"Medicine" Rainbowman x Clove1 (private)

[Mors]

As I look on as niji is kissing me I am frozen from the feel of his kisses on my body. The feel of the hands on my own waist as he kissed me again and again. I would be a lot more responsive if it was not for the thoughts that had been in my mind right at that moment. I was think of the final words that the cleaning lady at nijis house had said before he had taken me away just a whisper in my ear but now I remember it all too clearly. She had said the wolves that had ripped up his mother and sister they say that you can still hear them around him some times. And every time he has gotten too close to someone they were found ripped apart. And I swear that on the final stretch up to the school I had seen wolves shadows and I swear even now I can hear them howling getting louder and louder.

[rainbowman]

I looked at you and asked "what are you thinking about" as if i could hear your thoughts but I'm still unsure about it. I stared into your eyes my eyes have darken for a little bit, like it automatically connected to your eyes inspecting your thoughts, but I shook my head and stopped for a bit telling myself 'no. I dont want to use that.' and so not looking at you I asked what your thoughts are.

[Mors]

As I gaze into nijis eyes I can only think about what must he be think while feeling his eyes on me as if they could pierce all the way into my soul. I stand there feeling the howls of the wolves grow louder then suddenly they stop. I hear a question from niji faintly asking me what I was thinking and with out even stoping my self to consider it I blurt out the wolves are attacking. Looking back at him I look at his face as first surprise then shock and finaly horror fills his face as he comprehends what I said. Then before my eyes I see what looks like the ghost of a wolf jumping towards niji ready to tear out his eyes. Dread filling me I push him out of the way screaming look out. We tumbled a few meters away but when I lloked back there was nothing there. Niji turned to me saying what is wrong with a quizzed look on his face. I looked around for a minute before I say I doo not know I am sure I saw a wolf jumping at us. As we turned to the stop again I see right before us a more solid looking version of the wolf that I first saw doing the exact same thing as the first one. No I reilised as I looked on it was the same one. It was the exact same one. Somehow I had seen what it was going to do a minute or two before it had. And as I comprehended this I saw the wolf look around confused before bounding off into the shadow gone as quickly as it had arrived.

[rainbowman]

I looked around and the place is empty. I looked back at you and asked "what is it? what's happening?" though I might know what exactly is happening, I remember back when I was a child, when wolves try to steal my soul, not just one but 4 of them, they are the same creatures who killed my family, as the last one attacks me I blacked out and not remember anything but my eyes hurting even afterwards, and after that, I wasnt killed, and I grew up and not get killed, I thought it was a curse for me, I was never hurt but all my closest ones get killed from time to time, it is the reason why I try to live alone, and so I thought it is a curse, a curse that will forever burden me, unless I die. I kept my eyes on you and see fear, looking at somewhere but I dont know what you see, I kept asking you what's going on but you're just shaking without saying anything. The wind blew stronger and I feel like it isn't safe here anymore. So I told you to go to your class and I'll be at the infirmary, meet me at my house after school, it is safe there. We can't meet at the infirmary anymore because of the rumor about us. As I walk to the hallway of the school I still am thinking about my past, as to why I was the only one left alive.

[Mors]

As I stand there looking at the spot where the two wolves had gone past I realised that while the second one had been more solid it was only by a tiny amount. Niji started to push me towards class saying to meet him at his house. During the rest of the day I all ways kept my eyes out on the spot where the wolves came from. I saw it bound across the same place exactly the same way time and time again each time it became more solid. By the end of the day it was almost completely solid. When the bell rang I lept a cross the room to the door and slowing down made my way to the door of the school. During the breaks I had tested out the wolf and had seen it pass right throught some people leading me to test out the theory that they were not really there and was succseful in seeing that they passed right throught every thing even me. As I approached the same spot again I looked around and spotted niji running towards me first in a slow manner then in a rushed frantic pace with a horrified look on his face. As I followed his eyes I saw once again the wolf bounding across towards me once again more solid then before. No wait not more soild it was now completely solid. And niji could see it!! As I turned to look at the wolf now in a full leap just inches from me and as my body leans to the right to jump I feel the teeth sinking into my shoulder to late to get free. And as the pain feels my mind all I can think is that I hope niji will be all right.

[rainbowman]

While I was at the infirmary, I was thinking of what will happen to Chris. Is he going to be alright? I feel like I'm being careless again, I am trying my best not to get close to anyone anymore. I hope to see him soon at my house. I am now with another patient, and healing his scraped knee. While I was at it I saw glimpse of something fast outside the window, the wind blew in the infirmary and I felt sharp pain in my chest, my body start to shiver in a bit. I know this feeling. I finished with my patient and went out, my heart is racing fast, I saw another glimpse but couldnt see because it was too fast. I tried to follow where it went. But it keeps on changing places. The day was stressful to me, I think I have to see Chris even before I go home, making sure he's alright. As I was walking I saw Chris, he's safe! But NO! I saw some flashes and there, a wolf running towards Chris! I ran as fast as I could and called out his name "CHRIS!!!" and i wasnt too fast, the wolf have graved it's teeth into your shoulder to your neck. As sharp pain crosses my chest again everything turned black in my eyes. And I blacked out. I dont remember how long. But when I opened my eyes I see bloodstains on my lab coat and you beside me with bleeding shoulder, and the wolf is gone. My eyes are still blurry but I carried you up and took you to my house, I can see you having a hard time to breathe as I take you home. And all I'm thinking about is healing you.

[Mors]

pain. pain every where. it feels like the pain is every where but is all radiating from my shoulder. like a posin spreading throught a body. random thoughts spread across hours of half sleep and half wakefulness. it is only now as the pain is ebbing away that i can rember what had happened and peice togther my thoughts. slowly the burning in my throat the burning in my shoulder and the burning in my heart started to faade to a point that i started to be aware of what was hppening around me. and after what had seemed like forever i opened and saw my niji looking onward with a calm look on his face most likely from seeing that i am alright. i hear him tell me to rest that i should lay there for a few minutes more. but i was sick of being told what to do and as a cool rage entered my viens i heard a crack then i was suddnely on the floor with the bed in 50 or 60 pieces. startled out of my rage i could not help laughting befor sayiny " well it seems the bed disagrees with you about how much longer i should stay in bed". trying to stand up i felt my shoulder throb but ignoreing it i turned to niji and with as much seriousness that i could muster i said "now tell me what the hell is going on"

[rainbowman]

I healed your wounds, made way to let the wolve's saliva out. I am a great healer. Why I was looking at the wound on your shoulder, I suddenly felt pain from my scar, and as I see blood coming out my eyes got blurry, I suddenly felt like dreaming, but I am still awake, just dazed, flashes of scenes suddenly popping out from my head. I started to sweat remembering things I dont know, I remember a dark and rustful place, I can smell blood from myself as well. I see light and I tried to touch it and I was kicked out from a place I used to live. What is that place? And who was I? I was thinking hardly to myself suddenly I saw my past. Someone giving me strength from the light I tried to reach, "The Goddess of Love" I remember now.

 

After my memories came back I looked at you and stayed on my cool. I dont want you to know and I dont know if I'd just tell you to leave or what because I dont want you to die and i dont want to lose you. You woke up and I told you to rest a bit, with your sudden rage the bed broke down. My face is blank while you look at me, asking me what's happening I think I have no choice, then so I explained what my memory have kept.

 

"I was a demon, not just any demon, I am the demon of pleasure, and pleasured myself through the light of the Goddess.. I was kicked out from hell because I was touched by this light, I am no longer the demon of lust and pleasure, I am corrupted with this love, and as a curse chained into my soul, everyone that is close to me, everyone that will come close to my heart and feel this "love" with will die." I stared back at you "you scared of me now?" I smiled jokingly even though my head is crowded with stress.

[Mors]

as the words came from his mouth words that should have no meaning that belonged in a book not iin real life. yet even as it entered into my ears i found myself accepting it. almost as if i already knew it and i was just gaining the words that i was right. flash. pain in my head memorys that i never knew were. but as quick as they they were there they were gone and i was left with a empty feeling. all this passed in less then a instant. as if nothing had happened i looked up at my niji and said " i understand please continue" all the time wearing a smile as if nothing was wrong. because deep in me i felt as if nothing had changed that i was just rembering something i had forgotten about. nothing more. but just as niji opened his mouth to continue wolves were suddenly every where. and as they attacked niji i felt a great voice inside of me saying " let go of him now!!" the voice so powerful. but not me. no it was me but not me it was the real me. but even as these went in to my mind i felt the great being that was me destroying them makeing me forget them keeping me in the darkness about my true identity. suddenly feeling faint i realised that the great being was takeing over me my body that i was in a way for a while would be taking on my true form for the sole purpose of destroying the wolves around me. that for a while once again i would have to be again the most powerfulest of the 7 powers second only to the great god in the sky, i would have to be again the great god of cuteness. and i was

going

to

save niji

and the darkness over took me and i forgot what happened

besides that i was about to faint

and i did

[rainbowman]

I was in shock looking at Chris as he try to destroy everything around him. I felt the pain around my body, as if part of me is losing it. As if my demon-being is being neglected by my own. Sharp pain. I saw Chris faints he must have used a lot of energy. I dont know what it is that is happening. But why do I feel like this feeling is so familiar within my heart. "CHRIS!" I yelled as I ran towards him, what is happening?! I dont understand. A sudden voice that creeps into my ears whispered to me, but I couldnt understand, it's as if something's telling me to let go of Chris, but I dont want to. I put Chris' head on my lap, and refused to do as that whisper is telling me. I feel a strong aura coming from Chris as I rub his head, and now I shall wait for him to be awakened.

[Mors]

I am so weak was my first thought

But I feel so strong

It was if every part of my body was energized beyond belief. I felt like I could pick up a building without even any effort. Yet I was still so weak. While I might feel the strength in my veins flowing it was if I was paralysed so that I could not move. The only part of me that I could even feel was my head. It felt so warm. As if it was floating on a cloud of warmth. As I struggle to open my eyes I try to reamber what happened. But even as I griped onto the idea it fell away from me as if I was drugged. Slowly the strength started to fade and with it the effects of paralysis. By the time that I felt that I was able to move around again I had already lost two thirds of my strength. But even with what was left I felt so powerful. And as I opened my eyes to look into the eyes of niji whose lap I had just realized I was laying my head in I could only just hear what he said. As I could see the lips move again and again a shadow again and again not real not the present one. And after what had seemed like forever he said what I had been waiting for. But it was not what I had expected him to say. He said to me “ Chris what happened your eyes they have turned pink”

What? Was what was flowing through my mind as I tried to comprehend what he had said he finished his sentencd.

And your eyes are also glowing!!!

What was going on I thought at the same time as I asked niji questioningly expect him to have all the answers.

[rainbowman]

Expect nothing from me though, but I felt this so much familiar feelings. I see your eyes glow and suddenly remembered something in the past, about the light I use to see and fall in love with. What the hell is this kid, the first time I saw him I got interested and I feel like protecting him, even though I know things would get worse I still come to him. Why? Everything in my head filled with confusion as look at you. Andbecause ofthings that I remembered I answered you "I dont know but..." sliding my hand in your head "you destroyed my comrades.." I was talking about the wolves.. Still feeling some pain of losing a part of me.. I kind of felt more weak. I'm losing my demon-ness..

[Mors]

as his words regester in my mind i just got more confused. he had called the wolves comrades? as i feel the pain that radiates in his voice in his face i am most feel like i can feel his soul reaching out to me like i could touch it like i could see it a filthy shadow with a heart of gold. confused and in shocked i numbly said out loud " if those were your comrades then i would hate to see how your enemys treat you." as i laught at my lame age old joke i can see the hint of a smile in nijis mouth before once again the darkness returns. lately it had been like we had no time to be us. so as he sat there a shadow of his former self i leaned over towards him and lightly kiss him. as i pulled away from the kiss with a soft smile on my face i open my mouth in shock. where i had kissed him on his perfect lips there was a burning smell and a hint of fire. what ever energy i had been holding what ever left over powers i had used from that moment of blackness it had gone. fled out of me to attak the darkness in front of me! niji started to hiss in pain as his whole face was comsumed with a white and pink flame. it traveled all over his body. however when it went out niji did not look burnt he did not even look blackened if any thing he looked cleaner as if the flame had been trying to make him pure. i could see that it had not succed in it but it had made him less black and the gold i had seen had grown bigger and the blackness surronding it was no longer like a shadow and more like burnt gold blackened beyond belief but if you worked hard i was sure i could clean him up. as i looked at his face i could see that he even looked nicer. and i decieded then and there that he was the one for me. because for some strange reason because of me he was becomeing a better person. well he was become a good demon at least. and that was enough for me to realise that i loved him. and i most likely allways will. but the question remained did he love me? we had a long road ahead but i was sure that by the end of it the dented and blackened gold heart of his i am sure that one day it will shine. and i hope i am there when it happens.

[rainbowman]

This is strange. The strangest feeling I ever felt. Familiar but strange. What's happening? Deep pain inside me, but it doesnt show, I could only stare at one side and not move a bit. This is painful.. "P-pain..ful.." I whispered and held my chest, not really too much but I feel like I'm operated inside my body, sharp pain it is. As the pain run through my vein my eyes turned into darkness, like I've become a full-demon for the first time, but it's more like, my demon heart is reacting to your flames. In darkness I my eyes are blurred in red, like I am looking in a tinted vision, I look at you like a prey to be eaten, a victim. My head is still astray I blinked slowly and grabbed you, moving down the floor I spoke "I am a demon" and I spoke more "I am more than what you imagine me to be" coming closer towards you my aura has began to darken, wider than before. I caressed your face while staring at you, being on top of you now, good and bad fighting inside my heart, I kissed you slowly as I try to hold you still.

[Mors]

i stare as the power that i had put in him slowly disaperared. no was hidden further in his heart. what i had done had effected him alot but right now he somehow was suppressing it. as he held me close to him i could now feel his power starting to burn me. as tears slowly worked themselves down my cheeks i looked at myself and him in the mirror behind him i stared at the dark aura that completely surrouned him. i stared at it as it got blacker and dirtyer. suddenly i gasped as i notice that on nijis face there was a single tear that was glowing. slowly it work its way down hi cheek to his chin and afterr what had seemed like forever it fell into my hair. the seccond it landed on my hair there was a flash of pink light. as i looked around to see where it was comeing from i looked into the mirror and saw it was me. it was comeing from the heart of the jewel that was encruseted on my armour. wait ... armour!!! as i looked at myself in the mirror i could see a suit of amour on me. however it was like no amour i had ever seen. it was like a body a dress that was more suited for a ball then battle and at the back there was to parts sticking out that could only be for wings. as i looked around i could see niji had been thrown back and could almost not even stand. as he struggled to get closer to me the light increased to the poin where he was almost could not even move forward. however after what had seemed like hours he reached me and held me again. the secondd he touched me the light was gone and all i could reamber was the feel of his lips on mine the feel of his arms wrapped around me. and as i we sat there kissing i did not even notice the arrival of my parents. i did not even noticed when my mother dropped every thing she was holding on the floor. however i did notice the combined screams that my parents made when what i was doing sunk in. that is my homophobic parents of cource. and as i thought of what they would do i knew that i would never see them again most likely. and i also needed to ask niji if i could live with him.

[rainbowman]

I felt pain, why do I always feel this kind of pain, it is different from being killed, I was killed a lot of times as a demon and hell, I know what hell means, it has become my home. And now everything became blurry again, what do I do? I'm still in the middle of kissing Chris. I moved a bit and saw his tears drop down his cheeks. And without any reason or let's say, with a reason I do not know, I have tears on my cheeks as well. No, was it from me?

 

Few seconds, I dont know what's happening, why do I always black out, my sight is all darkness, I can see light, I try to catch it, but it's so hard, I'm used to all the darkness, why do I feel like I wanted to be saved? I tried more to reach the light, and suddenly it sparked, and reached my hands. This time it's so bright.

 

I opened my eyes and see myself kissing Chris. I still dont know what really happened while I'm having my usual black out, but all I thought that moment was not to stop, I hugged him even tighter and kissed him deeper, whatever it is that's happening in my surrounding, I dont know anymore. The only thing in my head now is Chris.

[Mors]

as i look at my mother standing there the bag she was holding on the floor stareing at me as i tried to push niji away from my his arms to stong the strenght that i had had moments ago all gone a distant memory that i could for some reson not even reamber really happening to me. it was distant like something that had not even happened to me like it was a scene that someone else had told me about. but even as i struggled to get free from both my memories and nijis grip i knew that no matter what happened my life was over. SMASH!!! i was suddenly ripped out of nijis embrace and thrown to the other side of the room. looking up my head hurting my vision blurry i saw my father a monster of a man a person that was at the top of there abillites when it comes to streanght his arms mucled and bulging swinging a fist at niji. my niji!!

and as it inched closer to his face my fear slowing it all down in my prespective i had a feeling of dread that some one was in alot of danger. however i did not know who it was. whether it was my niji i was scared would get hurt. or if it was my farthers life i was fearing for. however what mayth happen i knew that when it was over i would never see my parents again. from now on niji was first.

[rainbowman]

Chris' father punched me hardly, I couldnt argue more with them, since I'm also at fault. We are both males and still I'm doing this. We are doing this. So what. I wiped my cheek as it bruises from his father's punch, that was strong, I did hold back for a little while. His mother now is at shock as I look at her, thinking what should I do now. I don't really care what they say to me, but I do care what they think about Chris. I stood up straight and bowed to them, telling them I'm sorry it is my fault, don't get angry with Chris. But they wouldn't care, I try to hide my demon self as they understand my explanation. But moving on, they will still be mad. I know that. His father is yelling loudly, pissing my ears off, I don't want to waste any more time in here. I can feel Chris' love towards me and I know this feeling, I love him too. I will have to understand this deeper later, as of now, I have to stay on my cool and leave with Chris, or else they might do something bad to him.

 

I bowed again, this time holding Chris' hand, and pulled him out his house. His father is aiming for another punch, but I dodged it, pulling Chris more to myself and carried him, I went to my own house for relaxation. This has been a tiring day for me.

[Mors]

As he pulled me behind him I could not help but feel a hint of pride in niji. He had faced off my farther to defend his love for me he had calmly tried to protect me from blame he had chosen me. right now I loved him so much. It would be perfect if it were not for the bruise that was already appearing on my niji and the ache in my arm as I was pulled by him. But nothing is perfect. Well except for niji I thought as an afterthought. And as I was pulled by him to who knows where I reliesed that from now on my life was with him. I was not going to be welcomed back into the house that I had grown up in. and that meant I was going to live with niji I realized as I recognized my surrounds. When we got there we stood there letting it all sink in. and as I turned to face niji I saw him do something that I at first thought I must have imagined he suddenly smiled and said to me “welcome home”. It was these small things that I loved the most. And trying my hardest to stop myself from crying I put on a happy face and replied “good to be home” and it was good. Suddenly heading towards the front door I thought struck me. I was going to have to think of a way to convince niji that we could not share the same room.

[rainbowman]

Chris and I went in my- I mean, 'our' house. I can see his fear from what happened awhile ago, but then I can also see his happiness with me. I'm glad as well. And hope this would last. I told my cleaning lady to ready my bath, since I'm all this dirty and Chris too. I carried Chris going to the room but he struggled telling me to not share the room. I explained to him though, my room is big enough for me and since we both feel the same way with each other, then why not sleep together, right? Besides, the guest room isn't fixed yet, because I never had visitors before, the only room available is my maid's room and mine. And I won't allow Chris to sleep in the maid's room ofcourse. So I made a deal with him, I'll sleep on the floor with a futon, and he'll sleep in my bed. Yes, I'm that kind of guy, though I can never promise not to touch him, ofcourse, the love I feel is quite bursting as of the moment. But I'll make sure not to rape him haha I promise that. Going in my room, I sighed to Chris and told him, it'll be alright. Kissing his forehead as a sign for my respect towards him, before opening the door of my private room, it means I will keep my promise.

[Mors]

i steped into the room knowing that i was going to be safe. i mean it was not like i was in any danger of being harmed in the first place. i peer down at the my hands and see that they are covered in dirt. sighing i turned towards niji to ask him where the bath room. as i voiced my question i say a look in his eyes that made me worried. confused by his intructions i got tired of trying to understad and just asked him to show me the way. looking up i saw as nijis grin grow even wider and i began to get really worried. leading me down a seris of stairs and around so many corners i began to wonder how big his house was. we had already passed heaps of rooms all of empty of life but fully furnished. after what had seemed like forever but only really three or so minutes we stoped at a set of doors. i steped forward and opened it reveling a huge bath filled to the brim with steaming warm water. a bit excieted at the thought of relaxing in the the nice warm water i steped forward and failed to see niji step into the room with me. confused i turned around and i asked what he was doing. and to my horror and dread he replied saying "i am haveing a bath. with you"!

[rainbowman]

Saying those words as I take off my clothes, "what? something wrong with taking a bath with you?" I went in the water looking relaxed, I looked at Chris and signaled him 'come here'. "Dont be shy just go in the water" aahh refreshing it is. This is relaxing, after everything that happened finally there's a time to rest even for a little while. I smiled with a little grin on my lips, just a little, trying not to make him see what I am thinking. I am only thinking though, I don't plan on harming him at any cost, maybe a little. Stupid brain keeps thinking about these unclean things. So looking back at Chris still not wanting to go in the water, I stood up and carried him going in, "you wont be able to clean yourself if you keep standing there" I placed him gently in the bath and I sitted not too far from him but with distance. I pushed myself down the water, half of my face showing, feeling this I want to sleep.

[Mors]

i splash into the water beisde him i start to blush. i feel so exposed and start to worry about what might happen!!. i look over to niji to see if i might be able to see what his intentions where. but his calm manner his laid back way and his obvious enjoyment of the warth of the bath manged to calm me down and relise that nothing was going to happen. at least i hoped nothing would happen as i slowly noticed his heavy breathing the slight nervious looks he gave me and .....other indicaters that showed me that behind that calm extiror that he was think of something that i most likely was complety against. but soon so very soon the warmth of the bath stated to affect me and i started to feel a little sleepy. as the warmth evolped over me i slipped little by little down the edge of the enormous bath and to tired to protest to myself laid my head on nijis cheast. he felt so warm i noticed as i slowly close my eyes. so warm

[rainbowman]

Laid back feeling the warmth of the water plus Chris' warmth as well, I am trully enjoying my moments. Ahh I love this.. Resting in this bath I want to sleep. I put my hands on Chris' head, caressing it while I close my eyes. I have no intention of touching him, I swear, I just want to rest, with all those tiresome events that had occured for the past days.

 

For awhile as we still are at rest and bath, my maid knocked the door, telling me someone's on the phone. I stood up kissing Chris' forehead my body naked seen by him, It doesn't matter, we're both males. I answered the phone and the one speaking was the school principal, asking what happened as Chris' parents reported him to school, they are now backing up my scholarship and is going to remove me from being a nurse as punishment to kidnapping Chris' they say. With everything, they said they will only give back everything to me if I give Chris back to his parents. But I answered "shut up. I'm not giving him up to anyone else but myself." and hang the phone. I went back to the bath thinking, if my love for his light will lead me to enlightenment, or is it me leading Chris to the dark side.

[Mors]

as i blush hot red the sight of niji's naked body burned into my mind the strong cheast the legs all so perfect. feeling hotter then ever i try to consertrate on other things to try and cool me down. i put my hands in front of me and look at them trying to consertrate on them. as i slowly rotate them i notice a faint sound that to my ears sounds like shouting or yelling. as i consertrate on it sundenly the noise is very loud it sounds like someone is shouting into my ear!!!. surpised i jump up and look to where it is comeing from to be amazed that there was nothing. the sounds is now gone but before it dissapeared i recall that it was clearly nijis voice and that he was shouting something about me being his. looking to the door were a minute or two ago niji had dissapeared throught i suddenly had a idea. if i got out of the bath then niji would most likely make me go back in. but what if i was to but in some bubble mixture? that way when niji got back it meant that the lower half of our bodys would be hidden and it would not be so....embarssing for me. i hoped out of the bath while pulling the plug out and hurried to the cupboard. to my dismay i could not see and mixture but i remembered that that there was another cupboard set into the wall that was hard to see. i quickly searched the wall above it and found a bump in the wall. i pulled on it and the cupboard opened. to my happyness i could clearly spot a bottle of bubble mixture althought it did look a bit old. i grabbed it and then hurried back to the bath that was by then half empty. i put the plug back in and then poured in most of the bottle of the mixture before turning on the tap to fill it up again and to also creat the bubbles. as a after thought i grabbed a towel and wrapped it around my waist before jumping in again the now almost full and very bubbly bath. listening carefully i heard the faint sounds of niji turning the handle of the door and twisting around to turn off the taps waited for him to come in.