(Private RP) Coming out with a Bang <<syaoran-puu & BunBunTheCatSnake>>

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Thomas smirked as he felt Hollis squirm and cum. He felt that tightness around him and moaned hungrily. Wanting and needy for his own release. He wanted this man with a passion and desire he couldn’t contain.

 

“Oh I will. I’m going to mess you up inside so much.” He hummed. Greedy. This was addictive. Hollis was addictive.

 

Thomas thrust his hips up harder and faster, holding Hollis’ legs in place as he abused his slutty hole. “You feel so good.” He hummed.

 

Another few thrusts and he came undone. Spilling inside the man. Hard and heavy as he kissed him back with near desperation. He grunted and groaned against his lips. “Fuck....” he moaned out.

 

A few more mini spasms and thrusts until he was still. Panting softly, exhaustion heavy now. “You still feel amazing.” Thomas winked, smirking at him.

 

He slapped Hollis’ arse with a chuckle. “Come on. Up you get. I need really do need to go... unfortunately.” He winked. “But I’ll meet you at the restaurant tonight. Yeah?”

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

When Thomas came, Hollis couldn't help but smile through the kiss. He let out soft weak moans as Thomas continues to thrust upwards, his lips still kissing the man hungrily. What gave Thomas the right being so... perfect. Thomas was exactly his type -he looked like a Greek God and fucked like a porn star, and that was really all Hollis required in a man. When Thomas slapped his behind, Hollis rolled over onto his back.

 

"Besides my artistic skill, fucking is really the only other thing I'm good at." Hollis said as he turned to his side, and pecked Thomas' cheek. His eyes flashed up towards the analog clock on his wall, before he got up. "We are still most definitely on for dinner tonight though. I wouldn't miss it for the world." Hollis winked at the man, before he grabbed his silk robe and threw it on.

 

"Let's see, it's nearing noon now. Want to shoot for eight o'clock?" Hollis asked, his eyes moving from the clock to Thomas.

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“You are very good at fucking.” He agreed with a grin. Thomas couldn’t deny the pleasure he felt lost to the others body. “I’m sure you’re great at art too.” He’d like to see that too.

 

“Dinner.” Thomas winked as he got dressed. Happy to have plans.... even if they would signal the end. “Eight is great.” He hummed be gently. He’d rip off the band aid. Tell him the truth.

 

It wasn’t long until he was fully dressed. He kissed him tenderly. Happy. Happy to feel something real, even for just a moment. So different to Sarah.

 

“See you later, sexy.” He winked playfully. “Wear something cute for me. Yeah?” Thomas teased. He reached and stroked his cheek. Needing to feel a connection. At least for a moment.

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Hollis' eyes lit up when Thomas agreed to the time, "eight it is." Hollis said, feeling a little giddy over their plans. It had been a while since Hollis had been so excited for well... anything. Life felt so boring lately, hat it was nice having something exciting happen for once. Thomas was his dream guy. There had to be something wrong with him, though Hollis just couldn't find it.

 

After Thomas got dressed, Hollis couldn't help but wish that he was naked just a bit longer. Hollis smiled when Thomas leaned in to kiss him, his arms wrapping around his neck. He kissed him back, his hands moving from Thomas' neck to hold his hips. When the kiss ended, Hollis couldn't help but smile from ear to ear.

 

"See you later," Hollis said softly, his head leaning into his hand. "Of course. It'll be cute and easy to remove." Hollis purred, his fingers hooking into Thomas' pants belt hoops, before pulling his hips closer. He kissed Thomas on the lips, before pulling away. "Thanks for the wild night."

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“Any time, sexy.” Thomas winked. Not entirely true. When his daughter and Sarah where home he needed to stay with them.... but until reality came crashing down....? He would indulge in the fantasy.

 

Thomas stroked his cheek and winked as he left.

 

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Later that day

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Thomas had done some work, done some of the chores for Sarah and cleaned his car. He couldn’t help the excitement that started to bubble around seven o’clock! He grabbed a shower, shaved and dressed in a nice suit. He thought he looked rather dapper.

 

Climbing in the car he headed to the restaurant, arriving fifteen minutes early. He knew he had to open up with the truth.... but how was he meant to tell him?

 

Leaning on the wall he played with his dog tags, lost in thought as he waited for Hollis.

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

Hollis leaned against the hallway wall for a few seconds after Thomas left, before he turned away to take his second shower that morning. It didn't take long, he was was thoroughly cleaning what Thomas left inside, which only took a few minutes. Afterwards he quickly got dressed in a comfortable black t-shirt and some ripped black jeans, before he brushed his hair and left.

 

Hollis got into his car, his stereo blasting Two Door Cinema's Something Good Can Work the second he started it. He slightly turned it down, before he tore out of the parking lot. It didn't take long for him to get you his art gallery, seeing that it was just a few blocks away. His gallery, which doubled as a studio, wasn't too large - though it wasn't small either. It had large windows, where pedestrians could see only a fraction of the art that hung there. Hollis liked to display art by LGBTQ+ artists, who would otherwise go unnoticed. Because of this, Hollis painted rainbows onto the walls. His gallery was a colorful place, filled with even more colorful people.

 

The second Hollis walked into his gallery, he was greeted by his two employees: Ruth and Zeke. The two were self supporting college students, who were pursuing a degree in art. They worked hard, and even had some of their art displayed in his gallery. Hollis honestly felt that they would go far, and he supported them every step of the way.

 

"Hollis! Glad you're here," Zee began as he grabbed a sticky note. "Andrew came by again." Zeke handed Hollis the yellow sticky note, which Hollis immediately read, before rolling his eyes.

 

"He's persistent as ever. I have his number already. The dude just can't take a hint." Viridian tore the note, before dropping them into the dumpster. "Thank you Zee." Hollis offered him a smile, "anything else? I just came to check up on you guys. I know it gets burning here sometimes."

 

Ruth looked at Zeke, before she looked at Hollis. "Actually, everything has been super slow. We did get a few people who came in though. Zeke and I got to witness the worst date ever."

 

"Oh my god!" Zeke bursted in, his hands excitedly slamming against the marble desk. "It was awful! This girl called this dude by the wrong name." Ruth started to laugh, her hand holding her stomach.

 

"It was awful. He was like, 'um... my name is Scott.' Then the girl was like, 'oh yeah. I knew that.' Then awkwardly laughed. They legit didn't really talk at all for the rest of the date."

 

"I was awkward just watching it." Zee added, his pierced lips pulled into a wide smile. "What about you? I heard you went out last night, how'd it go?"

 

Hollis smiled as he leaned against the desk, his head leaning against his folded arms. "I met a guy last night. We're actually going on a date. He's sweet, funny... really, just perfect. There has to be something wrong with him, but I really can't find it."

 

"Don't tell Andrew," Ruth joked, as she brushed her red curly locks aside. "He has it bad for you. Though I'm happy for you."

 

"Let's just hope that you don't end up like poor Scott." Zeke joked, which got him a dirty look by Ruth. Hollis stayed there for only a few minuets more, before he headed home.

 

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Hollis checked himself out in the mirror before he left. This was the first time since high school that he felt so anxious about a date, though at least he looked nice. His white wavy locks were pushed back, and he wore an open dark purple velvet blazer over a black turtleneck. His slacks were dark purple as well, which hugged every part of his lower body perfectly.

 

When he made it to the restaurant, he smiled as he caught view of Thomas. He walked up to him, his heart beating in his chest. "Hey handsome," Hollis greeted, as he leaned against the wall next to him.

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Thomas grinned and looked over. “You forgot my name? Or just like reminding me that you find me attractive?” He teased, with a wink. “Come on then, sexy.” He winked at Hollis again as he kicked off from the wall. “Shall we, Hollis?”

 

Leading the way inside he smiled at the server and gave his name. He’d requested a private spot, somewhere for them to have a touch of privacy.... and to reduce the chances of Thomas being seen or recognised. Not that he’d picked a ‘normal’ spot. It was why he hadn’t touched Hollis yet either though. He could claim they were just friends having food that way!

 

As they were led to their table he smiled back at the man, “that outfit really suits you. You look good.” Sliding into the round booth he sat at the end and smiled to Hollis to join him. “Shall we order wine? Or are you driving?” Thomas had already decided that a taxi home was an option for himself but he needed the Dutch courage of alcohol!

 

He needed to just tell Hollis..... he really did! It was only fair..... “Before we kick off this date... I really need to tell you something. It’s only fair you know the truth. And I understand if you want to leave afterwards...” even if Thomas hopes Hollis might stay, the chances were incredibly slim!! “....though I hope you don’t.”

 

He looked to the man. Band aid! Just rip it off. “I have a wife and a daughter.”

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

Hollis found it odd that Thomas didn't touch him at all, though he chalked it up to first date jitters. He liked that Thomas got a private booth though; this restaurant was a popular place for the art community, and Hollis didn't want to run into anyone tonight - especially Andrew.

 

"You don't look too bad either, hot stuff." Hollis complimented as he slipped into the booth across from Thomas, which made him feel very small. It wasn't like Hollis was a tall man at all. He was small, though these seats made him feel even smaller somehow. He tried to straighten his back to appear larger to the man, though he felt as if it just made him seem silly.

 

"I'm driving unfortunately. I wanted to remember this date." Hollis said as he flashed Thomas a small little smile. When Thomas announced that he had something to tell him, his facial expressions twisted with worry. "What's... up?" Hollis said as he forward.

 

Hollis' face dropped from worry, to sadness, to anger, and then back to sadness all in a few seconds after Thomas confessed his secret. "A wife and daughter..." Hollis repeated as he leaned back, his teeth gnawing at his bottom lip. This was worst than poor Scott's date. Hollis was quiet for a minuet, his stomach sick with anger. "I knew there had to be something wrong with you. So are you planning on divorcing her, or playing us both?"

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“Driving. No worries.” Hollis wanted to remember this date? He might regret that decision when he learns the truth!

 

The band aid was ripped off, Thomas winced at the variety of emotions on Hollis’ face. “For now? I have to stay with her for the good of my daughter. She too young and she’s innocent in all of this.” He admits. “Last night.... I wasn’t planning on anything but a one night stand and a little of what I really want before being trapped with her once more. Until then next time.” Thomas frowned. “Not saying it was the right thing or a nice thing to do.”

 

He watched him closely. The seats curved all the way around the table, he slid all the way round so he was closer to Hollis... not liking the distance... but he didn’t touch him. “I didn’t want to go further and lie to you. Because I genuinely like you Hollis. You’re everything I always dreamed of. Funny, hot, free with his body.... a guy.” His fingers curled together, he wanted to touch but didn’t. That wasn’t fair! “We originally got married because of a pregnancy scare.... I was too young, never heard of gay men at the time, didn’t realise I liked men... I just wanted to do the right thing. Then I was trapped. Eventually came my time in the army, my first escape, when I discovered I preferred a man’s body. My wife did end up falling, and I don’t regret my Bella at all.” Annabell. His beautiful daughter. “But doing the right thing for her means staying with Sarah. At least for now.” His heart squeezed painfully. “So no, not divorcing her yet.... but maybe when Bella is old enough to decide things for herself. I won’t make any promises on that. And if you wanted to try something? I want you to know what you’re getting into.” He wanted Hollis in his life, even just stolen moments.... but he was too afraid to take it for more! Too afraid of rejection.

 

Thomas sat. Still and quiet. As he watched him. “I’m sorry, Hollis.”

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Hollis rolled his eyes when Thomas said he had to stay with Sarah. He took it as an excuse to just keep Hollis on the side, like some sort of plaything. Hollis shook his head, his lips trembling with unsaid words. He wanted to scream at him, and walk out. Hollis wasn't a stranger to bad dates, but this took the cake.

 

Hollis scooted a bit away from Thomas when he moved closer, his angled boiling in his stomach just having him near. He tried so hard to stay angry while Thomas explained that he didn't intend for the to happen, but he was always bad at harboring negative feelings. He just didn't understand why he could just leave his wife? Wouldn't it be better to show his daughter to be true to herself, rather than hide away? Hollis didn't have any children though, so he couldn't really judge.

 

The apology just made Hollis squirm awkwardly in his seat. He was silent for a few seconds, his hand rubbing his neck in silence. "I get not wanting to come out. It's a difficult situation you're in, and I don't want you to rush it... But, is having a side piece really the way to go?" Hollis turned his body slightly, so he faced Thomas. "I don't want to be some dirty little secret, Thomas. Not... forever at least. I'm also not a homewrecker." Hollis studied Thomas's face for a short second, before he reached out and grabbed his hand. "Do you love her, Thomas? Do you even want to be with her? Will I be ruining something good, if I agree to be with you?"

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Thomas wasn’t surprised when Hollis pulled away. He didn’t blame him! He squirmed slightly in the seat. Just proves I shouldn’t wish for more. I picked the life I’ve got... even if I regret it!

 

He winced at the mans question. “You’re probably right.... it’s not.” He frowned. “It’s selfish of me.” Thomas scratched the back of his neck. Quiet.

 

Not forever? So.... he might consider it? “I never said I thought you where. It’s not you wrecking my home anyway. It’s me.... my fault. Only mine. I’ve cheated on her repeatedly over the years. Always just.... to get a taste of a man....” he swallowed.

 

Thomas frowned at the questions. “I don’t love her romantically. But we have been through a lot I suppose. I met her at school. Didn’t know of anything else. Boys were expected to date girls. So I did....” he frowned. “I thought of leaving her before. Before Bella.....” he shook his head. “There’s nothing good between us. Just.... cold and emptiness.”

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

It worried Hollis that Thomas had cheated on Sarah before. If he pursued a relationship with Thomas, would he cheat on him too? Hollis knew nothing about Thomas, and even though everything seemed so wrong about continuing this thing they had, selfishly he wanted to. Hollis bit hit lip in thought as Thomas answered his string of questions, his grey eyes flashing over to look at the man as he explained how empty his relationship with Sarah was.

 

Hollis rolled his eyes before he bent his head back slightly. "How would a relationship between us even work, Thomas?" He turned his eyes to look at him, before they looked back at the ceiling. "Would I just be some piece of ass you'll fuck once week? I don't want to be a hit it and quit it experience. I want to this to be a 'hit it and keep coming back' thing... But I'm concerned about a few things."

 

Hollis turned his body slightly, his knees resting against Thomas'. "First of off, I don't want to go somewhere with you, kiss and get you outed. It sucks getting outed when it isn't your terms, and I would hate for that to happen to you when it's not your time yet. I also have issues with doing this behind your wife's back... but, and call me selfish, I feel something between us. It's not just animal like hunger, but we just kind of click. You're funny, charming, and I can stare into those eyes of yours all day." Hollis sighed softly, his gaze falling onto the space between them. "But is this right?"

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Thomas frowned softly, listening at first. He wasn’t sure he had adequate answers for him.... but he’d try!

 

“There will be weekends and times like this one. When Sarah goes to her mothers and I stay behind. Then I would be completely yours.” Thomas shrugged lightly, “on a normal week? I can try to pop in to see you during my lunch breaks or after work. I can stay longer by telling Sarah I have to work late or something. It’s not ideal. I’m aware it will feel like making time for you.... and I know that’s not fair to you. You should be someone’s only thought. Not something they are trying to squeeze around other commitments...”

 

Thomas looked down at the knee touching his, he reached and stroked it tenderly.

 

“I imagine we both know this isn’t right.... nor is it fair on Sarah and Bella or you.... but I’ve never wanted something or someone as much as I want you Hollis. You consume my every thought! My mind. My body.” He hummed, looking up into Hollis’ eyes. “But it could be years until I gain the courage to claim you for my own properly. To do so is to risk my daughter.... I can’t.... lose her.”

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

Hollis slumped in his spot slightly when Thomas was describing how everything would play out. He felt bad that he was so angry about the situation, but at that same time he had a right to be so angry. Thomas had no right being at that bar picking up guys, but then who could blame him? Thomas was at war with what he wanted and what we felt was right - in a way, Hollis felt like he was in that same boat.

 

When Thomas grabbed his knee, Hollis looked into those gorgeous purple eyes. A small smile crossed his lips as Thomas explained how much he wanted him, though it faded a bit when he said it could be years until he had him to himself. It was sweet that Thomas was ready to sacrifice his happiness for his daughter, but was it really fair to him? Hollis wasn't a parent, so he didn't understand.

 

Hollis leaned in and kissed Thomas' cheek softly. When he pulled away, he stayed close to him. "Can I think about it?" Hollis asked softly, his eyes never leaving his gaze. "I just... I've been on the other side of this, Thomas. I've been cheated on again, and again - and I don't want to contribute to it. At that same time though, I just want to kiss you."

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Thomas watched him closely. He knew this was a lot to ask for... with each second his heart started to accept that Hollis would say no. Why wouldn’t be? A normal person would. He’d expected as much. Hope was futile.

 

He nodded, “of course you can. As long as you need.” He promised. Thomas sighed, shaking his head. “I’m aware this.... makes me a bastard.” He frowned, looking at Hollis. He stroked his cheek. “I’ve never.... wanted more before.... If you agreed.... I wouldn’t sleep with anyone else or go out looking.” He meant it too. “You already know about Sarah, I won’t hide anything there. If you asked I would tell you anything you want to know.” Thomas promised.

 

They’d had fun.... and not just the sex. Their talk and playful banter had been good too. Right?

 

“Do you still want to have dinner?” Or would Hollis be walking out the door right now? Never to be seen again most likely. Thomas couldn’t blame him. It was complicated.... and all the baggage was his!

 

Poor Hollis though. Any one cheating on him was an absolute idiot!

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

It eased Hollis' mind at least a little when Thomas said that he wouldn't go looking for anyone else if Hollis agreed - but how could he be sure? They only knew each other for a day, and Hollis couldn't be sure if his word was bond or not - though Hollis had no reason to doubt the man, he certainly was a bit cautious as well. On the other hand, Hollis had already slept with him, and even kissed the man - something he never did to a one night stand, or even a continuous fuck buddy.

 

When Thomas asked if he wanted to stay for dinner, Hollis just gave him a soft smile. "Sure," Hollis said, his tone a little sad. They were here, and Hollis even dressed up for the man - it'd be a waste to leave now. Hollis picked up the menu, his eyes scanning their dinner items. He figured he would buy some wine, or maybe an entire bottle. He felt so defeated. Thomas seemed like such a nice guy, and they got on so well - it was a little disheartening that he was married. Though that didn't mean that they couldn't at least be friends, if Hollis decided on declining his offer.

 

"So, I know you're an ex-military guy," Hollis said, his eyes glued to the menu as he spoke. "What do you do for work now?" Hollis was determined for tonight to go well, despite how badly he wanted to go home, or even go to the club and fuck a random guy. "Anything interesting?"

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Thomas could tell that Hollis was feeling awkward. He probably doesn’t want to be here.... why is it staying then?

 

He cleared his throat and nodded. “Yeah.... ex military. I never lied about that.” Was that it? Could Hollis simply never trust him now? “I work as an engineer now.” He wasn’t exactly pleased that Hollis couldn’t even seem to look at him. Thomas picked up the menu. Sighing softly. Something simply? Maybe a gourmet burger?

 

A waiter came over. Thomas looked up and smiled. “Evening.”

 

“Are you ready to order, sirs?” They offered politely. A young blond lad wearing the restaurant’s uniform and a name tag that read ‘Chris’.

 

“I am... are you, Hollis?” Thomas looked at him, cautious.

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It came as no surprise that Thomas was an engineer now. Thomas seemed like a smart man. Engineering was something Hollis could never do. He came from a family of doctors, and while Hollis was smart he couldn't understand how people could do math so easily. Thankfully, he was an artist and didn't have to worry about a stupid algebra equation now.

 

Hollis looked at the man when he came to take their order. He sat down his menu, his eyebrows arching when the waiter called him by name. Hollis smiled at the man, the cautious look a little off putting. "I am!" Hollis replied, his hands folding.

 

Hollis was a well known artist, so he could he a fan. However, Hollis had a... reputation within the local gay club scene, as being a bit... well... loose - despite the fact that he was incredibly picky about who he even went to bed with. It always worried him when people approached him, but he always tried to be polite regardless.

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Hollis looked spooked, but Thomas wasn’t sure why. “Can I just order one of your gourmet burgers with all the trimmings?”

 

“Sweet potato fries or regular fries?” The waiter asked, but Chris’ eyes kept wandering to Hollis.

 

“Sweet potato please. And I’ll take a lemonade with no ice....” they’d said no drinking earlier, though maybe that had been a mistake? “What would you like, Hollis?”

 

The waiter also waited, seeming almost eager to please.

[Guest BunBunTheCatSnake]

Hollis watched Chris as Thomas ordered his food. Did he know him at all from somewhere? He squinted his eyes, trying to place his face - but nothing came to mind. When he was asked what he wanted, his eyes looked back down at his menu.

 

"Can I get the soup of the day?" Hollis asked, his fingers brushing against the laminated pages of his menu. "As for a drink..." Hollis looked back down at the menu, the need for a good wine calling him - but he did tell Thomas earlier that he didn't want alcohol. "I guess... tea is fine. Green if you have it." Hollis sad as he closed his menu, and pushed it aside.

 

"Also, I have to ask." Hollis turned his body slightly to face Chris, his chin resting on the palm of his hand. "Have we met before? I apologize if we have. I have a hottie memory when it comes to faces." That was a lie obviously - Hollis had a wonderful memory, especially when it came to faces. However, Hollis was human and people did slip from his mind.

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Thomas looked at Hollis, a slight sadness in his eyes that he tried to ignore. The beginning of the end. He was almost positive that things would turn bad between them! Was there any point pretending otherwise?

 

Then it seemed that Hollis was.... flirting with the waiter? Ouch. He supposed he should be thankful that he wasn’t just being ditched? But was this Hollis’ way of saying he’d continue sleeping with others? It wasn’t like Thomas could ask him not to.... that would make him a hypocrite!

 

Chris blushed shyly but smiled, he glanced back at Hollis’ date but nodded. “I think we bumped into each other at a club once.” Bumped meaning fucked. “It was pretty dark. No worries.” Chris smiled. “I’ll get your order. Anything else I can get you?”

 

Thomas wasn’t stupid.... he could read between the lines. This two had done the horizontal tango.... had Hollis mentioned it on purpose? To make him jealous? It was working.... stupid as it was. “Thanks.” He mumbled as the man seemed prepared to leave.

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Hollis' eyebrows rose when Chris told him how they knew each other. Now that he mentioned it, his face did ring a few bells. If it was the person Hollis was thinking of, Chris was a petty good lay - not as great as Thomas though. "Oh," Hollis said with a little smile. "That'll do it for me, Chris. Thank you." Hollis looked the man up and down once more, before he looked at Thomas.

 

It wasn't a secret that Hollis was a slut; Hollis was always honest about it, and made no effort to hide the fact. However, despite his bosy count there were only a few people he kissed. Just from the tone of Thomas' voice from his single word sentence, Hollis could tell that he was upset at something. Seeing him looking so... sad just made Hollis want to kiss him, but he resisted the urge.

 

Hollis light bumped his shoulder against Thomas. "Hey, are you okay?" Hollis asked Thomas, his grey eyes meeting with his.

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Chris almost winked but resisted as he focused on what he was doing instead. He left them to it.

 

Thomas looked over when addressed and smiled, though it looked less full than before. Less sure. “Of course I am. Why wouldn’t I be?” He shrugged, looking at the guy. “Are you? Okay I mean.”

 

Thomas looked up at back of the waiter as he left. He was good looking... if you went for the surfer boy, boy next door, cute thing. Too big for Thomas’ liking but he could see why Hollis might have been interested. “If you want....” he looked at Hollis. “I can be the one to leave. If you want. Maybe you’ll get lucky again with the waiter? I’m more than aware how much I’ve fucked up today.”

 

He didn’t want that, of course he didn’t! Thomas wanted Hollis. He didn’t want Sarah. He didn’t want to share. He didn’t want.... this mess. Of course he wouldn’t be without his daughter.... but.... Thomas wanted.... more. He wanted a real life.

 

And for that?

He knew he was a totally unworthy douche bag!!!

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The question about how he was doing made Hollis avert his eyes. He looked down at his lap, his fingers rubbing against his blazer. He honestly felt horrible; not just because of Thomas' secret, but because he selfishly wanted to continue... whatever this is. Was Sarah deserving of this sort of treatment though? "I'm fine," he mumbled softly, his hands rubbing the back of his neck.

 

Hollis' eyes snapped back at Thomas when he asked if he should go. Before he got a word in, Thomas brought up Chris. Hollis took a deeley breath, and crossed his arms as he took a deep breath. He was silent for a few long seconds, his great eyes flashing towards Thonas ever so often.

 

"Don't leave," Hollis said softly. "Sure, I'm mad. I'm really fucking mad, but at least you didn't lead my around. So many men in your position wouldn't have told me, until I figured it out myself." Hollis turned his body softly, his hands holding Thomas' hand. "Then on the other hand, I can't stop thinking about how great last night was. I want more of last night. I want it so bad. I'm just so scared."

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Fine.

Fine.

Fine!

 

Thomas winced. He knew ‘fine’ didn’t really mean ‘fine’.... at least it never did when Sarah used it!

 

Then an awkward silence fell between them. Thomas felt.... sick. He hadn’t realised just how much this all meant to him! But it did. And he didn’t want to lose the precious spark he saw with Hollis. Hollis was real and true and everything Thomas had always desired! Yet.... Thomas wasn’t considered ‘free’ to pursue Hollis. I really am a bastard! He rubbed the scar on his face absentmindedly.

 

Then, finally, a life time later.... Hollis spoke, asking him to stay. He nodded. Unable to do much else. “I.... I only expected a one night stand.” He admits. “Figured we both knew the score.... but you.... you’re bloody amazing and sexy and seemed to want more.... more than I could ever hope for. You’re a good guy. You don’t deserve to be dragged into any of this. But I can promise that you’re special to me. And I’ll show you that every time we meet.”

 

He smiled shyly and nodded, “last night was amazing.” It had opened his eyes more. “You made me hope and wish for.... being true to myself.” Lame as it sounded! It felt true, deep in his soul.

 

Chris, the waiter, dropped off their drinks and left again. Thomas watched him go. “I won’t stop you.... being with others, I mean. I can’t be a hypocrite. But.... I won’t like it. I want you all to myself.” He admits. Looking at Hollis. “I want to spoil you. Hold you. Tease you. Play with you. Fuck you.” He smirked, eyes sad. “I want to pamper you and give you the world.” But they both knew there would be limits. That he couldn’t keep up his part of that arrangement..... Thomas didn’t ‘belong’ solely to Hollis.

 

Daring, he leaned in and attempted to kiss Hollis’ lips....