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Hello everyone! I know that some of you have been patiently anticipating another chapter in Pureness. It has been awhile since I posted my third story 'Lies and Truth'. I would also like to thank everyone who has made Pureness reach up to almost 5000 views making it the MOST visited thread in the Library of Romance. Thank you so much from the bottom of my heart. You all inspire me. I am eternally grateful. I now bring you to the 4th story of the Pureness series that focuses deeply on the romance between Misu and Shingyouji. This is going to be short and sweet and yes, I'm going to veer away from the heavy drama for the mean time. I hope you enjoy. Thank you. I'm still working on another Pureness fic after this. IGNITION The story so far: How Shingyouji finally discovered Misu's first name. But before we begin with the story, let's reflect on this image and you'll see why I chose this image to visualize this story. “Hey Shingyouji-kun...great moves! We really should spar next time, okay?” the senior student Masato waved at the freshman who was hurriedly leaving the dojo. Shingyouji could only manage a slight bow and ran off towards the school building. Ah damn it...I hope I make it in time when he leaves the classroom. Please, please, please still be there. Shingyouji didn't even want to look at his watch anymore. Even while he was in the dojo, though he was physically present, his mind wandered off to his ultimate goal for the day. Tsk..not just for the day but has always been since he began his first day in Shidou. Yes, finally he made it! But it had been a week of failed attempts at trying to get to the one man he most desperately wanted to meet again. The one man that he believed will change his life in more ways than one. Misu was not an easy man to reach as he had imagined. He wiped off the sweat from his brow and his neck with his blue face towel and gasped for air. He looked at his watch. He leaned back heavily on the wall and breathed in deep for air. Yosh...just in time. Misu's class was going to be over in five minutes. He had memorized what he planned to say when he meets him again. The anticipation was eating at him but no way he was going to mess it up. He was determined to meet him today no matter what happens. The grandfather clock marked the end of the class which was in sync with Shingyouji's watch. He could hear his heart beat loudly and it hurt his head a bit. His eyes were like a hawk as he scanned the face of each student that walked out of the door until finally....there he was. He paced himself as he made a bee line from the students who were walking across the hall and walked towards Misu who was having a conversation with the professor. He saw the professor leave Misu alone shortly afterwards. Now..this is my chance. As soon as he came upon Misu face to face, he suddenly felt all the words that he had worked on these past few weeks drifting away from his mind. The way Misu gazed at him was enough to freeze fire, Shingyouji thought. “Ah, Shingyouji Kanemitsu, right?” Misu smirked. “Yes.” Crap say something more, you idiot! Shingyouji yelled at himself for being so dumbstruck in front of Misu. “So what brings you here?” Misu examined the boy standing in front of him. It was obvious that he was nervous. But the eyes that stared back at him had a determination that was undeniable. Those same eyes that struck him when they were at the cafeteria. Shingyouji inhaled deeply and composed himself. “I came to see you about that promise you made.” “What promise?” Misu frowned. Wow...he's determined indeed. “You said that if I made it here to Shidou that you would tell me your first name.” Oh God...oh god...Shingyouji could hear his heart beating loudly. “Are you telling me, you came all the way here just to ask me that? You could have asked it from someone else and that be the end of it.” Misu shrugged. But he felt a bit intrigued upon seeing the frown on the boy's face. “I know I could have but I don't want to know it from someone else or anyone else here. I want to know your first name from you.” Shingyouji was not breaking his gaze at the taller man who stood before him. Was that a smile in his eyes I see? Shingyouji wondered if his eyes were playing tricks on him. Or was the man going to play a trick on him again like last time threatening that he would expose him for cheating at the entrance exam even though he did not cheat. He would have but he couldn't. What was Misu thinking right now? Misu sighed. “Fine. Follow me.” They walked together across the hallway and climbed the stairs. Shingyouji walking closely behind him. He could not help himself but admire how Misu's back looked and his broad shoulders. How he walked with a quiet confident air around him. Like he had it all figured out. He wished he could walk like that. He remembered his grandmother telling him one too many times, he sometimes walked like a scruffy little kid. Maybe he should try walking like Misu one of these days. It could do wonders for his posture. He smiled at the thought of that. Misu dug into his pocket and took out a key then opened the door. Shingyouji read “Executive Room” at the door and wondered what in the world was in store for him inside but before he could make a coherent thought process, he felt Misu's hand around his wrist and pulled him inside. The door shutting behind them. All he could feel right now was being pinned on the wall and seeing Misu's smug face so close to his. He felt his heart pounding loudly in his head again. Misu's firm grip on his wrist remained. “So you came all the way here for a promise you think I made that time. Did it even occur to you that I was just messing with you so you could leave me alone?” Misu's voice was dripping heavily with sarcasm. “No. I always believed that you were the type of person who never backed out on his word.” Shingyouji's lips began to quiver yet it wasn't fear of Misu that was gripping him at this moment. It was anticipation and the fact seeing the man so close to his. “Very well. But then you should know I'm also the type of person who won't do anything for anyone unless something really good was going to come out of it.” The tips of their noses were now touching. Misu could see Shingyouji's eyes were glazing. He could barely keep his eyes open anymore. He could feel his wrist weakening from his firm grip. And then it happened. Misu's lips descended upon Shingyouji's lips in one swift move. There was something about the freshman that ignited Misu's possessive streak to unexpectedly surface. He originally only intended to pull a little prank on him but what made him want to take this boy under his control was wreaking havoc in his mind. His tongue demanding swift entrance and Shingyouji granting him full access. The kiss was hard, demanding, and deep. It bothered Misu a bit that Shingyouji seemed a bit too eager and enthusiastic with the kiss. Damn it, this is not his first kiss. And with that infuriating thought, the kiss only became even more impatient and rough. He could feel Shingyouji clutching tightly onto his arm with no hint of a struggle. His defenses have weakened a long time ago. Misu's hand deeply pressed onto Shingyouji's cheek, his ear, his neck. He could feel the soft hair in between his fingers. He could hear the soft moan coming out of him. It drove Misu mad with lust. Right there he decided he was not going to allow anyone come this close to his pet or they would suffer the consequences of his wrath. “You still want to know my name?” Misu nipped at his ear making Shingyouji's knees buckle. “Yes,..please..” Shingyouji could only gasp in response. He felt a bit impatient with the momentary pause from their kiss. He felt like he could drown in the kiss alone. He didn't want to stop. He wanted to keep going. What in the world possessed him to cling onto him so much and so readily at that? A deep sense of wanting to be possessed by Misu was overwhelming him beyond belief. He has never ever felt this way before. Never been kissed this way before. Whatever admiration he must have felt from the moment their eyes met the very first time was now engulfed with emotions much deeper than that. Misu's hand began to snake down Shingyoji's nape making the other boy arch his neck granting him even more access. He could feel butterfly kisses run down his neck and towards his collarbone. His fingers quickly unfastening the top button of his white shirt thus exposing his skin to Misu's mercy. Their breathing were fast and furious. Each one anticipating the other one's move during the entire seductive process. “Oh god..” Shingyouji gasped as he felt Misu suck in deeply into his shoulder. He felt his body shaking from the mesmerizing sensation. He bit his lower lip as he squeezed his eyes shut only to open them again as once again he found himself gazing deeply into Misu's eyes. And there it was Misu's lips began to form the word that he had been dying to know all this time. The one word that has been one of the causes of his sleepless nights. “Arata.” Misu whispered huskily into his ear. To Shingyouji it sounded like an endearment. A secret only the two of them could ever know. Misu gently lifted his chin and outlined Shingyouji's lower lip with his thumb neither of them breaking their gaze upon each other. “Arata-san...” Shingyouji smiled.

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Your eyes have pierced my very soul Your lips have made me yours. You touch has made me lose control It’s reached into my core Your voice has made me fall again Into a world unknown I know I’m always near you then Yet I still feel alone Your kiss I feel it on my skin Its better than a dream Could this be yet another sin Or more than what it seems. Your hands have found my very heart To reach it has been tough But as I feel the caressing start I cannot get enough. You’re song has reached into my ears The harmony so sweet I wash away my doubts and fears We were destined to meet

It was ssssooooooooooooo good! I almost died??? Hehhe...

OH MY GOOOOOOOODDDDDD!!!!! :D :D :D :D :D Husband is watching me screaming like crazy and probably thinking something really really good might have happend.... And it did......!!!! You guys did.... Oh god, sometimes life sucks so bad you just wanna curse and be angry with everything and everyone... However these little things make it so god damn worth every piece of bad time i might be having..... Guys you managed to put the biggest, happiest smile out there in a very very sour face these days, and all i have to say to you guys is my biggest thank you... Thank you thank you thank you... I loved my birthday present, late or not... it's not even the point Thank you so so so so much for this... Really thank you! I loved it.... From start to finish....loved ALL of it.... (by the way, i'm stealling it, and keeping it among my beloved things) MAN....so HAPPY!!! You guys just...ROCK!!!!! There isn't a name in this world to mesure the HUG and the KISS i'm sending you.... :leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3::leaf3:

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Title : Hatsu-koi, First Love Year: 2007 Country : Japan Language : Japanese Subtitle(s) : English Genre : Drama | Romance | Crime | Gay Themed Plot/Synopsis: Tadashi has fallen in love with his classmate, Kota, and doesn't dare to tell anyone. This destroys all hope he ever had of getting together with Kota. Thoroughly depressed, Tadashi meets a gay couple on the train. Hiroki and Shinji are fascinating... In Hatsu-Koi, director Imaizumi Koichi tells a story about coming of age, coming out and a gay marriage that is sprinkled with both love and comedy, at the centre of which is a teenager who doesn't yet know what he wants. Watch Hatsu-koi BL Movie Online: Hatsu-koi BL Movie Download Hatsu-koi BL Movie: Part 1 Part 2 Part 3 Part 4 Part 5 Part 6 Join the files with HJSplit For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Name: Togainu no Chi Platform: Windows98SE/Me/2000/XP Minimum System Requirements: CPU: Pentium II 300Mhz (recommended 450Mhz) RAM: 64MB (recommended 128MB) HDD: 300MB free space (recommended 650MB) Video: 800x600 resolution or higher Download Togainu no Chi BL Game: http://www.mediafire.com/download/zsdmz07t87u9tto/Togainu+no+Chi+-English-.rar drag togainu.icm.ecm file to the unecm.exe file. mount the togainu.cue image with Daemon Tools and install the game. FULL GUIDE TO INSTALLATION; [English Patch BETA] (instructions on how to install are in the zipped folder) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

Original name: Himitsu nanda kedo Manga ALT. names: 秘密なんだけど Original run: 2009 Description: - Manga-type: Manga Written by: TAKAOKA Motonari Drawn by: TAKAOKA Motonari Published by: Houbunsha Group(s) Scanlating: Takai Tenshi Scanlations Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Completely Scanlated: No Completely Translated: No Genres: Yaoi Categories: Megane Main Characters: - Adaptations available: N/A Recommendations: Harry Potter dj - Sweet Berry Kiss, Lucky Star (KOOHARA Shiomi) Download Himitsu nanda kedo Manga: •°New link°• MediaFire (thanks to maripuchi) For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

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Title: Kono Koi wa Himitsu Author: Ajimine Sakufu Warning: A yaoi master-slave relationship manga Plot: After a fallout with his father, Alvin takes time off to visit India and indulge in his love of exotic places. When he meets Razil, it's love at first sight and the two of them return to England as lovers. But Razil has a dangerous past in India that Alvin knows nothing about. Side Story: Oscar has loved Eugene ever since he was a child, but Eugene only has eyes for Robert, Oscar's elder brother. Can Oscar ever get Eugene to forget about Robert? Groups Scanlating : Dangerous Pleasure Genre : Comedy Drama Historical Romance Yaoi Status: 1 Volume (Complete) Download Kono Koi wa Himitsu Manga https://www.sendspace.com/file/4l9am9 For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

So I found my favorite mangaka.... Yatteraneeze! is here This is a side story of Yatteraneeze! Halfmoon Emotion Direct Download part 1 part 2 part 3 part 4 Koi no Yamai ni Tsukeru Kusuri (Prequel to Kuchibiru ni Amai Doku) Download: here Kuchibiru ni Amai Doku Download: here Junjou Karen Download: Volume 1 here Volume 2 here

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Title: Kowarekake no Omocha Author: CJ Michalski Alternative title: A Toy With Sadness Description: 1-3) A Toy with Sadness Shinobu left his large family to go live with Kengo as his playmate and companion to earn extra money once his father fell ill. Kengo takes advantage of Shinobu's position as his "toy", and when they are older he begins to have sex with him as well. Shinobu is afraid that Kengo will throw him away once his usefulness is over, proving that Kengo doesn't love him. Where will this relationship go as the boys go through high school? 4) Even Beyond Dreams Wakana-sensei has always wanted the perfect wife, despite his bad luck with women. One night after getting drunk, he picks up Shimada and brings him home to spend a passionate night in bed. Wakana is horrified by his actions, but when Shimada follows him to school it's revealed that he used to be a student there. Can things work out so that Wakana has the home life he's dreamed of? 5) Sun's Playboy Mana has a huge crush on You, a local surfer and swim instructor. Mana comes to the beach every day to watch him, but is not brave enough to approach him. The perfect opportunity comes when he is knocked down by a wave, and pretends to not be able to swim so that he can have You's attention all to himself! Will Mana finally get to have his seme before the summer ends? 6) Paper-Thin Loathing Hostage situation, for two rival businessmen. A failed love confession in the past has had them at odds for years, but when they are suddenly taken hostage, all bets are off! Groups Scanlating: Liquid Passion Genre: Comedy Drama Romance Yaoi Read Kowarekake no Omocha Online Kowarekake no Omocha Download Kowarekake no Omocha Manga Kowarekake no Omocha For download re-upload requests, post here so the staff notices them. Note: Please only ask for re-upload if none of the download links work after checking ALL the pages of the thread. Thanks! YO Staff

This was a poem of love that could never been truly be, how sad and tragic yeah? Makes you want to shed a tear for them. Good work.

I stand here on your street My heart like ice, my love for you frozen These crystal tears fall at my feet I never wanted to hurt you Never meant to desert you I came to apologize knowing it's too late As I stand here among the snowflakes I am so tired of this fate This cold heart of mine is breaking Slowly shattering into slivers of red It is your memory that I am desecrating I don't belong here, never did But my love for you won't let me leave As I stand here trying to keep my heart hid I never wanted to hurt you Never meant to desert you These softly falling flakes Are cold little reminders that I am alone Alone because of my mistakes I tried for so long And even if it's not meant to be I will never give in even if I am wrong I cannot let go of these shattered pieces Even as they start to melt and slip away My love for you never decreases I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you This gentle winter breeze Is a subtle reminder of your touch And the way it made me fall by degrees These tears won't fade away They are frozen drops of my misery At being unable to stop this slow decay Did I need to try so hard To keep this heart whole When you broke through catching me off guard I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you This winter soul craves The love only you can give The love that saves This coldness takes my breath Makes me tremble in fear This could end in my death I would gladly welcome it If it meant I was able to be close to you To feel your warmth even for a bit. I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you. All I wanted was to hold you close Yet this frozen heart of mine Never let me disclose The flakes of snow surround me Cloaking me in a cold embrace This love was never meant to be Is this what I wanted To be alone in this white To always be shunted I never meant to hurt you Never meant to desert you Don't be concerned over me These cold tears will fall and be lost So pay no heed to my plea I will say it once only And for all time it will echo These words will forever be lonely This hope undreamed of Is to tell this to you It is you I love

I'm happy. Today was a good day.

Thanks very much for your hard work :leaf3: I like it

Yeeey. Spamming more pics Almost twincest lol MxM

Eating sweet and sour chicken with noodles. Gazinging longingly at the chocolate thats just out of reach...

I absolutely love it! :7yoyo10: The kiss secene was awsome. When Misu was bothered that it wasn't Shingyouji's first kiss... that was just awesome. All Misu's possesivenes and Shingyouji's excitement!!! I love it!!!

Ok, but I have to go to a seminary in a few XD

1. 'the' denial thingy~~~ yes, I know a lot of you had saying this and I totally agree with you! Just admit you are in love with each other, why deny it? 2. I can't say I hate shota, but its more like I'm afraid to see....*weird huh* 3. And yes! 'That' invisible penis! I'm a pervert *yes, I admit it. hehe*, so I want more!

Oh hi everyone! just dropped by to promote this new Pureness fanfic i wrote today. Hope you enjoy. thanks a bunch! http://www.yaoiotaku.com/forums/threads/1317-Pureness/page22

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RYCbQDSxsqA&feature=channel_video_title

Another scenerio which is a bit cliche' is when uke/seme has never been in a serious relationship yet or been in one with a woman (sometimes even have been married) and adamantly state they are "not like that" although they admit to admiring or idolizing the seme/uke.

Hi and welcome to this community Wolfie!

L x Matt

Chapter 09 "YJ? Finally? You remember him now?" "Yes, I remembered, everything is my fault, Where’s YJ?" "Too late, he has resigned." "What?!" Resigned. . . To avoid me? No. . . I would not let you go this way! "Not only did he resign, I heard that he was also preparing to leave Taiwan. Go to his house before it’s too late!" Nothing matters more now. Justin rushed out of the mall, towards YJ’s house. You want to leave Taiwan?! I am not allowing that! I am absolutely not allowing that! === === === === === === === === === === === === === === This is the last time. WYJ turned and looked back at his house before leaving. Justin, I’m leaving now. I hope you can be happy… Enough with the reminiscing, WYJ flagged a cab towards the airport. Not long after the cab left, Justin arrived on his bike. He hurriedly rushed to WYJ’s house. "Ding-dong--- ding-dong ding-dong---" No matter how many time Justin rang the doorbell, there was no response from the house. "YJ! YJ! I’m Justin! Would you please open up! YJ! YJ..." Has he left? Is he gone? YJ… YJ... Have I really… Have I really lost you… Justin went home dis-heartedly. When his mum saw how depressed he was, she asked what happened. "Mom, never did I have someone whom I cherish so much. But why, I wanted to treasure him so much, why will I even forget him?! I should not have forgotten him! Now, just because I forgot him, I lost him. Mom, what should I do... What should I do... " Justin’s mother became anxious when she realizes Justin just kept on saying things she did not understand, and so, she called up Valeria. "Auntie, Justin would be fine, don’t worry. I’ll talk to him." Valeria arrived thirty minutes later. "Justin, what’s wrong? What happened?" "Valeria, He's gone... YJ’s gone…" "You... Have you regained your memories?! YJ... Is he really gone? Are you sure?!" "I lost the person whom I care most about... What should I do... What should I do... " Justin leaned helplessly on Valeria’s shoulder. "It’s alright it’s alright... We’ll find a solution... There must be a way..." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === The next day morning, Justin was laying on his bed, wide awake, thinking back everything that has happened. I regret it, I really regret it now… I didn’t meant it… YJ… Scumbag? I have hurt him deeply with that didn’t I? YJ… "Ring Ring----" "Hello." "Justin! Something bad has happened to YJ!" Justin shot up from the bed immediately after hearing it. "Where is he now?!" === === === === === === === === === === === === === === Standing outside the ward, for the first time, Justin deeply felt the pain of not able to reach the person whom seems to be so close to him. In the Intensive-Care Unit, the man lying on the bed with oxygen mask and gauze tied to his head, is that really YJ? This is a punishment isn’t it? The punishment of me forgetting you, that’s why you are ignoring me now? YJ… YJ… "Are you the patient's family?" A doctor came out from the intensive care unit asked when they saw Justin. "I am! How is he?!" "Let’s have a word in my office." "Su... Sure..." In the doctor's office, he began to explain WYJ’s condition. "The patient was sent in after he met with a car accident at noon yesterday...." Yesterday at noon… Isn’t that the time that I went to his house looking for him? "The cab that the patient was travelling with collided with a car, causing him a serious concussion. Hence, we do not rule out the possibility of amnesia, but the most important thing was, his waist was also injured during the accident, so he might temporarily lose the ability to walk." "You mean… Do you mean paralyzed?" "Yes." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === When WYJ passed the critical stage, he was transferred into the general ward. Justin refused to leave him and waited by his side. "Justin." A voice came through the door. It belongs to Valeria. "You’re here?" "How is he?" "He might have loss his memory, he might be paralyzed." "Oh dear!" "Ha..." Justin laughed self-deprecatingly. "This is the retribution, right? He might suffer from amnesia, he might forget me!" "Justin... I’ll stay here to take care of him. So why don’t you..." "Valeria, I am grateful to you taking care of me during the period of my amnesia, but the person I love, is always YJ. And I would like to be here alone with him. I'm sorry." "I understand, I knew all along... So don’t give up alright! And please take good care of yourself too, okay?" "Yea." Although he was talking with Valeria, Justin’s attention has never once been diverted from WYJ. Justin guarded WYJ for three days and finally, he woke up. "YJ! You awake?!" "…" WYJ just looked at him expressionless. He then tried to sit up but realized that he could not control his legs. "YJ, please listen to me calmly. The doctor said that you would only be temporarily losing the ability to walk, as long as you go for physiotherapy, you would be able to recover." WYJ listen calmly to Justin, and then stop struggling. "YJ, do you... Do you know who I am?" WYJ didn’t look at Justin, didn’t speak. He just looked out of the window quietly. "So you do not remember huh… It does not matter. After all, I was first to forget you." WYJ heard the tone of self-blaming in Justin’s words and looked at him. When Justin realize WYJ’s glance, he gave him a strong – pretended – smile. "No matter if you remember me or not, YJ, I will stay by your side, and never ever let you go." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === YJ hasn’t spoke a single word since he woke up. The doctor mentioned that this was not an aftermath of the accident but his own choice. He does not have any idea why, but he just didn’t like to see Justin. Regardless of what Justin did, he ignores it. When Justin wants to offer him help, he decline. Justin goes for physiotherapy diligently every day, hoping that he could regain his mobility as soon as possible. This day, WYJ went to his physiotherapy in the absence of Justin. "Hey YJ, you’ve made good progress today! Let’s try if you can go on your own, okay?" "Well... Sure." His effort has been paid off. God knows how much sleepless night did he spend on doing physiotherapy alone in his ward. This is an important task towards WYJ. It would definitely be a huge blow for him if he is still unable to walk. "Come on, from here, slowly, move step by step towards me." The therapist stood at the other end of the physio-equipment, encouraging WYJ. And WYJ also tried his very best to move toward his therapist. Gradually, WYJ’s steps began to stabilize. "YJ, congratulations! You should be able to walk very soon." "Ha... Thank you... Haha!" WYJ smile brightly. "You finally smile. This is the first time I’ve seen you smile ever since your first day here. By the way, didn’t your friend accompany you today? He would be very pleased if he know that you should be able to walk very soon." At the mention of Justin, WYJ's smile disappeared. "Can I return to my ward for a rest now?" "Uh… Sure…" To be Continued...

Chapter 07 "YJ, help me bill the customer please, $75." "Sure... I receive $100 dollars, and this is your change of $75. Thank you and see you again." "Uh..." What’s wrong with YJ? "I’m sorry sir, your change of $ 25. Thank you and see you again." After the customer left, the colleague turned toward WYJ and asked. "YJ... Are you alright?" "Ah?! Oh, I’m sorry. I’m alright." "How is his condition?" WYJ shook his head emotionlessly. "Nothing much. Still alive." "Uh..." Something must have happened between them… "YJ." A voice appeared abruptly by the door. Both WYJ and his colleague turned towards the door. "Valeria?" "We need to talk." === === === === === === === === === === === === === === "Please do not misunderstand, it’s really over between Justin and me. And now, the person he needs the most is…" "Is you. He needs someone whom is trusted by his parent to stay by his side. And that person is you, not me." "Why can’t you get the point?! Why didn’t you tell him who you really are yesterday?!" "How do you expect me to say it?! You want me to tell the guy with amnesia, that THIS man standing in front of him was supposed to be his ..." Lover was the word he couldn't say. "Or you want me to tell the guy who has amnesia that he is a Homo?! Do you seriously think that he would accept it?! " "YJ..." "Valeria, Justin is a good man, so I hope for him to be happy. But the person, who could make him happy, can never be me. Take it that you are doing it for me, please, take good care of him, and help me to make him happy." "YJ! How could you..." "It's settled. Thank you for everything. I’ll make a move first; I still have work to do." "YJ... YJ!" This time round, WYJ left the sight of Valeria without hesitating. === === === === === === === === === === === === === === On this day of Justin’s discharge from the hospital, he discovered a watch as he was packing up his belongings. The glass surface of the watch had cracked, and the watch had stopped. This watch... Very familiar... It seems... To mean a lot... But now I... Incidentally, a nurse came in and saw Justin glancing at the watch in daze. So she explained. "That is your watch when you were sent here. Even though you were unconscious back then, you grabbed on to it tightly. No matter what we did, you wouldn’t let go. Until we assure you that we will not throw it away and will even help you safe keep it." "Oh... Thank you..." This watch… really mean that much to me huh…? Other than Valeria, a bunch of his “friends” also came for his discharge. Although he couldn’t remember any of them, he could sense that they really care for him. Therefore, he did not doubt that they were his “friends”. "Huh? That’s strange... YJ isn’t here?" "Oh yeaa! It’s not possible that YJ wouldn’t come for Justin’s discharge… Valeria, did you inform him?" YJ? The guy who visited me the other day? What has my discharged gotta do with him? He is just a 'friend' of mine is not it? "I informed. But..." "Are you sure? Or could it be that you want to take the opportunity to get together with Justin again which is why you deliberately not inform him?" "I..." "Hey, that’s too much! Watch what you say especially when she’s my friend!" Who is that guy really?! Why does everyone seem to shield him? Even Valeria mentioned him very often too! "Uh... I'm sorry." It seems like Justin has really forgotten YJ completely…… "Justin, it’s ok. Would you accompany me to a place please?" "Ah? Ok, sure!" === === === === === === === === === === === === === === The place which Valeria mentioned was ‘Sky Mall’. The first place that they visit was WYJ’s shop. From afar, WYJ had spotted the two of them walking over to his shop’s direction, so he gave some random excuse and left the store. "Hey! Where’s YJ?" "Hey! You’re discharged! Congratulations! Oh YJ? He just stepped out! Just wait right here, he shouldn’t be gone for too long." "Sure! You don’t have to greet him actually; he had amnesia, and can’t remember anyone." "What?! Amnesia?! It means he does not remember..." "Yea... Everything." No wonder! No wonder YJ was acting weird these days! But... Why didn’t he try to make Justin remember him? Unsure of the exact reason, YJ’s colleague based on his intuition, picked up the phone and dialed YJ’s number. "Hey YJ..." "Are they gone?" "Huh?! Uh... Nope..." "I’ll come back after they leave, sorry. Let me know again. Bye." "Hey... Wait a minute!" Unable to finish his sentence, WYJ had hanged up the phone. "Uh... Sorry guys, YJ wouldn’t come back unless… unless you guys are gone. I think it’s best that you come back another time…" "He really did it..." "It’s not a big deal! He dares to say that he’s my friend?! Getting angry just because I forget about him?! Narrow-minded! It’s not like he’s the only one I forget about! I couldn’t care less if I lose this friend!" "Justin! You can’t say that! You will definitely regret what you’ve said today when you regain all your memories!" Valeria said furiously. She is angry that even though Justin has lost all his memory, he doesn’t seem to care at all. She is even more annoyed with the fact that WYJ is avoiding the! "Yes! You are too much! You have amnesia, so you can’t remember anything. But, you can never understand the agony of those who remembers you when you have forgotten them! Unless you regained your memory, otherwise, I do not wish to see you bringing more hurt for YJ anymore!" "Please tell YJ that I’m not giving up." Valeria spoke. "Justin, let’s go.” === === === === === === === === === === === === === === "Justin, do you really not remember YJ now?" Justin and his group of "friends" came to his work place for a drink. They were talking to some of Justin’s colleague but the topic was none other than those revolving around WYJ. YJ YJ YJ! Why is everyone telling me about him?! Is he really someone I should never forget?! "Sigh… You were in such good terms with YJ, he must be feeling very down now." "You are right! When I passed by his shop these few days, I noticed that he was staring into space often!" "Oh right! That key chain, he seems to have removed it too!" "Sigh... He seems really sad. Justin, you really don’t remember any single bit him?" "Wouldn’t you guys ever get sick of it?! Stop mentioning his name in front of me! I’m sick and tired of it!!" After finishing his sentence, Justin left the bar on his own. "Justin has a very hot temper now! I still prefer the old him." "Yup! It’s no wonder why YJ choose to leave him..." Occasionally, when WYJ and Justin met each other in the mall, they always put on a stranger's facade. The two of them, has become the most familiar stranger in the world. To be Continued...

Ohohoh, I know the best dialogue ever... okay, it's almost a monologue looool, but still. (And yes, I wrote it without looking it up) LOTR - Tale of the Two Towers Frodo: I can't do this Sam! Sam: I know, Mr Frodo, it's all wrong. By rights we shouldn't even be here. But we are. It's like in the great stories, Mr Frodo, the ones that really mattered. Full of darkness and danger they were. And sometimes you didn't want to know the end, because how could the end be happy? How could the world go back to the way it were when so much bad had happened? But in the end, it's only a passing thing, this shadow. Even darkness must pass. A new day will come, and when the sun shines it'll shine out the clearer. Those were the stories that stayed with you. That mattered, even if you were too small to understand why. But I think Mr Frodo, I do understand. I know now. Folk in those stories had lots of chances to turn back, only they didn't. Because they were holding onto something. Frodo: What are we holding onto Sam?! Sam: That there's something good in this world, and it's worth fighting for!

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Final chapters arrived. Before posting them, I'd like to thank all those who have spent their time reading this little story. I really appreciate it. I'm not a talented writer, just a talented reader, but this little story has helped me personally. So thank you very much to all of you. XIII The heart will break, but broken live on. Lord Byron- English poet I still don’t know how Thomas became an absolute presence in my life. Every time I blinked; every time I breathed; every time I opened my eyes, he was there always looking at me, with that dazzling smile of his, with his bright eyes and his warm touch. Always there, without saying nothing but knowing all the time what I needed. Without realizing, Spring came with warmer days, timid sun rays appearing among the gray clouds bringing new life and hopes. Those early sun rays reflected on the big mirror windows of the University main building, increasing the light in the front yard where I always waited for Thomas. He has started to demand things from me, silly, childish things like eating together or going to the museums. Things I couldn’t deny him. So just following his wishes, every morning I waited for him to have the first coffee. On my way to University I always bought an extra-sugared macchiato for him and a double black tea for me. That morning the yard was full with puddles of the last night rains. It became difficult to find a spot where to wait for Thomas. Lost in my thoughts, looking at my reflection on the cloudy water, I suddenly recognized a familiar silhouette. In that very moment I felt a pinch on my chest, a fear ran through my whole body making it shiver. I turned round and there were those iced blue eyes looking at me, waiting for my reaction. (The one in italics is Patrick speaking) - Hello Patrick, how have you been? To hear his voice again made my heart beat stop and my body got stiffen and my hands started trembling. - Paul? Paul, what are you doing here? - Well, I didn’t know anything about you since Christmas, you don’t answer my mails, phone calls or texts, so I thought that maybe there was something wrong with you. At your residence, they told me you were here. - How did you come? Is your mom with you? Why did you come? I don’t know why did you have to come. - You’re never gonna change, Pat, never. Always thinking of you first, right? Have you thought how I have been feeling? Have you considered me in all these past months? His expression was hardening little by little and I started to wish Thomas were here. Paul’s voice got louder and some people started to look in our direction - Are you waiting for someone Patrick? Are you waiting for that fag to come? How sweet of you to wait for him! - Paul please, lower your voice. There are other people here and they don’t need to hear us. Suddenly he grabbed me by one elbow & pulled toward him, so strong that it hurt and we got so closed that I could smell his breath. Caught by his blue eyes I stared at them trying to read his intentions, but the next moment he was directing me to the back of the building. He threw me toward the wall, my back hit the cold, wet bricks making me loose the balance while I tried to avoid the coffee and tea not to be spilt. - You have been a fucking egoist all your life. Always thinking about what you need without thinking about people around you. You decided to go to University leaving me behind, you decided to fuck with the first guy you found but what about me?? Pat, what about me!!! - I don’t know what you’re trying to tell me, Paul and you’re starting to scare me. - Of course not, you can’t see what it’s in front of you! Have you ever thought how miserable I felt when you decided to move. How my heart ached, how lonely I felt? He was leaning with his left forehand on the wall, while his right hand was pressing my chest. I could feel his heat where his hand was touching me, making hard to breath. - Paul, I beg you release me and we can talk calmer, please. - You think I can keep calm when I’ve spent months imagining what that bastard was doing to you. Can you imagine how revolting was for me to think that another person was touching you? - Paul, I don’t understand. I can’t think clearly and I’m starting to feel cramps in my arms. - You still don’t get it, I’m telling you that I love you, fucking bastard. How long are you going to make me beg? He said getting his face closer to me and kissing me in a furious way. - Love me?? You love me??? – I yelled at him – You don’t know what love is, Paul, never have and never will. You call me selfish? Who is the selfish one? You’ve played with all the fucking girls you’ve found in your way. You’ve played with me, even knowing how I felt for you. Don’t make me laugh, Paul.

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I should make some too To Key. You're definitely the man, thank you so much for allowing us to have this place. This one's for you... Then to my girls... BRIDGET, Nezu, Jenow, brohne, goki, FibiXu, cherryurri and Gpelka... Thank you for being a part of this world, it wouldn't be the same without you girls... Following my little guys Rei-sama, little brother Matti, Aoi(still owing me chocolate) and Destiny.Fate, the same as above, you guys are amazing, thank you... To elly(you rock) thanks for creating this... it's special so... Kiss For everyone, and since everyone already knows i'm a kissing addict .... , and of course, thank you!

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Hey there Here's part two, hope you like it. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- As they stepped out of the black car, Shouji couldn’t help and stare... Everything was big. Big car, big house, big trees, even big fucking body-guards. “Hey Boss, this is y’o house?” “This’s where i live yeah, why?” “What th’a fuck!! Ya live with a fucking army or something?!” The line of people standing at the entrance of the house was in many ways overwhelming and scary as hell. He was shaking all over... The guy had been friendly, but you always have to be aware of a yakuza. You never turn your back to them... You may be dead the second you do. “Hey Boss, ar’ya sure that’s ok me being here?” “Wh’ya asking?” “Cause these fuckers keep giving th’a fucking look, that’s why!” “Ahahah, never mind them. Besides it’s their job to be suspicious of anything different... I would take care of them up if they didn’t!” “Th’a fuck!! You would kill y’ar own people?! You yakuza are freaking insane, i tell’ya...” “It’s m’a fucking job punk!Don’t forget that!” “Sure... Ain’t forgetting!” The inside of the house was even scarier than the outside... Shouji kept looking around wondering how in the world people could manage to own so many stuff, and still not being happy about it. “This look like a fucking museum...” “Ahahah, it’s just a bunch of old stuff kid. But don’t ya dare lay y’o fucking paws in anything, am i clear?!” “Yeah Boss, who th’a fuck wants old stuff anyway!” “Yeah, ya better...” Walking around the house, Shouji kept looking like a lost kid to everything around him, but what called his attention were the pictures hanged in every single wall of the house. Old pictures, modern ones, he felt like he was learning the clan history just from looking at the vivid contrast between the withered and the new photographs. “Hey Boss, is this y’oself?” “Yeah... i look like shit though, ahahahha” “Eheheh, ya do... a little.But you sure look like... handsome, with th’yo hair combed like this, don’t even seem look th’a same person...” Shouji felt his face warm up, when he looked attentively to the man’s face… He never called anyone handsome, nor did ever say a girl or a woman was pretty. His harsh life, didn’t allowed him to have that kind of thoughts. All men were perverts and women unreachable, because to him, no one would want to have so much for love a piece of shit like himself. So why wasting time in shit he couldn’t change. He liked a girl thru his years in high-school. He never confessed. He didn’t like her face, nor her body. She was nice to him. She would greet him when at school, and would talk to him about unimportant things. He felt happy when she did. Shouji’s mother died when he was a first year in high-school. Until then, Shouji was what you could call a normal kid, his parents were poor, but they managed. His father, was still the biggest piece of crap alive, he wouldn’t work, he wouldn’t do anything, but he never bugged Shouji. The only thing that hurt him was seeing his mother go thru all the shit with a smile on her face. How could she?! Shouji asked himself that question many times. He tried once to ask her, why wouldn’t she leave the asshole, but the answer she gave only made him more furious… “I love him Shouji.” That son of a bitch didn’t deserve her love, he didn’t deserve her, he didn’t deserve anything she would do for him… But he had to understand that she was happy like that. He had to let it go. Shouji’s view on love, was that it was waste of anyone’s time. Something you shouldn’t give much though… and even something you should forget. Calling a man handsome shouldn’t be much of a big deal, so why would he feel disturbed… He decided to drop the thought. “Shut up.... I was forced to take th’a damn thing, dress this stupid thing and comb m’a hair... If i didn’t dad would kill me...” “Y’o dad?! Is he the head of th’a family?!” “No punk i am... Dad got shot two years ago... I had to take over...” “Sorry Boss, i...” “Never mind that. Let’s go, gonna ask Mimori-chan to lay a futon f’o ya...” “Mimori-chan?!” “Kind of like th’a house keeper. Wha… think i was the one cleaning this gigantic fucking house?! Ahahhaha!” “Course not Boss! I knew ya had like people to do that kind of shit f’o ya... I ain’t stupid...” “Ehehhe, messing with ya kid... “ “Welcome home Kai-sama... “ “Oi Mimori-chan... Eheheh” “Kai-sama, even if you’re my master i won’t allow you to treat your elder like your best friend... Behave boy, i’m still able to spank you enough to put some sense into you.” “Always so harsh Mimori-cha...” “Kai-sama...” “Ok ok, never mind y’o my favourite obaasan, so sorry if i want to spoil ya a bit...” “Watch your language; you look like you were raised on a dog pound...” “Ahahhaha, weren’t i?!” “KAI-SAMA...” “Sorry Mimori-SAN, just having a bit of fun...” “So what’s this... another stray dog you brought home?” Pointing at Shouji who didn’t really like to be called a dog, the truth was he looked like shit. Clothes all dirty and bloody, not to mention he looked like he got hit by a fucking train… He gave a quick glance at the man before him, at the screaming difference between them made him blush again… He looked like a dirty rag, and this guy looked like an elite. He felt bad, so bad he couldn’t hold the words bursting from his chest… “What th’a fuck do you want obaa-san…?! I ain’t no fucking dog, ya ear me…” “Wah… Is that a way to talk to an elder… You’re really a stray dog and the worst kind there is.” “Hey, hey… drop it! Mimori-san, please arrange a futon for the lost dog here, and prepare a bath… If he’s sleeping here I wanna get rid of the smell first, ahahah.” “Bos…” “As you wish, Kai-sama…” As soon as the old lady went on her way Shouji kept his eyes on Kai. He looked a bit dazzled, but a bit confused as well… “What is it punk?!” “Nothing…” “Nothing huh…” Truth was Shouji’s was hiding his embarrassment. He was feeling too self conscious, and the fact that for his 19 years he looked like he was 15. He stooped growing at some point, and he hated that, he was very skinny because he couldn’t have proper meal, and that made him hate his father even more. It was all his fault, all the evil in the world was his father fault. “What’s wrong kid, what’s with that face?” “I said it was nothing, just drop it… And don’t call me kid, I’m almost 20.” He didn’t know why he told him his age. The desire to tell him, unconsciously made him blurt that shit out. He wasn’t boasting, but for some reason, he wanted him to know. “Oh… so you’re almost 20… I see. Then how many do you really have…?” “Ain’t telling…” “Punk I told ya my age! Spill it!” “Why should i?!” The man came closer… Shouji noticed he was really big, compared to him he was a giant. He had a big body too, he must be muscular… But what made Shouji gasp were his eyes… Boss was wearing sunglasses at night, Shouji could never guess what were behind those lenses, and the photographs were black and white… The water coloured eyes the man had made Shouji step back, and turn his head away… It was just too much… He wasn’t expecting it. It was just a guy… Just another fucking guy… So what the fuck was wrong with him?! “Are ya spilling it or not…?!” Shouji had his pride, but not to the point of keeping refusing a yakuza… “I’m fucking 19! Now back off!” He may sound tough, but he couldn’t stop shaking… Was because of fear, or those eyes that felt like seeing thru him…? “Oh… 19! Good age… But why should I back off?! Are ya scared of me?!” The man said the line with a snicker hidden behind the words, but Shouji felt shaken by them. As soon as he tried to face the man standing before him, his body froze. He never felt that way. He felt disgust, he felt powerless… And he hated it… “Well, 19, almost legal age, that’s cools right?!” Somehow the guy backed off on his own, and in some fucking weird way was somehow giving the feeling he was disturbed by something. Shouji felt relieved, but not safe yet. There was something strange there, he couldn’t bring himself to name what the fuck was. The air between them became heavy, and looking to the broad back the man showed Shouji decided to let himself find out just what the fuck was going on. “Yeah, almost fucking legal… Not that it will change any shit though.” “Why don’t ya change your fucking life kid? Get a job…” “I have a fucking job!” “Oh yeah, doing what?!” “I work at a restaurant, I’m sort of a all kinds of job guy… I do what people need, I clean, I help waiter, I close the shop, I buy shit… ya know… restaurant shit!” “Ahahah, I see… That’s a good job kid!” “Stop calling kid, fuck…” “Well ya look like one… I would bet my fucking head saying you didn’t have more than 15 ahahahha.” “Don’t laugh! I know I’m short, and I know i look like this, but I ain’t getting any of this shit…” “Hey, c’mon slow down punk… Just messing with ya… Ya really look like a kid ya know that, then ya gotta understand why people messes with ya…” “I ain’t got to understand shit…” The man came closer again, Shouji felt endangered… “Look, let’s put this way then…” He put his hand on Shouji’s shoulder and the younger man felt like something being stolen from him… Was it his strength?! Were did it go? He felt numb. The man’s hand was big, heavy, but warm… “What…?!” “I’ll call ya…. What’s y’or name really?!” “Shouji!” “Well Shouji, I’m Kai, nice to meet ya.” For a moment there, all Shouji could see were green sparkling lights, hovering him… He saw nothing else… He forgot to answer… He was lost in the deep green colour of Kai’s eyes. ----------------------------------------------------------------------------------- That's it for now... Thank you for reading Big Kiss :*

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Title: Boy Princess / Kiss me Princess Author : Kim Se young Genre : Drama,fantasy,gender Bender,Romance,Shoujo,Shoujo Ai, Yaoi Manhwa Synopsis : A pulse-quickening tale of swords and sorcery, far-away kingdoms, and the fairest princess in all the land... with a twist. When a prince's soon-to-be-bride (Elena) elopes two days before their wedding, her desperate family dresses up their youngest son (Nicole) and sends him to get married in her place (with prince Jed). With his beautiful blue eyes, flowing blond hair, and strategically placed apples, nobody bats an eye at the pretty pubescent standing before them. But how long can he keep up the charade? Despite the odds against them, the two princes share adventures and intimacies in this mesmeric romance. ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~ Download link removed by scanlator's request Read Boy Princess Online Boy Princess

Kentaro took another drag of his cigarette. His other hand poking at the can of iced coffee. His moment of silent contemplation was interrupted when he noticed someone sat beside him on the wooden bench. He took a quick glance at the corner of his eye and recognized who it was. “I still think you're a bastard.” Kentaro took a sip of his iced coffee. “I know. Me too.” Misu replied but not looking at Kentaro. Both men just stared forward at the students that were walking around the university grounds. “I had to go to a fucking dentist to get my tooth saved.” Kentaro tapped the excess ash off his cigarette on the ground. “Yeah.” Misu replied. “How is Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro put the cigarette back to his lips. “He's good.” Misu smiled thoughtfully. Kentaro nodded. He really liked the guy. Misu would be an idiot to lose someone that special. He'd happily take him if that ever happened. But he also knew it was nothing but a hopeless dream. “This is what happens when you don't open up to your best friend, you jerk.” “You're right about what you said that night.” Misu lowered his eyes sadly. Kentaro finally looked at him. He could see the regret in Misu's eyes and for him that was all he needed to see for himself. He knew he can never have a chance with Shingyouji. Not in this lifetime. Maybe he will have to find someone like him or perhaps someone totally unlike him. His tastes in men and women can be so damn messed up sometimes. He fell for Misu from the moment he saw him and instantly felt the same way with Shingyouji, perhaps a bit more. But he would have to settle for friendship in the end. “It's gonna be tough sometimes. But you have to realize that not everyone is gonna judge your relationship. Some people will always talk and then there will be others who don't give a shit. Just take it easy. And stop fucking hiding from people who actually give a damn especially ME!” Misu chuckled at that. “Then why the hell did you tell Shingyouji your name was Taro Yoshi?” Kentaro looked at him and stammered a response. “Eh...anou....well, you know, it's my thing. Since when did I give people my real name? Besides it's not too far off from my real name anyway. Kentaro Yoshida.” “Because of that, you won't ever hear a fucking apology from me.” Misu's smile was smug. Kentaro frowned at him and they both laughed. Owari?! AUTHOR NOTES: OMG! OMG!! OMG!!! 36 pages in total yo! I was like a person possessed when I started typing. I couldn't stop. The ideas kept flowing through my brain and before I realized it, I've already typed THIS much. I outdid myself. *CRIES* Thank you so much for seeing me through the end. My heart couldn't stop beating so fast. I couldn't sleep well last night because of my heart. I just finally finished this story today. Hot and fresh! Rightful claim goes to the mangaka for Misu and Shingyouji characters. I can only lay rightful claim to my original characters Miyagi-san and Kentaro Yoshida. I hope you like them guys.

Getting to their apartment unit was proving to be quite a strain for both of them as Misu would pull Shingyouji for a kiss and him kissing back in like manner. They kissed hard in the elevator. As soon as Misu unlocked the door to their unit, he pulled Shingyouji's hand and pushed him inside their apartment. They kicked off their shoes and slippers. Shirts flung to to the wall. Pants dropping on the floor and kicked aside. Neither of them releasing from their kissing frenzy. They bumped into one of Misu's books on the floor and he kicked them to the side. Misu laid Shingyouji on their bed. He straddled him. He could see the lust and love burning in Shingyouji's eyes. Oh god, I could have really taken him senseless right there out in the street. All of Shingyouji was his. Only his. He was never going to find another love like this. He knew no one could ever affect him so deeply the way Shingyouji did. No one can ever make him desire a person this badly the way he did. Misu lowered his head to possess those lips again and Shingyouji's legs wrapped around his waist, urging him to go further. Giving him more access to every crevice of his body. Their fingers intertwined. Misu's strong grip on his thigh. So aroused. So deep. So close. The heat was driving them over the edge repeatedly. Shingyouji was gasping at every breath. Every thrust Misu made was sending his body into a convulsion of crazy passion and desperation. He clung to his arms. He was in tears. Pain, happiness, satisfaction, complete surrender, you name it...he was feeling everything all at once. Until finally they reached the pinnacle of their heated intimacy. The release was so great it overpowered their senses. Misu collapsed heavily on Shingouji's chest. His breath ragged and hot. Shingyouji smiled weakly and kissed the curve of Misu's neck. “I love you...Arata-san...” Shingyouji gasped. Misu rolled over to Shingyouji's side and pulled the younger man over his chest. His palms gently raking on Shingyouji's messy hair. Misu's eyes softened at the words of love uttered. He smiled and possessed those soft swollen lips again. “I'm so happy you're mine.” Misu murmured to Shingyouji's lips.

The apartment felt like a tomb. Misu and Shingyouji has not uttered a single word to each other since coming out of Shiki Bar. The air between them was stale with awkwardness, confusion and Misu's coldness. Misu washed off a bit of the blood on his knuckles in the kitchen sink. Shingyouji watched him move from the kitchen to the closet to get a fresh shirt and pajamas, enter the bathroom and coming out changed and laid down on their bed. “Would you mind telling me what the hell was that all about?” Shingyouji did not mask the annoyance in his tone. What started out as a nice evening turned into a fist fight leaving him still confused, a bloody Kentaro and Misu not saying a damn word. Misu sat up on the bed and looked at Shingyouji who was standing before him. What the hell was he going to say? He tried to keep it cool the whole time and one stupid move from Kentaro and he lost it. Damn you, Kentaro! This wasn't supposed to happen. Shit. Now he had to settle damange control with Shingyouji. What the hell. “He is your classmate. Your close friend. You didn't tell me a single thing about how he felt for me. You could have given me some warning. I have to hear it from him. And then you punch him like that out of nowhere?” “Oh great. Now you blame me for punching him like that? You should realize by now why I did all that. He was begging for it. I warned him already that you're not going to his place.” “BUT YOU COULD HAVE WARNED ME!” “HOW THE FUCK COULD I WARN YOU ABOUT HIM? HE DIDN'T TELL ME ABOUT YOU EITHER! HE WAS KEEPING IT A SECRET FROM ME!” Shingyouji looked away. Tears of frustration were threatening to flow but he sucked in his breath sharply. This was far from over. “You think I'm stupid. You always think I'm some kind of idiot who cannot defend himself. You think punching him like that make you so great? All this time, I agree with what YOU like how our relationship should be going. Keep it discreet. Keep it secret. KEEP IT! KEEP IT! FUCKING KEEP IT! I get paranoid already. But I can't. I'm not strong like you are. I can't fucking pretend like you and I have nothing between us when we're outside. My own boss saw right through me and I didn't deny it. I just couldn't. I'd rather risk rearranging my life just so I can be with you always. And now this...damn it!” “THAT FUCKING BASTARD HAD HIS ARMS AROUND YOU! Whispering into your ear the whole time! And you kept laughing and smiling at him! I'm not sorry that I punched him. He fucking deserved it! HOW THE HELL WOULD YOU FEEL IF YOU SAW ANOTHER MAN SO CLOSE TO YOUR LOVER LIKE THAT?” As soon as Misu said it, his eyes went wide in realization. He immediately regretted it. It was like a bucket of cold water splashed onto him. All he could see now was the deep hurt etched in Shingyouji's eyes. “I KNOW EXACTLY HOW THAT FEELS, YOU SELFISH JERK!” Shingyouji very quickly stormed out of the apartment before Misu could stand up to stop him. Fuck! What have I done? ---------------------------------- The only thing Misu grabbed before heading out the door was his keys. He didn't care he was only in his pajamas and house slippers. All he could think was the sooner he got out of the apartment, the higher the likelihood he could catch up with Shingyouji. He didn't want a repeat of last time. He didn't like the idea of having to wait in the apartment without a damn clue where he ran off to. A lot of memoreies were crashing in his head one by one and he didn't like it. Not one bit. A part of him still did not regret punching Kentaro earlier but that did not drown out his regret when he yelled at Shingyouji. He was acting out his frustrations on him. It was not fair. He knew it. But he could not help it. He was supposed to be the cool one, right? He was the one who was supposed to have all the answers. He was the one who was supposed to be in control of the situation. Things could have been handled much differently with Kentaro but right now he managed to screw up the one person he valued the most. Shingyouji, where the hell are you? He was grateful for the stillness of the night. Their apartment bulding was situated in a quiet neighborhood. It was already after midnight. They had spent a great deal of time at the bar together. This was not how he wanted to spend the rest of the time. He still had classes later in the day. But right now he didn't care if he had to skip his classes altogether. He couldn't get Shingyouji out of his mind. Not like this. How could he be so cruel? As he walked into the quiet street, he noticed someone turn right to the first two blocks away from the building. He recognized that shirt. That distinct walk. It was Shingyouji. He was relieved that he didn't get very far yet and he was just walking. He would have gone nuts if he ran. He had always been aware how fast Shingyouji could run like the wind if he had to. Misu walked hurriedly to catch up with Shingyouji. “SHINGYOUJI!”

“You look tense.” Misu was stifling his laughter as he looked at Kentaro who kept his eyes at the Shiki Bar entrance and his hands nervously tapping on their table. “I'm not tense. I'm just excited. Alright, fine! I'm tense! You won't believe how cute this guy is. He said he'll be here in ten minutes. Something just came up at work.” Kentaro grinned. He was obviously distracted and could not focus. He had never been this tense before over meeting someone. He's usually calm and collected but not this time. “Try to relax, will you?” Misu looked at him amused at his friend's behavior. “Ah! There he is!” Kentaro stood up and it took all his self-control not to literally fly towards the entrance of the bar out of sheer excitement. “Where?” When Misu turned towards to where Kentaro was staring at, he suddenly felt his blood run cold. Shingyouji? What the hell is he doing here? Misu began to fidget. What the hell is going on here? How come he didn't tell me that he's been meeting with Kentaro this whole time? Does he even know why they were going to spend the evening in a bar like this? Shit. Shit. Shit. Misu was trying to calm down as much as he could. He was about to explode. So much for keeping our private life private. Shit. “Ah Yoshi-san!” Shingyouji waved. He was now walking towards their table. He didn't notice Misu right away until Kentaro meets him halfway and puts his arm around his shoulder as they approach their table. The look of genuine surprise was all over Shingyouji as soon as he saw Misu. “Arata-san! What are you doing here?” “You two know each other?” Kentaro pointed at Shingyouji while looking at Misu for confirmation. Misu's jaw was clenched in irritation. He looked sideways and nodded his head. Shingyouji still looked surprised. Kentaro laughed. “This is great! This way I don't have to go through the trouble of introducing you both. Have a seat right here beside me, Shingyouji-kun.” Kentaro was oblivious to the rising agitation of his friend. He hailed for the waiter who arrived and handed them a menu. “What would you like to order, Shingyouji-kun?” Kentaro leaned closer towards Shingyouji's seat and placed his arm around it while pointing at one of the food choices. Misu squeezed his eyes shut. Trying his might to keep himself from exploding and grabbing Kentaro by the neck and throttle him senseless. He knew that move. Kentaro was not known to waste any time with someone he fancied. Close body contact was his forte. It came in stages until he would have the person all over him. He's seen it happen so many times before when they would hang out with friends. It was not unusual that they would enter an establishment together as a group only to watch Kentaro leave with some beautiful stranger he just met that time. He knew from personal experience since Kentaro had pursued him from the first time they met. And now he was about to do the same thing to Shingyouji. But what irritated him the most is that his lover didn't seem to mind anything at all. “Hey Misu...have you decided what to order already?” Kentaro looked at his friend who had the menu book now covering his agitated face. “No. I'm not really hungry. I think I'll just have a glass of ice cold water.” He replied icily. “Oh come on, man! Don't be such a spoilsport. Forgive my friend here, Shingyouji-kun. This guy can be so shy sometimes. It's been a pretty hectic time for us. Back to back exams and demos. It's great to just finally be able to relax like this.” Shingyouji nodded in agreement and smiled at Kentaro but he could see that shyness was nowhere to be seen in Misu's face. He swallowed. Misu looked very pissed but was trying to keep a cool countenance. He was avoiding to make any eye contact which confused him even more. Why does he look so angry? What did I do wrong? What is going on here? But he could not confront Misu like that especially with a very jolly Kentaro with them. What was wrong with hanging out with friends anyway? A few minutes later, their drinks arrived. Kentaro and Shingyouji were deeply engaged in conversation. Misu was fuming. He felt his blood rise up a notch at every smile Shingyouji flashed in Kentaro's direction who now looked like he was being bathed by rays of morning sunlight from those smiles. He looked happy. A little too happy than usual. He had earlier considered walking out of the bar but his possessive nature would not allow him to leave the pair behind amongst themselves. He knew exactly what Kentaro was up to and there was no way in hell was he going to allow that to happen to Shingyouji. And why the fuck is Shingyouji keeps on smiling at him like that? Fifteen minutes later, their food arrives. While Shingyouji and Kentaro were eating, Misu was busily poking at his food like he had a personal vendetta with the buttered brocolli on his plate. He barely said a word to the two of them unless he was asked. And even when he did have to say something, he kept it short. Kentaro did not seem the least bit worried since his concentration was primarily fixated on Shingyouji. Shingyouji seemed to be at his social element. He admitted to himself that his sociable nature was one of the things that endeared his lover to him. But it was also a source of irritation for him because Shingyouji had this tendency to trust people too easily just because they happen to be his friends not caring whether those so-called friends had a personal agenda. He was a lot more relaxed now with Kentaro having been introduced as his friend. Kentaro rested his chin over his knuckles as he listened to Shingyouji talk. He couldn't help but feel impressed with how engaging and witty he actually was. He really is such a friendly guy and funny too. He didn't seem to run out of jokes which sent him on a laughing trip. He can imagine himself listening to him anywhere. That smile would be the death of him. He couldn't help comparing Shingyouji as akin to a cute rabbit in his mind. It tickled him even more when Shingyouji told him that he did dress up as a rabbit in a birthday event for his boss' kid's birthday. Now that I would love to see it for myself, Kentaro thought. Maybe I can set up a little party and ask him to show up in that costume for my pleasure. The evening came to a close without any incident despite Misu's ever growing anxiety. He actually was surprised he managed to keep it all in without resorting to dragging Shingyouji out of the bar and punching Kentaro in the gut. That would have been a complete disaster. But he was intent on getting his answers later when they got back to their apartment.

“Arata-san, tadaima!” Shingyouji wrapped his arms around Misu's neck and kissed the top of his head. Misu's hair was a bit damp from a shower. “Okaeri.” Misu replied and gave a light tap on Shingyouji's arms around his neck. They were both seated on the floor with his books and notes. He was reviewing for his anatomy exam. Shingyouji slowly released his arms and proceeded to sit close to Misu and leaned his head on his shoulder. He had been holding onto the good news the whole time he was at work and still managed to survive his classes afterwards. Now that he was finally home with Misu he could barely contain himself anymore. “Arata-san...I have something really good to share with you.” Shingyouji's eyes were bright. “What is it?” “Well first things first...” Shingyouji pulled Misu's face to his and planted a soft kiss on his lips. “I wanted to say thank you for coming to see me at the store today. I'm really happy when you do that.” He whispered just as their lips parted. Misu shrugged. “I needed a few things so I thought I'd drop by.” Shingyouji grinned and nudged Misu's shoulder with his elbow. “Arata-san!” He knew Misu was still being a little stubborn making it seem like it was not a big deal but he could see that the smirk he was sporting now didn't reach the gentleness of his eyes. This is one of the reasons why I love you so much, Arata-san. “Well, if it was just a simple shopping trip. You can text me and send me a list of items you want. I get employee discount, you know.” Shingyouji pouted. “Hmp! Maybe I should do that then. That way I won't have to walk ten blocks just to get a few things.” Misu frowned. What the hell? I make an effort in dropping by to visit him every week and he spouts nonsense like this. Make a list he says. Damn it. Why I even bother? As Misu was about to stand up, he felt two strong arms around his chest pulling him and Shingyouji's cheek pressed closely to his back. Now what? “Arata-san...gomen ne...I was kidding. Please forgive me. Please don't stop visiting me at work. I'm just being a brat. I'm a little hyper right now and I start randoming stupid things. Please forget what I said. Please come visit me at the store like you do. I'm so sorry, Arata-san...” Shingyouji's voice was small and regretful like a child who had been chastised by an elder. Misu smiled, looked to his side and gripped Shingouji's hand on his chest. The arms around him grew tighter. “So what's the good news you wanted to tell me?” Shingyouji moved from behind him and sat right across him. Misu could see the twinkle in his eyes. The bunny teeth sticking out of those pink lips. “My boss thinks I like you and that I should do something about it.” “SAY WHAT?” Misu's eyes rounded in utter surprise. He did not expect this at all. Shit..was it because he started showing up at the store? Was he that freaking obvious? He tried his best to look as nonchalant as possible. Great...just what he needed. Unnecessary attention drawn to him. This is exactly what he hated so much. Now Shingyouji's boss has noticed something. How the hell was he going to show in that damn store again next time? Shingyouji noticed the way Misu was clenching his jaw. The frown on his forehead. He had been waiting for a happy response from him but all he got was an uncomfortable silence. He realized Misu was not taking the news very well. But it was good news, right? He couldn't have been wrong. Miyagi-san was very clear that he was absolutely okay with it. If he didn't then what was that whole tragic story about his cousin in the first place? Several minutes elapsed and not a word was said between them. It was getting to be more uncomfortable than ever. Misu stood up and walked towards the bed and sat down. Shingyouji followed and sat beside him. “Arata-san...say something. It is good news. Really it is. My boss totally understands. It's okay.” Shingyouji lays his hand over Misu's lap waiting for a reply. He did not expect this sort of reaction from his lover. He thought Misu was going to be ecstatic like he was. No more hiding. No more holding back. He can talk to Misu freely. He didn't have to pretend anymore whenever he visited the store. They can both relax. But by the look at Misu's face, a sense of insecurity was taking over him. He was the only one happy about this news after all. Arata-san did not share his views. Shingyouji retracted his hand from Misu's lap and covered his face instead. “I'm so sorry, Arata-san...I wasn't thinking..” Shingyouji could not talk further. His words muffled by his hands on his face. He suddenly felt embarassed for acting all happy earlier. But it still was good news. It had to be. But what difference did it make if the one you shared it with did not receive it as happily as you did? Misu sighed deeply. He was trying to make sense of what the news meant for the both of them. He wasn't mad at all. He certainly was not mad at Shingyouji. He was still very much in a state of shock. Even during their time in Shidou, they have somehow managed to keep their relationship discreet from everyone. Those who did sense that there was something between him and Shingyouji only knew the surface. No one knew how deep their relationship was. He had wanted to keep it that way for two reasons. One, to keep Shingyouji close to him and two, no one would interefere with their personal affair. It was enough people thought that Shingyouji was just behaving like a devoted pet following him around. People found it amusing and simply dismissed it as a phase Shingyouji would overcome eventually as soon as Misu graduated from high school. But containing the truest nature of their relationship may have been easier in Shidou, it's a whole lot different in the real world as adults. When you're young you can afford to be reckless at some point. But when you get older, it becomes a luxury not many people can afford. Now that Shingyouji's boss has noticed something and seemed understanding, that takes a load off the worries in his mind for now. Misu didn't think he was ready to just behave lovey-dovey in the open just because a few people didn't seem to care. He was fine with their lives now. Living together like this. Spending time together whenever they could. But they still had separate goals to achieve. He had responsibilities towards his family too. He had been groomed to take over a key position in the hospital. He was never against it. He actually liked that certain goals are already prepared for him to strive for. He always loved a good challenge. But to have an open relationship with Shingyouji is proving to be another challenge he's still struggling to deal with. Misu gently pried Shingyouji's fingers off his face to reveal a dejected face. His eyes were reddening from trying to hold back the tears. “Shingyouji...I was just surprised, that's all.” “You're not mad?” “No.” “Then it's okay then? Besides you didn't do anything that made my boss suspect. It was all me. My boss is a very perceptive guy. He read me like a book. He said I was a little too friendly whenever you showed up. I didn't mean to. I really thought I was being myself and discreet but I couldn't help it whenever I see you...I just...” Misu ruffled Shingyouji's hair and smirked. “That's true. You were really being yourself. Brat.” Shingyouji looked at him and pouted. “Meanie! And here I was so worried that you're mad at me.” He playfully smacked Misu's back with a pillow. “I'm not mad. Get over it already.” Misu stood up and walked towards the kitchen to get a glass of cold water. Shingyouji took off his work clothes and threw them in the hamper. He put on a fresh shirt and cargo shorts. He opened his bag and pulled out a plastic bag. “I have another surprise for you, Arata-san.” He smiled. “What is it?” Misu was rinsing the glass he just used. “This one.” Shingyouji took a pack of chocolate candies from the plastic bag he held and laid it on the table. The same brand of chocolate candies Misu liked when they were still in Shidou. Shingyouji thought he would go insane when he found out that Sakura Grocery was stocking the item in the shelves. He knew he just had to get one for Misu at all costs. “Ah.” Misu smiled. “I was thinking we could enjoy them later after supper.” At the word 'supper' Shingyouji suddenly realized he forgot to buy supper from the family restaurant across Sakura Grocery. He had been planning to do that as soon as he left for work but was too excited to get home and announce the good news to Misu and completely forgot about it. “Oh no...I'm so sorry. I was supposed to get our supper tonight. I'll go out and come up with something. Will you be able to wait awhile?” Shingyouji was about to put on his sandals when he felt a strong tug at his shirt. “Eh?” “No need. I already ordered pizza for us. It was supposed to be here 10 minutes ago. I guess it's gonna be free of charge now.” At the word 'pizza' Shingyouji's eyes went glassy. He felt his stomach rumble on cue. He loved pizza. But having Misu naturally ordering it without him expecting it was a wonderful surprise. He can wait. Pizza was coming and he was sharing it with Misu. It's going to be a wonderful evening for both of them. Misu was now sitting on the chair and Shingyouji moved towards him and sat on his lap. “I love pizza.” Shingyouji purred. “I know.” Just as they were about to kiss, the doorbell rang.

Misu rubbed his eyes and stretched himself on the grassy bed. He looked up at the clear blue sky. He savored these moments where he can be alone in his thoughts and there were no students around to bother him. It was getting late in the afternoon. He felt it was better to do his reading at the school grounds instead of being cooped in the library for hours. Here in the outdoor where he could breathe the fresh air and enjoy the shade the trees provided. The 15-minute nap surely was rejuvenating. He sat up and gathered his books and notebooks and stashed them in his leather bag. As he walked back towards the dormitory, he suddenly developed a craving for something sweet. Chocolate. Maybe the cafeteria had some but stopped himself. The thought of chocolate reminded him of a memory he didn't want to be reminded of. What was the point of it anyway? It's not like he's ever coming back. Who cares what happens to you? I hope I don't ever see you again or else I might as well beat you up. You stupid idiot! What the hell is wrong with me? Forget the damn chocolate. I think I'll have some coffee instead. But he quickly dismissed the thought again. What used to be a pleasureable relaxing time for him to enjoy a cup of coffee in the cafeteria was proving to be a pain now. Coffee also reminded him of Shingyouji. Shingyouji slurping his tempura soba while he drank his coffee. The first time they ever shared a table together. The time Shingyouji suddenly confessed to him. Everything happened in that damn cafeteria. Damn it! Misu decided to return to his room instead so he could put his bag away. Maybe a slice of pastry would be better. He was still craving for something sweet though. Or maybe a glass of iced tea or a can of soda. Why did he feel so jittery all of a sudden? Weird. As he turned the door knob, he noticed it wasn't locked. Wait a second, I remember locking this or didn't I? But he shrugged the thought. Tsk, it's not like there's anything interesting in this room anyway. As the door opened, the sight before him caused him to drop his bag on the floor. No words came out of Misu's lips. Right before him, a sleeping Shingyouji occupied his bed. Misu's heart was loudly beating he felt thought he would grow deaf from it. He carefully pulled his chair to sit beside the bed. The quiet longing, frustration, stress and loneliness draining away now replaced by growing relief and gratefulness. He noticed Shingyouji's bangs were fuller and covered a part of his face. He looked so peaceful just sleeping right there. He had imagined so many scenerios how they would be reunited but none of them came close to how good this one felt. Judging from the large backpack at the corner of the room, he felt his heart swell with the knowledge that it was him that Shingyouji sought to see first before anyone else. The urge to touch him again was overpowering his senses. Oh how many times he had wanted to punch Shingyouji out of madness and shake him violently for suddenly leaving like that but none of those feelings came over him at this very moment. Shingyouji would never leave him for some flimsy reason. They've been through so much in the past but none of them warranted for him to leave for so long. There has got to be a much deeper reason why he would leave. Misu closed his eyes and remembered that fateful night again when he brushed him off when all he wanted so desperately to talk to him. I could have had my answers that time. And if I did, would I have still let him go? He did not expect the magnitude of the loneliness he felt when he was gone. A month may seem so short for some people but Shingyouji always remained close to him. Always made every effort to follow him. And though Misu seemingly rejected him outwardly, he was always incredibly touched by the devotion the young man lavished upon him. He missed him so much it really hurt. A month without a word from him was torture. It made him weak. It made him mad at himself. Did he really deserve Shingyouji's love when he was so selfish? But Misu loved him, oh he really did. He knew he will always love him in his own way. He felt his heart skip as he watched Shingyouji rubbed the side of his cheek on the soft pillow. A satisfied smile etched on his lips. His tired eyes slowly moving and lazily opening only to close again. Misu just kept staring at him curiously and smiled. Shingyouji began to move again only this time he stretched his arms and yawned. He slowly opened his eyes to adjust his vision. His eyes widening for right beside him was Misu watching him. He immediately sat up from the bed. His cheeks were red with embarassment. The last person he wanted to see him catch in this position was Misu. He shyly looked back at him to assess if Misu didn't look annoyed at him. But Misu's smile never left his face. Shingyouji felt a deep sense of warmth coming over him. This smile meant just for him. “Arata-san...tadaima...” Shingyouji was first to break the stillness of the room. “Okaeri, Shingyouji.” Misu stood from his chair and sat beside Shingyouji and just looking at his face. He felt a sudden need to get close to him. His fingers slowly touching the side of his face. Shingyouji's eyes turned misty from his touch and immediately lunged himself into Misu's arms tightly. He felt Misu's arms around him. A hand slowly rubbing his back as if to comfort him. He nuzzled to his neck and inhaled Misu's scent which was a nice mix of his favorite cologne and fresh cut grass. Oh how he loved his scent. Oh how he missed this scent. It never ceased to turn him on and comforted. Misu closed his eyes and pulled him even closer to him. He planted a light kiss on the side of his neck which sent shivers to the younger man. It felt so good to have him in his arms again. So close. Just the two of them in the room basking in the reunion of their hearts. So many, many questions he wanted to ask Shingyouji but he could not find it in himself to ask them now. He didn't want to think. He just wanted to feel. Want. Need. Desire. Misu released him slowly from his arms and put both of his palms on the sides of Shingyouji's face. He could see that the other man wanted him too. The undeniable desire in his eyes. To feel. To touch. To hold. To be possessed by him and only him. “I am so in love with you.” Shingyouji breathed. That was all it took and they completely immersed in heated excited passion. He stradled Shingyouji onto the bed and began to take off his shirt off as Shingyouji fumbled with the buttons of Misu's shirt. Misu smirked and stopped his fingers and he unbuttoned his shirt himself and flung them to the side of the bed. “You want me?” Misu teased. His voice heavily laden with lust and want. “Always.” Shingyouji could only manage to moan in response. To feel Misu's skin on top of him again was all he ever dreamt of. As their lips touched, Shingyouji felt he was truly home again. This is what he always wanted. To be near him. To be just like this. To be his. Always. The deeper the kiss became, the ache he felt from their separation was ebbing away. A sweet tango of tongue, saliva and moist lips. Oh he loved kissing. He loved being kissed by Misu. No one can ever make him feel this way. To make him want another person so much as Misu did. Misu craved this taste. Was this the reason why felt so jittery earlier? Is this why he was craving for something sweet? Nothing was anything sweeter than this. Nothing could make him feel this good than holding him so close. Possessing him. Feeling this body surrender implicitly to his touch. It drove him mad with an even much stronger desire to posses him. To mark him. He didn't care anymore. Shingyouji was his and will always be. Their hands intertwined. Their noses touching. Their eyes glazed from passion. Shingyouji's cheeks were burning. His lips swollen from the searing kiss they just shared. Misu moved rhythmically on top of him. His legs gripping around Misu's hips. He could feel Misu's hand over his thigh and gripping them tightly to his side. It was all Shingyouji needed to keep himself from wildly trashing on the bed. He wanted to be restrained by Misu. Misu smirked in response as he watched the passion and want overpowering Shingyouji. He loved the fact that only he could get this response from him. Only he had the exclusive right and privelege to see this side of him. That only he could elicit this level of heightened lust from him. “Shingyouji...” “Yes? Arata-san...?” Shingyouji gasped. “I am never ever letting you go again. Ever.” _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ Hayama and Gii returned from their date. But as he tried to open the door to his room, it would not budge. Did Misu just lock him out? A confused Hayama walked towards to Gii's room instead and knocked on his door. “Anou...Misu-kun's room is locked. He never locked me out before. Do you think he's annoyed that I'm back so late?” Gii pulled his lover to his room and closed the door behind them. “I got a very interesting report from Shouzo while we were out.” “Eh? Really? What's it about?” “I'll tell you all about it in the morning. I still have one more birthday present to give you tonight.” Gii whispered to his ear. Hayama blushed and smiled. ~~~~ Owari?! AFTERTALK: OMG! I'm shaking like a leaf here. Another story finished. Oh God..this wasn't easy at all. It's so hard to write and cry at the same time. I'm feeling so overwhelmed right now.

“Shingyouji-chan...would you like some tea?” “Hai.” Shingyouji smiled at his grandmother. So many things happened all at once and seemingly so fast around him. His parents' divorce have finalized and the court granted full custody to his mother. His mother decided to move out of their old apartment in the city. But Shingyouji begged that he would stay with his grandmother in the province after the divorce proceedings instead of having to choose which of his parents he will be living with for the meantime. A decision both parents reluctantly agreed. It wasn't long his father also moved to another part of the city leaving their old apartment vacant. Shingyouji loved both his parents very much. But having been a witness to their neverending quarrels even as a young child, he developed a deep sense of insecurity and instability. He enrolled in Shidou hoping to escape the trauma only to be dragged back to where it all began. All the hurt and despair enveloping him a thousand-fold. Worse, he missed Misu. But did Misu miss him? Did he even care? “You know I worry a lot when you get all quiet like that.” His grandmother watched him as she poured a cup of tea for both of them. “Oh..I'm sorry, obaa-chan. I'm just tired, I guess.” “I understand. A broken home is no home for any child. It's always the children that suffer the most in this kind of situation. But don't ever give up, my love. I may be old and using a cane but I can still protect you.” “I know. You've always been very good to me. Thank you for letting me stay with you.” He smiled. “You're my precious grandson, of course. You're the only one your late grandfather and I have. If it were up to me, I'd have taken you in myself so you don't have to put up with all this messy custody battle.” “Perhaps it would have been better that way.” His grandmother looked at him thoughtfully as Shingyouji took a sip of his cup of tea. “Whatever happens, always remember you are loved. By me. Your friends and even your parents. As troubled as they are, they do worry about you in their own way. And you stand by your decision to make a better life for yourself and your future. You will be a full-fledged adult in a few years. One day all this will become a memory for you and you take whatever lesson from it that you can use to improve your life.” Shingyouji put his cup down and looked around the living room. “You and grandfather have lived in this house for so many years. How did you manage to stay despite all the memories you have here? Doesn't it hurt? Did you ever want to leave?” “Your grandfather and I built this house with our hands. Every corner of this house is a remembrance of him. It's been a part of us. When your grandfather passed away, I thought I was going to lose my mind but I have this house. This is his memory for me. It doesn't always mean that just because two people are apart means that nothing binds them together. There will always be that place that holds memories of you both.” Shingyouji reflected on his grandmother's wise words. This is why he longed to escape his home which brought nothing but painful memories of his parents neverending arguments. Other than his grandparents' home, Shidou was the only home he longed to be. He was happy there. But now he wasn't sure anymore if he could ever return to that place where he spent two years of precious memories of his love. “I love you, obaachan. Thank you for not giving up on me. Thank you for being there for me all this time.” He cried as he embraced his grandmother. “I know...I know. I love you too. I will always be on your side even when I'm gone from this world. Promise me, you will never ever give up on your happiness and fight for it. Don't let anyone tell you different.” “I promise.” _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ “Ah, Misu-kun!” Hayama greets him happily. Misu enters the room and sits on his bed. He notices Hayama's casual stylish attire and figured right away that he was going out on a date. “Where are you going?” “Eh? Anou...Gii said that there's this new movie he wanted to watch. Today is also my birthday so maybe it's nice to go out on a bright Sunday like this.” Hayama blushed. “Ah...sorry..I didn't know it was your birthday today.” Misu shook his head. Hayama chuckled. “Don't worry about it. It's not like I advertise it anyways. Don't you usually go out of town during Sundays?” “Not this time, I guess. I have some stuff to do.” “Try not to overwork yourself. This is what Sundays are for. You should take it easy sometimes.” “Hayama...I know I've been rather short-tempered lately. I really have a lot of things to deal with right now. Hope you understand.” Hayama notices Misu's sullen mood and he sits on the bed across him. “I understand. You don't need to explain yourself. It's been a month already and still no word from him. I miss him too.” Hayama looks at him sadly. He suddenly felt guilty for telling Misu he was going out with Gii. He hoped he didn't appear like he was showing off. He was genuinely worried about Misu and he really did miss his good friend Shingyouji. Misu clenched his jaw trying to keep his irritation in check. He knew exactly what Hayama meant. He also knew his roommate meant well but being reminded of that fact never sat well with him. “You better get going. I don't want Saki coming here to check on you.” Hayama nodded, stood up from the bed and headed for the door but just before he leaves, Misu calls out to him. “Hayama!” “Hai?” Hayama blinks. “Happy birthday. Have fun.” Misu gives him a small smile. Hayama flashes him a grateful smile and nods. “Thank you, Misu-kun. Try to take it easy today, okay? Ja ne!” Misu stood up and walked to his closet and pulled out a fresh change of clothes and a bath towel. He thought a good bath could somehow improve his mood. Having skipped breakfast again, he decided he'll take his brunch at the caferia after his bath. Do some reading at the library and study for the coming exams. To others what seemed like a Herculean effort of Misu to pour himself into studies and school council activities, for Misu it was only his means of getting rid of the void he felt. Redirecting his attention to school-related matters hopefully would stave off the ache in his heart. _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _ _