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(This is basically updates on life and I debated on whether to make it for about a year but my family is falling apart and I just need to get this off my chest.) Here are some things you should know: My father is always cheating on my mother. My mother has a severe victim mentality & always forgives my father. My Little sister is living in my parents house with her boyfriend (about a year and a half now) My Big Sister is emotionally abusive at times(massive mood swings and entitlement issues). Let begin with Today. Today is the first day my father doesn't have a job. He was fired Friday for absolutely NO REASON. He is currently looking for a job. He disrespected my dog Zac, calling him a retard and threatening to take him to the dog pound... this was all because of a donut. My father covers up his affairs by creating trouble and I know this but Zac is basically my only friend I would take with me when I leave this house. My little sister and her boyfriend have been living rent-free in my parents home for a year and a half. My parents haven't asked for rent since last month because they are sometimes helpful around the house but don't help pay bills. A few minutes ago she told my family that they are moving out to a place they found. The main reason being that they don't think they should have to pay $60 a month to live in my parents house. While I was in town running errands with my Big Sister (because I don't have a drivers license) (I'm 20 but I absolutely hate traffic and am terrified of cars), she wanted to get something to eat but doesnt know how to get there so I pulled up a GPS on my phone. Because the GPS is very spotty where we live, we sometimes miss turns because of delays but she takes it out on me, calls me a cow and how I am so stupid that a dog would do a better job. And of everything going on, my mother somehow makes herself the victim of everything, saying she is sorry she has made our life hell and that she should just put a bullet through her skull. I am tied of feeling guilty and pity towards my parents. She catches him cheating and still says she loves him. Lately I have been massively depressed. I watched Project S: SOS episode 1 yesterday and all the feelings I thought I buried years ago have been unearthed and shaken because of these events. I am smart but have noone to talk to. I have an associated degree but no job. I hate my father but have to pretend I don't. I have to play the peacemaker and tranquilizer for my sisters. I'm stuck in a loop and I am afraid that my dreams are being reduced to ash.

Yeah my..our cat Cutie Pie who we just fixed and was'nt even a year old passed away this morning from unknown causes, maybe distemper. So I may not RP for while since I'll be sad :`( Cutie Pie will always be that and greatly missed. This will not be a happy Labor day. I will miss you Cutie Pie, R.I.P dear sweet cat

Moving I am moving past you. Past your lies brown eyes and your smile. I am moving past you at the speed of goodbye Singing “hallelujah brother.” I have seen the light. I am moving past you. Beyond the horizon that lines the sky. I’m counting stars,while you're counting sighs. I am moving past you. Moving forward. But am I Moving backwards at the same time? Because when I looked back and saw you. I started to cry.

Three years, you stole from me. Hazel Orbs bribed me. Delicate hands branded me. Voice confused,caressed and controlled me. For three years your Sickly sweet words spun lies too tall not to tell.They blinded me. False actions,causing reactions not meant to be.They convinced me. How I, roamed the zone friends walk alone,how I should have known. They sentenced me. And now that you're gone. Now that you've stripped me,used me, and abused me. In your mind, I've realized. That I'll never be a memory.

Summary: Cody and Drake sacrifice their lives for love's sake. Status: Complete This is inspired the scene under the bridge in Darren Shan's Cirque Du Freak series. If you've read it, you'll understand. Please enjoy. "I can't!" I shook my head back and forth quickly, my brown hair moving along with my head. Tears filled in my eyes as I looked down at the boy I loved so much. His dark red eyes were pleading with me, begging me to... To stab him. Free him from the monster he was becoming. "You have to! Please, Cody! If you don't, terrible things will happen!" I started shaking as a few sobs and tears slipped passed my guard. "No... D-Drake, I c-can't!" he grabbed my face by my cheeks and looked into my eyes. "Why?" "Because I-I l-love y-you!" I cried, shutting my eyes tightly. I felt something soft and warm against my lips. Opening my eyes again, I gasped. Drake's tongue took advantage of the opening and slipped his tongue into my mouth, trying to get mine to play with him. I looked at his face. It seemed to be in pure heaven. I started kissing back and closed my eyes slowly. We parted, me keeping my eyes shut. "I love you too, Cody. That's why I have to do this." I opened my eyes just in time to see him drive the blade into his heart. I cried out and gripped the hand that held the knife. "D-Drake! Why?!" "B-Because... I... Love y-you..." he whispered breathily. He fell onto his back and his breath became staggering. "Drake!" I fell onto my knees next to him and held his upper body in my arms. "Stay with me! We can get help, Drake! We could-" "No, Cody... If I... Stay... You'd die..." "I'd rather die then be without you anyway!" I yelled at him. His eyes were getting hazy. I only had a few minutes. He caressed my cheek. "Take it..." he held his other hand out to me. I opened my hand below it and he dropped a ring into it. "What a... Way to... Propose, right?" he smiled and gave a breathy laugh. I looked at his now closed eyes. "You were going to...?" "Yeah..." I grabbed the blade off the ground and pressed my lips to Drake's as I cut a deep line on my wrists. "Now we'll be together." I said. He opened his eyes slightly. "I love..." and he was gone. I smiled as tears fell down my cheeks and I brushed some hair out of his face. I kissed his cheek. "I love you too." I closed his eyes and sat back, waiting for enough blood to leave my body. ~The End~