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Chapter 01 Nozomu realized that even in dreams, he could not forget about that guy. Recalling the conversation yesterday, Nozomu could not help but allows anger to fill him up. What’s the meaning of “I’ll meet someone better”, and what’s the meaning of “our personality is not compatible”! He better not let me find out that he has another lover or I’ll skin that person alive! Oh yeah! I should give a call to Oumi! [Genji High School] The moment Nozomu sees Hikari, one of his childhood friend, enters the classroom, he grabbed Oumi, another childhood friend of his, to their seats and break the ‘terrible’ news to them. “Oh…” Hikari said unfeelingly. “What happened? When did that happened? How did it happen? Why?” Oumi asked with concern. “It was yesterday… I think that there’s a third party…” Nozomu said with great sorrows, but when he mentioned the later part, he’s eyes went all razor-sharp. Just at this moment of time, Nobu walks in to the class. He is the Mr. Popular in school, a sweetheart of many, and a person whom many worship. Just like it had occurred in Mangas, where ever he appears, he always seems to be glowing, and always surrounded by people. “Hi everyone! Good morning!” Just like a prince, Nobu greeted everyone with great courteous. The moment Nobu steps into the classroom, Hachi ran up to him – almost like a puppy wagging it tail at the sight of its owner – and stick with him. “Hey, let’s skip school today! I don’t want to see them.” Nozomu said. “No, classes are starting soon. We can’t just leave now.” Oumi said seriously. “Agreed. You can leave if you want to.” Hikari said unemotionally. “Hey, are you guys my friend or not! I just fell out of love and I don’t wish to see Nobu…” “Why? Is he the one who stole your girl?” Hikari asked with doubt. “No… Hachi is the one…” “Huh?” Hikari is puzzled as he asked again. “What Nozomu meant was, Hachi is the one who snatched Nobu away from him~~” Oumi was nice to clear the doubt of Hikari. “I see… Wait! What did you say?!!” Hikari glanced towards Nozomu who was extremely quiet and asked. “You were with Nobu??? Why didn’t we know about it???” “Hmmm, I knew. ” Oumi looked at Hikari innocently, causing Hikari to give him a suspicious look. “So I say… Let’s skip class……” Before Nozomu could finish his sentence, the school bell rang and the teacher walks in. He has no choice but to stay obediently for class, after some muttering. To be Continued...

Today... I did few... 2 from Matsumoto Temari's artbook... For Takumi-kun... didn't do this couple... ^^;;; It's Misu & Shingyouji... 3 different... 3rd movie couple... 4&5th movie couple... and manga couple.. ^^ I did this quit some time ago... but did feel like post it... but, for you like cute thing... it for you... ^^ It's from Shimada Masako's side book... Last one is I also did quit sometime ago... only problem is I forgot where and who is artist of this picture... --;;; Enjoy!!! And for the Takumi-kun special... I have to do it later... I need little more time to think about and put them together... Also, I have to go somewhere so... See you later for that... ^^;;;

Summary:What is the most probable thing that you could think of in an All Boys High School? Friendship. Love. Hates. Detest. Competition. What could happened, if everything happens on you? How would you have taken the stress? Or maybe, was everything really a stress? Status: Complete Hi Everyone, It's me DF again and believe me, it's good to see everyone again. I hope you will enjoy this as much as you enjoyed [Diary]. This time round it's going to be different. Well, as to how different, you have to read on a notice it yourself. Synopsis:

Title: Yorube Naki Mono Manga ALT. names: 寄る辺無き者 无所依靠之人 People With No Place to Go Original run: 2008 Description: Set in feudal-era Japan, Yorube Naki Mono centers around prostitutes, assassins, and the grimier sides of city life. One night, a mysterious young man named Shikon is introduced as the newest member of Saiga's group of assassins for hire. Shikon is outgoing and flirtatious, but Saiga can sense there's more to Shikon than he lets on... A chance encounter on a moonlit night leads to two destinies awakening. Manga-type: Manga Written by: Yoneda Kou Drawn by: Yoneda Kou Published by: Taiyo Tosho Group(s) Scanlating: Dangerous Pleasure Status: On hiatus Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: No Genres: Action, Drama, Historical, Yaoi Categories: Shonen-ai, Rivalry Main Characters: Adaptation based on available: N/A Recommendations: Kono Yoru no Subete Read Yorube Naki Mono Online: Yorube Naki Mono Download link: Chapter 1 Chapter 2 Chapter 3 For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Thanks! YO Staff

We all go thru hell in this life sometimes... Be it because we can't have what we want...be it because of our health, our family, our friends, our love, unrequited or not... But it's good to know sometimes, that if we look real good you find that small light that'll give you the strenght to go thru everything once again... Be it a word, a gesture or even a moment... If you hang on to them, you'll see that in the overrall picture...we're not so bad as we seem to be... As i was doind research work on the web, i came across the most heartbreaking story of some parents, who were travelling around the world to find out bone marrow for their kid... Yes, there are a lot of store's like this around the world... Why did this one shock me? Maybe beacuse both parents were unemployed, with no money and going from house to house to beg for some pocket change from strangers to allow them to travel to other countries in other to find their daughter's saviour... They almost didn't eat, because they were saving every penny for the trips, and they didn't have a house, they were sleeping over at family and friends... Their words are still echoing in my head... " If it's for her, we'll do anything, we're so lucky o have her...She's our everything...and we'll fight to our last breath to save her..." This is true love... :,(

Sensitive Pornograph (uncensored) Anime Title: Sensitive Pornograph Written by: Ashika Sakura Genre: yaoi Number of Episodes: 1 - have 2 part Year : 2004 Plot: Part 1 : The story begins with Seiji Yamada (Voiced by: Kenichi Suzumura), a young shonen manga artist, who develops an affair with a fellow mangaka, who writes hentai, named Sono Hanasaki, who is also his favorite artist. The plot-line develops from Yamada mistaking Sono for a girl. After having discovered him to be a boy, Seiji still falls in love with him, and they have an intimate affair. Seiji becomes distraught when he learns of Sono's past tendencies of sleeping around, and for a time the two become separated. However, they eventually reconcile after Seiji learns of the emotional damage Sono has suffered as a result of being abandoned and used only for sex. Part 2 : The second part begins with Ueno, a student in college, who works part-time as a pet sitter, receiving an assignment to take care of a rabbit. Upon arriving at the specified address, looking for a rabbit named Aki-chan, he finds that there is no rabbit. Instead he discovers a young man bound, naked, in a closet, apparently a sex slave to the man who hired Ueno. Aki-chan is chagrined to realize that his lover/master has created a twist on a sexual thrill situation for himself - he has sent strangers to Aki-chan for sex before, but tricking someone into the apartment is a new twist. Aki-chan knows his master wants to watch from a distance while Aki-chan has sex with the duped Ueno. Explaining that his master will get mad if things don't go his way, and may even hurt Ueno, Aki-chan persuades him to have sex to ..... Download Sensitive Pornograph OVA: Download Watch Sensitive Pornograph Online (HD Quality): Sensitive Pornograph Online For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Well....to be honest i don't really have much talent but i wrote a little something... The characters are not known, they'r all from my head...Hope you like it. Summary : Hana is in a very complicated relationship with Shu... Then one day Shu doesnt show up to meet Hana and Hana decides to go drinking...He finds out Shu is being unfaithful and in the middle of this turmoil he meets Mina a stunning stage dancer.... Hope you enjoy(dont expect much though ) Status: Complete Warning: This fiction is rated +18! It contains strong language and explicit sex scenes. Spell…. “23:00 pm…” “What the hell am i waiting for at this hour?” “If he’s not coming then he’s not, and I’m leaving…There’s no way I’ll stay here in this cold waiting for nobody….” “It’s always like this, he’s busy, and he has work but what about me?” “For two years we’ve been in this kind of relationship in which no one gives in…I’m tired already of the empty house or the lonely hours I spend every day…I’m going to have a drink….sigh” And so I went, expecting nothing but a full glass of alcohol that could make me forget everything. All I wanted was an escape from an exhausting relationship, that seemed to last for too long already, it wasn’t working at all, but I still cared for him… But in fact, that night brought more than what I was expecting… I entered the first bar I saw, it wasn’t in a very good place but who cared I wanted to find someone and maybe, who knows be able to chat a little… I asked for a beer, but not even the beer was enough to take away the bitter taste I had in my mouth, so I asked the waiter to bring me a whiskey double(now that was going to work for sure). I kept asking one after the other, still sitting alone with nobody to talk to. I kind of analyzed the mood around me, apparently I entered some shady place, and it was so dark I couldn’t almost see a hand in front of me… I started looking around and was able to recognize something similar to a stage, it wasn’t big or very well equipped to a live performance and I wondered if there was something happening , cause it didn’t seem the kind of place to hold concerts… I looked the other way and saw a few small tables with a couple of chairs, filled with people, it toke me a second to realize they were couples, male one’s…(so I really did come to the right place uh)… if I wanted to find someone tonight not only for chit-chat it would be easy in this kind of place). The thought made me shriver… Yeah I was mad at him but did I really want to betray him, or was I just so mad to make him believe I did it? I didn’t know what to do…but the next few seconds changed everything… Shu walked thru the front door with someone I didn’t recognize…and honestly I was only able to see his face cause of the light outside when he opened the door…. I felt crushed…I couldn’t move an inch and I started shaking and wasn’t being able to stop… I picked up my cell phone just make sure and called him…If he picked it up what would I do? I tried to dial his number, he was always the first name on my phone list…I took the phone to my ear but all I eared was still the voice mail…. Was it really him? Was I seeing things? I stole another look and it was so hard because of the dark but my eyes were adjusting to the dim light and I was sure… Shu was with another man I didn’t knew… It couldn’t possibly be one of his co-workers because they didn’t know he was gay. I didn’t want to believe that he found somebody else and left me in the dark, double crossing me. My heart was about to burst…how could he do something like that to me…he left me out in the cold winter and came here with someone I didn’t know…who was this person, what did he meant to him, for how long was this going on? It was just too much for me to handle at that time…I started to feel dizzy… I just wanted to leave…but my body wasn’t responding. That was when I first saw him… “Are you alright, do you need help getting up?” The drinks started to get to me and I wasn’t able to stood up…I was shaking all over but I wanted to get out of there…I couldn’t stop my tears, and they started to fall…All the tears I’ve wanted to shed for so long began falling endlessly … “Look if you aren’t feeling alright I don’t mind taking you to a cab or something you’d just have to wait a little…” I knew he was talking to me but I wasn’t able to understand clearly what he was saying… He helped me get up and took me to some other place in the bar, with even less light… “Ok c’mon…sit here, I’m gonna bring ya’ glass of water… Boss get me some water” (he yelled at someone)… I wanted to focus on his face…to see who was being so kind to me…to see who was the person who was caring so much for me…nobody ever did…I wanted to thank him, but my voice didn’t come out I was still sobbing like a crazy person, and making a scene in a public place…Oh God what if Shu sees me? And why am I so worried about him, he surely never worried about me… “Hey look, I’m gonna leave ya here so you gotta be a good boy and behave, later I’ll take ya home or something…” He stood there looking at me, and for the first time I was able to see his face… He was perfection itself… The long black silky hair, a black kind of shining kimono and a dazzling smile…I had never seen so much beauty with my eyes… “Aren’t you a cutie…”He said while he watched me and smiled… I was dazzled, lost and confused…I could no longer figure out where I was, what was I doing, who was i… Some music started to play in the background, and the stage lights began to shine so brightly in that dark place that my eyes filled with tears hurt when I wanted to open them… I was standing just beside the stage and the lights would certainly give me away… “Shit I have to get out of here…if Shu sees me here, what am I going to do…what will he do… I don’t want to know”. A drum began to play… It was such a painful beat…It was so similar to my own heartbeat right then, that it was crushing, one after the other the strong thumping was bringing me to some other place and I felt myself being driven away by it… “Hey cutie I’m gonna have to go cause it’s time for me to dance, but don’t go anywhere, I’ll take care of you in a minute, ok?” That dazzling smile again… He went to the stage, and it suddenly dawn on me that the only thing that mattered was watching him…He was going to dance? Really…?He was a dancer…? I wanted to see…I wanted to see him…But why?! My eyes centered themselves on the small stage when a shadow took the place of the light… What I saw next left me breathless… The black figure standing so still in stage now, was till a few seconds ago holding my hand…I felt it warming just thinking about it. He started to slowly move to the drum beat, and I was lost. His face, his body…everything looked like was putting a spell on me, the way his hand moved to me felt like his previous touch was enticing my body to what more, to want his caress to want his kiss…to want his everything… Was it the alcohol, or something else…? I couldn’t help thinking what would he feel like if I touched his bare chest underneath that silky kimono…what his hair would smell like, the touch of his hand in me… His dance was so sensual, I was beginning to wonder if he was real, if he wasn’t something my mind made up to ease my loneliness… I wanted more. I didn’t want to end there, so I started drinking water to make sure my five senses became restored… And I remembered Shu…sitting somewhere in that place, watching his dance as well. I became fire inside, I wanted to scream and beat the hell out of him. But now wasn’t the time. I would ask the beautiful dancing man to take me home, and who knows maybe something will happen, and I’ll be able to get my revenge on Shu for everything he did to me. The thought of revenge made me feel powerful, and I liked that kind of feeling.. I was going to make it last for a little while longer…" Well that's all for now. I'll soon post something else to continue the story What will happen between Hana and Mina? And what about Shu, how will he react finding out Hana saw him? Stay tunned

I didn't knew that I was going to read something from you so fast... Like it... Now I'll be waiting for the continuation of this story...

Yay!!! :hamtaro-005 (23): I can't wait for the next chapter!

It's nice ..cannot wait for the next chapter )

Second Boy by Takahashi Yuu. --

"Kitsune no Yome" (chap 6-7) in the volume "Canvas ni Kuchizuke o" by Nangoku Banana.

Kannou Kissaten by Sakura Haiji here's next

Dear Destiny fate. I just finished reading your story. I definitely loooveee iiiit! The shape you gave it, the characters, I liked Daichi from the very beginning.His words are sooo sweet. I love it. Hope you keep writing. Your English is better than mine, so no worries. You're quite talented. Thanks, I enjoyed it very much. To Goki: Thanks to you also. Your help gave us the chance to enjoy it. Thanks a lot

I love the poem a loooot! And also the way Hama arranged it and matched it with the picture! So beautiful, thanks to both of you for sharing! :leaf3:

MU Chapter 1 // Chapter 2 // Chapter 3 Multiupload Chapter 1 // Chapter 2 // Chapter 3

I liked the story !! I appreciated how you made the story by their diaries ... I agree like others, great work Destiny.Fate and goki. Hope you're going to give us others stories like that !

Chapter 09 [FINALE] It feels… Just like my diary… But [Daichi] he… Rui, he’s much more direct then I am. Si thought, after reading, and while the ice cream on the Tiramisu melts. “Let’s go!” Rui said as he asked for the bill. “To where?” Si gently keeping his gift back into the box as he said. “For the countdown!” Wow! It’s already 11:40pm! Time flies! With this, Si followed Rui to a corner just around the Christmas Tree, waiting for the arrival of Christmas. “We’ve known each other for 2 years…” Rui suddenly spoke. “I still remember how we met on XXX’s web forum. You and I really hit off very well and chatting with you is really enjoyable. My original workplace was nowhere near yours, but, I requested for a transfer in order to get close to you, to meet you. But I didn’t have the courage to. I didn’t have the courage to face you.” “Why?” Am I so scary?! "Because I’m a homo." Rui said frankly. "I'm afraid... I am afraid you would discriminate against me." "Is this how you look at me? That I would discriminate you?!” Si was angry. "I'm afraid you will be like most of the people, thinking that I’m heterogeneous..." "If you really think that I am someone like that, I’m sor~~~ry; I think we have nothing to say anymore." Si angrily stood up, ready to turn away. "No, wait a minute! In fact, I... I like you for long time! I just didn’t dare say it!" Rui confessed while holding on tightly to Si’s hand, causing him to momentary unable to react. Looking at Si’s silence, Rui came up with the conclusion. "It seems that things are really as I had expected..." "Why do you have your own conclusion when I did not even say a single word?” "What?! You mean... I... I have the chance!?!" Rui momentary excitement has led him to inadvertently loosen the clutching of Si’s hand. "I... I need to get home for sleep..." as Si spoke, he tried to escape from the venue. [30. . . 29. . . 28. . ] While the crowd counts down, Rui desperately tried to catch up with the escaping Si. CAUGHT! "Let me go, there’s a lot of people here!” "No way! Unless you tell me if you like me!" "Such a disgrace!” "I want my grace, but I want you too.” At the moment, they looked into each other’s eyes. [3. . . 2. . . 1. . . Merry Christmas! ] Man-made snow filled the air, and the fireworks too, were dazzling. "…” "What? What did you say? I couldn’t hear it!" "Nevermind it’s ok then!" "Again! Say it again!” Rui is trying to use his beautiful green puppy eyes on Si. "Nooo~~~!” "Si~~~” Although it wasn’t heard, but under the dazzling fireworks, he saw the shape of his lips… “I – Like – You – Too!” ==================================================

Chapter 08 To be Continued...

Chapter 07 To be Continued...

Chapter 06 [in the restaurant.] “Is this meal your treat?” [sora] looked doubtfully at [Daichi]. “Certainly! Haha...” If that’s the case, maybe I could consider forgiving him for deceiving me. “Excuse me waiter! Give us the best wine you have here, just choose it for us. Also a set of A meal, a set of C meal, a portion of steak, make it medium well done. A lobster baked rice. And lastly… An ice-cream on tiramisu. That would be all for now!” This guy… Haha… I bet he’s doing it on purpose! Deliberately trying to make me laugh huh! “Are you trying to empty my wallet?” “I don’t usually accept invitation from every one! You should be honored!” Looking at his attire – suit and tie – and the restaurant he made reservation in is pretty high class, he should be able to afford it, no? "Haha... Now, I think we should re-introduce ourselves again! I’m Zhan Zhen Hao • Rui, 25. I have a car and an apartment. I’m currently working as the Executive Director of Advertising and Planning in an advertising company. My blood type is AB +. Oh yes, I am a mix blood. " "Oh. I’m Yang Cheng Si.” "That’s all??!” "That’s all!” So annoying… When the meals are served, Si began to eat, almost desperately; there isn’t a lot of opportunity to eat like this! Meanwhile, Rui took the advantage, to observe Si, while he’s eating. Look all you want, thought Si; I’ll just eat to my fill! When all the dishes have been served except for dessert, Rui spoke. "Where’s my Christmas gift?" “Gift??” Oh God! Damn! I didn’t prepare any! “I knew you would forget, forget it! Here, take it.” Si took over the gifts. It has a silvery white ribbon tied to 4 bows on a bronze-colored gift box. "What is this?" I had never received such valuable gift. The external looks expensive, could the gift in it be more expensive?! Rui said nothing; he just smiled and signals him to open the gift box. With high anticipation, Si un-tie the ribbon, opened the box. A… A book?!? A black book? He raised his head, looked at Rui confusedly. Is this a 'Death Note'? “It’s your Christmas gift.” What! My Christmas gift is a book?! Miser!!! Flipping to the first page, it has, but only a few words. For: Yang Cheng Si Curiosity prompted Si to flip to the second page. . . The third page. . . and so on until a blank page appears in the book. . . To be Continued...

Chapter 05 Wednesday, December 23 [Online] [Daichi: Let’s meet at the atrium of TM shopping mall!] [sora: If I didn’t appear tomorrow… Will you kill me? o_o] [Daichi: What’s going on this time? .V.] [sora: Nothing. Just that I haven’t seen him for long.] [Daichi: Tell me, between him and me, who’s more important to you? >_ [sora: What are you talking about? ?_?] [Daichi: Is it not that case?! I’ve never seen you so interested in someone before! >o [sora: Who said that?! I’m pretty interested in you too! ^0^] [Daichi: Okay! So don’t be late tomorrow! (^0^)] [sora: Alright! (-_-#)] [Daichi: Oh yeah, to let us recognize each other, let’s bring along the XXX book! =^__^=] [sora: -_-^ That’s really old-school. Hey! You haven’t told me the time yet!] [Daichi: Oh right! Seven. Seven by the atrium!] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Christmas Eve. A 15 storey tall Christmas Tree was set up right in the middle of TM shopping mall. Gentle lightings have created a romantic atmosphere. Couples also made use of the chance to enjoy a lovely Christmas Eve. Man-made snow flakes filled the air, giving everyone the feeling of living in a foreign country. [sora], currently standing at the Atrium of TM Shopping Mall, in front of the Christmas tree, thinking about that guy while holding XXX’s book. *Sighs… I know I shouldn’t do this to [Daichi]. But still, I’ll let him know that I wish to leave early today. Looking at the book in his hand, it was the same as what ‘he’ was holding on to that day. [sora] bowed his head down in depress, thinking, it’s been 6 days…… Suddenly, a pair of black leather shoes appear in front of [sora]’s eye. Who could this be? Standing in front of someone so abruptly, [sora] thought. He wasn’t in a good mood, hence he start cursing in his heart. Next moment, the owner of the black leather shoes spoke. “You are [sora] right?” [Daichi]? [sora] slowly raised his head, from the black shoes, to the black pants, his eye then remained on the XXX’s book. It really is [Daichi]! “Not looking at me?” It can’t be that he’s shy, is he?! [Daichi] smiled toward [sora]. As though he had gathered all his determination, [sora] finally looked up. “You… You…” As expected! Just as what he has imagined, [sora] – tried – to turn and ran away the minutes he sees him. Since [Daichi] had expected this, he managed to reach out and grabbed him. “Let go of me!” Back facing [Daichi], [sora] spoke unfeelingly. “I’ll let you go if you listen to my explanations!” [Daichi] knows it, if he let’s go of [sora], he might never be able to see him again! “Explanations of what?! The fact that you played me around like a puppet?!” [sora] said agitatedly. “No I didn’t! Ever since the very first time we’ve met, I had always wanted to tell you that I’m [Daichi]!! But I was in a horrible state, remember, how could I admit it to you?! I was embarrassed because you were staring at me bluntly!” I admit... I had originally intended to play a joke on you… “Since… Since when did I?! With someone all drenched up seated beside you, which retarded person wouldn’t stare at him?” [sora] blushed unknowingly. “But you looked at me as though you were in love with me!” [sora] felt the instant gush in embarrassment in him and said, “Try saying it one more time, and I’ll kill you!” [Daichi] looked at [sora] and smiled. He said gently, “Nope, you wouldn’t.” [sora] stood in astonishment. Once again, he stared at him bluntly. His eyes are beautiful! “Look, I’ve charmed you once again didn’t I? Which is why I believe you wouldn’t kill me. Haha… Now this reminds me of the first time we met.” [Daichi] spoke, still smiling. Hmm? This scenario… seems so familiar… Wh…what was I doing?! Why was I staring at him unconsciously again?! [sora] snapped back to reality. Seems to know his thought by heart, [Daichi] was first to speak. "On the first day that we met on train, you were staring at me with those glances as well. Do you know what it means?" “What does it means?” [sora] ask innocently. “It means, your glance, is filled with admiration!” [Daichi] said proudly. Idiot… [sora] thought. “It’s getting late, I need to get home.” “Late? Now? It’s only 8pm...” “I have the habit of going to bed early.” “Oh… Let’s go for supper, I’m hungry!” “Supper? Now? It’s only 8pm...” “I have the habit of eating supper early.” [Daichi] smiled brightly as he grab on to [sora]’s hand, leading him towards TM Shopping Mall. He’s definitely the idiot of the idiots… [sora] thought, and – for a second – smiled. In order to not create a scene in front of the crowd, and feeling a little hungry at the same time, [sora] hence did not mind – just for a while - [Daichi] holding on to his hand. It’s only his facial expression that shows obvious reluctance. The crowd in front of TM Shopping Mall must be wondering, why the guy in front seems to be so full of joy, yet, the one behind seems to be rather discontented. To be Continued...

Chapter 04 Friday, December 18 Dear Diary, I took a cab today, so I didn’t get to see him. I can’t believe that I took a cab to avoid him?! The fare seriously cost me a bomb; I haven’t taken one for a very long time. Is this what they call, “spend a little money, block a bigger disaster”? Frankly speaking, why do I need to avoid him? Why should I be angry? Why is everything about him filling up my whole diary? It’s too strange! In fact, I have a sudden urge to ask him if he was waiting for me when I saw him yesterday! End up I didn’t of course!... I was afraid, afraid that it was only my unrequited love… No wait, that’s not it. It should be said that I didn’t want him to misunderstand me. I guess train is the choice for tomorrow! Cab is really too expensive! Saturday, December 19 [Online] [Daichi: You’re quiet today.] [sora: I didn’t see him today.] [Daichi: ?_? Sorry?] [sora: I took the train, but I didn’t see him today…] [Daichi: … Sora?] [sora: Sigh… I took a cab yesterday, so I didn’t take train. And today, I didn’t see him.] [Daichi: 0_0 So you took cab yesterday! Why?!] [sora: Because I don’t want to see him.] [Daichi: -_-…] [sora: Hey… do you think he’s angry with me?] [Daichi: … You… You are afraid that he would be angry?] [sora: I… I didn’t! I’m just…] [Daichi: just getting more and more concerned about him?] [sora: I’m tired, going to sleep now. e_e] [Daichi: Don’t try to change the subject! .V. Say it if you miss him!] [sora: Why! Why would I miss him?! How do you know that I missed him?!] [Daichi: …] [sora: It’s entirely your fault! You told me to befriend him, told me to apologize to him, if only you didn’t say anything!! ~_~] [Daichi: …] [sora: Do you have nothing better to do, why must you be so busybody?!] [Daichi: … So, you’re blaming me now?] [sora: Nope, just reprimanding you.] [Daichi: So have you finished what you want to reprimand about?] [sora: Yup. 0_0] [Daichi: Feeling better now?] [sora: A little better. Sorry, I took it all out on you.] [Daichi: No worries, I’ve always been the trash can for you to vent your anger at. Piece of cake! ^_~] [sora: Hey! That didn’t sound very nice! But seriously, Daichi, you’re still the best! ^V^] [Daichi: Are you free on Christmas Eve?] [sora:?_?] [Daichi: Let’s meet up!] [sora: Why bring this up all of a sudden?] [Daichi: We’ve been chatting for 2 years, don’t you want to know how dashing I am? ^_~] [sora: HAHA... Shameless! *^_^*] [Daichi: So what’s your choice? I’m really dashing you know! *o*] [sora: Oh please, I’m dashing too! ^o^] [Daichi: That’s why I want to meet you!] [sora: Okay! When and where?] [Daichi: I’ll let you know next Wednesday.] [sora: Acting all secretive huh?! Fine then, Wednesday so be it! We’ll talk again. (^_^)] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Monday, December 21 Dear Diary, still… I didn’t get to see him today, and I wonder why? Did something happen to him? Will he appear tomorrow? Sigh… I’m no longer in the mood to write…… Tuesday, December 22 Dear Diary, I’m not used to it, not used to not seeing him. I’ve in fact started to miss him. I miss him when he came into the cabin and sat beside me, ha… sometimes I’ll glance at him a few times. Of course, he wouldn’t know that! Tomorrow… If he’ll appear tomorrow… I promise! I’ll definitely go up to him, let him know that I want to know more about him! I want to befriend you! Even if this means that he might see me as a pervert! Yes! That’s it! No regret! I’m feeling a little better, finally. Tomorrow! He better be there tomorrow! To be Continued...

Chapter 03 Monday, December 14 Dear Diary, I’m in a bad mood now, and I didn’t intend to write anything today… But in the end, I still wrote. I had intended to apologize to him today. I was a little happy yet a little embarrassed when I saw him on the platform. When I finally gathered my courage, decided to approach him, a lady appeared! She ran towards him, and… and… and hugged him! Damn! The train came, just in time, so I halted my steps towards him and dashed into train… And to think he had some nerves to take the seats directly opposite me. Of course, the one sitting beside him was ‘THAT’ lady! And sh… she’s holding his hands too! Argh… Fortunately, they got off one stop earlier then usual, otherwise, I might… Forget it! I’m not writing tomorrow! Never am I going to write again! Tuesday, December 15 Dear Diary, I had said that I wouldn’t write anymore, but habit is a very terrifying thing. Just like getting used to seeing him every day, getting used to him sitting next to me. I was still a little happy when I saw him today. But when I saw the lady next to him, I really wanted to turn around and walk away, but my feet were like nailed to the ground, and I couldn’t move… Watching them board the train, watching the train leaves the station slowly, watching the train disappeared completely from my eye… I leaned helplessly by the pillar behind me. The funny thing is, just when the door closes, he noticed that I did not board the train and had this… surprised expression on his face. Ha… was that even necessary? Habit is really a very terrifying thing. It seems that I have to start quitting such bad habit. Wednesday, December 16 [Online] [Daichi: Hey, you alright? You seems a little quiet today? ?_?] [sora: Am i?] [Daichi: You… give the impression that you’re moody?] [sora: Did I?] [Daichi: Yes! T^T And look! You’re giving me perfunctory replies!] [sora: Did I?] [Daichi: What’s wrong with you?! Is it because of that guy? Do you still see him?] [sora: I took a later train today, so I didn’t get to see him.] [Daichi: … Something happened between the two of you right?! Otherwise, there’s no need for you to avoid him?] [sora: I don’t wish to talk about it anymore. Let’s stop this topic! Bad habits can be quitted!] [Daichi: ?_? Bad habits?] [sora: Whatever it is, let bygones be bygones! I’ll cheer up, cheer for me too!!!] [Daichi: Cheer for you?] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Thursday, December 17 Dear Diary, it’s so squeezy~~~ Yesterday too… I didn’t expect that getting up the second train will be so pack! Got to get used, got to get used to it! Just when I was trying to move a little bit more into the train, someone rushed into the train. The train is already so packed, yet this moron still dares to try squeezing in, fighting the spaces with me?! I would of course need to take a good look at this moron! But the next moment, I regretted. I shouldn’t have looked!! The moment I see who that person is, I was like… OH MY GOD… It’s Him! God! I’ve already taken the second train but why would I still see him?! Damn! I couldn’t even get down the train even if I wanted to now. I decided that I’m not going to care about his presence, but why does this damn train have to be so shaky, and this makes the commuters shaky of course! I would rather bang on the train door than touch him! Hitting on the train door isn’t enjoyable! I bet I’m sulking by now. Just when I have the preparation of kissing the train door again, I didn’t felt any pain at all. ?_? That’s because the egghead blocked me away from the door! Grateful?! NO WAY!! He used his hand to protect my head from the door, and I could feel his breathe just by my ears… If possible, I would really wish to jump off the train! Of course, I didn’t! Fortunately, I’ll be getting off at the next station. I rushed out the door just before it was about to close, so I don’t know how he reacted to it. I think it would be better for me to not take the train tomorrow, such surprises isn’t very good for the heart. To be Continued...

Yess....I want to t:hamtaro-005 (8):tell you about a gay guy in a non-yaoi movie He is Han Tae Sun (the name of character)............. He is a very talented singer and musician.... and...he is cute and cool as well XD~ :hamtaro-005 (8): Oska is a normal man, a boasting and stubborn singer. Because he fell in love with Tae Sun's voice and style at the first time, Oska tried many ways to persuade him to be his partner (partner in work, of course ;)) Tae Sun used to hate Oska very much and even told Oska he is a gay........ he loves boys............:leaf15: but.......this cant prevent Oska from "following" Sun... after that...... many things happened in their life.....which made both of them understand much more about each other. :hamtaro-005 (23): then Tae sun gradually fell in love with Oska...:leaf15: .unluckily...it is the one-sided love... :hamtaro-005 (15): there are many BL hint in that film, really XD~ It is a great film that I want to suggest all of you

so i have been here a while but recently realized that i never introduced myself and now everytime ive logged in i just stared at the introduction page wondering if i can still introduce myself... so my name is maria nickname is susan and i live in the US though my original country is Mexico so naturally my native language is spanish regarding my personality i tend to be very straightforward and direct with some things and very shy when meeting new people (im not good with large crowds) i love yaoi and shounen ai very much so thats how i ended up here my worst skill that needs improvement is starting conversations and as for my best skill it is listening to other people's problem...umm i dont know what else to say ive been here a while and all i can say is that i love this community!!!! everyone is very friendly and interesting so i keep coming back every time so we can all share our love for Boys Love!!! im so happy i found people with whom i can talk about yaoi and they know what im talking about too

Genre: Romance/comedy Starring:Heart Evangelista, Sandara Park, Kristine Hermosa, Geoff Eigenmann, Hero Angeles, Diether Ocampo Synopsis: First story Ria (Kristine Hermosa) and RJ (Diether Ocampo) share the perfect relationship until she didn't show up on their wedding. Years after, she decided to win him back. But the indecisive and boring RJ is now the most sought-after model in town. Will their love prevail over the pain they've caused each other? Second story Cara (Heart Evangelista) never took a chance on falling in love because she believes that it will only break her heart. That was until she meets Roni (Geoff Eigenmann) but only to find out that he is the kind of man she's been trying to avoid. Will she take the risk this time? Third story Louie (Hero Angeles), a tourist guide, meets April (Sandara Park), a Korean girl who got lost in the city and is left with no choice but to pretend that she is a famous actress in her hometown only to survive. Will it be possible for two very different individuals find home in one another?

If you don't have a place just do it at home, some candles, a yummy supper, low lights and whatever that makes you happy. I'm not much into dresses but I do itwith my sneakers. I just put them on and look at them .... sorry its sounds odd??!!! I saw your fruit & chocolate, it made me want a chocolate fondue... drols...

hi hi arina welcome

You're welcome! ^^ One of best way to exples yourself is writting I believe... So I wish you keep up and do more great work and show us sometime... ^^

Sore Wa Yappari Koi No Sei!? by Miyazawa Yura. --

@hama71 thanks!

Hi hi Arina... Yep i already saw you around, but early or late doesn't really matter so... Be most welcomed to YO, i really hope you're having fun and enjoying your time here...

For just looking at the school uniforms... I like Ouran Host club & Kimi ni todoke... Simple reason... look clost to Takumi-kun's uniform... ^^;;;

Wow! I do cook but not much backing... --;;; I am not go at dancing at all... Keep up and I wonder I could see you dancing some day... ^^;;;

i see no big deal in 21st bday. you said it was for bonding or whatever you call it. ya right. and what did you mention? "how many 21st bday do i have?" Let me post you another question. "How many 20th bday do you think i have?" it's all bullshit.

It's not that hard... I think... ^^;;; I only work with paint in computer accessories program... It harder to work on but once you get used to it... it's not hard... just take some time.. --;; Well you could try... you might get good one... It's best you could use some other background and clear them with white or black or other color and just cut and paste the pictures that is all... ^^ Any way... I just hope I could keep up with what I had been doing... I still do have a lot of pictures to work on... Just getting lazy is the problem... --;;; And keep getting this cold also... T T

I just hope you like it... --;;; This image is from ani kimi ni todoke's ending... I feel this and you poem will go well together... I did want to use different color for the poem... but my brain is little out right now... so... I hope you like what I did... ^^

in 4shared(eng) ch1 http://www.4shared.com/file/fWdhGOle/Yoneda_Kou_-_Yorube_Naki_Mono_.html ch2 http://www.4shared.com/file/s-shsSRa/Yoneda_Kou_-_Yorube_Naki_Mono_.html ch3 http://www.4shared.com/file/Hrna26PP/Yoneda_Kou_-_Yorube_Naki_Mono_.html

This is a picture of a sock made in Korea. Really made my day. Just want to share with you! ^.^ Pika-DoH! :hamtaro-005 (22):

Goki, there's only one thought in my mind... YOU'RE THE BEST!!! AND I LOVE YOU!

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Chapter 02 Wednesday, December 9 [Online] [sora: The guy was getting strange these days…] [Daichi: Oh… really?] [sora: Yeah! Instead of sitting beside me, he just stood by my side.] [Daichi: …] [sora: The train isn’t full! But he doesn’t sits anywhere! He’s really a weirdo! >_ [Daichi: Then why are you paying so much attention on him if you think he’s a weirdo?] [sora: But being weird is precisely why I’d pay so much attention to him!] [Daichi: …] [sora: Hey.. What’s wrong, you’re weird too!] [Daichi: Oh… am i?] [sora: Yes you are! You’re giving me perfunctory replies. What happened? ~_~] [Daichi: Nothing…] [sora:…] [Daichi: You did not take the initiative to talk to him first, did you?] [sora: What???] [Daichi: Did you forget what I said the other day, to befriend with him?] [sora: Oh! That~! I was glad that I didn’t ask him that day! Do you know how scary his face was?] [Daichi: How?] [sora: He practically had that “Beware-Of-Guard-Dogs” aura around him!] [Daichi: !!! 0.0 And you gave up just because of this?? 0_0] [sora: Isn’t that enough? Who knows if I would get a bashing out of it! And if that happens, I wouldn’t be here talking to you, I would be in the hospital! >. [Daichi: So you’re planning to back-off now? You’re so uncool!] [sora: .V. What’s this! So you want me to put my life at stake just to talk to him?] [Daichi: What are you talking about? Is he a Murderer or something?! If that’s the case, then I think you should be more careful of your surroundings so as to not be the next victim.] [sora: Shut Up! And stop cursing me! Why do you start cursing me out of nowhere! Still trying to deny that you’re upset… You obviously HAS something going on! What happened? >_ [Daichi: Nothing much, I’m just tired from work, maybe that’s why I’m acting weird! -0-] [sora: I see! I think you should rest early then!] [Daichi: Yeah… Goodnight…] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Thursday, December 10 Dear Diary, he finally sat down today, but his face wasn’t any better. I can’t help but feel more at ease. At ease? I’m not too sure as well. But…How could I feel so at ease that I actually fell asleep?! I even rested my head on his shoulder?! What more! I was drooling?!?! I felt so ashamed!!! But he didn’t have much reaction… I guess I better move on to another cabin from tomorrow onwards! That was so embarrassing!!! Friday, December 11 Dear Diary, I wanted to go to the other cabins today. Unpredictably, I met him as early as on the platform! He didn’t seem to mind what has happened yesterday. And since I’ve been spotted, I don’t think there’s a need to avoid him… do I? If he really mind what happened yesterday, he could go ahead to have his seat somewhere else… However, he still sat right by my side. Oh god!!! What’s happening to me!?!? I’m actually… I’m actually… I’m actually glad that he is not avoiding me! I think I’m ill, seriously ill… Maybe I should ask [Daichi] what wrong with me tomorrow! Saturday, December 12 [Online] [sora: I think I’m sick.] [Daichi: 0_0 sick?! Have you visit a doctor yet? Is there any where that’s having pain or discomfort? .V. Tsk, you should be visiting a doctor if you’re not feeling well! Why are you coming online instead?!] [sora: Oh please~~~! Let me finish my sentence would you? It’s not THAT kind of illness that any doctors could cure. It’s not exactly very serious… just that there is this person who keeps floating in my mind. And when I see that person, I feel embarrassed. Could it be… because I drool?] [Daichi: ?_? You what? Drool? What are you talking about?] [sora: Oh. . . Well, on Thursday. . . He finally sat down, and maybe I was too tired, so unconsciously, i fell asleep on his shoulder. And then I drool! I’m so glad that he didn’t avoid me because of this. . . ] [Daichi: … You seem to mind him a lot!] [sora: -_-# Wh…What! I’m… I’m just…I’m just embarrassed that I drool on him!!!] [Daichi: You didn’t apologize even when you dirtied other people’s shirt?! Don’t you have any manners?!] [sora: Apologize? Do you think I haven’t disgrace myself enough yet?] [Daichi: So you prefer to have him hate you?] [sora: You… You are horrible! >. [Daichi: Whatever it is, if you don’t want people to hate you, apologize. Okay!] [sora: Yeah, right! ] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] To be Continued...

Chapter 01 Thursday, December 3 Dear Diary, it has been 3 days since the rain stopped. Things still went the same way as before... He was able to rush into the cabin just before the door closed... and sat beside me. It was 3 days ago when I first met him, the weather was pouring, which makes the train cabin looks exceptionally deserted. Feeling all emotional, I looked out towards the pouring sky. Pondering. This is how a day ended. I guess it would be the same tomorrow as well? Then, it happened. He ran into the cabin, all wet. No umbrella huh... I guess. There was this awkward phenomenon generated, so I decided to glance away from the origin. Unexpectedly, I felt a new presence beside me. Turning to face the seat that was once empty, only to find out that he was sitting next to me! I hadn’t thought too much about it, maybe shock? The tiredness from job really proves to make one forget things easier. It was the same run-in-at-the-last-minute thing that happened the next day, and unsurprisingly, sat beside me again. It was empty in the cabin! Literally, empty. So why would he want to crowd up the small little space that we’re having – a 2-seater individual seat – here? I turned towards him and happened to looked into his eye, its green, the beautiful jade green. I was staring at him unknowingly and then I felt strange, so I glanced away for a second time. It was really embarrassing when you think back. But then again, black hair with green eye; he’s a mixed blood, isn’t he? Today as well, he ran in just before the door closed on him. Was he really in a rush? Friday, December 4 Dear Diary, as usual, the Friday crowds are much more than the weekdays, but still, he was seated next to me. The point is, he’s reading the book by XXX! Except for [Daichi] and me, I didn’t expect anyone else to be reading XXX’s books! What a coincidence! Saturday, December 5 [Online] [sora: Hey Daichi! You’ve gotta hear this! Just a few days ago, I met this guy by chance. He’s been riding on the same train as me every day and even sat beside me!] [Daichi: Really? -___- and you know this guy too? ] [sora: Nope I don’t! But that’s not the point! The point is, I saw him carrying XXX’s books today! ] [Daichi: Are you serious? 0.0 ] [sora: I am! I thought it was only the 2 of us who knows how to appreciate XXX’s work! ] [Daichi: Hey, I have a suggestion! Why not, you go be friends with him!] [sora: WHAT?] [Daichi: I mean, go befriend him, and let him chat with us too!] [sora: Your suggestion sounds good…] [Daichi: It is GOOD! Anyway we have the same interest… ] [sora: Hmmm… Ok, I’ll think about it…] [Daichi: You have to act first! Talk to him!] [sora: I’ll think about it… I’ll think about it… ] [sora has just logged out. ] [Daichi has just logged out.] Monday, December 7 Dear Diary, there was something strange about him today. Focus has been kept at his watch and he seems impatient too. He even alight the train one stop earlier then he usually would, ferociously. I wonder what has gotten into him. Glad that I did not speak to him just now or I might be scolded for doing so! Luck was on my side I guess. But… He should be here tomorrow as well, right? I hope ... Tuesday, December 8 Dear Diary, there was something really strange about him. He didn’t sit down beside me today, but instead, he just stood by the panel beside my seat. My heart couldn’t help but felt uneasy. What exactly has happened? To be Continued...

That night, I barely closed my eyes. I spent most of the night exchanging messages with Pam. All of a sudden, the weight in the bed changed. “June, what are you doing?”, I heard the familiar voice. “Are you going to come here as you feel like without even knocking?”, I asked, feeling anxious. He was the last person I felt like seeing in that moment. “You don’t need to be so rude. You are my servant after all, I have the right to do what I feel like, where it concerns you.”, Laurel answered, his face a little too close for comfort. “I am not your toy!”, I admonished, feeling the anger rising in me. Laurel seemed to be quiet for some long minutes. “Is she your girlfriend?”, he suddenly asked, looking me in the eyes. I was caught off guard. Why would he ask that? “She is.”, I firmly stated. Something flashed in Laurel’s eyes and as quickly as he had come, he went away, not saying one more word. I was left dumbfounded, with no clue as to what had just happened or why. I barely slept that night, one too many reasons behind said lack of sleep.

I had avoided any kind of conversation with Laurel since I got back. The boy didn’t seem to have noticed, though if he did, Laurel wasn’t showing any signs. I spent most of the day in the garden, helping Miss Crawley. As I suspected, she was a very nice lady, always so kind, always so attentive, I couldn’t even fathom why Laurel treated her like scum. “Mister Harrington, the masters will be here in an hour, it is quite advisable if you go take a shower and change.”, she suddenly said, eyeing her wristwatch. “You can call me by my given name, Miss Crawley.”, I told her, managing a smile. She smiled back, some teeth missing. “Well then, mister June, I’m Irene.”, the old lady revealed, offering me her hand. I took the hand and she pulled me up to a standing position. “I’ll go change now.”, I said and turned to leave. Luck must have definitely been on my side. I didn’t encounter Laurel, not even in his own room, as I made my way to the bathroom adjoining his chambers. As soon as I was ready, I heard the unmistaken sound of the doorbell. The time finally came to meet the masters of the house. I went down to the entry, almost falling on the staircase. “So this is June Harrington.”, came the warm greeting. I looked up to see a young looking couple. They seemed to radiate beneath the candlelight. The woman had the same hair as Laurel, white as snow, long and straight; she was pale and had grey eyes. The man, on the other side, had dark messy hair, rebellious curls sticking out. He had a dark hairy face, his expression austere and his eyes green, like the leaves in spring. They were quite the spectacle. Laurel had clearly taken after his mother, but his messy long hair wasn’t straight, more like his father’s dark curls. He was next to the couple, stoic looking. I avoided eye contact with him. I wasn’t sure why, but I just couldn’t face him. “June, you already met Laurel, our beloved son. We know you’ve gone through hard times. We want you to know that this is your new family.”, said the lady, her voice a bit too high. “You must know, though, that we are not your parents and that you are in debt to Laurel”, I widened my eyes at that, “Yes, in debt, he was the one insisting we sign your guardianship. You are to be his manservant and assist him on his every need.”, the grave man said, his tone not quite as strict as I was expecting. His eyes seemed to pierce me though. I nodded, not meeting Laurel’s eyes yet. “But dear, you need not worry; we are not like your mother, sweet child. You will be treated with respect and kindness in this household.”, the kind woman said, her eyes not quite on me. I looked at Laurel then. He was looking at the far wall, a bit away from his parents. He looked so lonely, so… I couldn’t recognize what was it, but it made me want to hug the boy with all my heart. As if hearing my unvoiced thoughts, Laurel turned to me and smiled. Probably he was trying to stop me from worrying. I must have been frowning. “Now, June, don’t make such a face. Dinner is ready so let’s move to the dining room, shall we? Mom, dad.”, Laurel joked, motioning to his parents to follow him. “So, how old are you, little one?”, Laurel’s mother asked me when we sat. “I’m 15, my lady.”, I said, feeling suddenly shy. “No need to be so formal, child. I see you are the same age as our dear Laurel.”, she said, looking fondly at her son. The rest of the meal went on in silence.

I told Pam to meet me at the usual coffee shop. Miss Crawley’s husband, Herman, was the one who drove me there. The man had this hostile look, even though he wasn’t really that bad. He was usually quiet, rarely smiling, but he was a very calm person with a weird way of expressing his kindness. I saw Pam already waiting. Now there was someone who looked as hostile as she really was, when she was angry. Furious suited her better, considering the way her brows lined and her eyes tapered. “June Harrington, what is the meaning of this? I mean, seriously, I phoned you so many goddamn times and you didn’t even bother to send me a message until two days later! How’s that for decent? You’re unbelievable!”, she scolded me, her voice as stern as ever. “Now, Pam, I came here to tell you why I didn’t answer you right away. Do calm down, dear Pam, you’ll understand once I tell you.”, I tried to still her. She wasn’t quite convinced, but her curiosity always got the best of her. I told her as best as I could about the events of the past two days, leaving out the details where Laurel was concerned. I was embarrassed just at the thought of mentioning how I eagerly caressed his hair… held his hand… oh, god forbid I should ever let any living soul know about it at all! Pam looked considerably more apprehensive by the end of my explanation. “I’m sorry I yelled at you, Jun. It must be hard for you… don’t ever forget you have a friend here, a shoulder to cry on. I’ll do my best to support you on these hard times. But you should see the bright side of it. You have a new friend, sort of a brother, no? And I’m sure lady luck’s on your side now, after all you’ve suffered, it’s more than you deserve.”, Pam said, patting my shoulder affectionately, even if awkwardly. “Maybe you’re right, my friend, maybe you are.”, I was trying to fight the idea of Laurel being my brother. Somewhere inside me, something told me he could never be. The whole idea itself seemed ridiculous and so out of place in my head. If that was a good or bad thing, I didn’t know. “Are you going to eat that or not?”, she suddenly asked, eyeing my plate. It was a strawberry cake. “You can have it, I know it’s your favorite, besides, I’m not that hungry.” “If you say so, don’t expect me to hesitate.” She ate the cake without a second thought. That was Pam alright; straightforward she was, hardly ever hesitated. Her looks, however, betrayed her personality. She had light brown hair put up in two neat buns, held by all these sort of colorful straps. Her eyes were almond shaped and dark, dark brown, nonetheless lively, almost twinkling. Her skin tanned by the sun, she dressed quite childishly for her age. But I guess that was what made Pam unique. Noticing the scrutinizing look I was giving her, Pam looked at me defiantly, as if challenging me to dare to criticize her. I laughed wholeheartedly. She was quite the sight. “What are you laughing at?”, she asked, her eyes narrowing sharply. “You looked priceless a moment ago, Pam. I couldn’t help it.”, I tried to explain. As quick as lightning, she smacked me hard on my head, looking absolutely pissed at my comment. “That should remind you of your place!”, she said, eyeing me triumphantly. I dared not say anything else. I knew that if I did, she’d hit me again and surely harder. My thoughts drifted then, with no control over them. Laurel was on my mind, again. I remembered him when we met, I remembered him in the morning, I remembered him smiling during breakfast, I remembered his unreadable expression when I left, I remembered how soft his hair felt in my hands. Why, I asked myself, was a person like him, that I barely knew, that I had just recently met, invading my mind so easily? “Are you alright?”, I could detect the concerned tone in those words. I looked down at the table. Pam had put her hand over mine. I couldn’t help but remember Laurel’s hand on mine that morning. “I’m fine. Pam, there is something I wanted to ask you.”, I said, taking her hand in mine. I looked into her eyes at that moment. She was clearly blushing, a very rare sight. “Pam, would you go out with me?” Pam’s eyes widened, the blush spreading all over her face. I don’t think she even pondered the question.

Chapter II - Vitium (Mistake) I woke up with the first rays of light on my eyes. There was this huge window in the attic with no curtains who served as the source. I lazily opened my eyes, trying to focus on my surroundings. What I didn’t expect was to see someone else in the bed. Startled, I jumped out of the bed, my heart pounding loudly in my ears. In my bed lay the boy from the day before, sleeping so peacefully it made my heart ache. The first rays of light on his white hair made him look heavenly, like an angel. Trying my best not to wake him, I carefully got into bed again. I lay awake, watching him sleep, watching the slow rising and falling of his chest. “Don’t you know it’s rude to stare?”, came the soft reply as one grey eye opened. I held my breath, for fear of saying anything stupid. Laurel chuckled, his hand catching mine. “I’m sorry. I didn’t mean to startle you”, he said, looking into my eyes, “you see, I’ve always been alone… from the moment I knew you were coming, I felt so happy… not as happy as when I got to see you.” Laurel looked so sad. I wanted to have him in my arms; I felt the urge to do everything I could to make him smile. Weird thoughts crossed my mind then. “I’ve always been on my own too, I guess we might have a lot in common”, I reassured, running my fingers through his white mess of hair, “But… I barely know you.” Laurel smiled knowingly. “We have all the time in the world to get to know each other.”, he said, with a mischievous look. I suddenly remembered that I hadn’t properly checked my phone. Pam would be very angry at me for ignoring her. “Hum, Laurel… I have to do something. You can wait there if you want…”, I said, moving out of bed and reaching for my phone. I could feel his eyes on me. I read the two messages waiting on my phone, trying my hardest not to be bothered by the intense gaze on my back. “I have a question… actually, I have many but I highly doubt you’ll answer most of them…”, I started, not turning to face him. “You’ll never know until you ask me.”, came the playful reply. I let out a deep sigh. “Laurel… who exactly are you? Why did I come here? What do you know about me? I haven’t even seen your parents! I’m so confused… I have school you know?”, I blurted all out in one breath. “June… I already told you who I am, silly boy. Why did you come here? Well, that should be easy enough. Your mother was taken away and you were put under the wing of a new family. As for what I know about you, I know what your file said, nothing more. My parents… they’re often away on business. They’ll be back for dinner today, don’t worry. Concerning school, it was decided you will attend your old school, but I’m also coming with you.”, he explained, his voice soft. “You will? But your hair… it…”, I started, knowing very well he didn’t answer me the way I wanted. “What’s wrong with my hair? Because it has no color? Should I dye it?”, he asked, grinning. “I… no, you shouldn’t… it… it looks nice… like that…”, I whispered, hoping he didn’t hear it. “It’s quite long, I seriously think I’m starting to look like a girl… but if you like it, I’ll leave it as it is.”, I could hear Laurel saying, chuckling. I was looking at his long white hair then. It was so smooth. I wanted to touch it as before, to run my fingers through the silky mess. Laurel must have noticed me, his expression became gleeful. “Do you like my hair that much? Would you like to feel it again?”, came the odd question. I swallowed in dry. How could such a pure looking person say such wicked things? It’s not as if I didn’t want to… feel it. “A friend of mine is worried about me. I’d like to be able to meet up with her, if that wouldn’t be too bothersome.”, I roughly changed the subject. Laurel’s eyes narrowed a bit. He seemed to ponder the idea carefully. “I’ll see to it. Let’s go eat breakfast in the meanwhile. I’m sure Miss Crawley has prepared us quite a banquet. She’ll be in the garden, if you’re wondering.”, he said, not meeting my eyes. I nodded, not quite sure why my stomach was churning at seeing the sudden change in Laurel’s behavior.

I woke up to the sound of the alarm clock, with cold perspirations and the same bad feeling. It took me a while before I made myself stand from the bed. After what seemed like an eternity, I picked my phone where it lay and confirmed what I already dreaded: it was my birthday. There was only one thing to look forward to on this particular date. My aunt would come and that alone made the day bearable. Near Aunt Leila, my mother behaved as if she were completely sane. This made my life a whole lot easier, even if for the remaining of a day. I heard the doorbell and felt my heart race. Quickly, I dressed myself and dashed down the stairs, just to find my mother in handcuffs, completely delusional, by the side of a very old looking policeman. It was a wonder how he managed to have enough strength to tame the madwoman. It suddenly kicked in. “What are you doing?”, I asked anxiously. “I’m taking your momma here to jail for physical abuse of a child. This ain’t a place for you. It’s plain wrong what she’s been doing to you, kid. Your auntie, Leila was her name? Yes, she filed a complaint against this missy here, with quite some big evidence. So you see, you’re finally going to be rid of the little devil.”, he explained, his Scottish accent quite pronounced. “I see…” Two other policemen took my delusional mother away. I should have felt sad, I told myself I should, but deep inside I was quite happy about it. I felt a hand on my shoulder then. “I know it may be hard for you, kid, but she’s going to a place where she’ll be treated for what she is, with special attention.”, he tried to comfort me, but his words just made me feel disgusted. “But sir, where am I going to live now? Who’s going to take care of me?”, I asked, feeling a bit lost. “Well, your auntie didn’t sign for your guardianship, I guess she has her own handful to take care of. You’ve been assigned to another family, kid. We’ll take you there as soon as you’ve packed your stuff.” I nodded, taking in as many details as possible before turning to leave. “Oh and do be quick about it. We ain’t got all day, kid!” I didn’t talk back. I couldn’t, I wouldn’t. It was just too much. It was just fantastic too.

The lights were out. There was nobody there… “I’m such a fool… What was I expecting. He left the bar about the same time as me, and he was with that guy… He’s probably fooling around somewhere…” I walked to the room, undressed my wet cloths and went straight to shower… I turned the hot water, and it felt good against my cold body. I dressed my other suit, packed all my stuff in a small bag, I sat on the couch and I waited for him to arrive. I turned on the tv, and while i was there I felt cold again. “Shit is this really going to happen…?” As soon as I said it I heard the door open… He walked in and I could see his confused face looking straight at me. “What are you doing standing there?” “I’m waiting for you Shu… We have to talk…” “Talk? About what? And at this hour… Can’t it wait till tomorrow? I’m kind of exhausted right now…” “I know you’re exhausted…And it’s about that exhaustion of yours that I wanted to talk about…” “What the he…” “Where were you Shu? What were you doing until this late hour…?” “Where I was…? Working of course! I had a lot of problems today that I needed to take care of…why the hell are you asking me this now?” “A lot of problems at work uh? I see… Isn’t there anything that you want to tell me Shu?” “What the hell is going on Hana, why are you acting this way? You now I work late sometimes, you never complained, so now it’s no good…? I’m not gonna listen to this bullshit anymore, I’m going to bed…” That was all I could take. “I saw you Shu…” It was like dropping a bomb… My eyes acted all by themselves and I couldn’t stop crying again anymore. “How could you do something like this to me (sob)… You promised me we would always be together, (sob) even if we knew it was something so hard to achieve, we were trying, and the only thing I asked of you (sob)… Don’t hurt me (sob)…wasn’t it…WASN’T IT??” He stared at me blankly, I don’t know if he understood right then what was happening or if he was amazed with my words… “What are you talking about Hana? You saw me? You saw what… What are you saying…” “Stop it Shu…don’t act like there’s nothing behind all of this. You want every word than I’ll tell you straight to you’re face…I saw you with another man in a gay bar. Is it enough or do you still want me to give you the details of what I saw inside the bar?” At that time several possibilities crossed my mind… Was he going to ask for forgiveness, or was he happy I found out so he could dump me faster… The answer came faster than I wished. “Well ok you saw me with a guy I usually go out when I want sex, so what?” I turned pale, and colder than I already was… My heart squeezed so tight there was no room for nothing else but sorrow… “Well…Nothing apparently…Goodbye Shun…” I was already half way to the door when he grabbed my arm… “What the hell you think you’re doing, or where do you think you’re going?” “Away from you that’s where I’m going so let go of my arm Shu…” “I’m not letting go until you understand… Do you think it’s easy for me to be with you everyday, do everything with you and remain the same? It’s not! I tried to have only you but you have to understand that sex is something I need to have, and if I want to be with you forever I have to do this…” “What are you saying that I’m not enough for you, that you still need to have others on the side just in case I’m not in the mood to screw with you?? What the hell is wrong with you? I don’t want this, I don’t want this kind of relationship… I’m leaving.” I pulled out my arm and started walking away… I wasn’t going to listen to this, he was making a fool out of me… “What… You think you’re going to find someone who’ll be able to stick up to that… Yeah go ahead and find the perfect guy… There’s some news for ya honey HE DOESN’T EXIST YA HEAR ME… I bet you’ll come begging in two days…that’ll be enough. 2 days and you’ll be here at this door step, begging me to take you back.” As I walked away I still heard him scream something that I wasn’t able to understand anymore. I kept my back to him and kept walking… “Don’t worry Shun… I won’t come here anymore, even if it killed me… Goodbye.” Truly, I said that to myself more than I said to answer him… Well that's for today...hope you enjoy... :* Next time Hana is going to find Mina again...let's see how Hana reacts to sexy Mina Kisses*