"Our Daily Lives" ((18+)) ((Private)) ((with @Ka-chan))

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"When will they be back?~ They've been gone for a long time now!~" Koga said, loud enough for everyone in the house to hear.

 

'Koga.. you little brat.' I thought in my mind, literally cursing the idiot.

 

"Tch... it's not like we're all deaf or anything..." Otoba said whose comment just sounded like an angry kitten.

 

'Hmm? Heh.' I chuckled in my mind and let out a small smile.

 

"Sorry." Otoba added leaving me with curious eyes that looked into his.

 

'Ah... that's why...' I thought, he apologized since he thought I got hurt due to his comment. But, Koga was being annoying right now, can't blame it. Sorry Koga! I'm taking my beloved's side right now.

 

"It's fine, you don't need to be sorry." I said with a smile and ruffled through his hair. We really needed to get going, we already made them wait and we delayed our plans. Delaying it anymore can cause some consequences.

 

I looked up Otoba and got up from our position. "Let's get going, I wouldn't want to miss my movie date with you." I said with a wink. I think I'm being way too playful... but who cares.

 

I took the DVD player and the wire for it as well. I told Otoba to get the DVD which was in the box behind me and he did as I said. Before long, we entered the hall with me carrying the DVD player and Otoba with the DVD. I dragged Koga to help me with the DVD setting as the girls and Otoba looked up on the movie.

 

I could hear some whispers and screams as they watched the movie trailer but I kept my focus on setting up the DVD player. So from what I heard when I bought the DVD was that they movie was based on a true story and due to that, in America they had to keep the father of the church outside so that when the movie was over, he would purify them. I think it's all crap. So that's why I selected this very particular movie for tonight.

 

"It's all done~" Koga said with a cheery smile.

 

"DVD please." I said opened my right hand asking for the DVD. Otoba handed the DVD over to me even though the girls objected him from doing so.

 

We had yet another 5 minute break since we needed to get the popcorn and we sent Miyu to go with Otoba to get them from the convenience store downstairs.

 

As the both of them were walking downstairs to get the popcorn, Miyu spoke up since it was silent ever since they left the house.

 

"Umm... So Otoba, What do you think about Kazuma? As in, his personality and his physical appearance?" She said with a smile , "Don't worry, I'll tell my opinions as well! Okay?" She said with a chuckle waiting for him to answer.

[Ka-chan]

"Umm... So Otoba, What do you think about Kazuma? As in, his personality and his physical appearance? Don't worry, I'll tell my opinions as well! Okay?"

 

Miyu said, flashing a bright smile. I just looked down to the ground, not smiling at all.

 

"Well..."

 

I started, but didn't feel like finishing. I hoped Miyu would ignore me and just keep silent for the rest of the walk, but nope. She didn't.

 

"Well? Tell me!"

 

Miyu said with a faint chuckle in her words. 'Too cheery...' I thought, but looked up and smiled at Miyu. A fake smile, but Miyu didn't notice that.

 

"Well... I-I.. eh.. he's nice..."

 

I still didn't like Miyu. Actually, I still didn't like any of Kazuma's friends, but whatever.

 

"In details. It's okay, you can tell me! Take all the time you want!~"

 

Miyu said, just as cheery before with the same bright smile as before.

 

"W-well... err..."

 

I stuttered, really wanting to avoid it but I guess it was inevitable.

 

"Kazuma is kind, and... well, he understands me I guess.. and... he's.. uhm.. he's always trying to make me happy... and then he's always so playful and cheery... or, not always but... most of the time."

 

I started. I looked down again, threading my hands together. I slowed down my pace a bit without noticing myself. When thinking about Kazuma I got... I don't know. I always disappeared into my own little world. A world where it was only Kazuma and I, sitting on the ground. Talking... smiling... holding hands... cuddling... and kissing... nothing else mattered in that world. It was a completely white world with nothing else but Kazuma and me in it... and we didn't care for other things. Only that one moment.

 

"..-ba. Otoba. Hey, are you there? Hello?"

 

Miyu stood in front of me. I had stopped walking. I could see Miyu's confused face close to mine, desperatly trying to get my attention.

 

"Eh? Ah... sorry. I guess I kind of fell into my own world for a bit..."

 

I smiled lightly at Miyu. This time it was warm and kind, a real smile. But it wasn't because of Miyu that I smiled, no, it was because I loved my own "little perfect world" with Kazuma. It was so nice and relaxing...

 

I could see Miyu's surprised face at the smile, but she just returned the smile.

 

"So? Please continue~"

 

Miyu jumped beside me again as I began to walk again.

 

"Well... I can't really explain his personality that well... just that I-I... I really like it... and his looks, well..."

 

I smiled for myself. Kazuma was handsome and I knew it. Miyu knew it. Koga knew it. Kyouya knew it. Everyone knew it.

 

"There's not really anything to complain about."

 

I chuckled lightly and looked up at Miyu.

 

"I can't explain it better... sorry."

 

I slid my hands down into my pockets, picking up the pace.

 

"Your turn, Miyu."

 

I snickered at my own words. Think, I told this to Miyu - one of Kazuma's friends - the girl whom I claimed to hate so deeply. Telling her things I didn't tell anyone else but her. What the fuck was wrong with me?...

 

 

Heh, I guess that was just how it was. I could tell Miyu things I wouldn't tell even Kazuma, even though I hated her. Stupid.

 

I know.

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"Your turn, Miyu." Otoba said, finishing his description and thoughts about Kazuma.

 

Miyu looked down and selecting some good words, "Well...." She then looked at the sky which was glistening with shiny stars and a full moon.

 

"Kazuma's personality is..." She then turned 180 degrees to face the back while walking backwards.

 

"some what like..." She then turned back to her original position and started to finally speak up. "Kazuma is kind, sweet, selfless, patient, sometimes hyper, happy help, consulting, some what like a worthy prince." She said and shot a smile at Otoba.

 

Her face which had a smile turned into a one filled with doubt after she finished this sentence, "It's because of these all traits, it seems that somewhat is completely wrong... like, it isn't where it is supposed to be. It can't fit, his traits and his activity isn't fitting in like puzzle pieces." She said with a sigh creating a kind of eerie atmosphere behind her.

 

"Kazuma as a child, or to be more precise, before his teens, was an energetic, shy, timid, childish and naive boy. He used to cling onto me mot of the times and onto Kyouya as well." She said and let out a small chuckle.

 

But, her face darkened after the said sentence. "Kyouya... though he unaffected by family, he became really vulnerable when he was 12. But when he turned 13, everything changed. He became the person who he is now..." She said and tried to smile and she turned to Otoba.

 

"I know it is a good development but is it really helping him at all? I don't know... but what me and my friends know is that we trust you Otoba." She said and smiled gently at Otoba. Everything was rough for me but I never knew what went on in her head.

 

"We trust you because, Kazuma seems more happy now. I know you have your own problems as well but if Kazuma's happy then we are happy." She said and looked at Otoba before going a few steps ahead of him.

 

"Ah! but If you have any problem at all, then you should definitely consult Kazuma. He knows what is best for you and will help you at all costs!" She said cheerfully. "And his appearances? He looks like a hot model and I think that's more than enough to describe his appearance." She said and stopped for a moment to pull out some thing.

 

She took out her phone and started to look through the photos to find some photos of Kazuma when he was young. "Oh, Otoba!" She said and turned towards the said boy, "Do you want to look at some pictures of Kazuma? He's so cute in these photos~" She said but even though she asked him, she flipped through the photos while showing Otoba.

 

"This one was in 2nd grade, and this one was in 6th grade and oh oh! this one was in 8th grade! He looks so cute~" She started to squeal since before puberty, any guy will look cute.

 

-------At my House-------

 

"What's taking them so long~" Koga whined. But I hit him on his head soon enough before he would start his drama queen acting.

 

"Owwie..." He squeaked but I silenced him before he could say anything more. But just at that very moment, I sneezed softly.

 

"Looks like someone is remembering you." Arisa said with a smirk.

 

The heck? someone remembering me? Yeah yeah, as if! But it was true though I didn't know a single thing about it.

 

"I wonder what they are talking about..." I said to myself and sighed heavily.

 

"Most probably, YOU" Arisa answered, emphasizing the last word.

 

"Keep dreaming." I said, avoiding any further of her attempts to tease me...

[Ka-chan]

I listened carefully to Miyu's words. I completely agreed with her... and I looked at the pictures of Kazuma for as long as I could and with a smile glued on my face. No no, a real smile, don't worry. But... it felt like someone stabbed a needle into my heart. Not a knife, it wasn't that bad, but it still hurt. I was a bit jealous, because... she knew him much better than I did. I wanted to know everything about him, I wanted to be the most important person to him, but I finally realized - I won't ever know. I won't ever be that person.

 

The worst part of it was, that... I didn't want to accept that.

 

Kazuma looked so cute on all of the pictures that Miyu showed me. He really did. That's why I smiled while seeing them. He looked happy... well, he seems happy right now, but... his friends kept telling me bit by bit how horrible his life was. I didn't want to pity him, but I didn't want to leave him alone either.

 

But his friend's way of making me realize all of that was absolutely horrible. Did they want to help him or make his life worse, or what? I didn't get it. I still don't to this day.

 

I tried to think of something else to talk about, but Kazuma was the only topic that we had a shared knowledge of.

 

'Miyu was Kazuma's lover once.'

 

That thought struck me. It hurt like hell, but... what does that have to do with me, right?

 

'I can't change his past, he can't change it, she can't change it either. I shouldn't worry or care... should I? No. It's fine. They're just friends.'

 

Miyu and I walked for a bit. I tried to change my thoughts to something else, but... it seemed to be almost impossible. They were just friends after all...

 

'But why am I feeling uneasy again?'

 

I can't believe how jealous I was back then. I kept on getting uneasy, insecure, in doubt and I was sure - almost 100% - that Kazuma was getting tired of it.

 

What did he do to it?

 

Nothing.

 

I didn't want his friends to confirm all of this?! I wanted him! 'When is he going to do anything?! When is he... when is he going to make all of this go away?!...' I thought.

 

A tear strolled down my cheek as I had those thoughts.

 

I looked at Miyu, the look on her face one with both confusion and surprise, but... she understood. I knew that she did. She must've...

 

I was just as surprised as her. My eyes were wide as I stopped walking. I took a hand up to take away the tear, though another one started running down my cheek from my other eye.

 

"I'm... crying?"

 

I tried laughing a bit. Trying to change my mood and to make Miyu think that I wasn't troubled by it at all.

 

Though, I was very troubled by it.

 

I wanted to know much more than I already did about Kazuma... but I didn't want all of this told by his friends, but from him himself!

 

'It's selfish, I know...'

 

I desperately tried to dry off the tears from my face, but the tears kept on running. I couldn't stop them. So I looked at Miyu with an expression saying 'Why?.. Help...' and hoped that she understood.

 

I wanted her comfort... as much as it hurts to say it, she was the only one that I could tell about my worries and insecurities...

 

I let out a very quiet sob and dropped my head, refusing to let Miyu see my tear-streaked face any longer.

 

"I-I.. I'm sorry. It'll go away soon, so... can you wait? I'm sorry..."

 

I almost whispered to her as I bended a bit over, another sob escaping my lips.

 

"I'm done in a few seconds... don't tell anyone about this."

 

But... I didn't really know if I was able to finish within a few seconds...

[Anime_Maniac_Leia]

"Ne Kazuma..~" Koga said, dragging my name and trying, just trying, to sound moe.

 

I turned my head a 180 degrees which was impossible so just sat facing him. "Yeah?" I said; starting to get slightly annoyed.

 

"Back then... you were so naive and you used to get jealous so fast..~" He said; his eyes sparkling so much that it was too obvious that he was trying to point something relatively cute about me.

 

My eyes rolled at him; showing that I was in no mood to answer his questions. But would he stop? Of course not. Koga is the type of guy who won't stop pestering you even after death. That's the reason why we are still friends with him. He cares for us so much, I wonder if he will act like a hungry puppy just to make us take him in again.

 

"You were like a tsu--" Koga was cut off by my hand which swiftly made a dent on his face by punching him. He fell on his back while he held his cheek with his hands; rolling around, whining in pain.

 

"Say one more word and your grave will by ready by sunrise tomorrow." I said; with a glare to add more 'horror-like-chilling' effect. Koga squirmed in his position with teary eyes which me and Arisa paid no attention to.

 

"But it is true... and that's the reason you don't like to be around highly envious people, right?" Arisa remarked Koga which was a true statement. I looked at her for a brief moment as my head dropped a bit.

 

"I was a monster after all back then..." I said which both Koga and Arisa replied with a 'Hn.' I was genuinely happy that I had a boyfriend and friends who could tolerate me. Or else I doubt I would even be alive by now.

 

-Outside at the Convenience store-

 

Miyu stared at Otoba for a few moments; trying to process what was going on. She tried to sooth him by patting his back. "I'm sorry... I never wanted to make you feel sad or anything like that..! It's just.." She paused for a moment; her head bent down. "He... doesn't want to recall his past..." She finally said; turning her face and hiding it. "He... just doesn't want you to feel jealous or anything because he loves you alot..." She finally said though she never wanted to admit that fact. "Though he might not say it... he always remembers you, is happy about you, and all that..!" She said and turned her head to look at Otoba. "He will say it... one day or the other... Maybe not today but probably tomorrow." She said with a smile and started to skip at a faster pace toward the convenience store.

 

"Come on! Hurry up!" She said and skipped her way to the store.