Are You Mine? (mik3la x Akiravadel)

[mik3la]

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 "no I was good. It comfy under you. Like a weighted blanket."

That remark made him blush, not knowing what to say. 

watching him go to the bathroom he got up from the sofa stretching his muscles. He hadn't slept so long for quite some time now. He felt much better than before. Guess having him back home really did helped him relax and calm down that his body decided it was time to recover itself. 

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 "what do you think about some spaghetti? Quick and easy." 

"That sounds good an delicious" he said honestly walking with him in the kitchen ready to help him out to prepare the food. 

"Now look who decided to finally wake up" said Sota coming downstairs to get something to drink. he was feeling much better now that his wounds were almost all healed. "i thought you died there man" he laughed making fun of his friend and alpha. "Whats for dinner" he asked drinking his juice while sitting on the table. 

 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu started pulling things out asking him to chop up some onions for him and garlic. It was adorably domestic like they were falling into recently. It just came naturally right now. 

Looking over at Sota he smiled softly, "spaghetti. Easy meal." He pulled out some sauce and winced having to grab it with both hands. Setting the jar down on the counter he closed the fridge shaking his hands a little. "Ow... um how are you feeling Sota? You look way better?"

Leah came in behind him to grab some juice herself, "everyone's up, that's good." She stood by Sota glad to see they were up and about. 

Ritsu smiled softly at her and started working on the sauce, "just in time for dinner." He hummed softly while working on the food feeling rather content in the house. It was nice now that he was more awake to be back in it. 

[mik3la]

Shiro did as he was asked but was keeping an eye on him not wanting him to overdue himself. he heard a small wince when Ritsu took something from the fridge and then he shaken his hands. He was forcing himself and he didn't liked it, but the other was more stubborn than him. 

"Yeah i'm better. The wounds are almost closed and i'm almost in shape" said Sota grinning and winking at Leah. They kind of been on a sex break ever since the injuries so he was getting kind of horny lately which he didn't cared what she was thinking as he was going to chase her. 

"What are the others doing? Are they up too?" he asked leaning on the counter as he finished with chopping the onion and garlic, changing the mood as he felt the kinky mood Soto was setting in that moment and that was a closed topic for him and Ritsu in that moment. 

"We're up too" said Simon entering the kitchen fallowed by Taki. "Smells nice" he added smiling to Ritsu seeing him cooking and being more alive than before. 

 

[akiravadel]

Leah blushed a little at his comment and flirt with her, "almost closed isn't closed." She retorted but honestly she missed him too. Even if she tried to deny it through and through, she liked this side of him.

Taki stepped in with him smiling softly at Ritsu, "that does smell good." He had been tending to Simon most of the time so he was never far from him.

Ritsu smiled softly to Shiro gently kissing his shoulder, "thank you babe." He scooped up the onions and garlic to saute in a pan. "It'll be about thirty minutes before it's ready." Putting the diced items in the pan he stirred them not realizing Shiro was avoiding the topic. Understandable but he didn't want to shy away from it himself. Just maybe not do certain things for a while. "You guys have some time before dinners ready." 

[mik3la]

Simon, Sota and the others looked outside in the garden, then back at each other and then back at Shiro, asking him from eyes if they could set the table outside. The sun was still up, since it was getting dark later now, so they could enjoy the dinner outside in the garden, alongside the breeze of spring. 

Shiro raised an eyebrow looking outside and back at them and sigh, smiling. They really were funny sometimes. "Yes , you can set the dinner table outside in the garden" he said moving to the side so they could take everything they needed and settle the table outside, while he remained in the kitchen with Ritsu. Now that they were a little alone he turned and kissed his temple. 

"Let me finish the food. Your hands hurt" he said placing his hand over his on the pan handler. 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu looked up hearing what Shiro said and chuckled. They wanted to be outside. Like little puppies. He watched then scurry outside playing along the way. They really were like their children. 

Ritsu leaned into his kiss and smiled softly, "okay." Leaning into his touch he felt desire flaring in him and worried about it. He didn't want Shiro to be afraid of him and vice versa. He was on the tail end of his heat and still feeling the warmth in his stomach. With all the meds it was helping to dull it but anytime he focused in on his scent his desire came back to life. 

"Shiro..." he turned his head towards his wanting to nibble under his chin and neck like before but paused. "S-Sorry I'll let you cook." He took a step to the side trying to calm the rising temperature in his veins. Wow his body was quick to respond to him just like before. 

[mik3la]

Thankfully Ritsu didn't opposed to him doing the rest of the cooking. He moved happily that he was letting him do it  but he did felt the other linger more around him. 

As Ritsu said his name and he turned his head, they were just inches away and he stopped for a second from what he was doing, just looking at him, not sure what he could do or if he should do anything. Saying he wasn't missing the sex part with him that would mean he was lying. He wanted him. Fuck, the simple scent he was giving away was driving him nuts in those moments as he knew he was in heat, but he was a little scared of not hurting him or trigger some fears. He knew that this part was going to be hard and he accepted but feeling all this and seeing that he wanted too but he was holding himself back too, was making him question everything. 

Taking a deep breath and sighing heavy, he closed his eyes for a second and then opened them again lifting his arm and wrap it around his neck, turning his face towards him, pressing his lips against his gently, then moving his tongue in between their lips to see if he was going to let him inside his mouth to depend the kiss. 

Even from the simple touch of their lips he felt butterflies in his stomach that went down to his crotch, arousing him. Fucking God how he missed this. 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu wasn't against him helping but he didn't want to just lay around either. He didn't feel as bad anymore. With dinner he had more medications to take but he was feeling way better already. 

Gasping he looked up at Shiro when he moved in and kissed him. It was like electricity coursing through him. Moaning his arms slid up around his neck pulling his body against him, "Mnnn...." 

Oh his missed the hell out of him. He didn't want to think about those other alpha's hands on him, just Shiro. He wanted him to overwrite it. Parting his lips his tongue was already coming for Shiro's quickly deepening the kiss. Even sliding his hand behind his head to thread his fingers into his hair. At the moment he wasn't afraid, Shiro didn't touch him the same way. He felt like home and tasted like his mate. 

[mik3la]

Shiro opened his mouth to make room for the other to taste. Seemed like he missed this as much as he did. Moving the hand he had on the pan handler to the counter, be moved closer pinning their bodies together, moaning and groaning in the kiss as the other had deepened it, making him feel more aroused. His inner wolf was growling but his mind kick in and paused the kiss, breathing hard, resting his forehead to his.

"Easy there love" he said in a horse voice, meaning he was affected by the kiss more than he intended, but it wasnt the right place nor time for mode. But the smile on his face as he was panting was enough to show that he was enjoying it as much as he did. 

"Easy ...hmm" he sigh , trying to calm himself down. They werent alone, plus, if he wanted to do something he had to make it right and slow for now and not rush the other.

"We need to finish dinner" he added taking a deep breath pointing with his eyes at the pan with the food.

[akiravadel]

Ritsu's leg came up to wrap around his waist when his lover pinned him against the counter. Gasping softly when they parted he looked up at him trembling a little from desire, "mnn... I-I know... sorry... my heats not over yet..." It seemed he was still in heat. Maybe that meant his body was rejecting that other alphas semen, even if he took some meds to reject it anyway.  Or it could be because they'd been together so much his body just naturally reacted to him. 

Looking over at the food his hand hand over Shiro's chest letting out a little whine, "I guess we have to feed the kids first. Then you have to feed mama." Leaning back under Shiro's chin he nipped at his neck like he liked to do. His legs slid down off his waist but he was a little disappointed to stop there. 

He didn't know how it would go. Maybe riding the heat train would help him be able to do it with him now. It might help him move past, but it might open a can of worms. Either way right now he wanted him. So much so he could feel he was slick and half hard in his pants just from kissing him. 

[mik3la]

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"I guess we have to feed the kids first. Then you have to feed mama."

He growled in affection and arousal at his words but he had to behave for now as he was still injured. he couldn't ignore the fact that the other pulled him closer like that, wanting more. He wanted more too, but they had to take it easy now and slow.  

"Right " he said in a horse voice taking a deep breath managing to calm himself. 

"Everything is set outside" said Sota coming in the kitchen leaning on the kitchen table. Shiro blushed looking to the side, tucking his hands in his pockets. "Right ... Almost done here" he said still flustered by the situation they were almost got caught by the other. 

"Oookaayy" said Sota feeling a little awkward looking at them both and decided to leave back outside where the others were. 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu licked his lips then noticed Sota came in. Watching Shiro get all awkward made him giggle. Most alpha's would just show off in front of their pack,  not him and it was adorable. 

"We're coming soon," Ritsu smirked at the double meaning winking at Shiro. With the noodles cooked he strained them putting it into a large bowl,  then had Shiro pour the sauce on top. Last was the garlic bread out of the oven. 

He didn't have the energy for a salad but next time he would, "all set." Ritsu headed towards the door to hold open for him to carry out the bowl of food. 

[mik3la]

The way Ritsu said those words made him chock on his saliva making him even more flustered. Shaking his head he turned and prepared the bowl and plate for the food then he took them in his hands, carrying them outside and place them on the table. 

Sitting all together again outside in the open it really felt like they were a family. It was such a long time since he felt like this. Chatting and laughing, seeing Ritsu enjoying himself alongside his friends and pack members, made it even more clearer that he was perfect for him. 

After the dinner was over, the guys offered to clean the table and the dishes and let Ritsu rest for the day. Shiro smiled and thanked them walking him in their room. After closing the door he sigh taking his shirt off wanting to get ready to take a bath. 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu had such a fun time out there with everyone.  It was easy to forget the horrors of the last couple of days. Joking and chatting with everyone it was nice. 

After dinner he thanked them for cleaning up before heading up with Shiro. He felt a little nervous but it wasn't bad. 

Seeing him getting ready to bath he wondered if it would just be easier to join him,  "can I join you? I got sweaty when we napped and outside tonight." He pulled off his shirt then looked over at him wondering if it was okay. 

[mik3la]

Shiro looked at him undressing waging the idea of them bating together. After what happened in the kitchen from only a kiss, he wasn't sure what bathing will do, but he didn't want the other to feel like he was pushing him away. 

"Sure. I'll get the shower ready to be quicker. You do need to rest a lot" he said entering the bathroom, undressing his pants as he was turning on the shower, setting the water at the right temperature. He was now in his boxers preparing the towels and a bathrobe for Ritsu to dress up after as he didn't want him to get cold. He was really considerate of the other wanting to make him feel god. 

"Shower is set" he shouted from the bathroom as he was undressing his boxers and hopped under the warm water which made his body relaxed. 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu smiled softly,  "I know but I'm alright. I'm feeling really good." Mostly from drugs but also because he could only go up from where he was. Taking a shaky breath he undressed throwing his clothes on the floor. He was okay. Undoing the wraps he set them on the dresser. 

They hadn't even talked about what happened. For now Zin didn't want to talk about it. 

Heading into the shower he saw him in there and smiled softly. Stepping into the shower he wrapped his arms around him from behind,  "hello handsome man." 

[mik3la]

Feeling the arms wrapping around him he took a deep breath in before turning to smile at him. "hello little puppy" he teased amused by the nickname he decided to use. Well, it kind of suited him. He was like a little puppy that he had to take care of. But he didn't mind at all. Looking back at his past self, he never would had thought that he would open up like this to anybody. But he was glad he had meat him and decided to do the deal. 

"Is the water temperature okay for you?" he asked taking the soap and sponge starting to wash his shoulders and arms, being careful at his wrists, moving then to his torso. He also took some shampoo and use it on his now wet hair, making sure not to get soap in his eyes. "I'll make you nice and clean" he said putting a little soap on his nose laughing. 

[akiravadel]

At that one phrase it was like the world around him was closing in. His head lowered, he grew tense and tears streamed down his face. Looking back up at Shiro he started shaking, "no... nonono... please no!"

Screaming he stepped back from him nearly falling out of the shower but Shiro was there to grab him. Sobs wracked his frame as he remembered it,  the pain everything. Pulling his legs up he slumped to the floor getting himself into the smallest fetal position he could. To be a submissive as he could. 

[mik3la]

Shiro froze in the very second when he saw Ritsu tense stepping away from him starting crying. What the hell just happened? What did he say to trigger him like that. Hearing him screaming like that made his heart stop for seconds. the way he was trying to get away from him almost falling. Lucky he catched him and turned off the water after he layed him down in the shower, holding his hands hands up in the air in front of him, too afraid to touch him in that moment. 

"Ritsu ... it's me ... its' me ... It's Shiro ... Hey ..." he said placing one hand on his shoulder talking. "It's me ... Shiro ... It's Shiro ... babe .... oh fuck ... Ritsu ... please .... It's me ....Look at me" he said gently holding his hand on his shoulder hopping that he would listen to him and look at him and realize that he was back home same and sound. Seeing him still trembling and crying made him angry and sad at the same time, cursing himself for whatever he had done to trigger that. 

"Fuck ..." he cursed getting out of the shower taking the bathrobe and putting it around Ritsu trying again to reason with him. 

"Ritsu ... look at me ... please .... it's me ... Shiro ... You're home ... You're safe babe" he kept saying that trying to calm him. He heard knocks on the room door and Simon's voice asking if everything was okay as they heard noises. 

"IT'S OKAY. NOTHING TO WORRY" he shouted out so that Simon could hear him and turned his attention to Ritsu. 

"Babe ... look at me please " he plead again as gentle as possible, placing his hand on his head, 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu tried to make himself as small as he could about hyperventilating on the floor. For a moment he couldn't hear him only the defining quiet that was the basement. Sobbing hard his trembling was from fear and cold after a little bit.

Leak was also worried and at the door, it didn't sound good in there. She heard Shiro shout that there was nothing to worry about only made her worry more. 

Actually the yell to the others helped startle him out of the stort of ptsd moment he was having. Looking up at him a sob wracked his body as his arms came up wrapping around Shiro crying now for a different reason, "Shiro! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! He- he called me that when I was there!"

Ritsu was so scared and shaking so bad. The scent of anxiety and fear pouring off him. That time had been horrific but he knew he was safe with Shiro.

The sobs slowly started to calm down,  "I wanted to just forget it... to just push it away..." Holding onto him tightly his whole body was trembling. 

[mik3la]

CAught by surprised when he jumped in and hugged him tightly made him blink a few times but he instantly hugged him back, holding him steady on the floor as he was kneeling in front of him. What he said next made his blood boil in his veins. 

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 "Shiro! I'm sorry! I'm so sorry! He- he called me that when I was there!"

"Shhh.... I'm sorry ... i didn't mean it ...I .... i didn't know .... It's okay" he whispered moving his hand up and down his back to calm him down. The fucker traumatized him good. And he was so stupid in to say the words the other said to him. That triggered it. Fuck! He was cursing himself for being so stupid, but he didn't know. How could he know. But that was past it. Now he had to calm him down. 

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"I wanted to just forget it... to just push it away..." 

"It's okay ... i'm sorry too ...shhh...i'm here ... no one's gonna hurt you again ... i'm here" he kept whispering comforting him, feeling him relaxing a little bit in his arms but the way he had acted before wasn't okay. Just what did the fucker do to him to make him so scared? How could someone be so fucking crazy to turn someone in to act like this. Kissing his head and brushing his hand over his back continously he stayed there a few more minutes to let him calm down and cry as much as he wanted. 

"let's get you out of the shower before you freeze" he said gently moving away from him to take the towel, placing it on his hair as he was helping him to get up and with the other towel he cleaned the soap of his body, before dressing him with the bathrobe and walking out from the bathroom and into the dorm, putting him on the bed. He then turned and got a pair of boxers and a shirt on before he returned to dry his hair slowly, lifting him on the bed after, pulling the cover over him, before getting into bed beside him, wrapping his arm around him. 

"It's okay ... you're safe now ... you're safe babe" he said kissing his forehead, holding him in his embrace, wrapped in the blanket, hopping that would help to calm his nerves. 

[akiravadel]

Ritsu sniffled trying to calm himself down but it took a while. He let Shiro tend to him and just wiped his eyes trying to catch his breath. By the time he was working on drying his hair he finally calmed enough to breath easy. Getting dressed and everything was a blur as he tried to come up with a way to explain this to Shiro. He deserved to know so they didn't trigger more in the future. He'd scared Shiro so much he never wanted to see that face again. 

Wrapped up and comfy he sniffled against Shiro's chest, "Thank you..." Sniffling he gently ran his hand over his strong chest. 

"I thought... I thought he was going to kill me. He was erratic... screaming, punching walls. Going from sexual to hysterical to murderous in moments," Ritsu sighed trembling again but he had to tell him. "The reason he burned me was because I was talking back. Telling him off and he didn't like being told off. The burn was the first day. I saw both of them a few times but then my heart kicked in. I was so thirsty..."

Opening his eyes he stared blankly at Shiro's chest, "he finally gave me water but became erratic again. Threatened me and... to survive I gave him what he wanted. I played submissive, I let my omega side take over. One brutal blow job and fuck later I threw up then passed out. It wasn't long after that he brought me outside to you."

Swallowing hard he spoke like he was recalling a story he read, "he called me puppy during... that's why that got me."

[mik3la]

Shiro's body tensed when Ritsu started telling him what had happened. What he saw in the video was just the first day. The next day had been even worst. That's why he said that he could handle that video. Because it was nothing in comparison to what actually happened after. He closed his eyes tightening his arm around the other, holding him firmly to his chest, hopping that in some way he could make him forget all that. To clean his marks and make him happy again. Never seeing him afraid of him or anything of that sort like he did in today in the bathroom. That image of him, that submissive scared side made him sick to the stomach as he knew that wasn't Ritsu.  

"I'm sorry i was too late to get you" he whispered feeling his eyes tears because of anger and guilt. He was feeling guilty of not trying to find him sooner. If tracking him down sooner. Maybe that wouldn't had happened. "That sick bastard will pay for everything. I'll make sure of that" he said in an angry growling tone, more fierceful than any time before. 

Realizing that the nickname he had picked was the same as that bastard made him punch himself in the face, mentally. "I'm sorry for calling you that ... i'll be careful to never call you that ever again" he whispered in his gentle tone, kissing multiple times his forehead and head, holding him further in his arms. "Don't worry about me. You don't have to be sorry. I understand, and i'll be more careful" he added looking down at him leaning slowly towards him, keeping his eyes on him, making sure that it was okay to approach him now.  He bend and kissed his lips lightly. 

"As i said before .... easy going" he smiled kissing him one more time on his forehead. "Now try to get some rest. I'll be here with you the whole time, so you're safe" he added taking a deep breath and sighing watching over him and his sleep, guarding him. 

[akiravadel]

Telling him, however horrible it may be, he felt better. Now that he told someone what happened he could move forward. That submissive side of him wasn't Ritsu. He never did that but survival instincts kicked in with a crazed alpha. Other omega's and beta's did that but he behaved more alpha, "it's okay, in the end I still got back to you."

Gently touching Shiro's chest he smiled softly, "I don't want to avoid that word. We'll just used it carefully around me and then more often to desensitize me to it. I don't want five years from now we get a dog and call it puppy and I freak out." He chuckled sadly, but it was true. Holding him close he looked up at him kissing him softly. 

The next week had its rough moments. There was another incident where one of the guys wrapped their arm around him from behind and he fell into a fit of fear. This time Shiro got him out faster. After that week he went back to streaming. After a video explaining some of what happened he didn't mention the rape just that horrible things happened. Then moved on from it. The police contact them to let them know there was a trail underway and wanted to know if they wanted to press charges. At first Ritsu cried then he got pissed and said he was going to take him to the cleaners. It would be a few months until the trail though. In the meantime he was locked up in jail which kept him safe from Shiro. All while Alex was out since there was nothing linking to her and she wasn't anywhere to be found.

As the month went on Ritsu got better but he never initiated anything too intimate. Not that he didn't want to, it was just awkward now. Cuddling at night had become a regular thing which did help to bring them closer. He shared stories of him as a kid and talked about games he was enjoying. No other incidents had happened since then. They got in a bit of a routine with school, dinners and living together. A couple nights during the week they would have a movie night where there would be snacks and popcorn as they all huddled up in the living room to watch a film. Almost a dog pile of them relaxing together. It helped bring the pack closer. 

One evening Ritsu was streaming and talking to his fans about his birthday, "oh right... I forgot it's tomorrow." It was lining up with his heat. As that grew near he was getting more worried. His last heat didn't go so well. He hadn't gone past kissing Shiro this whole time and just asking him to help him during his heat was selfish. Just like their first time. It made him feel bad to ask that of him. 

Leah would watch in and moderate his streams sometimes now. That was when she caught his birthday was tomorrow. Finding Shiro she looked at him with an intense look, "Ritsu's birthday is tomorrow. Did you know that?" She hadn't heard anyone mention it, not even Ritsu. 

[mik3la]

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"I don't want to avoid that word. We'll just used it carefully around me and then more often to desensitize me to it. I don't want five years from now we get a dog and call it puppy and I freak out." 

"We will love. All in time and with baby steps" he said returning the kiss keeping him in his arms till he felt he relaxed and fell asleep. 

The next days had been running normal with nothing big happening. Spending time together and with the others, getting back to school and trying to finish all exams to start and preparing for University, deciding where they would go. He was going to make sure he was together with him no matter what. 

There had been one incident when one of the boys had hugged him from behind, taking him by surprised which triggered a panic attack again. But he was quick to react and managed settle the situation. 

What has been a little bit stressful was the fact that for the past month they hadn't been doing anything besides cuddle and kissing. He had held himself back all this time, which it was getting harder and harder to do, but he didn't want to force himself to the other. He wanted him to be feel comfortable with him in bed and all. He didn't want to trigger something again. They were taking it slow, more of a tease to be fair, which ended with him having blue balls but eventually managing to calm his dick back down. 

 

That morning was as normal as it could be. Shiro was making some snacks to eat while he was going to do some projects for school when Leah had come in the kitchen in a storm, making him confused when she asked about Ritsu;s birthday. Now that he was thinking about it, he had no idea. They have been dating for months now, but he never asked when his birthday was. He really was stupid in this relationship things. 

"What? N-No ... Fuck ... " he sigh brushing his hand through his hair, trying to think of something. "Tomorrow .... I don't have enough time to get him something" he added scratching the back of his head thinking more about it. Maybe i can get him something ... something that he had wanted for quite some time, he thought thinking to make a night only for them two and finally marking him as his. It was time to do it. He was a little afraid of any trigger, but he was going to take it slow and careful. And if anything was going to trigger he was going to stop. But he didn't know how much more he could hold without the sex part. He thought about jerking off but that would probably be a little stupid. 

"I might have an idea" he said looking at Leah, telling her about the date night and then spending time together and marking him. "But ... I don't know if i should do this in the house or somewhere outside. Like outdoors"