(Private RP) Another World <<syaoran-puu & Kotorichan>>

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn released the other as he touched his hair, smiling shyly over again him before pulling out and flopping beside him. He pulled him into his arms. “I didn’t hurt you?” He worry a little.

 

Despite his concern he felt the cat settle within him, more than content with what it had just done and wanting a well earned nap.

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries snuggled into his chest, cooing softly. "Not at all, I wouldn't have minded if you were even a little rougher..." He nuzzled into the man's neck. "Hey... What would you say to-"

He cut himself off, shaking his head as he snapped back into his usual state. "No, nevermind..." He blushed softly and smiled up at the man. "That felt really good... Thank you Vaughn..." He leaned up and caught the man's lips in a gentle kiss. "I love you..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn nodded a little. “Okay....” he didn’t want to be too rough, even his cat agreed they had to protect the other man.

 

He frowned when the other stopped talking and changed the subject too. He kissed him back, “I love you too.... but.... what were you going to say? Please?” He smiled, “what would I say to what?” Vaughn doubted he’d say no to Ceries!

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries frowned and looked away. "It's... Too strange... I don't know why I was even going to ask..." His brow furrowed. "I feel like I become... Strange... Any time I get too excited..." He admitted. "Like I'm someone else..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn held him, leaning in to nuzzle him. “Please tell me? If it’s strange we can just laugh about it together or something. But... I’d really like to know what you’ve got to say. Please?” He hummed softly.

 

He frowned at that. “You feel like a different person?” They’d talked about this before but Ceries always denied it to a degree. “Would explaining it help? Maybe we can figure out what’s going on?” He offered kindly.

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries hid his face in the man's chest, his cheeks flushing deeply. "I... I was going to ask if you would ever consider taking me in your other form..." He admitted. "I-I know it's strange, I don't know why I even thought of it."

He chewed his lip lightly. "I don't know how to explain it... It feels like there's someone else in my mind who sometimes takes over my body... It must be some kind of magic..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“Oh?” He blushed. “That’s something you’d want?” Vaughn felt the lazy cat perk up at that. He’d been thinking the same thing earlier! “My cat..... likes you.” He managed. Confirmation he would. But was it wrong to want such a thing? To do such a thing to a Prince? To take him like an animal?

 

He stroked and tried to sooth him. “Shhh. It’s okay. We’ll figure this out. We will.” He promised.

 

Magic or not. Ceries fears were very real!

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries felt his other side waking up again. He peeked up at Vaughn, his eyes filled with desire. "I..." He hid his face again, forcing that side down. "I think so..." He admitted. He let out a soft whine as he tried his best to keep himself under control. A part of his mind was begging him to ask to be taken again right away.

He took a shaky breath as the man tried to comfort him. "What if... What if the other me does something to make you hate me..?" He asked, his voice trembling.

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn saw the look and damn it.... his body reacted a little. He was rather embarrassed to admit it. He swallowed. “The cat wouldn’t be gentle....” he whispered. “Are you prepared for that? There’s..... fangs and claws.” His cat protested, they would only hold their mate down! Not hurt him. That earlier whisper came back. Mate? Had his cat really picked Ceries?

 

He frowned at that. Chewing his lip. “You mean like... when Brenton has you say things and part of you wants to and part of you doesn’t?” Vaughn kissed his neck. “We’ll talk afterwards. Okay? We’ll work it out. Because.... I’ll always love you Ceries. No matter which you it is.....” it just might hurt at times but that was the price of love.

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries felt himself slipping again at the mention of how rough Vaughn might be. It sounded amazing... Being pinned down and taken like an animal. He lightly wrapped his arms around Vaughn's shoulders, nuzzling into his neck. "That sounds perfect..." He breathed, his voice a bit different again.

He paused for a moment, glancing up at Vaughn with a slight frown. "You shouldn't love me like this..." He murmured. "You should love your Ceries, you'll just get hurt if you love master's Ceries..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn noticed the way the other seemed to change. Like rough was a trigger word. He kissed his neck. “Another time then...” he blushed, unable to believe they’d both just agreed to this!

 

He blinked, frowning at the man. “You don’t want me to love both?” He frowned, stroking his cheek. “It might hurt loving this side too. But it deserves love. You don’t get that from Brenton....” Vaughn chewed his lip. “Or are you saying you want us to be completely platonic? If I can’t love both sides.... how would I know which side is with me when we make love?” Not sex. That was what Brenton did. Vaughn wanted more than that!

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries rested his head against Vaughn's chest, frowning slightly. "I just don't want you to get hurt..." He murmured. "I belong to master... I will always choose him over you..."

He squeezed his eyes shut and pulled away, fighting with himself. "I'm sorry... I think I'm just tired, I don't know what I'm saying..." He whimpered, his voice strajned. "I would never choose Brenton over you, I'm only with him because I don't have a choice." He rubbed his eyes. "I'm sorry, I don't know what's wrong with me..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn frowned. He knew that was true. “Maybe......” he smiled, it wobbles a little on his face. “But maybe I still want both of you to be happy.”

 

It hurt to think any part of Ceries would pick Brenton, but he knew it was true. Masters Ceries. He wasn’t the same Prince he normally saw.

 

He kissed his lips tenderly. Sweet and soft. “It’s okay Ceries. Maybe.... maybe it’s time we accept that there are two parts of you. Ceries.... and.... Master’s Ceries.” Vaughn stroked his cheek, “magic or not. I know you can see the differences between them. Feel both halves differently.” He’d said as much after all. “Maybe it’s time to stop.... fighting it and torturing yourself over whatever it is? Hmmm?”

 

He kissed each eye softly. He needed a distraction. “My cat.... it’s chosen you as it’s mate. I hope that doesn’t scare you.”

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries leaned into the kiss, clinging to the man's chest. He looked up at Vaughn, his eyes filled with tears. "I... I don't want you to hate me..." He said softly. "If any part of me wants him... Then wouldn't you be disgusted with me?" He looked away. "I have to fight it..."

His cheeks flushed deeply at the man's next words. He had been claimed... He buried his face into the man's chest, his feathers fluffing up in embarrassment. "It doesn't scare me... It makes me happy..." He said softly.

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn shook his head. “I could never hate you sweetheart.” He meant it. “It might hurt at times. But maybe now I know it’s.... it’s like two different yous? Maybe I can accept that one half isn’t going to choose me and one will.” He smiled at him.

 

He envelopes him into his arms. “Then think about that. That won’t ever change. Okay?” Vaughn laughed and peppered his face with kisses.

[Guest Kotorichan]

"I don't want to hurt you..." Ceries murmured. "I want to make you happy..."

 

He blushed and wrapped a wing around the man. "Thank you..." He snuggled closer. "And thank you for trying to be rough with me... We don't have to do this again if you didn't like it..." He hesitated for a moment. "I'm just relieved to know I'm not completely broken... I can still feel just as good, if not better, when you touch me..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“I am happy, Ceries.” He touched his cheek. “I am happy.” Vaughn repeated. “But I want you to be completely happy too.”

 

He looked up at those wings a moment then at the man. “I liked it....” he hadn’t had to be too bossy or rough to get a reaction. No need to insult him. He could handle that. His inner cat had certainly liked it! “Ceries!” He frowned. “You’re not broken. No one thinks you’re broken except you right now.” He stroked his forehead a moment then kissed it. “Can I ask something without.... offending you?”

[Guest Kotorichan]

"If Brenton even becomes the only person who can satisfy my body then I'll be broken..." Ceries's voice trembled at the idea. He was terrified of that happening.

He hesitated for a moment before looking up at the man. "Please do. I don't want you to be scared of asking me anything."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn shook his head. He didn’t think that was possible or true... but only the other could figure that out for himself!

 

He hesitated, trying to figure out his words. “When you have sex.... is it always.... the other Ceries in control? Master’s Ceries? Maybe calling him Fluffy would be an easier name.” He was confusing himself. “Is this side of you aware? How did my Ceries feel about what we just did?”

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries blushed deeply and lightly clung to the man. He stayed quiet for a moment. He had never ever really thought about it...

"I think it's always the other me... Fluffy..." He lightly chewed his lip. "I can always remember what happened... When it's Brenton I sort of remember it like it was a dream, it's sort of hard to tell if it really happened or if I imagined it... I have to really fight if I want to have any control or awareness of what's happening."

He looked up at Vaughn shyly. "When it's you it's different. I still feel like I'm not fully in control, but I can remember it clearly." He hid his face again. "I like it when it's you... It felt good... I think I'm just used to giving up control the moment I'm... Touched... I can try to stay in control next time it's just the two of us..?"

[Guest syaoran-puu]

He nodded, trying to understand. “What if.... what if Fluffy is like a defensive mechanism your mind created? To stop the pain from Brenton seeping into everything else?”

 

Vaughn just held him, stroking him softly. “I don’t mind. Whatever you need. I’m starting to thinking fighting it only makes it harder on you.” He blushed and kissed him. “I’m glad you remember though.”

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries thought about the suggestion with a slight frown. "I suppose that makes sense..." He said softly. "He tends to be more obidient so Brenton doesn't punish me as much... And if I don't have to remember it as clearly it's easier for me to keep focusing on work..."

He nuzzled into Vaughn's neck. "It's scary... To just let go and let myself become someone else..." He chewed his lip. "But... If you don't mind I might try to stop fighting it so much..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

“And I prefer you not getting hurt. So even if Fluffy does belong more to Brenton, I’ll always love him too.” It made sense. That side was formed to please Brenton. Of course it might be bonded closer to the bastard... anything to protect Ceries from him.

 

He didn’t mind at all, he’d suggested it earlier after all. “Of course I don’t mind,” Vaughn nuzzled him, “you’re my precious Prince. I will love you no matter what. And maybe, just maybe, not fighting yourself will make it a little easier, smoother somehow?” He offered carefully. This felt like such sensitive territory that Vaughn was afraid of a misstepping!

[Guest Kotorichan]

Ceries blinked back tears of relief. He was so scared that Vaughn would be disgusted with him or that he would hate him... It felt like a huge weight had been lifted off his chest. He wrapped his wing around the man a little tighter. "Thank you..." He whimpered. "I love you so much..."

[Guest syaoran-puu]

Vaughn smiled, holding him closer. He knew he’d have to leave soon. But for now? He wanted to be here, in these arms. “I will always love you Ceries. I choose you.” Completely. Cat and man.

 

“Would you like me to stay until you fall asleep?” He asked softly.