Chocolate Kisses;; Ballala99 and Ciel Roleplay;; Psychologist X Patient

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Name:: Kyou Iwate

Age:: 28

Position:: Seme

Personality:: Generally a rather calm and collected type of man, Kyou is a rather gentle soul, who enjoys listening to others. Also very wise, he seems to have words of knowledge to lend to others in need. Though, he does seem to have a bit of a snappy, cold side if you irritate him too much, or you hurt someone he cares for. But overall, he generally has a good heart. Though, he also has an obsession with stuffed animals. He is able to play the cello and the violin, and it also a good chef.

 

Name:: Evan Jackson

Age:: 22

Personality:: Usually very cheerful and rather clingy, doesn't take long to warm up to new people. He absolutely adores sweets and can't stand even one day without getting them. Evans is an amazing singer as well - even if he doesn't like to show off, he enjoys singing to his friends sometimes, he also knows how to play the piano. He has a weakness for cats and owns two of them himself. He usually doesn't care much about his grades, yet still makes sure to get at least enough to pass.

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Evans nervously bit his lip as he stood in front of wooden door. Behind them was his psychologist... Why did he go here? The blond sighed and glanced down at his hands... Well, more like, his wrists, which immediately reminded him of the reason. Right, his so-called girlfriend broke up with him... After five years of being together, she just cut it off completely. The blue-eyed male sighed softly to himself and fixed the pieces of cloth that hid his new cuts before almost shyly entering the room.

 

His head nervously peeked out through the door before he himself entered the room and bit his lip, his ice blue eyes finding the other man almost immediately. He cleared his throat and turned his eyes down, unsure of what to do at first. "Uhm... I'm Evans Jackson?.. I called you a few days ago..." The man said a bit quietly, gripping his injured wrist with one hand. Really, he couldn't take the heartbreak very well...

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Kyou Iwate, a well know psychologist in the town, was waiting for his next patient. With one of his last patients leaving the room with a bit of a dull expression, the young auburn haired mental-health doctor scribbled in in the date of their next appointment. The next in his agenda was...Evans Jackson. Tapping his pen against the paper of the neat notebook, the tall man swerved around on his spinny-chair when he heard the creak of the old wooden door behind him.

"Hello there, Evans Jackson, close the door behind you." said Kyou with a rather straight-forward type of tone. Turning back to face the couch that was across the table, which was the barrier between the patient and himself, the hazel-eyed man said with a rather warm tone, "Yes, I remember your call...make yourself at home, I have tea already set out on the table if you'd like some...I also have some sweets in the cabinet, if you'd like those as well." There was an array of rather cute studded animals on the second couch, which was on the side of table, pressed against the wall. The room was rather warm and cozy, and just had a naturally welcoming environment on it's own.

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Evans nodded a bit timidly and closed the door behind him, a bit nervously rubbing his wrist. It was somehing he did unconsciously... Somehow, it seemed to help him relax at least a little bit. Once the word 'sweets' reached his ears, the blond tilted his head and offered the other a warm smile. "I'd like some sweets..." He said quietly, yet this time softly as he slowly walked over to grab something out for him. He really hoped the other wouldn't mind... If he had something to nibble on, he'd be way more relaxed. Once the teen had found a bit of chocolate, he quietly walked over and sat down on the couch, his icy blue eyes gazing at the older male from beneath his glasses. The blond wasn't sure of what he should say now, so he just took a small bite of his chocolate and pulled the sleeves of his dark grey sweater up so they covered his wrists.

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Kyou glanced at the blonde male as he walked over towards the cabinets to get some treats to nibble on. Amber-hazel eyes trailed the younger male as he began to take notes about his patient so far.

Tilting his glasses a bit, he glanced straight at the blonde's wrists as he nibbled at the chocolate, before saying in a rather calm tone, "Hey, can you show me your wrists? I noticed that you're trying to hide them from me."

Auburn hair fell into hazel eyes as he glanced from his note-pad to his patient before he said in a rather tender notes, "After seeing your wrists, I'd like to just start off with some pretty basic questions, okay?" smiled the pale-skinned male warmly.

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Evans froze completely when he heard what the other said. He slowly lowered his eyes to the table and bit his lip while gently pulling the sleeve up to his elbow. The cloth that was covering his cuts was still clear... Though it probably wouldn't stay that way for much longer. Truth was, the blond freaked out a bit when he entered this building and the only way he was able to calm himself was to... Cut himself again. Right now, behind the bandages were a few fresh cuts as well as more of the old ones. Shamefully, the teen nodded at what the other said afterwards as his eyes were still turned to the table. Usually he wasn't this quiet... This man just seemed to know right where to aim to make Evans be unable to.

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Glancing at the younger male quietly, amber eyes gazed over the several bandaged cuts, seeing blood stain some of them...it saddened him, really, to know the fact that the other man was hurting this much that he resorted to this.

With a smooth voice, though with a sad tone in it, the auburn haired man said, "Please stop, you're a good person." Eyes trailed the scars as if they were something he despised, his eyes filled with a bit of sadness and anger, though his face held a composed look.

"Anyways, I'd like you to explain why you are here and why you have asked for me assistance." said the auburn-haired man . One thing noticeable about this man was the fact that he had a rather thorough French accent whenever he spoke, and the fact that his eyes always seemed trained on the patient, not zoning off somewhere else. He enjoyed helping people, which is why he took this job.

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Evans quietly pulled the sleeve back down, his face filled with shame. He took in a deep breath before slowly lifting his blue eyes backk on the psychologist. When he heard the question, before answering, the blond reached out to his right to grab something like a pillow to hold, but instead... He found a teddy bear. Well, he didn't mind this. With both hands, Evans held it against his body while resting his chin on its head. “My girlfriend broke up with me after five years relationship... I thought for sure we'd be together for longer... I was planning on proposing!“ There was obvious sadness in his voice as he talked, holding the plush close to his body. “She broke up with me without even telling the reason... All I heard was ‘we shouldn't be together‘. Then she left, just like that...“ The blond said and took a bigger bite of the chocolate, yet his ice blue eyes didn't turn away from the other this time.

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"Here...I have a better plush for you...it kind of reminds me of you..." getting up, the psychologist walked over towards the back of the room and opened up the cabinets as the younger male talked about his past relationship. Seemingly looking for something, the auburn-haired man grabbed something from the cabinet and walked back over, a stuffed bunny was in his hand. It was rather large, but not too large, and it was light pink in color, and had a baby blue bow tied around it's neck.

Setting the little rabbit on the table, the honey-eyed male sat back down in his chair and took a few more notes before he said to his patient, "I know that she probably meant a lot to you...but if you love her, you should just let her go, and hope for the best for her. You need to move on in life...find someone else who will love you, and take you for who you are, and who you were meant to be...you can't stay like this, I'm sure there are people who care about you, and people who want you to be okay. Be strong...I know that this isn't something that you can get over easily and move on in life with...but you're going to have to... it's okay...don't give up...it takes a while...just because something slipped up, and whatever happened wasn't perfect...sometimes things aren't meant to be the way you thought they were...and I'm here, because I know you need a friend...we all fall off the wagon sometimes...it's not your whole life, you haven't thrown everything away...you have so much time to make yourself a great, and happy person, Evans."

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Evans nodded faintly when the other said something about a better plush. When he saw the bunny, obviously, he grabbed it from the table and hugged it close, somehow feeling that it made him feel better... The blue eyes were slowly filling up with tears as he listened and only gripped the plush closer to his lean body. "It happened two months ago." He said quietly and once again rested his chin on the stuffed animal. "I can't let her go... Just a few days ago, I saw her again... With another guy! I barely stopped myself from just jumping in there and punching the guy... I.. I still miss her..." The blond said quietly and sniffled softly to hold in the tears that were threatening to spill any time now. Even if he was a guy who oftenly talked a lot... Talking about this wasn't as easy.

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"Evans...you have to let her go. To continue on with your life, you have to let her go, find someone else who makes you happy...find someone who won't break your heart...think about it...you didn't waste five years of your life, you were happy, right? You had a good time, which means that you spent those five years of your life happily. You need to just see that it's over...I know that you loved her, I understand, I've been in relationships as well, and I loved them...but they're all gone now...you just need to learn to love again." said the auburn-haired man softly before pouring tea into both cups, and leisurely picked his cup up, sipped it, and placed it back down on the table before he looked back at the sniffling blonde, "I know that you probably hate me already, and you probably think that I think that you never loved her, and that I'm just trying to help you so I can get paid, but that's not true...I've had patients who've thought that before, and they were wrong, I genuinely care about my patients, and I just want to do what's best for them."

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“I can't just let her go!“ Evans whined softly. “I was happy with her, that's for sure... I even got a few girls who wanted to date with me now that I'm single-... I just can't! Every time I think about dating someone else... Her image just pops into my mind...“ The blond slowly confessed and hugged the bunny tightly. The teen shook his head at the words he heard coming from his psychologist next. “I don't hate you... I don't even think that way!“ The blond stayed quiet for a while before raising his teary eyes back to the older male. “I don't hate my girlfriend, either... I don't even hate the guy she's with right now... I only hate myself.“ He finally finished and looked at the steaming cup of tea.

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"That's the problem, you think that you can't let her go, you're not letting yourself let her go...I know it gets hard to do that, especially when you love them that much, and you've spent a whole lot of time with them, and heck, even wanted to get married one day...I know that it hurts..." sighed the auburn-haired man, though it hurt him, to see this cute, young boy, having so much hatred for himself...he shouldn't have to feel this way, no one should have made him feel this bad about himself that he'd slit his arms open. He felt the need to hug him, though he knew that this action was against the rules for him to do...he'd give him a hug if the blonde wanted a hug.

"How about you try to go on a date with one of those girls? It might make you feel better, start to at least try to get better, please..." There seemed to be a bit of desperation in his voice, before he said, "You need a fresh slate." There was a bit of a blank look in his eyes before he said,

"By the way, you can keep that bunny...you seem to like it a lot."

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Evans sniffled softly and buried the lower part of his face into the bunny so that only the glasses and his eyes could be seen. He gazed up at the psychologist with sad, tear-filled eyes as he took in a shaky breath and turned his eyes away for just a few moments, just to make sure he wouldn't actually cry. After hearing the suggestion, the blond shook his head immediately and only hugged the plushie closer. "I can't... I don't want to." He said a bit childishly as he looked up at the older male. Once the blue-eyed male heard the other say he could keep the bunny, he couldn't help the faint blush that appeared on his cheeks. "..Thank you..." He muttered out quietly and managed a smile - it wasn't even fake. "But you see... Basically all they want are my looks..." The teen said with a small frown on his face. "None of them really care about just what I am... But she did." Evans said sadly as he held the bunny close. It really seemed to be helping him...

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"Just find someone that cares, don't date the girls that you know that aren't going to love you for you...you have to be adventurous, you need just find someone new, someone who will make you happy, someone who cares...I know that you don't want to, and I know that you think that there's no one else like her out there in the world, but there is, there'll be someone who will love you." explained the auburn haired man softly, a bit of tenderness in his eyes when he looked at the light-haired male, offering him a sad smile. The blonde was cute, he had to admit, and he could see why other people would just want him for his looks...heck, he was so cute! But...underneath that shell of a man, the honey-eyed male could see a caring, loving, bubbly boy, who just needs someone to love him...

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Evans pouted slightly, even though his mouth was hidden by the plushie. “I don't know where to search... Everywhere I go there are only those stupid chicks who only think about makeup, parties and good-looking guys... There isn't anyone who would be anywhere near what she was...“ The blond whimpered softly as he held the bunny close to his lean, yet still slightly muscular body. “I don't want someone who'll party all the time... I want somebody who'll spend time with me...“ He said softly and rather sadly pressed his cheek against the bunny while his icy blue eyes gazed up at the other. “If I knew where to find someone like that, I probably wouldn't be here...“

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Truth be told, Kyou was a rather lonely person. He was always isolated, by himself, and his ex boyfriend recently broke up with him for a girl. Sighing quietly, the young doctor glanced at the blonde before he finally said, after a few moments of thinking,

"If you'd like me to, I can be your friend, and try to help you find someone suitable for you. I understand what you're going through because my ex-boyfriend broke up with me after seven years of dating for a lady named Rebecca. I just want to find the best for you, okay?"

He was making an offer that wasn't really...safe by his work. He knew that as a doctor, it wasn't wise to become close with patients...but Evans seemed different. Evans just needed someone to love, and Kyou wanted to help him.

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Evans had two different questions rising up in his mind when he heard the older man's words. “So... You're gay?..“ He asked quietly and tilted his head. The blond was simply curious... He didn't know a lot of gay guys anyway. The second question that he thought of was, "That Rebecca... By any chance... Is she a short, dark haired girl with green eyes? And a few blue highlights in her hair?“ Evans asked while clutching the stuffed toy closely. If it was the girl.... He and Kyou might have more to talk about... The girl he'd described was his ex-girlfriend. “And... I... I'd like it if you helped me out...“ The teen said with a faint blush before pulling his sleeves down again, completely hiding the bandages from anybody's eyes.

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"Yeah, I'm gay." Kyou said this with a rather flat tone in his voice, despite the fact that his eyes held most of his nervousness. "Yeah, she was an okay looking girl, he said how she was a lot more...peppy than me, and how charismatic she was...he said something about him and her meeting while she still had a boyfriend, and he apologized to me...he just...left. Of course it hurt, and I did love him, but I knew that I had to let him go to be able to move on with me life..." Warm honey eyes held a bit of a sad look in them before he glanced at the younger male.

"It probably doesn't mean much to you...but...I was kind of in your situation when I was about 19 years old....it's unprofessional...but...here..." Quietly, he rolled up his sleeve, to reveal scars on the inside of his arm and around his wrist. Offering up a sad smile, he then covered his arm again.

"Look...I just want to help you, because I know what you're going through..."

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Evans sniffled and bit his trembling lower lip, his shoulders shaking slightly. “...Rebecca was my girlfriend...“ He almost whispered out and buried his face into the bunny as two tears rolled down his cheeks. He hated letting others see him cry... The blond lightly raised his head to glance at the other when he began talking again... And he was surprised, no more than that. The teen gripped onto hiss own wrist as he stared at Kyou's scars with wide, slightly red and teary eyes. “I... Can I ask... What happened?..“ He asked quietly while trying to wipe off his tears.

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"Inari was my boyfriend at the time, and he was cheating on me the whole time with your girlfriend...I understand the pain that you went through, and I'm sorry for what had happened." said the auburn-haired man softly, tilting his glasses as a warm puff of air escaped his lips.

"I can offer you a hug...it goes against the rules I suppose, but you look like you need one." offered the honey-eyed man. If this wasn't his job, he'd be showing all of his emotions, but he couldn't, this was about the patient's time here, and trying to make them feel better,

"I cut myself when I was younger because of the fact that when I was 19, I was always harassed and beat up by others because of my sexuality, and I kind of just couldn't take it anymore...it's hard to explain." sighed the man with the glasses, not making full eye-contact with the blonde, as if he were ashamed of his past actions.

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Evans held the plushie close to himself and nodded slightly at the hug offer he heard. “I would like that...“ He muttered out as his ice blue eyes once again gazed up at Kyou. The teen sniffled softly and rested his chin on the head of the bunny as he listened and shook his head slightly. “I'm sorry to hear that... B-but I understand...“ The blond almost whispered out and sighed softly, turning his eyes to the ground before taking a bite of his chocolate. “It didn't happen to me, but my best friend is gay. He almost killed himself from all the pressure...“ Evans said quietly and sighed, his eyes still turned away.

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Offering the younger male a weak smile as he slowly got up from the black leather chair that he sat in, he sat down on the couch next to the blonde, and wrapped his arms around him rather tenderly, drawing him in against his chest, his hold rather plush and gentle. Kyou had very soft skin, which was noticeable due to the fact that he was wearing a short-sleeved button-up. His arms were wrapped around underneath the younger's chest, so that he wouldn't be touching the slits and open wounds on his arms.

"I'm sorry to hear that...nobody should be put under pressure like that due to their sexuality...somebody should be able to love whoever they please." sighed the auburn-haired man quietly, his own honey-colored eyes staring off into the corner of the room, "Is there anything else that you'd like to ask or talk about before I end the session with a little question game to get to learn more simple basics about you?"

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Evans sniffled softly and leaned into the other's touch eadily, without any discomfort showing in his movements. Lightly, the blond nuzzled his head into the warm body of Kyou as a small smile appeared on his face and his ice blue eyes slowly closed. This really felt nice... The teen listened to what his psychologist had to say and let out a small sigh before opening his eyes back up again. "No, just... I'll definitely come back here..." He said with a rosy blush on his cheeks as he hugged the bunny tightly and leaned into the older man's hands. The blue-eyed male smiled slightly and looked up at Kyou with gratefulness sparkling in his eyes. "What're the questions?" He asked with slight excitement, a little bit like a kid.

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Blushing softly as the younger of the two of them leaned into his touch, he made his grip on him the slightest bit firmer, and rested his head on the top of the blonde's head. He was...enjoying this. Kyou was the type of person who only occasionally enjoyed cuddles, and usually was really cuddly when he actually wanted them, and would probably do anything to be able to cuddle when he wanted to.

"Well, I'm flattered that you'd come back here and not want another psychologist." chuckled the auburn-haired male, his smoldering honey eyes warm looking when he chuckled and gave the younger male a rather toothy grin.

"Well, basically what I go through with every person who comes in here. Questions about your favorite things, and questions about what you dream of, and what you do for a living."