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Well, I know there's quite a few fans of Mana-sama here on YO, so I thought I might as well start a nice lil' thread dedicated to him. Here you can talk about everything Mana-sama related - Malice Mizer, Moi dix Mois, Girl'E, Matenrou, Moi-même-Motie, Midi:Nette etc. Maybe you're even a Mon+Amour? And for you who somehow have managed to escape who he is - here's a biography thingy; To start off, Mana was born on March 19 in Hiroshima, Japan to two music professors. Early on, Mana's parents tried to get him to learn piano but he detested it and thought it to be "for girls". Instead he found an interest in the "abnormal". Generally Mana does not like to bring up the past, but from what we do know, he was a metal head in high school, and even got into "cosplay" (from what he calls it) as a teenager by going to his first concert, Motley Crue. By this time, Mana fell in love with rock music and bands. With his love for Motley Crue, Mana was able to obtain his very own Tommy Lee drum set as this was who he really looked up to. Eventually he changed his entire bedroom to look like a concert hall set and attempted to play just about every band instrument (drums, guitar, bass, vocals). He eventually fell in love with the electric guitar and taught himself how to play from then on until he would be able to play with various other bands around the area. The first band he really got into playing with was Ves.Tearge, but then moved on to Girl'e. Eventually, outside of high school, Mana was able to meet someone who would end up becoming a very good friend of his, Kozi. Together, Mana and Kozi performed in the band Matenrou, with Kozi on Vocals and Mana on Bass. After leaving Matenrou, Mana and Kozi became co founders of Malice Mizer, hence the start of one of Mana's biggest careers. As most people know, Malice Mizer became a hot commodity in Japan's visual kei scene. The band started out with Tetsu on vocals, Mana on guitar, Kozi on guitar, Yu~ki on bass, and Gaz on drums. Early on in the band's fast passed career, Tetsu and Gaz left. Malice Mizer had come to a point where they had become a very poor band for about a year and were on the verge of breaking up, until Gackt (vo) and Kami (dr) came into the picture. With these two key people in the band, Malice Mizer was now growing into full speed again. Malice Mizer had full potential to accomplish what they were looking for in their careers and doing it at a fast pace. Merveilles reached up to Number 2 in album charts and the concert which came shortly after the album release sold out in a record of 2 minutes. Things at this time were going great, but during the production of the Le Ciel PV, everything began to flip upside down. Shortly after, the band started getting into disagreements, causing Gackt to leave. Even more tragedy arose when the drummer, Kami, unexpectedly died of a brain hemorrhage in his sleep. Malice Mizer was now in a low point being out a vocalist and drummer, once again. In the mean time, Mana opened up his very own clothing line, Moi-meme-Moitie, and record label, Midi: Nette (Midi: Nette started up in the indies days of MALICE MIZER when Tetsu was vocalist, however MALICE MIZER signed major under Nippon Columbia by the time of Merveilles, but after Gackt left MALICE MIZER went back to Midi: Nette). Another year later, Malice Mizer was back up again to where they could produce more with Klaha as a support vocalist, and a support drummer. Klaha eventually became Malice Mizer's perminent new addiction to the band, but Kami was never to be replaced with a new official drummer in his dedication as an "eternal blood relative". The band held up until December 2001, when they decided on a hiatus for unknown reasons. On March 19, 2002, Mana was "reborn" again in a since. Mana came back into the music scene with a new appearance and solo project, Moi dix Mois. In Moi dix Mois, Mana is most definately not the innocent little doll you once knew in Malice Mizer. Personally, I doubt he will ever fully go back to what he once was. In this project, Mana even composes, writes, and directs all of his own music. The apperance of Moi dix Mois gives of a strong "death metal" yet elegant and mysteriouse feeling to it, much like the music itself. Mana shows off a more powerful side to himself with powerful guitar cords and the very own image of how he sees the band should be. Moi dix Mois is much like a world within itself, which is very difficult to describe in words. In my own belief, you cannot simply read about Moi dix Mois to understand what it is all about. One must listen to the music to understand the myseriouse dark "world" it puts you in, and also see the visuals carefully set along with the sound to get a full understanding of who Mana is. Lastly, a pic of the GOD of EGA&EGL clothing and visual kei; You can read more about him here: http://www.mana-sama.net/mana.html

“Oi punk that’s where ya wrong, cause ya see, this is my territory and no fucking homeless shit get’s to cross it unless I say so, ya feeling me…” “What the fuck, are you freaking Yakuza or some shit like that…?” “Yeah… ya can say so…” “Gramps I don’t want trouble… I just wanna get some place to crash.” “Well if your fucking language didn’t change all of the sudden…” “Th’a hell, then don’t say your freaking yakuza gramps cause that shit scares anyone off… So are ya?” “Am what, punk?” “Yakuza?!” “Why th’a fuck you wanna know? Ya didn’t tell me what the hell is wrong with ya for sleeping in the middle on the fucking street, and ya asking shit to me?! Ain’t answering brat!” “Ain’t no brat…” “Oh really…” “Fucking really, yeah…” “You got spunk kid I give ya that…” “Ain’t no fucking kid either gramps…” “Toshiro, go to convenience store in the back an get this punk some shit for him to eat… He’s gonna starve.” “Sure Boss.” “So y’are the Boss hu… This is serious shit! Are ya gonna kill me…?” “Fuck! If I’m gonna waist any bullets on a piece of shit like ya, no way…” “Ain’t gonna say that I’m not relieved…” “Here Boss…” “Give it him not to me, asshole!” “Sorry Boss! Right away!” “Hey gramps… Thanks!” “Yer…what d’a ya know… You know how to say thanks…” “Why th’a fuck shouldn’t i?! Ya gave me food, I’m fucking happy… Unless is poisoned…” “Ahahaha, like I would spend any fucking time in wiping ya off… Eat kid!” The bread was great, and the juice, which he much rather he bought beer, was turning just fine every time he drank it. “So, ya better now?” “Sure am gramps…” “Ar’ya gonna stop calling me fucking gramps, I ain’t that fucking old…” “Oh really, how old ar’ya then?!” “I’m in my best years kid, you’ll know when ya get there…” “Stop stalling gramps, what’s y’ar age?” “I’m fucking 34, I ain’t old stop calling me gramps punk!” “Shit” Y’are old… Ahahaha.” “What the fuck, talking to a yakuza like that you punk…” “Sorry gramps, didn’t mean t’a hurt y’ar feelings…” “Shut up… Eheheh…” “And that’s my line… I gotta find a place to crash gramps. Thanks a lot f’o th’a food.” “Hey kid, ya gonna sleep in here, really?! Aren’t ya going home?” “I ain’t welcomed there, besides, I got my face beat the fucking enough for one night, don’t ya think?!” “Your old man did that?” “Well, sure wasn’t mom since she lives in fucking cemetery…” “Fuck… Sorry kid.” “No prob gramps, I’m used to this kind of shit any way so…” “Say kid… Wanna crash at my place tonight?!” “The fuck gramps, ya said you weren’t a fucking perv…” “I ain’t that shit punk, I got pussy and ass dropping on my fucking feet if I wanna, why tha fuck would I want a skinny, beat up prick like ya’rself? Get a grip, just wanna be nice to ya…” “Ya for real? Ain’t gonna have to pay and shit?!” “Pay with what punk?!… Y’ar feet is half way in to a fucking grave. Just fucking come, and be appreciated that someone is willing t’a help yo freaking ass!” “Ya gonna turn me in a yakuza or some…” “Kid, never in this life would’ya be a fucking yakuza… Y’are to fucking skinny. Ahahahha.” “The hell, I beat the crap of anyone who messes with me, I’m tough. I’m telling y’a I’m strong…” “Yeah, yeah… Just come punk… I’ll lay a futon f’o ya once we get there.” “Ok, but I’ll be sleeping with an eye fucking open all night…” “Ahahh, that’s the spirit kid… Never let them get’ya…Ahahahha.” As it was said before Shouji, had a difficult life… As up today, he’ll face the battle of his life. Being in love… He yearned for it, but does love truly bring happiness…?! And, as the life paths are crossing, new things will be brought to light, right from the darkness of Shouji’s heart. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- Okei this is it for now... Hope you liked it

Title: Miracle No-ton Tadaima Zouryou Chuu! Company: Tennenouji Type: Expansion Pack Rating: NC-17 Filesize: 497 MB Note: You must have Miracle No-ton installed before applying this expansion pack Download Link: Part 1 Part 2 Note: The file contains Miracle No-ton as well For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Title:Lan Yu Country: China Language: Mandarin Subtitles: English Genre: Romance, Drama Synopsis: The movie, which was directed by internationally acclaimed director Stanley Kwan, tells a romantic and tragic love story of two men. The story is set in Beijing in the late 1980s and early 1990s, and makes vivid reference to the Tiananmen Square massacre. The film can be counted as a mainland-made movie as most of the crew are from mainland China. In the movie, Lan Yu (Liu Ye (actor)|Liu Ye), an architecture student in desperate need of money, finds himself in the bed of successful businessman Chen Handong (Hu Jun). While Lan Yu falls in love, Chen tries his best to avoid emotional attachment, showering Lan Yu with expensive gifts and even getting married. However, as the years go by, Chen soon realizes that he cannot live without Lan Yu. Watch Lan Yu BL Movie Online (HD Quality): Lan Yu Download Lan Yu BL Movie: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Subtitles For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Takumi-kun Pure credits for translation to sayasubs Download Takumi-kun Pure Movie Complete Mirror link: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 NOTE: Download all parts in the same folder, join with HJSplit and play the complete file with VLC Player. Plot: Unlike the three previous films, Pure focuses on the relationship between Misu Arata and Shingyouji Kanemitsu , which begins when Shingyouji takes the test to enter Shidou Gakuen . That's when he meets Misu and falls for him. Then we come back to the present where the sempai who admires Misu appears, bringing Shingyouji problems and jealousy . Watch online: Takumi Kun Pure For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Before I go for lunch... 3 new one... I just love the animal look... I am not really into cat but I do love the cat look in here... ^^;;; It's mix of different fanart... I can't name who is who... sorry... --;;; Get Becker... Most well known and most fanart are out there... From artbook... ^^ Enjoy! I am off for my lunch... see you! ^^

Hehe I don't mind at all chiakaiyuki! Chapter 22 of S-CONSCIOUS is up! Enjoy~ http://nezumidoll.livejournal.com/11913.html

I just don't feel good... But, if I have time latet I will do more... but, for now only this two... I got this I don't know where... but the image was by Furea... This is image from anime Kurohitsuji... Enjoy! ^^

Shibuya's stage greeting guest was only Baba-kun at first... But, Baba-kun ask Taiki to join him for that so yesterday two go together doing the stage greeting... Taiki did post two of them together... And they did eat after and talk together with the other... not only two of them... --;;; Any way... I wonder why didn't Mao-kun did ask any other cast to do stage greeting with him when he has to do by himself... --;;; And, Baba-kun... Good job, calling Taiki to join!!!! ^^ Now I wonder they will do any last everyone together and do some thanks meeting... Some people saying about they might do it... because it's Mao-kun and Dai-chan last... so they might planing on some thank you fan meeting... If that is really going to happen I this it will be the time they releasing the DVD... So this few more months to go... --;;; Any way... I just want who love Baba-kun and Taiki to know they did greeting because Baba-kun send SOS to Taiki... and they did eat and talk after that... ^^;;;

Title: Junjou Romantica Drama CD Summary: unjou Romantica: Takahashi Misaki is suddenly having some unexpected and odd problems. What started as a need for some college entrance exam tutoring has somehow led him to being romanced by a suave older man who also happens to be his big brother’s best friend. Confused by all of his brand new emotions, Misaki struggles to deal with his suddenly very odd life. And if that wasn’t enough, his suitor, Usami Akihiko, has plenty of issues of his own. A man-child who decorates his room in giant teddy bears and toys, Usami is a famous novelist who also writes steamy boys’ love novels on the side. When Misaki cracks open one of these books and reads sentences like “Usami licks every inch of Misaki’s hot body”…well, let’s just say that all hell breaks loose. they soon become lovers. Junjou Egoist: Kamijou Hiroki is a broken man, consumed by unrequited love for his childhood friend, Usami Akihiko (the boys' love novelist). Along comes Kusama Nowaki, whose name "Nowaki" means "typhoon", an orphan working his way through life since middle school. Like the typhoon he is named for, he whirls into Hiroki's life and heart, blowing all resistance away before him. Junjou Terrorist: As fate would have, Miyagi You (the professor that Kamijou Hiroki works for as an assistant professor) and Takatsuki Shinobu, Miyagi’s boss’ son AND his ex-wife’s younger brother, would cross paths. Shinobu, who says whatever’s on his mind, tries to break into Miyagi’s world, saying things like, “its destiny!” While the 18 year-old tries to invade Miyagi’s world, the 35 year-old still harbors a deep-rooted love for his late teacher. Being the Terrorist he is, Shinobu breaks down the walls that Miyagi has caged himself in, dramatically changing the Professor’s heart and demanding Miyagi take responsibility and face destiny… Junjou Minimum tells the story of Usami and Hiroki's past, showing how they met and how Hiroki's un-requited love came to be. There are also a chapters about Misaki's past. There is also a short 4 chapter story entitled Junjou Mistake/Mystique. This is set 10 years before the beginning of the other stories and follows Ryuichiro Isaka (the executive director of Marukawa Publishing Company- which publishes Usami Akihiko’s works) and his secretary, Kaoru Asahina. The two were playmates when they were young, after Ryuichiro's father took the Asahina's in and employed them. Over the years, Ryuichiro came to love Asahina, but he believes it to be in vain as he is convinced Kaoru is in love with his father. Unbeknownst to Isaka, Asahina harbors feelings for him in return. This story consists of three primary stories: Junjo Romantica Junjo Egoist and Junjo Terrorist Download Junjou Romantica Drama CD: Junjou Romantica Drama CD 1 Mega Junjou Romantica Drama CD 2 Mega Junjou Romantica Drama CD 3 Mega -Koi no Dokidoki Daisakusen- Tokuten - Special Voice CD Mega Junjou Romantica Series 1-7 - Voice Message Pack Mega Junjou Terrorist 2 Drama CD Mega Junjou Minimum Drama CD Mega For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Papa to Kiss in the Dark Anime Alternative title: Kiss in the Dark Papa and Heart - KISS IN THE DARK Папин поцелуй во тьме (Russian) パパとKISS IN THE DARK (Japanese) Genres: comedy, romance Themes: incest, yaoi Running time: 26 minutes per episode Number of episodes: 2 Ending Theme: "close to you" by It's Type: OVA File Size: 225 MB Plot Summary: Munakata Mira is in love with his father, famous Hollywood actor Munakata Kyousuke. Unknown to the public, both of them are father and son as well as lovers. When Mira turns 15 and enters high school, he faces trouble with his childhood friend falling in love with him. Also, the fact that Kyousuke is not his biological father only depresses him further. Then there is also the problem of Kyousuke probably marrying Mira's senior's mother, whose son seems to have an interest in Mira. Watch Papa to Kiss in the Dark OVAs 1-2 Online (HD Quality): Papa to Kiss in the Dark OVAs 1-2 Online Download Papa to Kiss in the Dark Anime: OVA1 OVA2 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Name: Sono Koi ni wa Wake ga Aru; その恋にはワケがある; Sono Koi niwa Wake ga Aru Author: Akiba Touko Year: 2009 Status: Ongoing (5 Chapters) Genre: Comedy, School Life, Yaoi Plot: Aoi, a first year student in all-boys high school, is a violent but beautiful boy. Viewing his good looks as a burden, he ruthlessly rejects every guy that approaches him. Until one day, Aoi notices Azuma, who’s been “observing” him quietly from the sidelines. To his surprise, Azuma’s attitude actually makes him feel safe, and he slowly fell in love?! Read Sono Koi ni wa Wake ga Aru Online: Sono Koi ni wa Wake ga Aru Download: LINK For download reupload requests, please post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Togainu no Chi Anime Togainu no Chi (咎狗の血 | true blood) Based on: Nitro+CHiRAL's game Genre: Action Drama Sci-fi Shounen Ai Summary: After being devastated in the third World War (known as The Third Division), Japan was divided in two. Several years after the end of the war, a crime organization called Vischio has taken control of the destroyed city of Toshima (formerly Tokyo, Japan's capital city), where they are holding a battle game known as "Igura". The main character, a young man named Akira, is falsely accused of a crime. Once arrested, a mysterious woman appears before him, offering him freedom if he agrees to participate in Igura and defeat Igura's strongest man: the king, or "Il-re". The story follows Akira's life in the harsh, lawless Toshima as he fights both to survive and to unravel the mysteries developing around him. (Source: Wikipedia) Download Togainu no Chi Anime: Ep 1 Ep 2 Ep 3 Ep 4 Ep 5 Ep 6 Ep 7 Ep 8 Ep 9 Ep 10 Ep 11 Ep 12 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Original name: ミューズの学園で逢おう Manga ALT. names: Let's Meet at the Campus of Muses, Muse no Gakuen de Aou, School of the muse, See You in the School of the Muse, Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Original run: 2007 Description: Outstanding student of Misonoi Campus Tadafumi Hanai of has to tutor Still's lead member Ohtsuki Yuu, who is Hanai-kun's schoolmate. A scholar vs a star! Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: Tateno Makoto Drawn by: Tateno Makoto Published by: Animate USA, Libre Shuppan Group(s) Scanlating: Countless Time Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: Only up to volume 2 Genres: School Life, Yaoi Categories: Jelaous Lover; Teacher-Student Main Characters: Tadafumi Hanai, Ohtsuki Yuu Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Futeki ni Romance, Koakuma no Sanctuary, Heart ni Goyoujin, Acid Flower Read Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Online: Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Download Myuuzu Gakuen de Aou Manga: Volume 1- Mediafire , Megaupload Volume 2- Mediafire , Megaupload For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Manga ALT. names: After I Get Drunk On You; Kimi de Oboreta Ato wa; After Indulging with You; Drunken Love; Kimide Oboreta Atoha; Maid-kun no Gohoushi na Hibi; Pet Grooming Original run: 2005 Description: 1) Kimide Oboreta Ato wa Quiet student attends drinking parties to see flirty student he has a crush on. But after drinking too much he ends up back at flirty students place and wanders into the shower with him... 2) After I Get Drunk on You, Next Deep Drink The couple from the first story return, Quiet student is feeling insecure about his experience and whether or not he's pleasing his partner. Is it time to drink again? 3) The Other Side of the Glass Iori is the adopted son of a powerful family. He is sexually harassed by his adopted brother Yoshiyuki and must present a cold face to the world. Will Ariga be able to see past it? 4) After School in the Atrium Star student Hayase invites poor Koharu to his house so he can sketch him. In the nude. Probably totally innocent. 5) Maid-kun no Gohoushi na Hibi Young butler is trying to serve junior master to the best of his abilities, but the young master only wants to sexually harass him! 6) Pet Grooming Cat-boys are roommates at a boarding school. Manga-type: Manga Series Written by: MINAMI Haruka Drawn by: MINAMI Haruka Published by: Biblos (2005); Libre Shuppan (2008) Group(s) Scanlating: Countless Time; Dangerous Pleasure; Shattered innocence Status: Completed Completely Scanlated: Yes Completely Translated: Yes Genres: Romance, School life, Smut, Yaoi Categories: Doubutsu-gata; Master-Slave Main Characters: Ariga x Yoshiyuki Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: It Is That You Taught; Smoker Read After I Get Drunk on You Online After I Get Drunk on You Download After I Get Drunk on You Manga: 4S Download link for non-members For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Directors: M2M 3: Versus Directors: José Dela Rosa Release Year: 2008 Country: Philippines Language: Filipino Genre: Drama Runtime: 48 min Summary: Versus is a tale of two male hunks undergoing the different stages of realization and of falling in and out of love. Their story reels off in their minds and is carried out in a rather sensual and provocative manner. Note: for mature audience Download M2M 3: Versus Movie: M2M3: Versus What actually goes on...? And what are the complexities in the process of carrying out, staying in and moving on from this kind of relationship? Masterfully crafted as the previous M2M features- this video shows the intricacies and dynamics of male to male relationship. For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Summary:I never thought of writing anything again, but since i was sick in bed for more days than i thought i could manage, this came out somewhat, naturally... I have to say this, because i wish to be the most honest possible in this kind of situation. The story will be about yakuza, and has a lot(really really really a lot) of faul language and violence. It is not a sweet story. Don't expect(please) the same as Spell... or anything alike. I just wish you like reading it... Well, if you end up really reading it... Well enjoy Status: Dropped[/color] Warning: This fiction is rated +18! It contains strong language and explicit sex scenes. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- How would you describe your life….?! Good? Not bad? Great…? Awesome…? For Shouji, his life is probably, your worse view of life, your worse nightmare… Even so he goes on living, one day after the other like the river that no matter the obstacles, still flows into the sea… His story is like so many other stories of struggle, pain, loss and love… Love… He never really knew how he yearned for it… Does love truly change anything…? Isn’t love just an illusion, a shadow, smoke that floats between your fingers never getting thick enough for you to grab a hold of it? Shouji had a miserable life, indeed… He could however, and against all odds, find the smallest amount of happiness, in what people nowadays, despised, or better, didn’t pay attention to anymore… A 19 year old guy that works for his food, get’s beaten up, as soon as he get’s home… Money snatched away, days starving, sleeping in the streets, bleeding, always bleeding, inside and out… This is one of those daily times when, as soon as he steps inside his broken down home, his somewhat father beats the hell out of him, asking for all the money he battled for during a hard passing day… Money that, every time he try’s to say he doesn’t have, he get’s smashed against the floors and walls, until he gives up… “Shit, that mother fucker got m’a face again…Fuck!” These were his days and his nights… Telling his story doesn’t mean that you have a lesson to learn or that this is meant to show you the inner strength of someone, who all his life had nothing, but each day struggled for survival… The sort of thing he has to go thru, the situations he manages to escape, getting beat and beating the people he despised the most, were his reality. When reasoning wasn’t enough, his fists would work on bringing people to an understanding… “Hi there kid… Wanna win some cash… It’s easy money, wanna come?” “Ya old fart get your stinking hands the hell away f’ram me, ya sick fuck… If ya want someone to suck your dick go to a fucking whore house. Damn bastard…” The pick up lines were always the same, he knew them by heart… It would be so easy to win a warm bed, and some cash to eat the day after… But he never gave in, no mater how hard it was… “What the fuck… Am i that fucking good-looking or something… Shit, bastard, mother fucker… gotta find another place to crash now…” After rejecting a guy’s advances he always had to find somewhere else to sleep… Even if it was the street, the places he could lay his head in peace were not many. He kept looking up to the sky… The emptiness of the large space, made him wonder many times if his heart wasn’t in a similar state… Cold and empty… Usually by now his eye lids would start to become heavy, and he would fall asleep… Today however, something deep in his mind wasn’t allowing him to have the usual peaceful break. He never felt sorry for himself. He tried the best he could, he would battle the hardest his body allowed him to, it just wasn’t easy. The young boy, had strong health but faint feelings… All was sadness and pain. He prayed for the joy to come, at least for a bit, each and every night. If not joy, at least the emptiness… Felling nothing was better than to feel too much. The tears were not from the pain of his bruised and damaged face, no, these tears recalled long ago pleads, pleads he never got an answer or seen fulfilled. This pain was an old one, the times he remembered his mother were always the worse. Remembering the woman who died protecting his life, and left him alone to face the harsh world of guilt and blame surrounding him. He never asked for it, never asked to be saved, however, he was, and is now, living the twisting, painful despair. How many times did his father blame him? How many times did he get hit for that same reason? How much guilt and cruelty can a child bear within his heart…? He heard a car stop… “Shit another fucking lunatic… This one I ain’t gonna forgive, I’m gonna kick his balls so damn hard he’s going to forget about getting laid in no time…” “Hey kid, do you have a light?” “What th’a fuck do ya want you sick freak…?” “Wow wow, calm down boy, I’m just asking for a fucking light.” “You fucks all say the same damn fucking thing…” “Wah… Ahahhah, ya think I’m a pervert, oh damn I didn’t laugh this hard in quite some time… Shit kid, ya really funny.” “Funny my ass you asshole… I’m outta here…” “Hey kid wait, wait… What are ya doing here at this time…? If ya hate those fucking perverts bastards this is not the place f’o ya kid.” “What the hell. Do ya wanna get your face smashed?” “Y’are a feisty one…eheheh… C’mere kid, I ain’t a pervert, just come…” “What th’a fuck do ya want…?” “Talk. Just sit there… Are ya hungry?” “Fuck do ya care?” “Well I don’t, just asking…” “I’m fucking starved, if y’a have some with ya give me… pretend I’m a homeless or something…” “Well, aren’t you fucking homeless…? If not what th’a hell ya doing in a place like this in the middle of the fucking night?” “Ain’t your fucking business…?”

I believe every one have one or two of skillful hobby... Well don't think this skill mean too much... Something you do better then other is skill... It could be simple thing or it could be some thing complicated... So I will start with mine... I love to do almost any things with hand... making or reforming... decorating... cooking... so on... ^^;;; Someone may see my posting about Mao's gift... I make jewelry... some things like... this... and this... also I used old cloths to make some things like... this.. and this... I also do like this... This was about 4years ago Valentine's Day... I also made a pots I used to hold fruit sticks... ^^ There are still more I can do... but, I better stop here... ^^;;; So every one... What is your skillful hobby you have?

At the suggestion of a forum member (thanks again for the suggestion dear), I have decided to implement a new system to help new users to better integrate in the community. We have to choose between these 2 systems: Kazoku or Sempai/Kouhai Kazoku System Kazoku system is a family system. We will create small groups (of 5-10 members) that will become a "family" and we will assign them a family name (eg: Ryuiichi kazoku, Senji kazoku etc.) In each 'kazoku' we will have a kazoku leader, who will maintain the family relationships and will create contests or games among the family members. Inside of the kazoku, the members can discuss anything (problems/hobbies etc.). To sort newbie into a kazoku, we will open a thread in the introduction section. On that thread, newbies can register themselves and share their hobbies/gender/language etc in order to help us sort them into a kazoku. We can choose his/her kazoku bases on his/her hobbies or anything else that fits in a kazoku. After a certain period we can make an award for the kazoku (eg: most active kazoku/ innovative kazoku) Senpai/Kouhai System In this system, we will choose a group of Senpai from the veteran users. We will open a thread in the introduction section in which new users (kouhai) can register themselves and where they will tell us a few things about themselves (hobbies/gender/language etc) in order to help us suggest them a Senpai. We will then choose a senpai to a kouhai based on their hobbies similarities. The senpai must be warm and friendly with the kouhai, taking care of kouhai, and even become a guidance/mentor to the kouhai.... Further Details (Thanks to Angel0fS!n) Sempai-Kouhai system --> What is it? it is a system to let YaoiOtaku forumer to be more interact with each other. --> How does it works? 1) We need a sempai(Veteran YO forumers) and also a kouhai(newbie). 2) A newbie (kouhai) register himself/herself on a "sempai/kouhai thread" Of course those who wanna be a sempai can also apply to be sempai in this thread: We need sempai (link is not available until further notice) 3) On that thread, he/she has to tell us, anything about him/herself, then, Sempai/Kouhai System's admin will pick a Sempai for him/her. 4) Sempai then can greet his/her kouhai via PM/VM/chat. 5) Both of them are allow to use any language they want, while on their conversation, as long as both of them understand that language. 6) kouhai/sempai can ask anything from his/her sempai/kouhai regarding forum function or Yaoi-related things (eg: manga, anime, opinion, suggestion or whatever it is as long it doesnt' break forums main rules) and even learning his/her sempai's mother tongue. 7) Both of them are allowd to use PM/VM/chat as a medium to chat. 8) After a few months a kouhai can also apply to become a sempai to his/her new kouhai. ================================================== ================ Here are additional info regarding those systems... Kazoku system --> what is it? same as sempai-kouhai system: to let YaoiOtaku forumer to be more interact with each other. -->How does it works? 1) 3-6 groups called 'Kazoku' 2) Anyone who wanna join must register first in order to sort him/her into a Kazoku. 3) A random family member is selected to be leaders of Kazoku.. after a few months an election will be made among family members to select their new family leaders. 4) Head of family will be a moderator of each kazoku. he/she will do anthing to let his family members having fun, by creating games/contest/riddle for the family members. 5) Each month, a competition/contest will be held for the Kazoku to compete with other.

Summary: A summer night where two people start to say goodbye. Status: Complete Some crappy stuff that came to my mind while recording books data, listening BDSK "Stand by U". Hope you like it.... His hand is lying on my hip, his head on my shoulder. He’s pressing his hot body against mine. I feel his breath rhythm on my ribs, my own breath at his pace. I switch off the TV; the house is dark, quiet, and lonely. A gentle breeze comes through the open window bringing the scent of the last days of summer. Touching his hair I wonder why this man cares for me so much. Why a man like me can’t fall for a man like him. He gets closer, if that is possible. His warmth reaches my face, his hand up to my chest. He says my name. I try to breath, to run from him but I can’t. I don’t want to lose him. He knows me, my weakness, my strength, my body, my fears. He raises his head, sleepy, his eyes fixed in me. •”You’re cruel” he says. Yes, I know I am cruel, I know I am because I want to keep you by my side, because you fade my loneliness away, because you spoil me. He closes his eyes again, letting me go. I kiss him. I know I’m cruel and I’m sorry for it. Just let me be selfish before I have to let you go. The gentle breeze becomes a cold breeze so I cover him with the blanket I have been using. I caress his hair wishing things were different. I go to another bed and wait for the morning to come

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Hey there Here's part two, hope you like it. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- As they stepped out of the black car, Shouji couldn’t help and stare... Everything was big. Big car, big house, big trees, even big fucking body-guards. “Hey Boss, this is y’o house?” “This’s where i live yeah, why?” “What th’a fuck!! Ya live with a fucking army or something?!” The line of people standing at the entrance of the house was in many ways overwhelming and scary as hell. He was shaking all over... The guy had been friendly, but you always have to be aware of a yakuza. You never turn your back to them... You may be dead the second you do. “Hey Boss, ar’ya sure that’s ok me being here?” “Wh’ya asking?” “Cause these fuckers keep giving th’a fucking look, that’s why!” “Ahahah, never mind them. Besides it’s their job to be suspicious of anything different... I would take care of them up if they didn’t!” “Th’a fuck!! You would kill y’ar own people?! You yakuza are freaking insane, i tell’ya...” “It’s m’a fucking job punk!Don’t forget that!” “Sure... Ain’t forgetting!” The inside of the house was even scarier than the outside... Shouji kept looking around wondering how in the world people could manage to own so many stuff, and still not being happy about it. “This look like a fucking museum...” “Ahahah, it’s just a bunch of old stuff kid. But don’t ya dare lay y’o fucking paws in anything, am i clear?!” “Yeah Boss, who th’a fuck wants old stuff anyway!” “Yeah, ya better...” Walking around the house, Shouji kept looking like a lost kid to everything around him, but what called his attention were the pictures hanged in every single wall of the house. Old pictures, modern ones, he felt like he was learning the clan history just from looking at the vivid contrast between the withered and the new photographs. “Hey Boss, is this y’oself?” “Yeah... i look like shit though, ahahahha” “Eheheh, ya do... a little.But you sure look like... handsome, with th’yo hair combed like this, don’t even seem look th’a same person...” Shouji felt his face warm up, when he looked attentively to the man’s face… He never called anyone handsome, nor did ever say a girl or a woman was pretty. His harsh life, didn’t allowed him to have that kind of thoughts. All men were perverts and women unreachable, because to him, no one would want to have so much for love a piece of shit like himself. So why wasting time in shit he couldn’t change. He liked a girl thru his years in high-school. He never confessed. He didn’t like her face, nor her body. She was nice to him. She would greet him when at school, and would talk to him about unimportant things. He felt happy when she did. Shouji’s mother died when he was a first year in high-school. Until then, Shouji was what you could call a normal kid, his parents were poor, but they managed. His father, was still the biggest piece of crap alive, he wouldn’t work, he wouldn’t do anything, but he never bugged Shouji. The only thing that hurt him was seeing his mother go thru all the shit with a smile on her face. How could she?! Shouji asked himself that question many times. He tried once to ask her, why wouldn’t she leave the asshole, but the answer she gave only made him more furious… “I love him Shouji.” That son of a bitch didn’t deserve her love, he didn’t deserve her, he didn’t deserve anything she would do for him… But he had to understand that she was happy like that. He had to let it go. Shouji’s view on love, was that it was waste of anyone’s time. Something you shouldn’t give much though… and even something you should forget. Calling a man handsome shouldn’t be much of a big deal, so why would he feel disturbed… He decided to drop the thought. “Shut up.... I was forced to take th’a damn thing, dress this stupid thing and comb m’a hair... If i didn’t dad would kill me...” “Y’o dad?! Is he the head of th’a family?!” “No punk i am... Dad got shot two years ago... I had to take over...” “Sorry Boss, i...” “Never mind that. Let’s go, gonna ask Mimori-chan to lay a futon f’o ya...” “Mimori-chan?!” “Kind of like th’a house keeper. Wha… think i was the one cleaning this gigantic fucking house?! Ahahhaha!” “Course not Boss! I knew ya had like people to do that kind of shit f’o ya... I ain’t stupid...” “Ehehhe, messing with ya kid... “ “Welcome home Kai-sama... “ “Oi Mimori-chan... Eheheh” “Kai-sama, even if you’re my master i won’t allow you to treat your elder like your best friend... Behave boy, i’m still able to spank you enough to put some sense into you.” “Always so harsh Mimori-cha...” “Kai-sama...” “Ok ok, never mind y’o my favourite obaasan, so sorry if i want to spoil ya a bit...” “Watch your language; you look like you were raised on a dog pound...” “Ahahhaha, weren’t i?!” “KAI-SAMA...” “Sorry Mimori-SAN, just having a bit of fun...” “So what’s this... another stray dog you brought home?” Pointing at Shouji who didn’t really like to be called a dog, the truth was he looked like shit. Clothes all dirty and bloody, not to mention he looked like he got hit by a fucking train… He gave a quick glance at the man before him, at the screaming difference between them made him blush again… He looked like a dirty rag, and this guy looked like an elite. He felt bad, so bad he couldn’t hold the words bursting from his chest… “What th’a fuck do you want obaa-san…?! I ain’t no fucking dog, ya ear me…” “Wah… Is that a way to talk to an elder… You’re really a stray dog and the worst kind there is.” “Hey, hey… drop it! Mimori-san, please arrange a futon for the lost dog here, and prepare a bath… If he’s sleeping here I wanna get rid of the smell first, ahahah.” “Bos…” “As you wish, Kai-sama…” As soon as the old lady went on her way Shouji kept his eyes on Kai. He looked a bit dazzled, but a bit confused as well… “What is it punk?!” “Nothing…” “Nothing huh…” Truth was Shouji’s was hiding his embarrassment. He was feeling too self conscious, and the fact that for his 19 years he looked like he was 15. He stooped growing at some point, and he hated that, he was very skinny because he couldn’t have proper meal, and that made him hate his father even more. It was all his fault, all the evil in the world was his father fault. “What’s wrong kid, what’s with that face?” “I said it was nothing, just drop it… And don’t call me kid, I’m almost 20.” He didn’t know why he told him his age. The desire to tell him, unconsciously made him blurt that shit out. He wasn’t boasting, but for some reason, he wanted him to know. “Oh… so you’re almost 20… I see. Then how many do you really have…?” “Ain’t telling…” “Punk I told ya my age! Spill it!” “Why should i?!” The man came closer… Shouji noticed he was really big, compared to him he was a giant. He had a big body too, he must be muscular… But what made Shouji gasp were his eyes… Boss was wearing sunglasses at night, Shouji could never guess what were behind those lenses, and the photographs were black and white… The water coloured eyes the man had made Shouji step back, and turn his head away… It was just too much… He wasn’t expecting it. It was just a guy… Just another fucking guy… So what the fuck was wrong with him?! “Are ya spilling it or not…?!” Shouji had his pride, but not to the point of keeping refusing a yakuza… “I’m fucking 19! Now back off!” He may sound tough, but he couldn’t stop shaking… Was because of fear, or those eyes that felt like seeing thru him…? “Oh… 19! Good age… But why should I back off?! Are ya scared of me?!” The man said the line with a snicker hidden behind the words, but Shouji felt shaken by them. As soon as he tried to face the man standing before him, his body froze. He never felt that way. He felt disgust, he felt powerless… And he hated it… “Well, 19, almost legal age, that’s cools right?!” Somehow the guy backed off on his own, and in some fucking weird way was somehow giving the feeling he was disturbed by something. Shouji felt relieved, but not safe yet. There was something strange there, he couldn’t bring himself to name what the fuck was. The air between them became heavy, and looking to the broad back the man showed Shouji decided to let himself find out just what the fuck was going on. “Yeah, almost fucking legal… Not that it will change any shit though.” “Why don’t ya change your fucking life kid? Get a job…” “I have a fucking job!” “Oh yeah, doing what?!” “I work at a restaurant, I’m sort of a all kinds of job guy… I do what people need, I clean, I help waiter, I close the shop, I buy shit… ya know… restaurant shit!” “Ahahah, I see… That’s a good job kid!” “Stop calling kid, fuck…” “Well ya look like one… I would bet my fucking head saying you didn’t have more than 15 ahahahha.” “Don’t laugh! I know I’m short, and I know i look like this, but I ain’t getting any of this shit…” “Hey, c’mon slow down punk… Just messing with ya… Ya really look like a kid ya know that, then ya gotta understand why people messes with ya…” “I ain’t got to understand shit…” The man came closer again, Shouji felt endangered… “Look, let’s put this way then…” He put his hand on Shouji’s shoulder and the younger man felt like something being stolen from him… Was it his strength?! Were did it go? He felt numb. The man’s hand was big, heavy, but warm… “What…?!” “I’ll call ya…. What’s y’or name really?!” “Shouji!” “Well Shouji, I’m Kai, nice to meet ya.” For a moment there, all Shouji could see were green sparkling lights, hovering him… He saw nothing else… He forgot to answer… He was lost in the deep green colour of Kai’s eyes. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That's it for now... Thank you for reading Big Kiss :*

Some photos of GII x TAKUMI

I was trying to put some meaning did you get it? I am watch you! and you are in my hand! get it?

Don't alway go for you stomach to give you signal... if I wait for that I end up don't have strength to eat... --;;; Alway see the time and when it's time eat... Even I said this I still not eat... --;;;;

My hobbies are= writing letters (Ive about 30 pals) reading poems/fan fictions embroidery :hamtaro-005 (10):

yeah me too...energy level is draining...=='''

Then maybe take a bath... to relax you body and mind for now...

Both of you go to sleep!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Welcome to the forum! :hamtaro-005 (10): I'm pleased to meet you! Have lots of fun here!

wuahh...LOVE IT!!!...gosh im so curious to know what happen next... wuwuwuw...Bella im sure u will do a great job again.. please Bella...amaze me again...*really cant wait*

waiting for it.....

Hi SailorRishi! Welcome to yaoi otaku! :hamtaro-005 (12):

strawberry panic and maria sama ga miteru. I do not know if this is or is not yuri but punipuni poemy, kashimashi girl meets girl, sitoun. not sure on this one but kiddy grade.

I am glad you like it... Oh... so you like them too... ^^

Others photos of my day in Venice

"Rakka Sokudo" by Fujiyama Hyouta.

my current desktop background *tehe*

I am very picky with cosplay images but when I do find them...I can't stop spazzing about them. they're so awesome! The best Hiroki Kamijou cosplay EVER...(Junjou Egoist) No one even comes close to this one. Really captured Hiroki so much. a living breathing Hiroki. It's not easy to find a very good Nowaki Kusama cosplay but this just might be my lucky night. Another challenge is finding a very good Misaki x Akihiko cosplay where you can actually appreciate the age gap. (Junjou Romantica) Now THIS totally blew me away. This has got to be the most awesome and the best Yuki and Shuichi cosplay ever done in so many years. I've been a fan of the series for so many years and to see this achieved, I feel so amazed. (Gravitation) Two versions of Hiroshi Nakano captured like no other. (Gravitation)

I found Lee, Sung-gi was at Smap X Smap Japanese show... here is clip... enjoy! ^^ http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=JHQDDyzOBhU

Thanks very much hama71 more pictures today :hamtaro-005 (19):

True! Cute but dangerous LOL

Chapter 21 is up now (had trouble with LJ for a few days) http://nezumidoll.livejournal.com/11557.html

Iason X Riki from AI NO KUSABI ohhhhhhhhh they're soooo Amazing =3

Its nice to meet you too Sara. We are excited to have you here with us. Enjoy your time here. ^_^

Hi Sara! Welcome to the forum! Hope you will have a great time here with us!

You're welcome Angel! (: I'm working on the Arcade now to add more games Sorry to hear that! Good luck with your exams!