KiraMidnight Posted April 6, 2013 Share Posted April 6, 2013 I am that girl That always smiles when sad… That always hides her tears… That bears every burden alone… That treasures others more then herself… The one that You would never see have a bad day… You would be so close to, but still not be able to tell… Can be crying inside, but manage to make you smile… Can laugh and joke, but be a wreck inside… The girl That loves with all she has… Takes all the pain, and just says it’s ok… That wants to be loved, no matter the cost… That you can hurt so many times, and she’d still love you… The one That you would never expect to have such a terrible secret… That you would accidentally take advantage of, but she would never tell you so… That you thought you knew, but really you knew her mask… That has been hurt so many times, her heart is in too many pieces to put back together… She is the one That you talk to all the time, and she seems so happy… That you see talking to others, and she seems so comfortable… That you would never expect to break down, and truth is, she probably wont in front of you… That you see everyday, and she never seems to change. She is So sweet and caring So understanding and kind So sensitive and happy That girl you wouldn't expect anything to be wrong with All she wants Is to be loved, without fear Is to be held and told everything will be ok…and those words to be true… Is to be able to trust without fear Is to know what it is like…to not fear the future… Her mask is so hard, it hasn’t been cracked in the years she has had it. She fools everyone, her close friends…her family…even her lover… No one can tell how she feels, she wont show it truly Few know her true…but her true self changes to fit anyone she holds close… She has truly lost who she really is…she cant remember who she was before… Her mind is always racing, to many thoughts to know what they are Her heart is dark, no true feeling is there She has been scared in every way, but yet she acts perfectly normal Truth is, she is scared, hiding in a corner where no one can see her. Her heart and soul are dark, and she wants to see the light again. She fears everything around her, and mostly fears change… She doesn’t know how to speak her mind, she has been silenced for so long her inner voice is silent now You can do to her as you wish, she wont care You can say all you want, she will just stare You can talk bad about her, she will just listen She wont say you are wrong, or even think to stop you She’ll just let you do as you please, and go about her day This poem is one completely about me and by me…do not ask why I wrote this This poem has been true for more years then I can remember… If you read it carefully you may understand, or you may be confused Either way, I just felt this should be written and posted here, for all to see the truth I hide I beg you not to force me to explain…I will explain a few parts if you ask, but not all of it… Thank you for reading......... 3 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rainbowman Posted April 6, 2013 Share Posted April 6, 2013 ... I can see through you. I can honestly see through you without words. 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KiraMidnight Posted April 6, 2013 Author Share Posted April 6, 2013 If that were true...then I would not be the way I am I live to fool others...not the life I enjoy,but I have succeeded to many times... I do seek help,but I just cant seem to ever be true...I try hard to be...But I get to scared and lie again. It is true you have seen throught me a few times...you and sissy Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. and even Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. has too ...but not as often as it seems I mostly cry inside...and I hide so much of how I feel that now a days I cant even tell how I really feel...when we parted I cried...and questioned myself as to why?My heart did hurt,but I guess I couldn't tell...I'll even cry at times I don't even know why,I cant tell my own emotions anymore,not at all...it gets very hard when people ask 'How are you?" cause I don't know how to answer...that's why I asked you how you wanted me to answer your questions...or why I asked Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. how I should feel after we parted...I just don't know anymore...but I'll contine to keep smiling and making others laugh,cause that seems to be the only time I think I am truly happy...I don't know... And sorry for tagging all the people I did...don't be mad please? 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
rainbowman Posted April 6, 2013 Share Posted April 6, 2013 -edit- You think hiding your feelings will make things better? Have you ever thought for a moment for why I am here? Why I became your lover? .. i wont say more anymore. I hate ranting. 2 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aizen Posted April 6, 2013 Share Posted April 6, 2013 "You can do to her as you wish, she wont care" . Ooh~ :kicked: 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KiraMidnight Posted April 6, 2013 Author Share Posted April 6, 2013 Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. it's true... Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. ,I know this....trust me..... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aizen Posted April 6, 2013 Share Posted April 6, 2013 So many couples here...no wonder this place has a warm atmosphere inside 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KiraMidnight Posted April 6, 2013 Author Share Posted April 6, 2013 I don't have a lover Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. Or a Seme. Also your name makes me think of the super hot Sosuke Aizen from Bleach Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
aizen Posted April 7, 2013 Share Posted April 7, 2013 Ahahaha...many friends said that ^^ Too bad you don't have a partner, Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. ...I thought your seme was Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. . Sumimasen 1 Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
KiraMidnight Posted April 9, 2013 Author Share Posted April 9, 2013 Nope Use to be though Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Teesie Posted December 7, 2013 Share Posted December 7, 2013 Please Register/ Sign In, in order to see the links. Aww this just hurt my heart (hugs) I had no idea. I hope you have finally found at least something to live for. I hope you find that love where you don't have to pretend anymore Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Sora Aurakai Posted August 14, 2014 Share Posted August 14, 2014 The world is sad and I am sad for you. :/ Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
luna: Posted December 24, 2014 Share Posted December 24, 2014 Fight on! I might not tolerate as much, but i try to. I neither regret nor feel bad. There were times I was boiling inside. (Even wanna choke sb) but I smiled, surrendered. What's left for me? SATISFACTION, that i didn't make others sad... T_T Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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