Ignorance Isn't Bliss

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The three bullies exchanged looks, know what would happen if they angered Isaan Nimparon. Once someone picked on Ruune in front of him and ended up with his arm broken...in three places, and a minor concussion. Yeah, there were three of them, but it was a known fact that Isaan had a lot of training and his father was very high up in the Realm Officials. Deciding that they were screwed if they stuck around the three made like cowards and ran out of the room.

 

Ruu stood up, looking down at his feet. His brother had to come to his rescue again, like some sort of prince. The younger felt ashamed of the fact he couldn't even stand up for himself. "Sorry...," The angel muttered glancing up at his brother, looking back down as soon as he met his brother's deep brown eyes. He was used to people picking on him out his brother's protective gaze. He never told Isaan because he didn't want to bother him when he all ready had so much to worry about. Plus, it didn't bother him as much anymore, so it shouldn't matter.

 

He forced a small smile on his face and said, "Let's go home, big brother, I need to start super."

[Teesie]

At the command that his brother had given, the white haired twin nodded slightly; albeit there was one thought still lingering on his mind. That being, did the others tease his brother when he wasn't around? It was pretty damn obvious that it happened, but Isaan would soon stop that as well. Having a school full of sources would be helpful. Keeping a look out for Ruune was what he would so from now on.

 

Grabbing a hold of his younger twin's hand, the eldest began to pull the small, petit boy closer to the exit of the gym's door. Once outside, the brown, chocolate eyes glanced around looking for a ride home. Some kids often partook in terrible activities after school, therefore stayed in the parking lot to commit such acts. All Isaan wanted was to get home faster. Spotting a guy, that was the brother of another boy who called himself the older twin's friend, Isaan pulled his other half along to approach him.

 

"Hey, I was wonderin' couldja' take us home?" Smiling kindly at the guy. The older teen returned the smile and hit the roof of his car. "Sure, sure get in you two. I'll be honered to take you home." Isaan never really knew much about the guy, but that he was seventeen and always came to pick up his own younger brother. The captain of the fencing team nodded before opening the car door and looking to Ruune..

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Ruu slid into the unfamiliar car nervously, but was comforted when his twin slid in next to him in the back seat. He buckled up, and accidentaly let some of his nervousness leak through the link. He trusted his brother's judgment and all, but their father told them not to get in the car with strangers, and they were only thirteen, no matter how strong Isaan thought he was.

 

He took the elder twin's hand in his own, seeking a little comfort since his heart rate was escalating and he could feel the beginnings of a panic attack. The silver haired boy couldn't help it sometimes, situations like these just made them show up.

 

"Wha-what do you want for super, brother," Ruu asked a bit shakily, trying to destract himself be repeating an eariler question.

[Teesie]

The white haired, older twin pulled his hair out of his eyes to glance at his brother. There was a strong intoxication of nervousness feeling his body, and he knew it wasn't his. Chocolate eyes stared to Ruune in a comforting way. He knew exactly what the other was thinking, and to be honest Isaan was thinking the same. Even though he was thirteen he could totally take on one guy who was a few years older than him. Exceeding in training was a good skill to have. Plus, he couldn't lose against some pot head.

 

"There really ain't nothin' to worry 'bout. You're always so pessimistic. We'll make it home safely, and I promise that we will never do dis' again." He informed as he pulled his hand from his brother's. Sliding lower in the back of the seat, Isaan sighed lightly to his twin. The older teen opened his jacket more, flesh still wet from the shower, he reached for his other half's hand once more. "I won't let anythin' happen to you."

 

He still hadn't answered Ruune's question because he had talked to the other instead. Though, he guessed that he could answer since the pale green eyes continued to look at him. "Oh, umm...I really don' care whatcha' cook. I'm jus' glad you are."

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Ruu took a few calming breaths, before tightening his grip on his twin's hand. He was getting a little better at warding off panic attacks without his twin's power over him. He believed Isaan's promise, since he almost never lied to the younger unless it was for Ruu's benefit. He made the mistake of glacing at Isaan's wet chest and stomach and felt his cheeks burn again, and a weird feeling in the pit of his stomach. He bit the inside of his cheek rather hard, and looked away. Gods, what in the world was wrong with him to make him so flustered around his twin brother?

 

"Oh, umm...I really don' care whatcha' cook. I'm jus' glad you are."

 

"Pa-pasta then...a-and garlic bread if I can find anything to make it w-with," The younger stuttered out looking out the window as the older teen stated to pull out of the parking lot. Now he felt really embarrassed for reasons that were a mystery to him. He just hoped Isaan didn't ask.

[Teesie]

Isaan raised his brow to his brother as he felt a wave of nervousness, though this time it was not topped off with panic but with a small amount of uncertainty and a lot of embarrassment. The other's face was flushed and the stuttering did not make anything better. What was wrong with Ruune?

 

"Wha's wrong with you?" Smiling slightly to his brother. Could it be that maybe his brother had a crush on the smaller freshman that entered the car. He was, after all, their age and admittedly handsome. Chocolate eyes roaming over the face of his brother's, Isaan pursed his lips. Thinking of homosexuality had been on the older twin's mind a lot. He was wondering how he felt about it, because of Ruu. The other was so fragile, never trained, was so clingy and adorable so it made him wonder. He was afraid to offend his brother so he never asked.

 

"Pasta is fine with garlic bread especially if you were to make spaghettis." The older twin informed.

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"Spaghetti it is then," Ruu replied quickly, ignoring the other's question. It would be weird to try and explain what was going on, especially since Ruu wasn't quite sure himself. The car soon pulled up to the twin's house. The two hurried out and were in for a lecture from their father who saw an unfamiliar car pull up and his two thirteen year old sons get out.

 

To put it simply my teenage years began a little awkwardly. I had no idea what was going on with my hormones. I started to find other men attractive, mainly my own twin brother. He was just so caring, and strong, and even gentle when he wanted to be. It was hard to resist my attraction towards him...but I soon discovered a lot of who I was was considered wrong, taboo, a sin. I was scared, but kept a lid on my feelings. I didn't want Isaan to hate me. God, I felt disgusting back then, loving him like that. I still do. Now while I struggled with my sexuality my brother was flourishing, as always, and had gotten into an relationship with a pretty human girl he met while accompanying father on a mission. It hurt...it felt as if he was moving forward without me while I was just stuck, unable to move forward. I...I would say I met Shade around this time, though met is a term I use loosely. I soon started having blackouts after Isaan suggested that I helped him pratice something to impress his girlfriend. Sometimes I regret agreeing to it...it just made it more painful.

 

One and a half years later...(A few months before the twin's 15th birthday)

 

Ruu sat on his brother's bed. They had long since moved to seprate rooms, though Ruu still snuck into Isaan's room when he had a bad dream. Isaan had said he had an important request of Ruu, and needed to talk to him. It made the younger nervous. Was something wrong with his twin? It terrified him to think of his other half in trouble. On the other side of thing he could just be questioning him on why he's been avoiding the white haired twin lately. It was just getting to painful, but he couldn't tell Isaan that.

 

The other was about to tell him but the elder twin's cell phone rang, obviously his girlfriend. He had stepped out the room to take the call, leaving Ruu alone to stew in his worries.

[Teesie]

"Hello." Isaan answered as he placed the phone between his shoulder and ear. It was his girlfriend and she was calling to see when he would come to pick her up. Today the eldest brother had promised to have the girl over to meet his family. She seemed more excited than nervous, which surprised the older twin. That possible being because he was very nervous when he had met the other's parents. Isaan wanted the humans to like him for the male he was and not because he was a holy creature, most preferable and angel. The fourteen year old had held the secret from the girl's parents until dinner was over. The boy thought they had liked him before, but after saying he was an angelic being, the like doubled...no, tripled.

 

At dis' point in time I wus' becomin' a mature teen. I had already gotten myself a human girlfrien.' It had all happened so suddenly though. I wus' aware by now that my brother wud' never grow up.. He was and always would be a child...or Act like one at leas.' Anyways...time had gotten the best of me an' I was leavin' Ruune behind, but that didn't mean that I wouldn' want my brother...no need my brother fa' help. Though who eva' knew dat' my brother hated Ashely so much?

 

Hearing the dial tone, Isaan placed the phone back into his pocket and blew out a breath. He was even nervous to suggest such an act to his brother. Padding back into the room he stood before his silver haired twin and smiled. The twins looked alike but was for sure much different now. The eldest had gotten one side of his hair shaven and not near as long as usual. Leather was sort of his thing now with overly baggy coats. It was just his style.

 

"Um...Ruune...I...want to kiss you- I mean not like kiss you, but ...umm.... I mean practice." Chocolate eyes staring to his brother.

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"Um...Ruune...I...want to kiss you- I mean not like kiss you, but ...umm.... I mean practice."

 

Ruu could only stare wide-eyed at his twin. There were two options, agree and take the one and only chance he'll get to kiss his twin like that, or stay moral and say no. God...why does the wrong option seem so right? The silver haired twin bit his lip, cheeks turning a light pink. He had mad his decision, his selfish, selfish decision.

 

Ruune nodded slowly to his twin, "S-sure...,' He replied, swallowing the lump in his throat. He...he felt as if he was going to regret this, but his selfishness kept him agreeing.

[Teesie]

The eldest twin smiled lightly to the smaller of the two before giving a nod and sitting beside the other. "Don't move." He whispered, staring into his brother's pale green eyes. Isaan inched close to the younger twin second after second. This was practice....on his brother....and he was still nervous. After moments of anticipation, the white haired male was centimeters away from his brother's lips. The pink flesh of their lips touching every time one breathed.

 

Giving a small sigh, his breath fanning over his brother's skin, Isaan closed the almost to none existent gap between them. As their lips connected, the older of the two couldn't stop the small moan that shot from his throat. The sound and vibration being caught by the other connection flesh. The kiss was defiantly timid but soon or later the white haired teen had began giving small flicks of his tongue, asking for entrance into the orifice. The taste was driving him crazy, Isaan could tell that it would be much help.

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Ruu nearly thought he was going to have another panic attack as the elder twin closed the small gap between their lips. The silver haired twin sat there, frozen, for a couple seconds until he felt a warm tounge glide over the flesh of his lips. Ruu had never kissed anyone before, nor have he been kissed, so he acted on instinct. The smaller open his mouth slightly into the kiss, slowly moving his hands up to rest on his other half's shoulders.

 

Ruu never, not even durring a panic attack, felt his heart beat so fast. He was sure Isaan could hear it, it was so loud! Maybe...maybe this could turn out to be more than practice.

[Teesie]

Isaan reached his hands upwards to place them on his twin's shoulders. With a feelings this overwhelming, the eldest needed to have something to hold on to. The kissing was getting more intense to Isaan as the pink flesh of his mouth was slithering into the warm, wet orifice provided to him. Tongue swirling inside of Ruune's mouth, the white haired teen mapped it across his brother's teeth as well as the tongue. Ruu tasted of candy and oranges, it was all so delectable in his opinion

 

Pushing force against the smaller twin, Isaan had managed to have the petit body of Ruune's against the bed. Lifting his leg to position them on either side of his brother's waist, the eldest was straddling the other and began to slowly bring his pelvis into the other's. It was beginning to seem way more than just practice.

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When his twin pushed him back against the bed Ruu felt a little shocked. But he could help but let out a small moan as the other mapped his mouth, and moved his hands up to grip his twin's hair. When Isaan brought their pelvises together Ruu's eyes flew open, not even realising he closed them. Ruu knew people kissed...but he had no idea what was going on now! It made him feel that odd feeling in the pit of his stomach again.

 

He whimpered, and sent a spark of cofusion through the link, not sure what this was escalating to. He didn't want the kiss to stop, but he was unsure of what they were getting into.

[Teesie]

The moment the confusion ran through the link and entered into Isaan's body, the eldest pulled away and licked his lips. It seemed that his brother was more than confused and wanted to stop...maybe? Leaning his head to the side, the white haired teen popped his bones in his neck before reaching up to take a hold of his brother's hands. The youngest of the two was still clutching into Isaan's hair and the older lightly pried the fingers from his fringe of white locks.

 

"I'm sorry. I din' meant ta' scare you." Staring to his brother with chocolate eyes. The pale orbs held confusion and regret, but why the later? Withdrawing his body from his brother's Isaan let off a wide smile. The other was such a strange person.. When younger, the two use to know each other like the back of their own hand. Now that the two was older and learned how to control their powers, Ruune was much too secluded. "Are ya' ok?" He asked, raising a brow for good measures.

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Was he okay? No...he defiantly wasn't, but he didn't want to tell his twin about that. He didn't know how to respond. Would Isaan think he was a freak if he told the other he wanted to actully continue? The younger bit his his lip, he could still taste the bitter sweet, slightly spicy taste of his twin on his lips. Ruu sat up, pulling his knees to his chest, there no way he could tell him! No, he didn't want to risk loosibg his other half!

 

He sniffled slightly, whiping his eyes of forming tears. The silver haired boy hid his face in his knees, unable to look the other in the eye. Ruu felt disgusting! He wasn't supposed to like Isaan like that. He was such a coward...too scared to even form words.

[Teesie]

Isaan stood from the smaller of the two and stretched to his full length. It was quite cold in the room so he would have to go and put some clothing on. The white haired teen was actually enjoying the kiss, but he did not want to make his brother any more uncomfortable than he possible already was by even asking the question.

 

"I apologize, for making you feel uncomfortable. I don't want to make you feel awkward around me so don't feel that way, ok?" Smiling to his brother before ruffling the silver hair. He knew that this would be something that could possible ruin their relationship and now Isaan regretted it.

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"...Okay, brother," Ruu muttered, feeling his twin ruffle his hair. The smaller felt a shiver go down his spine. He's been feeling cold a lot lately. And he also felt like someone was always watching him lately, and it made him uncomfortable. Biting his lip Ruu got up, "I-I gotta go," The younger stuttered out quickly, before practically running out of Isaan's room. He hoped the elder twin didn't take that the wrong way, Ruu just needed to get out of there.

 

The boy ran into the bathroom and locked the door behind him. Panting he sat down infront of the door, shivering, the cold was getting worse. He glanced around the room, his naturally sharp eye sight trying to catch any abnormalities. Then he saw it, a patch of shadows that seemed just too dark for the bathroom's lighting, and two large, glowing, yellow eyes staring back at him. Before he could call for any help he blacked out, to fast to even use the link between him and Isaan.

And that would be how I met Shade. I later woke up with the bathroom a mess, and my arms were shreaded and bloody. Once I bandaged myself and cleaned up the mess I found out that my brother's girlfriend was forced to cancel their date because of a family emergency. I guess that was a relief...for now at least. I never let my father or brother know about my blackouts and the bouts of self harm that fallowed, I got very good at hiding it. In retrospect I should have told them...then the signs of possession would have been clear to both of them. But yet I continued to lie, and lie, and lie, and the blackouts got longer, more violent, and I began feeling weaker and weaker. Months later, a few weeks after we turned fifteen, Isaan worked up the nerve to ask Ashley over again...I think he grew to regret that dession for the rest of his life.

 

A few months later...(Age 15)

 

Ruu worked in the kitchen, trying not to come off as exhausted as he was. He hadn't been getting much sleep lately. The blackouts now happened regularly every few days, and durring that time Ruu would lock himself in his room for hours on end, only to wake up with new wounds added to the old. Was he going crazy? Maybe he was...yet another thing wrong with him, that was nothing new.

 

Ignoring how heavy his eyes were becoming, the silver haired teen continued to slave over the stove. Tonight was very important to Isaan and Ruu wanted to make up for not talking to him as much anymore. Ruu loved his brother, perhaps a bit too much to be normal, but he was willing to do anything to make Isaan happy...even if it cost him his own happiness.

[Teesie]

The older twin watched as the younger out right ran from his room. "Ruine wait!" Sighing as the other disappeared from his sight.. That was all bullshit...now their relationships would defiantly be ruined over a stupid kiss. The white haired teen knew that he shouldn't have asked the other to help him practice kissing. It was all just a complete mess.

 

"Dis' is jus' great. How fuckin' worse can it get." The white haired twin fussed to himself as he threw his body back onto his bed. Sleep would be something that would draw his mind away from the situation at hand so that it exactly the action that Isaan committed.

 

At the age of fifteen, I had decided to bring my girlfriend to meet my family. For a while I had been nervous to ask her. The father of Ashley had been sick for a while now, and he had just gotten better. The stress that my love was under had made me think twice of asking, but after telling myself that 'No' was as worse as it could get, I asked her. Surprisingly she agreed and I was now estatic that for the first time Ahael and Ruune would meet her. That changed before the day was over. Time and time again I wish that my nervousness had gotten the best of me, or at least if Ruu was absent from the meeting.

 

{Age 15}

 

Isaan smiled lightly to Ashely as he kissed his lips softly. The two of them had moved to the stage of making out occasionally, but never more than that. It was something that his father had told him to make the eldest twin keep a straight head. 'No matter how good it gets, make sure that you have no sex. Unless that is...If you want two Ruune(s).' The white haired teen knew exactly what his father meant by that. He could have gotten the blond girl pregnant and have something that clings to him for the rest of his life. Now...of course Isaan loved his younger brother, but there was no way that he could look after two of them.

 

"I'm excited to meet your family, though I do admit I'm a bit nervous. Knowing your father is a leader of the Realm Officials is quite intimidating. What if he doesn't think I'm good enough?"

 

Isaan smiled and shook his head, combing the blond locks behind her ear. "He'll love you, now come on." He gestured, taking the girls hand and pulling her into the house. "Runne, dad...I'm home!"

 

Yep, something I defiantly regret.

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"Runne, dad...I'm home!"

 

Ruune looked up from his cooking and bit his lip. This was it...the moment where he was going to loose his twin forever. He sighed, and stirred the the sauce, one could never go wrong with pasta. The younger twin would let his twin be happy, though. He wasn't going to mess it up for Isaan; Ruu didn't have much of a future but his twin did. The younger has been thinking rather negatively the last few months, ever since the blackouts started. Wincing slightly and he tugged his sleeves down further over his hands to cover bandaged arms. He didn't need to stress out his family more. Ahael had been over worked, and Isaan had been training over time for an up and coming fencing competition, so why bother them with his little problems.

 

The smaller twin glanced over at his father, who was hunched down at the table nursing a cup of coffee; Ruu wasn't the only one exhausted. The silver haired twin turned back to the stove, supper was almost ready. A small shiver went up his spine, but he ignored it, hoping he could fight off the blackout until supper was over at least.

[Teesie]

Isaan smiled as he held onto his girlfriend's hand. This was it. This was the time where his family would meet the one he had fallen in love with. Pulling Ashely along with him to the kitchen, the white haired boy smiled lightly and looked to his younger brother. "Well, Ruune I would like for you to meet my girlfriend. Ashley, this is my brother." Backing away as the girl reached out a hand to greet the younger twin.

 

"Hello, it is a pleasure to finally meet the boy that Isaan talks so much about." She announced, having the eldest twin to slightly blush at the fact.

 

"Do I talk 'bout him that much." The answer she gave was a giggle and a simple nod. Her hand was still outstretched to the silver haired teen, waiting to see if he would accept her. The white haired teen stared to his brother in nervousness and anticipation. He hoped that both his brother and father took a liking to his human girlfriend. If not, it would be awkwardly painful.....for the both of them.

 

From the side of the room, still lingering over the coffee cup. The man watched the others closely, the transaction taking longer than expected. Aheal could tell that Ruune was saddened to have to give his brother to this girl....one day. It seemed as if his eldest son was serious about the girl and it made him, as a father, proud.

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"Hello, it is a pleasure to finally meet the boy that Isaan talks so much about."

 

Ruune stared at the pretty girl's outstretched hand for what seemed like an eternity. The younger nibbled his lip, and hesitantly took Ashley's hand in his own, giving a slightly timid shake. "N-nice to meet you...," The silver haired twin stuttered, before letting go and turning back to the stove.

 

The tiny fifteen year old took the boilng noodles off the stove top after slipping on oven mits, and dumped them into a strainer that he had placed in the sink earlier. Ruu wave away the steam, and then turned of the heat on the stove...he's been forgetting to do that lately, and his father had to remind him, but Ruu luckily remembered this time. He shook the strainer to rid it of any remaining water, and dumped the contents back into the pot with a little olive oil. He took the sauce off the stove as welland placed it on the counter, but forgot to turn off the heat on that one since he was foucusing on blocking a lot of his emotions from passing through the link, and keeping his eyes open.

[Teesie]

The white haired male continued to stare at his lover and pursed his lips to his twin brother. From the determined but lost looks residing on his brother's face, Isaan could see that Ruune was distracted. Every now and then, the eldest would feel a small wave of emotions from his brother, but never enough to know what the other was feeling. It was actually making the older a bit nervous and worried. Chocolate eyes studying Ruu, as he continued to cook.

 

Ashley stood awkardly for a moment before smiling once again. "So do you have a love Ruune?" The girl asked the younger twin, smiling lightly to him. She was curious of the two and wanted to learn more about her lover's family. She only wanted to be accepted.

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"So do you have a love Ruune?"

 

Ruu nearly froze at the question, but quickly regained his head in the situation. If Ruu had one strength that neither his father nor his brother had is that the younger was good at keeping a lid on himself, so to speak. He finally noticed that he left the heat on the stove and clicked it off before awnsering with a short and almost sad, "No...I don't." He reached up and retrieved the plates from a nearby cabinet, and place the four plates down next to the pot of pasta. Ruu wasn't meaning to come off as cold...but he was nervous. Biting his lip the smaller took a chance and let some of his nervousness through the link, along with a little appogetic emotions, but clamped down on the other emotions that tried to go through as well. He wasn't going to burden Isaan with his problems now...maybe he'd tell the elder twin about the blackouts after Ashley went home.

 

"Supper's ready," The long haired twin said softly, turing to face the others, forcing a small smile on his face.

[Teesie]

Issan could see right through his little brother, although he wasn't sure what the problem was, the white haired twin knew something was wrong. Feeling waves of nervousness confirmed his suspicion, though at the thought of his brother disliking Ashley made the eldest a bit sad. When Ruune turned to give a fake, forced smile, the boy stood to walk out of the room. He hated the atmosphere already and didn't want to see much more. He had to just go use the restroom.

 

Ashley knew that look whenever it came over Isaan.. She knee that he was either unhappy with something or saddened that things didn't go his way. Eyes glancing to the food the girl smiled. It couldn't be the dish that his brother had cooked could it? It looked delicious in the human's eyes and she couldn't wait until it was all prepared.

 

After seeing his oldest son leave, Aheal wanted to find out what was happening so he also stood, albeit he dismissed himself kindly not to seem rude. Waking and leaving the girl and younger twin by themselves, he set his thoughts on finding what was wrong with Isaan.

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Ruu hung his head at his twin's departure, couldn't Isaan see that he was trying! The younger sighed and glanced at Ashley, with a nervous smile, she really did seem nice. He would try to like her, for Isaan...the young angel had finally, in that moment, had excepted that he needed to move on, his twin would never love him like Ruu loves him. But, before he could even attempt to make amends, the silver haired twin blacked out, to distracted to even notice the signs and lock himself away.

 

And that's where my memory of that night stops. Anything after that moment was a complete and total blank. Now I know it was because Shade was controlling my body, and my mind, for lack of a better word, was asleep. What happened next is not a fond memory of mine...I'd frankly say it was the worst moment of my life. What Angel wants to get their wings clipped...let alone for something they didn't even remember.

 

The next thing Ruu knew was the sight of a dirty cell wall, and looking down to see his body was covered in blood not his own. The small teen nearly had heart attack right there, what the hell just happened?! Pale green eyes frantically searched the room, it was dark and he swore he could hear faint cackling from the shadows. The silver haired boy tried to move his hands to feel where he was and try to find the door, but he then realized his hands were bound behind him. It was official, Ruu was freaking out.