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By the request of JYJ+TVXQ=Awesome... I decide to do Takumi-kun special... First is Rainbow... ^^ I hope every like what I did... ^^;;; Enjoy!

I only had time to do 3... One from manga Bokura no Oukoku... 1 Bunny look... ^^;;; 1 Takumi-kun series... I have to do clearing... So I will be back after that... ^^ Enjoy!!! ^^

Takumi-kun Pure credits for translation to sayasubs Download Takumi-kun Pure Movie Complete Mirror link: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 NOTE: Download all parts in the same folder, join with HJSplit and play the complete file with VLC Player. Plot: Unlike the three previous films, Pure focuses on the relationship between Misu Arata and Shingyouji Kanemitsu , which begins when Shingyouji takes the test to enter Shidou Gakuen . That's when he meets Misu and falls for him. Then we come back to the present where the sempai who admires Misu appears, bringing Shingyouji problems and jealousy . Watch online: Takumi Kun Pure For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Actually this is not a gay story, but there's a deep and strong relationship between 2 guys ^0^. Title: Bungee Jumping of Their Own Released : 2000 Running time : 99 min Sub : English soft sub Format : avi (HQ) SUMMARY : In the summer of 1983, Tae-hee and In-woo meet and fall in love at first sight. Just as their relationship is blossoming, Tae-hee is tragically killed. Seventeen years later, In-woo has become a high school teacher and married another woman. Meeting his new pupils, In-woo is startled to feel an overwhelming attraction to one of them, Hyun-bin, a 17 year-old boy whose mannerisms begin to increasingly resemble those of Tae-hee’s. In-woo struggles with the concept of falling in love with his student, and they both get bullied by other students at the school for being homosexual. Watch Bungee Jumping of Their Own Online: Bungee Jumping of Their Own Download Bungee Jumping of Their Own Movie: Part 1 Part 2 English subbed For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Prism Spectrum Manga ALT. names:プリズム☆スペクトル Original run: 2009 Description:Oomura Yuu's first kiss was stolen by the beautiful Student Council president, Takamura Mitsuya. He later became his executive secretary and his duty was to do whatever the Takamura wanted. Both loved cats and were slowly drawn towards each other. As much as Yuu wanted to acknowledge his own feelings, he realised that he might not really knew about Takamura at all. In the end, Yuu decided to follow his heart and reach out to Takamura. Manga-type: Manga Written by: KONJIKI Runa Group(s) Scanlating:Attractive Fascinante Status: Complete Genres:Romance, School Life, Yaoi Recommendations: Green Peace, Ikinari Seitoukai, Toumei Shounen, Oresama to Oujisama, Teppen no Himawari Read Prism Spectrum Online Prism Spectrum Download link: Download link removed by scanlator's request

if u don trust me, don tell me. wat for tellin me and blamed me when its leaked out by other... so next time pls just tell the other except me. u are the one that let me lost trust in others ...

@ GPelka Sweet dear... I do not know which manga is this, but i have to tell ya, I REALLY wanna know cause the drawing it self are just delicious, i'm gonna have to read it... *gonna hide in a cornner and wait for someone to find it so that Bela can go read it*

Rinjin Wo Aisou by Okuda Nanao. --

Chapter 2 Bored Kenta I was mad. Not just upset but fucking mad as hell but there wasn't a damn thing I could do about it. Well I could but it was going to cause a huge problem. “I am not fucking spying on Hasu!” I glared up at Sora who sighed and rubbed his forehead. Yeah I was getting a headache too. “If he finds out you guys-” “Kenta! Shut up for a minute and listen!” I took a step back startled as Sora yelled at me. He lowered his voice but the look in his eyes kept me pinned where I was. “I'm not asking you to spy, I'm asking you to keep an eye on him and make sure he's alright. Isao said there have been some weird comments on the forum and on his blog lately but he won't talk about it.” I scratched my head thinking for a minute. “Umm . . . what'sa blog?” Sora shook his head, his shoulders slumping. “Ryuu . . . this isn't going to work.” “Ken-chan,” I turned to face Ryuu ready to tell him off for using the nickname but the look on his face stopped me. He was really worried. “What we need is for you to just keep an eye on him when we can't. You've got more free time than we do.” I groaned. “Guys . . . I get it that you are worried, but Isao and Hayate got each of you your own bodyguards, why do I have to do this?” Sora and Ryuu exchanged looks. Ryuu came over and wrapped an arm around my shoulders and kissed my cheek. “Don't pout, please. His bodyguard can't enter the school grounds. You can.” “Eh? No I can't!” “Kenta, calm down.” Ryuu held me in place. The urge to bolt for the bedroom was squashed as he gripped me. “We've already spoken with the director and the principal and gotten you special access. You'll be going with him to school just until we find out what is going on.” I wiggled out of his grip and turned to face the two of them. “You did all this without even asking what I thought about it. So fuck you, I'm not going to some fancy ass school to get made fun of and- ow!” Sora was giving me that look I really hated. I rubbed the back of my head and looked up at Ryuu who didn't look very happy. “Kenta, we need you to do this-Hasu needs you to do this. What if he's got a stalker? He must be completely freaked out after what happened last month. I wouldn't ask you to do this if it wasn't so important.” Dammit why did he have to make total sense? Hasu was my friend too but going so far as to follow him to school seemed a bit much. I was worried about the kid too, but he had all of us looking out for him. I hadn't had anyone looking out for me at his age. “Ryuu this isn't going to work.” “Actually it wasn't my idea. Isao set it up.” “Fuck!” That was it, that man seriously had it out for me. “Why did he do that?” Sora chuckled, “Ah well, he said something about not allowing you back to work until you'd learned your kanji.” “Fuck him! I've gotten along just fine without . . .” My voice trailed off as I realized Ryuu was giving me that look. The look that said I'd just made a fucking idiot of myself once again. “Dammit . . . you really are going to make me do this aren't you?” “You really have to ask?” *** I was so fucking bored it felt like I’d died and gone to hell. The drone of the teacher’s voice sounded more like a fly buzzing against a window. I’d laid my head down a long time ago. It was starting to cloud up outside and was probably going to be raining by the time school let out. Fucking hell . . . this couldn’t be real. There was no way I was actually sitting in a fucking classroom. “Arakaki-kun, would you like to solve the problem on the board?” Sighing I raised my head. “No and fuck off.” There was a collective gasp and I realized what I’d just said. “I-I mean . . . uhh-“ “Arakaki Kenta we do not speak to our teachers like that!” That was Oda, the class president or whatever. He was glaring at me like he’d like to shove his pen through my eyeball. I glared at him till he looked away, his cheeks turning red. As if some little kid like him could intimidate me. Hah! Got it right that time. I turned back to see the teacher walking down the aisle toward me. Ah fuck, what now? “Arakaki-kun.” He looked down at me, just like every adult had ever looked down at me. “I do not tolerate that kind of talk or behavior in my class. You can either solve the problem and take a zero grade for the day or go see the director.” And people wondered why I thought school was such a fucking waste of time. “What problem? I don’t see a fucking thing on the board.” He set his jaw and I flinched as he pointed for the door. “Out. Now.” I made sure to slam it on my way out, hearing a couple of yelps from the girls. God, what a bunch of- . . . my eyes widened as I realized Ryuu was standing in the hallway looking very, very put out. He just shook his head and crooked a finger at me. Oh fuck. He was silent as we walked toward the main office. We stopped at the door and I fidgeted for a moment trying to figure out what to say. “Listen, Ryuu . . .” “Don't say it Kenta, okay. Just don't. I guess I should have trusted Isao when he said you'd do your best to get out of this by acting out.” He glanced sidelong at me, the gray eyes disapproving. “I really thought you had Hasu's best interests at heart Kenta.” Ouch, that hurt. “Ryuu I do, its just . . . I dropped out of school when I was fourteen, this is just a lot to deal with right now . . . okay. I-I promise I'll try to do better, but I don't get any of this high school stuff.” Turning to me Ryuu put his hands on my shoulders and leaned down slightly so we were eye to eye. “Kenta, don't play dumb. I know exactly how smart you are. You can do this. I know you can. Prove Isao a liar and show him that you can stick with this. Please.” Numb I nodded slowly. “Okay, but can I not have math class?” Ryuu chuckled and kissed my forehead. “Sorry my dearest, but that's part of the standard curriculum. Akira could tutor you, he's really good at math.” “Fine. Whatever. But, I'm only doing this until we figure out what's up with Hasu.” “Sure thing. I already miss having you at the house and we haven't even started getting unpacked!” I snorted. “Its all your shit anyway, you can unpack it.” “Hey now I tried to get you to pick out stuff but all you'd do was just gripe about how there was too much shit to pick from.” “Fuck off.” He giggled and kissed me lightly. “Maybe later. Oh and don't forget your doctor's appointment is tomorrow” “I remember. You probably shouldn't do that where people can see you . . .” I could feel my cheeks heating up as I met the startled look of a teacher behind Ryuu. He straightened up and followed my look. He grinned and waved. “Good morning!” Her face suddenly went bright red and clutching her papers to her chest she darted into the office, all but running into the door in her haste. Ryuu and I both laughed and I leaned up to kiss him again. “I better go. I'm more than ready for this day to be over so I can get back home.” “Awww so cute! You do miss me!” “Shut up and go home, dork.” I couldn't keep the smile off my face. Fuck me but I'm hopeless when it comes to the weirdo. The rest of the day dragged by. By the time I got home I was sick with a pounding headache and the nearly overwhelming urge to break things. Ryuu greeted me at the door, but his smile disappeared almost instantly. “You are in pain! Go sit now.” He barely gave me a chance to get my shoes off before he was pulling me over to the couch. The sudden movement made my head swim and I stumbled against him. “Kenta! Are you alright? What's wrong?” “Justa fucking headache.” I sank down on the couch and laid my head over on the cool pillow. My eyes felt like they were going to explode out of my head with the pounding in my skull. I opened them a few minutes later as a hand was placed on my forehead. “Here, some water and an aspirin.” “Thanks.” “Was today really that bad?” Ryuu sounded worried as I took the pills. “You look beat.” “It wasn't as bad as I thought it was going to be, but it's weird. The teacher would be writing stuff on the board but I couldn't see anything. I finally just gave up after a while when my headache got too bad.” Ryuu was frowning, his eyes unfocused as he seemed to be thinking. “I think we need to talk to your doctor about this tomorrow when we go. You shouldn't be getting headaches like this.” “Yeah, okay. Do I have to go back tomorrow?” “Yes I'm sorry.”

noisy people can bother you even if they aren't living in your home

Alternative Titles: A Touch of Fever; Hatachi No Binetsu; 二十才の微熱; The Slight Fever of a Twenty Year Old Director: Ryosuke Hashiguchi Country: Japan Year: 1993 Running Time: 114 minutes Plot Summary: Yoshihiko and Masashi play Tatsuru and Shinichiro, respectively, both young male hustlers in Japan. The older one, Tatsuru, disconnects himself from his emotions in order to perform his job. The younger Shinichiro, meanwhile, grows uncomfortable with the work once he has fallen in love with Tatsuru. After Shinichiro gets thrown out of his parents' house, he stays at Tatsuru's apartment, and their once casual relationship awkwardly develops into something else. Download A Touch of Fever Movie: Download Link For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Viewfinder Drama CD Audio Type: MP3 Language: Japanese Compressed: .zip Seiyuu: Takaba Akihito: Sasanuma Akira Asami Ryuichi: Koyasu Takehito Fei Long: Ishikawa Hideo Yan Tsu: Narita Ken ================================================================ CD 1 track 1 - You're My Loveprize in Viewfinder track 2 - Fixer track 3 - Body Chase ================================================================ CD2 track 1 - Nemureru ryuu track 2 - Gekirin track 3 - Kakusei track 4 - Shinshoku track 5 - Wana track 6 - Mune no kizuato track 7 - TALK Download Viewfinder Drama CD: Download For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Well there are lot of this game going on... So I want to add one more... ^^;;; This time... you answer with go, stop or stay... So here go... You and your friend when to amusement park... You friend want to go into horror house... What are you going to do? Stay out here wait for her/him Go with her/him Stop her/him to go and go other place It's for me... I will stay... --;;;

Title: Yume Musubi Koi Musubi Manga ALT. names: 夢結び恋結び Bond of Dreams, Bond of Love Yume Musubi, Koi Musubi Original run: 2008 Description: High school student Ao decides he’s in love with Ryoumei-san, a priest at the local shrine and Ao’s childhood friend. Not one to beat around the bush, Ao immediately tells Ryoumei he wants to do perverted things together, but it will take more than a little persuading to get the shocked Ryoumei into bed. Between bad advice, romantic rivals, and Ryoumei’s scruples, there are many obstacles in the path of true love. Note: Shunpei from Koi Cha no Osahou appears in this story as the main character's best friend. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Sakuragi Yaya Drawn by: Sakuragi Yaya Published by: Kadokawa Shoten Group(s) Scanlating: Anime-tion Scanlation Corrupted Fetishes Dangerous Pleasure Greed and Gluttony Status: Complete Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Comedy, Slice of Life, Yaoi Categories: Age-Gap, Hidden Feelings Main Characters: Ao, Ryoumei Adaptation based on available: N/A Recommendations: [bónd(z)], Ijiwaru na Kuchibiru Read Yume Musubi Koi Musubi Online: Yume Musubi Koi Musubi Download link: Vol 01 ~ Vol 02 ~ Vol 03 ~ Vol 04 c14-18 Or Vol 04 ch14 ~ Vol 04 ch15 Vol 04 ch16 // Vol 04 ch16 [Anime-tion] Vol 04 ch17 ~ Vol 04 ch18 More manga series by Sakuragi Yaya Please support the author by buying the book (Free Worldwide Delivery): For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

After School In The Teacher's Lounge OVA Alternative title: Houkago no Shokuinshitsu (Japanese) 放課後の職員室 (Japanese) Genres: drama, romance Type: OVA Themes: yaoi Objectionable content: Intense (graphic depictions of sex, drug use, or bloodshed) Running time: Half hour per episode Number of episodes: 2 Ending Theme: "Half" by Mike Potter Format: AVI File Size: 193-195 MB Plot Summery:Basically a romance between two high school teachers - Kawase Mitsuro and Kazama Toshiaki. Complicated by Mitsuro's hesitation to accept Toshiaki's very open declaration of love. Slightly complicated by a bit of jealousy on the part of Mitsuro's younger brother Hitoshi. Download After School in The Teacher's Lounge: OVA 1 OVA 2 Watch After School In The Teacher's Lounge 1-2 Online (HD Quality): After School In The Teacher's Lounge OVAs 1-2 Online For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: 4:30 Director: Royston Tan Year: 2005 Country: Singapore Type: Drama, Romance Length: 90 mins Summary: 4:30 is the time marks the moment of meeting between two people: Jung, a 30 years old Korean man and an 11 age boy....when he tried to break out Jung's house to steal. Link : Depositfile Subtitles For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

Title: Kohitsuji to Ookami Summary: After his apartment was burnt down to ash, Koide Yuu got to stay in a high class mansion because of his wealthy friend’s help. However, the situation changed drastically when his friend’s brother, Oosawa Masakuni suddenly appeared at the mansion. And then the days Yuu became Masakuni’s guinea pig for his sex experiments (which he had no choice but to agree in order to pay for the rent and compensation for an antique vase he broke) began! Author: SAKURAI Reiko Genre: Comedy Yaoi Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Read Kohitsuji to Ookami Online Kohitsuji to Ookami Download Kohitsuji to Ookami Manga Download link removed upon scanlator's request

Title: Bangkok Love story Year: 2007 Country: Thailand Language: Thai "A loner gunman named Maek is assigned to kidnap a police informant named Iht, but Maek has a change of heart when he takes Iht to the 'hit house'. Maek is ordered to kill Iht, but because he only kills scum and has discovered that Iht isn't bad, he refuses, turning the gun on the enforcers who had hired him to murder Iht. A gun battle ensues during which Maek is wounded, but Iht grabs Maek's gun and shoots their way out of the mobsters' headquarters. The two men then escape on Maek's motorcycle. Maek tells Iht to leave at gun point but he won't and takes Maek back to his rooftop hide-out. There, over a period of time, Iht tends to Maek's wound and finds himself attracted to him. In fact, Maek is also attracted to Iht, but keeps it hidden, while Iht cares for his former would-be killer with great tenderness." I highly recommend you this movie that I really love because of its intensity. I don't know if it's licencied in your country. If that's the case, I'm sorry. These are the links for download it. Download Bangkok Love Story Movie Bangkok Love Story Movie Subtitles Enjoy! For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Manga Title: Scramble Game Author: KANBE Akira Plot: 1-4) Suzuhara Jan is a new college student determined to devote himself to his studies. But a chance meeting with handsome professor Aoyama and discovery of the "Game to Win the Professor's Heart" become a distraction. Though he can't seem to stay away from Aoyama, the game may be impossible to win... 5) Takashi Namasami is wandering lost in the woods when he's found by young master Wakamiya Hideto. But the pushy youngster has a requirement for rescue: Takashi has to be his pretend lover! Groups Scanlating: Biblo Eros Genre: Romance Yaoi Year: 2004 1 Volume (Complete) Read Scramble Game Manga Online Scramble Game Download Scramble Game Manga: http://www.4shared.com/file/FoSfp63I/BE_Scramble_Game_Complete.html For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Movie: Right by Me; Rainbow Boys: The Movie (Thailand, 2005); Rak Nai Thi Plai Roong Running Time: 1h 40min Language: Thai Subtitles: English hardsubs Year: 2005 Plot: This sweet, sexy, and alluring movie follows the lives and loves of three college friends all at different stages of coming out to themselves and others. Handsome, bookish Tat attends coming out support meetings with his out and proud friend Nat. The two boys are surprised when Tat’s crush, the hunky athlete Ek, shows up to a meeting. Questioning his sexuality, Ek turns to Tat for advice, and a sweet romance gradually develops, creating an awkward situation between Tat and Nat. To survive and prosper, all three must surmount the homophobia of Thai society, neglectful and abusive home lives, gay bashings, schoolwork and their own love triangle. Watch Right By Me BL Movie Online: Right By Me Download Right By Me BL Movie: Right By Me For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Well....to be honest i don't really have much talent but i wrote a little something... The characters are not known, they'r all from my head...Hope you like it. Summary : Hana is in a very complicated relationship with Shu... Then one day Shu doesnt show up to meet Hana and Hana decides to go drinking...He finds out Shu is being unfaithful and in the middle of this turmoil he meets Mina a stunning stage dancer.... Hope you enjoy(dont expect much though ) Status: Complete Warning: This fiction is rated +18! It contains strong language and explicit sex scenes. Spell…. “23:00 pm…” “What the hell am i waiting for at this hour?” “If he’s not coming then he’s not, and I’m leaving…There’s no way I’ll stay here in this cold waiting for nobody….” “It’s always like this, he’s busy, and he has work but what about me?” “For two years we’ve been in this kind of relationship in which no one gives in…I’m tired already of the empty house or the lonely hours I spend every day…I’m going to have a drink….sigh” And so I went, expecting nothing but a full glass of alcohol that could make me forget everything. All I wanted was an escape from an exhausting relationship, that seemed to last for too long already, it wasn’t working at all, but I still cared for him… But in fact, that night brought more than what I was expecting… I entered the first bar I saw, it wasn’t in a very good place but who cared I wanted to find someone and maybe, who knows be able to chat a little… I asked for a beer, but not even the beer was enough to take away the bitter taste I had in my mouth, so I asked the waiter to bring me a whiskey double(now that was going to work for sure). I kept asking one after the other, still sitting alone with nobody to talk to. I kind of analyzed the mood around me, apparently I entered some shady place, and it was so dark I couldn’t almost see a hand in front of me… I started looking around and was able to recognize something similar to a stage, it wasn’t big or very well equipped to a live performance and I wondered if there was something happening , cause it didn’t seem the kind of place to hold concerts… I looked the other way and saw a few small tables with a couple of chairs, filled with people, it toke me a second to realize they were couples, male one’s…(so I really did come to the right place uh)… if I wanted to find someone tonight not only for chit-chat it would be easy in this kind of place). The thought made me shriver… Yeah I was mad at him but did I really want to betray him, or was I just so mad to make him believe I did it? I didn’t know what to do…but the next few seconds changed everything… Shu walked thru the front door with someone I didn’t recognize…and honestly I was only able to see his face cause of the light outside when he opened the door…. I felt crushed…I couldn’t move an inch and I started shaking and wasn’t being able to stop… I picked up my cell phone just make sure and called him…If he picked it up what would I do? I tried to dial his number, he was always the first name on my phone list…I took the phone to my ear but all I eared was still the voice mail…. Was it really him? Was I seeing things? I stole another look and it was so hard because of the dark but my eyes were adjusting to the dim light and I was sure… Shu was with another man I didn’t knew… It couldn’t possibly be one of his co-workers because they didn’t know he was gay. I didn’t want to believe that he found somebody else and left me in the dark, double crossing me. My heart was about to burst…how could he do something like that to me…he left me out in the cold winter and came here with someone I didn’t know…who was this person, what did he meant to him, for how long was this going on? It was just too much for me to handle at that time…I started to feel dizzy… I just wanted to leave…but my body wasn’t responding. That was when I first saw him… “Are you alright, do you need help getting up?” The drinks started to get to me and I wasn’t able to stood up…I was shaking all over but I wanted to get out of there…I couldn’t stop my tears, and they started to fall…All the tears I’ve wanted to shed for so long began falling endlessly … “Look if you aren’t feeling alright I don’t mind taking you to a cab or something you’d just have to wait a little…” I knew he was talking to me but I wasn’t able to understand clearly what he was saying… He helped me get up and took me to some other place in the bar, with even less light… “Ok c’mon…sit here, I’m gonna bring ya’ glass of water… Boss get me some water” (he yelled at someone)… I wanted to focus on his face…to see who was being so kind to me…to see who was the person who was caring so much for me…nobody ever did…I wanted to thank him, but my voice didn’t come out I was still sobbing like a crazy person, and making a scene in a public place…Oh God what if Shu sees me? And why am I so worried about him, he surely never worried about me… “Hey look, I’m gonna leave ya here so you gotta be a good boy and behave, later I’ll take ya home or something…” He stood there looking at me, and for the first time I was able to see his face… He was perfection itself… The long black silky hair, a black kind of shining kimono and a dazzling smile…I had never seen so much beauty with my eyes… “Aren’t you a cutie…”He said while he watched me and smiled… I was dazzled, lost and confused…I could no longer figure out where I was, what was I doing, who was i… Some music started to play in the background, and the stage lights began to shine so brightly in that dark place that my eyes filled with tears hurt when I wanted to open them… I was standing just beside the stage and the lights would certainly give me away… “Shit I have to get out of here…if Shu sees me here, what am I going to do…what will he do… I don’t want to know”. A drum began to play… It was such a painful beat…It was so similar to my own heartbeat right then, that it was crushing, one after the other the strong thumping was bringing me to some other place and I felt myself being driven away by it… “Hey cutie I’m gonna have to go cause it’s time for me to dance, but don’t go anywhere, I’ll take care of you in a minute, ok?” That dazzling smile again… He went to the stage, and it suddenly dawn on me that the only thing that mattered was watching him…He was going to dance? Really…?He was a dancer…? I wanted to see…I wanted to see him…But why?! My eyes centered themselves on the small stage when a shadow took the place of the light… What I saw next left me breathless… The black figure standing so still in stage now, was till a few seconds ago holding my hand…I felt it warming just thinking about it. He started to slowly move to the drum beat, and I was lost. His face, his body…everything looked like was putting a spell on me, the way his hand moved to me felt like his previous touch was enticing my body to what more, to want his caress to want his kiss…to want his everything… Was it the alcohol, or something else…? I couldn’t help thinking what would he feel like if I touched his bare chest underneath that silky kimono…what his hair would smell like, the touch of his hand in me… His dance was so sensual, I was beginning to wonder if he was real, if he wasn’t something my mind made up to ease my loneliness… I wanted more. I didn’t want to end there, so I started drinking water to make sure my five senses became restored… And I remembered Shu…sitting somewhere in that place, watching his dance as well. I became fire inside, I wanted to scream and beat the hell out of him. But now wasn’t the time. I would ask the beautiful dancing man to take me home, and who knows maybe something will happen, and I’ll be able to get my revenge on Shu for everything he did to me. The thought of revenge made me feel powerful, and I liked that kind of feeling.. I was going to make it last for a little while longer…" Well that's all for now. I'll soon post something else to continue the story What will happen between Hana and Mina? And what about Shu, how will he react finding out Hana saw him? Stay tunned

How can I say.... My laptop, everywhere I have gone in the house, was with me so i could continue to reading this story.... loll So talented, I like this story Belita... Really, I'll be waiting for the next chapter... Like a grandma sits on his rocking chair, knitting socks for the winter...

Socks lol Fei Long or Asami? (inspared by Belita's sig )

Stay at home... Next situation: You're working at a bookstore and a cliente who's frequent ask you your name... You: Stay quiet and ignore him? Go pick a book that has a character name just like yours, point it out at him and in a very sexy way ask him to join you for coffee? Stop staring at him like a crazy person and answer him all embarresed and blushed?

Quit happy... I saw Dai-chan's funny and cute pictures this morning... ^^

Hug,because I love your signature XDD

Yeah you are right hama71. The only limitation one would have is that of the imagination oh and time would be a big factor in that too. I have made backgrounds for my own purposes and I always think I could have done this or that differently so I shall come here and enjoy your lovely pictures and perhaps I shall endeavour to create one or two of my own. Thank you for the advice...oh I think I am getting some ideas. Now let's see I have pictures I have paint and photoshop...hmmm... I'll be back to see what wonderful things you have posted.

Oh I have no problem with the other work. It is all lovely. I know photos limit what one can do. But what you have done is very pleasing to the eye. Seeing what you have done inspires one want to try their hand at some backgrounds and icons.

I went through all the pages once again and found all the Takumi-kun ones which are equally as gorgeous as these newer ones. One just can't seem to get enough of Takumi and Gii. They make a great couple and are easy on the eyes. Cute, handsome, sweet, gorgeous, attractive, delightful, adorable, tantalizing are just a few words that come to mind about them and your pictures do them justice. Hope you keep posting more of them and all the others that draw your interest.

i :5yoyo34: to Kaoru Chan for telling us that your a male yoyo1 because most of boys yoyo7 are shy to admit to be yaoi fans leaf3

This I How It Goes by Billy Talent Everybody is tired and poor and sick of trying If you see me on the corner Will you stop or will you splash me Take a look at what we've become Nothing more than silhouettes of A pretty family on a postcard Picture perfect, I don't want it So I hold my breath 'til my heart explodes Cause this is how it is and this is how it goes You can steal my body but you can't steal my soul Cause this is how it is and this is how it goes Shitty weather, bad timing Lucky penny glued to the ground Dirty look from total stranger Hope you get lost and you're not found Take a look at what we've become Nothing more than silhouettes of A pretty family on a postcard Picture perfect, I don't want it So I hold my breath 'til my heart explodes Cause this is how it is and this is how it goes You can steal my body but you can't steal my soul Cause this is how it is and this is how it... This is, how it, it goes This is, how it, it goes This is, how it, it goes This is, how it, it goes So unscrew my head And rinse it out Polish my thoughts Turn into doubts Unscrew my head And rinse it out Polish my thoughts Turn into doubts Turn 'em into, turn 'em into doubts So I hold my breath 'til my heart explodes Cause this is how it is and this is how it goes You can steal my body but you can't steal my soul Cause this is how it is and this is how it goes

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Chapter 02 Wednesday, December 9 [Online] [sora: The guy was getting strange these days…] [Daichi: Oh… really?] [sora: Yeah! Instead of sitting beside me, he just stood by my side.] [Daichi: …] [sora: The train isn’t full! But he doesn’t sits anywhere! He’s really a weirdo! >_ [Daichi: Then why are you paying so much attention on him if you think he’s a weirdo?] [sora: But being weird is precisely why I’d pay so much attention to him!] [Daichi: …] [sora: Hey.. What’s wrong, you’re weird too!] [Daichi: Oh… am i?] [sora: Yes you are! You’re giving me perfunctory replies. What happened? ~_~] [Daichi: Nothing…] [sora:…] [Daichi: You did not take the initiative to talk to him first, did you?] [sora: What???] [Daichi: Did you forget what I said the other day, to befriend with him?] [sora: Oh! That~! I was glad that I didn’t ask him that day! Do you know how scary his face was?] [Daichi: How?] [sora: He practically had that “Beware-Of-Guard-Dogs” aura around him!] [Daichi: !!! 0.0 And you gave up just because of this?? 0_0] [sora: Isn’t that enough? Who knows if I would get a bashing out of it! And if that happens, I wouldn’t be here talking to you, I would be in the hospital! >. [Daichi: So you’re planning to back-off now? You’re so uncool!] [sora: .V. What’s this! So you want me to put my life at stake just to talk to him?] [Daichi: What are you talking about? Is he a Murderer or something?! If that’s the case, then I think you should be more careful of your surroundings so as to not be the next victim.] [sora: Shut Up! And stop cursing me! Why do you start cursing me out of nowhere! Still trying to deny that you’re upset… You obviously HAS something going on! What happened? >_ [Daichi: Nothing much, I’m just tired from work, maybe that’s why I’m acting weird! -0-] [sora: I see! I think you should rest early then!] [Daichi: Yeah… Goodnight…] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Thursday, December 10 Dear Diary, he finally sat down today, but his face wasn’t any better. I can’t help but feel more at ease. At ease? I’m not too sure as well. But…How could I feel so at ease that I actually fell asleep?! I even rested my head on his shoulder?! What more! I was drooling?!?! I felt so ashamed!!! But he didn’t have much reaction… I guess I better move on to another cabin from tomorrow onwards! That was so embarrassing!!! Friday, December 11 Dear Diary, I wanted to go to the other cabins today. Unpredictably, I met him as early as on the platform! He didn’t seem to mind what has happened yesterday. And since I’ve been spotted, I don’t think there’s a need to avoid him… do I? If he really mind what happened yesterday, he could go ahead to have his seat somewhere else… However, he still sat right by my side. Oh god!!! What’s happening to me!?!? I’m actually… I’m actually… I’m actually glad that he is not avoiding me! I think I’m ill, seriously ill… Maybe I should ask [Daichi] what wrong with me tomorrow! Saturday, December 12 [Online] [sora: I think I’m sick.] [Daichi: 0_0 sick?! Have you visit a doctor yet? Is there any where that’s having pain or discomfort? .V. Tsk, you should be visiting a doctor if you’re not feeling well! Why are you coming online instead?!] [sora: Oh please~~~! Let me finish my sentence would you? It’s not THAT kind of illness that any doctors could cure. It’s not exactly very serious… just that there is this person who keeps floating in my mind. And when I see that person, I feel embarrassed. Could it be… because I drool?] [Daichi: ?_? You what? Drool? What are you talking about?] [sora: Oh. . . Well, on Thursday. . . He finally sat down, and maybe I was too tired, so unconsciously, i fell asleep on his shoulder. And then I drool! I’m so glad that he didn’t avoid me because of this. . . ] [Daichi: … You seem to mind him a lot!] [sora: -_-# Wh…What! I’m… I’m just…I’m just embarrassed that I drool on him!!!] [Daichi: You didn’t apologize even when you dirtied other people’s shirt?! Don’t you have any manners?!] [sora: Apologize? Do you think I haven’t disgrace myself enough yet?] [Daichi: So you prefer to have him hate you?] [sora: You… You are horrible! >. [Daichi: Whatever it is, if you don’t want people to hate you, apologize. Okay!] [sora: Yeah, right! ] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] To be Continued...

I kept my head down and sighed… Then, the song on the radio changed… and one of my favourite songs began to play… I look up in amazement, I wasn’t expecting it, it felt like a small comfort… Looking straight ahead I saw a shadow moving… it was running… My heartbeat speed up… I didn’t thought it was an animal or some other person… I knew it was him… and I couldn’t even see it clearly… I dropped the blanket and started running myself… I didn’t care about anything else… It was him… And he was coming back to me… He was so near now… I could see his perfect features already… He smiled, and the white landscape palled in comparison… I smiled back…like a greeting… still running… And then, what looked like a perfect shoujo manga moment became a comedy one… I wasn’t used to running in the snow, and I completely fell rolling down like a complete idiot… I felt my face burn even though I was buried in snow… “Oh my god I’m such a mess…such a disaster…” I could ear his footsteps getting nearer and nearer… I was so embarrassed I could die, I wasn’t even able to stand up, so just stood there, laying on the snow covered floor, too shy to even move… I started to ear him calling my name… “Hana-san…..!!!! Hana-san, are you ok, Hana-san…” I felt even more like a fool… I worried him… But I couldn’t face him… When he reached me he kneeled down and rolled me over facing my face to his… “Are you alright Hana-san…” “Yeah…” Still looking the other way, the embarrassment didn’t allowed me to face him… “Thank god… You scared me for a bit…(smile)” “I’m sorry…” “What’s this…? You don’t need to say sorry Hana-san you just fell and you could have hurt yourself…” “I’m fine…I’m just embarrassed, because I really suck running in the snow…” “Ahahah, everyone does Hana-san…” “Well but you didn’t fall… I did…” “(smile)Are you sure you’re really ok…?!” “Yeah I am… Help me get up, my butt is freezing…” “Sure thing…(small laugh)” He gave me his hand and I stood up, but as soon as our eyes met, we couldn’t control ourselves… I hold on to him the hardest I could and kissed him painfully… I was killing all my solitude for those 3 hours, and also punishing him for leaving me there alone… He stared at me, looking like he really liked that... “What…?! You left me here all alone for 3 hours…Thinking of what might have happened to you… You’re cruel…” He hold me even tighter… “I’m sorry… But I really had too… Forgive me…” He truly looked sorry, so I let him of the hook… “So did you find any help at all…?! Or was just a waste of time?” “Well…sort off…” “Sort off what?! Finding help or loss of time…?” “Finding help… Well, I was able to meet this nice ojisan and he told me he would go to town to call for someone to pick us and the car up…” “I’m sensing a “but” there…” “Well, yeah…cause he can only go later…which means we will have to wait for a few more hours here…” “Well…nothing we can do about it…let’s go back to the car, it’s freezing cold here…” I reached for his hand, and the cold ice temperature gave me a shock… He was freezing, his nose was all red, and he was shaking even though he was running not long ago… “Mina… you’re freezing…” “Yeah…(smile) a little…(shivering)” “Let’s go to the car…I’ll put the blanket on top of you…You’ll warm up faster…” “Ok…But don’t worry Hana-san…I’m…fine…Just a bit…cold(forced smile)…” I became really worried, and as soon as I reached the car I took his boots off, his pants and hi socks… They were drenched... He really was running around in those pilled snow woods… “Baka…” “I’m sorry Hana-san…” “What are you saying…You’re the one freezing to death here…” It wasn’t working… He was shaking so much, I didn’t know what else to do… I started taking of my clothes as well… Body temperature was always the best to warm someone in this kind of situation, right… The most funny thought was floating in my head… I once read a manga with a very similar situation… “What you doing Hana-san…???” “I’m taking of my clothes and laying down next to you so you can warm up faster, can’t i?!” “Well y’a can…but it’s gonna be hard on me having y’a here like this…(looking the other way)” It was nothing much… I just took off my coat and sweater and was only bared chest… But somehow his words turned me on completely… I started blushing like an idiot again, but I still laid down beside him, holding him close so my body could warm him up… In the state I was, it wouldn’t be hard… Even though he was freezing cold I could still feel myself burning up by our closeness… “Better…?” “Yeah…” I felt his voice shaking, and couldn’t figure out if it was the cold or….something else… I got closer, and grabbed his chin… “Really…?!” “Yeah…much better…” When he looked at me, I could feel it… That penetrating gaze on me… Those were shivers of desire…not cold… “Well…we could…do something more…if you want too…too warm up faster i mean” “What are y’a saying Hana-san, we’re in the middle of a road, what if someone show’s up…?” “Well I can tell you for sure it won’t, because I’ve been here for three hours and a half and so far only birdies show up…” “(smile) Don’t need to get mad Hana-san…” “Well…I’m here…asking this sort of thing…and you…(blush)” He got closer, and kissed the nape of my neck… “I’m sorry… I didn’t know you wanted me so badly right now…(sicker)” “N… it’s not tha……” “No use hiding it from me… I know y’a so well when pleasure is related…(kiss)” “Maybe it really isn’t a very good idea…” “Now that you left me like this…you have to take responsibility …(touch)” “Wait Mina…” “I won’t wait… At least let me touch all of y’a…kiss y’a…feel y’a…” “Mina…" And our private little moment in that piece of junk of a car started… It was so exciting… The sun was still shining, although the colour of the snow was now turning into a slight radiant orange taint… His body was still so cold but against my burning skin felt like the best contrast possibly imaginable… Seconds later I was the one shaking, his touch always managed to sweep me of my right mind… Wet kisses, licks that felt to take away all of my sanity, were just a few examples of how this man managed drive me crazy each time we were together like this… The car was really cramped but I still managed to climb up to his legs, so I could see him working me up… I liked the view…very, very much… He swept his hand thru my back, while kissing my chest and licking each one of my nipples…thoroughly, making each bite turn into an indescribable pleasure… “Mina…” I grabbed him and slightly passed my tongue all over his ears… I licked his earlobes, and he deliciously moaned to my big pleasure… I was getting used to it… Used to arouse him, to drive him insane, the same way he did to me… It felt like retribution was arousing me more than I could ever think… “(whisper)Take them off…” I stretched my back to the front of my car, as to tell him…do the honours… He liked that… He reached my waist, and started to unloose my pants… Just the slight touch of his hands undoing the buttons, were enough for me to moan… He snickered as to tell me he was watching me…earring me…like telepathically advancing what I was wishing for… Another moment of tender pleasure, another sweet memory... Impossible to forget... We somehow fell asleep inside that cramped car, and were awake by the sound of a truck getting near... It was night already... The darkeness was overwhelming, you couldn’t see any light, only the night stars and the most beautiful moon... The truck was getting nearer and the strong lights made us blind for a few moments... We started to get dressed quikly, so that who ever was coming wouldn’t see us all naked.... Two guys...naked...in a car... That would be quite a sight... As soon as the truck stopped we got out of the car to greet whoever was coming to us... “Ah, ojisan...you finally came...” “I’m very sorry Shirou-san, i could only come now, good evening i’m Yokuno Sarada, i live near town...i’ll take you to Ironi Ryokan...” “We are very much apreciated for you help Yokuno-san, im Myaki Hana, nice to meet you...” “Nice too meet you too... Are you ready to go then...?” “Yeah, sure... We’re ready... It’s starting to get even colder...” “Let’s go then...” And there we went, after a day in the country white snow, we made our ways to our New Year’s celebration at the Ryokan... _____________________________________________________________________________ Well that's it for now... I'm very sorry if the chap it's not up to you guys expectations... I kind of lost the track to what i wanted to write... Next chap... Hana and Mina at the Ryokan... Lot'sa big kisses... :*

Hi there, here it is chap 1... Hope you all like it Big kiss :* Story Satus: Hana-san well confront Mina to tell him about his family affairs... How's that going to run?! Spell… Chapter 11 I got up early that morning. I was restless, couldn’t sleep well, working really good on the words I would have to use, to make him spill the beans… Took my usual shower, dressed some sport pants and t-shirt since it was so early, I wouldn’t dress the suit already, it would wrinkle and that would be a pain. I wanted to know everything, I wanted him to tell me, what was bothering him, what was making him so sad every time he spoke about it, why the bright smile he always had, darkened every single time I mentioned this matter. And today was the day to make it clear. If there was a way to help him, I would find it, I would help him sort things out. I disconnected the alarm clock, there was no need for him, since I was already up, and I went to wake him up… We both fell asleep late yesterday, but this couldn’t wait… There was no way I would leave this house without knowing what was happening, no way I was going to work thinking about the same thing all over again, I would be even more upset, with no room on my mind to work affairs. “Mina time to wake up… I need to talk to you before I go to work…” “But it’s so early Hana-san…can’t it wait till another hour….?” “No it can’t!” I answered him in a slight cold way, so he could figure it was important and that I wasn’t joking around… He got up still a bit drowsy, looking at me, like I was about to say something really bad… “I’ll begin preparing breakfast…” “Breakfast can wait Mina…Please, sit down…” “What’s wrong Hana-san…you look so serious all of the sudden…” “It’s not sudden, Mina, about your family…I want you to tell me everything…now” He sighted and his eyebrows furrowed... “Like I said Hana-san it’s complicated…Why do you want to know stuff like this…it doesn’t concern you.” That hurt. It didn’t concern me?! How could he say something like that…? If we were together it’s normal for us to know everything about each other… Especially if it was such a pained matter, I wanted him to know I was here for him, as he was for me so many times before... “That was mean, Mina. You follow me up, you sleep with me, you spied on my ex, you make me fall in love with you and I don’t have the right to know these things…I’m I supposed to be ok with that?!” “I’m sorry Hana-san, I didn’t meant it that way, ‘course you deserve to know, i’ll tell ya everything about me…is just this matter…I won’t even know where to begin…” “Try starting from the beginning...” I grabbed his hands and looked straight into his eyes... He sighed like three times in a row… Whatever was he was about to say, it surely made him feel so much sorrow, I was feeling a bit guilty about it, but I had to know… “Two years ago, when I met ya in that Sakura gathering at my house, I really fell in love with Hana-san… I told ya before, and I… I really wasn’t joking around when I said it Hana-san…” “Yes and…what do I have to do with this story…?” “Well, after that day, I started wondering if it wouldn’t be great if I could find Hana-san, and be together with ya, tell ya that I love ya, and that I want to stay with ya….forever…” This declaration stunned me, because i could clearly see what was coming ahead... “Mina what happened?!” I felt my chest hurt… “Well, two weeks after that party, I went to talk with my parents… They always were… everything for me…I love them with all my heart… My brother is my best friend…They were so important to me. But that day, things changed….” A cold shiver run down my back…something really bad was coming and I could feel it… “Changed how…?” “Well…Hana-san, for a men to feel attracted to other man, don’t ya think is weird?! Of course I understood that something was wrong with me, but I didn’t really dislike girls, but I just don’t want them, or other guys…I just wanted you. So I decided to speak with my parents about it…about adopting a man into our family, since I decided not to get married to a woman..” “You what…?!” “I thought it was the right thing to do, cause…well even if I couldn’t have Hana-san…no one was right for me…I wouldn’t be with anyone, and that they should be prepared for it..” My worst nightmare was happening there in front of my eyes…I could see it like a movie…The shock, the pain, the disgust they must have felt….like they, my family, did… “You’re an idiot, why did you such a thing…?” “Hana-san! If I didn’t tell them straight up I didn’t want to get married, they soon would be finding me a bride…My family has traditions, rules, that I never understood, but that I was supposed to follow…I don’t want that…I wouldn’t be happy, and I wouldn’t make the other person happy too…” “What did they do afterwards? I mean, didn’t they lock you up, preventing you from doing such a thing or something…?” This...was me…mentioning these things was really difficult, they were my experiences…my pain, my tears, my suffering… Like he was telling my story… “Well they didn’t…They just said that if it was what I wanted…then I was….no longer part of that family…” He was devastatingly sad telling me all this… I became somehow terrified from the thought of being responsible, from him being thrown out of his own house… Something this happened because he met me… “Are you ok with this…? Are you ok, with not being able to meet your parents anymore, not meeting your brother anymore, to throw away all you have…Are you really ok with this Mina?” “If it’s for you…yes I am.” There wasn’t a doubt in his eyes, the black colour of his irises didn’t lose their glitter, or showed me any kind of regret, or fear while saying those words… What was I suppose to feel…happiness?! I was so scared… and so sad, I didn’t know what to do anymore… How could I be responsible for this kind soul to have lost everything…? “I…I can’t accept that…” He looked down, he looked mad, like he was going to punch something… “This is why…I didn’t want to tell you anything…” “What...you rather keep me in the dark about all this?” “Yes...i would rather do that, so that i don’t have ya mopping around thinking about my own choices...i choose you...you better deal with it. You might leave me, but that will only mean i’ll be alone. Won’t you be with me instead?! Will you let me alone forever just because i said what i really felt to my family?... Do you really think that i’ll give up on you, just because you don’t want me to throw everything away? Well, you better think again Hana-san, cause i won’t go back, on my words nor my actions....” “You’re leaving me no choice... What i Shu finds out who you are and goes babbling to your family that you’re with me...? How do you think it would make me fell, for them to know that i am the one responsible for ruining his son’s life...(tears)...?” “Why does that bastard comes up in this conversation? He has nothing to do with this or you, by the way, so why are you mentioning him?” “Because i saw him... Yesterday...He begged me to go back to him, i'm afraid he'll meddle in my affairs...” “He what?!” “Just cool it Mina, i told him straight that i had no intention of going back to him, and told him that i already had someone...that i wouldn’t let go, or give up on...(blush)because you’re special...to me, i'm just scared he finds out who you are and does something bad” He got up and hugged me, like he never did before. I felt him reassure me that he wasn’t going anywhere...that he wouldn’t leave me... "I'll be right here... I won't let anything happen to you..." "I't's not me i'm affaid you idiot...." I had the feeling i was holding to something as precious as the sun, or the moon... The kind of person, i searched all my life, was there in my arms, and i could only fear what was ahead of us... Hope you enjoyed reading... Thank you for all the suport... Another big one f'o ya all :*

Here it is chap 9... Hope you guys like it Spell... Chapter 9 When i woke up, i felt something really heavy on top of me. I tried to move but it was hard to get away from those strong arms, the more i tried to get loose the more they gripped tight. “Mina, i need to get up, please let me go...” “(muffed) No...it’s still early Hana-san, stay here a little while longer...(tight hug)” Oh my...so cute... “I have to Mina-san...” He started to move away... “Ok but i’ll get up as well, i’ll cook you breakfast...” He blinked an eye tom me and I felt warm just from his kindness... It was good to know he was there for me, it felt right... I was blushing like an idiot all over again.... “But Hana-san...don’t you want to give me a good morning kiss...?” I blushed even harder right on the spot, what was with that kind of question this early in the morning... “Mina-san!... Please i have to get ready...uh...don’t ask such things like this...” “Ok...” The sad, dejected look he had was unbearable, i just felt like hugging him again, kiss him a lot and never let go...even so i left the room, i was running a little late. I really needed a shower... I got to the bathroom and kept thinking about what was said on the day before. It seemed surreal. The words, the actions...They really happened... And i promised to be with him... Was i being too little cautious about this, or over cautious....Did i loved him or was this just an incredible attraction? I was getting confused so i decided to drop the thought. “We’ll see how this goes... i will take my conclusions later.” I got dressed so i could got to work, and when i got to the living room , he had already set the table, breakfast served, a huge smile on his face, like he didn’t saw me for like a year, all waiting for me...I loved that. “Hana-san i have to work today, my part-time at the bar is today so...i’ll be a little late but, can i come to meet you when i finish?” Another blush... “Don’t you have a house to go to?” “Well i do, but i rather stay with Hana-san....if you don’t mind...” Well i didn’t mind! Between spending the nights alone, laying in a bed all alone i much rather have him with me these cold nights. Not because of the cold, but because the warmth he brought to me was unlike anything else, unlike anyone... But i just couldn’t tell him that. “Well i don’t mind...so you can...just make sure you don’t wake me up (blush)...” He got closer and whispered... “I don’t know if i can do that.... (soft kiss)” “Mina-san...(hard blush)” “But i’ll try...it’s going to be really hard but i’ll try not to wake you... (smile)” I tried to change the subject. “Do you really have to work at that place...? I mean, i’m not judging or anything but don’t you belong to a very big, important family...? What are you doing working in a place like that...?” There was this drastic change in his expression... “It’s complicated Hana-san...” I felt insecure for the first time... “But you can talk to me right, i mean you can see me as a friend as well, if you need someone to talk to, you can confide in me, you know that, right?” “(soft kiss) Hana-san is so good to me... (smile)” I felt getting warm again...the closeness, and the way he spoke to me where like weapons against my desire, and i always lost to them... “Mina-san please...i really should be going...” I got out of the table, so i could take a safe distance...Another word, another touch and i would be lost... “Ok...work hard Hana-san...” “Thank you, you too... I’ll see you later then...” And i was out the door. As i was walking, i felt happy, the kind of feeling you have, when everything’s right, when happiness was just there for me to grab it. But a darkness came to obscure almost all the light... He didn’t explain, what happened with his family. The why was he working in that bar, when he belonged to a much brighter, amazing place... The thought occupied my entire mind, throughout the day, and didn’t let go. The reason behind it was because i was feeling that happiness from the morning fade... My heart was feeling small, and the pain, coming like waves as soon as i remembered his words, became worse. “What did he meant with...”it’s complicated”...I wish he could tell me, i don’t want him to feel bad, or to think i’m unreliable... I’m here for him.” Was it really so complicated, that he just didn’t want me to know, or was i a bother to be told about these things? “Man, i got to give my head a five minute break...” I went to grab a few things from the cafeteria and, all by myself went to eat at the garden below. It was freezing, but the cold air, helped to clear my mind. “I will talk to him later about it, i’ll wait for him to arrive, and trap him. I will make him say everything because i don’t want to feel like this... I hate it.” I finished my food and was about to get in the office building when, a person standing only a few steps from me looked terribly familiar. “Can i talk to you Hana?” Shu? Again? What did he want now, wasn’t what he told me two days ago enough...? “Please, i’m trying so hard to get away from everything related to you, so...why do you have to come here, again....?” “Please Hana(tremble)...Come back to me.” They destroyed my world in that moment...Those words. How could he? What did he want with saying that? What was he after? My destruction...? “Goodbye Shu. Don’t ever speak to me again, don’t ever look for me again...Forget about me. I’ll do the same thing about you.” I turned away, but he grabbed me.

December 23rd I completed the small arrangements I wanted around the house, I wanted to move in before Christmas, nothing was more depressing than spending Christmas night in a hotel. Not that I was really looking forward to it. I mean with whom would I be spending such a lovely period?! Alone?! Exactly. So I shouldn’t be expecting anything else but loneliness… I asked for a 3 day off from my job so I could prepare everything to move in. I went shopping bought cheap but great things to my new home, and they were delivering it today. I was a little excited. It was a new start, and I was just a little relieved I was getting a place of my own. Shu didn’t call, text or tried to contact me in any way. It seemed he forgot all about me. Not that I wasn’t expecting it but the feeling his despise was giving me was not pleasant at all. “I mean… we were together for two god damn years… How could I just simply forget?!…Right now I really wished I could.” It’s been three weeks since that terrible night, and the mixture of feelings I have from that time, still made me confused. The anger, the fear, the excitement… A really funny feeling came when I remembered the guy I saw dancing… “Mina-san…wasn’t it?!” Gosh he was really good looking. I giggled to the thought from the kiss he gave me. I sometimes could feel the warmth of his lips… I stopped for a second. “Oh c’mon I could that be…it was 3 weeks ago man. Anything that had happened should have disappeared already what the hell…talking about feeling his lips… Talking about crazy I tell you. Get a hold of yourself…” Truth was that I wouldn’t probably ever see him again, and the thought squeezed my chest a little. I wanted somebody to hold, to kiss…and well to do a lot of stuff too I mean when was the last time I DID it… I blushed terribly to the thought. “Oh god what am I thinking at this time of the day….” Somebody hit the bell and I went to answer it, still blushing like an idiot. The furniture was here, and I started putting everything in place, planning which place was best for each piece I’ve bought. “Fiiuu…shit now that was hard. Never thought I bought so many things.” After I finished placing the most important stuff I thought of preparing a little something for the neighbors, but I changed my mind. Well I wasn’t much of a cook. Ok, ok not a cook at all, I would probably blow up the kitchen frying a freaking egg. Shu used to do all the cooking. I loved to watch him cook he looked really sexy. Another stab on the chest. Shu wasn’t here anymore so I would need to learn how to do things myself. And that is what I need to concentrate for now… well I’ll just by something nice and cheap to the neighbors… I was getting broke so I couldn’t splurge. I found a small “patisserie” selling some delicious cookies with a very good price and I bought them. Problem solved. Now all I had to do was give them away so I could get over it. After I was done with wrapping the cookies, I went to give them. Door bell to door bell saying hello and please take care of me from now on, it wasn’t that hard. “Finally the last one. Well they’re really nice neighbors, they didn’t ask too many questions, they weren’t weird, so I guess I really hit jackpot coming here…” I pushed the last one, but no one answered. “It’s not that late yet… They probably aren’t home yet. I’ll wait for later, or maybe tomorrow…” I placed the only package left close to the entrance and started to clean up the rest of things I had to put away, storage and organize. It wasn’t much after that I heard the door bell, I ran to check who was it and when I opened the door I almost has a heart attack. Those” Mina-san lips”, I was so embarrassingly thinking about just a few hours ago were standing in front of me. I had such a shock I don’t remember anything after I opened the door. I woke up on my entrance floor(god knows for how long was I out) but nothing was in pain, didn’t I just passed out…If I fell I should hurt right?! “I there, you ok man?!” I was about to pass out again, that voice… shit…no way… there’s just no way this is happening to me. So many places in this world and HE had to be HERE…what the hell… I was lying on his knees(apparently he supported my fall) I stood up quickly, kept my head real down, like a bow so he couldn’t recognize me, he seemed not to have until now, and I was going to make sure he didn’t at all… “Oh I’m sorry, I felt hum…a bit dizzy…hum… cause I just moved here today…and all the moving well I’m a bit tired so…hum, if you excuse me…” “Oh’s that so?! Then welcome neighbor!” WHAT THE HELL IS GOING ON?!! WHY IS HE MY NEIGHBOOR?! AND WHY DO I HAVE TO FACE HIM LOOKING LIKE CRAP?! “Oh, it’s that so…well hum…so nice to meet you I’ll be in your care from now on, good night….” I tried to close the door but no can do… “Hey is this the way you treat your neighbors? That’s not nice at all. Where’s my welcoming gift, ya have one right?!…I bet you went to my house but since no one’s there, you kept it to give later right, so where is it? I’ll receive it now. Is it food? I’m starved ahahah.” Was this guy for real, I just said I wasn’t feeling right, what the hell is wrong with him… I wanted to run away…How could he be so pushy. I picked up the wrap lying on the floor gave it him and closed the door without saying anything. Yeah ok, I was rude but how come I could face him like this, heart beating 1000 miles per second, face red like a tomato, there’s just no way I could, if he recognized me…fuck what was I going to do…? “Ya know(chewing) ya could have been a little nicer(chewing), I came all the way here to say hello to the new guy(chewing) and he bangs th’a door on m’a face… Oh BUT THE COOKIES R’ GREAT THANK YOU, MAYBE TOMORROW WE GET TO CHAT A LITTLE AND…” “SHUT UP…don’t yell, please be considerate about the other neighbors. Now go home. Please.” “Shit did I do something to piss’ya off? What the hell… Alright good night then… you crazy person…” “I’M NOT A CRAZY PERSON, GO AWAY!” “Don’t scream you’ll disturb the neighbors…ahahah” What the hell, this son of a…. now I’M the one disturbing…shit… I tried to calm down… It was normal right, if he didn’t knew who I was, it was normal to think I was crazy acting like that… I would apologize properly tomorrow…I just needed some time to cool down, because that was seriously unbelievable. Of all the places in this town, 10 million people, he had to live in the place i just moved… So long peaceful life...

Well here goes nothing Story status : Well Hana found out Shu was betraying him, and still at the bar he's so drunk he needs the help of Mina, a dancer at that same bar... But now Hana is better, and has to face everything that has happend to him... So what will he do? Hope you enjoy. Spell – Chapter 2 While I was standing behind the stage, I watched all his performance… There weren’t words good enough to describe it. How could something so beautiful be made by a person, I wondered… “I have a boyfriend right now…Do I really want to do this? Am I this kind of person? Yes, he is unbelievable, so much that I don’t trust my eyes right now but…did I really mean it? No…. I didn’t, and since I became a bit sober I should apologize for my behavior and go home… I would work things out with Shu.” Or better settle them once and for all. I won’t let this continue, this miserable life, this empty feeling hovering on me every second of every day… Enough was enough and things would end between us tonight. I finally stoop up, and went to find the ”dancing man” (jeez i didn’t even know his name, how embarrassing)… I went to met him, and he was talking to someone. I got a little closer, I was so ashamed with myself that my face felt like was it was being cooked inside out… “Ok…relax, say hello, say sorry for everything and thank you….and then go home. Ok this is a good plan, sigh…” When I almost got by his side I recognized the person he was talking to. Shu was standing there holding the other guy’s hand, talking to the dancer, he seemed to be praising him. Then the other guy also shook the dancer hand and they left after only a few seconds. I stood there watching the all scene, like a movie…unable to do or say anything. It was nerve racking…”Just calm down…one thing at the time.” I took 2 steps forward and he looked back at me with that same dazzling smile of his. “I there…Feeling better now? Do ya need a cab or I could walk ya home if you’re still not ok?!” I thought about it again…Having the possibility of having him seemed almost too good(or not, maybe he wasn’t gay right…I just assumed that due to his work place…I could be wrong). “Stop it, just stop it” I thought to myself, I got have a hold on my feelings and this is not the best way… “Thank you so much for today, you really helped me out…”I smiled shyly…I didn’t want him to see my face, I was probably horrible from all that crying so I kept my head down. “I’m so sorry for causing a commotion here, I was just feeling a little down and I kind of drank too much…so I’m really sorry for that. Hum, you don’t need to bother about me now, I’m fine so I’m heading home while I’m feeling better…” I turned around so I could leave, but he grabbed one of my hands. “So you would just leave without even telling me you’re name cutie?” “Ahah, cutie yeah right...”-I managed to say-“but thanks anyway…” I extended my other hand. “I’m Hana.” Just when I thought he was going to shake mine he pulled my entire arm to himself, holding my waist he took my lips without giving me a chance to back away… “I’m Mina. Nice to meet ya Hana” He licked the top of my mouth once again and gave that killer smile, his voice was soft velvet in my ears, all of my neck hair stood up… The balance I was so strongly trying to keep broke and I almost hit the floor. Knees shaking, head spinning… Was all of this for real?! I broke his embrace and gave some distance between us… There was no way I wouldn’t give in if he so much touched the tip of my finger… It was such an arousing feeling, that all parts of my body were pleading for. “What the hell you think you’re doing mister?” “Well that was my thank you gift…” He joked. “I don’t think I ever gave you permission for such, and I already thanked you for everything, so there was really no need for you to do that…” “I just felt like it…You’re so cute” he teased. “I’m…wha…well goodbye.” That one got me that’s for sure… I turned around the fastest I could, but my feet were still deceiving me. Trying to keep my balance on alcohol and such an excited state was no good to keep my body moving accordingly to the way I wanted it. I rushed thru the door… I was able to feel the cold air outside, and my head became clearer. I heard footsteps behind me. “Hey ya sure you don’t need me to walk ya home… I really don’t mind ya know.” “I’m positive. Good night.” I went my way… I don’t know why but I still glanced behind for a long time, until I could no longer see him. Gosh I hoped he didn’t saw me looking at him like an idiot. Soon, as I was walking the important issue came to my mind. After all that has happened tonight I still have to go home, and have a life changing moment. Tonight was final. Tonight I would let him go. The thought of regret started building inside of me, but I couldn’t realize if I was regretting the situation I was about to face, or the fact that I didn’t do it earlier. Do I really love him? At that point I wasn’t so sure anymore. The sense of freedom became a scary feeling, I didn’t want to spend my life alone… Alone… That thought brought me back to old memories. To the time we swore to never let go of each others hands. To the time we picked our house, to the time I bought him a hideous sweater that he hated but told me he loved it because I gave it to him… “Oh god… I’m breaking breaking inside.” Every step I took towards that door brought me a memory, and every memory brought me even more pain… “What did I do wrong…? Where did I fail you…? I only took time loving you and you go and do something like this to me….You promised (sob)…Ya prom (sob)….” “I HATE YOU…I HATE YOU FROM MAKING ME FEEL THIS WAY…” My knees gave away and I fell on the snow covered floor crying… I stood there for what it looked like an eternity. My body was frozen from standing for too long on top of the snow. At least all the things I remembered we’re good, and that gave me strength to lift my head and walk the rest of the way… I was now standing in my front door, hand on the knob… Too scared to open it. But I had to. I took a deep breath and I walked in.

I have to confess. I'm deeply in love with my best friend (female) and beg to the gods that I could be with her, but I know that will never happen. seeing how she loves my like a sister/brother (depending on the way i'm acting). I wish I could go out with her. And also. I made out with my other best friend (also female) in bed with my best friend (the one I love deeply) while she was asleep...and kept clinging to me. The 3 of us had to share a bed when we slept over at make out best friends house. I wish i could expirience that again. no one knows besides the 2 of us...and now you guys.

fuuuh...i dunno if itz a secret or not but... dammit....i think my feeling on boys is disappearing.... i've rejected almost 5 boys diz year and i dunno why... i dun tell my fwens becoz im scared tht they'll think im a lesbian n walk awy from me... and...real secret...i stole my friend's note book n let teacher punish her.. i also lost my bestfwen's fav dvd n nver tell her...she still searching for it until now... BIGGEST SECRET....i never tell my mom i like boy x boy and im now yaoi fan...

I'm bi. I'm not gender-sensitive. I am attracted to girls and men. Although for girls, I do have some specific types I look for. With a girl, I'm tachi. With a man, I'm uke. I've made out in an elevator....TWICE. Check! Always wanted to do that. Made out by the door of the house just immediately after seeing the guests leave. Check! I'm very attracted to guys who wear glasses. I walked around wearing a big angry red hickey on my neck in public. I like being marked like that. LOL...so uke. hahahhaha!

The only thing I feel kinda bad is making out with a classmate on a party while being kinda together with another guy. But we weren't boyfriend/girlfriend and he was being a jealous, controlling bitch and I was kinda pissed off hehe... If he could he wouldn't even let me hug my friends >__> He didn't last long lol. Let's jsut say I hate being controlled.

Haha secrets? I don't have much secrets lol. My first kiss was with a girl too as seems a few other girls' here were as well xD Though, my family know I'm bi so... And this is not a big secret either but, I like hurting people haha(not just in a sexual way)... I have my victims xD

rabbit16i am sure that maybe would shock you , yoyomy first kiss was with my cousin a (girl) and we were kissing for an hour:leaf8: (we were 13) i regret it but it's okay what happened happened leaf2,we will keep it as a secret until death (so dont tell on us)foxy5

My love for Asian music came when I first started watching anime and originally I only really listened to anime opening and ending themes and didn't really know who they were done by.

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