300 to #400. Actually this scene location setting was "front of the Cross at the Church," but sudden rain on that day we had to change to room #400. Thanks to that, we could sense more love love mood from them. Also, Mitsuya-kun’s pheromone came out feel good. (Laughs) Then, scene of Misu and Shingyouji in the dressing room. Also, the schedule of shooting was tight, but eventually it end in late night hours. In a good way the both actors was in the natural high of motion. From that we could shoot the scene of the dressing room... Questions Q, The scene when Shingyouji running in the rain was that a representation? A, It’s wasn’t. At first, it didn’t rain and then just happen to rain on that time and made this scene feel more sad and fainful. We always have a battle with the weather when we shooing, but for that day it may have been the "Rain of blessings." Q, How do you decide on the costume(uniform)? Does cast ties their own uniform tie? A, First costume decide according to the image of all the character's and prepare for them. Then at the fitting session with actors, the director and production supervise staff are get the final decided on it. Yes, each actor ties their own uniform tie. Now the newlywed couples are getting very familiar with each other then the shooting of dressing room scene and a scene in room 400. Tomorrow, we will continuation with the dressing room scene, movie Takumi-kun Series "Pure" the last day of shooting! I know it... They cut just before the good part... --;;; So kissing scene you all waiting for is tomorrow... And I have to leave soon... so enjoy this post... See you!! ^^

Hi hi, Here it is chap 8 hope you enjoy... Arigatou to all of you who keep reading...From the bottom of my heart your support is the best... ________________________________________________________________________ Spell… Chapter 8 Truth was…I forgot. Never, for more than 2 years did I thought about the kid that messed me up badly in that afternoon. Never once, did he crossed my mind. I scratched his existence, from that day on i behaved like he never existed. I wanted to be with the person I was in love then, I wanted only him, take care of only him, to stay with him forever. Well I could say now that, I won’t, I won’t be loved like I wished, I won’t be together like I dreamed so many times we would be. I couldn’t stop the overflowing feelings inside… And the flood of tears started once more. He was standing still, looking at me, studying every one of my expressions. “Did you remember Hana-san…?” “Hum, Hum…(nod)” “Do you hate me now?!” “I…I’m confused…but I don’t hate you, I don’t think I do…” “I’m relieved(sigh)…I thought Hana san would once more dislike me…” Such a pained expression… “Once more?! I never disliked you…I just...Got all messed up that time at the Sakura meeting, I had never, ever, seen a smile like yours…a 16 year old brat messing my pace so easily(smile). I was angry at myself for feeling that way Mina-san, besides, you kept my secret right, I have only gratitude.” I caressed Mina’s face, it was so hot under my hand, like a fever, but also so comfortable… I felt he could protect me even from the worst blizzards. His eyes were shining. He got closer to me and took both of my hands on his. “I thought only about you all this time…(kiss on my hands)” His voice was low, mellow, soft…I felt like I was being confessed to in the sweetest way. My heartbeat started to speed up, and my temperature kept on rising… Mostly because he was so close to me, but also, all the things from the night before, where starting to show all over my body now. How could this be? Not even a touch yet, and all this desire built already… “Is it fate, Mina-san?!” “No…it’s love.(whisper)” He caressed my face, looking straight into my eyes never letting go, he kissed me, lightly…softly, like I was precious…valuable… “I’ve been waiting for you for too long already(hold me)….I just want to have you…Possess you. Won’t you let me stay by your side Hana…Won’t you let me love you?(whispered)Since I first saw you blushing hard by that Sakura tree(smile), I thought you we’re the most beautiful thing I’ve seen in my life. I have to have you, I thought then, but I was a kid, I kept waiting the years passed, but never once were out of my mind. You were my goal. There was nothing else I wished to have.” “You say that so easily… It’s not easy Mina-san…” “You’re talking about that guy?! He never loved you… He was always fooling around, having sex with other people, while you were left alone…” “How did you know that I was alone?” “I remembered who he was, I made friends with him at the bar I work part-time, and little at a time, he kept spitting out, that he already had someone, but it was turning boring… That he loved ya…But that you and sex, were two different matters… What the hell is that Hana…?! That’s no way of treating ya… And then I saw you that time…” There’s no way to describe the way he gaze at me then…He was desperately trying to explain something from within himself, his thoughts, his feelings… I felt a little happy, I was the source of this concern. Seemed like he was waiting for a very long time to take that away from his heart, like it was hurting him deeply. “And the way ya looked, you were breaking apart in front of my eyes and couldn’t even hold ya… I wanted to kill him for making you feel like that, to make him disappear from your heart so you could see only me…Is that asking for too much…?! Am I being greedy…Please don’t pity me, and say all ya have to say, all you think of me…cause I know I acted a little like a stalker and…” I kissed him lightly in the lips… The honesty reflected in his eyes was so obvious, like the earth being round. He didn’t have a doubt in his heart, and he was pursuing is own vision of happiness and love… I was fearful… Would it be ok giving him hope, I wanted to, but I looked back and remembered the two years of a relationship, that started beautifully and ended horribly. I don’t want that anymore. I don’t want to suffer anymore… “Won’t you give me a chance Hana-san? Won’t you let me love you, stay with you…” “I don’t know Mina-san, I’m…I…don’t know…” “Then let me show you how I want you just once more…Let me hold again, if still you don’t made up your mind…I’ll leave. I promise.” He got closer, and I could feel his desperation, could I deny that, could I deny the pleasure I know he could give me… It was hard to push him away, caressing me like that. All I could mumble were sounds of pleasure each and every time he touched a single place, a strand of hair, the whispers, so soft in my ear… I grabbed his neck and told him… “Don’t hurt me…please(tear)don’t leave me, that’s my small request if you wish to make me happy…love me more and more, never stop thinking of me… If you won’t stand then say it now, we won’t go further in this, and we will forget. If you don’t I will want you all for myself, I’ll become an egoistic person about everything about you(cry)…Will you stand that… Live only for me , love only me, do this…only to me…Could you do it?” I made him enter me, I wasn’t being able to stop wanting him anymore… Like a drug… The more you have…the more you want… The kisses weren’t enough, we wanted each other more, we caressed more, touched more… Going to a point when you wish to know each sensitive spot, what makes him gasp, breath heavily, heartbeat speed up… Could a relationship based on desire be possible? He loved me, yes… If I loved him…not yet…not just yet, but I could give him a chance, why not…. If he’s serious about it…We could try. I would keep a distance, a safe one, and for now I would go with the flow… “You’re mine(hold tight)… Never in this life will I give you to someone else… So you can bet that I’ll be here for ya, anytime, anywhere ya want me too…I became yours, the first time you looked at me, with that shyness of yours…I ain’t going nowhere, and you’re the one who needs to think if you can do it…” “I’ll try…(caress)for now I’ll be yours…Take good care of me, please…” “I will…(kiss/caress)I will…” No more words were spoken, they weren’t needed… The deep cold snow outside was a visible contrast, with the temperature inside the house… Hot, sweated windows, from our deep heavy breathing, seemed to be crying from the dropping accumulated perspiration… Making love to him, was by itself such experience, to top it off, so damn beautiful… He called me beautiful…he was the one blinding me from the world making me see only him… only his light… “You’re so perfect(breath), so beautiful(caress), (gasp)so perfect(breath)” “I love you(breath)…” The perfect contact with our bodies gave me the sense of two bells, being played at the same time, giving the most sweet melody ever made… We satisfied ourselves in each others touch, kiss, embrace… “Merry Christmas.” “Merry Christmas, Mina(kiss)…” We stared at the window watching the snow fall… Falling asleep in each other arms… The morning may bring whatever may bring. ________________________________________________________________________ Again thank you all for the support... A very big KISS f'o ya :leaf3:

Chap 8 is going to be posted in.... 6 5 4 3 2 1

Title: Waehrend du schliefst (kipferl)

Shingyouji woke in sweat, panting and with an unpleasant feeling of uneasiness. Looking to the side, he could recognize his beloved’s sleeping form, completely unaware of the sudden change of weight on the bed. Shingyouji got up and went to take a shower, see if he could calm down. As the droplets of water fell on his skin, the dream seemed to replay on his mind. Shingyouji hit the wall, tried to forget by turning the water freezing cold, sighed and stood there, tears falling unbidden. He picked the towel and dried himself, looking into his red eyed self in the mirror. Images from the dream came back and he found himself punching the glass, shattering it and drawing blood. Slowly, blood covered his hand and soon was falling down his arm, like a crimson river. Misu was startled by the sudden noise of glass breaking. Seeing his puppy was not in bed, he got up and quickly rushed to him. He found the boy on his knees, his hand a fist full of blood and pieces of the mirror around the ground and the sink. “Shingyouji…? What happened? Why are you…” he started but instantly fell silent as he saw tears in his lover’s eyes. He crouched near the boy, cleaning his wound carefully. He picked the first aid kit, near the tub, and started to take out pieces of glass that were mixed with the blood and flesh of his puppy. Shingyouji seemed petrified; he would not move or say a thing. He was there, kneeling while Misu cleansed his wound, not once complaining about the pain he was feeling. Misu finished putting bandages around the harmed hand, kissing the boy’s forehead before pulling him up into an embrace. “Are you going to tell me now what’s wrong?” he asked ever so softly, but loud enough for the boy to hear. Shingyouji finally reacted, burying his face on the crook of the other’s neck, inhaling the sweet scent that emanated from the exposed skin. “I guess not yet. Let’s move to the living room then? I’ll go fetch some clothes for you and prepare breakfast” Misu said, pating the boy’s head gently. Shingyouji merely nodded, his face bearing an expressionless sight. He sat on the comfy couch, looking at the scattered papers lying on the small table. He turned his gaze to the clock hanging on the wall. It marked six in the morning. A sudden sound coming from the hallway distracted him from his musing. “Shingyouji, breakfast is ready and here are some clothes” Misu announced, a bundle of clothes on his hands. Shingyouji managed a small smile and accepted the clothes, poising them on his lap but not making any further action to actually dress them. What can it be that shook him like this, Misu pondered, was it a nightmare? He knew Shingyouji sometimes had these weird very realistic nightmares, but rather than destroying the mirror, he usually would just wake him crying or with a scream. It was rather unusual for the calm and cheerful boy to behave the way he had a moment ago. Misu managed to pull the towel away and start dressing the younger one. He was tempted to take the boy right there for it was a sight hard to deny, yet it was not the time and especially not the right moment for that. He dressed the boy like he was a child and nudged him to eat. It feels so wrong to let him go to school looking like this, he thought. “Shingyouji… you’re not going to school today and I’m calling in sick for the day, let’s go somewhere and cheer you up a bit. What do you think?” Misu suggested. Shingyouji’s eyes lightened a bit. “I would love to” he answered, his voice hoarse from crying so much. “Okay then, it’s decided” Shingyouji smiled and Misu’s only thought was that it’d be okay.

Hi there guys... Here it is chap 6 hope you guys like it... A small request... Play this song in the background while you read(of course that if you don't like it you can turn it off ) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFgA2k_41v0&feature=related Story so far: Well, Hana-san and Mina san did it... Now how do you think the day after is going to be? And why does Mina-san feel so at "home"with Hana-san? Spell… Chapter 6 I woke up in my bed, butt naked and exhausted… Did I passed out, or fell asleep, I really don’t know. Everything from yesterday was blurry, foggy and impossible for me to take any kind of conclusions. Only one thing was on my mind…I was alone again. “He really did me hard(blush)… One night stand hã… What was I expecting?! Good morning kisses…?” A cold shill went down my spine and I decided to put some clothes on… I got out of bed in a very awkward position, crunching like an old man, hand on my back, because it hurt really bad. I dressed the first thing at hand, which turned out to be my shirt from yesterday… It still smelled like him… Sweet wild flowers, kind of scent. I smelled it once more so that I wouldn’t forget, and while I was having that awkward kind of moment, I heard noises coming from the other side of the door… I opened it very slowly and peeked. He was standing by the stove making something, like a busy bee… “So he’s still here…(strong blush)” I didn’t admitted then but I was happy as hell he was. I opened the door and went out of the room. “Good morning…” I couldn’t even look him in the eye as always…I was still blushing hard. He turned around. “Hey…” The lavished, out of the bed look he had was better than anything I had seen so far. He looked breathtaking. He could easily amaze me with simple kind of things like this…I liked that. I went to meet him, ask what was he doing that smelled so good. He was standing very serious, still looking at me. “What is it…?!” “Are you tempting me Hana-san…?!” He slightly crooked his head to one side while his eyes looked like where eating me from head to toe. I blushed hard again, I wasn’t doing such thing, what the hell… until I looked down. I wasn’t wearing any pants or underwear, only the shirt and still completely open… “Cause that’s quite a sight…” He laughed. “Oh shit, I’m going to get dressed…” “Please don’t be concerned for me, I’m great, please do not put anything else, that is just perfect…(small laugh)” “Perv…I’ll be right back…” I came back to the room… “What the hell was I thinking going out there looking like this…?!” I’m really loosing my mind, and he’s the one to blame. I searched for a pair of trunks, sports pants and a sweater. I didn’t give it a second thought… “I don’t care if I look good or not…” I thought. I went to meet him, he was preparing the table, the sweet smell of coffee, and seemed like cinnamon was filling the room. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt like this, a hearth warming, sweet, cosy kind of feeling. It was comfortable… I remembered Shu, and the past year we spent together. It was nothing like this. I used to wake up alone as well, while he was already sitting in the couch reading his newspapers, breakfast already taken, mine waiting at the table turning cold, we didn’t talk we didn’t even look at each other. The words we shared were only out of courtesy, there was always this choking kind of feeling… It wasn’t comfortable, it wasn’t nice, but I was still there day after day, still waiting for a change, which never came… Only because I loved him. I sat at the table, looking at him. “Hana-san do you like pancakes?” “Hum, yeah…What, you made pancakes?” “Tadada, of course… What could I give the beautiful Hana-san after last night? The best breakfast ever….(small laugh)” “You shouldn’t trouble yourself with me…anything is fine…” “No way…” He got closer, I thought he was going to kiss me, but he just whispered… “If it’s for you, only the best is allowed...” He gave me a small kiss in the cheek, and I felt my face turn bright red. “Ahahah, i’m afraid to even ask why’s that… I’m not special, I’m not important…I’m just me…” “Is that what you really think of yourself? You should care for yourself more…..Or I could do it for you. I would care, and I would tell you how important you are every day, if you want me to…” “What are you saying, you don’t even know me, there’s no way that kind of feelings could grow in one night…we don’t have that kind of relationship, and I don’t want one right now…” “Really? That’s a pity…I really thought that you were over that guy…” “What guy? What are talking about?!” “Let’s just say that I know Hana-san better than Hana-san thinks…(smile)” That smile looked bitter, not his usual radiance or shine, there was sadness in it. That made me feel nervous… I didn’t like his smile like that, what was behind those words…?! How could he know me… Does he remember…? “Why you say that Mina-san…I never met you before…so i…” “Never mind that…let’s eat or it will get cold…” He also sat, and i started eating… It was delicious, he made a mixture of cinnamon with the pancake fillings, it really was amazing. “Mina-san you really can cook, it’s delicious…” “I’m happy Hana-san liked it…” And he stood there watching me, taking small sips from his coffee cup, never speaking just watching me eat… “What is it Mina-san…? Do I have something in my face?” “No, eat. I’m just observing you. Can’t i?” “Why should you, I’m sure there’s loads of important stuff for you to do right?” “Actually, no! And you Hana-san, aren’t you going to work today?” Such a sad look…What was he hiding?! “No I won’t. I work in international affairs. My company does business with lot’s of international companies, and most of those are European…They celebrate Christmas there as well, and nothing runs so, we have the day off…” “Do you want to spend this day with me Hana-san?” There’s that sad look again… When he said that it didn’t look like a request it was almost like he was pleading me… It bothered me… Why was he so sad, why did he so desperately wanted my company? “Ok, but Mina-san… Can we just be…more like friends than…” “I understand Hana-san…I got it the first time you said it, you want nothing from me but sex, right?!” “What wait, that’s not what I meant…” “It’s ok Hana-san, whenever you want it I’ll give to you…” He started to touch me and of course, I started to feel it too but… “Mina-san!” My tone raised some decibels so I could make myself clear. I kept my voice calm, and spoke to him in a very formal way…. “Yesterday, I am sorry, I still don’t know how that happened, I got myself involved with you because you really do attract me, but that’s it. The sex was out of this world?! Yes it was, never did I experience anything like that, but let’s just stick to this night, because it won’t happen again…” I couldn’t do it again… I was so very afraid, I could see myself going thru the same path, and I lost it… I knew that now all looked ok, but later I would be the one suffering, I would be the one crying… He looked pained, and that hurt my heart so badly I wished to take back everything I just said… But I couldn’t… “So that’s what Hana-san thinks? Did he hurt you so bad, you’re afraid off loving again, Hana-san?” “What the hell do you know about me Mina-san, just spit it already…You remember me from the bar right…That’s it right?! You saw my miserable state that night and now you’re pitting me…isn’t it?! Well I don’t need pity. I’m just starting to get on my own two feet again, and I don’t want no one disturbing my pace. Not you, not Shu, not anyone…” My voice trembled a little in the end… Did he figure out I’m lying thru my teeth? Will he realize that I’m terrified of being alone, and take advantage of it?! He did none. “Hana-san. I’m sorry. I’m being a pain right… Well you have a point when you say I remember you. How could I forget?! I liked you right then, but not from the bar… But your crying face, your pained smile, when you saw your boyfriend with someone else…” I turned pale. He knew everything, he was lying too… What does this mean…? “…I wanted to comfort you right then but you didn’t let me… so I backed out, I didn’t wanted to push you. I waited for another chance. And now that I have it, you still don’t want me…I’m getting tired of waiting Hana-san…” “What?” “You think the first time I met you was at the bar right?! Well, you’re wrong! The first time I met you was 2 years ago during a Kabuki festival, my parents organized…You where there, together with him. You spoke to me, and as soon as I saw you I fell in love with you.” “What are you talking about…Mina-san I never met you before the bar…I’m sure of it, I would remember…” “ You wouldn’t Hana-san…I look different from before…and with the make up there’s no way you could…" Suddenly an image of a garden filled with Sakura in full bloom, a white face staring at me, came to my mind…

Lately i'm often thinking 'Am i gay?' and stuff like that. Do i just want to be different, or do i really have a thing for girls? I don't know -.-:cuteonion51: I don't think i would mind if i'm gay and i was wondering what would you feel and for those who are gay - how did you foud out, how did you feel and have you already told your parents about that, how are they feeling about that etc so basically, if you could, tell me the whole story about it so sorry to bother :cuteonion50:

sweet dream:msn_red_fox 3

This was written some time ago,but here ya go.This poem is about bullying.Hope you like it! The rain stops But the pain is still the same Can you,please,not mock? It's not funny going insane It's a disease It's a hell Please Just drop that bombshell Hair covering eyes Arms covering knees I'm like this,disguised Would you stop the mocking,please? Bruises painted on the skin Things that you made With a big grin On your face I feel like crap I wish I was brave Enough to snap But I'm just your slave I'm your damn slave I'm tired of living a lie Words written on my grave Goodbye

i'm a girl and i'm straight.yes, i have a time in my life when i asked myself that question but then i realized that it was just... a thing. a few times i have look at a girl and thougt "oh, she's hot" and maybe even think other stuff.. hehe. but it was just that and soon i would forget it. i have never felt anything deeper to a girl. so, well... i'm sorry that i don't know how to help you. but if you need to talk.. feel free!!

The scene in the library where they kiss is so HOT OMG - I have watched it 20 times anyway. Passing the chocolate to him by mouth is - well it leaves me breathless LOL They are a great couple and you can feel the chemistry between them every time.:hamtaro-005 (6): I never really liked the live action stuff before but thanks to all of you I have discovered a new addiction! :hamtaro-005 (23): Thank you all

i got 5 minutes before going for studies so i'll make it short... THANX HAMA KUN AGAIN!!!! *hugs* gosh... rain of blessings is totally a bless... that scene became so emotional...i can feel the pain that shingyouji's feeling... itz so painful... the rain indeed helped the scene a lot!!!...*thanx god fo that* so the kiss scwne is tmorrow???...yeay!!! im free tomorrow after being a tutor..and settling the suicide news...lol....i cant wait to read!!! KISSU~KISSU...GO~GO!!!! *wtf??* im so in love right now...gonna watch Pure again before sleeping...

Shingyouji knew deep inside that he shouldn’t have left like he did. He could only imagine how angry his lover would be after. Yet, the boy felt relieved. At that moment, he didn’t want to face Misu and his beaming self when he had been so close to death. Shingyouji wanted to cry himself to exhaustion, release the tension that had been building the past few days but he knew it wouldn’t change anything, since when has anything been accomplished with tears? He phoned Ren and told him about the events, leading to a very sad Ren and a very apologetic Shingyouji in the end. Ren was a very emotional and sensitive guy, more now that he lost his only meaning to live. They ended up not saying much but Shingyouji felt somehow better. (hope you liked, not going to finish)

“…Arata-san!” Misu could hear the distant voice. He succeeded in opening his eyes at some point, the first he saw was his puppy’s face, tears falling freely. “Shingyouji… where am I?” he asked, feeling dizzy. “Hospital, the car crashed… it’s not like you lost a lot of blood, but because of your anemia it was very complicated… luckily your legs are fine and your face only had some scratches…” Shingyouji explained, between sobs. Misu could feel his arms had been bandaged. He reached to caress the boy’s cheek. “I shouldn’t have let you go… I had been feeling uneasy… I’m sorry…” “Don’t be silly, no one would have predicted this… it wasn’t your fault, so don’t be foolish” Misu scolded, hitting the boy’s head lightly. “They say it wasn’t a natural thing, the car must’ve been sabotaged” Shingyouji said, scratching his head, “You look so pale…” “I’m fine… so, when can I go home?” “Arata-san! Be a bit more self-aware! Don’t say jokes like that…” the boy shouted, concern written all over his face. Misu laughed, embracing the boy. His puppy was truly cute. “I thought I’d lose you…” Shingyouji whispered. “Thought you’d get rid of me so easily? Don’t think so. You’re mine, Shingyouji” Misu said, his lips curved into a smirk. “How can you joke like that when you could’ve died? Do you know how much I worried? You’re never going to change…” Shingyouji complained, pulling the other man away. The boy turned to leave, tears still falling. Shit, Misu thought, I went a bit too far with that… He waited for Shingyouji to come back soon. The boy didn’t come. “Might as well rest… as soon as I’m good to get out of this place…” Misu thought, before closing his eyes. Not very long after, a medic entered. “We’ve analyzed your health, and tomorrow you may take leave. Just be careful about your anemia in the following weeks. You should feel weak, but we’re going to pass you a medicine to help with that” explained the man, his eyes never leaving the piece of paper he held. Misu opened his eyes and nodded. He hated to take medicine but was already used to anyway. His thoughts concentrated on what he would do once he got home.

(Back to present) Misu sat across his lover. Shingyouji didn’t look like he was going to eat any of the things scattered on the table. “Shingyouji, if you dreamed about a car accident again, I assure you everything is going to be okay, so now eat something for god’s sake” he urged. Shingyouji visibly flinched. Misu sighed. “Since you won’t eat by yourself, I’ll be feeding you” Shingyouji pulled away. He didn’t want this right now. He wanted to have his lover’s arms around him and that was it. “Shingyouji… If you’re going to act like that, I’m going out to get some fresh air” Shingyouji didn’t make a move to stop his lover from going. He was just reliving his dream over and over again. Misu sighed in defeat and hugged his puppy. He hated to see him in such a desolated state. “I’m sorry I’m being so selfish…” Shingyouji finally said, his voice not more than a whisper. “Don’t worry about it, it was just a dream you know? Touch me, I’m here, I’m alright, I’m safe and sound” Misu said in a reassuring tone. Shingyouji knew that, he knew Misu was right there with him but it had been so vivid, so real. “Shingyouji, I have to get something for us to eat for lunch, I won’t be long” Misu said, pulling the boy at arm’s length, “So could you at least eat your breakfast while I’m gone?” The boy nodded. Misu planted a kiss on his puppy’s head and turned to the door. As Shingyouji heard his lover leave, he ate what he could and returned to bed. The grocery shop wasn’t far from the house, but apparently was closed. Misu went for the car. “The shop just had to be closed… perfect…” he muttered. He didn’t want to take long for he knew his puppy would worry, especially in his current state. All of a sudden, Misu heard one of the tires do a weird sound. Don’t tell me the tire’s got a hole… of all the times… this day is being the best, he thought bitterly. What he wasn’t expecting was for the sound to increase and the car to start turning by itself. “Damn, that hole should make the wheel stop not make it go out of control” Misu cursed, trying to turn the steering wheel, so as to keep the car from the opposite side of the road end. He knew it was useless when he heard the same sound repeat on another of the tires and braced himself for the impact. The car hit the nearest road lamp post, making the glass break, but luckily, Misu had put his arms in front of himself to avoid getting hit on the face. For some reason, the airbag hadn’t been released. He tried to move but soon noticed the front part was too crushed for him to get out without help. He could feel blood slipping down his arms due to shards of glass, which had been projected upon the impact. Nice work, he thought proudly, I just managed to avoid getting my legs crushed and my face all bloody. He could hear the sound of an ambulance nearby and knew help had finally come. And with that thought he let himself slip into unconsciousness, the last thing on his mind the face of Shingyouji.

It was weekend, a bright Sunday even. Shingyouji could hear the birds chirping outside and even though he was in a fit to scream, it managed to calm him down. Misu had said he’d spend the weekend with his lover, they had planned to go to the nearby library and rent something, they had planned oh having some time together and yet his lover had gone with his dear Sagara-senpai to a museum, just because the man was back from some long trip, like a good kouhai, like a girl with a crush. He felt like biting the man’s head off. He knew Sagara-san had found himself a cute girl and that they were getting married sometime soon, but it was still getting on his nerves. The phone rang. Shingyouji reluctantly got up and lazily picked up the phone. “Moshi moshi? Oh, Ren-chan, what is it? What?! I’ll be there as soon as possible!” Shingyouji hurriedly dressed, picked the keys, locked the apartment and ran. He ran as fast as his feet could take him. He texted his lover that he’d be home late. He hurried to the hospital. “Ren-chan, are you alright? How’s Kazuki-sensei?” Shingyouji asked as soon as he saw the boy. “Shingyouji-kun… he’s not breathing… his heart wasn’t beating… he’s going to die… Shingyouji, he’s going to die…” was all Ren could manage between sobs. He held onto the boy tightly, trying to reassure him everything would turn out for the best. It was a long time before a medic finally came. His face wasn’t the one of a good news bearer. “Iwate-san, your friend… we did all we could, I’m terribly sorry but he did not survive… he was too weak… there was nothing we could do…” was the medic’s news. Ren went completely static before breaking into a rage of tears, utterly broken. Shingyouji felt like crying too but he knew that if he did, it would only get his friend crying more. He had to be strong because he knew Ren wasn’t. He patted the other’s head gently, massaged him reassuringly and whispered softly so to calm the boy, but nothing seemed to move him from his broken state. Ren had told him it had been a car accident. It had been raining and the car suddenly went out of control. Ren only knew about it because it was the first number on the victim’s phone list. It dawned on Shingyouji this could happen to Misu and that thought alone left him petrified with fear. As soon as he got Ren home, safe and sound and also a bit calmer, Shingyouji stormed home. He saw that his lover was already inside and launched himself into his arms, crying wholeheartedly. “What’s wrong Shingyouji?” Misu asked, his voice held true concern. Shingyouji slowly explained the whole day’s events. “Silly, that won’t happen to me, I’m an excellent driver” he tried to reassure, but noticed it wasn’t helping at all, “Shingyouji, there’s nothing we can do about it, it can happen but I’ll be extra careful, will that stop you from worrying?” “No, but it helps” Shingyouji whispered. Misu kissed his puppy’s forehead gently. “You’ll see nothing will happen. So, want to watch that movie you were fussing about so much?” “Hai!”

“Omedetou, Ren-chan! So, how’s it going between you and sensei?” Shingyouji asked, grinning foolishly. “Eh?! How do you know about that?” Ren was shocked, his face becoming as red as a tomato. “Let’s just say, a “cupid” hit you hard and you didn’t even see who it was” “WHAT? You were the one to do those letter things? Oh my… you’re so… it’s just unthinkable… but… I want to thank you” Ren said, his eyes shining. Shingyouji noticed the sensei was looking their way, with an expression that you could read as jealousy. “I think Kazuki-sensei is thinking of hanging me for making you blush” Shingyouji teased. Ren immediately turned to the sensei and as their eyes met, Shingyouji could see the sensei really loved his friend. Ren had a sheepish smile on his face while the sensei’s eyes softened. Oh, how he wished his lover would be like that more often. It wasn’t like he didn’t do it once in a while. But mostly at home and only if he was in the mood, which was becoming rare. Shingyouji sighed. When he got home, Shingyouji noticed Misu wasn’t back yet. He settled to make dinner and do his homework while he waited for his lover. There was a sudden brightness, followed by a loud thundering sound. It was raining, heavily raining. Shingyouji looked out the window. He longed to see his lover’s face. He always worried on rainy days. The sound of the door was enough for him to forget his worries. “Arata-san! Okaeri! How was your day? Dinner is ready.” The boy greeted. Misu kicked his shoes off, muttered something and went for the bathroom, leaving a puzzled Shingyouji in the middle of the hallway. He could hear the sound of water and knew his lover went to take a shower. This was what he disliked. These days when not even a proper greeting was given to him. The days when he knew that if he disturbed his lover, he’d be in trouble. On these days, Shingyouji felt like he was nothing more than his lover’s “thing”, something for him to just play with, get tired and throw away. He dreaded the day his lover would get tired of him. His stomach started to hurt, not on behalf of hunger, rather it felt as if it was churning. He decided he’d just go to bed without eating. Sometime after, Misu go out of the shower. Shingyouji hoped the other would see him missing and would come ask if he was okay, would kiss him good night and wish him to recover. But he waited for 3 whole hours and his lover didn’t come. This was the reason he sometimes felt like running away.

Singyouji had a plan. “June-chan, Yoji-chan, you girls ready?” he asked. “Hai!” A simple plan it was. He waited until he saw that both the sensei and Ren were completely caught up with the girls before approaching. One of them was feigning curiosity about the upcoming chemistry event, while the other was talking to Ren about the same topic. Both were distracted. He managed to slip both letters to the respective bag, sighing in relief for everything having gone as planned. “Good work!” he congratulated, as soon as they were alone. “Oh, I can’t wait to see sensei’s face” one of them said. “Oh and can you imagine Ren’s kawaii face when he sees it? It’ll be priceless!” said the other. “You’re both right, I just wish I could see them” Shingyouji agreed, his same old goofy smile appearing. “Fine enough, we’ll get our results soon” he murmured, more to himself than to anyone else. Ren saw his bag had been moved. Thinking it was rather strange, he went to check if anything had been stolen. He saw a small letter instead. His face was completely red when he finished reading. “It can’t be…” he whispered, not believing what was before him. He ran down the corridor, directly to the teacher’s room. “Kazuki-sensei!” he called, panting. Said sensei immediately looked his way, his expression blank. As the matter asked, they talked on the roof, more privately. “Kazuki-sensei… I…” Ren was having a hard time getting the words out. “Ren… I didn’t know you felt that way about me… had I known… but it’s still improper… I am, after all, your sensei, older than you even…” “Age isn’t the question… profession isn’t the question… all that doesn’t matter in my eyes… what I really want to know… the real question is… do you feel the same? Anything at all?” Kazuki-sensei could see his student was very serious about the whole situation. He would have never doubted his adorable student’s feelings, but the situation was delicate. The boy’s family had great influence on the school; they were a rich family, they were known everywhere in Japan. His position was at stake, the boy’s future was at stake. Did he love his student that way? Of course he did, what else could he call those manifestations of affection towards the younger one? What else could he call the butterflies on his stomach when the boy would smile so openly for him? What could he call the squeeze in his heart whenever he saw the boy with the others? Ren was staring at his sensei, his heart like a drum, beating so fast and so hard. It hurt, he knew, the sensei would never answer his feelings. It hurt so much; his heart felt like it was being torn apart. A single tear rolled down his face, before many others followed. “I’m sorry I put you through this, sensei. Forget all about it. Let’s go back to being ourselves? Just pretend nothing happened…” Ren said, his heart hurting with every word he said. He turned to leave. The sensei’s eyes widened in shock. He unconsciously pulled the boy’s arm, pulled him towards himself, towards the warmth of his arms and didn’t let go. “It is rather awkward to have to put myself on the tips of my feet but… I’m not letting you go now… not after what happened” and so did Kazuki-sensei close the distance between them in a sweet kiss, a long awaited kiss. Ren couldn’t believe any of it. He was being kissed? By the person he loved even, he must be dreaming. But it was real, he could feel it and it felt better than he ever imagined. Somewhere hidden, three little “cupids” were watching the whole scene, grinning wickedly.

During chemistry class, Ren was seated next to Shingyouji. Ren seemed to take a liking to the sensei and was always staring with a forlorn expression. There was nothing of special to the sensei in question. He was small, smaller than him and Ren, his face was such a baby face, making you mistake him for a teen sometimes. His hair was short, light brown curls adorning his head. The only thing that would really get your attention was the eyes, a soft light shade of blue, so deep and clear that it was awkward to stare into them very long. Still, Shingyouji could notice Ren was head over heels in love with the older man. He would be very shy whenever the sensei would talk to him and you could actually see him melting when said sensei smiled. It reminded Shingyouji of his own love for Misu a bit. Contrary to his love, Ren’s was very unlikely to turn out successful. “Ren-chan, I know you like Kazuki-sensei” Shingyouji revealed, his expression serious. Ren’s attention immediately turned from the sensei to his friend, his eyes wide with shock. “Was I that obvious?” Ren asked, his look a sad one. “Kind of, don’t worry I’m a very obvious person too. It’s just that your marks have been turning out so bad and you seem so depressed lately, I thought it was a good thing to tell you this: either confess once and for all or forget him” Ren bit his lip. Confessing? To a teacher? To THAT teacher? He couldn’t do it… but forgetting wasn’t an easy way out either. “I… can’t… I’ve tried… but the words don’t come out” “You have to do something about it or you’ll fail your exams” Shingyouji warned, feeling sorry for his friend. “Ren and Shingyouji, keep quiet now” came the scolding voice. “Hai, Kazuki-sensei” both answered in a chorus. Shingyouji knew better than anyone how it felt to be insecure, to feel like the other person will never acknowledge your feelings, and he was sorry for his friend. He would ask his lover later on what he could do to help. That was a good idea, since Misu was more mature than himself. As soon as classes ended, the boy rushed home. “Arata-san! I need your help! Arata…san?” Shingyouji started, but as soon as he saw his lover’s naked torso as he lay on the couch, watching the news, he couldn’t help but stare. “Yes, Shingyouji, what is that you need?” Misu asked, a smile gracing his lips as he saw his puppy’s eyes watching him, wanting him. “I…” Shingyouji swallowed hard, “I… there was something I needed to ask… but I think I forgot it…” Misu chuckled. He got up and leaned on the boy, enough so that Shingyouji was feeling his hot breath against his neck, allowing goose bumps to form. “Arata-san… what are you thinking?” “Shingyouji… you simply don’t want to know what’s going on my mind right now… it’s so… impure… so… perverted…” Misu breathed huskily, emphasizing each word deliberately, making a shiver run down his puppy’s spine. Shingyouji’s heartbeat quickened, his breathing accelerated, his head was spinning, he couldn’t think straight with his lover so near and saying those naughty things. Misu carefully led them to the bedroom, pulling the boy down on the pool of sheets beneath. He attacked the boy’s lips, his tongue exploring the others mouth anew, like it was the first time. He quickly changed to the neck, nibbling hard enough to leave marks, marking him as his possession. Shingyouji couldn’t help but moan and gasp in pleasure. It wasn’t painful at all, it was very arousing indeed. He knew he was already hard from the moment he saw his lover on the couch. Misu paused just a bit, just to look at his puppy’s flushed face, before tearing the other’s shirt open. He earnestly circled the nipple with his tongue, feeling it harden immediately. He continued his ministrations, nibbling, sucking, licking, teasing. He switched to the other one, going through the same process. Shingyouji was feeling close, so very close, but he didn’t want it to happen now, not until he felt his lover inside. But Misu was driving him crazy with the whole slow teasing process. Misu could feel his puppy wasn’t very far from coming so he took the opportunity to pull away and undress him. He took in the sight of a flushed, stark naked Shingyouji with lust filled eyes. It was enough to leave him breathless. He took Shingyouji fully, eliciting the most amazing sounds from the boy. “Ah… Arata-san… please…” Shingyouji started. Misu didn’t stop what he was doing. “Please… just… take me… I need… Ah!” He pulled shortly away. “Shingyouji, come for me” Misu said, before taking him again. Just the sight of his lover’s face as he said that was enough to take his breath away and soon enough he could feel it. Misu swallowed the salty tasting fluids, moving to caress the red cheeks of his puppy, who was still recovering from the intense waves of pleasure. “Okay, now let’s go eat dinner” Misu said. “Eh? But… you haven’t… you’re not even undressed! You still haven’t…” Shingyouji started but his lover put a finger to his lips. “I’m satisfied. So, what was it that you wanted to ask me?” “Oh, it’s about a friend of mine. He’s in love with our chemistry sensei and you see… I was thinking if there was anything I could do to help him, you’d be the one to know” Shingyouji explained, playing with Misu’s hair. “That’s a hard one… I don’t think he has any chances with that… and Shingyouji, no matter how much you want to help, I don’t think you should” He explained carefully. “But why? He deserves a chance to be happy, he’s a very sensitive guy, he almost looks like a girl, and I can see he’s completely head over heels about our sensei… it’s not impossible, Arata-san, I know it isn’t” “No one said it isn’t, it’s just not very likely to work out” Shingyouji sighed. Deep down he knew his lover was right. But also, deep down he knew it wasn’t impossible.

“Tadaima!” Shingyouji announced as he entered the front door. “Okaeri” Misu greeted, still looking at some papers. “And here I was expecting a hug or a kiss from the beloved wife” Shingyouji teased. “If anyone’s going to act the wife role, that someone is you and you don’t deserve either… leaving me turned on all evening… not a care in the world!” Misu said, his eyes never meeting those of the boy. Shingyouji hid his gaping mouth with his hand. Had his lover said he was the wife? That he had been turned on all evening? He could die happy. “Have you no shame, Arata-san!” “Have you no shame for leaving me like this, Shingyouji?” he said, looking directly into Shingyouji’s eyes. Oh no, he’s in one of those days… , he thought. “Ano… Arata-san, I have school tomorrow… I will happily take punishment for leaving you like that but please, I’m not looking forward to feeling sore all day long…” the boy said, unsure of his lover’s true intentions. Misu smirked. “Is that so? Well then, let’s leave the punishment for the weekend, I also have a lot of work to do, so…” he said, letting out a sigh of tiredness. “Oh… okay, I’ll go make dinner. I’ll call you when it’s ready” Shingyouji said, giving a kiss on his lover’s cheek. As he watched his puppy walk to the kitchen, Misu couldn’t help but feel a certain longing.

“Shingyouji-kun, thank you so much! I don’t know what would happen if you could not come” Takumi said, his face washed with relief. “No problem. I’ll take it from here then” Shingyouji answered, his goofy smile plastered on his face. “Okay, see you then! And thank you again!” Shingyouji waved to the older boy before turning to the new student. “So… you’re new here, what’s your name?” “I… I’m Ren Iwate, nice to meet you… You are?” the other boy said, looking down. “I’m Shingyouji Kanemitsu! So you’re going to be in my class right? I might as well get to know you then” Shingyouji said with his ever present radiant smile. Ren nodded, managing a small smile. They talked all evening, while Shingyouji served as a guide, showing him around the school, enabling Ren to loosen a bit from his shyness. “You are quite shy but when you start to open up, you’re very funny” Shingyouji said. “Eh? Don’t say that!” Ren shouted, embarrassed. Ren was the perfect female aspect of a man. His hair was long, chocolate like colored; his eyes green and his face had soft features, features that could easily get him mistaken for a girl’s face; his voice was high and soft, almost musical, but it still reminded Shingyouji of a child’s voice, a little girl’s voice. His body was slender and not very tall, he was little more than Shingyouji’s height after all. I better keep a watch on him or the other guys are going to eat him alive, Shingyouji thought. “It’s getting late; my parents wouldn’t be pleased with me for being home so late… I have to go Shingyouji-san” Ren said, looking worried. “Okay then, see you tomorrow! Take care. Oh and, you can call me by something more friendly, Ren-chan” Ren blushed by hearing his name pronounced with such a girlish honorific. “See you…”

(6 months earlier) “Arata-san! Look, look! I got an A! Do I get a reward?” Shingyouji excitedly said, waving a piece of paper around. “Good work, keep it up and you’ll make it to university” Misu said, not once taking his eyes from the sheet of paper he had been so busily looking at the past 3 hours. “Awh, you’re such a mood spoiler!” the boy sighed in defeat. Misu smiled. It was so typical of his puppy. “Come here before I change my mind” he told the younger boy, his expression the only invitation Shingyouji needed. It started as a simple kiss but rapidly grew into something deeper. Shyngyouji was fighting for dominance over Misu’s ever unfaltering tongue, in a challenge he already knew he could not win. He finally gave up, letting himself be dominated. Misu suck on the boy’s tongue, leaving the already swollen lips of his lover to attack his neck. He simply could not resist his puppy’s exposed neck, much less when the boy was leaning in a way that made it fully visible and accessible. He showered the boy in kisses, biting ever so gently here and there. Shingyouji let out beautiful moans, which only helped increase Misu’s arousal even more. “Shingyouji” he breathed into the soft skin. Suddenly, the phone rang. Curse the stupid phone, he admonished, of all times… “Moshi moshi? Oh, Hayama-san! How are you? Oh… really? Sure, I’ll be there in a few” Shingyouji answered on the phone, his face still flushed by the earlier events. “What does he want?” Misu asked, slightly annoyed by the unwanted interruption. “It’s Hayama, there’s a new student and he has something to do with Gii-senpai so he asked if I could fill in for him” Shingyouji explained, scratching his head. He perfectly knew his lover simply hated when something like what happened earlier was left half way, he himself didn’t like it. “I’m going to take a cold shower… get back quickly so we can pick things where we left them” Misu urged the boy, smirking evily. Oh that look on his face, Shingyouji thought, he’s not going to let me sleep tonight…

Spell… Chapter 4 I went to take a shower, when I took off my shirt my chest was still pounding so hard you could see my chest going up and down like something was about to burst. I needed to cool down so I turned the shower took a reaally long one, and waited for my breathing and heartbeat to go back to normal… As soon as could breathe normally I started thinking… He was really different from that time. Today the long silky hair was gone, and instead a short cut but still shining silky black appeared. He was still looking dazzling. The perfect shape of his nose, black eyes( I think they were black, the other time I didn’t catch that right and today I couldn’t even face him properly) and those lips, that felt like were imprinted on mine when he kissed me. I pressed my fingers to my lips and they were pounding, like somehow they were expecting something… They were so hot, they were expecting his kiss again… Shit… seeing him now was not good at all… I could just do something crazy. December 24rd Morning came, and I was terrified that our paths could come across, we lived at the same building. I mean I acted like a crazy person yesterday. Now he must probably hate me and having a point there. Who told me to act like that right?! If he didn’t knew who I was there was no need to panic. But as soon as his image came to my mind my body reacted differently. I went to work, without giving it further thought, I had to go to work now and, do my job properly, and that’s what I should be concerned right now. Work day went by, and the hard part was going to begin now. Walking my way back home, i heard someone call my name. That voice, well i was wishing not to listen to it for a longer time, before I really had to so I could be prepared. I wasn’t. Shu was waiting for me by a small garden near my office. “Hana, wait. I need to talk to you.” He certainly choose a good day to disturb me, Christmas Eve and my ex-boyfriend shows up to destroy my peace. “What is it Shu. I have to go home, I have a lot of work to so…” “Please, it’s just a few minutes…” What did he want with me…and today off all days, it was already difficult without seeing him why did he have to show up? “Ok, let’s go to the cafe near the trains.” And there we went. That brought back memories from when we used to meet each other near that same garden so we could go home together… What was he up to, what did he want? We broke up, for weeks he didn’t even tried to contact me… What was it now?! “I came so I could ask you when will you go pick up your stuff that’s left in the house. I’ll be needing the space.” “Oh so you already found somebody to replace me…I see.” “It’s not of your damn business, I just need to know when so I could make arrangements to…” I didn’t even left him finish. “Throw or give them away, sell them, get rid of them. They’re trash, just like me right? Get rid of them like you did with me. Replace them or whatever…I really, really don’t care. See ya.” “Hey wait Hana…” I was already out the door. I managed somehow not to cry in public again, and when I was almost at home a hand grabbed my shoulder. “Hi there again. Are ya going to ignore me today as well?” HOLLY SHIT!! “Hi there…hum…about yesterday I’m so really sorry. I really wasn’t feeling very well so I kind of…” “Yeah well, I don’t know if I’m gonna forgive ya!” “I understand, I’m so sorry…” “I’ll think about during dinner…” “Wha…Excuse me?!” “Well make me dinner and I’ll think about forgiving you…” Oh… There it was that smile…. I felt my knees turning to jelly, my face turned fire and I wasn’t feeling well… Having dinner with him?! What was this about? Was he joking with me? “So what’s your answer? You make me dinner and I forgive you, how’s going to be?” “It’s Christmas Eve…Don’t you have plans…with somebody?” “I’m trying to make plans with ya, if you don’t mind, i0’m kind of hoping you don’t have plans yourself…ahahah.” What the hell, what about me, I might have plans right?! I might have someone waiting for me… Of course I hadn’t but that was not the point. “So what do ya say? My forgiveness for a dinner tonight?! Sounds like a great deal right?!” There goes that smile again…it makes go off track. My head was a complete black and all I was able to answer was… “OK…” “Yay, free dinner goodie… I’m starting to forgive ya already hum… I still don’t know your name. I’m Shirou Mina, but everybody just call me Mina-san, yours?!” “Hum I’m Myaki Hana…” “Hana…Hana…I heard that name before somewhere…” Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit….. “Well…hum I …don’t think I’ve made your acquaintance yet, perhaps another “Hana” maybe…” Hope that worked. “Yeah who knows…I meet people all the time…eheheh” Fiiiuuu…sigh “You seem like a very merry person Mina-san, always laughing and all…” “Thank you…ahahah I’ll take that as a compliment, right?!” “Sort of…” “What?!” “Ah, nothing, nothing. Hum Mina-san there’s just a small, little, insignificant problem, you see I can’t…hum quite cook…” “Ahahhah, ok so let’s do this let’s grab some groceries, that you’ll be paying for and I’ll make dinner. What do ya think?” “Hum ok, if you don’t mind having the trouble, I mean I was supposed to “cook for your forgiveness” right?!” “Ah, Hana-san you made a joke…So cute ahahah” I blushed even harder this time. Cute a 28 year old man, cute now that’s absurd… “Ok so what do you wanna have for dinner Hana-san? I’m a great cook so I’ll cook anything you ask?” Another blush, I was starting to feel numb cause all my blood was rushing to my face… This was turning ridiculous, I should get a hold of myself some more… “Hum anything’s fine with me Mina-san, you choose ok, you’re the one I’m supposed to be offering right?” “Is that so Hana-san…?” He got a lot closer to me and I could feel his warmth. “You shouldn’t say that so many often cause I’ll take advantage of you Hana-san…” That was almost a whispering, and I felt all of my blood boil, it was something I never felt before in my life, the way he was looking at me right now, shouldn’t be legal. “Ok then let’s go Hana-san, before it gets to dark…”

December 23rd I completed the small arrangements I wanted around the house, I wanted to move in before Christmas, nothing was more depressing than spending Christmas night in a hotel. Not that I was really looking forward to it. I mean with whom would I be spending such a lovely period?! Alone?! Exactly. So I shouldn’t be expecting anything else but loneliness… I asked for a 3 day off from my job so I could prepare everything to move in. I went shopping bought cheap but great things to my new home, and they were delivering it today. I was a little excited. It was a new start, and I was just a little relieved I was getting a place of my own. Shu didn’t call, text or tried to contact me in any way. It seemed he forgot all about me. Not that I wasn’t expecting it but the feeling his despise was giving me was not pleasant at all. “I mean… we were together for two god damn years… How could I just simply forget?!…Right now I really wished I could.” It’s been three weeks since that terrible night, and the mixture of feelings I have from that time, still made me confused. The anger, the fear, the excitement… A really funny feeling came when I remembered the guy I saw dancing… “Mina-san…wasn’t it?!” Gosh he was really good looking. I giggled to the thought from the kiss he gave me. I sometimes could feel the warmth of his lips… I stopped for a second. “Oh c’mon I could that be…it was 3 weeks ago man. Anything that had happened should have disappeared already what the hell…talking about feeling his lips… Talking about crazy I tell you. Get a hold of yourself…” Truth was that I wouldn’t probably ever see him again, and the thought squeezed my chest a little. I wanted somebody to hold, to kiss…and well to do a lot of stuff too I mean when was the last time I DID it… I blushed terribly to the thought. “Oh god what am I thinking at this time of the day….” Somebody hit the bell and I went to answer it, still blushing like an idiot. The furniture was here, and I started putting everything in place, planning which place was best for each piece I’ve bought. “Fiiuu…shit now that was hard. Never thought I bought so many things.” After I finished placing the most important stuff I thought of preparing a little something for the neighbors, but I changed my mind. Well I wasn’t much of a cook. Ok, ok not a cook at all, I would probably blow up the kitchen frying a freaking egg. Shu used to do all the cooking. I loved to watch him cook he looked really sexy. Another stab on the chest. Shu wasn’t here anymore so I would need to learn how to do things myself. And that is what I need to concentrate for now… well I’ll just by something nice and cheap to the neighbors… I was getting broke so I couldn’t splurge. I found a small “patisserie” selling some delicious cookies with a very good price and I bought them. Problem solved. Now all I had to do was give them away so I could get over it. After I was done with wrapping the cookies, I went to give them. Door bell to door bell saying hello and please take care of me from now on, it wasn’t that hard. “Finally the last one. Well they’re really nice neighbors, they didn’t ask too many questions, they weren’t weird, so I guess I really hit jackpot coming here…” I pushed the last one, but no one answered. “It’s not that late yet… They probably aren’t home yet. I’ll wait for later, or maybe tomorrow…” I placed the only package left close to the entrance and started to clean up the rest of things I had to put away, storage and organize. It wasn’t much after that I heard the door bell, I ran to check who was it and when I opened the door I almost has a heart attack. Those” Mina-san lips”, I was so embarrassingly thinking about just a few hours ago were standing in front of me. I had such a shock I don’t remember anything after I opened the door. I woke up on my entrance floor(god knows for how long was I out) but nothing was in pain, didn’t I just passed out…If I fell I should hurt right?! “I there, you ok man?!” I was about to pass out again, that voice… shit…no way… there’s just no way this is happening to me. So many places in this world and HE had to be HERE…what the hell… I was lying on his knees(apparently he supported my fall) I stood up quickly, kept my head real down, like a bow so he couldn’t recognize me, he seemed not to have until now, and I was going to make sure he didn’t at all… “Oh I’m sorry, I felt hum…a bit dizzy…hum… cause I just moved here today…and all the moving well I’m a bit tired so…hum, if you excuse me…” “Oh’s that so?! Then welcome neighbor!” WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!! WHY IS HE MY NEIGHBOOR?! AND WHY DO I HAVE TO FACE HIM LOOKING LIKE CRAP?! “Oh, it’s that so…well hum…so nice to meet you I’ll be in your care from now on, good night….” I tried to close the door but no can do… “Hey is this the way you treat your neighbors? That’s not nice at all. Where’s my welcoming gift, ya have one right?!…I bet you went to my house but since no one’s there, you kept it to give later right, so where is it? I’ll receive it now. Is it food? I’m starved ahahah.” Was this guy for real, I just said I wasn’t feeling right, what the hell is wrong with him… I wanted to run away…How could he be so pushy. I picked up the wrap lying on the floor gave it him and closed the door without saying anything. Yeah ok, I was rude but how come I could face him like this, heart beating 1000 miles per second, face red like a tomato, there’s just no way I could, if he recognized me…fuck what was I going to do…? “Ya know(chewing) ya could have been a little nicer(chewing), I came all the way here to say hello to the new guy(chewing) and he bangs th’a door on m’a face… Oh BUT THE COOKIES R’ GREAT THANK YOU, MAYBE TOMORROW WE GET TO CHAT A LITTLE AND…” “SHUT UP…don’t yell, please be considerate about the other neighbors. Now go home. Please.” “Shit did I do something to piss’ya off? What the hell… Alright good night then… you crazy person…” “I’M NOT A CRAZY PERSON, GO AWAY!” “Don’t scream you’ll disturb the neighbors…ahahah” What the hell, this son of a…. now I’M the one disturbing…shit… I tried to calm down… It was normal right, if he didn’t knew who I was, it was normal to think I was crazy acting like that… I would apologize properly tomorrow…I just needed some time to cool down, because that was seriously unbelievable. Of all the places in this town, 10 million people, he had to live in the place i just moved… So long peaceful life...

Ok this is all you guys fault. I was suppose to write a little bit on chap 3 but i just couldn't stop and i ended up writing 3 chapters... Insane. Let's start with chapter 3 Story so far: Hana found out about Shu being unfaithful, and he leaves home.... Spell… Chapter 3 After turning my back to the past I wasn’t looking forward to the future… I mean what was left for me?I was alone, homeless and loveless… Everything was bad, I couldn’t see any ray of hope in my life. I wished so many times to have a peaceful, quite life beside someone I love and who loves me back but judging for everything that has happened so far it was impossible. I went to a hotel the closest to my work place, one of the big offices down town. Tomorrow I would have to face reality. Work would be the same, the people would be the same. I just needed some time adjusting to the situation. I was a good professional, never did I let my boss down, or behaved incorrectly at work, I was an almost perfect employee. I opened my small bag, took my hygiene stuff and placed them on the bathroom, it looked so impersonal… It kind of hurt seeing my face in the mirror, I looked like I was punched several times in the eyes. I dressed my pajamas and went to sleep, only for a few hours. The hotel manger woke me up early that day, exactly the way I asked him to, I would take the opportunity to look for a place. Soon as I got to the office, the still empty space, made me feel somehow relived, that I wasn’t facing somebody just yet… Would I be able to do it? Act like everything’s ok? Well I had to, it didn’t matter how hard it was I just had to. I turned my computer on, and visited some house selling/renting websites. I saved a few I liked and started to work. “Hey Hana-san, you’re here already? Man you got an early start today…” “Yeah Nagasaki-san, I’m a bit busy today so I thought I took care of a few things first today. So how’s marriage going Nagasaki?” Nagasaki was a fellow co worker, a really nice guy and friendly too. “Well, women are complicated beings aren’t they Hana-san eheheheh…” “What’s up Nagasaki-san, is everything ok? Did you have a fight with your wife?” “Ah no that’s not it. Ya know I just thought things would be simpler and nicer ya know…All she’s been doing is spending money, and complain cause she thinks my house sucks. I’m letting her have her way for now thought, cause in some ways she’s doing it for us.” “Ahahh, having it hard already eh Nagasaki…Well don’t worry I’m sure things will turn out ok, you’ll see.” “I’m hoping it does Hana-san…I sure am…And what about you Hana-san, aren’t you getting married? What about a girlfriend for starters? I can hook you up with a few of my wife friends I’m sure of it… You’re a really good looking guy, I don’t think there’s a girl who wouldn’t think so. So what do you think?” “Ah please don’t Nagasaki-san, I’m ok really. I want to focus on my job for now.” I really didn’t see that one coming, I got so flustered that I turned away to the computer again… Now that was all I was missing, getting hooked up with some women, yeah right, as If i could do it. Sometime i wished I could… it would be a lot easier. After a few hours lunch time was already here, I didn’t want to have lunch with Nagasaki, I was afraid he would come up with the women story again, and I was really not up to it. So I said sorry and because I had some business outside the office i went to see some houses instead. I wasn’t hungry and all, so I would take my chances. I wasn’t planning on staying in a hotel forever. I have to admit, it was horrible. Houses falling apart, to damn big, too expensive, and some in which people should never live inside. “How the hell do they sell these places without any kind of reconstruction work first, it’s insane.” All the up’s and down’s started to give me a lion’s hunger. I stopped by a small vendor and grabbed a sandwich. I sat in a small bench, and while I was watching people go by Shu came to my mind. What was he doing right now… Was he thinking of me… Shit. This was the only thing I wished not to happen. I kept myself busy all day so I wouldn’t think about him. His words were still fresh in my head, and my heart turned small just thinking about it. I shook my head to clear my thoughts, stood up and continued my search. I came across a small apartment building and one of the windows had a big screaming sign saying ”FOR RENT”. I didn’t even hesitate. I went in and pushed the door bell. An old gentle looking woman came to answer the door. “Ah yes, can I help you?” “Yes, good afternoon. I…came because of the…renting sign…” “Oh yes yes come in please. You’re the first to come, I just put that thing there today eheheh. Who knew that somebody would come so fast.” “Well it was a coincidence really. I went to see a house nearby. And on the way I grabbed a sandwich with the vendor below and when I looked up I saw the sign. Nice to meet you I’m Myaki Hana, it’s a pleasure to make your acquaintance” “Nice to meet you dear, I’m Madara Sakura, the landlady. Now that’s really a coincidence. Well let’s have a look around the house shall we.” She gave me the most heartwarming smile. And we started to go from room to room. It wasn’t a big house but it was more than enough for me. A small cozy living room, a bedroom, a kitchen and a bathroom. Plus there was this small closet I could use for storage. The living room had a small link to a veranda which was covered in flowers, it smelled beautifully. It was perfect. “You can cut down the flowers, if you want to. They don’t have to be there if you don’t like them, I know men don’t really have patience for this kind of things.” “Oh no no please I loved them, they smell so well I couldn’t possibly…” “Well I see…A Hana that likes “Hana” right…?” She giggled and I understood that she linked my name to them… The thought made me smile sadly. I wasn’t a flower. If I was, then I would be a withered one. We talked about renting fees and to my surprise it was quite cheaper from what I was expecting for such a house. After a few considerations I agreed to keep the house. It was to my liking and close to work, I won’t be needing much furniture so everything got solved quite fast. Today right after work I would start making arrangements so I could move in.

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Original name: Hakui no Shihaisha Manga ALT. names: 白衣の支配者, 白衣的支配者, Dictator in a White Coat, The White Coat Dictator Original run: 2007 Description: 1) The Invisible Key Moriyasu sells medical equipment, but has a problem with hospitals. The handsome doctor, Nobuaki, likes to tease Moriyasu when he sees him, because the good doctor suspects that Moriyasu's problem might not be so bad... 2) The Invisible Chain 3) Spoilt and Selfish 4) Tracing Fingertips 5) Sweet Markings 6) Sweet Bonds 7) Don't Just Torture Me Gently 8) Unwavering Control Manga-type: Manga Written by: KABUTOMARU Chouko Drawn by: KABUTOMARU Chouko Published by: Ookura Shuppan Group(s) Scanlating: Liquid Passion Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Drama, Smut, Yaoi Categories: BDSM, Doctors Main Characters: Moriyasu, Nobuaki Recommendations: Motto Midara ni Shitsukemashou, Doctor's Rule, Boku wa Subete o Shitteiru Read Hakui no Shihaisha Online Hakui no Shihaisha Download Hakui no Shihaisha Manga Hakui no Shihaisha Manga (new link thanks to sarah3161) Another Download Link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Manga ALT. names: Aigan Shounen; The Boy-Toy; The Playmate Boy Original run: 2007 Description: Since he first met Baron Kuroba, Seiji has been secretly in love with the master of the Kuroba Manor, where servants were rumored to be attacked by a vampire. However, Baron Kuroba only sees Seiji as a lap dog that needs to be disciplined for his carnal pleasures. How can Seiji convince the baron, who doesn’t believe in love, to love him back? Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: MIZUKAMI Shin Drawn by: MIZUKAMI Shin Published by: Magazine Magazine Group(s) Scanlating: Fantasy Shrine Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Adult, Drama, Historical, Horror, Tragedy, Yaoi Categories: Rape; Master-Slave; BDSM; Main Characters: Seiji, Baron Kuroba Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Shounen Maid Kuro-kun; Futeki ni Romance; Happy Play; Motto Midara ni Shitsukemashou; Kimochi no Yukue (MEIJI Kanako) Download Aigan Shounen Manga Download link removed upon scanlator's request Read Aigan Shounen Online Aigan Shounen

*Uploaded by request - vanillablue* Alternative Titles: RHPlus; RHプラス Country: Japan Genre: Horror, fantasy, action, very light sa Episodes: 13 Synopsis: This series follows the daily lives of 4 vampires that live together in a European-style building: Kiyoi is the eldest who takes care of the others, Masakazu is a college student who gets information on criminal activities, and Ageha and Makoto both go to high-school (and tend to end up helping Masakazu whether they really want to or not). They fight against crime when the cops are unwilling or unable to do so. The series is based off of a shounen-ai manga published in B's Log. Whether you like shounen-ai or not, it hasn't been very obvious in this series and it may not be... the jury's still out on that. Download RHPlus Movie: RHPlus Ep 1 RHPlus Ep 2 RHPlus Ep 3 RHPlus Ep 4 RHPlus Ep 5 RHPlus Ep 6 RHPlus Ep 7 RHPlus Ep 8 RHPlus Ep 9 RHPlus Ep 10 RHPlus Ep 11 RHPlus Ep 12 RHPlus Ep 13 The first 2 episodes can be watched online here For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

hello everyone ~ ohayou mina ~ konichiwa mina ~ konbanwa mina ~ LOL .. umm so i'm new here .. i love music , yaoi of course , japan , Jpop , Jrock , Kpop and i love making new friendship =) specially if they love yaoi ! so please accept me as a friend .. and i hope i'll enjoy here ^^ in our country , we don't have alot who love or know yaoi >_ so i want some welcome !!

So you're free tomorrow... Really for the big scene... Well I don't know how much they are going to tell us any way... ^^;;; As you see from the making... Taiki had hard time doing that running scene... Even his shoe fall out... --;;; Any way the rain did make secne more into the motional... So... now I getting more pressure for that kissing post... --;;; Any way I will try my best to post soon as I can... But, I really don't know when they will post and I have to take my niece to library tomorrow... So it might be little later then today post I did... ^^;;; Oh... I hope you didn't have hard time catching up on 10 days post... ^^;; Well now about 3 or 4 more post to go... Tomorrow is the big one... but, I just wonder how much they will tell us about it... -- I feel little sick so I should rest for little... See you guys later! ^^

I like it and hope it will have many other chapters! The uke is so cute, I want one as him )))

Oh man... I'm feeling like this :cuteonion58:onion4:cuteonion41::3onion15::cuteonion57::msn_red_fox 2:leaf3: Thank you so much... Thank you for taking your precious time to read it, i'm... (don't really have the words really) rabbit0 You people really make my days...

Dammit!!! i got club meeting today...and my asthma came back becoz i overwork myself... and the result is...i missed this!!! ==''' gosh...i love the choco scene...it was awesome!!!! TOTALLY AWESOME!!!!!!! i can't believe they got to do it many times...*excited mode + scream* no wonder the scene in the movie is a bit different from the making of...itz HOTTER!!!!! im wondering if they feel anything kissing so many times like that...but i know they're professionals... Hama-kun...thanx again for the post!!!! Pampai...i feel so poud of our bunny...gosh...he's the best bunny ever!!!! im crying whenever he cries..i can't stand a cute person like that crying... and also...i cried so hard when he's running in the rain...itz really heartbreaking... i can feel the emotions...and gosh..my tears flow from my eyes just like that... im juz hoping im there to give him a hug...I WANNA HUG HIM!!! God...if i ever seen him sad like that..surely it'll break my heart... crash my heart actually...i can't stand seeing that scene...T^T

yeahh!!!!...'unmei' scene!!!! ahahaha so Mina is younger than Hana????...wow~~~i like...

Hey =) sorry that i didn't open a new thread but it somehow didn't work ... i couln't sleep so i worked with photoshop a little and the result was not too bad so i thought you might want to see it. it's my favourite scene of chapter 11 vol 7 - you can use it as a background for your desktop if you want ^^ enjoy! [ATTACH=CONFIG]5586[/ATTACH]

Thank you Matti...leaf3 Yeah, Mina san was just 16 when he first met Hana... Let's see what happens next cause now Hana knows he met Mina before... Is this fate?! rabbit16 Big kiss* :leaf3:

The lights were out. There was nobody there… “I’m such a fool… What was I expecting. He left the bar about the same time as me, and he was with that guy… He’s probably fooling around somewhere…” I walked to the room, undressed my wet cloths and went straight to shower… I turned the hot water, and it felt good against my cold body. I dressed my other suit, packed all my stuff in a small bag, I sat on the couch and I waited for him to arrive. I turned on the tv, and while i was there I felt cold again. “Shit is this really going to happen…?” As soon as I said it I heard the door open… He walked in and I could see his confused face looking straight at me. “What are you doing standing there?” “I’m waiting for you Shu… We have to talk…” “Talk? About what? And at this hour… Can’t it wait till tomorrow? I’m kind of exhausted right now…” “I know you’re exhausted…And it’s about that exhaustion of yours that I wanted to talk about…” “What the he…” “Where were you Shu? What were you doing until this late hour…?” “Where I was…? Working of course! I had a lot of problems today that I needed to take care of…why the hell are you asking me this now?” “A lot of problems at work uh? I see… Isn’t there anything that you want to tell me Shu?” “What the hell is going on Hana, why are you acting this way? You now I work late sometimes, you never complained, so now it’s no good…? I’m not gonna listen to this bullshit anymore, I’m going to bed…” That was all I could take. “I saw you Shu…” It was like dropping a bomb… My eyes acted all by themselves and I couldn’t stop crying again anymore. “How could you do something like this to me (sob)… You promised me we would always be together, (sob) even if we knew it was something so hard to achieve, we were trying, and the only thing I asked of you (sob)… Don’t hurt me (sob)…wasn’t it…WASN’T IT??” He stared at me blankly, I don’t know if he understood right then what was happening or if he was amazed with my words… “What are you talking about Hana? You saw me? You saw what… What are you saying…” “Stop it Shu…don’t act like there’s nothing behind all of this. You want every word than I’ll tell you straight to you’re face…I saw you with another man in a gay bar. Is it enough or do you still want me to give you the details of what I saw inside the bar?” At that time several possibilities crossed my mind… Was he going to ask for forgiveness, or was he happy I found out so he could dump me faster… The answer came faster than I wished. “Well ok you saw me with a guy I usually go out when I want sex, so what?” I turned pale, and colder than I already was… My heart squeezed so tight there was no room for nothing else but sorrow… “Well…Nothing apparently…Goodbye Shun…” I was already half way to the door when he grabbed my arm… “What the hell you think you’re doing, or where do you think you’re going?” “Away from you that’s where I’m going so let go of my arm Shu…” “I’m not letting go until you understand… Do you think it’s easy for me to be with you everyday, do everything with you and remain the same? It’s not! I tried to have only you but you have to understand that sex is something I need to have, and if I want to be with you forever I have to do this…” “What are you saying that I’m not enough for you, that you still need to have others on the side just in case I’m not in the mood to screw with you?? What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t want this, I don’t want this kind of relationship… I’m leaving.” I pulled out my arm and started walking away… I wasn’t going to listen to this, he was making a fool out of me… “What… You think you’re going to find someone who’ll be able to stick up to that… Yeah go ahead and find the perfect guy… There’s some news for ya honey HE DOESN’T EXIST YA HEAR ME… I bet you’ll come begging in two days…that’ll be enough. 2 days and you’ll be here at this door step, begging me to take you back.” As I walked away I still heard him scream something that I wasn’t able to understand anymore. I kept my back to him and kept walking… “Don’t worry Shun… I won’t come here anymore, even if it killed me… Goodbye.” Truly, I said that to myself more than I said to answer him… Well that's for today...hope you enjoy... :* Next time Hana is going to find Mina again...let's see how Hana reacts to sexy Mina Kisses*

Well here goes nothing Story status : Well Hana found out Shu was betraying him, and still at the bar he's so drunk he needs the help of Mina, a dancer at that same bar... But now Hana is better, and has to face everything that has happend to him... So what will he do? Hope you enjoy. Spell – Chapter 2 While I was standing behind the stage, I watched all his performance… There weren’t words good enough to describe it. How could something so beautiful be made by a person, I wondered… “I have a boyfriend right now…Do I really want to do this? Am I this kind of person? Yes, he is unbelievable, so much that I don’t trust my eyes right now but…did I really mean it? No…. I didn’t, and since I became a bit sober I should apologize for my behavior and go home… I would work things out with Shu.” Or better settle them once and for all. I won’t let this continue, this miserable life, this empty feeling hovering on me every second of every day… Enough was enough and things would end between us tonight. I finally stoop up, and went to find the ”dancing man” (jeez i didn’t even know his name, how embarrassing)… I went to met him, and he was talking to someone. I got a little closer, I was so ashamed with myself that my face felt like was it was being cooked inside out… “Ok…relax, say hello, say sorry for everything and thank you….and then go home. Ok this is a good plan, sigh…” When I almost got by his side I recognized the person he was talking to. Shu was standing there holding the other guy’s hand, talking to the dancer, he seemed to be praising him. Then the other guy also shook the dancer hand and they left after only a few seconds. I stood there watching the all scene, like a movie…unable to do or say anything. It was nerve racking…”Just calm down…one thing at the time.” I took 2 steps forward and he looked back at me with that same dazzling smile of his. “I there…Feeling better now? Do ya need a cab or I could walk ya home if you’re still not ok?!” I thought about it again…Having the possibility of having him seemed almost too good(or not, maybe he wasn’t gay right…I just assumed that due to his work place…I could be wrong). “Stop it, just stop it” I thought to myself, I got have a hold on my feelings and this is not the best way… “Thank you so much for today, you really helped me out…”I smiled shyly…I didn’t want him to see my face, I was probably horrible from all that crying so I kept my head down. “I’m so sorry for causing a commotion here, I was just feeling a little down and I kind of drank too much…so I’m really sorry for that. Hum, you don’t need to bother about me now, I’m fine so I’m heading home while I’m feeling better…” I turned around so I could leave, but he grabbed one of my hands. “So you would just leave without even telling me you’re name cutie?” “Ahah, cutie yeah right...”-I managed to say-“but thanks anyway…” I extended my other hand. “I’m Hana.” Just when I thought he was going to shake mine he pulled my entire arm to himself, holding my waist he took my lips without giving me a chance to back away… “I’m Mina. Nice to meet ya Hana” He licked the top of my mouth once again and gave that killer smile, his voice was soft velvet in my ears, all of my neck hair stood up… The balance I was so strongly trying to keep broke and I almost hit the floor. Knees shaking, head spinning… Was all of this for real?! I broke his embrace and gave some distance between us… There was no way I wouldn’t give in if he so much touched the tip of my finger… It was such an arousing feeling, that all parts of my body were pleading for. “What the hell you think you’re doing mister?” “Well that was my thank you gift…” He joked. “I don’t think I ever gave you permission for such, and I already thanked you for everything, so there was really no need for you to do that…” “I just felt like it…You’re so cute” he teased. “I’m…wha…well goodbye.” That one got me that’s for sure… I turned around the fastest I could, but my feet were still deceiving me. Trying to keep my balance on alcohol and such an excited state was no good to keep my body moving accordingly to the way I wanted it. I rushed thru the door… I was able to feel the cold air outside, and my head became clearer. I heard footsteps behind me. “Hey ya sure you don’t need me to walk ya home… I really don’t mind ya know.” “I’m positive. Good night.” I went my way… I don’t know why but I still glanced behind for a long time, until I could no longer see him. Gosh I hoped he didn’t saw me looking at him like an idiot. Soon, as I was walking the important issue came to my mind. After all that has happened tonight I still have to go home, and have a life changing moment. Tonight was final. Tonight I would let him go. The thought of regret started building inside of me, but I couldn’t realize if I was regretting the situation I was about to face, or the fact that I didn’t do it earlier. Do I really love him? At that point I wasn’t so sure anymore. The sense of freedom became a scary feeling, I didn’t want to spend my life alone… Alone… That thought brought me back to old memories. To the time we swore to never let go of each others hands. To the time we picked our house, to the time I bought him a hideous sweater that he hated but told me he loved it because I gave it to him… “Oh god… I’m breaking breaking inside.” Every step I took towards that door brought me a memory, and every memory brought me even more pain… “What did I do wrong…? Where did I fail you…? I only took time loving you and you go and do something like this to me….You promised (sob)…Ya prom (sob)….” “I HATE YOU…I HATE YOU FROM MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY…” My knees gave away and I fell on the snow covered floor crying… I stood there for what it looked like an eternity. My body was frozen from standing for too long on top of the snow. At least all the things I remembered we’re good, and that gave me strength to lift my head and walk the rest of the way… I was now standing in my front door, hand on the knob… Too scared to open it. But I had to. I took a deep breath and I walked in.

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Original name: Hitorijime Theory Manga ALT. names: ひとり占めセオリー, Regeln der Liebe (German), Theory of Monopoly Original run: 2006 Description: 1) Hitorijime Theory (Theory of Monopoly) Sakura and Tachihana have been sharing an apartment and the only bed (platonically) for the past two years. Now as graduation day approaches, is it time for Tachihana to move out? Is there some miscommunication going on? Why have they lived together for 2 years? Will they work it out before Tachihana moves and they never see each other again? 2) Koi Ochi Rule (Rules of Falling in Love) Wakamiya has liked Takao's face for the past 3 years. Now an assistant sensei has come to their college whose face Wakamiya also likes. Sensei shares a love of sweets with Wakamiya, but when he invites them both to his office, it might be Takao he really wants to see. How does Takao feel about all this? 3) Mitsugetsu Rule (Rules of Engagement) Continuation of the couple from chapter two. 4) Special Extra School scenes of couples 1, 2, and the sensei. 5) Hokorobu no wa Dare no Tame (Smile for You) Businessman Hirose is always being helped by his coworker, Nagakura. Nagakura even ties his tie for him! Where is all this closeness leading? 6) Osewa ni Natte Orimasu (Thank You for Taking Care of Me) Miyoshi is spoiled by his lover and coworker Matsunaga. Miyoshi is always venting his frustrations on Matsunaga, but will he go too far? Manga-type: Manga Written by: KITAKAMI Ren Drawn by: KITAKAMI Ren Published by: Magazine Be x Boy (Libre Shuppan) Group(s) Scanlating: Attractive Fascinante Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Genres: School Life Categories: Megane, Co-workers Main Characters: Tachihana, Sakura Adaptation based on available: N/A Related Series: Michizure Policy (Spin-Off) Recommendations: Gravity Eyes, Usotsuki wa Shinshi no Hajimari, Paradise Baby, Kare no Barairo no Jinsei Read Hitorijime Theory Online Hitorijime Theory ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Download link removed by scanlator's request

AAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAH!!!!!! i just got an update too from a fanfic author whom i'm following on a takumi-kun story. OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG! KYAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!! Can I melt? That promotional poster is so meltable... This is too much, OMG! I am still on my knees waiting for the English sub of Pure and now they're gonna be releasing the fifth movie. Oh the pain! the torture!!! THE HAPPINESS!!! EEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!! I'm so happy. thank you! thank you! thank you so much! Cyber hugs to all the Takumi-kun fans here.

TRAILER.. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=8NmStnF4NrU Cast Talk http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=lDmBMRyiIjE The Making http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ci55K7XXtp4 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=TMBql3CYjZo http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ltDIkBa6Mvo Making of Ryoma &Taiki http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=--qozyrVW70 http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=qdV1IEH-PHc http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=pz1vr-peJe8 Making Of Gii at Sanpo.Introdue the place where they acting. http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=OArh6CMrbGQ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=24lhYKfuFoM :7yoyo10: *I'm Dead*

english subs are here http://www.mediafire.com/download.php?l1ljx1155wqqs9j credits for translation to distressedcoma@lj

I'm like the really crazyspazztic Takumi-kun series fan. The reason for this is I watched the series backwards! LOL I watched Takumi-kun 3 first. So crazy! I kept watching it at least once every day! That's how hopeless I was. When I found out that there was a part 2, I thought I was gonna go insane. Mao and Daisuke were so electric!! Logic tells me that if there's a part 2 then there's a part 1. But after watching part 1, uhm...let's just say I'm glad they kept the actor who played Aikake-kun (Gii's confidante). I can't watch it without cringing. The acting was just... But it's because of Takumi-kun 3 that I became drawn to Araat Misu. I'm like OMG! Here's a guy who can hold his own with Gii. Here's a guy who's definitely not Team Gii. Misu has his own team. When he did that standoff with Gii...I was like...cramps! He's so hot. But of course...I'm a diehard Takumi x Gii lover. For awhile I really thought he was gonna take Takumi away from Gii. So when I saw the trailer for Takumi-kun 4: Pure...I thought I am so gonna lose my mind this time. Because I freakin' love Misu and Shingyouji. I'm glad that they picked another actor to play the part for Shingyouji 'cause the other guy didn't seem to meet the standards. I think this guy is much closer to the character. The other guy from Takumi-kun 3 didn't seem like Misu's lover but more like just a groupie really. I really like that they're gonna delve into this relationship this time. Of course, I'm one of the many who was very hopeful that this was gonna center on Takumi and Gii but it's okay. At least, it's following the manga. I was able to read what was happening in the manga with regards to Misu and Shingyouji and I can't wait to see it onscreen as to how they are gonna pull it off. I love it 'cause Misu's SO POSSESSIVE. SO SEME! I'mgonnasquirmlikeaschoolgirlnow. LOL I am really looking forward to watching this with English subtitles, of course. Takumi-kun 2 and 3 were such a keeper and I have very high hopes that part 4 will be too.