Are You Mine? (mik3la x Akiravadel)

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Taki held onto Simon's hand and smiled softly nodding his head. He rested his cheek against his shoulder, "thank you Simon.. baby steps." He trembled a little but he was much better than before. Staying close to Simon he was getting more used to using him as an anchor. Smiling softly he stayed close with him looking over the things they passed.

Leah leaned over to Sota whispering, "he just helped Taki... helping our pack... it all ties together." 

Ritsu's face turned red when he spoke to him about that and shivered how nice that sounded and how sexy it was. Whimpering softly he followed after him holding his hand. The moment they were in front of the game store there was a younger kid ran up to him, barely 13 and gasped in shock, "RittyMax?!"

Ritsu blinked surprised out of his haze seeing the kid giving him a smile, "well hi there. What's your name?"

"Ian, c-can I get a picture with you?" the kid pulled out his phone.

Ritsu chuckled softly and nodded his head, "sure we can get a picture, do you mind taking it Shiro?" He took the phone from the kid who was practically jumping from foot to foot. 

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Hearing a kids voice Shiro looked confused not understanding who and what it wanted. As he heard him talk with Ritsu about a name he never heard before he looked more curious than ever at the two. Everyone was looking at them not knowing nor understanding what was happening but it would appeared that the guy was famous. 

"Is he famous or something?" asked Sota looking at Leah since she was the brain in this operation. 

"Kind of seems like it bro" said Simon frowning at how excited the kid was to see Ritsu. 

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"sure we can get a picture, do you mind taking it Shiro?"

"O-Okay" he said not sure what he was doing exactly or how he got in that possition. He took a step back and set the camera on the phone and took a few pictures. "Here you go kid. You can pick the one you like from those" he said winking at the kid smiling as he was giving his phone. "what the hell is this?" he leaned onto Ritsu asking in a low voice. 

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Leah nodded her head,  "online he is.  He has millions of subsribers I think around 15 million on youtube but he has other things like whatever streaming is he does that."

The kid gave Ritsu a big hug for the picture and Ritsu made big faces which were way different from anything they'd seen but the kid was thrilled.  Ritsu smiled at Shiro then gave the kids his attention again,  "I gotta get going but keep gaming."

Them they did an adorable exposing fist bump before he directed Shiro away from him so he could talk,  "fermenter when I mentioned making money online? I'm... kind of a top game online.  A lot of people know me on there. I guess we haven't really talked about this kind of stuff."

[mik3la]

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 "online he is.  He has millions of subsribers I think around 15 million on youtube but he has other things like whatever streaming is he does that."

"You're shitting me" said Sota amazed by that information. That was huge. Big time huge. You mean to tell that their alpha was dating a famous youtuber and whatever other thing he was doing. That was insane. 

"Wow, thats big" said Simon nodding his head in approval. 

Shiro couldn't keep his eyes away from the guy as he was telling him all the information which he had said before but he never thought it was this big. He was speechless, again. Could this guy amaze him even more? 

"So let me understand. You're a gamer and still have time for all those other stuff you do" said Shiro frowning. "Plus this situation. Are you even human?" he said fallowing him further into the gaming store.

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Leah nodded her head,  "yeah I don't know much about it other than games and a lot of followers."

Tasks eyes lit up that they knew a game now,  "I had no idea. "

Ritsu chuckled and shook his head,  "I have an editor who edits my videos.  I only stream three days a week and yes I have time because I have someone to take care of the videos and I just record it and have fun.  This school but yeah I have a lot of free time and make fairly decent money."

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"Aham" said Shiro still surprised by the whole information but soon they've been interrupted by other kids who wanted autographs and photos with Ritsu, all shoving Shiro to the side. He tried not to get offended by the situation but it got really crowded and the pack was kind of left out. 

"This doesn't look good guys" said Simon as he was seeing Shiro stepping backwards away from Ritsu. Maybe that was his world in which Shiro couldn't belong. He couldn't compete with that. Ritsu was famous and he was just an Alpha with a pack. Was that even enough for the other. Was he good enough? Was this going to attract problems like before? Would the others be in danger? He would be at fault. 

In an instant panic got to him making him breath harder and his heart racing in his chest. He had to breath deep and calm himself. Everything was too much for him to handle at the moment and he needed to step away from the whole thing. 

"Fuck ... Shiro" said Sota but Shiro was already leaving the store trying to find the nearest bathroom to spray his face with cold water. That way he could get a hold of himself again and calm down. Those were panic attacks which he thought where long gone but guess not. 

 

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Leah worried then see the panic on Shiro's face, "oh no..." She worried he was thinking too much about this. "Crap..." She wanted to follow him but couldn't.

Taki held onto Simon's arm tighter watching their alpha leave quickly. He knew what that face was, he'd worn it himself several times.

Ritsu didn't realize it at first he was busy takin another photo but he was starting to tell them that he was here with friends and wanted to have a good time. Looking around he saw Shiro was gone and the pack looked worried. Raising his hands up be spoke to them, "sorry guys I really got to go. My friends are wanting to shop." He started pushing his way through still trying to be nice with them and made it through looking at them. 

Leah pointed to the bathrooms. 

Ritsu quickly rushed over there and stepped in seeing him by the sink, "hey you okay?" He was worried since his scent smelled scared, or really upset he was still learning what his smells were. 

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 "hey you okay?" 

He wasn't able to talk as he was trying to take deep breaths of air really quickly like he was going to go out of air. Taking small breaks he was throwing water on his face, keeping his eyes shut while he was gripping the sink in his hands. But once he had closed his eyes, all those images from before came rushing and floating over him. 

"F-Fuck ...ah...ha...." he couldn't make himself calm down nor forget those memories or make them stop from showing up. He thought he had buried them deep in his mind, far away from everything but he was wrong. 

Without realizing his strength he had grip too hard on the side of the sink and chopped it, which made him open his eyes and for a split second realizing where he was. 

"I have to calm down .... i have to calm down ... come on damn it" he snarled as all that wasn't helping him. 

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Ritsu then realized what was happening. He was panicking. From what he had no idea but something triggered him and bad. Rushing over to him he came up next to him wrapping his arms around his shoulders, "Shiro hey... it's okay." Pushing up on his tip toes he wrapped his fingers around his neck trying to pull him down to smell him to try to use him to calm down. 

"Everything is okay... it's just us... just me and you... I'm here Shiro," Ritsu kissed his cheek trying to shake him from whatever demons he was facing. Rubbing his hand over his back he tried to pull his attention from his panic attack.

"Hold onto me Shiro... I've got you... nothings wrong," Kissing where he could his cheek, shoulder and anything he could get his lips on he tried to help calm him down. 

[mik3la]

Hearing his name made him look at him but it was only for a brief second. With each second the other was pressing himself to him and trying to make him snap out of it was slowly working making him smell the new scent and refocuse on that one. This new scent was familiar and sweet. It was bringing him comfort and joy. More happiness then he had before and than he deserved it. this is so familiar and a stranger at the same time...why do i know this scent ... i like it very much ... i want more of that scent .... i want to keep it .... is mine and is calling for me ...i need to reach it

His mind was trying to returned to the present moment but it was hard. Again his name was called and the voice sounded muck clearer than before. When he lifted his numb eyes he focused on the figure next to him and his. 

"R-Ritsu .... oh fuck ..." he wrapped his arms against his waist, pressing his face to his chest, more like cuddling himself into Ritsu's embrace. "hold me please ... don't let me go ... please ..... don't go..." he started saying sounding desperate and nothing like the normal self controlled and bad ass Shiro. 

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Ritsu was worried he wasn't going to snap out of it but finally when he heard his name he was relieved. Pulling him close his hand wrapped around his head and the other wrapped around his shoulders, "I've got you..." What trauma caused an alpha to break? What the hell happened?!

"Hey baby... I've got you," Ritsu kissed his temple. "I'm not going anywhere. I'm here." He wished they were back home and not in the bathroom of a mall but then again this might've not happened there. "I'm here for you..." Running his fingers through his hair he was so close and bent back a bit so to keep balance his leg came up to rest on his hip but it wasn't sexual, just pulling himself closer to him. 

[mik3la]

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"Hey baby... I've got you,"

Hearing those words made him lift his eyes to look at him but instead of Ritsu he saw his former mate. The one that got kidnapped and killed because of him. Tears started to form in his eyes but then the image dissipate and the image of Ritsu form again making him lift his body a little to get closer to him touching his cheek and hair. 

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I'm not going anywhere. I'm here."

"You wouldn't go" he said merely a whisper looking him in those beautiful eyes. Soon he was surrounded with the others scent and those awful memories were gone, leaving him now in the present and pass the panic attack, still with deep breaths as he was gaining control over himself. 

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"I'm here for you..."

"I-I'm sorry" he said lifting his body from the others arms, brushing a hand through his hair, realizing what just happened. "This shouldn't had happened" he added more to himself as he leaned his forehead to his hand, taking deep breaths , managing to calm his racing heart. "You shouldn't had seen that" he said again more to himself then turned to look at him. "Are you okay? Did i do anything to you?" he asked worried. Most part of it, it was like a blackout. 

Edited January 13, 2021 by mik3la

[akiravadel]

Ritsu smiled softly at him when he looked at him again seeing the tears forming in his eyes. Reaching up to wipe them away he wondered what happened to him, "yeah..." He reached uo to keep a hand on his shoulder not wanting him to back away from him. "I'm alright, it was more the sink than me I'm fine." Besides some tight squeezing he was fine. 

"Are you okay? What just happened?" Ritsu looked up at him. "Was it the amount of people?" his hand rubbed over his shoulder trying to help comfort him. He didn't know what bother him but he knew panic when he saw it and that was PTSD levels of panic. He was so worried that something was really wrong or something really bad happened. Maybe whatever it was would explain his strange behavior. 

"We can sneak out and head home. The others are not far outside they seemed really worried about you," Ritsu reached up trying to keep him from running away from him or anything. 

[mik3la]

Hearing the other trying to figure it out why that happened made him smile sadly. It was nice to know that there were still people out there that cared for him but he had to care for them too. He wasn't sure if he was able to tell the other everything just yet. 

"It was a panic attack which i thought it was long gone" he said standing up leaning on one hand on the wall feeling a little dizzy.

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"Was it the amount of people?"

"I guess ... I'm not sure either. It happened all too fast and i merely remember parts from it" he frowned as he couldn't believe that it was happening to him all over again. He thought he managed to stop it, to bury it deep in the darkness of his past but somehow it got its way out to the light, not letting him be happy as always. 

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"We can sneak out and head home. The others are not far outside they seemed really worried about you," 

"I think home is the best idea" he said lifting his eyes to him. Shiro seemed tired. "I think i just ruined everyones day" he said sighing. "Here. Call the boys and tell them i'm sorry and that we're heading home. We can take a cab" he said taking his phone out of his pocket giving it to Ritsu. 

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Ritsu nodded his head, "yeah home. My cars closer since the schools not far. We can grab my car and I can drive us back." It would save on cab fare but also might be more comfortable for Shiro. Reaching up touching his cheek he smiled softly, "it's not ruined. Honestly I'm glad to head back and you know... cuddle up. Outside is just stressful sometimes." 

Calling the boys he reached down to take Shiro's hand, "we'll sneak out the back." 

Leading him out he called Simon, "hey it's Ritsu. I have Shiro, we're going to head back to the house. Go have some fun shopping we'll see you back at the house in a bit." Pulling out his phone when they reached outside he pulled up for an uber to bring them to the school to pick up his car. Plus he had clothes in there from his backpack falling over a bit ago . So he had a change of clothes that were meant for school if he needed them. 

[mik3la]

He just nodded at the others plan as he didn't actually care how he was going to get out of there as long as he was out. He really was a mess, more than he knew it and he just ruined the day for everyone. Hearing the other about not being the one who ruin it he smiled appreciating his way of making him feel good. But the truth was that he kind of did. He worried everyone and now they couldn't have fun because of their worry about him. And Taki was so much brave today but he ruined it. 

He wasn't paying much attention to what the other was saying. All he knew was that he was dragged out of the toilet and down some employee halls which he knew for sure that they weren't supposed to be there but didn't stopped to ask questions. He just fallowed the other as they were out on the streets away from the mall. 

Sota heard the news from Ritsu and thanking him about everything he decided not to tell the others exactly how bad it was. 

"Well? What happened? Is Shiro alright?" asked Simon looking at Sota waiting for an outburst. 

"Yeah his fine , no need to worry about....When Ritsu got there he was already fine and they got a little busy if you know what i'm saying" said Sota playing with his eyebrows, moving them up and down. "And they informed me that they'll go to Ritsu's place to have more talk about them" he shrugged. 

At first Simon didn't buy it but seeing Sota act like Sota he sigh happy that it all went well. "Let's get some ice-cream" he said looking at Taki.

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Taki waited wondering what was wrong but then after hearing that he wasn't so sure. He looked really bad but maybe their alpha was getting better? He nodded his head about the ice cream excited about that.

Leah looked at Sota unsure but judging from his reaction she assumed he was fine. Ritsu was with him either way so he should be good.

Ritsu gave Shiro his phone back and held his hand the whole way. The whole way to the uber, the ride over and then only let go for a moment to slip into the car with him. Opening the door for Shiro he helped him into his jeep then drove back to Shiro's place. It would be more familiar for him. Reaching over he held his hand along the way. It would take a few minutes to get there but he tried to keep it as smooth as possible and played some music as they went, "what would you like for lunch?" So domestic but he was trying to distract his mind.

[mik3la]

Shiro was happy that his state was calming down on their way home but he felt tired. Not physically but more mentally. All those memories that he thought were locked in safe bursting out like that all of a sudden it had been a lot for him to handle. He was thankful that he didn't hurt the other in any way and of most all he was thankful that he was still there with him and didn't ran out. 

"I'm not hungry" he said pliantly looking out the window thinking about all of this. He was looking at their hands together from time to time but then turn to look out he window questioning if this was indeed a good thing. 

The road was silent. only the music on the radio was heard in the car. they soon reach his home and as Ritsu stopped the car he managed to get out on his own as he was feeling more steady on his legs than before. 

"If you want to go home its fine. I can take care of myself" he said looking at the other when he waked around the car reaching him. "You don't have to stay" he said not wanting to force the other to stay with him. 

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When they reached the house he stepped out grabbing his bag looking up at Shiro, "pfft... no. I have no plans today." He stepped forward taking his hand to lead him up to the house. His editor was working so he didn't need to worry about uploads. He'd made it a habit of taking weekends off. "I would like a quick shower, you want to take one with me? Wash my hair?" 

He was teasing but also he was going to wash Shiro's hair. Keep it more innocent and take care of him. That way they could clean up and change into relaxing clothes. His- This alpha needed comfort and he was damned well going to give it to him. It was then it really sunk in with him that they were fated. He never wanted to take care of someone like he did Shiro. 

[mik3la]

He smiled as the other denied his offer of leaving him alone. Deep down, he kind of hopped the other will deny it and stay with him, but he was too afraid to actually acknowledge that.  

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"I would like a quick shower, you want to take one with me? Wash my hair?" 

"Are you trying to get me distracted with looring me into sex?" he said chuckling at his teasing and obvious intention. He knew to well that there wasn't going to be just a shower in there no matter how much he would control himself. There was something about him that was making him lose control and give into the lust and desire. 

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Ritsu chuckled softly, "now whose the one with the dirty mind?" Heading inside with him he dropped off his bag in Shiro's room. "How big is your shower? Can you fit a chair in there?" He hadn't seen it yet so he had no clue what it looked like. If they could bring a chair in then he could sit on him and gently tend to him so his alpha didn't have to strain himself. 

Reaching up his hand ran over Shiro's chest as he smiled softly, "you're tall so reaching your hair when your sitting will be easier." Plus if he wanted a nice distraction he could easily give it to him that way. 

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He laughed at his comment and just shacked his head as he knew that he wasn't the only one thinking dirty. 

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"How big is your shower? Can you fit a chair in there?"

He had to blink a few times and think about it as he wasn't sure what the other needed a chair in the shower or. 

"I t-think , i don't know but why would you need a chair in there?" he asked confused as hell. This guys was confusing him more and more with his ideas. 

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"you're tall so reaching your hair when your sitting will be easier."

"hmm, why do i not buy that but fine...yes, a small chair like the ones from the kitchen work in the shower" he said walking him to the bathroom opening the door for him to see it. The bathroom was quite big. The toilet and sink where on a side, then right near was a large tub and right in the back was a shower too that was on half of the wall. 

"think that's enough?" he asked amused looking at the other. 

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Ritsu walked into the bathroom that was much larger than his tiny place. He snorted softly to smile up at him, "yeah I think that might work." Of course it would work, the shower was massive but that was fine. Sliding off the jacket and shirt he was glad to get out of Sota's clothes. Not that he wasn't glad to borrow them but they were scratchy compared to his comfy clothes he preferred to wear. 

To him his skin was so sensitive that his clothes were picked mostly on feel than looks. Keeping it more soft and comfortable was the best for him. Sliding the rest off he walked over to figure out how to turn the shower on shaking that little bubble butt as he went, "do you like it really hot? Medium? Scalding?" He giggled softly but he was glad to have Shiro back home to take care of him. 

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Shiro looked at him as he undressed liking what he was seeing. He had a really hot body for a nerd such as him. He smiled at the way the other was wiggling his hips which only reminded him that he had said he had a dirty mind but apparently he was the one with a dirty mind. And now with this view he couldn't complain what was forming in his mind. 

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"do you like it really hot? Medium? Scalding?"

"Medium is fine" he said still leaning on the doorway looking at him with a knowing smirk on his face. But he decided to play the game. Maybe this way he was going to feel better and forget the incident. This could be a good distraction. He started to undress aswell , leaving everything in the laundry basket. As the water was running he stepped into the shower, feeling his muscles relaxing. 

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Ritsu pulled over the chair setting it down behind Shiro at the edge of the water. Reaching up his hands ran over his back then rested his forehead in the middle for a moment. Taking a breath he then stepped over to grab the body wash and a cloth to start washing him with it. running circles over his back and down his arms. He didn't really say anything at the moment, just taking care of him.

He rubbed the soap down to his fingers cleaning over each one then back up and over to the other arm repeating on that side. His fingers would trace through the soap and long the curves of his muscles feeling how they were under his skin. He especially liked his thick veins in his arms and hands running his fingers over those. For some reason that made him lick his lips a little. 

Running his hand back up he went down to cheekily wash his butt rubbing in circles with a little giggle, "I'll do your front if you turn around."