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I found this one and I thought it was so well done. Ciel

Another sweet Ciel x Sebastian cosplay

Original name: ベッドルームツアー! Manga ALT. names: Bedroom Tour! Original run: 2007 Description: During the last summer holiday of high school, Chinatsu, who has been scared of sex ever since he had his heart broken, decides to jump into the arms of Charles Yamazaki, who is said to be a Love Counsellor that can bring one out of one's pain no matter how terribly one's heart has been broken. Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: HIMEKADO Rika Drawn by: HIMEKADO Rika and RIKA Chimaki Published by: Houbunsha Group(s) Scanlating: Blissful Sin Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Drama, Romance, School life, Smut, Yaoi Categories: Teacher-Student; Doctors; Main Characters: ChinatsuxYamazaki Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Hanataba ni Te wo Agero!; Kyouken Breeder; Hibi Koikoi Read Bed Room Tour Online Bed Room Tour Download Bed Room Tour! Manga Bed Room Tour! Download link for non-members For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Okey, so I know there's quite a few here who likes/loves twincest and incest... So I thought we might as well share our tw/incest manga here! To make it easier I put them into categories... TWINCEST: Katayoku no Sokubaku by Kaen (harcore yaoi with blood, bondage and toys) Futari Yuugi (Oneshot from "Wagamama Dakedo Itoshikute") Koiyami Archive (Chapters 3-4) Bokudake no Peach Sapuri Every day Every night Lost child Yononaka wa Bokura ni Amai Tsuki no Ookamiotoko Trillium Aragau Netsujou by Kanzaki Takashi Yo no naka wa bokura ni amai (soft yaoi) Bannin Netsujou Innocence (soft to average yaoi) Nemureru Mori Restraint of the half wing by Kaen (hardcore, non-con) Pink Butterfly by Kaen (hardcore) Hana Sakasemashou (shounen-ai) STEPBROTHERS Brothers (YAMAMOTO Kotetsuko) Family Border Bokura wo Shihaisuru Kotoba by Fuwa Shinri Boku no yasashii oniisan Lucky-kun Aitsu to Ore Electric Hands Touch Blue Koushaku no Himeta Kuchizuke (chapter 5, violence&rape) otouto ni koi shitara Retsujou no Meikyuu by Kanbe Akira (chapter 5) Machibito by Minase BROTHERS/HALFBROTHERS Brother x Brother by Kisaragi Hirotaka Nibiiro no Hana Gou (Brother x Brother) Uso to Kiss (Half Brothers) Double Face (Half brothers) Ai no DNA (brotherxbrother) Bitter by MINAMI Haruka (brotherxbrother) Cage(brotherxbrother) Aka no ori (brotherxbrother) Tsumuiji ni Kiss(brotherxbrother) Aniki Joutou (BrotherxBrother) Doko ga ikinai!? (brotherxbrother) Homura (halfbrothers) Into Your Heart Through the Door (brotherxbrother) Kare to Kare (brotherxbrother) Yunatama Kakenukerunara kienaide kure (brother love triangle) Slave X Slave by Kanzaki Takashi (brother's love is however not the main plot) Yaizu brothers, fuckin' cool! (complicated relationship between 3 brothers) Kirai Kiraimo (brotherxbrother, soft yaoi) Mask (halfbrothers, chapter 4, almost hardcore yaoi) Hide and Seek (brotherxbrother, 3rd one-shot, hard yaoi) Seven by Tenzen Momoko (adopted brothers, soft yaoi) Love Prism by Tohojoh Asami (brotherxbrother, abusive, hardcore) Sawatte, tokashite (brotherxbrother, chapter 9-10) Family complex, sequel Family both by Yuuya (brother love triangle) Zurui otoko by Hanafubuki Sakurako (brothers, love triangle, shounen ai/soft yaoi) Kuse ni narisou by Minami Megumu (halfbrothers) Hana to ryuu (brotherxbrother, though not main pairing) Suit wo kita akuma by Takahashi Yuu (halfbrothers) Nocturne by Takamure Tamotsu (step/halfbrothers, mild non-con) Tetsu X Rika by Motoni Modoru (brotherxbrother) OTHER Love training by Kaiya Tatsumi (stepbrother + one of the twins) Nounai Ren'ai no Susume ( SELFCEST!) In the womb (twincest, I'm not sure what to say about this... ) Ijiwaru na Kiss (cousin) Innocent blue (cousin) Cha-K-Ra (fatherxadopted son) Father Complex (it's not confirmed fatherxson) Flesh & Blood (nephewxuncle) Bannin (... it's complicated.) Rooftop scenery (uncle/nephew, chapter 6) Morning kiss by Kanzaki Takashi (nephew/uncle, chapter 4) Hanjuku Orange (cousin) A Coward's happiness (2 stories about cousins, one uncle/nephew) Tenohira no Seiza (cousin) Welcome to the Chemistry Lab (uncle/nephew, chapter 4) Ushiro no Shounen Darling (uncle/nephew, explicit) When love comes too abruptly (cousin, soft yaoi) Koisuru Cupid by Akira Norikazu (chapter 6, soft/average yaoi) Libido by Minase Masara (adopted brothers) Doukusenyoku by Hyuuga Seiryou (uncle/nephew) Trompe-l'oleil no Yubisaki (stepfather and stepbrothers) Love Contract by Maruya Kae (cousins, shounen ai, chapter 5) Takaromono by Yamakami Riyu (cousins) Honeycomb Child by Watanabe Asia (twinbrothers, stepfather, 4some/2couples) FATHERxSON -6mm no taboo Crazy for daddy Dear Gentle Papa Eien ni owaranai Not equal Mob for jack Neji no Kaiten (only slightly fatherxson) Cut (StepFatherxSon) I'm falling in love with your magic by Kotobuki Tarako (father and 2 suspected sons, chapter 3) Ame to Muchi by Uchida Kaoru (Please give me categories for these) Nibiiro no Hana Gou by Watanabe Asia Saihate No Kimi E by Haruka Minami

A hot SasuXNaru cosplay I found Note: It's not me in the pic, credits to Paz1o1

I like Sebastian's expression

I'm gonna be shameless and post my cosplay of Ritsuka Aoyagi here. I'm open to violent reactions and cat food. XD

I forgot to put up with other yesterday... ^^;;; It's little cool and funny at same time... "Which one of you order this?" "......" "......" Open the plate... "Oh, sorry, wrong order!!" --;;;;; Enjoy! ^^

Do you guys mind if I join? I first knew I was bi in high school... I had a huge crush on this guy at school and I was confused about these feelings for a while... but I talked it out with friends that were bi/gay and it really helped to talk to someone that understood what I was going through... so I then finally plucked up the courage to ask him out, but he turned me down because he was straight... anyway... bottom line is, if you're confused about anything, it's best to talk to someone who knows and has been through it, they give the best advice ^^

This one as it got me at my best; drunk and in cosplay

This is game call Angels Feather... I will going to do this one for few days now on... This is the beginning... ^^ Enjoy! ^^

VI It felt a bit weird to be back home. I was happy to see my family but a bit anxious to see Paul. I went to his house, he was at the backyard playing with his ball. It was the only thing I hated about him, his passion for football, I could remember every occasion he “dumped” me because of a football match he played or wanted to watch. He left the ball at the very first sight of me, ran to me and embraced me. - Patrick! Patrick thanks God you’re here! I needed you so much! My heart jumped out o my chest. I’ve waited so long for this. I tried to keep my head cool, those words didn’t mean love and Thomas was stuck on my head, his scent still pervaded in me. . I’m very sorry, Paul, very sorry for your grandpa. I know how much your mom and you loved him. Paul’s dad died when Paul was five and his grandpa had always taken care of him. His mom was alone in England. She met Paul’s father in Okinawa where she taught Nanban-yaki technique to make ceramic pots. They fell in love and she left everything and came to live to England. Paul’s grandfather taught her English and she taught him ceramics. She was beloved by her father-in-law. Paul had few Japanese features. Although his hair was jet black and he had almond-shaped eyes, they were turquoise blue, which made him outstand from the rest of us and made me feel common. Our friends use to said that we were the ying–yang because he was dark haired with blue eyes and I was extremely blond with hazel eyes, because he was tempered and I was calm and also because I wanted to go to University and he wanted to be a sport trainer. I always thought that the fact that he was straight and I was gay made us both sides of a coin. He always wanted to be a strong boy, he didn’t cry when his father died, he didn’t do it when he was bullied first year of high school, and this time too, I knew he wanted to cry, to give his sorrow a way but he didn’t do it if I was staring at him so he laid his head on my shoulder and started to sob. What a nice feeling was this, be close enough to him to feel his warm breath on my neck, his hips next to my hips, his hand touching my leg. Without realizing, I felt aroused. - What’s wrong Patrick? He asked me - Nothing, I said, clearing my throat. I felt uncomfortable, because I had to repress my desire for him. I wanted to grab him, push him on the floor, kiss him and tell him that I always would love him not matter what. - Don’t lie to me, I know something has happen to you, I can read it on your face, you’ve got dark circles on your eyes and you avoid my eyes. What’s wrong? - Noothing, I repeated, I came here to comfort you, not the other way round. Besides, nothing important happened to me. I met someone I finally didn’t like. - You finally met a hot chick, Pat? Who’s she? Is she hot? A brunette? - No, it’s not a girl, it’s an upperclassman, his name is Thomas and he wants to be a History teacher. - Just like you, Pat, and what happened? - Nothing, I lied. I tried to get some distance between Paul and me because I felt a little tremble just remembering the sex we had. I felt hot again and I wanted to leave before Paul realized it. But he had already noticed and grabbing my shoulder he asked me: - Has something happened between you two? Has he hurt you? Is he bullying you? - Umm, I can’t tell you Paul, it isn’t really important. It’s over and I came to know about you and your mom. - Pat, he said with a soft voice I couldn’t resist, don’t lie to me, I know you, tell me what happened or I’ll break your arm. He called me Pat when he wanted something for me, when we had serious conversations. He grabbed my arm and turned to my back, I screamed a bit in pain, he was so close I could hear his heart beat, his pulse. I felt my heart jumping o n my chest. I knew that If I didn’t do anything I’ll tell him and I didn’t want him to know I was gay or that I had sex with a man for the first time. I didn’t want to tell him that I had felt the maximum pleasure with a man who wasn’t him even though I always knew that Paul would never had those kinds of feelings for me. - It’s really nothing Paulie, let me be, you’re hurting me and I don’t want to fight. Just release my arm. - Did that man touch you?? - What??? What are you talking about? A man? I was panicking; I had to get out there at that very moment. - You thought that I was stupid. You think that after so many years of friendship I wouldn’t know you don’t like girls. I didn’t know what to do, he knew! What would happen if he also knew that I loved him? Would he stop being my friend? Would he feel disgusted? - So? What is it you want to know, Paul? If I’m gay (my knees were going to melt , my arms were shaking and my voice trembled) - Are you? Have you been lying to me all this time? - What? I didn’t have to tell you, that’s way too personal and is not as if you asked and I lied. Besides is none of your business - So, you are gay! he was like crazy, you had sex with that man??? Did you enjoy it, bastard? - So what??!!! I cried, what If I did it, what If I’m gay!! It’s none of your business, Paul. I never said a word about all the girls you hooked with, I never got upset because you were changing girlfriend or just had sex with someone you just knew. I never, never…. - Never what Pat??? Never complained about my sex life? So what? You didn’t care, but I do, did YOU or didn’t YOU have sex with that man???!! I’m not asking you again, Pat, tell me the truth right now!!! - YES, YES!!! I did and it was my first time and he gave me pleasure, and I liked it but I regretted it because it wasn’t y…. I stopped talking when I saw Paul’s face and the painful look in his eyes, some tears started to fall down, I couldn’t stand his sad face so I ran away. I kept myself at home the following day telling my mom I felt sick. I knew I was a coward but I couldn’t face Paul now he knew everything. Next day, I went back to college without saying him goodbye.

the first image i posted on this thread was taken in a studio. that was the second time i cosplayed as Ritsuka. this one here is the very first time i cosplayed him in an anime event for which i won third place.

haha lol ill see what i can do, they r naruto characters http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/album.php?albumid=19&attachmentid=3072 if they dont work, go to my profile page and they r in fav album http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/album.php?albumid=19&attachmentid=3277

Platform: Windows 98/Me/XP Minimum System Requirements: CPU: Pentium 300MHz RAM: 64MB HDD: 350MB free space Video: 800x600 resolution or higher, 16-bit color Sound: WAV/PCM audio Other: Requires CDROM and DirectX 8.1 Release Date: 2002 Genre: ADV Rating: 18+ Voice: Full voice Translation made by: Onadoru Euphoria Plot: The story is set in an hypothetical fantasy role-playing game world, which once was menaced by a cruel demonic entity called Hadeus. The terrible war which followed had left many orphans, and one of them is Might. Raised up without his parents, with the only company of his older friend Adonis (another orphan), Might became an ambitious teenager training for his dream to become a soldier of the royal army. One day, though, Might found himself terribly wounded after falling off a cliff while training. Adonis, who loved Might over anything else, used a forbidden dark spell to save his life. So Might's life was saved... but Adonis mysteriously disappeared. Might will then go on a quest to find out what has happened to his beloved Adonis, meeting a rather wide range of handsome characters – each one with a peculiar personality – who will either join him in his quest or become an obstacle to it. The player, after making the appropriate choices, will be able to pair up the protagonist with one of the characters he will meet. Torrent File: The Game + Upgrade 1.2 + English Patch Mediafire links: English Patch (If you already have the game installed, if you don't, please download the torrent file) If you need help with the installation, visit this page: Installation Guide for Silver Chaos + Upgrade + English Patch EDIT: Visit this page for or a video installation guide for Silver Chaos + Upgrade + English Patch For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Tsuki to Yabanjin Type : Manga Author : Sera Artist : Sera Status : Complete (1 Volume) Scanslation Status : Completed by Blissful Sin Other Title(s) : 月と野蛮人, Moon and Savage Genre(s) :Yaoi, Drama, Romance, Historical Summary : Ever since he was a child, Prince Uriel has always dreamed of searching for the lost city of Rowadis rumored to be buried somewhere deep in the desert. One day, he manages to sneak out of his country to join an excavation party in the hopes of learning more about his beloved Rowadis. However, the barren land turns out to be a dangerous place for the prince and he is captured by the savage Seldira clan. Follow the adventures of the young prince as he gets tangled up with the handsome leader of the Seldira and unlocks the mysteries of the desert. Read Tsuki to Yabanjin Online: Tsuki to Yabanjin Download Tsuki to Yabanjin: New Download Link For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Whip On! Description: From DokiDoki: BL is such a... rich and uh... varied genre. Don't believe it? Check out this extremely hot compliation celebrating the various shapes and sizes of men in BL... from delicate waifish youths to middle-aged musclemen, you'll find it in here. Groups Scanlating: DokiDoki,Nakama Author: CHOUNO Shibuki Genre: Fantasy Yaoi Read Whip On! online Whip on! Download Whip On! Manga: http://www.4shared.com/file/gUE9e18o/Dokidoki_Whip_On_-_Chouno_Shib.html For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Aishi no Sweet Voice Manga ALT. names: 사랑의 스위트 보이스; I Love Sweet Voice; I Love Sweetvoice; Itoshi no Sweet Voice Original run: 2003 Description: A young boy who has always hated his girlish voice meets a striking man with a captivating voice. They try to figure out their feelings while striving to realize their dreams in theater. Manga-type: Manga Series Author: FUJISAKI Kou Published by: Biblos (2003); Libre Shuppan (2009) Group(s) Scanlating: Countless Time; Obsession Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Yaoi Categories: Jealous Lover; Boys look like Girls Related Series: Sexy Cool Voice Read Aishi no Sweet Voice Online Aishi no Sweet Voice Download Aishi no Swett Voice: @click For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Daytime and Night (Gundam 00 Doujin Game) Circle: Hanerom Genre: Doujin ADV Rating: NC-17 Size: 193 Mb Download game: || UPDATED || @SendSpace For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Original name: ミューズの学園で逢おう Manga ALT. names: Let's Meet at the Campus of Muses, Muse no Gakuen de Aou, School of the muse, See You in the School of the Muse, Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Original run: 2007 Description: Outstanding student of Misonoi Campus Tadafumi Hanai of has to tutor Still's lead member Ohtsuki Yuu, who is Hanai-kun's schoolmate. A scholar vs a star! Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Tateno Makoto Drawn by: Tateno Makoto Published by: Animate USA, Libre Shuppan Group(s) Scanlating: Countless Time Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: Only up to volume 2 Genres: School Life, Yaoi Categories: Jelaous Lover; Teacher-Student Main Characters: Tadafumi Hanai, Ohtsuki Yuu Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Futeki ni Romance, Koakuma no Sanctuary, Heart ni Goyoujin, Acid Flower Read Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Online: Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Download Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Manga: Volume 1- Mediafire , Megaupload Volume 2- Mediafire , Megaupload For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Junjo Romantica, Junjo Romantica: Pure Romance, 純情ロマンチカ, Junjō Romanchika, Pure-Hearted Romantica Genres: comedy, drama, romance, yaoi Running time: 30 min/ episode Number of episodes: 12 ep/season; 2 seasons Plot Summary: Misaki is suddenly having some unexpected and odd problems. What started as a need for some college entrance exam tutoring has somehow led him to being romanced by a suave older man who also happens to be his big brother’s best friend. Confused by all of his brand new emotions, Misaki struggles to deal with his suddenly very odd life. And if that wasn’t enough, his suitor, Usami, has plenty of issues of his own. A man-child who decorates his room in giant teddy bears and toys, Usami is a famous novelist who also writes steamy boys’ love novels on the side. When Misaki cracks open one of these books and reads sentences like “Misaki licks every inch of Usami’s hot body”…well, let’s just say that all hell breaks loose. Download: For Season 1 subbed in English, go here: Junjou Romantica (Eng Subs) Watch Junjou Romantica Season 1 Online (HD Quality): Junjou Romantica Season 1 Online Season 2 (watch it in BSPlayer or VLC Player) EP 01 EP 02 EP 03 EP 04 EP 05 EP 06 EP 07 EP 08 EP 09 EP 10 EP 11 EP 12 DVD Special Junjou Romantica Watch Junjou Romantica Season 2 Online (HD Quality): Junjou Romantica Season 2 Online Junjou Romantica, Egoist and Terrorist anime were licensed long time ago. Since the Company announced they'd report and sue all the online site providing links, YO isn't and won't be updating links to download Junjou. Sorry for the inconveniences.

Title: The Postcard Country: South Korea Director: Josh Kim Synopsis: A short story about a guy who falls in love with a postman and tries to express his feelings through a postcard. However, the 2 women in the post office staff read the guy's postcard and they both think that the postcard was actually for one of them. Watch The Postcard Online: The Postcard Download The Postcard BL Movie: The Postcard For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Summary: A love triangle between, the selfish Paul, who wanted to possess Patrick without admiting his love for him, the coward Patrick, unable to declare his love for Paul and the determined Thomas who wins Patrick's heart. Status: Complete Right this is my second try, I'm trying to make it longer. It's hard for me bec I'm very impatient, so be nice, hehe Critics are allowed, ideas on the plot too.. Hope you ejoy it. ch. I University was opening before me. I had worked so hard and I was going to be there… My college was such a huge building with so many aisles, departments, doors, people wandering round, young people like me feeling insecure, feeling that an enormous new world was opening form them. I was quite excited. I was the first member of my family going to University and even my little sister was telling her friends. So there I was, trying to stay calm, find my class and start my new life as University student. I left my old Patrick behind the doors of my high school with Paul still lingering on my mind. He stopped talking to me because of all the changes happening to me. We were childhood friends; we accepted each other the way we were. He was my best friend and I have loved him so much during the last five years. I had to endure all his girlfriends, his affairs. I was heartbroken but happy to fulfill one of my dreams and he ruined my little happiness calling me egoist because I wasn’t going to the Technical School with him. How I could? I just wanted to fall apart and start again. - Traitor!! He called me - What?! , come on Paul, what are you talking about? - Your mom… your mom told me you’ve received your admission letter yesterday! Are you going to the Uni???When were you telling me???!!!! Is that true? - It’s true- I tried to stay calm because I had lot of things to tell him before leaving. - But…. But we were supposed to go together to the Tech School; we were supposed to be always together. I tried to calm down myself before speaking to that handsome playboy who was yelling at me like a child. - Listen, I have to do this, I WANT to do this and you’d support me as my best friend. Please, Paul, be happy for me, I’ve been there for you always, the football team! I ran with you, I trained with you, I suffered with you, so Paul…. - No! I refuse! You selfish bastard, you’re leaving town without telling me! At that moment the only thing I wanted to do was to cuddle him in my arms, kiss his tears of rage away and tell I wasn’t going anywhere. I get closed to him and told him: - Come on Paul, you’re grown enough to cry. I’m sorry, call me what you want but I’m gonna do this... - Don’t come near me, bloody selfish, don’t touch me, and don’t talk to me ever! He ran away down the street shouting:”traitor, damn egoist, selfish, I hate you and you’ll regret it all your life…” I was left there and back home his words were resounding on my head again and again but I was sure I had to do it…..

Ah, found it - i think i'm right =) so i'm next then, right?

it looks a bit like Hyakujitsu no Bara/Maiden Rose - is it the same Mangaka or am i completely off the track? =D

Father Complex by Masara Minase next

false Next one is gay~ Edit: true, I'm bi and Macy adn I seemed to have some weird telepathy going on there lol

I blame Nezumi for not giving me her address so I can homedeliver her chocolate lol

Omo that is so hot!! Well written - I love it! Thank you so much - Write more!!

I told you is cool and funny... ^^;;; Two of guys in side are cool... But, the middle... is so cute and funny... Even I did it... still it's funny... ^^;;;;

So cute! I looove both your pics and misakixusagi's pica as well! :hamtaro-005 (8):

I love your story a lot! You have very good writing skills! Keep it up! :hamtaro-005 (12):

Yojichan your cosplays rock! I really loved them! you have a very cute and innocent face, uke-like

This happened over here in the USA a couple months ago and I was so excited I was also surprised to see that a few Republicans actually voted in favor of same-sex marriage. Only 5 states (Connecticut, Iowa, Massachusetts, New Hampshire and Vermont, as well as the District of Columbia) have same-sex marriage legalized but New York is now the largest state to have it. I feel that this is a great accomplishment in a sense that New York is a heavily populated and influential state. Not just influential in America, but also other countries as well. So with this passing I'm hoping that other states soon follow This is just one more step towards worldwide acceptance of the gay and lesbian community. Here is the article from The New York Times: http://www.nytimes.com/2011/06/25/nyregion/gay-marriage-approved-by-new-york-senate.html?pagewanted=all

The Summit by Lee Young Hui An easy one now

WUAHH!!!! Miho so vigorous....scary....

I don't know it Maybe some hints would help

shut up

You can only value a person when they already left...!! so sing with me! to the left to the left

Hello hello, So this is chap 13... I won't be around for the next days so you might think i went away, but i'm just on my vacations I'll be leaving you with this... And hoppefuly i'll give you a great chapter as well when i come back... Cya soon :* P.S - There are a lot of dialogues so to tell who's talking i put Mina's in B and I, Shu will only be I... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I woke up early that morning… I kept looking at his face wondering, how would I make it better for him…? How would I be able to make him as happy as possible…? That’s all I wanted, I even dreamed about it… A happy ending, a happy family next to him, his shining smile, brighter than the stars, all sparkling just like the way I loved… I got up and poured some coffee in my usual cup, still wondering… It was snowing a lot today… It would be a white day…nothing but snow around you… I liked that feeling, the feeling that even if things are hard now, they’ll get better… Just like winter and spring… There’s always a bright shinning sun after the scariest storm… I gave up my trail of thoughts when i heard someone talking loudly outside… “Weird, it’s so early, who could be making this noise at this hour…crazy people…” I looked through the window again, and what I saw made my body turn to ice… Shu was talking to one of my neighbours, and the conversation wasn’t amicable… “What the hell is he doing here…Shit!” I got up and dress a really thick jacket so I wouldn’t freeze and went outside… “Shu!” “Hana, thank god, please tell mister here I’m not a criminal or whatever… he said he is going to call the police.” “Well he should…What the hell are you doing here Shu, how did you found out where I live?” “I followed you here…Yesterday, I went to your office so I could talk to you, but they said you were sick…And when I left the office on my way home, I saw you running…I ran after you…” “(neighbour) Hana-san do you know this guy? I woke up and saw him going around our building like a pervert or something…” “Yes, so sorry for the commotion Tanaka-san, it’s ok, I’ll handle this…” “Call me if you need something, ok…” I turned to Shu again… “Why would you do that?! Didn’t I tell you that we don’t have nothing to tell each other anymore…Why do you keep on following me…?” “(shout) I have to follow you! You disappeared, you left home, you changed your cell phone, I have no way of reaching you unless I follow you… Can’t you see that I’ve missed you…?” “Keep it down! Always the same talk, always the same words…you’re turning into a stalker…Pull yourself together…We…broke…up! There’s nothing else between us except memories…let’s just keep it at that.” In that second he came on to me… All I could do was stand there and wait for him to finish… It was really strange to recall Shu’s kiss, and even stranger was the fact that I didn’t felt a thing while he had his lips on mine… So different now… I could see and feel that… I couldn’t even get closer to Mina without being over excited, heart thumping like crazy the whole time, sweating, blushing and all the physiological body responses, enough for me to want to hide in a very small hole, and be there until all that goes away… It was the most embarrassing thing ever. So this… was definitely different! “Hana…I love you.” “Are you finished Shu…?!” He looked like I was some other person he was holding… And I don’t blame him.. My change of attitude must have shocked him greatly… “Why are you so cold…you weren’t like this, you’ve changed…” “I didn’t change that much Shu… You did, you’ve grown needy of me, you were never like this, you never showed me what you’re showing me now… It’s a pity you didn’t showed it earlier… Who knows maybe I wouldn’t have left…” “I can be like this all the time if you want me too… Hana this will be the last time I’ll ask you… Come back to me… Come home!” “He won’t be going anywhere!” I wasn’t the who answered. Mina woke up to the noise outside, and when he saw me and Shu outside he just freaked out. His hands were balls, the way he was squeezing them… “Mina calm down he just came here to talk…so just…” “I know you…” One of the things I feared the most was this… If Shu recognized Mina, what would he do? What will happen now? “You’re the guy from that bar… Hana is “this” it (points)?! You’re leaving me for a brat…?” “Shu stop it, the person I am with it’s not your concern…” “The hell it isn’t, you left me because I went after sex, and now you won’t come back yourself because you found yourself a toy…That’s sick…” Mina just blew up… He ran to face Shu, and punched him so hard on his face that I heard some bones cracking… “Mina… NO STOP!” “Y’a freaking son of a bitch, do y’a think you can talk to him like this… Who th’a fuck do y’a think y’are…y’a bastard…stay away from him y’a ear me…” “Mina please, stop it…just stop it…” I was having a great deal of difficulty trying to break them off… When I managed to break them apart I just wanted Shu to back off… “Shu, fuck…Go away, stay away from us from now on, you listening… I’ve had enough of this bullshit, next time, he won’t be the one to punch your face, you got it…?” “You gonna regret this Hana… I’m telling you, you’ll regret this…” Shu got up, blood on his nose and lip, he was a poor sight to behold… “Let’s go inside Mina(grab) let’s go…now” Mina was still looking at Shu like if he didn’t trust him to go away… For the first time, since I met Mina, I never saw a look like that, he was like if the devil was inside of him, ready to kill everything on his way… “Don’t y’a dare come near him again…” “Shut up brat…” “Mina!! I said it’s enough, let’s go now!” What a freaking nerve wrecking situation… Mina wasn’t even facing me… His back right now even felt colder than the snow outside… “Why did y'a let him kiss y’a?” “Mina, I could avoid it, he came to me while I was distracted… I felt nothing…You don’t have to worry about him.” “Worry?! He managed to kiss y'a on broad day light in the middle of the street, what’s there to worry…” “Please, Mina calm down… like I said, it means nothing to me... He’s just doing what he thinks it’s right but, that doesn’t mean I’ll follow the things he said or done, and you need to understand the as well…” “I know that Hana-san…But he kissed you… This is mine…no one else’s…” He pressed his hand against my lips… I kissed his hands softly, so I could make him understand… “He kissed me…I didn’t kissed him back… That’s a huge difference.” “I know…I know.” He placed his head on my shoulder and I hold him close… “I love this person here(touch), there’s nothing to be worried about…” “I’m concerned about Hana-san, what if he keeps on following you…?” “I don’t think he will…You beat him up pretty badly, you bad boy…*smirk*” “Don’t joke Hana-san…please” “Ok, ok I won’t… I just don’t think that he’ll do anything so just never mind that…” I kissed him lightly on his lips and hold him a little closer once again… Truth was, my heart was beating pretty fast and uneasy because I was actually afraid Shu would try to do anything against Mina… My chest hurt just by the thought… I would bear to have Mina hurt…in any way. “He won’t do anything…right?” -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That's it for now... I'll see y'a all in afwe days... Hope you guys enjoy A big kiss...and always...that you for all the support :*

Hey =) i already wrote a post about this subject but i didn't want to open a new thread so here it goes again: i just read about the New York same-sex marriage law and in that article were such amazing pictures that i tought i could post them here: http://www.zeit.de/lebensart/2011-07/fs-homosexuellen-ehe/seite-6 those two look sooo happy it really touches me http://www.zeit.de/lebensart/2011-07/fs-homosexuellen-ehe/seite-7 the text below the pictures says that these two old man have been together for 51 years! That's so cute =)

i love it amander!! very very pretty!

Next chapt out of the oven... hehe Just tell me what you think, ok?! IV We didn’t see each other for few weeks. I heard he was on a trip to Shenzhen, he wanted to specialize in Oriental Cultures, so I was at ease. I had found a nice corner in the campus, quite enough to read and have lunch without no one round. I started to spend all my free time there, at lunch and between lessons. My classmates always asked me to have lunch together but I always refused, I preferred to be alone with my books and thoughts. Thursdays were my most quiet days, I only had few classes so between them I spent my time in my secret corner. One day, I fall sleep reading the papers for one of my lessons. “One cannot lose what one has not possessed. So much for that abrasive gem I can lose what I want. I want you” I felt a very soft low voice whispering in my ear, was I dreaming? I was half sleep and so tired I didn’t want to open my eyes. I loved that part of Geoffrey Hill’s poem. It felt so nice feeling the warm of the Autumn sun on my face, that soft voice, those kisses, what a nice dream. Kisses on my cheek, on my neck… Wait! Kisses on my neck were real! I suddenly opened my eyes and saw him kissing me. - What the hell are you doing???!!! I cried - You were so tempting, with your cute sleeping face, you were so peacefully dreaming that I couldn’t avoid it. - And… and how did you know that poem? Why were you reciting it? - Oh… umm… well, I saw you one day at the library with one of Hill’s volumes and I had a look. I liked the poem so I memorized it. Your sleeping face inspired it. “ I can lose what I want, I want you” I like that last verse… I burst out laughing, Thomas stepped back. - You think it’s funny? His smile had disappeared - No, no sorry, I said laughing, it’s just that I’m not used to these things and didn’t expect it either. I took a deep breath, stopped laughing and seriously told him: - I’m sorry, Thomas, truly sorry, but don’t do those things, less to sleepy people. - What? You think I do this to anyone? It’s just you, Patrick, he was staring at me, serious look in his eyes. An alarm started to ring on my head, telling me to run away before making a big mistake. I wanted to run away, what was happening here? How my peaceful afternoon was turning this way? Was this the perfect man? The brilliant student? I felt a knot on my throat. - Well thanks for the poem and the nice awakening, I got to go now He, then, once more told me… - I told you it wasn’t going to be easy, Patrick He pushed me and I fell on my back, he grabbed my hands above my head, damn God, he was really strong. I started to panic, what did he want? What was going to happen to me? My body got rigid, I tried to fight, I tried to push him away. - Thomas , stop it please, it’s not funny anymore, I begged - Who said I was joking. Since the first I saw you, I wanted to have you - What??? I didn’t do anything - Really think so? You must be more concerned to the faces you make when you’re lost and I couldn’t stand the face you showed when you’re best friend came to the conversation at the food shop. A felt a fire inside of me… He licked the tip of my nose, it was ticklish, he licked the inside of my upper lip, went down to my neck, un buttoned my shirt… Oh, my goodness! I thought, is this for real???!!!

And... chapt III, Will Patrick find out more about the brilliant handsome student??? III My first week passed, no pain, no glory. I spent my first weekend alone, no family, no friends. I was feeling lonely and started to think of Paul so to avoid it I went for a walk and do some shopping. I stopped at a Japanese bento shop to buy my lunch. As I was coming out someone patted my head. I raised my sight and there he was, the brilliant handsome student. -Hi there, how are you doing? I hope it wasn’t a tough week. - Hello, I said astonished. He remembered me? I wanted to thank you but didn’t know who you were and couldn’t find you. - That’s true, well… I’m Thomas and you are? . I’m Patrick, very nice to meet you. I’m a first year student - Really? I’m on my third one… -I know you’re a brilliant student admired by everyone… - And what are you doing here? - Oh! Umm... I was bored wandering around, I found that Japanese shop and bought some lunch - You like Japanese food? He said while chewing one of my sushi pieces - Oh yes! I love it. My best friend mom’s is Japanese so I frequently eat it, well… used to eat it… - Umm, best friend uh? What happened, he broke your heart? - I beg your pardon? Why was he asking me that? We just met, I didn’t want to talk about Paul. I still felt sad and missed him, so I tried to dodge the question and leave him before being impolite. -Well, nice to meet you, I got to go, see you round… As I started to walk away from him, he suddenly grabbed my arm and told me -Eh! That’s a bit rude of you, don’t you think?, leaving me alone even when I helped you I blushed at the look of his face, he has a mischievous smile. He pressed my arm harder and pushed me towards him and licked my upper lip bitting it later. - You think is that easy? You’d say “thanks” and that’s all, he whispered softly, huskily in my ear. A shiver went all over my spine. What the hell did he want from me?

Well, I've always been bisexual. I could care less about the gender, if I'm attracted to someone I'd be attracted all the same be it a man or a woman. I also never had any doubts or regrets or guilty feelings or even those rumored psychological trips to discover the self and whatnot, nothing like that. Honestly, if I had to compare it to something it would be like "1+1=2". a) If you like people of the same sex you're homosexual. b) If you like people of the opposite sex you're heterosexual. c) If you like people of both sexes you're bisexual. "Oh, I see. I guess I'm bi then." Like that. (: Acceptance and/or denial is the major problem gay people have to overcome (like a final boss in a game, i guess), both due of their own inner struggle and self-admission and also because of how society perceives/will perceive them. It must be tough, and understandably so, after all the World is filled with prejudice and discrimination. But not me. I am my own person and won't change by influence of the people around me.

hahahaha! Just love this thread. Hi there, im shim. And maybe some of the people here know about me aleady. Im a SUPER GIRLY GAY. I mean, GAYYYYYY! hmmmp. what else? Im so diva. PROUD TO BE GAY. hahahaha.

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looool yojichan and junnie chan!!! Do you want me to die laughing huh huh? )))) I blame both of you for the so funny coversation and your unique imagination...lol!! Btw, that's so great to hear some news about Takumi 5. . I'm waiting! I'm waiting!! Takumi 5 yahhaha.....leaf1

“Arata-san...” Shingyouji's eyes wandered nervously and curiously as he felt Misu taking his coat off. His mind began to protest as he watched him begin unbuttoning his blue-checkered shirt. But no words came out of his mouth. Misu looked very focused in the task and he sensed that authoritative silence. It didn't frighten Shingyouji but he knew better than to stop the quiet ministrations from the older man. It was almost a similar feeling he had when they were in the dressing room not so long ago as Misu buttoned his shirt up and that kiss they shared. The memory of that kiss made him feel a little hazy. No way he can stop Misu now. He knew too well that what Misu wants, he gets it and who was he to deny him that when he wanted it so much as well? The younger man could only stare in silent awe to what his lover was doing. First the coat then his shirt and now he felt fingers slowly unfastening his belt buckle. He wondered if Misu could hear how loud his heart was beating now. But even if he did, the older man did not show any signs of stopping with his activity. The belt dropped on the floor with a mild thud. And now his pants has dropped to his feet and he stepped out of it. Shingyouji was only wearing his boxers and his socks. A naughty glint showed in Misu's eyes which made Shingyouji both excited and nervous at the same time. “I'll get you a robe.” Misu left him standing there for awhile and he knew what that meant. He took off his socks and walked into the shower and closed the door behind him and took off his boxers. Shingyouji turned on the cool shower as it sprayed generously on his heated body. He leaned his forehead on the bathroom wall and allowed himself to calm his wildly beating heart. He then adjusted the water temperature to warm when he felt his nerves calming down. All the frustrations and stress he felt last night was slowly draining away as quickly as the water drained on the floor. When he opened the bathroom door, Misu was standing with the bathroom robe ready for him to slide into. He felt Misu's fingers loosely tie his robe around him then motioned for him to follow to the bed. Misu sat on the bed and held the towel he placed on the bed earlier while Shingyouji was in the shower. Shingyouji was feeling his body slowly heat up again as he approached and stood before him patiently waiting for his next instruction. Misu looked up to him and he could see the glassy look Shingyouji was giving him. He surely had no idea what he had in mind and he liked that....very much. “Kneel.” And Shingyouji obeyed and knelt before him while Misu took his sweet time massaging and drying his dripping wet hair. Shingyouji closed his eyes, raking in all the gentleness and control. His hands are now on Misu's thighs. He rubbed his hands slightly on the cottony material of Misu's pajamas. This was a rare occurrence they were having now. He wanted to enjoy every second of it. He never expected how good it felt when you have the person you love do something like this for you. From Misu's perspective, he could feel Shingyouji's muscle relaxing. His hair was nearly dry and as he took off the towel, the younger man still had his eyes closed. He smiled. He held his face with both hands and Shingyouji opened his eyes to look deeply into his lover before him. “Arata-san...” “Shingyouji...” Their foreheads touched. Their noses touched. Shingyouji felt Misu's cheek rub on his face and a light kiss on his forehead. He felt himself being pulled forward. The gentleness in Misu was making him weaker in the knees. If this went on, he was sure he'd fall back on the floor. Misu sensing this guided him to lie on the bed. As he lay down, Misu sat beside him and leaned towards his side. One hand slowly fiddling with the bath robe tie. Shingyouji felt a shiver run from the his nape down to his.... “You know...you should learn to be a little selfish sometimes.” Misu's voice was deeply seductive and resonated to Shingyouji's ears. “Our relationship....has already come to this....there's no turning back and we both know that.” Shingyouji nodded and tried to keep his eyes focused on Misu's. “Now tell me what you really desire...” Shingyouji felt his heart race at those words. Really? What he really desired? And then it dawned to him the reasons why Misu behaved earlier when he took off his clothes. It wasn't the actions of someone who merely cared for him. He was making up for the time they could have spent together last night. It was Misu's way of apologizing and oh, what a truly seductive apology it is. Every bit of uneasiness he may have felt had already disappeared now that they lay so close together on their bed. “I only want you to be mine. Mine alone. I don't want to share you with anyone...not even Sagara-san...you're mine. You're mine first....and always.” Shingyouji's words though seemingly possessive sounded more like he was pleading which made Misu smile. “You know I'm yours. Stop being afraid, Shingyouji.” He slowly lowered his head and as their lips touched, Shingyouji clung to him. He matched his kiss with much fervor and passion. The bathrobe now undone and revealing the dewy and smooth alabaster skin. The scent of his shampooed hair only further ignited the flame inside of Misu as his lips traveled down Shingyouji's neck. His hands tracing every inch of his lover's taut skin. Shingyouji stretched his neck allowing more access. “I love you...Arata-san...” He moaned so sweetly which made Misu's heart swell with even more heightened desire. “Shingyouji...” He breathed into his ear and Shingyouji felt every pore in his body come alive. He smiled in complete satisfaction. The fears and insecurities disappearing fast. No matter what happens in the future, they will always have this moment to reflect and treasure. To each other, they truly belonged. No one can ever come in between them. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: I feel my cheeks heating up after posting this last part. My hands feel numb with giddiness. LOL. Aaah...I finally got to write this. Feels so good. I debut this fanfic here in YO before I publish them on my FFNET page. To see the link to my page, check out my Homepage at my Profile. Thank you!

4:30AM Misu stirred as he heard the door click. He rubbed his eyes and adjusted to see Shingyouji trying his best not to make a sound as he carefully laid his bag on the chair. “You're back.” Misu broke the silence as he sat up on the bed. “Eh? Ah....anou...I'm so sorry, Arata-san..I didn't mean to wake you. I just came for a change of clothes. I'll be leaving soon.” A very startled Shingyouji stared at him. Misu stood up and turned on the lights. Shingyouji kept his head low and was obviously trying to avoid his intense scrutiny. He felt Misu's hand slowly cup the side of his face and lifted his chin slowly to finally face him. “Where have you been? I was worried. But I didn't know where to find you. You even left your phone.” Misu tried to keep his tone low and evenly paced. He didn't want to frighten his already-agitated lover. It was painfully obvious that Shingyouji's eyes revealed fatigue and sadness. “I was at work.” Came the nervous reply. “Where is it? I mean....where do you work?” Misu felt like a complete idiot right about now but he didn't care. It felt like the right time to ask such a question. “Sakura Grocery. The convenience store ten blocks from here.” Shingyouji blinked at him. He was rather surprised to be asked since Arata-san didn't seem the least bit interested in his work before. Misu made a mental note of that information and considered visiting him there one of these days. His confidence returning. Relief overswept him to have the younger man before him. Talking to him again. He's safe. He's home. That's all that mattered. They remained standing at the center of their apartment just looking at each other. “I'm sorry about last night.” Misu whispered which elicited a shocked look from the younger man. “Eh? It's no problem. It's okay really. I understand. Besides you and Sagara-san haven't seen each other for a long time. It was rather sudden for him to show up like that but I guess it was a good time for you both to catch up on things. I'm sure you have lots of stuff to talk about. And then there was that call...and I needed to be at work anyway...so yeah...it's fine really. I mean...I wasn't expecting you'd be already home either. I thought you guys would be hopping at bars and stuff. It's a good time to unwind, you know...I remember a friend of mine had this reunion and they...” “Shingyouji! You're rambling!” Misu interrupted him and shook him and right there he saw the tears that the younger man had been forcing to keep at bay began to flow unstoppably. He pulled him into a fierce embrace and tried to soothe him by gently rubbing his back with circular motions. As the tears subsided he felt him slowly relax in his embrace and Misu closed his eyes. So that was it. Shingyouji's insecurities have played up again this time. He's tried to assure him that there was nothing between him and Sagara-senpai but he guessed he can never ease the unrest in his lover whenever his senior appeared. He always seemed at a complete loss. Like he didn't know where to belong. But instead of exercising assertiveness, his lover chose to retreat like he did in the past. Though he loved him in his own way, their relationship in high school cannot be clearly defined despite Shingyouji always keeping close to him as much as possible. He has admitted to himself he actually enjoyed the devoted attention basked upon him by the younger man. But it is only when they moved in together and has been together for a year that finally they have a semblance of a relationship they can actually clearly define now in their terms. Several minutes passed. Misu looked at him with his eyes thoughtful. A slight curve of a smile evident in his lips. Ah, yes..he loves Shingyouji. He knew he can never find another lover as devoted as this. He knew it would be a torture to not have him close like this. But he did admit that there were lots of times that he did find a guilty pleasure of getting his lover flustered around him. Call it possessiveness. Call it whatever you like but by doing so also proved that only he had that much influence to make Shingyouji feel this way. If only....