"Our Daily Lives" ((18+)) ((Private)) ((with @Ka-chan))

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

I felt my heart break into several pieces. I didn't knew this would happen twice. I felt cursing myself. I just didn't know what to say.

 

'fuck... what am I suppose to do...'

 

"Okay, I won't get in the way of your training..." I said, my face expressionless. I was abandoned again.

 

"If you don't feel like trusting me, what can I do? kill myself? I don't know anymore..." Wait... what am I blabbering?! Dammit! Kyouya! someone...! please! someone stop me before I hurt him again!

 

"I don't care. I don't care if you hate me. Just take care of your health. You get me worried. I'm gonna go." What am I saying....

 

"But I'll tell you one thing. You hate me this fast? am I that hateful? can't I even have fun with you? can't I even be friends with you?" I said... I really wanted Kyouya to just barge in and slap me. I didn't know what I was saying anymore... Fuck this!! I waited... waited in anxiety for Otoba...

[Ka-chan]

'K-kill yourself?!'

 

'You don't care?!'

 

'I hate you?!'

 

'Have fun with me?!'

 

'Be friends with me?!'

 

All those thoughts ran through me as he spoke. I must admit, I didn't expect his reaction to be like that.

 

"Wait... Kazuma, calm down! Oi!"

 

I walked over to Kazuma and placed my hands on his shoulders and looked up at him in the eyes.

 

"I don't hate you, okay? And don't tell me you don't care, okay!"

 

I realized a tear ran down my cheek, so I looked down to hide it.

 

"I'm not here for your amusement, I'm not here just for you to have someone to fool around with. I want to make that clear."

 

Another tear ran down my cheek. Why did I cry? Why did I get so hurt when I heard that Kyouya and Kazuma were once together? 'Why?! Of all people, why him? I barely even know this guy!'

 

"If you want me to keep on remembering that kiss, I don't want to stay friends with you! How am I supposed to do that?!"

 

I looked back up at him, tears streaming down. I felt so guilty, so hurt and so empty.

 

"It's not fair, you know... and Miyu..."

 

I didn't want to talk about her, so I stopped and looked back down.

 

"Nevermind... let's get to work..."

 

I walked past him towards the door as a tear fell down and hit the floor.

 

"It really isn't fair..."

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

He cried...? memories flashed as I saw him cry... painful memories...

 

'monster!'

'inhuman child!'

'beast!'

'just die already!!'

 

Oh god... no.. But right now I just needed to hug him... and so I did..

 

I hugged him, in a tight embrace.

 

"I'm sorry... forgive me..." I tried to hold in my tears. I just wanted to be with him.

 

"I'm sorry..." I said it again. I was serious. I couldn't let him go...

 

"I's because I..." I can't take it anymore... I have to say what's on my mind...

 

"It's because, I love you." I said. I've finally said it! I was still hugging him. I didn't notice the tears in my eyes but I just wanted to hug him..

[Ka-chan]

"I'm sorry..."

 

I didn't think. I didn't listen. I didn't try and control myself. I did nothing but hug him back and bury my face into his shoulder, sobbing lightly.

 

 

"I's because I... It's because, I love you."

 

I flinched.

 

'He loves me? But how... how...'

 

I felt this tearing pain in my chest like a knife piercing through my heart.

 

I placed my hands on Kazuma's back and held onto his shirt, pushing him against me as I were pushed against him. I didn't care if I'd usually get really flustered and pull away, right now the hug felt so good, so wonderful and so needed.

 

I could feel my tears going into his shirt making it wet, but I didn't pull away.

 

I really didn't want to.

 

The only words I could think of saying...

 

The only thought I had...

 

The only thing that would be true if I said it...

 

So I said it...

 

"Yeah... me too."

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"Yeah...me too." he said.

 

I gasped at the reply he gave to my confession.

 

He accepted me!? Holy!!

 

"You... Love me?"

 

I asked.

 

I cupped his cheeks with my hands and looked down into his eyes.

 

I was so happy that I could break into tears, this was the moment of my life!

 

I wanted to kiss him badly, I was overflowing.

 

"if you love me, then... Can I kiss you?" I asked. I was ready to pounce on him. I didn't have any other thoughts but him on my mind.

 

It was like a virus that had taken full control over me. It was like an addictive drug which I couldn't let go. I just needed his approval to move on...

[Ka-chan]

"You... Love me?"

 

Kazuma pulled me away and looked me in the eyes.

 

"If you love me, then... Can I kiss you?"

 

I smiled kindly to him and nodded slightly. My tears had stopped running down my cheeks. I felt like my heart would burst!

 

The words of Miyu popped into my mind again.

 

'He would be better off with Kyouya.'

 

'They broke up a year ago...'

 

'Leave him alone.'

 

No, Miyu couldn't stop it. Not that, not then. Never.

 

I loved him.

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

His cute nod just made me go crazy in my mind.

 

'So cute!' I thought. Not knowing if I could control myself. But I had to. Just a kiss. Or else we would be in deep trouble with the boss!

 

I looked down at him and gave him a smile before I stole his pink lips.

 

I bent down and my lips touched his. It wasn't enough so I went on.

 

I slowly slid my tongue in and made it dance with his tongue.

 

While doing so, I pulled him by the waist and ruffled through his hair.

 

I made my tongue twirl along with his, melting in this passion...

[Ka-chan]

Kazuma locked his lips with mine. He slid his tongue into my mouth, touching mine.

 

I felt so embarrassed yet I wanted it to keep on going.

 

I followed his tongue with mine and I held onto his shirt. The kiss became more and more intense, and I knew that we would have to stop soon.

 

Not yet though.

 

I explored Kazuma's mouth as well as he explored mine. My breath became heavy, and I just wanted the moment to last.

 

All of my thoughts were swept away, all of my worries, all of my doubts, all taken by this man.

 

All while I shared my first kiss with him.

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"Kazuma!! Otoba!! come out quick!! customers are coming in!!" Our boss called out which made me angry.

 

I let go of our lip lock and looked at the door. "Dammit... why at such a good time?" I growled.

 

I looked down at Otoba who was embarrassed. He looked so cute that I could just have all of him. But I had my patience to spare.

 

"I'm not the type to rush things... but you better expect some surprise kisses while your working." I winked at my lover.

 

He was just so cute to let go.

 

I turned the door knob and went outside, but before I closed the door, "Come out fast! I will be lonely if you don't come fast." I smiled and closed the door, waiting for him...

[Ka-chan]

I growled annoyed at our boss, but our boss couldn't hear it.

 

"So annoying..."

 

I looked back up at Kazuma and smiled at him with sparkling eyes, wanting to kiss him again but it'd have to wait.

 

"I'm not the type to rush things... but you better expect some surprise kisses while your working."

 

I blushed slightly. Kazuma seemed instantly happier. I guess I was too...

 

"Come out fast! I will be lonely if you don't come fast."

 

Kazuma smiled and closed the door in front of me before I could reply. 'Oh well...'

 

I went back to my clothes, changed the pants and the rest of the uniform and went outside where my boss and Kazuma were. I smiled brightly at them, seeing that the place were already crowded. I could feel the girls burning holes in me as I walked over to the counter and picked up a notepad. Thereafter I walked over to some girls at a table in the corner of the café.

 

"What would you like?"

 

I asked them with a smile, ready to write it down.

 

"2 vanilla milkshakes and 1 strawberry milkshake please."

 

I wrote it down and bowed.

 

"Thank you, anything else?"

 

The girl who ordered then said.

 

"No, but we do have a question."

 

The two other girls whispered about something.

 

"After you're done with work, could we go see you play basket ball? You're that famous player, right?"

 

I looked at them with a surprised look. Of course it happened before that someone recognized me, but it was still unexpected.

 

"Hm? Ah, sure."

 

I said with a smile. I didn't want to be rude to turn them down, it wouldn't hurt to let them come. Though, if they made too much noise I'd have to tell them to leave since I needed to concentrate.

 

"Eeeh? Really?! Thank you!"

 

The girls screamed in joy.

 

"Please, don't scream. It'll disturb our other guests."

 

I bowed then again and took my leave to fulfill my order. I looked over at Kazuma and he looked back with a smile. Of course I didn't forget what happened earlier. I looked away with a blush and I continued work for some time, Kazuma doing his share as well and our boss praising us for doing a great job.

 

I waited for Kazuma to finish an order, and as he came back I stopped him.

 

"Kazuma? Those girls over there..."

 

I pointed at the three girls who asked to watch me play.

 

"You know, I play basket ball, and they asked to come see me. But, I don't know how the hell they found out that I do since they're obviously not basket ball lovers, and I didn't talk about it at all. They even knew that I trained today?! They're creepy, you should watch out..."

 

I made sure not to talk too loud though. Only Kazuma should hear it.

 

From now on it would always be Kazuma, and Kazuma only.

 

Always.

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

As he kept on talking about the girls, I stood there grinning and chuckling. It was pretty cute on how he was excited and creeped out. I was enjoying it. Being able to talk to my lover and all.

 

"Kazuma!" A girl called out. Before I could even run even though I didn't know who it was. I was caught.

 

I looked behind to notice my ex-classmate from highschool. And the bad thing is that... She was my basket ball club manager!

 

She came over to me with all this cheery face and all excited plus angry plus ready to hit me. I'll tell you... if you would fall into her hands, you would literally die. Let's say... a picture of hell?

 

"Oh hello Kazuma! how are you?! fine eh?! How's the piano career going hmm?!" She will hitting--ahem--patting my back like crazy.

 

"Hello Ono..." I said while coughing a bit. like, who wouldn't cough after her deathly hit?

 

"Come on!! you can call me by my first name!" She said while making a peace sign.

 

Her name was Yume, Ono Yume. Odd name, isn't it? but you can't tell anything in front of this Angel of death.

 

She bent and looked at Otoba then at me. Otoba, me, Otoba , me ,Otoba. Oh make up your mind woman!! God!

 

"So... umm, can you help couch our juniors?" She said doubtfully.

 

"What?" I said, with a very surprised look.

 

"I'm talking about the both of you. Kazuma was really good at basket ball during his highschool days and pro like Otoba is what we need." She said while smiling.

 

"So... will you accept the offer?" she said with a pleading face.

 

I just looked at Otoba with a rather confused face...

 

"Otoba, you okay with it?" I asked, waiting for his reply.

[Ka-chan]

I glared at the girl clinging to Kazuma. I got surprised at her sudden appearance

 

"Otoba, you okay with it?"

 

'Huh? Okay with what? to help out?!'

 

"Ah, no thanks. I think I'll pass. I have my own training afterall.. and I'm not that good anyway sooo..."

 

I looked away with a blush on my face by being called pro. I scratched the back of my head and smiled.

 

I looked at the two of them. The woman and Kazuma.

 

'They fit so good together, and they seem so know each other very well...'

 

A sudden pain in my chest appeared, but I didn't really understand why.

 

I bowed to them and continued my work, walking over to a guy and a girl in the middle of the café and did my usual stuff, wondering why it stung so much in the chest...

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

He bowed to us and continued his work. I just looked at him, a bit confused on why he didn't accept the offer.

 

"Awww! that's so sad..." She said with a pouty face.

 

I looked at her and sighed, "I won't do it if he won't... so, bye, gotta get back to work." I said and turned behind when she grabbed me by the shirt.

 

"Don't be so rushy-wushy!" She said with smirk. I doubted her smirk ever since she entered the cafe.

 

"Oh yeah. Good news! do you want to apply for being a model? please!! it's just one time!!!" She begged, again. But this time, she sounded really loud. Loud enough for Otoba to hear.

 

"Shhh! Don't be so loud!!" I said and closed her mouth with my hand. After I while I let go. Otoba was just a few feet away taking orders.

 

"Don't 'shh!' me!" She said and looked at me.

 

"Anyway, you will surely accept this offer!" She said with a confident smile.

 

"And what made you think that I will?" I looked at her in doubt. I knew that she was gonna pull some tricks.

 

This time, Otoba was almost going to pass by us.

 

"Because the photographer is Akiha! you wouldn't want to let him down, now would you? He is just 22 man! cut him some slack!" she said while waving her hand near her face.

 

"Akiha?!" I looked at her then after a while, I didn't notice but Otoba was passing us. "Then I will go model!" I said. Akiha was a cousin and couldn't let him down.

 

"That's the spirit! he'll call you tonight, okay?" She said and walked outside, "See ya!"

 

"Okay... see ya..." I said and continued my work.

[Ka-chan]

I didn't exactly listen to their conversation, but they were being really loud. Or she was, in fact. I finished taking the order and walked back, I passed the two of them and while I walked there, I heard them talk.

 

"Akiha?! Then I will go model!"

 

'He's going to model? Great for him I guess...' I kept on walking like I didn't hear the, but my chest kept on hurting. 'He chose to model? But...' I sighed and got ready to take the next order.

 

"Well, that's his decision I guess... he'll be together with her too..."

 

I murmured to myself while getting ready. I stopped. 'He'll be together with her?' My chest began to hurt even more. I bent over, trying to accept the pain, but it actually did hurt. I felt so uneasy, so.. so... odd.

 

So jealous.

 

"Boss... I don't feel so well..."

 

I had walked over to the boss, asking to go home.

 

"Hm? Are you okay?"

 

My boss looked at me concerned.

 

"I don't know... could I get free today? I'll do extra work another day, I promise..."

 

My boss nodded and I went into the mens changing room.

 

 

The pain became too much for me.

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

I saw him going to the mens changing room and I knew something was wrong...

 

"Otoba... I think he misunderstood again." I said and told the boss I would be back in 30 mins. Till then I told my other co-workers to cover for me.

 

I went into the mens changing room to find that Otoba was still in his work uniform.

 

I didn't know what went into his head of his, but I knew exactly what the problem was.

 

I sighed and called out to him as I locked the door behind me.

 

"Otoba, can you listen for a bit?" I said and continued on, knowing that this Tsundere prince isn't gonna listen.

 

"Look, Akiha is just a cousin brother who is in love with his senpai who is a guy. He wanted someone to help him in it and asked me if I could. ever since then, we have been best friends. And him calling me to model always means that something bad happened. *sigh* I wish he could just call his boyfriend though.." I said and moved on to the next person.

 

"And that Ono girl, she is just a friend from highschool. If you notice, I call her by her last name and not first while I call my other friends by their first names. So she isn't that close to me. On top of that, she was just my manager during highschool, nothing much. She already has a boyfriend as well." I said.

 

I finally cleared everything, now I just needed his approval.

 

I bent over to him, "Can't you just trust me a bit more? I am your boyfriend, you know." I said with a smile.

[Ka-chan]

"Uwaah?! When did you become my-..."

 

I stopped and thought of the kiss. It's pretty much it, it woul be weird anything else, wouldn't it?

 

"Then... uhh.."

 

I looked down, my chest still hurting.

 

"Then why did she cling to you like that?..."

 

I whispered, unsure if Kazuma would be able to hear it. I stood back up and took off my shirt.

 

"Anyway, I'm just not feeling so well, so I'll b heading home... if you need me later, I'll be at the gym hall and practice..."

 

I smiled at him, but I didn't realize that my smile revealed all of my jealousy, all of my pain by just that.

 

I looked at my phone, still wearing no shirt as I write somthing on it.

 

"Hurry, hurry. You should go back to work, you know?"

 

I walked over to him and playfully pushed him towards the door, forcing a chuckle.

 

I wanted to be alone...

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"Eh? oh no, I'm not backing down so easily." I said and turned around so that Otoba would hit the door instead.

 

"And I have the key to this room." I said as I jingled the keys infront of my face.

 

I smirked at the sight of my lover. No top on... made me aroused...

 

I just felt I should just go and pounce on the kitten.

 

"And no top infront of me...? Do you really think it is safe around me like that?" I said as I got closer to his face.

 

"Ah, and, Ono clings to me because she used to live overseas and they sling like that to each other even if your friends." I said and winked at Otoba.

 

"But that's not what's important right now, right? What's important is that I might just pounce on you right now." I said with a grin pasted to my face.

[Ka-chan]

Trying to catch my balance again after Kazuma dodged me, Kazuma began to act strange.

 

"But that's not what's important right now, right? What's important is that I might just pounce on you right now."

 

"Kazuma? What are you-"

 

Kazuma walked nearer with a smirk on his face.

 

"K-Kazuma!!.."

 

I placed my hands on his chest to keep distance, since it was too sudden.

 

"W-what are you doing?..."

 

I asked puzzled, blushing at the sudden approach. Kazuma had this smirk on his face, telling me that he would do something any moment...

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"W-what are you doing?..." He asked. So cute. I wanted to just... you know what I'm talking about right? I think you do because you have a dirty mind just like mines. Anyway, yes, you know what I'm talking about. But I'm talking to my beloved so please, move yourself out of the picture?

 

I slowly went close to his ear and blew softly.

 

"I'm not gonna do anything to you... just relax already. I just wanted my lover to be relaxed instead of worried." I said and looked at him.

 

"Okay? I'll only kiss you for the time being till your ready." I winked at him. I seriously didn't want him to feel uncomfortable in any way.

 

I placed my lips on his forehead and kissed it. I could hold it in for now, but I won't hold it in forever.

 

I slowly got up and unlocked the door.

 

"I'll come over today, okay?" I said, waiting for a reply from Otoba...

[Ka-chan]

Kazuma kissed my forehead, making my heart burst and I felt empty. I didn't really know what emotion filled the most. Happiness? Jealousy? Dissapointment? Lust? Want? Kazuma unlocked the door.

 

"I'll come over today, okay?"

 

"Ah... okay."

 

I looked down, wondering what I should do.

 

I went back over to my clothes and took off my pants, standing there with only boxers on. I took on my casual clothes and picked up my bag and went out of the door as well, walking out of the café.

 

"Eeeeh?! Otoba is leaving the café early?!"

 

"Yeah, I heard that he didn't feel so well..."

 

"Shouldn't we go over to him and comfort him then? Treat him to something?"

 

"Eh?! You do that!!"

 

"Ah! But!"

 

"Do it!"

 

"Fine!"

 

Just before I opened the front door out of the café, a girl stopped me.

 

"Hey Otoba~ Are you feeling okay? Do you want to go get some tea?"

 

I glared at her and shook my head with a smile.

 

"Nah, it's okay, I-"

 

The girl's friends came over and took my arms, dragging me out of the café.

 

"Oi! H-hey!"

 

"Come ooon, it's on us!"

 

What I didn't know what that Kazuma looked outside and at me getting dragged away by the girls.

 

"How the hell am I supposed to handle this..."

 

I mumbled to myself.

 

'Kazumaaa... help meee..'

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

'Hmm? what are those girls doing?' I thought as I looked at those girls dragging Otoba away.

 

'Not again... why can't girls ever give up?' I thought while sighing.

 

I went towards the girls and Otoba. They were still trying to convince him.

 

"Look, um, I ca--" He said, trying to tell he didn't have time for this.

 

"It's okay! It's our treat!" One girl said, she was pulling his right arm.

 

"Yup~! and you will get better as well!" Another girl said, this time, pulling his left arm.

 

"Don't worry, it's just for one time~!" The third girl said, she was going to open the door to go out when I stopped her.

 

"Please Mademoiselles, Can you not take Otoba out?" I said and flashed them with a smile.

 

Their eyes glistened and started grinning. "Why don't you come with us as well?" "That would be good too!" "It's still our treat though~" They said.

 

I just smiled at them and slowly took Otoba from them. Holding Otoba, I hugged him from behind. I smirked at them which made them almost faint due to the brightness which neither I nor Otoba could see but they could and it was blinding them.

 

"I think you understand this situation... right?" I said and winked at them with a player boy look.

 

They were almost about to nosebleed. "Oh! if that's so, then we will leave you two alone!" "We'll come back~ get well soon Otoba!" "Take care you two~!" They said and left as if they just gave their daughter.

 

I sighed and slowly let go of Otoba and looked at him, "That was a close call, eh?" I winked at him... waiting for his reply.

[Ka-chan]

When Kazuma let me go and looked at me, I did nothing but stare at him confused.

 

"That was a close call, eh?"

 

I just stared. 'He just... he just gave them a hint about our... our r-relationship, right?...' I wanted to run to them and tell them 'It's not what you think!' but he just helped me, and oh how I had longed for him all day. Though, because of the conversation earlier I still felt rather akward around him.

 

"T-thank you, Kazuma..."

 

I kept on staring at him with probably a really funny face, but I just did. My thoughts ran around. 'Why the hell did he just do that?' Yes, it scared them off, but rumours would start and then everyone would know! That's freaking embarrassing?! What if my friends heard it?! They would tease me so much I'd faint. Come on... Kazumaaaa, why did you do that to mee?!...

 

As I realized that I stared at him, I looked down with a blush across my face.

 

"I-I'll be going now then... thanks."

 

I turned around, still thinking about what the hell would've happened.

 

 

Oh, and that he hugged me from behind like that.

 

It made my heart race a bit...

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"I-I'll be going now then... thanks." He said and slowly went outside, still flustered.

 

I looked at him and gave out a small chuckle.

 

I stared at him for a couple of moments, getting lonelier with each step he took. An idea sparked me and a grin appeared on my face.

 

I suddenly grabbed his hand and took him to the back side exit which is only meant for staff members and it was in a small alley that no one could notice.

 

I looked around, wanting that no one would be here at this time.

 

After that, I looked at Otoba who was still confused but I couldn't let him go without what I wanted to continue this day without him.

 

I pushed him to the wall, being as gentle as I could. I looked into his eyes and said with a smile, "You aren't gonna give your boyfriend a good bye kiss?" I said as I wrapped my hands around his waist.

[Ka-chan]

"Uwaah!"

 

Kazuma dragged me to an alley for staff only. Confused I looked around as well as him. Kazuma gently pushed me against the wall with a grin on his face.

 

"You aren't gonna give your boyfriend a good bye kiss?"

 

"Eh?! Kazuma?!"

 

My face turned red and my heart began to race, but it didn't seem like I could run away.

 

Not like I wanted to run either though...

 

Kazuma smiled at me, and I could see in his eyes that he wouldn't let me go if I denied.

 

'Well, I'd do it but...'

 

Kazuma were waiting for his kiss.

 

'If it's just a little peck then it'll be fine I guess...'

 

So, I took Kazuma's hand and I leaned up and kissed him gently but quickly on his lips and looked away in embarrassment.

 

"There, you got your kiss..."

 

I said as I let go of his hand again.

 

 

Though, deep inside I guess I... I really wanted another kiss... a longer kiss... and maybe a bit more than that?...

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

He kissed me in an innocent manner and looked away trying to hide his embarrassment.

 

"There, you got your kiss..." He said, looking away trying to hide his blush.

 

I looked at him, a bit shocked and a bit surprised as well as happy.

 

'He actually kissed me... that was so cute!' I thought to myself, dancing around with happiness in my mind. I really wanted to do more than just kissing but My princess's (ahem, prince.) acceptance comes first.

 

I looked at him and gave a warm smile, but I wasn't done just there. I looked at him and ruffled through his hair.

 

"I'm sorry princess, but I would need more than that If I have to survive this day without you." I said and placed my lips on his.

 

I bit his lower lip asking for entry which was accepted by the boy. Letting my tongue enter his mouth, I made it twirl with his, like music in a club, and made him melt to my touch.

 

I brought him closer to me and allowed my hand to travel inside his shirt; from waist till his chest and then to his slender neck.

 

I was still engrossed in kissing him and held him by neck which went upwards to cup his cheeks.

 

'Dammit... This is too much.. I don't feel like letting go...' I though to myself. Surely, I couldn't let go, but I have to...