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until now there isn't any release in english i found it in chinese, how lucky who understand it >_ Author:ISHIMARU Hiroko Year:2006 http://www.mediafire.com/?wxzmauxzjqy For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Okey, so I know there's quite a few here who likes/loves twincest and incest... So I thought we might as well share our tw/incest manga here! To make it easier I put them into categories... TWINCEST: Katayoku no Sokubaku by Kaen (harcore yaoi with blood, bondage and toys) Futari Yuugi (Oneshot from "Wagamama Dakedo Itoshikute") Koiyami Archive (Chapters 3-4) Bokudake no Peach Sapuri Every day Every night Lost child Yononaka wa Bokura ni Amai Tsuki no Ookamiotoko Trillium Aragau Netsujou by Kanzaki Takashi Yo no naka wa bokura ni amai (soft yaoi) Bannin Netsujou Innocence (soft to average yaoi) Nemureru Mori Restraint of the half wing by Kaen (hardcore, non-con) Pink Butterfly by Kaen (hardcore) Hana Sakasemashou (shounen-ai) STEPBROTHERS Brothers (YAMAMOTO Kotetsuko) Family Border Bokura wo Shihaisuru Kotoba by Fuwa Shinri Boku no yasashii oniisan Lucky-kun Aitsu to Ore Electric Hands Touch Blue Koushaku no Himeta Kuchizuke (chapter 5, violence&rape) otouto ni koi shitara Retsujou no Meikyuu by Kanbe Akira (chapter 5) Machibito by Minase BROTHERS/HALFBROTHERS Brother x Brother by Kisaragi Hirotaka Nibiiro no Hana Gou (Brother x Brother) Uso to Kiss (Half Brothers) Double Face (Half brothers) Ai no DNA (brotherxbrother) Bitter by MINAMI Haruka (brotherxbrother) Cage(brotherxbrother) Aka no ori (brotherxbrother) Tsumuiji ni Kiss(brotherxbrother) Aniki Joutou (BrotherxBrother) Doko ga ikinai!? (brotherxbrother) Homura (halfbrothers) Into Your Heart Through the Door (brotherxbrother) Kare to Kare (brotherxbrother) Yunatama Kakenukerunara kienaide kure (brother love triangle) Slave X Slave by Kanzaki Takashi (brother's love is however not the main plot) Yaizu brothers, fuckin' cool! (complicated relationship between 3 brothers) Kirai Kiraimo (brotherxbrother, soft yaoi) Mask (halfbrothers, chapter 4, almost hardcore yaoi) Hide and Seek (brotherxbrother, 3rd one-shot, hard yaoi) Seven by Tenzen Momoko (adopted brothers, soft yaoi) Love Prism by Tohojoh Asami (brotherxbrother, abusive, hardcore) Sawatte, tokashite (brotherxbrother, chapter 9-10) Family complex, sequel Family both by Yuuya (brother love triangle) Zurui otoko by Hanafubuki Sakurako (brothers, love triangle, shounen ai/soft yaoi) Kuse ni narisou by Minami Megumu (halfbrothers) Hana to ryuu (brotherxbrother, though not main pairing) Suit wo kita akuma by Takahashi Yuu (halfbrothers) Nocturne by Takamure Tamotsu (step/halfbrothers, mild non-con) Tetsu X Rika by Motoni Modoru (brotherxbrother) OTHER Love training by Kaiya Tatsumi (stepbrother + one of the twins) Nounai Ren'ai no Susume ( SELFCEST!) In the womb (twincest, I'm not sure what to say about this... ) Ijiwaru na Kiss (cousin) Innocent blue (cousin) Cha-K-Ra (fatherxadopted son) Father Complex (it's not confirmed fatherxson) Flesh & Blood (nephewxuncle) Bannin (... it's complicated.) Rooftop scenery (uncle/nephew, chapter 6) Morning kiss by Kanzaki Takashi (nephew/uncle, chapter 4) Hanjuku Orange (cousin) A Coward's happiness (2 stories about cousins, one uncle/nephew) Tenohira no Seiza (cousin) Welcome to the Chemistry Lab (uncle/nephew, chapter 4) Ushiro no Shounen Darling (uncle/nephew, explicit) When love comes too abruptly (cousin, soft yaoi) Koisuru Cupid by Akira Norikazu (chapter 6, soft/average yaoi) Libido by Minase Masara (adopted brothers) Doukusenyoku by Hyuuga Seiryou (uncle/nephew) Trompe-l'oleil no Yubisaki (stepfather and stepbrothers) Love Contract by Maruya Kae (cousins, shounen ai, chapter 5) Takaromono by Yamakami Riyu (cousins) Honeycomb Child by Watanabe Asia (twinbrothers, stepfather, 4some/2couples) FATHERxSON -6mm no taboo Crazy for daddy Dear Gentle Papa Eien ni owaranai Not equal Mob for jack Neji no Kaiten (only slightly fatherxson) Cut (StepFatherxSon) I'm falling in love with your magic by Kotobuki Tarako (father and 2 suspected sons, chapter 3) Ame to Muchi by Uchida Kaoru (Please give me categories for these) Nibiiro no Hana Gou by Watanabe Asia Saihate No Kimi E by Haruka Minami

Original name: ベッドルームツアー! Manga ALT. names: Bedroom Tour! Original run: 2007 Description: During the last summer holiday of high school, Chinatsu, who has been scared of sex ever since he had his heart broken, decides to jump into the arms of Charles Yamazaki, who is said to be a Love Counsellor that can bring one out of one's pain no matter how terribly one's heart has been broken. Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: HIMEKADO Rika Drawn by: HIMEKADO Rika and RIKA Chimaki Published by: Houbunsha Group(s) Scanlating: Blissful Sin Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Drama, Romance, School life, Smut, Yaoi Categories: Teacher-Student; Doctors; Main Characters: ChinatsuxYamazaki Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Hanataba ni Te wo Agero!; Kyouken Breeder; Hibi Koikoi Read Bed Room Tour Online Bed Room Tour Download Bed Room Tour! Manga Bed Room Tour! Download link for non-members For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

First Base: Usually just kissing and making out Second Base: Can really be anything from kissing to foreplay Third Base: Actually having intercourse or sex

Man series... Well I like this man series I do... One up there is funny one... Now one, two, three... Lovely man... or boy? ^^;;; Which is good and which is evil... I don't think I can do any during weekend... If I do I will post it... but if I don't you will know I am busy... ^^;;; Enjoy this man series... ^^

Hello hello, So this is chap 13... I won't be around for the next days so you might think i went away, but i'm just on my vacations I'll be leaving you with this... And hoppefuly i'll give you a great chapter as well when i come back... Cya soon :* P.S - There are a lot of dialogues so to tell who's talking i put Mina's in B and I, Shu will only be I... ---------------------------------------------------------------------------------- I woke up early that morning… I kept looking at his face wondering, how would I make it better for him…? How would I be able to make him as happy as possible…? That’s all I wanted, I even dreamed about it… A happy ending, a happy family next to him, his shining smile, brighter than the stars, all sparkling just like the way I loved… I got up and poured some coffee in my usual cup, still wondering… It was snowing a lot today… It would be a white day…nothing but snow around you… I liked that feeling, the feeling that even if things are hard now, they’ll get better… Just like winter and spring… There’s always a bright shinning sun after the scariest storm… I gave up my trail of thoughts when i heard someone talking loudly outside… “Weird, it’s so early, who could be making this noise at this hour…crazy people…” I looked through the window again, and what I saw made my body turn to ice… Shu was talking to one of my neighbours, and the conversation wasn’t amicable… “What the hell is he doing here…Shit!” I got up and dress a really thick jacket so I wouldn’t freeze and went outside… “Shu!” “Hana, thank god, please tell mister here I’m not a criminal or whatever… he said he is going to call the police.” “Well he should…What the hell are you doing here Shu, how did you found out where I live?” “I followed you here…Yesterday, I went to your office so I could talk to you, but they said you were sick…And when I left the office on my way home, I saw you running…I ran after you…” “(neighbour) Hana-san do you know this guy? I woke up and saw him going around our building like a pervert or something…” “Yes, so sorry for the commotion Tanaka-san, it’s ok, I’ll handle this…” “Call me if you need something, ok…” I turned to Shu again… “Why would you do that?! Didn’t I tell you that we don’t have nothing to tell each other anymore…Why do you keep on following me…?” “(shout) I have to follow you! You disappeared, you left home, you changed your cell phone, I have no way of reaching you unless I follow you… Can’t you see that I’ve missed you…?” “Keep it down! Always the same talk, always the same words…you’re turning into a stalker…Pull yourself together…We…broke…up! There’s nothing else between us except memories…let’s just keep it at that.” In that second he came on to me… All I could do was stand there and wait for him to finish… It was really strange to recall Shu’s kiss, and even stranger was the fact that I didn’t felt a thing while he had his lips on mine… So different now… I could see and feel that… I couldn’t even get closer to Mina without being over excited, heart thumping like crazy the whole time, sweating, blushing and all the physiological body responses, enough for me to want to hide in a very small hole, and be there until all that goes away… It was the most embarrassing thing ever. So this… was definitely different! “Hana…I love you.” “Are you finished Shu…?!” He looked like I was some other person he was holding… And I don’t blame him.. My change of attitude must have shocked him greatly… “Why are you so cold…you weren’t like this, you’ve changed…” “I didn’t change that much Shu… You did, you’ve grown needy of me, you were never like this, you never showed me what you’re showing me now… It’s a pity you didn’t showed it earlier… Who knows maybe I wouldn’t have left…” “I can be like this all the time if you want me too… Hana this will be the last time I’ll ask you… Come back to me… Come home!” “He won’t be going anywhere!” I wasn’t the who answered. Mina woke up to the noise outside, and when he saw me and Shu outside he just freaked out. His hands were balls, the way he was squeezing them… “Mina calm down he just came here to talk…so just…” “I know you…” One of the things I feared the most was this… If Shu recognized Mina, what would he do? What will happen now? “You’re the guy from that bar… Hana is “this” it (points)?! You’re leaving me for a brat…?” “Shu stop it, the person I am with it’s not your concern…” “The hell it isn’t, you left me because I went after sex, and now you won’t come back yourself because you found yourself a toy…That’s sick…” Mina just blew up… He ran to face Shu, and punched him so hard on his face that I heard some bones cracking… “Mina… NO STOP!” “Y’a freaking son of a bitch, do y’a think you can talk to him like this… Who th’a fuck do y’a think y’are…y’a bastard…stay away from him y’a ear me…” “Mina please, stop it…just stop it…” I was having a great deal of difficulty trying to break them off… When I managed to break them apart I just wanted Shu to back off… “Shu, fuck…Go away, stay away from us from now on, you listening… I’ve had enough of this bullshit, next time, he won’t be the one to punch your face, you got it…?” “You gonna regret this Hana… I’m telling you, you’ll regret this…” Shu got up, blood on his nose and lip, he was a poor sight to behold… “Let’s go inside Mina(grab) let’s go…now” Mina was still looking at Shu like if he didn’t trust him to go away… For the first time, since I met Mina, I never saw a look like that, he was like if the devil was inside of him, ready to kill everything on his way… “Don’t y’a dare come near him again…” “Shut up brat…” “Mina!! I said it’s enough, let’s go now!” What a freaking nerve wrecking situation… Mina wasn’t even facing me… His back right now even felt colder than the snow outside… “Why did y'a let him kiss y’a?” “Mina, I could avoid it, he came to me while I was distracted… I felt nothing…You don’t have to worry about him.” “Worry?! He managed to kiss y'a on broad day light in the middle of the street, what’s there to worry…” “Please, Mina calm down… like I said, it means nothing to me... He’s just doing what he thinks it’s right but, that doesn’t mean I’ll follow the things he said or done, and you need to understand the as well…” “I know that Hana-san…But he kissed you… This is mine…no one else’s…” He pressed his hand against my lips… I kissed his hands softly, so I could make him understand… “He kissed me…I didn’t kissed him back… That’s a huge difference.” “I know…I know.” He placed his head on my shoulder and I hold him close… “I love this person here(touch), there’s nothing to be worried about…” “I’m concerned about Hana-san, what if he keeps on following you…?” “I don’t think he will…You beat him up pretty badly, you bad boy…*smirk*” “Don’t joke Hana-san…please” “Ok, ok I won’t… I just don’t think that he’ll do anything so just never mind that…” I kissed him lightly on his lips and hold him a little closer once again… Truth was, my heart was beating pretty fast and uneasy because I was actually afraid Shu would try to do anything against Mina… My chest hurt just by the thought… I would bear to have Mina hurt…in any way. “He won’t do anything…right?” -------------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That's it for now... I'll see y'a all in afwe days... Hope you guys enjoy A big kiss...and always...that you for all the support :*

Summary: A love triangle between, the selfish Paul, who wanted to possess Patrick without admiting his love for him, the coward Patrick, unable to declare his love for Paul and the determined Thomas who wins Patrick's heart. Status: Complete Right this is my second try, I'm trying to make it longer. It's hard for me bec I'm very impatient, so be nice, hehe Critics are allowed, ideas on the plot too.. Hope you ejoy it. ch. I University was opening before me. I had worked so hard and I was going to be there… My college was such a huge building with so many aisles, departments, doors, people wandering round, young people like me feeling insecure, feeling that an enormous new world was opening form them. I was quite excited. I was the first member of my family going to University and even my little sister was telling her friends. So there I was, trying to stay calm, find my class and start my new life as University student. I left my old Patrick behind the doors of my high school with Paul still lingering on my mind. He stopped talking to me because of all the changes happening to me. We were childhood friends; we accepted each other the way we were. He was my best friend and I have loved him so much during the last five years. I had to endure all his girlfriends, his affairs. I was heartbroken but happy to fulfill one of my dreams and he ruined my little happiness calling me egoist because I wasn’t going to the Technical School with him. How I could? I just wanted to fall apart and start again. - Traitor!! He called me - What?! , come on Paul, what are you talking about? - Your mom… your mom told me you’ve received your admission letter yesterday! Are you going to the Uni???When were you telling me???!!!! Is that true? - It’s true- I tried to stay calm because I had lot of things to tell him before leaving. - But…. But we were supposed to go together to the Tech School; we were supposed to be always together. I tried to calm down myself before speaking to that handsome playboy who was yelling at me like a child. - Listen, I have to do this, I WANT to do this and you’d support me as my best friend. Please, Paul, be happy for me, I’ve been there for you always, the football team! I ran with you, I trained with you, I suffered with you, so Paul…. - No! I refuse! You selfish bastard, you’re leaving town without telling me! At that moment the only thing I wanted to do was to cuddle him in my arms, kiss his tears of rage away and tell I wasn’t going anywhere. I get closed to him and told him: - Come on Paul, you’re grown enough to cry. I’m sorry, call me what you want but I’m gonna do this... - Don’t come near me, bloody selfish, don’t touch me, and don’t talk to me ever! He ran away down the street shouting:”traitor, damn egoist, selfish, I hate you and you’ll regret it all your life…” I was left there and back home his words were resounding on my head again and again but I was sure I had to do it…..

you know when ur going out with someone then either u or the other person say to friends that you've gone to 2nd or 3rd base what dose that really mean what goes on when u get to those bases :msn_red_fox 7

I will, just give me a min

Thanks a lot for the list Bokura wo Shihaisuru Kotoba by Fuwa Shinri Brother by Ougi Yuzuha Double Face by Yamane Ayano Love Prism by Tohojoh Asami Nibiiro no Hana Gou by Watanabe Asia Saihate No Kimi E by Haruka Minami Tetsu X Rika by Motoni Modoru

Ahahaha since you ask so nicely *kicks both Jenow and Amander*

=D that's a nice expression - the urban dictionary says: http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=3rd+base i think it's like attaining a higher level.

Akuma no Himitsu by Takanaga Hinako go me!! :5yoyo34: [ATTACH]5893[/ATTACH]

I'll keep filling up the list then... I have to mention that some of the mangas I've listed involve rape and/or BDSM. Aka no ori (brotherxbrother) Tsumuiji ni Kiss(brotherxbrother) Neji no Kaiten (only slightly fatherxson) Yononaka wa Bokura ni Amai (twincest)

VI It felt a bit weird to be back home. I was happy to see my family but a bit anxious to see Paul. I went to his house, he was at the backyard playing with his ball. It was the only thing I hated about him, his passion for football, I could remember every occasion he “dumped” me because of a football match he played or wanted to watch. He left the ball at the very first sight of me, ran to me and embraced me. - Patrick! Patrick thanks God you’re here! I needed you so much! My heart jumped out o my chest. I’ve waited so long for this. I tried to keep my head cool, those words didn’t mean love and Thomas was stuck on my head, his scent still pervaded in me. . I’m very sorry, Paul, very sorry for your grandpa. I know how much your mom and you loved him. Paul’s dad died when Paul was five and his grandpa had always taken care of him. His mom was alone in England. She met Paul’s father in Okinawa where she taught Nanban-yaki technique to make ceramic pots. They fell in love and she left everything and came to live to England. Paul’s grandfather taught her English and she taught him ceramics. She was beloved by her father-in-law. Paul had few Japanese features. Although his hair was jet black and he had almond-shaped eyes, they were turquoise blue, which made him outstand from the rest of us and made me feel common. Our friends use to said that we were the ying–yang because he was dark haired with blue eyes and I was extremely blond with hazel eyes, because he was tempered and I was calm and also because I wanted to go to University and he wanted to be a sport trainer. I always thought that the fact that he was straight and I was gay made us both sides of a coin. He always wanted to be a strong boy, he didn’t cry when his father died, he didn’t do it when he was bullied first year of high school, and this time too, I knew he wanted to cry, to give his sorrow a way but he didn’t do it if I was staring at him so he laid his head on my shoulder and started to sob. What a nice feeling was this, be close enough to him to feel his warm breath on my neck, his hips next to my hips, his hand touching my leg. Without realizing, I felt aroused. - What’s wrong Patrick? He asked me - Nothing, I said, clearing my throat. I felt uncomfortable, because I had to repress my desire for him. I wanted to grab him, push him on the floor, kiss him and tell him that I always would love him not matter what. - Don’t lie to me, I know something has happen to you, I can read it on your face, you’ve got dark circles on your eyes and you avoid my eyes. What’s wrong? - Noothing, I repeated, I came here to comfort you, not the other way round. Besides, nothing important happened to me. I met someone I finally didn’t like. - You finally met a hot chick, Pat? Who’s she? Is she hot? A brunette? - No, it’s not a girl, it’s an upperclassman, his name is Thomas and he wants to be a History teacher. - Just like you, Pat, and what happened? - Nothing, I lied. I tried to get some distance between Paul and me because I felt a little tremble just remembering the sex we had. I felt hot again and I wanted to leave before Paul realized it. But he had already noticed and grabbing my shoulder he asked me: - Has something happened between you two? Has he hurt you? Is he bullying you? - Umm, I can’t tell you Paul, it isn’t really important. It’s over and I came to know about you and your mom. - Pat, he said with a soft voice I couldn’t resist, don’t lie to me, I know you, tell me what happened or I’ll break your arm. He called me Pat when he wanted something for me, when we had serious conversations. He grabbed my arm and turned to my back, I screamed a bit in pain, he was so close I could hear his heart beat, his pulse. I felt my heart jumping o n my chest. I knew that If I didn’t do anything I’ll tell him and I didn’t want him to know I was gay or that I had sex with a man for the first time. I didn’t want to tell him that I had felt the maximum pleasure with a man who wasn’t him even though I always knew that Paul would never had those kinds of feelings for me. - It’s really nothing Paulie, let me be, you’re hurting me and I don’t want to fight. Just release my arm. - Did that man touch you?? - What??? What are you talking about? A man? I was panicking; I had to get out there at that very moment. - You thought that I was stupid. You think that after so many years of friendship I wouldn’t know you don’t like girls. I didn’t know what to do, he knew! What would happen if he also knew that I loved him? Would he stop being my friend? Would he feel disgusted? - So? What is it you want to know, Paul? If I’m gay (my knees were going to melt , my arms were shaking and my voice trembled) - Are you? Have you been lying to me all this time? - What? I didn’t have to tell you, that’s way too personal and is not as if you asked and I lied. Besides is none of your business - So, you are gay! he was like crazy, you had sex with that man??? Did you enjoy it, bastard? - So what??!!! I cried, what If I did it, what If I’m gay!! It’s none of your business, Paul. I never said a word about all the girls you hooked with, I never got upset because you were changing girlfriend or just had sex with someone you just knew. I never, never…. - Never what Pat??? Never complained about my sex life? So what? You didn’t care, but I do, did YOU or didn’t YOU have sex with that man???!! I’m not asking you again, Pat, tell me the truth right now!!! - YES, YES!!! I did and it was my first time and he gave me pleasure, and I liked it but I regretted it because it wasn’t y…. I stopped talking when I saw Paul’s face and the painful look in his eyes, some tears started to fall down, I couldn’t stand his sad face so I ran away. I kept myself at home the following day telling my mom I felt sick. I knew I was a coward but I couldn’t face Paul now he knew everything. Next day, I went back to college without saying him goodbye.

V My blood started to boil. “Oh my God, Oh my God, Oh my God” I thought. He started to lick my nipples and it jolted my whole body. I tried to fight back again but I was amaze of how strong he was. - Just relax, Patrick, he whispered, it’s going to be fun, you’ll feel good, he said biting my lobe, you’ll love it and I want you to experience this with me and no one else. I couldn’t say anything; he opened my trousers and slipped his hand inside my trunks. A shiver ran through my body. I was really scared, despite all the pleasant sensations I was feeling. It was the first time someone was touching me; it was the first time a MAN was touching me. Regardless I have felt desire for Paul every time I saw him playing football with his t-shirt off or were watching a movie and he fall sleep on my shoulder; I ‘ve never felt what I was feeling right now. I felt like light electric currents running through my spine up to my head; I felt like all my sense were concentrated on one specific part of my body. Suddenly my body started to respond and my breath was unsteady. It was such a nice feeling I couldn’t resist it. Thomas kissed me gently first and then passionately, exploring my mouth, biting my lower lip and suddenly I notice I was kissing him back which aroused him even more. So he went down kissing my chest, my belly till reaching my hips, he spread my legs and concentrated on my most sensitive part at that moment. After a while, that for me was like an eternity, I cum, he looked at me, smiled and kissed me gently. - Now that I have you, I’ll never let you go, he whispered I laid face down, blushing and feeling so embarrassed that I couldn’t face him. What had he done to me? And In the open air at college??!! What’d happened if someone saw us? He kissed the back of my neck and said: - We’ll leave when you’re ready - Can you leave first, please… my voice sounded like I wanted to cry, in fact, that’s all I wanted to do, cry. - It’s ok, Pat, I know you feel embarrassed but get used to it, because I intend to do it every time I feel it. - Leave me alone, Thomas, never touch me again, never get close to me again. I need to be alone just now. Leave me alone!!!!! I cried, crying like a little boy…. .-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.-.- I didn’t go to college for a couple of days, I couldn’t face my classmates and I definitely couldn’t meet Thomas. I didn’t know what he had done to me, but I felt hot everywhere he had touched me and every time I thought about it. During those days, I received a short letter from Paul. His grandpa has died. “Dear Patrick: I’m so sorry for all the things I told you last time we saw each other, I wish I could take them back. My grandpa died last week, you know how attached I was to him. I’m very sad Patrick. I missed and needed you. I wish you could be here with me”

Fiiuuuu Sorry it took too long guys, fact is a altered all chapter I wrote one thing,then decided to change the course of the story Here it is chapter 12 I really hope you guys like it :* P.S Yeah it's a spoiled chapter Spell... Chapter 12 Hope you enjoyed it, next won't be long too. Big kisses and thanks for all the suport :*

Next chapt out of the oven... hehe Just tell me what you think, ok?! IV We didn’t see each other for few weeks. I heard he was on a trip to Shenzhen, he wanted to specialize in Oriental Cultures, so I was at ease. I had found a nice corner in the campus, quite enough to read and have lunch without no one round. I started to spend all my free time there, at lunch and between lessons. My classmates always asked me to have lunch together but I always refused, I preferred to be alone with my books and thoughts. Thursdays were my most quiet days, I only had few classes so between them I spent my time in my secret corner. One day, I fall sleep reading the papers for one of my lessons. “One cannot lose what one has not possessed. So much for that abrasive gem I can lose what I want. I want you” I felt a very soft low voice whispering in my ear, was I dreaming? I was half sleep and so tired I didn’t want to open my eyes. I loved that part of Geoffrey Hill’s poem. It felt so nice feeling the warm of the Autumn sun on my face, that soft voice, those kisses, what a nice dream. Kisses on my cheek, on my neck… Wait! Kisses on my neck were real! I suddenly opened my eyes and saw him kissing me. - What the hell are you doing???!!! I cried - You were so tempting, with your cute sleeping face, you were so peacefully dreaming that I couldn’t avoid it. - And… and how did you know that poem? Why were you reciting it? - Oh… umm… well, I saw you one day at the library with one of Hill’s volumes and I had a look. I liked the poem so I memorized it. Your sleeping face inspired it. “ I can lose what I want, I want you” I like that last verse… I burst out laughing, Thomas stepped back. - You think it’s funny? His smile had disappeared - No, no sorry, I said laughing, it’s just that I’m not used to these things and didn’t expect it either. I took a deep breath, stopped laughing and seriously told him: - I’m sorry, Thomas, truly sorry, but don’t do those things, less to sleepy people. - What? You think I do this to anyone? It’s just you, Patrick, he was staring at me, serious look in his eyes. An alarm started to ring on my head, telling me to run away before making a big mistake. I wanted to run away, what was happening here? How my peaceful afternoon was turning this way? Was this the perfect man? The brilliant student? I felt a knot on my throat. - Well thanks for the poem and the nice awakening, I got to go now He, then, once more told me… - I told you it wasn’t going to be easy, Patrick He pushed me and I fell on my back, he grabbed my hands above my head, damn God, he was really strong. I started to panic, what did he want? What was going to happen to me? My body got rigid, I tried to fight, I tried to push him away. - Thomas , stop it please, it’s not funny anymore, I begged - Who said I was joking. Since the first I saw you, I wanted to have you - What??? I didn’t do anything - Really think so? You must be more concerned to the faces you make when you’re lost and I couldn’t stand the face you showed when you’re best friend came to the conversation at the food shop. A felt a fire inside of me… He licked the tip of my nose, it was ticklish, he licked the inside of my upper lip, went down to my neck, un buttoned my shirt… Oh, my goodness! I thought, is this for real???!!!

And... chapt III, Will Patrick find out more about the brilliant handsome student??? III My first week passed, no pain, no glory. I spent my first weekend alone, no family, no friends. I was feeling lonely and started to think of Paul so to avoid it I went for a walk and do some shopping. I stopped at a Japanese bento shop to buy my lunch. As I was coming out someone patted my head. I raised my sight and there he was, the brilliant handsome student. -Hi there, how are you doing? I hope it wasn’t a tough week. - Hello, I said astonished. He remembered me? I wanted to thank you but didn’t know who you were and couldn’t find you. - That’s true, well… I’m Thomas and you are? . I’m Patrick, very nice to meet you. I’m a first year student - Really? I’m on my third one… -I know you’re a brilliant student admired by everyone… - And what are you doing here? - Oh! Umm... I was bored wandering around, I found that Japanese shop and bought some lunch - You like Japanese food? He said while chewing one of my sushi pieces - Oh yes! I love it. My best friend mom’s is Japanese so I frequently eat it, well… used to eat it… - Umm, best friend uh? What happened, he broke your heart? - I beg your pardon? Why was he asking me that? We just met, I didn’t want to talk about Paul. I still felt sad and missed him, so I tried to dodge the question and leave him before being impolite. -Well, nice to meet you, I got to go, see you round… As I started to walk away from him, he suddenly grabbed my arm and told me -Eh! That’s a bit rude of you, don’t you think?, leaving me alone even when I helped you I blushed at the look of his face, he has a mischievous smile. He pressed my arm harder and pushed me towards him and licked my upper lip bitting it later. - You think is that easy? You’d say “thanks” and that’s all, he whispered softly, huskily in my ear. A shiver went all over my spine. What the hell did he want from me?

Here comes chapter II, I think, I tried to introduce all the character. Hope you enjoy it... II A month passed since that day and there I were wandering round looking for class II-C. - Oh my goodness! Where the hell is this class- I sighed - You should follow that corridor to the end, turn right and it’s the second door on the left I turned my head and all I saw was a dazzling in a very beautiful face talking to me. A tall, well-built young man with green eyes, light brown hair, carrying a thick blue folder. - Sorry, I said - Never mind, I’ll take to your class, you’re doing Anthropology with Mr. Anderson, right? - Yes, I answered, wondering why he knew my classes - Good! He’s very good at teaching, you’ll learn a lot. - Umm, umm, thank you, I answered while following him… - Aha! Perfect timing, your mates are already in and Mr. Anderson is coming. I was left there still in surprise and when I reacted he was already leaving. - What’s your name??!!! I shouted in the middle of the class, everybody looking at me and my face ready to explode of embarrassment. - I’m…. But it was too late, a roar of chairs made impossible to hear his name and the teacher was calling for our attention. I spent the rest of my first day from class to class, meeting teacher, classmates and taking notes. At lunchtime, we were having some bites at the crowded cafeteria. While having lunch, I could have a glimpse of the handsome student who helped me find my class, I wanted to thank him but I didn’t know his name, I waved but he didn’t see me - Who are you looking for? Asked one of my new classmates. Her name was Oxana, a beautiful girl from Bulgary. - Oh! That boy there helped me this morning and I just wanted to say thanks. - Who? Thomas? Thomas Cowan- Stuart? - You… you know him, I said in surprise, he’s kind of famous round here? - Everybody knows him. He’s in his third year, he’s one of the most brilliant students and all the teacher want him as assistant - He’s unreachable, said Oxana, both for girls and boys… He’s so commited with his career, that he barely has friends. I’ve heard he has been in many OIriental countries, he loves their cultures, he even speaks fluent Chinese. It’s the perfect man. I felt a bit disappointed, a perfect man…

Hi there, here it is chap 1... Hope you all like it Big kiss :* Story Satus: Hana-san well confront Mina to tell him about his family affairs... How's that going to run?! Spell… Chapter 11 I got up early that morning. I was restless, couldn’t sleep well, working really good on the words I would have to use, to make him spill the beans… Took my usual shower, dressed some sport pants and t-shirt since it was so early, I wouldn’t dress the suit already, it would wrinkle and that would be a pain. I wanted to know everything, I wanted him to tell me, what was bothering him, what was making him so sad every time he spoke about it, why the bright smile he always had, darkened every single time I mentioned this matter. And today was the day to make it clear. If there was a way to help him, I would find it, I would help him sort things out. I disconnected the alarm clock, there was no need for him, since I was already up, and I went to wake him up… We both fell asleep late yesterday, but this couldn’t wait… There was no way I would leave this house without knowing what was happening, no way I was going to work thinking about the same thing all over again, I would be even more upset, with no room on my mind to work affairs. “Mina time to wake up… I need to talk to you before I go to work…” “But it’s so early Hana-san…can’t it wait till another hour….?” “No it can’t!” I answered him in a slight cold way, so he could figure it was important and that I wasn’t joking around… He got up still a bit drowsy, looking at me, like I was about to say something really bad… “I’ll begin preparing breakfast…” “Breakfast can wait Mina…Please, sit down…” “What’s wrong Hana-san…you look so serious all of the sudden…” “It’s not sudden, Mina, about your family…I want you to tell me everything…now” He sighted and his eyebrows furrowed... “Like I said Hana-san it’s complicated…Why do you want to know stuff like this…it doesn’t concern you.” That hurt. It didn’t concern me?! How could he say something like that…? If we were together it’s normal for us to know everything about each other… Especially if it was such a pained matter, I wanted him to know I was here for him, as he was for me so many times before... “That was mean, Mina. You follow me up, you sleep with me, you spied on my ex, you make me fall in love with you and I don’t have the right to know these things…I’m I supposed to be ok with that?!” “I’m sorry Hana-san, I didn’t meant it that way, ‘course you deserve to know, i’ll tell ya everything about me…is just this matter…I won’t even know where to begin…” “Try starting from the beginning...” I grabbed his hands and looked straight into his eyes... He sighed like three times in a row… Whatever was he was about to say, it surely made him feel so much sorrow, I was feeling a bit guilty about it, but I had to know… “Two years ago, when I met ya in that Sakura gathering at my house, I really fell in love with Hana-san… I told ya before, and I… I really wasn’t joking around when I said it Hana-san…” “Yes and…what do I have to do with this story…?” “Well, after that day, I started wondering if it wouldn’t be great if I could find Hana-san, and be together with ya, tell ya that I love ya, and that I want to stay with ya….forever…” This declaration stunned me, because i could clearly see what was coming ahead... “Mina what happened?!” I felt my chest hurt… “Well, two weeks after that party, I went to talk with my parents… They always were… everything for me…I love them with all my heart… My brother is my best friend…They were so important to me. But that day, things changed….” A cold shiver run down my back…something really bad was coming and I could feel it… “Changed how…?” “Well…Hana-san, for a men to feel attracted to other man, don’t ya think is weird?! Of course I understood that something was wrong with me, but I didn’t really dislike girls, but I just don’t want them, or other guys…I just wanted you. So I decided to speak with my parents about it…about adopting a man into our family, since I decided not to get married to a woman..” “You what…?!” “I thought it was the right thing to do, cause…well even if I couldn’t have Hana-san…no one was right for me…I wouldn’t be with anyone, and that they should be prepared for it..” My worst nightmare was happening there in front of my eyes…I could see it like a movie…The shock, the pain, the disgust they must have felt….like they, my family, did… “You’re an idiot, why did you such a thing…?” “Hana-san! If I didn’t tell them straight up I didn’t want to get married, they soon would be finding me a bride…My family has traditions, rules, that I never understood, but that I was supposed to follow…I don’t want that…I wouldn’t be happy, and I wouldn’t make the other person happy too…” “What did they do afterwards? I mean, didn’t they lock you up, preventing you from doing such a thing or something…?” This...was me…mentioning these things was really difficult, they were my experiences…my pain, my tears, my suffering… Like he was telling my story… “Well they didn’t…They just said that if it was what I wanted…then I was….no longer part of that family…” He was devastatingly sad telling me all this… I became somehow terrified from the thought of being responsible, from him being thrown out of his own house… Something this happened because he met me… “Are you ok with this…? Are you ok, with not being able to meet your parents anymore, not meeting your brother anymore, to throw away all you have…Are you really ok with this Mina?” “If it’s for you…yes I am.” There wasn’t a doubt in his eyes, the black colour of his irises didn’t lose their glitter, or showed me any kind of regret, or fear while saying those words… What was I suppose to feel…happiness?! I was so scared… and so sad, I didn’t know what to do anymore… How could I be responsible for this kind soul to have lost everything…? “I…I can’t accept that…” He looked down, he looked mad, like he was going to punch something… “This is why…I didn’t want to tell you anything…” “What...you rather keep me in the dark about all this?” “Yes...i would rather do that, so that i don’t have ya mopping around thinking about my own choices...i choose you...you better deal with it. You might leave me, but that will only mean i’ll be alone. Won’t you be with me instead?! Will you let me alone forever just because i said what i really felt to my family?... Do you really think that i’ll give up on you, just because you don’t want me to throw everything away? Well, you better think again Hana-san, cause i won’t go back, on my words nor my actions....” “You’re leaving me no choice... What i Shu finds out who you are and goes babbling to your family that you’re with me...? How do you think it would make me fell, for them to know that i am the one responsible for ruining his son’s life...(tears)...?” “Why does that bastard comes up in this conversation? He has nothing to do with this or you, by the way, so why are you mentioning him?” “Because i saw him... Yesterday...He begged me to go back to him, i'm afraid he'll meddle in my affairs...” “He what?!” “Just cool it Mina, i told him straight that i had no intention of going back to him, and told him that i already had someone...that i wouldn’t let go, or give up on...(blush)because you’re special...to me, i'm just scared he finds out who you are and does something bad” He got up and hugged me, like he never did before. I felt him reassure me that he wasn’t going anywhere...that he wouldn’t leave me... "I'll be right here... I won't let anything happen to you..." "I't's not me i'm affaid you idiot...." I had the feeling i was holding to something as precious as the sun, or the moon... The kind of person, i searched all my life, was there in my arms, and i could only fear what was ahead of us... Hope you enjoyed reading... Thank you for all the suport... Another big one f'o ya all :*

Hi, here's chap 10. It's a little well...nothing much but just in case i put it like this... Hope you enjoy... Spell… Chapter 10 ________________________________________________________________________ Hope you guys liked it... Thank you, always, for the suport... Big kiss f'o ya :leaf3:

As soon as i looked at him, to face him, to order him to let me go, i saw a side of Shu i never, ever seen before. It was shocking... The usually, charming, all composed, even sexy business man, was looking more like a rag, an old, used, tearing one... It was sad to look at. “Please Hana, i can’t live without you...i’m so alone...i haven’t been with anyone, i didn’t even have sex with anyone, since you left, i’m all by myself, i miss you so much...please, come home, i swear i’ll change everything you think is wrong about me...i’ll try harder, i won’t fool around. But please, return to me...please give me another chance.” My already, slowly healing, heart broke to another thousand pieces all over again. I felt my legs, loose all their strength, but i hang on to a bright smile and a warm embrace, which suddenly became all my reasoning... All the inner strength i had to pull myself together when we broke up, all the seconds telling to myself it was all for the best for us to break up, to just let him be, he was once again taking everything away, but i wasn’t going to let him do it..Not this time. “I’m sorry Shu...I’m so very sorry you’re like this now...But i no longer wish to have anything to deal with you. The night i walked out of that house, all the feelings i had for you died.(pain)” “It can’t be Hana...(tremble)we were together for two whole years, you couldn’t have forgotten me already...It’s impossible, right?.” “Impossible you say(sigh)...Well, not impossible Shu, sorry but this is the reality... I won’t come back to you...I gave you my everything once(pain), and you treated me like i was trash(pain)...at first i won’t deny that, there was a time when i really felt you loved me, and i (pain)appreciate you for that...But we are different Shu, i started to realize that a long time ago, but i was...so afraid to be all alone that i hung myself to that small, little thing you gave me...But today(pain) i know it’s not enough for me...” “Hana...I’ll give you everything, I GAVE YOU EVERYTHING...” “No you won’t...and no you didn’t...you gave me what you thought was enough to make me all happy and quiet, but i always secretly wished for more...” “What do you want from me...? Then tell me i’ll do it, i’ll try, i swear to you to make up for everything i did wrong so far...so please, just think about it...We were happy once, i can make you happy, much happier that before, all over again...” “I don’t think so Shu...” “Why not?!...Unless you already found someone?” I felt my throat dry but i had to give him an answer. It wasn’t hard to say....a simple “yes” would do but, for this little word to come out of my mouth, i was finding it really hard to do so. Was it out of pity or was i afraid of getting Mina involved? I mean Mina knew Shu, and even if Shu didn’t remember Mina, there’ll surely be a problem later...a big one... But i hold on to my little braveness and said... “Yes Shu...i do.” “Is that so...” The man before me looked broken, beyond repair... But even if i felt so much sorry for him, i couldn’t let him have the best of me... I had to be strong, i had to protect what i promised Mina...and i would do so. “Sorry Shu, i love him... I won’t leave him for no one...you know i don’t fall in love easily, and that i don’t give in to anyone unless i really want to...But he is special, and he makes me feel so special too...” “I see...” “I have to go back to the office now...Now is really goodbye Shu. Please, don’t look for me anymore, i’m happy, you should try to find your happiness as well...” “You’re my happiness Hana...” I felt something so heavy being lift off my shoulders... And i was finally able to stand on my own two feet...with all my strength restored. “You found that out too late...I’m sorry..i really should go.” I left him there, in the freezing cold, just like he left me so many times when i waited for him to come back home...to come back to me...but, i gave a hard breath in and went inside the building. He stood there, alone. I didn’t look back anymore... Truth is i felt like i closed a chapter in my life. And i was relieved i did so. And tonight i would face Mina with a different confidence in me... I couldn’t believe it myself, i said it, and out loud too... I loved him...He was mine, and i was his... ________________________________________________________________________ Hope you guys like it it's a litte shorterhan usual cause, i separeted what i wrote in two parts, cause chap 10 it's almost ready and i'll be posting it soon as well... Big kiss f'o ya :leaf3::leaf3:

Hi hi, Here it is chap 8 hope you enjoy... Arigatou to all of you who keep reading...From the bottom of my heart your support is the best... ________________________________________________________________________ Spell… Chapter 8 Truth was…I forgot. Never, for more than 2 years did I thought about the kid that messed me up badly in that afternoon. Never once, did he crossed my mind. I scratched his existence, from that day on i behaved like he never existed. I wanted to be with the person I was in love then, I wanted only him, take care of only him, to stay with him forever. Well I could say now that, I won’t, I won’t be loved like I wished, I won’t be together like I dreamed so many times we would be. I couldn’t stop the overflowing feelings inside… And the flood of tears started once more. He was standing still, looking at me, studying every one of my expressions. “Did you remember Hana-san…?” “Hum, Hum…(nod)” “Do you hate me now?!” “I…I’m confused…but I don’t hate you, I don’t think I do…” “I’m relieved(sigh)…I thought Hana san would once more dislike me…” Such a pained expression… “Once more?! I never disliked you…I just...Got all messed up that time at the Sakura meeting, I had never, ever, seen a smile like yours…a 16 year old brat messing my pace so easily(smile). I was angry at myself for feeling that way Mina-san, besides, you kept my secret right, I have only gratitude.” I caressed Mina’s face, it was so hot under my hand, like a fever, but also so comfortable… I felt he could protect me even from the worst blizzards. His eyes were shining. He got closer to me and took both of my hands on his. “I thought only about you all this time…(kiss on my hands)” His voice was low, mellow, soft…I felt like I was being confessed to in the sweetest way. My heartbeat started to speed up, and my temperature kept on rising… Mostly because he was so close to me, but also, all the things from the night before, where starting to show all over my body now. How could this be? Not even a touch yet, and all this desire built already… “Is it fate, Mina-san?!” “No…it’s love.(whisper)” He caressed my face, looking straight into my eyes never letting go, he kissed me, lightly…softly, like I was precious…valuable… “I’ve been waiting for you for too long already(hold me)….I just want to have you…Possess you. Won’t you let me stay by your side Hana…Won’t you let me love you?(whispered)Since I first saw you blushing hard by that Sakura tree(smile), I thought you we’re the most beautiful thing I’ve seen in my life. I have to have you, I thought then, but I was a kid, I kept waiting the years passed, but never once were out of my mind. You were my goal. There was nothing else I wished to have.” “You say that so easily… It’s not easy Mina-san…” “You’re talking about that guy?! He never loved you… He was always fooling around, having sex with other people, while you were left alone…” “How did you know that I was alone?” “I remembered who he was, I made friends with him at the bar I work part-time, and little at a time, he kept spitting out, that he already had someone, but it was turning boring… That he loved ya…But that you and sex, were two different matters… What the hell is that Hana…?! That’s no way of treating ya… And then I saw you that time…” There’s no way to describe the way he gaze at me then…He was desperately trying to explain something from within himself, his thoughts, his feelings… I felt a little happy, I was the source of this concern. Seemed like he was waiting for a very long time to take that away from his heart, like it was hurting him deeply. “And the way ya looked, you were breaking apart in front of my eyes and couldn’t even hold ya… I wanted to kill him for making you feel like that, to make him disappear from your heart so you could see only me…Is that asking for too much…?! Am I being greedy…Please don’t pity me, and say all ya have to say, all you think of me…cause I know I acted a little like a stalker and…” I kissed him lightly in the lips… The honesty reflected in his eyes was so obvious, like the earth being round. He didn’t have a doubt in his heart, and he was pursuing is own vision of happiness and love… I was fearful… Would it be ok giving him hope, I wanted to, but I looked back and remembered the two years of a relationship, that started beautifully and ended horribly. I don’t want that anymore. I don’t want to suffer anymore… “Won’t you give me a chance Hana-san? Won’t you let me love you, stay with you…” “I don’t know Mina-san, I’m…I…don’t know…” “Then let me show you how I want you just once more…Let me hold again, if still you don’t made up your mind…I’ll leave. I promise.” He got closer, and I could feel his desperation, could I deny that, could I deny the pleasure I know he could give me… It was hard to push him away, caressing me like that. All I could mumble were sounds of pleasure each and every time he touched a single place, a strand of hair, the whispers, so soft in my ear… I grabbed his neck and told him… “Don’t hurt me…please(tear)don’t leave me, that’s my small request if you wish to make me happy…love me more and more, never stop thinking of me… If you won’t stand then say it now, we won’t go further in this, and we will forget. If you don’t I will want you all for myself, I’ll become an egoistic person about everything about you(cry)…Will you stand that… Live only for me , love only me, do this…only to me…Could you do it?” I made him enter me, I wasn’t being able to stop wanting him anymore… Like a drug… The more you have…the more you want… The kisses weren’t enough, we wanted each other more, we caressed more, touched more… Going to a point when you wish to know each sensitive spot, what makes him gasp, breath heavily, heartbeat speed up… Could a relationship based on desire be possible? He loved me, yes… If I loved him…not yet…not just yet, but I could give him a chance, why not…. If he’s serious about it…We could try. I would keep a distance, a safe one, and for now I would go with the flow… “You’re mine(hold tight)… Never in this life will I give you to someone else… So you can bet that I’ll be here for ya, anytime, anywhere ya want me too…I became yours, the first time you looked at me, with that shyness of yours…I ain’t going nowhere, and you’re the one who needs to think if you can do it…” “I’ll try…(caress)for now I’ll be yours…Take good care of me, please…” “I will…(kiss/caress)I will…” No more words were spoken, they weren’t needed… The deep cold snow outside was a visible contrast, with the temperature inside the house… Hot, sweated windows, from our deep heavy breathing, seemed to be crying from the dropping accumulated perspiration… Making love to him, was by itself such experience, to top it off, so damn beautiful… He called me beautiful…he was the one blinding me from the world making me see only him… only his light… “You’re so perfect(breath), so beautiful(caress), (gasp)so perfect(breath)” “I love you(breath)…” The perfect contact with our bodies gave me the sense of two bells, being played at the same time, giving the most sweet melody ever made… We satisfied ourselves in each others touch, kiss, embrace… “Merry Christmas.” “Merry Christmas, Mina(kiss)…” We stared at the window watching the snow fall… Falling asleep in each other arms… The morning may bring whatever may bring. ________________________________________________________________________ Again thank you all for the support... A very big KISS f'o ya :leaf3:

Here's chap 7. Hope you guys enjoy Kiss* Spell… Chapter 7 I remembered everything… The images were popping in my head like a slide show… The warm weather, the sweet smelling breeze that caressed my face and my hair… It was like I was feeling it right then. It was May, two years ago. Me and Shu were together only for a few weeks then, we were so much in love, and I was the happiest person alive. There was nothing in this world that could make me feel bad or sad, nothing could disturb that happiness…nothing could come between us. Shu was invited by one of his friends to a Sakura sighting reunion, people would just show up to eat, drink and watch Sakura trees in bloom. An enormous mansion, the greenery that went till my eyes couldn’t reach, the pink and the green mixture was unbelievable, it was hard to believe such thing existed. I was happy he brought me along. It was just perfect for a walk in the sun. The person, who was holding this gigantic party was introduced to us. The first thing I noticed was this formal appearance and attitude, I was taken aback, I wasn’t expecting this kind of grandness, in a party where we were only watching trees… This old looking person was wearing a kimono, and you could see the different air around him, like royalty. “Shu this is kind of…” “Yeah I know, they’re one of the biggest families in the word of kabuki, ever heard of it?” “I know what kabuki is, but I really don’t like it that much… is...(whisper)well, kind of boring…” “Ahahah, well it is, but it is considered to be one of the greatest forms of art in Japan, and they are the biggest name in this business…” “Well, what’s so good about a bunch of old man dancing dressed as women…? I really don’t get it…” “Well you’ll see what I’m talking about later… My friend told me their youngest son is considered to be the best and the most beautiful person in the kabuki industry. There isn’t a single idol company that doesn’t want to get him…” “Young…How young like 40?(laugh)” “Ahahah, Hana I know the person we just made acquaintance was old but his sons are not old at all. One is 25 and the younger is only 16.” “Oh…ok then. Let’s check out their talent shall we, but watch out, I’ll be jealous if you keep staring at them too much(smile).” “(Whisper)I won’t, but you’ll have to repay me when we’re back home…” He caressed my face, and started playing with my hair. “Shu…don’t, there’s to many people. We can be seen…” “We won’t…after all the main source of attention are these beautiful Sakura trees… There’s nobody watching us.” “Is quite a sight isn’t it, I’m overwhelmed…” “You shouldn’t be…You can beat these Sakura in their most beautiful bloom any day…There’s nothing more beautiful than you in this world Hana…” We hid behind one of the trees and kissed I really don’t know if someone saw us, and right then I didn’t care… It was bliss. “Now let’s go, we’ll finish this at home.(smile)” I was still breathing heavily and blushing so much I was afraid to step out of our hide out. As soon as I turned away, I saw a shadow hiding between two trees not very far from us… “Shu, I think somebody just saw us…” “Never mind that, whatever happens we’ll just say you weren’t feeling ok and just went to rest behind a tree, I was just helping you.” “And what if they saw us kiss, that’s troublesome…” “We’ll just deny it…don’t worry, nothing will happen.” “Ok…if you say so.” It was then…Right then…That I first saw him. Something moved behind the trees and showed himself to us… This kid, was standing right between two Sakura trees staring at us. He had a very white make up on his face, and some sort of scarf in his head , it was hard to see who was he… But the way he looked at me, made me feel nervous even then. Black penetrating gaze that could leave you breathless. He was staring only at me, and I started to blush too much. Did he just saw us, well it was just a kid, I don’t think he would even understand what happened. I stole another glance and he was still looking at me, I felt like I was being kept in that place, my feet were turning so heavy I was hard to move them. I stared back at him, blushing so much…Why couldn’t I avoid my eyes from looking at him…what was happening? And suddenly he smiled. All the colours around me went pale, the Sakura turned grey, the greenery turned black and white. The sky that only a few moments ago was bright blue was pitch black. It scared me. I turned away. It took all my strength to do so, I could no longer look at him… He bothered me, he shook my peace, and all inside of me was burning… I was a second away to ask Shu to leave, I didn’t want to stay there anymore, i felt cold, I was disturbed… That wasn’t natural, how could someone gaze make me feel like this… I tried to remember the face of the culprit, but I could only see was the white plaster, the black in his eyes and that smile, that powerful weapon he was bearing that wreaked my chest. “Shu…I don’t think I feel so good, I think I better go, besides if there’s any trouble, it would be better if you’re alone, right?” “What, wait Hana, I thought we were going to watch the show now…it’s almost starting…We’ll leave after the break, ok so just hang on for a little while longer…please?!” “Ok, only because it’s for you, I’m not going to enjoy a bit of this…” “Hum(smile)thank you, besides it would be disrespectful for the people who invited us right? Let’s go.” We sat far in the back so that when the break starts we would leave. Even so, as soon as the music started, once I looked at the stage, I felt my chest hurt again. He was wearing a wig now, dressed in a long white kimono, he was as surprising as before, only the attitude changed. The other person standing beside him, had the same air as him, but in a most adult posture, it was lovely to see the two interact. It was stunning, I thought kabuki was boring but truly that was such a performance…it was one of the most emotional things I’ve seen in my life. “So let’s go?!” “Ah, yeah sure…” “We have to go greet them, you don’t mind do you, I would like to thank them for their hospitality…” “Sure, I don’t mind.” We went to find Shu’s friend first and thank him for the invitation. Then we followed him so we could greet the family. They were reunited, all four of them sitting on a tatami, like they were meditating. Grandfather, father and the two sons. I felt like we were disturbing, it seemed peaceful there… He immediately looked at me, and I took a step back. Shu went and started to greet each and everyone of them, while I stood there trying not to look at the young boy staring at me. I could catch that their family name was Shirou but couldn’t understand any of their first names… They all stood up and bowed at us, we bowed at them and when I stood up he was staring again, with this bright smile in his face. I couldn’t say if he was that gorgeous or not with that thick make up but you could say that he had something about him, but the smile…That smile was the reason, my chest felt pain right now. That smile put a spell on me. You couldn’t look away, you couldn’t run away, you were his prisoner, you couldn’t be released unless he wanted to, unless he allowed to. He was called and the smile got undone, I turned away the fastest I could. I wanted to leave, I wanted to go home, I wanted to hold Shu, I wanted to kiss Shu. I wanted to take this feeling out of me, rip it out of my chest, to feel free from this pain… I didn’t want it, I didn’t need it. I wanted to let go. As soon as Shu got to my side, I took his hand and rushed him to the car. “Drive…” “Hana what’s wrong…” “Drive please…” He didn’t ask anything anymore, he just started the car and drove off. Halfway I was still felling disturbed, I wanted to feel free from that smile. “Shu stop the car, here…” “What the hell Hana, you ask me to drive, you ask me to stop, what’s going on…” As soon as he stopped the car, I jumped on him I kissed, I hold him with all the strength I had, I started to strip him down, I took away his shirt and listened to his heartbeat, it was a calming sound… But it wasn’t enough. I kissed him all the way to his pants, and I opened them. I took him in my mouth, and tasted him till I felt him come. “Hana…(breath)…please…wait...” “Don’t say anything, please…Just enter me…now.” “But it’ll hurt, Hana, I have to prepare you first…” “NO!!…like this now…Shu please do it…take me, hold me, do it to me like you always do…(whisper)love me…please.” He took me in his arms, holding me close. He started kissing me, caressing my chest, he sat me in his legs, and when he entered me…I felt his love, he didn’t want to hurt me, he was gentle, but I wanted him to ravish me up, to mess me up, to take me to a point of no return… He must have been confused at that time, but still he didn’t question me. After that crazy scene of mine he still, kissed me… I hold on to him… “Aishiteru…Shu” “Wakata…(smile)” I will forget…I will…for you, starting now…I would forget. _____________________________________________________ Hope you guys liked it... BIG kiss fo' you :leaf3:

Hi there guys... Here it is chap 6 hope you guys like it... A small request... Play this song in the background while you read(of course that if you don't like it you can turn it off ) http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=VFgA2k_41v0&feature=related Story so far: Well, Hana-san and Mina san did it... Now how do you think the day after is going to be? And why does Mina-san feel so at "home"with Hana-san? Spell… Chapter 6 I woke up in my bed, butt naked and exhausted… Did I passed out, or fell asleep, I really don’t know. Everything from yesterday was blurry, foggy and impossible for me to take any kind of conclusions. Only one thing was on my mind…I was alone again. “He really did me hard(blush)… One night stand hã… What was I expecting?! Good morning kisses…?” A cold shill went down my spine and I decided to put some clothes on… I got out of bed in a very awkward position, crunching like an old man, hand on my back, because it hurt really bad. I dressed the first thing at hand, which turned out to be my shirt from yesterday… It still smelled like him… Sweet wild flowers, kind of scent. I smelled it once more so that I wouldn’t forget, and while I was having that awkward kind of moment, I heard noises coming from the other side of the door… I opened it very slowly and peeked. He was standing by the stove making something, like a busy bee… “So he’s still here…(strong blush)” I didn’t admitted then but I was happy as hell he was. I opened the door and went out of the room. “Good morning…” I couldn’t even look him in the eye as always…I was still blushing hard. He turned around. “Hey…” The lavished, out of the bed look he had was better than anything I had seen so far. He looked breathtaking. He could easily amaze me with simple kind of things like this…I liked that. I went to meet him, ask what was he doing that smelled so good. He was standing very serious, still looking at me. “What is it…?!” “Are you tempting me Hana-san…?!” He slightly crooked his head to one side while his eyes looked like where eating me from head to toe. I blushed hard again, I wasn’t doing such thing, what the hell… until I looked down. I wasn’t wearing any pants or underwear, only the shirt and still completely open… “Cause that’s quite a sight…” He laughed. “Oh shit, I’m going to get dressed…” “Please don’t be concerned for me, I’m great, please do not put anything else, that is just perfect…(small laugh)” “Perv…I’ll be right back…” I came back to the room… “What the hell was I thinking going out there looking like this…?!” I’m really loosing my mind, and he’s the one to blame. I searched for a pair of trunks, sports pants and a sweater. I didn’t give it a second thought… “I don’t care if I look good or not…” I thought. I went to meet him, he was preparing the table, the sweet smell of coffee, and seemed like cinnamon was filling the room. I couldn’t remember the last time I felt like this, a hearth warming, sweet, cosy kind of feeling. It was comfortable… I remembered Shu, and the past year we spent together. It was nothing like this. I used to wake up alone as well, while he was already sitting in the couch reading his newspapers, breakfast already taken, mine waiting at the table turning cold, we didn’t talk we didn’t even look at each other. The words we shared were only out of courtesy, there was always this choking kind of feeling… It wasn’t comfortable, it wasn’t nice, but I was still there day after day, still waiting for a change, which never came… Only because I loved him. I sat at the table, looking at him. “Hana-san do you like pancakes?” “Hum, yeah…What, you made pancakes?” “Tadada, of course… What could I give the beautiful Hana-san after last night? The best breakfast ever….(small laugh)” “You shouldn’t trouble yourself with me…anything is fine…” “No way…” He got closer, I thought he was going to kiss me, but he just whispered… “If it’s for you, only the best is allowed...” He gave me a small kiss in the cheek, and I felt my face turn bright red. “Ahahah, i’m afraid to even ask why’s that… I’m not special, I’m not important…I’m just me…” “Is that what you really think of yourself? You should care for yourself more…..Or I could do it for you. I would care, and I would tell you how important you are every day, if you want me to…” “What are you saying, you don’t even know me, there’s no way that kind of feelings could grow in one night…we don’t have that kind of relationship, and I don’t want one right now…” “Really? That’s a pity…I really thought that you were over that guy…” “What guy? What are talking about?!” “Let’s just say that I know Hana-san better than Hana-san thinks…(smile)” That smile looked bitter, not his usual radiance or shine, there was sadness in it. That made me feel nervous… I didn’t like his smile like that, what was behind those words…?! How could he know me… Does he remember…? “Why you say that Mina-san…I never met you before…so i…” “Never mind that…let’s eat or it will get cold…” He also sat, and i started eating… It was delicious, he made a mixture of cinnamon with the pancake fillings, it really was amazing. “Mina-san you really can cook, it’s delicious…” “I’m happy Hana-san liked it…” And he stood there watching me, taking small sips from his coffee cup, never speaking just watching me eat… “What is it Mina-san…? Do I have something in my face?” “No, eat. I’m just observing you. Can’t i?” “Why should you, I’m sure there’s loads of important stuff for you to do right?” “Actually, no! And you Hana-san, aren’t you going to work today?” Such a sad look…What was he hiding?! “No I won’t. I work in international affairs. My company does business with lot’s of international companies, and most of those are European…They celebrate Christmas there as well, and nothing runs so, we have the day off…” “Do you want to spend this day with me Hana-san?” There’s that sad look again… When he said that it didn’t look like a request it was almost like he was pleading me… It bothered me… Why was he so sad, why did he so desperately wanted my company? “Ok, but Mina-san… Can we just be…more like friends than…” “I understand Hana-san…I got it the first time you said it, you want nothing from me but sex, right?!” “What wait, that’s not what I meant…” “It’s ok Hana-san, whenever you want it I’ll give to you…” He started to touch me and of course, I started to feel it too but… “Mina-san!” My tone raised some decibels so I could make myself clear. I kept my voice calm, and spoke to him in a very formal way…. “Yesterday, I am sorry, I still don’t know how that happened, I got myself involved with you because you really do attract me, but that’s it. The sex was out of this world?! Yes it was, never did I experience anything like that, but let’s just stick to this night, because it won’t happen again…” I couldn’t do it again… I was so very afraid, I could see myself going thru the same path, and I lost it… I knew that now all looked ok, but later I would be the one suffering, I would be the one crying… He looked pained, and that hurt my heart so badly I wished to take back everything I just said… But I couldn’t… “So that’s what Hana-san thinks? Did he hurt you so bad, you’re afraid off loving again, Hana-san?” “What the hell do you know about me Mina-san, just spit it already…You remember me from the bar right…That’s it right?! You saw my miserable state that night and now you’re pitting me…isn’t it?! Well I don’t need pity. I’m just starting to get on my own two feet again, and I don’t want no one disturbing my pace. Not you, not Shu, not anyone…” My voice trembled a little in the end… Did he figure out I’m lying thru my teeth? Will he realize that I’m terrified of being alone, and take advantage of it?! He did none. “Hana-san. I’m sorry. I’m being a pain right… Well you have a point when you say I remember you. How could I forget?! I liked you right then, but not from the bar… But your crying face, your pained smile, when you saw your boyfriend with someone else…” I turned pale. He knew everything, he was lying too… What does this mean…? “…I wanted to comfort you right then but you didn’t let me… so I backed out, I didn’t wanted to push you. I waited for another chance. And now that I have it, you still don’t want me…I’m getting tired of waiting Hana-san…” “What?” “You think the first time I met you was at the bar right?! Well, you’re wrong! The first time I met you was 2 years ago during a Kabuki festival, my parents organized…You where there, together with him. You spoke to me, and as soon as I saw you I fell in love with you.” “What are you talking about…Mina-san I never met you before the bar…I’m sure of it, I would remember…” “ You wouldn’t Hana-san…I look different from before…and with the make up there’s no way you could…" Suddenly an image of a garden filled with Sakura in full bloom, a white face staring at me, came to my mind…

This chapters as quite a few steaming scenes so here it is.... ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Well that's it for chap 5, hope you guys enjoyed it... Thank you for all the support love ya all...** Kiss*

Title: Enzai - Falsely Accused Genre: Historical Fiction, Psychological, Romance, Eroge Rate: 18+ Released: 2002 Format: rar Filesize: 80-95 Mb each (2 files) Platform: PC Plot: Taken from Wikipedia because the OP is too lazy to type a summary The story is set in post-revolutionary France in early 19th-century. Although the specific date is never given, Napoleon Bonaparte is still described as being in power. A character (see below) remarks that it is several years before the 20th anniversary of the French Revolution, placing the game's events in the years before 1809. The protagonist is Guys, a young boy from a poor family, who gets caught for stealing candy from a Paris store. However, after being railroaded by a city detective named Guildias, Guys finds himself accused, convicted, and sentenced to life imprisonment for the murder of a man he never met. From that point on, most Enzai takes place inside a dark, claustrophobic, dirty prison. In there, Guys experiences humiliation and torture of various kinds, much of it involving sexual acts such as rape and forcible sodomy. The primary goal of the game is for the player (as Guys) to locate evidence and witnesses that can exonerate him of the murder, unveil the true killer, and get him released from prison. Secondary goals include learning the killer's true motives, finding out the back story of the murder, keeping Guys both physically and psychologically healthy, and forming a romantic bond with other male NPCs in the prison. **Disclaimer: This user is not responsible for any odd fetishes or phobias of Christmas trees and chocolate that may be formed after playing~ If you need help with converting and running the game, please let me know. EDIT: Licensed game

Lmao thank you XD You are so pretty too!

e amander for making me sound even pervier than I already do

Kick amander, but she gets a kiss too~

Incest/twincest = love

i hug both of u hihih

Well, some of us soon start to write relay story about Takumi-kun characters into family... that will be some time to kill and have a fun... And I just have too much think to do right now... I don't know why I thought about doing that... but, I think it will be fun to do it... And if you could come to Takumi-kun FC... there are lot of thing to see... Some you may already see, but, I did some(little more then some) of Takumi-kun 5th blog. post in translation... If you join the Takumi-kun community there is post that help you to find the all the 10days posting I did... and some other posting I did too... ^^ And if I can make it... I am thinking of posting the test they did on the blog too... You could kill some time from that too... ^^;;;

Acid town by Kyuugou KYAAAAAAAAAAA i am soooooooooooooooo in loooooove with Acid town!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!:leaf15::7yoyo10::Red_fox7::cuteonion41:

Hugs Cherry and licks her cheek.

All of you do me great honor.I'll try to do my best! Thanks a lot

My guessing it will be near end of this year that DVD will come out... So most likely we will see end of this year or early next year that with engsub... --;;; Most of DVD from Takumi-kun took about 2~4 months after movie release in theater... So... now is Aug... so early will be the some time in Nov... That is still 3 months to go... --;;;

Here it is chap 9... Hope you guys like it Spell... Chapter 9 When i woke up, i felt something really heavy on top of me. I tried to move but it was hard to get away from those strong arms, the more i tried to get loose the more they gripped tight. “Mina, i need to get up, please let me go...” “(muffed) No...it’s still early Hana-san, stay here a little while longer...(tight hug)” Oh my...so cute... “I have to Mina-san...” He started to move away... “Ok but i’ll get up as well, i’ll cook you breakfast...” He blinked an eye tom me and I felt warm just from his kindness... It was good to know he was there for me, it felt right... I was blushing like an idiot all over again.... “But Hana-san...don’t you want to give me a good morning kiss...?” I blushed even harder right on the spot, what was with that kind of question this early in the morning... “Mina-san!... Please i have to get ready...uh...don’t ask such things like this...” “Ok...” The sad, dejected look he had was unbearable, i just felt like hugging him again, kiss him a lot and never let go...even so i left the room, i was running a little late. I really needed a shower... I got to the bathroom and kept thinking about what was said on the day before. It seemed surreal. The words, the actions...They really happened... And i promised to be with him... Was i being too little cautious about this, or over cautious....Did i loved him or was this just an incredible attraction? I was getting confused so i decided to drop the thought. “We’ll see how this goes... i will take my conclusions later.” I got dressed so i could got to work, and when i got to the living room , he had already set the table, breakfast served, a huge smile on his face, like he didn’t saw me for like a year, all waiting for me...I loved that. “Hana-san i have to work today, my part-time at the bar is today so...i’ll be a little late but, can i come to meet you when i finish?” Another blush... “Don’t you have a house to go to?” “Well i do, but i rather stay with Hana-san....if you don’t mind...” Well i didn’t mind! Between spending the nights alone, laying in a bed all alone i much rather have him with me these cold nights. Not because of the cold, but because the warmth he brought to me was unlike anything else, unlike anyone... But i just couldn’t tell him that. “Well i don’t mind...so you can...just make sure you don’t wake me up (blush)...” He got closer and whispered... “I don’t know if i can do that.... (soft kiss)” “Mina-san...(hard blush)” “But i’ll try...it’s going to be really hard but i’ll try not to wake you... (smile)” I tried to change the subject. “Do you really have to work at that place...? I mean, i’m not judging or anything but don’t you belong to a very big, important family...? What are you doing working in a place like that...?” There was this drastic change in his expression... “It’s complicated Hana-san...” I felt insecure for the first time... “But you can talk to me right, i mean you can see me as a friend as well, if you need someone to talk to, you can confide in me, you know that, right?” “(soft kiss) Hana-san is so good to me... (smile)” I felt getting warm again...the closeness, and the way he spoke to me where like weapons against my desire, and i always lost to them... “Mina-san please...i really should be going...” I got out of the table, so i could take a safe distance...Another word, another touch and i would be lost... “Ok...work hard Hana-san...” “Thank you, you too... I’ll see you later then...” And i was out the door. As i was walking, i felt happy, the kind of feeling you have, when everything’s right, when happiness was just there for me to grab it. But a darkness came to obscure almost all the light... He didn’t explain, what happened with his family. The why was he working in that bar, when he belonged to a much brighter, amazing place... The thought occupied my entire mind, throughout the day, and didn’t let go. The reason behind it was because i was feeling that happiness from the morning fade... My heart was feeling small, and the pain, coming like waves as soon as i remembered his words, became worse. “What did he meant with...”it’s complicated”...I wish he could tell me, i don’t want him to feel bad, or to think i’m unreliable... I’m here for him.” Was it really so complicated, that he just didn’t want me to know, or was i a bother to be told about these things? “Man, i got to give my head a five minute break...” I went to grab a few things from the cafeteria and, all by myself went to eat at the garden below. It was freezing, but the cold air, helped to clear my mind. “I will talk to him later about it, i’ll wait for him to arrive, and trap him. I will make him say everything because i don’t want to feel like this... I hate it.” I finished my food and was about to get in the office building when, a person standing only a few steps from me looked terribly familiar. “Can i talk to you Hana?” Shu? Again? What did he want now, wasn’t what he told me two days ago enough...? “Please, i’m trying so hard to get away from everything related to you, so...why do you have to come here, again....?” “Please Hana(tremble)...Come back to me.” They destroyed my world in that moment...Those words. How could he? What did he want with saying that? What was he after? My destruction...? “Goodbye Shu. Don’t ever speak to me again, don’t ever look for me again...Forget about me. I’ll do the same thing about you.” I turned away, but he grabbed me.

Spell… Chapter 4 I went to take a shower, when I took off my shirt my chest was still pounding so hard you could see my chest going up and down like something was about to burst. I needed to cool down so I turned the shower took a reaally long one, and waited for my breathing and heartbeat to go back to normal… As soon as could breathe normally I started thinking… He was really different from that time. Today the long silky hair was gone, and instead a short cut but still shining silky black appeared. He was still looking dazzling. The perfect shape of his nose, black eyes( I think they were black, the other time I didn’t catch that right and today I couldn’t even face him properly) and those lips, that felt like were imprinted on mine when he kissed me. I pressed my fingers to my lips and they were pounding, like somehow they were expecting something… They were so hot, they were expecting his kiss again… Shit… seeing him now was not good at all… I could just do something crazy. December 24rd Morning came, and I was terrified that our paths could come across, we lived at the same building. I mean I acted like a crazy person yesterday. Now he must probably hate me and having a point there. Who told me to act like that right?! If he didn’t knew who I was there was no need to panic. But as soon as his image came to my mind my body reacted differently. I went to work, without giving it further thought, I had to go to work now and, do my job properly, and that’s what I should be concerned right now. Work day went by, and the hard part was going to begin now. Walking my way back home, i heard someone call my name. That voice, well i was wishing not to listen to it for a longer time, before I really had to so I could be prepared. I wasn’t. Shu was waiting for me by a small garden near my office. “Hana, wait. I need to talk to you.” He certainly choose a good day to disturb me, Christmas Eve and my ex-boyfriend shows up to destroy my peace. “What is it Shu. I have to go home, I have a lot of work to so…” “Please, it’s just a few minutes…” What did he want with me…and today off all days, it was already difficult without seeing him why did he have to show up? “Ok, let’s go to the cafe near the trains.” And there we went. That brought back memories from when we used to meet each other near that same garden so we could go home together… What was he up to, what did he want? We broke up, for weeks he didn’t even tried to contact me… What was it now?! “I came so I could ask you when will you go pick up your stuff that’s left in the house. I’ll be needing the space.” “Oh so you already found somebody to replace me…I see.” “It’s not of your damn business, I just need to know when so I could make arrangements to…” I didn’t even left him finish. “Throw or give them away, sell them, get rid of them. They’re trash, just like me right? Get rid of them like you did with me. Replace them or whatever…I really, really don’t care. See ya.” “Hey wait Hana…” I was already out the door. I managed somehow not to cry in public again, and when I was almost at home a hand grabbed my shoulder. “Hi there again. Are ya going to ignore me today as well?” HOLLY SHIT!! “Hi there…hum…about yesterday I’m so really sorry. I really wasn’t feeling very well so I kind of…” “Yeah well, I don’t know if I’m gonna forgive ya!” “I understand, I’m so sorry…” “I’ll think about during dinner…” “Wha…Excuse me?!” “Well make me dinner and I’ll think about forgiving you…” Oh… There it was that smile…. I felt my knees turning to jelly, my face turned fire and I wasn’t feeling well… Having dinner with him?! What was this about? Was he joking with me? “So what’s your answer? You make me dinner and I forgive you, how’s going to be?” “It’s Christmas Eve…Don’t you have plans…with somebody?” “I’m trying to make plans with ya, if you don’t mind, i0’m kind of hoping you don’t have plans yourself…ahahah.” What the hell, what about me, I might have plans right?! I might have someone waiting for me… Of course I hadn’t but that was not the point. “So what do ya say? My forgiveness for a dinner tonight?! Sounds like a great deal right?!” There goes that smile again…it makes go off track. My head was a complete black and all I was able to answer was… “OK…” “Yay, free dinner goodie… I’m starting to forgive ya already hum… I still don’t know your name. I’m Shirou Mina, but everybody just call me Mina-san, yours?!” “Hum I’m Myaki Hana…” “Hana…Hana…I heard that name before somewhere…” Oh shit oh shit oh shit oh shit….. “Well…hum I …don’t think I’ve made your acquaintance yet, perhaps another “Hana” maybe…” Hope that worked. “Yeah who knows…I meet people all the time…eheheh” Fiiiuuu…sigh “You seem like a very merry person Mina-san, always laughing and all…” “Thank you…ahahah I’ll take that as a compliment, right?!” “Sort of…” “What?!” “Ah, nothing, nothing. Hum Mina-san there’s just a small, little, insignificant problem, you see I can’t…hum quite cook…” “Ahahhah, ok so let’s do this let’s grab some groceries, that you’ll be paying for and I’ll make dinner. What do ya think?” “Hum ok, if you don’t mind having the trouble, I mean I was supposed to “cook for your forgiveness” right?!” “Ah, Hana-san you made a joke…So cute ahahah” I blushed even harder this time. Cute a 28 year old man, cute now that’s absurd… “Ok so what do you wanna have for dinner Hana-san? I’m a great cook so I’ll cook anything you ask?” Another blush, I was starting to feel numb cause all my blood was rushing to my face… This was turning ridiculous, I should get a hold of myself some more… “Hum anything’s fine with me Mina-san, you choose ok, you’re the one I’m supposed to be offering right?” “Is that so Hana-san…?” He got a lot closer to me and I could feel his warmth. “You shouldn’t say that so many often cause I’ll take advantage of you Hana-san…” That was almost a whispering, and I felt all of my blood boil, it was something I never felt before in my life, the way he was looking at me right now, shouldn’t be legal. “Ok then let’s go Hana-san, before it gets to dark…”

December 23rd I completed the small arrangements I wanted around the house, I wanted to move in before Christmas, nothing was more depressing than spending Christmas night in a hotel. Not that I was really looking forward to it. I mean with whom would I be spending such a lovely period?! Alone?! Exactly. So I shouldn’t be expecting anything else but loneliness… I asked for a 3 day off from my job so I could prepare everything to move in. I went shopping bought cheap but great things to my new home, and they were delivering it today. I was a little excited. It was a new start, and I was just a little relieved I was getting a place of my own. Shu didn’t call, text or tried to contact me in any way. It seemed he forgot all about me. Not that I wasn’t expecting it but the feeling his despise was giving me was not pleasant at all. “I mean… we were together for two god damn years… How could I just simply forget?!…Right now I really wished I could.” It’s been three weeks since that terrible night, and the mixture of feelings I have from that time, still made me confused. The anger, the fear, the excitement… A really funny feeling came when I remembered the guy I saw dancing… “Mina-san…wasn’t it?!” Gosh he was really good looking. I giggled to the thought from the kiss he gave me. I sometimes could feel the warmth of his lips… I stopped for a second. “Oh c’mon I could that be…it was 3 weeks ago man. Anything that had happened should have disappeared already what the hell…talking about feeling his lips… Talking about crazy I tell you. Get a hold of yourself…” Truth was that I wouldn’t probably ever see him again, and the thought squeezed my chest a little. I wanted somebody to hold, to kiss…and well to do a lot of stuff too I mean when was the last time I DID it… I blushed terribly to the thought. “Oh god what am I thinking at this time of the day….” Somebody hit the bell and I went to answer it, still blushing like an idiot. The furniture was here, and I started putting everything in place, planning which place was best for each piece I’ve bought. “Fiiuu…shit now that was hard. Never thought I bought so many things.” After I finished placing the most important stuff I thought of preparing a little something for the neighbors, but I changed my mind. Well I wasn’t much of a cook. Ok, ok not a cook at all, I would probably blow up the kitchen frying a freaking egg. Shu used to do all the cooking. I loved to watch him cook he looked really sexy. Another stab on the chest. Shu wasn’t here anymore so I would need to learn how to do things myself. And that is what I need to concentrate for now… well I’ll just by something nice and cheap to the neighbors… I was getting broke so I couldn’t splurge. I found a small “patisserie” selling some delicious cookies with a very good price and I bought them. Problem solved. Now all I had to do was give them away so I could get over it. After I was done with wrapping the cookies, I went to give them. Door bell to door bell saying hello and please take care of me from now on, it wasn’t that hard. “Finally the last one. Well they’re really nice neighbors, they didn’t ask too many questions, they weren’t weird, so I guess I really hit jackpot coming here…” I pushed the last one, but no one answered. “It’s not that late yet… They probably aren’t home yet. I’ll wait for later, or maybe tomorrow…” I placed the only package left close to the entrance and started to clean up the rest of things I had to put away, storage and organize. It wasn’t much after that I heard the door bell, I ran to check who was it and when I opened the door I almost has a heart attack. Those” Mina-san lips”, I was so embarrassingly thinking about just a few hours ago were standing in front of me. I had such a shock I don’t remember anything after I opened the door. I woke up on my entrance floor(god knows for how long was I out) but nothing was in pain, didn’t I just passed out…If I fell I should hurt right?! “I there, you ok man?!” I was about to pass out again, that voice… shit…no way… there’s just no way this is happening to me. So many places in this world and HE had to be HERE…what the hell… I was lying on his knees(apparently he supported my fall) I stood up quickly, kept my head real down, like a bow so he couldn’t recognize me, he seemed not to have until now, and I was going to make sure he didn’t at all… “Oh I’m sorry, I felt hum…a bit dizzy…hum… cause I just moved here today…and all the moving well I’m a bit tired so…hum, if you excuse me…” “Oh’s that so?! Then welcome neighbor!” WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!! WHY IS HE MY NEIGHBOOR?! AND WHY DO I HAVE TO FACE HIM LOOKING LIKE CRAP?! “Oh, it’s that so…well hum…so nice to meet you I’ll be in your care from now on, good night….” I tried to close the door but no can do… “Hey is this the way you treat your neighbors? That’s not nice at all. Where’s my welcoming gift, ya have one right?!…I bet you went to my house but since no one’s there, you kept it to give later right, so where is it? I’ll receive it now. Is it food? I’m starved ahahah.” Was this guy for real, I just said I wasn’t feeling right, what the hell is wrong with him… I wanted to run away…How could he be so pushy. I picked up the wrap lying on the floor gave it him and closed the door without saying anything. Yeah ok, I was rude but how come I could face him like this, heart beating 1000 miles per second, face red like a tomato, there’s just no way I could, if he recognized me…fuck what was I going to do…? “Ya know(chewing) ya could have been a little nicer(chewing), I came all the way here to say hello to the new guy(chewing) and he bangs th’a door on m’a face… Oh BUT THE COOKIES R’ GREAT THANK YOU, MAYBE TOMORROW WE GET TO CHAT A LITTLE AND…” “SHUT UP…don’t yell, please be considerate about the other neighbors. Now go home. Please.” “Shit did I do something to piss’ya off? What the hell… Alright good night then… you crazy person…” “I’M NOT A CRAZY PERSON, GO AWAY!” “Don’t scream you’ll disturb the neighbors…ahahah” What the hell, this son of a…. now I’M the one disturbing…shit… I tried to calm down… It was normal right, if he didn’t knew who I was, it was normal to think I was crazy acting like that… I would apologize properly tomorrow…I just needed some time to cool down, because that was seriously unbelievable. Of all the places in this town, 10 million people, he had to live in the place i just moved… So long peaceful life...

Ok this is all you guys fault. I was suppose to write a little bit on chap 3 but i just couldn't stop and i ended up writing 3 chapters... Insane. Let's start with chapter 3 Story so far: Hana found out about Shu being unfaithful, and he leaves home.... Spell… Chapter 3 After turning my back to the past I wasn’t looking forward to the future… I mean what was left for me?I was alone, homeless and loveless… Everything was bad, I couldn’t see any ray of hope in my life. I wished so many times to have a peaceful, quite life beside someone I love and who loves me back but judging for everything that has happened so far it was impossible. I went to a hotel the closest to my work place, one of the big offices down town. Tomorrow I would have to face reality. Work would be the same, the people would be the same. I just needed some time adjusting to the situation. I was a good professional, never did I let my boss down, or behaved incorrectly at work, I was an almost perfect employee. I opened my small bag, took my hygiene stuff and placed them on the bathroom, it looked so impersonal… It kind of hurt seeing my face in the mirror, I looked like I was punched several times in the eyes. I dressed my pajamas and went to sleep, only for a few hours. The hotel manger woke me up early that day, exactly the way I asked him to, I would take the opportunity to look for a place. Soon as I got to the office, the still empty space, made me feel somehow relived, that I wasn’t facing somebody just yet… Would I be able to do it? Act like everything’s ok? Well I had to, it didn’t matter how hard it was I just had to. I turned my computer on, and visited some house selling/renting websites. I saved a few I liked and started to work. “Hey Hana-san, you’re here already? Man you got an early start today…” “Yeah Nagasaki-san, I’m a bit busy today so I thought I took care of a few things first today. So how’s marriage going Nagasaki?” Nagasaki was a fellow co worker, a really nice guy and friendly too. “Well, women are complicated beings aren’t they Hana-san eheheheh…” “What’s up Nagasaki-san, is everything ok? Did you have a fight with your wife?” “Ah no that’s not it. Ya know I just thought things would be simpler and nicer ya know…All she’s been doing is spending money, and complain cause she thinks my house sucks. I’m letting her have her way for now thought, cause in some ways she’s doing it for us.” “Ahahh, having it hard already eh Nagasaki…Well don’t worry I’m sure things will turn out ok, you’ll see.” “I’m hoping it does Hana-san…I sure am…And what about you Hana-san, aren’t you getting married? What about a girlfriend for starters? I can hook you up with a few of my wife friends I’m sure of it… You’re a really good looking guy, I don’t think there’s a girl who wouldn’t think so. So what do you think?” “Ah please don’t Nagasaki-san, I’m ok really. I want to focus on my job for now.” I really didn’t see that one coming, I got so flustered that I turned away to the computer again… Now that was all I was missing, getting hooked up with some women, yeah right, as If i could do it. Sometime i wished I could… it would be a lot easier. After a few hours lunch time was already here, I didn’t want to have lunch with Nagasaki, I was afraid he would come up with the women story again, and I was really not up to it. So I said sorry and because I had some business outside the office i went to see some houses instead. I wasn’t hungry and all, so I would take my chances. I wasn’t planning on staying in a hotel forever. I have to admit, it was horrible. Houses falling apart, to damn big, too expensive, and some in which people should never live inside. “How the hell do they sell these places without any kind of reconstruction work first, it’s insane.” All the up’s and down’s started to give me a lion’s hunger. I stopped by a small vendor and grabbed a sandwich. I sat in a small bench, and while I was watching people go by Shu came to my mind. What was he doing right now… Was he thinking of me… Shit. This was the only thing I wished not to happen. I kept myself busy all day so I wouldn’t think about him. His words were still fresh in my head, and my heart turned small just thinking about it. I shook my head to clear my thoughts, stood up and continued my search. I came across a small apartment building and one of the windows had a big screaming sign saying ”FOR RENT”. I didn’t even hesitate. I went in and pushed the door bell. An old gentle looking woman came to answer the door. “Ah yes, can I help you?” “Yes, good afternoon. I…came because of the…renting sign…” “Oh yes yes come in please. You’re the first to come, I just put that thing there today eheheh. Who knew that somebody would come so fast.” “Well it was a coincidence really. I went to see a house nearby. And on the way I grabbed a sandwich with the vendor below and when I looked up I saw the sign. Nice to meet you I’m Myaki Hana, it’s a pleasure to make your acquaintance” “Nice to meet you dear, I’m Madara Sakura, the landlady. Now that’s really a coincidence. Well let’s have a look around the house shall we.” She gave me the most heartwarming smile. And we started to go from room to room. It wasn’t a big house but it was more than enough for me. A small cozy living room, a bedroom, a kitchen and a bathroom. Plus there was this small closet I could use for storage. The living room had a small link to a veranda which was covered in flowers, it smelled beautifully. It was perfect. “You can cut down the flowers, if you want to. They don’t have to be there if you don’t like them, I know men don’t really have patience for this kind of things.” “Oh no no please I loved them, they smell so well I couldn’t possibly…” “Well I see…A Hana that likes “Hana” right…?” She giggled and I understood that she linked my name to them… The thought made me smile sadly. I wasn’t a flower. If I was, then I would be a withered one. We talked about renting fees and to my surprise it was quite cheaper from what I was expecting for such a house. After a few considerations I agreed to keep the house. It was to my liking and close to work, I won’t be needing much furniture so everything got solved quite fast. Today right after work I would start making arrangements so I could move in.

first one was taken in school, a year ago second one was taken about two years ago, i think :hamtaro-005 (6): btw in second pic i was very annoyed -.- anyway, here you are ^^

The lights were out. There was nobody there… “I’m such a fool… What was I expecting. He left the bar about the same time as me, and he was with that guy… He’s probably fooling around somewhere…” I walked to the room, undressed my wet cloths and went straight to shower… I turned the hot water, and it felt good against my cold body. I dressed my other suit, packed all my stuff in a small bag, I sat on the couch and I waited for him to arrive. I turned on the tv, and while i was there I felt cold again. “Shit is this really going to happen…?” As soon as I said it I heard the door open… He walked in and I could see his confused face looking straight at me. “What are you doing standing there?” “I’m waiting for you Shu… We have to talk…” “Talk? About what? And at this hour… Can’t it wait till tomorrow? I’m kind of exhausted right now…” “I know you’re exhausted…And it’s about that exhaustion of yours that I wanted to talk about…” “What the he…” “Where were you Shu? What were you doing until this late hour…?” “Where I was…? Working of course! I had a lot of problems today that I needed to take care of…why the hell are you asking me this now?” “A lot of problems at work uh? I see… Isn’t there anything that you want to tell me Shu?” “What the hell is going on Hana, why are you acting this way? You now I work late sometimes, you never complained, so now it’s no good…? I’m not gonna listen to this bullshit anymore, I’m going to bed…” That was all I could take. “I saw you Shu…” It was like dropping a bomb… My eyes acted all by themselves and I couldn’t stop crying again anymore. “How could you do something like this to me (sob)… You promised me we would always be together, (sob) even if we knew it was something so hard to achieve, we were trying, and the only thing I asked of you (sob)… Don’t hurt me (sob)…wasn’t it…WASN’T IT??” He stared at me blankly, I don’t know if he understood right then what was happening or if he was amazed with my words… “What are you talking about Hana? You saw me? You saw what… What are you saying…” “Stop it Shu…don’t act like there’s nothing behind all of this. You want every word than I’ll tell you straight to you’re face…I saw you with another man in a gay bar. Is it enough or do you still want me to give you the details of what I saw inside the bar?” At that time several possibilities crossed my mind… Was he going to ask for forgiveness, or was he happy I found out so he could dump me faster… The answer came faster than I wished. “Well ok you saw me with a guy I usually go out when I want sex, so what?” I turned pale, and colder than I already was… My heart squeezed so tight there was no room for nothing else but sorrow… “Well…Nothing apparently…Goodbye Shun…” I was already half way to the door when he grabbed my arm… “What the hell you think you’re doing, or where do you think you’re going?” “Away from you that’s where I’m going so let go of my arm Shu…” “I’m not letting go until you understand… Do you think it’s easy for me to be with you everyday, do everything with you and remain the same? It’s not! I tried to have only you but you have to understand that sex is something I need to have, and if I want to be with you forever I have to do this…” “What are you saying that I’m not enough for you, that you still need to have others on the side just in case I’m not in the mood to screw with you?? What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t want this, I don’t want this kind of relationship… I’m leaving.” I pulled out my arm and started walking away… I wasn’t going to listen to this, he was making a fool out of me… “What… You think you’re going to find someone who’ll be able to stick up to that… Yeah go ahead and find the perfect guy… There’s some news for ya honey HE DOESN’T EXIST YA HEAR ME… I bet you’ll come begging in two days…that’ll be enough. 2 days and you’ll be here at this door step, begging me to take you back.” As I walked away I still heard him scream something that I wasn’t able to understand anymore. I kept my back to him and kept walking… “Don’t worry Shun… I won’t come here anymore, even if it killed me… Goodbye.” Truly, I said that to myself more than I said to answer him… Well that's for today...hope you enjoy... :* Next time Hana is going to find Mina again...let's see how Hana reacts to sexy Mina Kisses*

Well here goes nothing Story status : Well Hana found out Shu was betraying him, and still at the bar he's so drunk he needs the help of Mina, a dancer at that same bar... But now Hana is better, and has to face everything that has happend to him... So what will he do? Hope you enjoy. Spell – Chapter 2 While I was standing behind the stage, I watched all his performance… There weren’t words good enough to describe it. How could something so beautiful be made by a person, I wondered… “I have a boyfriend right now…Do I really want to do this? Am I this kind of person? Yes, he is unbelievable, so much that I don’t trust my eyes right now but…did I really mean it? No…. I didn’t, and since I became a bit sober I should apologize for my behavior and go home… I would work things out with Shu.” Or better settle them once and for all. I won’t let this continue, this miserable life, this empty feeling hovering on me every second of every day… Enough was enough and things would end between us tonight. I finally stoop up, and went to find the ”dancing man” (jeez i didn’t even know his name, how embarrassing)… I went to met him, and he was talking to someone. I got a little closer, I was so ashamed with myself that my face felt like was it was being cooked inside out… “Ok…relax, say hello, say sorry for everything and thank you….and then go home. Ok this is a good plan, sigh…” When I almost got by his side I recognized the person he was talking to. Shu was standing there holding the other guy’s hand, talking to the dancer, he seemed to be praising him. Then the other guy also shook the dancer hand and they left after only a few seconds. I stood there watching the all scene, like a movie…unable to do or say anything. It was nerve racking…”Just calm down…one thing at the time.” I took 2 steps forward and he looked back at me with that same dazzling smile of his. “I there…Feeling better now? Do ya need a cab or I could walk ya home if you’re still not ok?!” I thought about it again…Having the possibility of having him seemed almost too good(or not, maybe he wasn’t gay right…I just assumed that due to his work place…I could be wrong). “Stop it, just stop it” I thought to myself, I got have a hold on my feelings and this is not the best way… “Thank you so much for today, you really helped me out…”I smiled shyly…I didn’t want him to see my face, I was probably horrible from all that crying so I kept my head down. “I’m so sorry for causing a commotion here, I was just feeling a little down and I kind of drank too much…so I’m really sorry for that. Hum, you don’t need to bother about me now, I’m fine so I’m heading home while I’m feeling better…” I turned around so I could leave, but he grabbed one of my hands. “So you would just leave without even telling me you’re name cutie?” “Ahah, cutie yeah right...”-I managed to say-“but thanks anyway…” I extended my other hand. “I’m Hana.” Just when I thought he was going to shake mine he pulled my entire arm to himself, holding my waist he took my lips without giving me a chance to back away… “I’m Mina. Nice to meet ya Hana” He licked the top of my mouth once again and gave that killer smile, his voice was soft velvet in my ears, all of my neck hair stood up… The balance I was so strongly trying to keep broke and I almost hit the floor. Knees shaking, head spinning… Was all of this for real?! I broke his embrace and gave some distance between us… There was no way I wouldn’t give in if he so much touched the tip of my finger… It was such an arousing feeling, that all parts of my body were pleading for. “What the hell you think you’re doing mister?” “Well that was my thank you gift…” He joked. “I don’t think I ever gave you permission for such, and I already thanked you for everything, so there was really no need for you to do that…” “I just felt like it…You’re so cute” he teased. “I’m…wha…well goodbye.” That one got me that’s for sure… I turned around the fastest I could, but my feet were still deceiving me. Trying to keep my balance on alcohol and such an excited state was no good to keep my body moving accordingly to the way I wanted it. I rushed thru the door… I was able to feel the cold air outside, and my head became clearer. I heard footsteps behind me. “Hey ya sure you don’t need me to walk ya home… I really don’t mind ya know.” “I’m positive. Good night.” I went my way… I don’t know why but I still glanced behind for a long time, until I could no longer see him. Gosh I hoped he didn’t saw me looking at him like an idiot. Soon, as I was walking the important issue came to my mind. After all that has happened tonight I still have to go home, and have a life changing moment. Tonight was final. Tonight I would let him go. The thought of regret started building inside of me, but I couldn’t realize if I was regretting the situation I was about to face, or the fact that I didn’t do it earlier. Do I really love him? At that point I wasn’t so sure anymore. The sense of freedom became a scary feeling, I didn’t want to spend my life alone… Alone… That thought brought me back to old memories. To the time we swore to never let go of each others hands. To the time we picked our house, to the time I bought him a hideous sweater that he hated but told me he loved it because I gave it to him… “Oh god… I’m breaking breaking inside.” Every step I took towards that door brought me a memory, and every memory brought me even more pain… “What did I do wrong…? Where did I fail you…? I only took time loving you and you go and do something like this to me….You promised (sob)…Ya prom (sob)….” “I HATE YOU…I HATE YOU FROM MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY…” My knees gave away and I fell on the snow covered floor crying… I stood there for what it looked like an eternity. My body was frozen from standing for too long on top of the snow. At least all the things I remembered we’re good, and that gave me strength to lift my head and walk the rest of the way… I was now standing in my front door, hand on the knob… Too scared to open it. But I had to. I took a deep breath and I walked in.

WOW! Lotusflower that was beautiful such talent the words seemed to flow. Please continue to share with us when you can.

last few days i watch tokyo ghost trip, this drama is so funny...and they alll so cute, especially ryoma baba...here is some picture when he acting in this story and there is also takugichi...he isssss so hot...he make me remember back when he in takumi series, so same...except that he do not wear spectacle in takumi series

This is me!! Dont get fooled. Im a GAY dude! hahaha! well, it show's btw.

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