its hard to start over when the past still haunts you ((18+)) ~ Nyuchanxx and azuneko

[azuneko]

Akise glanced to the side. "I have no clue if that will happen. It is the first time I have brought someone home to hear. So I have no idea how she will react to you. I suppose when she speaks to you it will depend on how you answer her. Just be honest with yourself and you won't have to worry about her disliking you." he said now worried about that. "I have two rooms in that house. All my siblings do. Avoid he house tours. They are boring." Akise pokes Ryoko's nose. He mainly said that so Ryoko wouldn't see things that belonged to him.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko raised an eyebrow "what boring about house tours, if you can get parents to give them too you they nearly always tell a cute story from the past...I think it would be a great way to learn about you." He smirked cheekily and grabbed Akise's finger. "And I Dont think you should poke me...unless..." He stopped as he brought the others finger up to his mouth and licked it before he placed it inside his warmth letting his tongue explore the digit. Finally he let the other hand fall back down "or something like that will happen." He whispered in Akise's ear.

[azuneko]

Akise pouts as he continued to poke Ryoko. "No tours at all. I will bite you if you dare accept one." he said before watching the other grab his finger. His cheeks turning bright red as he looked at Ryoko. "Would you cut it out... you'll get me aroused again and we are on the beach." he said biting his lip.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko laughed "hmmm..maybe that was what I was going for." He smiled sweetly before saying "Dont worry I'll stop if you want. But that threat is pathetic," he leant in close to Akise's ear and whispered huskily "maybe I wouldn't mind that so much!" He gently wrapped his mouth around Akise"s ear and bite gently, not hard enough to cause pain, just to prove his point. He let go and traveled down to his neck kissing it softly. "I think a tour sounds like an excellent idea." He said, his breath brushing against the mans neck,

[azuneko]

Akise shivers as he looked down. "Ryoko you are too much... I'm not sure home much I can take anymore.." he said still blushing. Placing his hands on the other's shoulders, he leans closer kissing his lips. He couldn't think of anything else but being with Ryoko. This was like a picture perfect moment. "Ryoko I'm in love with you. So much that I can't help hide it anymore."

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko eyes widened as he felt zAkise place his lips on his own, he hasn't expected the other too do something so bold. After a few seconds he managed to reorganise himself and slowly shut his eyes, wrapping his arms around Akise's waist he kissed the man back. "I...I love you Akise." He murmered between kissing. "Don't ever leave..ok." His heart pounded, he may be bold when it came to the people he liked but he had never told anyone he loved them before, this was a first for him. The words felt foreign from his lips but the came so easily when he said them to this man, escaping him like a lost memory that had finally returned to him. It felt good. "I love you."

[azuneko]

Akise continued to kiss him until his ears picked up something. Ryoko confessed to him and it was so sweet. He had no idea what to think or say. "Ryoko..... Do you mean that?" he asked leaning back a bit. His eyes filling with tears. "I'd be overwhelmed if that were true. I've heard that saying such means we'll be together forever." he was feeling something he's never felt before. It made him feel warm inside.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko pulled Akise close and looked directly into his eyes "Of course I mean it Akise, I love you so stay with me forever." He kissed Akise lips softly again. Noticing the blush on the mans cheeks he remarked "and never stop blushing from the things I do...it's so cute!" He threaded his fingers through the mans hair and with his thumb gently wiped away the tears in the others eyes "it's just a confession you Dont need to cry." He chuckled softly but he knew his words were a lie, it was because it was a confession that he wanted to cry, the happiness in his heart felt like overflowing, there was nothing more simple yet more complicated than a confession and Ryoko wanted to treasure this moment forever.

[azuneko]

Akise closes his eyes. "Ugh.... I can't stop the tears. Shall we head back inside? Packing this perfect picnic I forgot napkins. Which I could have used by this point." he said chuckling. Akise inched away and stood up. "Come on. My eyes will get puffy from all this crying and them you'll have to pamper me." he says teasingly. Slowly picked up the basket and waiting for Ryoko to grab the blanket.

[Nyuchanxx]

"Because that would be simply aweful!!" Ryoko said sarcastically, winking at the other as he spoke. Standing he picked up the blanket and folded it, resting it over his shoulder. He turned toward the sea, looking out over the expanse of desolate water. A thoughtful smile tugged at his lips as he realised for the first time he was no longer connected emotionally to those desolate waters, now he was no longer alone, struggling by himself, he had someone to help him through everything.

 

He turned back to Akise and took his hand in his own. "Ok, let's go home." He sqweezed the others hand as he began to walk.

[azuneko]

Akise held onto Ryoko's hand as they went back to the house. Once inside he placed the basket on the island in the kitchen. "Uh, I am lost. I am not sure what else we can do today. I feel I've done all I can think of. For the rest of the evening you pick what we do. I'd love to see what you pick." he said looking at Ryoko.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko put down the blanket and cupped his hand to his cheek thinking. He didnt really know what to do, they hadn't been here long and he knew there wasn't a lot in the house as of yet. He frowned thinking. Suddenly he clicked his fingers his face appearing to light up as an idea came to him "I know! We could go check out the floor below I saw a door last night that seriously looks like we have a cellar!" Ryoko approached Akise, his hands hanging limply above his head as he whispered in a dark quiet tone "there might be ghosts and vampires and evil spirits. Whooooo..." He dropped his hands and laughed "sorry I enjoy scary things."

[azuneko]

Akise blinks a bit. "I've never seen a ghost so they don't scare me. As for vampires, I don't have to worry. I doubt you'd let anyone but you bite me." he said smiling. "Let's check it out. I know we don't have an attic here so maybe there's a basement." he mutters following Ryoko to the door. Upon opening it there were stairs leading down. "It's dark down there. I'm not going down there." Akise said nervously.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko laughed softly, taking Akise's hand in his own and making his phone into a torch he held it up revealing the cobwebs and the staircase that appeared to be crumbling slightly "wow i guess the previous owners didn't even know this was here!" he commented and he lent close to Akise "Don't worry i'm here, if your scared just hold onto me ok." he squeezed the mans hand tighter and shone the flash light around as he descended a little further. He himself was a little apprehensive, his heart was speeding up more but the slight fear made him want to go down more, he enjoyed being scared as long as he knew he could return to normality.

[azuneko]

Akise grips tighter to Ryoko's hand. Following slowly he looked around. "Maybe we should go back? It feels like something is going to jump out at us or we could discover a body." he said getting more scared. There was nothing like that down ther. Though the place needed tons of work to even be considered part of the house.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko chuckled and pulled Akise closer to him as he finally reached the cracked stone floor of the cellar. "Don't be so worried if anything tried to eat you they would have to go through me first!" He puffed out his chest in an attempt to look manly but he got the feeling it failed miserably. He reached his hand out to the wall feeling the damp surface trying to find some sort of light switch. Finding one he flicked it on. Nothing happened.

 

Suddenly the light flashed into life. Ryoko let out a loud yelp as the unexpected light made him jump, he dropped his phone on the floor and grabbed Akise's arm tightly breathing hard.

[azuneko]

Akise looked at Ryoko as they reached the bottom. Standing still the lights soon turned on. Holding his lover close he pets his head. "I'm here for you. That was really something out of a horror movie. Are oh alright?" he asked worried his boyfriend was hurt or something. Akise looked around. "This place is gross and smells bad. I don't think we should use this place." he said softly.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko slowly released Akise's arm from his grip, he blushed a little embarrassed he had acted so pathetic "sorry, i'm fine it just made he jump." he laughed awkwardly "tehee..guess that proves how brave i am!" He looked around the room, most of it was completely empty except for a desk at one edge upon which was piles of papers and a thick candle with was dripping down its sides and pooling on the oak wood. Other than that the room was empty. It smelt earthy and the rooting wood mixed in with the usually nice scent making it smell bad. "its not that bad, just need some really good work done. Maybe when i get the time I'll sort it out down here, make it nice." He leaned in closer to Akise and seductively whispered "maybe it could be our sex den!" He smirked, he didn't really mean it seriously but it was still fun to tease Akise, he had no idea what he would do with this space, maybe he would return it to its originally purpose and use it as a cellar for the long storage food. He wasn't sure but it was a large space and would be worth using.

[azuneko]

Akise blushed brightly as he looked at Ryoko. "No!! That's eyes to perverted!! Besides we haven't done something like that. Crap! I'm going to go upstairs. When your done come join me." he said rushing back up the stairs. Akise hadn't thought about the next step in their relationship as of yet. Ryoko mentioning sex kind of put it in his head. Trying to picture it was far too embarrassing and this he got flustered. Akise felt bad for running off but he couldn't help it. He said on the floor by the door. 'Ryoko is really experienced at having a boyfriend.... I'm not sure what to do anymore... It would suck if he gets bored of me...' he thinks worried now. Akise then remembers his sister writes about boys love. That being said he would ask her for help. It was his only option.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko's eyes widened, he had really done it now, he knew he had gone to far, saying such a thing to Akise was bound to get this type of reaction. Stupid, stupid, stupid. He cursed himself. Running back up the stairs after Akise he burst out into the light and looked about for Akise, noticing the male on the floor beside him ne dropped to his knees embracing him, holding him tight against his body. "i'm sorry, I am so sorry, i didn't mean it, I was joking. Please, Akise, forgive me. I forgot...I'm sorry." He blurted out scared he could have ruined everything. His heart pounded, he was more terrified than he had ever been in his entire life. A single tear fell from his eye as he continued to clutch the male. "please forgive me. Please." He repeated his voice strained.

[azuneko]

"I'm not upset. I'm not angry. I'm flustered." he said bluntly. "You can so easily put your feelings and thoughts into words or actions. I'm not there yet and that bothers me. You'll eventually notice I'm slacking in your advances and grow bored of me. You'll toss me away and that scares me. I know you said those three words and I believe in them. I don't believe in myself. I want to catch up to you but I don't know how. I barely made it through that 'thing' we did. If you hadn't guided me I'm sure you would have found it unpleasant." Akise says

[Nyuchanxx]

"A...Akise.." Ryoko didnt know what to say to make the other feel better, he didnt know what would make him feel better. "I won't do such a thing, I'll guide you through anything you want if it make you more comfortable, I Dont expect you to catch up to me, after all I like the fact that I am the one taking all your first's, o just wish I had some first's I could give to you." He let put his breath slowly trying to calm his racing heart. Was love always this stressful? He hoped not or he wpiuld be in for an early death!

 

He smiled realising a first that he could give Akise "I love you....you took that from me..." He blushed slightly but continued "I never told anyone I loved them before and I have never wanted to before. I love you, Akise."

[azuneko]

Akise leans his head forward. "All my firsts...? You're going to be the death of me Ryoko. I don't think I can survive with you being so sweet and gentle with me. It's all too much to take." he said blushing. His gaze drifts up to the other. He was surprised to hear him say such. "I am the first...? Ryoko I love you too. I am not sure if I can say that's the first time I've said that to anyone. I tell my mother that whenever we talk." Akise didn't realize that phrase defied two different meanings but one all in the same.

[Nyuchanxx]

Ryoko laughed "well if it's only your mother I am happy." He rested his head on Akise's shoulder stroaking the mans hair with his fingers. "You know I would feel really bad I caused your death!" He joked before falling silent again content just to sit with his lover. After a little while he sat up strait and looked at Akise "you really are too cute! Seriously it's too tempting!" He leant in again and gently kissed the males soft lips, lingering before he finally pulled away "you feeling better now? I defiantly think that's enough of me choosing what we do!" He laughed Akise's ideas always went so well and there he was and he swore he did nothing but ruin nice moments. 'I wonder' he thought 'am I unable to accept this happiness or am I simply too bold?'

[azuneko]

Akise stays silent as he enjoys this moment with him. Just being close to Ryoko was enough to assure him that the feelings they share was mutual. As their lips part he closed his eyes. "You are to pick the rest of the night's events. This is a relationship. I'm not dating myself. To me it seems your mixing your emotions when you're near me. You are being overly bold to compensate for something else. Are you nervous around me? Is it because I am the first person you fell in love with?" he asked.