(Private RP) Another World <<syaoran-puu & Kotorichan>>

[Guest Kotorichan]

"I don't know..." Ceries chewed his lip. "Did you leave them in his room..?" He walked to sit down on the edge of his bed. "Would you like to get some clothes from your room and then return..? perhaps you could also get some of my work for my office... I don't want to fall behind..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn saw those words as dismissal. They’d hidden his clothing two days ago after... their failed coupling.

 

Still, he nodded. “Of course, your highness. Will you open the door for me please?”

 

With that he shifted to his cat form.

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries had completely forgotten about the hidden clothing, so much had happened in the past few days that those had slipped his mind. "Of course." He rose to his feet and unlocked his door. "Please come back soon..." He said softly. "If you don't mind..." He opened the door and waited for Vaughn to leave.

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn left with an animal nod. Jogging he headed home. He grabbed the fastest shower ever, dressed and went to Ceries office.

 

He grabbed a few folders and things from the ‘in’ box and headed back to the man.

 

Vaughn found his mind wild and unruly. He knocked on the door. “Your highness? It’s Vaughn.” He waited. Eyes wandering to Brenton’s door and wincing as he looked away.

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries paced back and forth as he waited for Vaughn, he was terrified that Brenton was going to target the man as a way to punish Ceries. How could he have been so stupid? He should have known to pretend to be obedient!

He opened the door the moment he heard Vaughn's voice. "Are you alright?" He blurted out before the man even had a chance to walk in. His fever was starting to return from the stress.

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“Eh.... of course, your highness.” Vaughn stepped in and looked around. “Did he do something?”

 

Worry furrowed his brow. “Are you okay, Ceries?” He put the papers on the desk and pulled him into his arms.

[Guest Kotorichan]

"No... I was worried he might do something to you..." Ceries hugged him back tightly, pressing his face into the man's shoulder. "I'm just so useless and stupid..." He mumbled. "I can't protect anyone..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn rubbed his back tenderly. “Ceries. That’s not true. You can. In your own way you’re the strongest of us all.”

 

He kissed his cheek. “You are not worthless. Not powerful. You’re amazing. You’re stubborn. You’re strong. You’re a Prince! He only gets to touch you because you agreed it. You have far more power than you give yourself credit for.”

[Guest Kotorichan]

"All I have is the chance to choose between letting my country be conquered or letting the man I love be tortured..." Ceries mumbled. "That doesn't really make me feel paticularly powerful... No matter what I do I have to watch the people I care about suffer..."

He shut his eyes for a moment. "Sometimes I wish that I had been the one to get sick instead of my father..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn frowned at that, touching his cheek. “Please do not think that way. I’m glad you didn’t get sick. You have so much love to live, Ceries. You should live it.”

 

The shifter shook his head a moment before looking away. “If it makes things easier for you.... I can be reassigned. Or we could ask the mage to produce a forgetful potion? I can keep my distance from you.....” Vaughn knew that would hurt him so much! But he’d do it for Ceries. He’d do anything for him!

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries froze at the idea, his eyes widening. He stared up at Vaughn for a moment before letting his shoulders slump, his entire body starting to shake. "Maybe... That would be for the best..." He said softly, tears starting to roll down his cheeks again. "If you were to forget me and be reassigned somewhere far away..." Ice crystals began to form in his hair. It felt like the world was crumbling away just thinking about it. He would be completely alone without Vaughn, and for the man to forget about him too...

"Y-you could find someone who could actually make you happy... You could get married and have a f-family..." He wanted to scream, he felt like he was in a nightmare. Every word felt like it was tearing him into pieces. "T-that would be much better... Right?"

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn frowned. “Woah! No! That’s not.... I meant.... you. You could forget. Then you wouldn’t be so stressed? Wouldn’t have to think about me? Wouldn’t have to feel this stress. This pull. You’d be.... free?”

 

He hated the idea. Completely. He touched the ice in the others hair. “Shush.”

 

Vaughn shook his head, “There will be no one but you.”

[Guest Kotorichan]

"W-why would I do that?" Ceries sobbed. "I-I'd still be marrying him.... He'd still want to do nothing but hurt me... All that would do would be taking away the only happy memories I have..."

 

"If you were to forget me then you could go be h-happy somewhere without me..." He buried his face in Vaughn's chest. "He wouldn't be able to hurt you anymore..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“No.” He shook his head. “I’m sorry I suggested it. But no. I don’t want anyone else. If you forgot but I didn’t I could at least watch out for you? Watch over you.” He stroked his back again. “I don’t want to bring you more pain, the happy memories would corrupt and become more painful. Especially with him....”

 

Then he thought. “What if we gave him the potion?”

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries paused for a moment. He wouldn't have to worry about either of them being hurt anymore... A tiny part of him wondered how his body could be satisfied without Brenton but he forced the thought down. "What would we make him forget?" He asked softly. "We still need him to help us..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn paused a moment. Thinking it through.... “just the arrangement? Make him believe we saved him and he is repaying the favour?”

 

He wasn’t convinced it would work. Did they need him too much to risk it?

[Guest Kotorichan]

"Do you think he's the kind of person to put himself at risk just because someone helped him?" Ceries frowned deeply. "He had to actually want to train... If he's the same person then he might not bother unless I'm... Motivating him..." He shuddered slightly.

"Perhaps..." He looked up at Vaughn. "Perhaps if we wait until after the war. Then make him forget the arrangement, make it think that he agreed in exchange to have a purely political marriage. He won't need to be motivated to train because just his presence will prevent people from invading once the war has ended. I can find some area where I can give him a bit of power and he won't do too much harm. If we tell him that he agreed to help in exchange for a secure position of power then he might believe it." He hesitated for a moment. "I'll still be married to him... And we will have to hold on for a couple of months... But then at least we'll know it won't go on forever..?"

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn wanted to believe that was possible. That it was that simple!

 

Except... “It might work...” he frowned. “A political marriage might be better than.... this pain.” He worried. “And.... what if it doesn’t work on him?”

 

Vaughn also had to wonder if.... Ceries would never be happy. Not having Brenton dominating him.

[Guest Kotorichan]

"If it doesn't work on him then..." Ceries stared down at the floor. "Then I think you should it..." He blinked back tears. "Then at least one of us can be happy..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“You can’t ask that of me, Ceries. I will not abandon you to this fate alone.” Vaughn meant it too. Completely.

 

“If you’re going to suffer. We will both suffer. Even if I can only be there to offer you a hug or a walk. I will still be there.” He wasn’t sure he could ever satisfy him sexually, but he could support him.

[Guest Kotorichan]

"Then we will just have to hope it doesn't come to that..." Ceries leaned up and gently kissed the man. "I do not wish to have to order you to do such a thing..." He murmured. Even if Vaughn refused the order, Ceries knew that he would have to find a way to force it on him. He didn't know how he could live without the man, but he couldn't bear to keep Vaughn in this he'll.

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“You....” Vaughn frowned. “You plan to order me to forget you? You would do that?”

 

He really was starting to believe that he didn’t even know the other many any more. Was he.... really going to.... lose everything because of Brenton?

 

“Please don’t do that me.”

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries leaned into his chest, taking a deep breath. "I don't want to... I don't know what I would do without you... But if the alternative is to make you suffer at my side for the rest of your life then... I don't know..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“Then you let me suffer at your side. That is my decision....” Vaughn said seriously. “Don’t take that decision away from me.....” the shifter begged. “Please.”

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries lightly clung to the man, chewing his lip. "If it comes to that then I will let you decide..." He finally said. "But I will ask to make sure that you haven't changed your mind by then..."