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[mik3la]

Locking eyes with the other his heart was hurting even more. He wasn't his and he couldn't have him. No matter how good and perfect the other was for him, he wasn't his. They were just fuck buddies and he shouldn't want more as the other made it clear at the beginning. But the gentle kiss and the pull to his chest made it difficult for him to think otherwise, but then again, he used to do this before as well and probably he is doing the same with others. 

Snuggling to his chest, he wrapped his hand around the others waist, staying pinned to him, resting his head on the others arm. Feeling the others breathing he looked up and saw that he was already asleep. A sad smile appeared on his face as he was watching him sleep. His back was starting to hurt a little and the soreness to mingle with it, but he didn't cared. He was happy. For that time and period he was happy to experience it with him. He felt like crying as all this would end but he managed to keep it in.  

He stayed like that for hours not able to sleep. He wanted to hold on to this moment as much as possible. But soon the sun was rising and it was time for Aziel to wake up and get to work. As he decided last night, he was going to prepare him lunch and wave him out the house. That was the least he could do for his farewell. 

Trying to sneak out of bed without waking the other up was like a mission impossible. Hardly, he managed to move Aziels hand that was keeping him in his arms and grunting his teeth because of his back pain he managed to slide to the edge. He needed a shower before doing anything as he felt the semen inside his rear slowly coming out. He moved slowly in the bathroom catching a glims of himself in the mirror. The marks on himself were a lot more than usual and more aggressive but he didn't mind. For a moment he felt his and it felt amazing. 

Taking a deep breath he showered quickly taking one of the robes that were hanging in the bathroom. Walking out, he got closer to the edge of the bed side where Aziel was still sleeping, caresing his cheek and brushing his finger over his lips. "I'm so sorry for leaving but .... i cannot continue this ....  i've fallen for you therefore i broke the contract ...and its too painful to keep pretend like nothing happened...it hurts too much .... but thank you for everything .... you're really a great guy but you're not mine to keep ...." he whispered then leaned and kissed his lips gently, not wanting to wake him up. 

Holding his tears he walked out preparing his bento food for work. Checking the time he was done right in time for the other to wake up. He made his coffee and walked back up in the room, with the cup in his hand waking the other gently. 

"Good morning sleepy head" he said sitting on the edge of the bed, turning his alarm off that just started ringing. "It's time to wake up" he smiled leaning the cup of coffee so the smell with get to him. 

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[Sathenus]

Aziel shifted slightly from the movement beside him, rolling onto his side now that there was no longer a warm body resting against his. Not even really aware that Hinata had left, only aware of the fact that there wasn't the added weight of another person against him. It didn't wake him up, however, he just continued sleeping peacefully. After the sex and the long day at work he was still out, not being anywhere ready to get up for the day. When Hinata returned and sat at the edge of the bed just as his alarm started going off and saying good morning he groaned softly, though the smell of coffee was rather heavenly in the morning.

For a moment he turned his face into his pillow and just groaned again, still not quite ready to get up. After a moment a soft sigh escaped him and he turned his face towards Hinata, finally shifting to sit up in the bed. "Morning." He groaned, stretching his slightly stiff body. "How long have you been up?" Aziel questioned coming to realize that Hinata was showered and seemed to be pretty awake despite how early it was. Which was a little odd, mainly because he wasn't used to the younger man being awake when he was getting up for work.

Shifting so he was sitting on the edge of the bed beside Hinata he rubbed his face again, trying to wake up more, knowing he needed to get in the shower and get moving. He never really gave himself a bunch of time in the morning. Really only waking up an hour before he had to get to work. Knowing if he tried to give himself more time than that he'd just end up messing around or trying to go back to bed instead of getting ready. Turning his gaze back to Hinata he leaned over and gently kissed the younger man's cheek, letting out a soft hum from how nice the other smelled after his shower this morning. "Hmm... you smell really nice this morning." Not that he ever thought that the other smelt bad, he just particularly liked how nice it was this morning.

Huh, sure he knew his feelings for Hinata were just growing stronger. Maybe that was why? He wasn't really sure, Aziel also decided not to really focus on it though knowing that it'd just bum him out. He knew what their arrangement was and how there were not supposed to be any romantic feelings involved. That was easier said than done though. Before it was always the other person who fell for him, so them breaking it off never bothered him, This was different though, this time he was falling rather hard for Hinata and he didn't want to let the younger man go. If anything he just wanted to hold onto him tighter, regardless of any previous agreement they had.

Getting up off the bed he reached for his phone to check the notifications, not seeing anything important and moving to head towards the bathroom so he could shower and get dressed for work. He would be able to talk with Hinata a bit more after his shower before he'd have to head off to work, right now though he really just needed to focus on getting ready so he could get out the door on time and not be late.

[mik3la]

Hinata  smiled at the other greeting him and the perfect view that he was displaying as he was stretching his body. He gave him his coffee when he was ask for how long he was up. 

"That's not important. You need to get ready for work" he said smiling and giggling at his groaning side of not wanting to get out of bed. In that moment Aziel looked like a child groaning for not wanting to go to school. He was cute and the way he was reacting as a grown man he was even more cuter. 

He closed his eyes for a second when Aziel kissed his cheek and smelled the shower gel perfume which made him giggle again. "Cute that you like it. Fresh mint and vanilla. What can i say" he shrugged smiling standing up and making room for the other to do the same and head to work. 

"I'll be downstairs then" he shouted when the other got in the bathroom , turning to head in the kitchen, placing his lunch bento on the counter as he sat at the table drinking his coffee as he waited for him to be done. 

Today was the last day he was going to see Aziel. The last day of him staying in the house. Tears almost got him but he managed to wipe and hold them in. It would had been so nice to be in a relationship with him and do this every time he was leaving work. Being together just like this and just the two of them. But he knew this was beyond what they spoke and agreed. It was better this way. 

[Sathenus]

Aziel was happily sipping from the coffee when Hinata told him about the scent of the shower gel he had used. "Hmm... it's a good one. You should use it more often." He replied setting the coffee on his nightstand as he was getting up for the bathroom and Hinata was getting up to leave the room. After the younger man called that he would be downstairs as he was entering the bathroom Aziel didn't respond. Instead he got into the shower, washing up quickly and getting dressed in his work clothes, did his normal morning routine.

Slipping his phone into his pocket and grabbing his cup of coffee again he was drinking from it as he came downstairs, still not quite ready to face the day. Seeing that Hinata was sitting at the table drinking some coffee too he gave the younger man a small smile, sitting across from him. "You're really too sweet when you are up so early and deliver coffee." Aziel admitted. It really was like Hinata was spoiling him and as much as he liked it he also wasn't sure what to make of the extra attention. From cooking dinner for him, coffee, waking him up in a better way for work, the nights they had shared the same bed. It really was almost as if they were dating already, that thought both thrilled and confused him.

Now that he was ready for work and would just need to grab his keys and head out he had some time to talk with Hinata and enjoy being able to visit with him before leaving for work. "Did you sleep at all? You look kind of exhausted." Aziel admitted looking the younger man over again. It seemed as thought Hinata had barely slept, at least that's how it looked to him. Which definitely made him a little concerned about him since he had school and work today. He'd hate to think that Hinata would be tired all day and possibly quite distracted because of that.

[mik3la]

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You're really too sweet when you are up so early and deliver coffee." 

"Don't get used to it" he said joking and laughing. It was a joke but at the same time a hidden info which he hopped that he will not get it until later on. 

It was so relaxing to be around and for sure he will not find another guy like him again. He really was one of a kind. 

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"Did you sleep at all? You look kind of exhausted." 

"Hmm? Oh ... couldn't sleep much last night. Someone was holding me to tight and didn't had much air" he joked giggling again as he was pulled out from his thoughts. That wasn't the exact reason. He did sleep because his heart was pounding so hard that it was hurting his chest. He couldn't sleep because he had fallen so deep for him that it was killing him to disappeared like he was going to. He didn't want to wait until Aziel will tell him in his face that it was over because he wasn't doing feelings and all. t was better this way. 

"I packed you some food from last night to have at work and hopefully you'll stop eating junk food" he added smiling looking at him, as if wanting to capture his picture with his eyes if it was possible. Good god! when did i became so cheesy?! 

 

[Sathenus]

A chuckle was his response as Hinata told him not to get used to being woken up with coffee. Aziel would definitely convince himself not to get used to it, though he did really enjoy Hinata doing it. A slightly nervous laugh came from him when Hinata teased him about holding him too tight last night contributing to why Hinata hadn't slept that well. "It's your fault. Don't be so cute next time and I won't hold you so tight after." He joked back. A small amused smile appearing on his face as he said that, his eyes taking in the younger man.

His eyes moved towards the counter where the food that Hinata had packed for him was sitting as the younger man said he had packed him some food from the night before and hoped he'd stop eating junk food. "Ah well, you win that battle today. Can't make any promises though." He admitted. While Hinata packing him a lunch did ensure that he wouldn't be eating junk food today, at least not for lunch, it didn't mean that he wouldn't fall into old habits again tomorrow. Aziel was used to eating a certain way, one day or a little spoiling from Hinata was not enough to change that.

Turning his gaze back to Hinata he gave him another smile, "It's still really sweet of you." He teased the other man. It was hard not to tease Hinata a little, the other was always saying he needed to eat better and had cooked for him more than once since moving in. Allowing him to tease him even more about how much he was spoiling him with all of the attention and care. Maybe he teased Hinata about it because he didn't really want to admit how much he cared for Hinata in return? That was most likely the exact reason he did it, a little coping mechanism to avoid admitting his feelings and pushing any chance for anything more between them away. What if he was reading into Hinata's actions too much and the other man didn't feel the same way? It'd certainly ruin any chances he may have at keeping Hinata around, especially if the feelings were not returned. While the other's actions could give the impression of Hinata caring more than they originally agreed on and having feelings back he didn't want to risk them not being returned and their relationship currently coming to an end.

[mik3la]

"Its okay. Even for a day is fine" he smiled pushing the lunch package further to him and then looked at the time. "You should get going or you'll be late" he said getting up , leaving his cup in the sink and turned to look at the other. The smile didn't disappeared from his face as he got closer to Aziel and leaned in to kiss his lips tender but lingering as much as possible wanting to print them in his memory. 

"Have a good day at work " he whispered after the kiss , locking his eyes with the other but keeping the distance between them. This was his last time kissing him and touching him. Oh how he will miss this, how he will miss him and everything that they shared even if it was for a short period of time. He read that the one right person can appeare in mysterious places but they forgot to mention that it can also be at the wrong time. 

[Sathenus]

"Yeah, okay." Aziel sighed when Hinata told him that he should get going or he'd be late. Quickly he downed the remainder of his coffee and took up the lunch that Hinata had packed for him, he had just moved to stand up when Hinata moved closer to him. The tender but lingering kiss caused a smile to return to his face. This really was something Aziel could find himself getting used to. The simple kiss had caused his heart to pound roughly in his chest. His eyes meeting the other's as Hinata whispered for him to have a good day at work, their eyes locked on each other and neither of them moving.

Dipping in closer he gave Hinata another kiss, smirking as he pulled away and grabbed his lunch, getting up and heading for the door, grabbing his keys as he went. "Have a good day at school and work later." He replied heading out the door. As much as he would have loved to stay and give Hinata all of his attention his work had to be a priority. He couldn't just start showing up late or calling in just because he would rather have more time with Hinata. No, he had to keep his priorities straight and his job had to come first. There would be other chances to spend time with the younger man.

[mik3la]

As soon as Aziel closed the door behind him Hinata took a deep breath as his chest was hurting for what he was going to do but he couldn't stay there anymore and just play pretend with Aziel when he wanted to love him but wasn't allowed. Biting his lip and trying to hold on the cry that was caught in his throat he went back upstairs to start packing his things. He decided to skip school for today and work was going to be in the evening so it was alright. He had plenty of time to get his things and talk with Noya to come pick him up. 

While packing he texted his friend about what he was doing and if it was okay to stay at his place for a few days until he was going to get his apartment. Since Noya was now staying with Conner, he had to check first if it was okay for him to stay there. 

Soon everything was packed as he moved them to his car and took one last step in the house looking around sighing as he will miss it. Even if it was for a short period of time, he really liked to spend it there with Aziel. It felt like they were together, just like his friend and Conner. But they weren't like that. And what happened over the weekend with that guy only confirmed him more that they will never be. 

He decided though to leave the other a note on the counter stating the fallowing: 

'Thank you for all that you have given me and for being there for me when i needed but i'm afraid the contract has been breached and this is for the best. Take care of you and if possible hire someone to cook so you can have hot meals at home at least.

with love Hinata'

With a deep breath he left the house and drove to his friend to which he soon arrived and knocked at the door, but it wasn't  Noya who opened the door but Conner. 

"Hey kiddo. Noya is in the kitchen. You head on and i'll get your things from the car" he said opening the door more to make room for the other to get in. Hinata smiled thankful as he walked pass the other and head to his friend, while Conner started to take the luggage out from the car and in the house to the room that Hinata will have. 

"hey Noya" he said as he entered the kitchen walking to his friend and hugging him tightly. he really needed that. 

[Sathenus]

Noya had been quick to get back to Hinata after receiving the text about him asking to stay with them until his apartment was ready. It upset him a little to think his best friend was in such a position that he was in such a hurry to get out of Aziel's home. He had been quick to ask Conner about it and wasn't all that surprised when his boyfriend had agreed, letting Hinata know that he could come stay with them before getting up and getting ready for the day. It was earlier than he would normally be up and getting ready but he didn't mind since it meant that Hinata would be there soon. Not just that but any extra time he had to spend with Conner was also a plus.

Hearing a knock on the door awhile later Conner had told him he'd get it, nodding Noya returned to what he was doing in the kitchen, making breakfast and some tea. He preferred tea most of the time and thought it'd be a nice way to help ease his best friends nerves as well. He turned when he heard Hinata speak a small smile crossing his face as he hugged the other back tightly, not letting go of him for a moment, knowing Hinata needed the hug but so did he. Noya really felt bad for Hinata, having really thought that the pair would have worked out together.

"Hey, Hinata." He greeted him finally. Looking into the other's eyes as their hug finally broke. "I'm making breakfast and some tea. I know you may not be that hungry but some tea will do you good." He informed his best friend, his smile much more happy this time. "It'll be fun having you here." Noya added, knowing he was going to enjoy having Hinata in the house, even if it was only for a little while as Hinata was waiting for his apartment.

[mik3la]

"Its fine by me as well" he nodded and sigh at the others suggestion about the tea, appreciating that he wasn't insisting on eating. His appetite was not on good terms with his mood s food wasn't looking that appealing.  He decided that while staying there with the other he will tell him everything this time and what exactly happened. From the beginning till the end. Once he was done, he was waiting for Noya to react and scream at him, curs Aziel, something. He was waiting as he looked at his friend knowing the he will get scolled for not telling him about it sooner. 

"I'm sorry for keeping all this away from you. And about all this. Its not just Aziels fault. It is also mine as i agreed with it in the first place. But never thought that .... " he took a deep breath and sigh, playing with the cup of tea in his lap, not feeling like drinking either in that moment. 

"I feel so stupid for being in this situation and also for being a burden to everyone around me" , he continued by closing his eyes trying hard not to cry. He felt useless, pathetic, every worst way possible. What was his purpose in this life after all? He had no purpose. He felt like a leaf in the wind. Drag back and forth until he will hit the ground and it will hit hard. 

[Sathenus]

Noya smiled brighter as Hinata agreed to the tea, making them each a cup before settling down together, having just finished making the breakfast. He figured he could eat after but really just wanted to talk to his friend now and see how he was doing. As Hinata was telling him everything that had happened between him and Aziel and the agreement he had entered into that night they had met at the bar he could feel himself getting angry with both of them, Aziel for hurting his best friend and Hinata from keeping this from him and entering such a stupid relationship. "I'm more upset that you didn't feel like you could talk to me about this than anything. I can behave myself and not press things." Noya pouted with a frown.

"I don't understand why you would have agreed to such a relationship to begin with. The whole point of me taking you out was to try to find you someone you could be with, not just have sex with." The man added looking at his best friend who had sighed and was playing with the cup in his hand. "It might not just be his fault but he's still a dick for putting you through all of this." Noya said, still pissed that the other guy had put Hinata through all of this when he had been hoping for the best. He'd been so sure that the two of them would have ended up together that it pissed him off even more knowing all of this stuff.

The next part about Hinata being a burden to everyone had Noya sighing and setting his tea down on the coffee table. Taking Hinata's tea from him he put it down on the coffee table as well before taking his best friend's hands in his. Making sure that Hinata was looking back into his eyes before he spoke, "You're not a burden to anyone. Not me, Conner or Aziel." He told Hinata. Not wanting his friend to feel this way but knowing that he did after every breakup. While romance hadn't been on the plate with Aziel thanks to their stupid agreement it was still a breakup considering Hinata clearly had feelings for the other man.

"It's a shame really... you two acted like you were dating... like you guys were going to be together." He sighed, rubbing the back of Hinata's hand with his thumb, still absently holding his friend's hands in his own. "Not to mention you fall for people rather quickly... and hard." He added, his eyes meeting the other's gaze once more. Noya absolutely loved Hinata, he was like a brother to him and he hated seeing him getting hurt. But he had seen this again and again before too, Hinata was classic for falling hard and fast for the men he was in a relationship with. So it ended as no surprise that he had fallen for Aziel. It just pissed him off even more though. Why couldn't the idiot just return Hinata's love? They both so clearly liked each other.

[mik3la]

"I hooked up with him back then because i wasn;t looking for a relationship. I know you wanted me to find one but ... at that time i didn't want one. And it was fine at first. Honestly" he said looking at his friend when he took his hands in his, trying to assure him about the oposit of him being a burden. This scene was a deja vu already but he didn't had the energy. But he really thought he could do no emotion thing. 

"Its just .... as you said....we acted as if dating and ...that's what made me start question everything but this weekend was the confirmation that what i thought was wrong and that i'm the stupid one" he said laughing sadly , remembering what happened with that guy Shane and how he acted around him. Not to mention what he did to his work only because he thought was going to steal Aziel from him. Well, now he could have him all. That thought hurt his chest, making it a little hard to breath. 

"All done and left in the room" said Conner as he entered the room and saw the scene, stopping mid way realizing that he interrupted them. "Ah...s-sorry for interrupting .... I'll come back later" said Conner starting to walk backwards feeling awkward for walking in mid their conversations. 

"N-No ... its fine Conner , really. Is not like you didn't figure out all already" he said wiping his tears from his cheeks. 

"Hey kiddo .... Aziel is a primitive gorrila .... he doesn't get things ...but i'm sure he did developed some more affection for you than he or you think" he said leaning on the counter looking at his boyfriend and the heartbroken kid. 

"I really think you're wrong about that Conner.... He called that guy in the weekend and cat walked through the house .... i know i shouldn't feel this but it hurt and made me realize that i ... i cannot be what he wanted anymore" said Hinata shrugging. 

Conner sigh rubbing the back of his head not knowing what to do or say anymore.

[Sathenus]

Miss frowned when Hinata justified entering that you're off relationship because he hasn't been looking for a real one. That just made him feel worse about it, using that he had set his best friend up for heartbreak when he really should have just taken a step back. He really did push things too much sometimes. Well... one good thing had come from that night. Conner. It made him feel a little better, though he really wished they'd find Hinata his own Conner. Considering how happy his boyfriend made him.

"Your boy the stupid one, stop saying that." He scored his friend. "Aziel's stupid for not realizing what a great guy he had and throwing out all away." Noya added. Thinking the other man was the stupid one, Hinata was a great guy and Aziel had thrown it all away. Not to mention how insensitive he had been inviting another guy over with Hinata staying with him. It pissed him off more thinking that the other man tight that was okay, even if it was Aziel's home and their original agreement. It only angered him more thinking about it, not able to understand how his boyfriend could be friends with such a jerk or how easily Hinata had fallen for him.

Thinking of his boyfriend his eyes moved to Conner as he entered the room only to realize he had walked into the middle of their conversation. "Hinata's right, come sit down." Noya encouraged his boyfriend, getting up to get Conner some tea too, knowing this whole situation put his boyfriend in an awkward position. Since he was his boyfriend but also friends with Aziel, understanding how the older man might have conflicting feelings about the situation. 

Now sighed a little as he put tea in front of his boyfriend turning his attention back to Hinata. "You have every right to be upset and feel what you do. He's the one who was being inconsiderate flaunting another guy around even if it is his house." He told his best friend. Knowing he'd be upset and incredibly hurt if Conner ever did that to him, though they are actually dating unlike what Aziel and Hinata were doing. Sharing wasn't something Noya liked, he never would have agreed to the terms Hinata had. He wanted and demanded to be the center of attention, a one night stand was fine but that was a far as it'd go if there was no commitment to just him. 

[mik3la]

Conner looked at his boyfriend and how upset he was on the other. Commenting something or even defending Aziel would be deadly for him in those moments but he had to say something even if that might upset Noya. 

"Babe, i know you hate him now but ...." he sigh then continued. "On one hand i agree with you and on the other no. Yes he did wrong to get that other guy in the house without telling Hinata about it first but at the same time they weren't exclusive. He was wrong in how he handled things, that much i agree" he said sighing heavy knowing that this was now a sensitive topic and he was wondering how Aziel was doing, thinking that the other told him about his leave. 

"yeah ... well...what was done is done and theres nothing i can do about it" said Hinata taking a deep breath and sighing as he looked at both of them. "I'll excuse myself for now. I need to get some rest as i didn't slept much last night and tonight i need to go to work" he said smiling assuring his friend still holding his hand. "I'll get over it as i did with the other ones. Only that this time i will need more time " he said to his friend with the hint of not pushing him again to go out and date this soon. 

"I'll show you where the room is"  Conner said as he took the lead to show him the room , leaving him to his thoughts,  stopping on the way to the kitchen to check his friend by sending him a message: 'dude ... how stupid can you be?!' he send him the message , thinking that the other already knew about Hinata leaving the house. 

[Sathenus]

Noya pouted and grumbled something a little, wanting to argue about it but not wanting to fight with Conner over this either. Yes he hated Aziel now, but he didn't feel like having told Hinata ahead of time that he was bringing another guy home would make him feel any better. Thinking that both men were stupid, Aziel for being so heartless towards his friend and Hinata for being so quick to jump into an open relationship like that. Huffing softly he looked away, not going to fight with Conner about it, "Still stupid." He mumbled. Knowing that Conner knew Aziel better than he did and maybe this was more common behavior about the other than he knew. If that was true though it made him wish his boyfriend had warned him what kind of guy the other man was so he could have warned Hinata ahead of time. Not that it necessarily would have changed matters any but still.

Hinata saying that he needed to get some rest as he hadn't gotten much sleep had him nodding, squeezing the other man's hand gently. Noya bit his lip as the other hinted at him not to push him going out and dating again this soon. "Get some rest." He replied giving his best friend a loving and caring smile, he really wanted him to get some sleep and hopefully Hinata would feel better when he got up. He'd do his best to not be so pushy this time and let Hinata reenter the dating world when he was ready and not because he was pushing him to find someone.

Watching the two men leave the room he sighed and plopped down into his chair, arms crossing over his chest, still pissed about the whole thing. Noya was pretty good at holding grudges and he was bound to hold one for quite awhile after all of this.

 

Aziel was looking over some surveillance footage from the night before to make sure that nothing odd had happened when he heard his phone go off. Glancing down and seeing that it was from Conner he wasn't going to reply at first but he caught a glimpse of the beginning of the message and got curious. Picking up his phone and looking at the message he was pretty confused by it. 'What the hell are you talking about, Conner? What stupid thing did I do?' He texted back to his friend not understanding what he had done or why Conner was saying that.

[mik3la]

Hinata let himself fell in bed, not changing into pjs or anything. He felt too exhausted after the white night that he made, also the back pain was still there reminding him about last night and his eyes with tears reminding him of the situation he was in. It was too much for him to handle again. And he blamed himself for thinking it was going to be different. It never was. He said that to himself every time he wanted to have something casual but every time he ended up being the one hurt. He never had someone chase him or actually stay with him for long period of time. They all were leaving him. He really hated his life in that moment. Closing his eyes he tried to rest as much as possible. 

Conner return in the kitchen when he saw his boyfriend all grumpy , sitting crossed arms over his chest, mumbling to himself. Sighing he pulled the chair next to him and leaned in closer. 

"What are you mumbling and concentrating so much? Do i wanna know?" he teased a little , thinking that it was going to be a joke and not something serious. His phone buzzed and checked the screen only to see a reply from Aziel which made him frown. "For real man?" he said without thinking out loud after he read the full message. Did the other really not like Hinata more than just fuck buddies? Had his friend become that insensible? 

'you still have the nerve to act like this? Man wtf!  I thought you were better and thought that this time maybe you where going to finally open up but guess i was wrong. But then again it was your guys agreement and i know how that part works. But still you should hade keept yourself more distance if you didn't want to missinterpret things. Whatever man ..... you're a dickhead since you think more with your dick than your actual brain' 

He then switched his phone off and put it back in his pocket wrapping his arm around the others shoulders holding him close. "As much as i hate this i would punch Aziel in the face as well babe" he whispered kissing his forehead, holding him in his arms. 

[Sathenus]

"He's still an asshole." Noya huffed at his boyfriend when Conner returned and pulled a chair up beside him. Knowing that his boyfriend would know he was talking about Aziel still. Despite that he couldn't help but find how the other man was trying to make him feel better by teasing him actually a nice gesture and it did work in making him feel a little better. His eyes were watching Conner as he pulled out his phone and checked the screen, a small frown crossing his face at the older man's words before he was typing something on his phone. Noya tried to be respectful of Conner's privacy and never looked at what he typed or any messages on his phone. Feeling that their personal phones were only their business and not feeling like they were hiding anything from each other.

That didn't mean that right now he didn't get extremely curious, but he did his best to remain respectful of the other's privacy and didn't look over his shoulder at what he was typing even if he could have easily done so. Once Conner had turned his phone off and put it back in his pocket their eyes were meeting as an arm was wrapped around his shoulders. Shifting slightly in his chair Noya leaned against the other as he was held close and his boyfriend kissed his forehead after whispering to him. "I know you know him better than I do but he's a jerk." Noya murmured, hugging the older man. While his boyfriend's words had made him feel a little better he still wasn't happy. He hated anyone that hurt Hinata, and that was quite a few people these days since his best friend didn't have the best track record with dating. Not that he did either, at least he had finally found someone who treated him well in and out of the bedroom. Noya had really thought Aziel would be the guy to do that for Hinata too, maybe that was why it bothered him so much.

 

Having returned to his work and filling out a few forms that hadn't been completed by the last guy he sighed as his phone went off again. Already knowing it was going to be Conner and wondering what he had done to be called stupid this time. Reading the message he got he was just more and more confused. "What the hell is with him today?" He mumbled to himself not understanding why Conner seemed to be so irritated with him. Act like what? It really stunned Aziel who was sitting in the chair, phone in one hand and the pen he had been filling out the form with in the other. 'Seriously, Conner. What the hell are you talking about?' He texted the other back, extremely confused.

As time passed and he didn't get any texts back from Conner he was starting to think that the man just wasn't going to answer him. It just confused him even more though, not understanding what was happening. After his shift he returned home and sighed, putting his keys and the dish from his lunch on the counter intending to head up to his room to shower and change when something caught his attention. Aziel picked up the piece of paper thinking maybe Hinata was writing up another grocery list or something despite having just done some shopping the day before. What he wasn't expecting was a note telling him that Hinata had broken their contract. It took a moment for what that meant to sink in with him, the first thing he did was check the spare room that Hinata had been staying in and he was surprised to find it completely void of anything of the younger man's.

The first thing that hit Aziel was a bit of anger, not that Hinata had broken their contract but realizing this was what the hell Conner had been talking to him about this morning. It had to be. Knowing that Hinata's best friend was Noya and that he and Conner were dating. What bothered him more than Conner's words though was how Hinata had acted like nothing was wrong this morning. Fuck... it made him realize just how hard he really had fallen for the younger man. It wasn't anger he felt towards Hinata but pain and disappointment that he was gone. The first thing he did was text Conner and ask if he had seen Hinata today, not caring if the man had been ignoring him for the past few hours but figuring that had to have been where he went.

It hurt more than he wanted to admit, because he had broken the contract too. Aziel hadn't been about to admit it though because he knew what that had meant. He hated to think that Hinata had left because he had fallen for him. It made him wonder if he had shown his feelings for him more if things would be different now. Deep down he had a feeling the answer would be no. That Hinata would have left anyway, at least that's how he saw it. Still he didn't like it, his heart felt like it had shattered. Coming home to Hinata had become something he had grown accustomed too and he had started to see them as if they were dating already even if he had not mentioned in to the younger man. This just reminded him more of that stupid agreement they had made. Who would have thought such a shy guy would have made him fall so hard for him?

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Conner explain who was he texting before they moved in the living room watching a movie as that was the idea before the call from Hinata. At least they could still enjoy their time being together, ignoring the others messages he enjoyed the movie with his lover, cuddling and feeling cozy. 

As hours went by and the movie was done he decided to check his phone and saw the messages that Aziel left. Rolling his eyes at his question he sigh. Aziel was his friend for years and he had tried to make the other to get out of this stupid habit of being with multiple guys at once but the other didn't want to listen anymore. Ever since he got his heart broken as well he decided the 'no emotion' policy. But this thing with Hinata it was clear as day that it had been different since the beginning but this morron was to stupid and stubborn to accept it. 

'why do you care? Its done. You have others to warm your bed isn't it. Hinata was just another one of your subs, right? But i never thought you would play so dirty into making the other think otherwise' 

He texted back sighing. He turned to look at Noya as he checked the clock. "You should wake up Hinata and get him something to eat as he needs to head to work soon" he said leaning in to kiss him on the lips, lingering more, giving time and multiple kisses. He was glad that the kid had this lovely person as his friend. He really needed friends in this times. 

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Noya just nodded when Conner told him he was texting Aziel, not about to get upset about it. The two of them had been friends long before they had gotten together and he didn't expect this negative situation with Hinata to change that dynamic any. As they cuddled up together to watch a movie Noya became much happier and more like himself again. Not as upset or frustrated, enjoying the cuddling and time they were spending together. Kind of glad that even though Hinata had moved in today that they hadn't had to change their plans. Though if Hinata had needed him instead he wouldn't have minded giving up the movie knowing they could always try to watch it later instead.

After hours had passed and Conner was checking his phone again, Noya just rested his head in his boyfriend's lap. Just enjoying being close and spending time with him. After Conner put the phone down he turned to look at him as he sighed, seeing him look to him before checking the clock. Purring into the kiss happily he smiled, returning the kisses and shifting to press himself into the other more. A soft chuckle escaping him as they finally managed to stop the kissing long enough for his mind to focus. "Okay, I'll go check on Hinata." He replied, leaning in for one more kiss before he was pulling away.

Noya made some food for Hinata that'd be easy on his stomach, knowing how his best friend was when he was upset and how his appetite seemed to vanish. Still, it was important that Hinata eat and right now he was not going to take no for an answer. Walking into the room he set the food down on the bedside table and gently started to wake Hinata up. "Come on sleepy head. I brought you some food, time to wake up." He gently told the other, rubbing his back and trying to make sure he didn't startle Hinata.

 

Aziel really wasn't happy that Conner kept putting him off. He had showered and paced a bit before finally just lying on his bed, staring at the ceiling trying to figure out how to handle the fact that Hinata had felt the need to sneak away while he was at work. Suddenly he heard his phone for the first time in hours. Getting up he saw it was a message from Conner and he frowned as he read it. Really not understanding why his friend was being so cold about this whole thing. 'Conner, I'm serious. I don't know what you mean. Everything was fine this morning, or so I thought. I came home to him and his stuff being gone and a note. I just want to make sure he's okay.' It was really starting to frustrate him that Conner was behaving like this towards him. What the hell had gotten into his friend?

If he was being serious he hadn't thought he had been leading Hinata on. All the feelings he had shown towards Hinata had been how he genuinely felt, feeling it was easier and safer to show Hinata how much he cared about him than it was to voice it. He knew inviting Shane over had been a huge mistake, but he hadn't thought about it when he had done it. After Shane had left things between him and Hinata had seemed to go back to normal. Not having realized just how much damage it had caused or the fact that Hinata apparently had started to really fall for him too and thus decided to leave. 

'Look, Conner... I know I made a mistake with Hinata but I didn't mean to hurt him. Everything I did for him, the way I treated him. That was how I really felt. I know inviting a guy here while Hinata was staying with me was fucked up and I'd go back and undo it if I could but I can't. Just tell me he's okay and I won't bug him. I never meant to hurt him.' Aziel sent the last message, his heart was pounding painfully and ached more than he cared to admit. He didn't want to think about how much he had ended up hurting Hinata or that he had given him the wrong impression. That and he hated how Conner was responding to all of this when he seriously didn't understand what was happening. All he knew was things were fine this morning and Hinata and his stuff was gone when he got home with a vague note. He knew things between them were over because of said note too, that hurt even more than anything.

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As Noya left he checked his phone when it buzzed again. he decided to call him instead of texting him as it was much easier to talk about all this. 

"What you don't understand dickhead? You hurt the kid. He fell in love with you and because of that stupid agreedment he decided to end things before you would have ended them and this weekend was the final decision. He decided to do it while you were away because it would had been too painful to do it while you where there. He was too afraid of a face to face rejection from you so he decided to leave you a note and go. And yeah he's fine. As fine as one can be in this situations. You fucked up man, big time this time" he said in one go taking deep breaths rubbing his forehead as he leaned more in the sofa trying to calm himself. He was upset because his friend wasn't the type to be that insensible. But he changed along the time. 

"Look, you know i don't like to get in your shit and what your doing but this .... this is wrong and you know it" he took another deep breath moving the massage to his neck. "You need to figure this out bro. I know Hinata was not just a fling and that agreedment between you two defenetly was broken before today by both parts and you cannot lie to me. I know you well bro. This was the first time in years that you were back to yourself. Every time you were together with him you were back to being the joyful funny guy that i knew since middle school. I know you don't do emotional ever since ...last time .... but i know that Hinata did wake up some of the feelings in you. And that doesn't make you weak" he added looking towards the hall not wanting Noya to hear him talk with Aziel on the phone. 

He was still thinking that these two were best for eachother and they just needed to fight a little bit more and not give up this easily. 

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Hinata mumbled some uncorigibale words as he frowned and opened his eyes. When he saw Noya he jumped in bed looking around brushing the hair from his hair. "W-What time is it?" he asked rubbing his eyes looking at the food and then back at Noya. right ... i ran away from Aziel and came here ...

"Thank you for the food but i don't have that much of an appetite" he said looking at his friend and taking only the glass of juice as he was thirsty. "I need to get ready for work" he said looking at himself.

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Aziel wasn't expecting the call this time, he had expected to be ignored again. So when he answered the phone he sighed at the only form of greeting he got by being asked what part of this he didn't understand and being called a dickhead. "I don't understand what made him think I'd end things with him. Who cares about some stupid agreement? Hell, he was drunk when he agreed to it." Aziel sighed frustrated a little. After all of the attention he had given Hinata and the fun they had together - sex not included- he would have thought that Hinata would have seen how much he cared about him. Hell, the only person he had ever let share a bed with him much less cuddle with him in a long time was Hinata, not including Shane. Shane didn't have anything on Hinata though. He even recalled telling Hinata he normally wasn't the cuddling type and yet what did they do? They cuddled in bed, shared the same bed even after sex, slept in the same room. Maybe not as much as those dating but it was because he didn't want to outright admit how he felt. 

"I know, Conner... I know." He sighed again, being told that he had fucked up big time. He knew he had fucked up, he didn't need the reminder, there was no denying just how much he had fucked up. His mind was racing, sitting on the edge of his bed, he ran a hand over his face. Hating how all of this was going, but how could he possibly make it up to him? Aziel wasn't sure there was anything he could do to make it up to Hinata. It felt like no matter what he did it just wouldn't be enough to truly make up for this. 

Drawn from his thoughts as Conner stated to speak again, Aziel just sat there quietly. His heart pounding and feeling like he wasn't breathing. Being reminded of how he had been before all of this, how he had been years ago just took his breath away, made his heart race and made him look at the wall without really seeing it. That relationship had ended in a heartbreak that Aziel hadn't been able to recover from, instead of coming to terms with it he had completely shut off those emotions and refused to feel them for anyone. But Hinata had broken down every wall he had built as though they were leaves in the wind, like they had been nothing. Something no one had ever done. How he felt for Hinata even rivaled what he had felt all those years ago, but he had to admit that it scared him. Despite Conner's words and being told it didn't make him weak he felt like it did.

"I just... don't want to be hurt again." Aziel finally said. His voice not sounding like his to himself right now. It was hard to say those words even to Conner, someone who had been his friend for years. But he knew deep down that Hinata was worth the risk of getting hurt again, his heart seemed ready to move on, but his mind wasn't as easily convinced. While his heart was set on Hinata and ready to shower him with all of his attention and love, his mind wasn't ready to move on. Wasn't ready to face the trials and possible disappointment of being romantically involved with anyone again. "I'm just not sure I'm ready yet." Aziel added, knowing Conner would probably get mad at him for that too. 

 

"Calm down, you have plenty of time before you need to worry about work." Noya told his friend, letting him take the juice. "I'm not going to let you go to work at all if you don't eat at least half of this sandwich. I made it light so it won't hurt your stomach. But you need to eat. You're not allowed to punish your body for this." He sternly told the other, setting the plate with a sandwich cut in half on the bedside table.

"Did you sleep okay?" Noya asked. Hoping that Hinata had gotten some much needed rest. He had looked utterly exhausted when he arrived this morning. Rubbing Hinata's back a little more he gave him a small smile. "Please? For me just eat half the sandwich?" He asked giving Hinata puppy dog eyes. Hoping he could at least guilt him a little into eating. He understood Hinata was upset, but he didn't want him to starve himself either. 

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"I don't understand what made him think I'd end things with him. Who cares about some stupid agreement? Hell, he was drunk when he agreed to it." 

"well apparently he thinks of it as valid and that's enough to cause this situation." he said raising his voice but then he calmed down again. He had moments when he was loosing his temper. This wasn't the time to scold the other more than he already did. He was like the big brother that had to look for his younger sibling but he hated how stubborn the other could be. 

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"I know, Conner... I know." 

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"I just... don't want to be hurt again."

That was something that surprised even Conner. He really didn't expected that from his friend. "You still didn't let go of what happened" he said in a low voice sighing as he realized how his friend felt which was making things more complicated for them two. "huh man ...." he sigh resting his head on the sofa's back looking at the ceiling not sure how to help his friend out. "I thought that after all this time you pass that ....but guess i was wrong for assuming that , i'm sorry" he paused biting his lip as he wasn't sure how to continue but he did it anyway. "But fear of not getting hurt will be what it will hurt you in the end because it will stop you from fighting for what your heart finally desire. I don't know Hinata, you know him better than me, but him being friend with Noya and thinking that he might be the same ... in that case this things need to be expressed in words. They need to know and not assume" he rubbed his hand over his face as he sigh and pushed his hair aback. 

"Look, i think that for now , give Hinata a few days to calm down. He kid was in tears when he got here and right now Noya is not a friend of yours" he said checking again the hall. It was not that he was afraid of Noya or anything, it was just that he didn't want to upset him knowing how bad he hurt Hinata. But then again, Aziel was like family so even if he was trying to be impartial, he was still trying to help his friend. 

"And better not talk on the phone. Face to face is better. I know is scary but that's the proper way to do things. I'll try to help you as much as i can but, you'll have to stop with the rest of your gang bangs subs. A relationship is not with multiple people. I've been on the side that you are and you know how i was, but there comes a time that when you find the perfect match to stop doing all the crap that you've been doing and focus on what matters" he added listening to the other breathing in the phone. 

"Hinata is okay and safe with us so you can breath easy. But he will not be for long as he is waiting on some apartments info.  This will take some time so you're in luck. As i said , wait a few days and then reach out directly to him" he took a deep breath and sigh. "I'll have to hang now as they should be down any minute as Hinata needs to get to work, but i'll keep you updated. Breath bro, calm down and think this things through carefully. Talk to you soon bro" he said hanging up the phone feeling mentally exhausted. He needed a coffee.

 

 

 

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I'm not going to let you go to work at all if you don't eat at least half of this sandwich. I made it light so it won't hurt your stomach. But you need to eat. You're not allowed to punish your body for this." 

Hinata laughed at the way the other acted which reminded him how bossy Noya could sometimes be. "I hope you're not like this with Conner cause if so ... pore guy" he teased a little, lighting up the mood which helped him a little. 

Looking at the sandwich and back at his friend, he rolled his eyes when Noya was making his puppy eyes at him. Again he laughed and sigh. "Fine , i'll eat half" he accepted taking half of the sandwich and started taking small bites while drinking from the juice. It felt comfortable to be there with his friend. This was helping him a lot and the fact that they weren't talking about Aziel again made him happy. 

And he had to be honest with himself. He had no strength for work, which it will make the night to feel the longest.  He would had prefer to call in sick and just stay curled up in the bed. 

"Yeah , i'm better. This really helped me. Thank you for the quick response. And Conner as well for his generosity. You'll have to pay him well" he added making a small joke as he smirked wile biting the sandwich. 

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Aziel flinched a little when he heard Conner raising his voice again, he hated to think the other man was that upset with him. The older man had been like a brother to him all these years and disappointing him like this was more painful than he wanted to admit. Hurting and upsetting Hinata was one thing, upsetting Conner was different and hurt in a different manner. He bit his lip, it made admitting how he didn't want to be hurt again even more painful. Knowing he had given Conner the impression of having moved on more than once. 

When he finally said those eight words, he heard the silence on the other end. Wondering if Conner was going to get more upset with him. It seemed that wasn't the case and when the older man spoke he felt his heart skip a few beats. "Time doesn't heal all wounds. Some just get a little easier to bare." Aziel murmured admitting fully that he hadn't really gotten over it. His heart started to hammer on his chest again when he was told that if Hinata was like Noya -Conner thinking they would be quite similar from what he knew- that he'd have to verbalize and express things to Hinata. That only seemed to hit him with panic. What if Hinata responded poorly? What if he didn't believe him? Or thought he was trying to make up excuses? It wasn't helping him calm down any that was for sure. Aziel wasn't normally the type of guy to panic or get anxiety but this situation was definitely causing quite a bit of both. 

"Okay..." Aziel softly managed to say when he was told to give Hinata a few days to calm down. It made his chest hurt to know he had caused Hinata to arrive at Conner's in tears, but he was thankful that the younger man had somewhere safe to go. He knew Conner and Noya would take good care of Hinata while the other man was waiting on his apartment. He just wished he was still here instead. Being scolded in a way as Conner was telling him he had to stop with all his other subs and that being with Hinata meant not being with other men he blushed. Suddenly glad that Conner wasn't physically present. He remembered how Conner had been, he also remembered how easily he had given that all up for a special person. Was he ready though? His mind instantly went to Shane, knowing he wouldn't be happy to be cut off completely. It was for the best though... right? Hinata was special. His heart raced more, feeling the panic overtaking for a moment, knowing if he broke it off with his other subs for Hinata that there was no repairing the relationships with them if things with Hinata didn't work. But... he had to, it was a risk he had to take. 

He didn't really have it in him to say anything else as Conner told him Hinata was safe with them, to give it a few days and speak with Hinata directly. He knew Conner was aware of his panic because the man was telling him to breathe and calm down as he said he had to go. Aziel didn't manage to say another word as Conner hung up, hanging up his phone. After all this stress he ended up back in the shower, standing under cold water to try to help him calm his breathing, knowing if he used hot water the steam in the air would only cause him to breathe even more shakily. It took awhile for him to calm and relax, by which point the water felt warm, his body having adjusted to the cool temperature. Getting out of the shower he redressed and went downstairs, lying over the couch and turning a movie on for background noise. Needing to try to stay relaxed and calm about this so he could think clearly and figure out how he should approach Hinata in a few days. 

 

Noya couldn't help but laugh softly when Hinata said he hoped he wasn't like this with his boyfriend, calling Conner a poor guy in a teasing manner. "Oh no, Conner is fully in control. I don't get bossy with him. Not unless I want to be punished for it." He teased the other back a smirk on his face and winking. It was easy and natural for him to tease like this, and he knew it'd help keep Hinata from thinking about Aziel and what had happened. Which was definitely an added bonus as he didn't want to see him cry anymore, it broke his heart to see Hinata so upset over such an idiot who had treated him poorly.

"Yay!" Noya happily replied when Hinata agreed to eat half the sandwich. He would make sure the other was taking care of himself, no matter how bossy he had to get or how much he had to beg him to do something. It was worth it to know Hinata would be okay and not go around starving himself. He couldn't help but giggle a little when he was told in such a manner that he'd have to pay Conner well for his generosity. "Oh I will." He teased his friend back. "But Conner also really likes you, he wants to make sure that you're safe and are okay. He's really a great guy." Noya admitted. Knowing that Conner was doing this because he truly cared about Hinata and wanted to make sure he was okay as well. His boyfriend really was a great guy and it made him incredibly happy knowing Conner cared about his friends well being as well. Though definitely Hinata more than anyone else since the other was like his brother.

He hugged Hinata before getting up off the bed, "Finish your half a sandwich and shower. I'll be downstairs with Conner, if you don't feel okay to work don't push yourself. Take care of you, that's more important right now." He told his best friend. Leaning down he pressed a brotherly kiss to Hinata's forehead before leaving and going back to the living room. He noticed that Conner seemed to be upset or conflicted. Climbing into his boyfriend's lap he gave him a kiss. "What's on your mind?" He questioned, fingers playing with the soft short hair at the base of his boyfriend's head.

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Hinata finished the sandwich thinking if he should or should not go to work but it was a way to get his mind away from everything. It was a way to keep himself busy and not think about the other. did he arrived home? he thought as he checked the time and yes. Aziel would be home by now and he would see his note. What is he thinking? Does he hate me? Is he relieved that he got rid of me? Is he upset that i left like that? God! he sigh heavy as he finished the half of the sandwich and moved to the shower to clear his mind but that didn't helped. He was constantly thinking how the other was doing and if he was okay. 

After the shower he changed into new clothes taking his keys and wallet. Taking a deep breath he made up the courage to get out of the room. 

 

In the mean time Conner was lost in his thoughts when Noya arrived and sat on his lap, kissing him, making his worries fade away for the moment. "I don't think you want to know cause it will upset you" he said taking a deep breath , placing his hands on the others hips, moving them down on his thighs and back up. 

"I talked with Aziel. And before you start arguing , need to remind you that as Hinata is your friend and you see him like your brother so do I with Aziel. We've been through a lot of shit together and he is like family and he wasn't like this before. You wouldn't believe it but i was like him before, maybe even worst and he was the kind and reasonable one" he sigh brushing a hand through his hair, wanting to make the head eke fade away. 

"Aziel has been through something that apparently i thought he moved on but i was wrong" he started to say and then continued to explain everything, not wanting Noya to misinterpret how he felt about this whole thing. He explained about the former relationship Aziel had, what he's been through and why he turned out to be the way he was now, even about the panic attacks.  

"Is not that i'm defending him about how he acted. Trust me, i tried to beat his ass so he could get his shit together and now its the same only that the actual beating is not necesary. He is afraid just like Hinata. They both are idiots clinging to an agreement that was made at the beginning but i understand Hinata. But Aziel too fell for him, which scared him even more. I just don't know what to do babe" he said leaning his head on the others chest, wrapping his arms around his waist. 

 

 

Hinata walked down and saw the two together and it put a smile on his face. Conner was really a good guy and a good friend and he was happy for Noya to finally finding someone that completed him. His mind instantly went back to Azile but he shacked his head to remove it.

"Sorry to interrupt guys but i'll head to work. Have a good night" he said smiling waving his hand from the hall as he went out of the house and into his car, driving to work, where he arrived much earlier than normal. But it gave him time to clean the tables and the bar, and also the glasses and checking the kitchen.