Our Secret Song (Bellala99 & Gatichan)

[Gatichan]

Seeing Dave rocking above him, his mouth opened in a silent cry that was interrupted by the throatiest and sexiest utterances ever, Jared could perfectly well understand why photos of Dave had landed up on the internet. Really, right then his lover was the picture of Seduction. With his long lashes closed, his pretty mouth open, his erection proudly slapping against his stomach and his back arched, it was becoming increasingly harder for Jared to remain simply lying there on his back, when what he’d really have loved to do would have been to shove Dave over backwards and fall onto him, humping him like a rabid dog.

 

Harder, faster, stronger. Jared grunted out in lust, his fingers squeezing Dave’s ever tighter as his fingers began to really dig into his lover’s hip. Even though it felt so good to be clasping Dave’s hand, made it feel as if he was holding him up and cherishing him, this wasn’t enough and letting go after he’d led Dave’s hand down to his chest, Jared gripped his lover’s other hip. Clinging to the slim hips like a vice, he drove Dave downwards harder, upsetting his lover’s rhythm in his desperation for their motions to become faster. He was fast reaching his climax and everything – Dave’s erotic face and his glistening cock tip, the sound of their slick bodies slapping against the other, the smell of their lovemaking and mingled sweat, the feel of Dave’s body against his…

 

And finally, Jared was rewarded with Dave’s pre-orgasm face. Finally, by having redirected Dave’s downward descent, he had finally managed to massage and hit the spot where his lover was most sensitive. Dave’s utterances made Jared’s eyes waver and he groaned out thickly, enticingly, sensually, so very, very close. “Hold onto my upper arms,” he gritted out huskily as with his left hand he continued to direct Dave’s body, his hips thrusting in and out wildly. With his right hand, he took a hold of Dave’s cock. Squeezing the cock head to encourage more of Dave’s pleasure to spill out, he led his wet fingers to his lips and greedily licked them up. “Cum for me, baby, cum for me,” he encouraged Dave as he began to rub his lover’s erection tightly.

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Dave felt the pain from his lover's fingers digging into his hip - yet he couldn't bring himself to care. Knowing that they would probably leave red bruises... That only turned him on even more, however weird it was. The teen let out a small whimper when Jared let go off his hand, but immediately thanked him mentally. The blond held his hand on the other's chest as he moaned loudly, his hair falling back on his shoulders as he threw his head back - this was definitely the most amazing sex he'd ever had. The way Jared drove him down harshly on his thick cock, the drummer's expression and the sounds coming from him - it all added up to a gigantic wave of pleasure that kept on washing over him.

 

When the other groaned out- such a sinfully delicious sound- Dave's back arched out into an ellegant bow. He could only obey when Jared told him to hold onto his upper arms - why wouldn't he listen anyway? He was far too into all this to even think about not listening... Each thrust now was dead-on to his prostate and the young singer felt like he was about to break - this was so much! And even so, he didn't want to stop. The blond's breathing hitched when he felt the taller male take hold of his cock - and then he almost screamed in pleasure. Definitely too much for him to handle...

 

The words that came from Jared's mouth were enough to send Dave over the edge. He slammed his hips downwards one last time before actually letting out a scream of pleasure and coming on both of their chests and stomachs. His muscles tensed up as he dug his nails a bit deeper into Jared's skin - they were probably going to leave marks... And he was damn glad about that. Jared was suppsed to be his now, and nobody else's... And everyone had to know that.

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In his delirious state, so close to finding release that he wanted to groan, cry out and sob at the same time, a whimper of need escaped through Jared’s lips as Dave found release. Seeing the actual moment when his lover came undone above him was something Jared swore to himself that he’d repeat over and over again- he could and never would get tired of seeing the perfect moment. And as Dave’s pleasure spilled out onto his body, hid boyfriend’s fingernails dug into his chest. The pain hurt, but it was oddly exquisite and suddenly Jared could stand no more.

 

Growling, his voice not sounding like his anymore as his toes curled up and his body heated up, warmer, warmer, hotter, too hot…Jared raised his torso, holding onto Dave’s hip as he continued to pump Dave’s arousal for more, insatiable. And then, his face changing as a furrow appeared between his eyebrows, Jared’s chest heaved and his eyes close as his curvy lips parted to let out Dave’s name as if in a prayer. Shuddering as he emptied himself out three times into Dave’s eager body, Jared fell backwards onto the couch like a ragdoll.

 

What a blissful moment. A slow, soft smile began to spread across Jared’s face as his hands stopped gripping Dave so insistently, his fingers becoming less claw-like as they caressed his lover’s skin and bottom sensitively. “Oh Dave,” he uttered, his smile widening as he simply enjoyed their intimate moment together. “Oh Dave…please, tell me you want to use me this way very often.” He opened his eyes to show that he had meant that as a joke, but just then a male voice called out from somewhere inside the apartment. “Jared? Jared!? Are you home?” And all at once, the perfect moment was gone and Jared’s eyes widened in horror. “Oh shit! That’s my dad!”

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Dave breathed out shakily and let out another soft moan at the other's cum filling his lower body. His hands suddenly felt weak as he almost collapsed on top of his boyfriend while letting out a soft, calm breath. The drummer's warm body felt so nice against his skin... If only they could stay like this forever. This thought made Dave slightly confused - just how in the world did he get this deep in with Jared?

 

The singer let out a soft chuckle at the other's words and pressed a light kiss against the taller's lips. "Any time..." He murmured out and was ready to close his eyes as he layed on the drummer's body, when he heard the voice and immediately, Jared's explanation. His blue eyes shot open as he quickly seated himself up, tossed Jared his clothes while already hurriedly pulling on his pants and a shirt, then grabbing a blanket to cover himself.

 

"Put on your pants, push the boxers somewhere under this couch." The singer hurriedly began explaining as he quickly combed through Jared's dark hair. "Shirt on, take a blanket and hide everything else. Hurry!" The blond quickly said as he pushed the clothes under the couch as he wrapped himself in a blanket and curled up, far enough from the drummer to seem that they were just friendly watching the movie. He'd been in situations like this with his own dad - if Jared worked quick enough, he wouldn't suspect a thing. Trevor started barking just then and Dave immediately reached out to calm him down. "Hey, hey, shhhh..."

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For a horrible moment, Jared simply froze up in horror. That he had homosexual tendencies didn’t frighten or alarm him one bit, but he knew all too well that his father had a very strong opinion on this subject. Before his mind’s eye, Jared saw his father entering the cinema, catching him and Dave in their intimate, passionate lock and the next image that appeared before his mind’s eye was that he was being slapped, kicked, yelled at and then there was Dave, cowering the corner, afraid of Jared’s father and Jared being totally incapable of defending his lover.

 

But then Dave sprung into action, whispering out commands and that got Jared moving. Groping on the floor for his pants, Jared tried to get into them, but the left leg was partly inside out and he wasted some valuable minutes trying to get his leg through. By then Trevor had begun to bark, excited or confused by the sudden commotion. Swearing under his breath, his heart beating wildly, Jared finally succeeded in shoving his foot through. Pulling his shirt over as well, he kicked his boxer shorts under the couch and taking up the second blanket, threw himself down on the other side of the couch completely. “Jared!?” His father’s voice sounded closer this time and the drummer quickly leaned forward, snatched up the popcorn bowl and stuffing a handful into his mouth, called something unintelligible back.

 

His eyes turned to inspect Dave, relieved when his boyfriend reached over to rearrange his hair again. Once again it struck Jared as odd how calm and relaxed his boyfriend was in that situation, while Jared’s heart was in his throat and his stomach churned nauseously against the food in his mouth. Dave quickly leaned back as footsteps stopped outside the movie theater and a thought suddenly struck Jared: could it be that this wasn’t the first time his lover had encountered this situation? But just then the door flew open and the lights were flipped on. Blinking against the sudden brightness, Jared squinted as he swallowed. “Aw dad, what are you doing?” he asked, exasperated, hoping his voice sounded normal as he reached out a shaky hand to once again stuff his dry mouth with popcorn.

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Dave let out a soft wince at the sudden lights and covered his eyes with one arm before sighing softly and moving the arm away to look at the man. He had to squint a bit to actually see the man... And for some reason, he felt as nervous and scared as ever. If he did something wrong, his relationship with Jared would be over. He probably wouldn't see him ever again... And maybe he himself would pay for this. The blond still couldn't help but find it a bit weird that Jared's dad was a wealthy, rich man.... It just didn't suit the drummer - unless he'd be wearing a costume. That'd be hot no matter how you looked at it.

 

The teen then let out a smile as he raised himself up a bit, keeping the blanket on his chest where he could feel the cum staining his shirt. "Ah, are you mr. Knox?" He asked with a small smile as he glanced at Trevor and sighed, patting its head to calm him down. "Sorry, it probably got confused from the movie..." He explained calmly as he took the puppy into his hands and turned back to look at the other's father with his heart racing fast - though he didn't show it. Now wasn't the time to show nervousness or fear.

 

When something like this happened with his father, slowly Dave learned to try and act calm, as if nothing happened. His partner would be really upset later - but it was better than getting beaten up. Though obviously, he wasn't able to be close to his boyfriend when his father would find them, so... He always felt scared. Yet here it was really important that the drummer's dad didn't realize anything - he didn't want to do anything to make Jared suffer.

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Jared stared at his father as Dave half got up. For a crazy moment, Jared felt the impulse to scream “sit down, you’re naked!!” but swallowed it down, along with the rest of his unwanted popcorn. To him, Dave acted perfectly natural, but still, Jared was paralyzed. Groping at least for the remote control, he froze the film, sneaking a glance up at the screen to know what had even happened. Seeing that Sandra Bullock and Bill Pullman were walking home from the New Year’s Eve party that latter had ruined for former, he cleared his voice, just as his father began to speak.

 

“Hello there. I don’t believe we’ve met before,” he said, sending Jared a pointed look that had Jared sitting up straighter. His father was dressed in a pin-striped suit. Jared hadn’t come out looking anything like him- the only feature they shared were their height and hair color- in all else, Jared resembled his mother. Forcing a smile onto his lips, Jared nodded towards Dave. “That’s Dave Thornton, dad. You know- the lead singer of my band. Dave, my dad,” he added as an afterthought, sneaking his boyfriend a nervous smile. Turning back to his father, he continued, praying that his voice wouldn’t wobble. “Sorry, did you want to use the home theater? I thought you’d be with Zoe in Europe for a while. Dave and I were just hanging out- it’s our free day and-”

 

“And whose dog is that?” his father demanded to know, glaring at the puppy as if it were a criminal who had been about to steal all the valuables inside the Knox’s safe. “I thought I made myself clear after your last dog died that I didn’t want you bringing anymore mutts here.” Jared opened his mouth, but then closed it. Why was he even surprised that his father didn’t care about him or his friend, but only wanted to know that his prized carpet and expensive furniture didn’t get pooped on. Feeling his cheeks turn red, he answered back as politely as he could, wanting to defend Trevor for Dave’s sake. “Trevor was seriously wounded in an accident and can hardly walk. As you can see, we laid out paper here. He was perfectly calm until you came along…he must have sensed evilness approaching,” he couldn’t quite help himself from spitting out, reaching over to protectively caress the puppy’s head.

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Dave felt like his heart was about to burst out of his chest as he stared up at the other's father. He let out a small smile when he was introduced and nodded politely at the man. For now everything seemed fine... Except for the fact that his shirt was stained with his own cum and then something that made him really uncomfortable - Jared's cum slowly dripping from his body and onto his pants. He had no idea how was he going to deal with this... Unless he got some new clothes, he couldn't leave his boyfriend's house. No way in hell he was going to walk around with cum in his pants.

 

The singer breathed out softly and glanced at the drummer, fear showing itself in his blue eyes. When he heard the question coming from Jared father in such a firm tone, he unconsciously hugged Trevor closer as he let his boyfriend explain- and chuckled himself before shaking his head. “I'm sorry, Trevor has never watched a movie. I think this is a bit scary to him.“ Dave said softly as he scratched the puppy behind its ears.

 

Dave couldn't help but think about what would happen if the other's father found out about what his son was doing. He'd risk getting thrown out of the house! The blond didn't want anything bad to happen because of him. Quietly, he tucked a few hair strands behind his hair - he always did it when he was nervous. His blue eyes showed a bit of worry no matter how much he tried to push it away. He could only beg nothing bad happened.

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Jared knew the last remark had been a bit too much, but defiantly maintained his father’s gaze. It was obvious that his father was highly displeased with him, yet out of courtesy towards Dave, he wasn’t going to make a scene. “Zoe is downstairs- we were just about to unload the car and bring our things upstairs. Her mother and sister are here, so if you wouldn’t mind, please clear out the cinema and go upstairs into your part of the house. And please take that dog- ” He said the word as if it greatly disgusted him. “-along with you and make sure it doesn’t…defecate anywhere.” After a further curt nod, Jared’s father left the movie theater, sending his son a warning look.

 

As soon as the door was closed, Jared let out the breath that he had been holding. Jumping to his feet, he began to place the food trays he and Dave had prepared, trying to balance it all over the popcorn bowl. “Come on Dave- I’m so sorry you had to see that, but my father and I have an…Ice Age relationship,” he apologized as he leaned over to kiss his boyfriend and then Trevor, who had begun to whimper again in a most pitying way. “Just wrap the blanket tightly around you and hide our underwear underneath the blanket- we can shower upstairs and I’ll give you new clothes.”

 

Waiting until Dave had arranged himself as best he could, Jared pushed open the door. A female’s voice could be heard from downstairs and he made a disgusted face. Ushering his boyfriend towards the staircase, he whispered for Dave to move faster. Once they’d reached his floor again, Jared slammed and locked the door shut. “So! This way we’ll be by ourselves and no one can bother us,” he promised Dave with a relieved smile. “Just leave Trevor’s basket here in the hall- I’ll take our food to my bedroom and then join you inside the shower, okay?” he suggested, kissing Dave’s lips again.

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Dave squeezed out a smile at what the other's father said and nodded as he breathed out softly, hugging Trevor close when the man spat out the word 'dog'. He couldn't help but notice that his own hands were trembling slightly and he could feel a drop of sweat rolling down the back of his neck... With Jared's father it was so much different than with his own. Only when the man left did the singer finally take in a deep breath and closeed his eyes before letting out a weak smile at Jared. "It's okay... Still better than my relationship with my father." He said with a slight smile as he slowly stood up, keeping the blanket around his body and shivering at the feeling of cum being squeezed to his chest. Ew...

 

The teen quietly fished out their underwear from the couch and hid them underneath his blanket, pressing them to his body with one hand as he took Trevor's basket into the other hand and started following his boyfriend with a slightly disgusted expression on his face. Once the door was closed, the singer threw the blanket and his shirt off, shivering in disgust slightly. "Eww... Cum does not feel good when it's pressed up to your body. And cold." He mumbled out with a pout as he looked at Jared and sighed, yet kissed back nevertheless, putting his hands on the drummer's face to hold the moment for a bit longer...

 

A soft smile was on his face when he finally pulled away and let out a small chuckle. "Alright, don't take too long~" He said softly as he smiled and ran a hand over his hair before looking around, then back at Jared. "Uhm... Where's the bathroom?" He asked with a goofy smile. Once he received the answer, Dave smiled and lightly kissed Jared's cheek before walking off there, tossing his pants away and quickly getting into the shower. Once the water was started, Dave glanced down at his bandaged hand and sighed. He probably shouldn't take this off... With that thought, the blond started to quickly get the cum out of his hole while keeping the injured arm out of the water's reach. He didn't want Jared to see - who knew just what might follow... This was enough for today.

[Gatichan]

Jared smiled against Dave’s lips, glad that his boyfriend hadn’t taken offense from his father insensitive father. “The bathrooms behind you, second door on the right,” he responded, unable to prevent himself from reaching around to gently squeeze one of Dave’s butt cheeks. “Mm,” he murmured as Dave stripped properly and walked off, his naked body with races of their rushed lovemaking making his own body tingle. He really wouldn’t mind seeing more of a naked Dave walking around his apartment as if it were the most natural thing in the world.

 

Glancing down at the food he’d prepared, he sighed. What a waste. Well, maybe he and Dave could still sit down on his bed and eat together before it was time for Dave to leave and return home. Somehow, the thought of being parted from his boyfriend didn’t appeal to him one bit. As he laid the food down on his bed and then returned to fetch Tervor’s basket, anticlimax filled him. What if, the moment he went home and was alone, Dave began to cut himself again? What if, after they’d spent the night apart, Dave began to think that he was a slut again or that he had somehow done something that made him undeserving? Jared didn’t want to think back on that again, but the thought refused to push itself away.

 

Would he be going too far if he asked Dave to sleep over that night? They had band practice, as well as an interview at their music company the following morning. Jordan and Kevin wouldn’t react stupidly if he and Dave showed up together- once in a while, no one would get suspicious. But would Dave believe he was being overbearing? The last thing Jared wanted was for him and Dave to get into a fight. Deciding that he’d wait to see how his boyfriend was feeling after they’d showered together and eaten, Jared removed his own clothes. Curling them up into a ball and tossing them into his basket for his cleaning lady to retrieve, he entered the bathroom and joined Dave under the shower.

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Dave had just finished getting the nasty cum out of his hole when Jared joined him in the shower. With a soft smile on his face, the singer leaned against the warm body as he breathed out softly and closed his eyes. "Hey, can you help me wash up a bit? I don't really want to ruin the bandages..." He said quietly as he reached out and took the other's hand with his own uninjured one. "Please?"

 

The blond then slowly opened his blue eyes and stared into the wall in front of him before gently squeezing the hand he was holding. "Say... I enjoyed this. Well, not your father coming, but.... Y'know.... What happened before that..." The singer mumbled quietly as his cheeks slowly reddened and he glanced down at his feet. "...Do you think that could happen again sometime?" Dave asked softly as he timidly glanced up at his boyfriend, a shy smile on his face. His blue eyes shone with bits of hope as he waited for his answer, still gently holding the strong, bigger hand in his own.

 

Right now, the teen wasn't even close to thinking about cutting... It was far too good to be thinking about dark stuff like that... Though the roll of bandages and the razor blade were still tossed out somewhere in the cinema. "J-Jared. Remember... Remember what you found in my pocket?... I, uhm... I forgot to take them back- I mean, to toss them out... They're still in the cinema." Dave said with worry in his voice as he turned around to look at the dark-haired male. "Can you please go take them afterwards?" He asked softly, a small smile on his face. "And... Toss them out?"

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Jared had only just closed his eyes and raised his face to meet the warm spray from above when Dave nestled into his body and asked in a sweetly shy voice if Jared would greatly mind washing him. The tingling sensation in his body became stronger as he entwined his fingers with his boyfriend’s. “Of course I wouldn’t mind, baby,” he responded, taking Dave’s earlobe between his front teeth and nibbling it gently. “But don’t complain if I take ages to properly wash you,” he teased.

 

Jared continued to hold onto his boyfriend’s hand, sensing somehow that Dave needed it. Reaching out with his free hand, Jared awkwardly tried to open his shower gel and fill his hand with it. Dave quietly continued to speak, sagely indicating, it seemed, that he was a bit surprised about how he had enjoyed the peaceful and then steamy afternoon. Jared smiled as he moved Dave’s hand upwards and backwards so that it was wrapped around Jared’s neck. Once it was securely there, Dave began to wash his hands with the shower gel, mixing it well so that his hands were covered in the gel and could glide easily over Dave’s skin. Placing his prepared hands on Dave’s lower stomach, he kissed his boyfriend deeply. “I also enjoyed our afternoon together, honey. It was my first proper date with you and it was lovely. Do you mean you want us to have more dates like today?” he asked, nuzzling his nose against Dave’s neck as his hands slowly began to wash in circles around his boyfriend’s stomach and chest.

 

Jared stopped as he picked up his orange sponge, hearing Dave’s last question. He had also completely forgotten about the bandages and razor blade. Oh God, if his father found them…would he even react? Would he even care? Probably not. It surprised him that Dave was asking him to get rid of his cutting utensils so soon. That told him that Dave probably trusted him…didn’t it? Jared carefully began to rinse his boyfriend’s body off, turning Dave around to be able to tend properly to Dave’s back, applying more pressure as he positioned Dave in such a way that the water massage the soap suds off. “Yes, I will. Are you…sure that it’s okay? I wouldn’t want to give you the feeling that you have to unless you’re really sure about it.” Covering his hands in shower gel again, Jared knelt down. Taking Dave’s left foot he raised it up to wash it tenderly. Taking a deep breath, he decided to take the plunge. “Dave…would you like to sleep over tonight?”

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Dave let out a few satisfied hums as the other began washing his body. The soft touches were nice to his skin, and knowing that it was Jared just made it all better. The young singer let out a chuckle as he shook his head. "I don't mind if we spend a lot of time here... It's warm, and... I'm with you." The teen said with the blush deepening slightly as he smiled and kissed back his boyfriend when he received the deep kiss... It felt great - passionate and a bit needy, yet loving and relaxing at the same time. The perfect combination... And the question actually made him chuckle softly. "If your dad doesn't do the same thing again, sure." He teased softly as he smiled and gently pressed his head against the firm chest.

 

Hearing Jared this uncertain about tossing away the blade and the bandages made the blond bite his lip slightly. "Well... Actually... Maybe don't toss them out for now... I-I'll keep them with me for now... Okay?" The singer asked a bit uncertainly as he looked up at the other and sighed out. "I might've found something to do instead of cutting... But, well, I'm not too sure yet." He said quietly as he smiled at his boyfriend and closed his eyes for the time being.

 

"Sleep over? You mean, I can?" He asked with the smile getting wider as he chuckled and wrapped his hands tightly around Jared's neck. "I'd love to!" The blond said excitedly as he smiled widely. Now, in the shower where the lighting wasn't half-bad, all his scars were seen... And none of them stopped him from smiling. He'd managed to put them away for now - as long as he was with Jared, he felt quite safe... The other proved to be able to not start yelling at anything that was connected with cutting - Dave felt that Jared actually understood...

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“How about a compromise?” Jared suggested as his hands increased their pressure the higher up his boyfriend’s leg he went, running his fingers over the inner thighs and tickling the underside of Dave’s balls. “Why don’t I just keep your razor blade here at my place? Don’t understand me wrong, baby,” he hurried to explain as he lowered Dave’s foot and placed the other one on his knees, soaking it thoroughly with shower gel before massaging it with his sponge. “Maybe if you kept the razor blade, the impulse to cut yourself could become stronger than your resolve. But if you felt the urge, you could call me and I’d know. And then, maybe, I’d be able to help you. Would you like to give it a try?” he asked as he finally allowed himself to take a hold of Dave’s member.

 

Holding and cherishing Dave there under the shower, just the two of them, naked, even though they weren’t kissing, simply standing beneath a jet of water, was also a wonderfully intimate moment for Jared. Smiling softly as he rubbed, massaged and dropped more shower gel onto Dave’s member, he really took his time there. Kissing the cock head as he moved it upwards to let water caress it, Jared used both his hands to move up and down the shaft, hoping that Dave was enjoying the intimate caresses as much as he was enjoying giving them. His face was close to the scars on his boyfriend’s thighs and he nuzzled his nose tenderly against them, running his tongue over the scars, wishing he could erase them from Dave’s beautiful body, erase them from his lover's mind.

 

When Dave excitedly replied that he’d love to stay over, Jared crushed his face against Dave’s groin, kissing his boyfriend intimately again. He felt so relieved- it was as if an enormous boulder had been lifted from his shoulders. “Of course you can stay over, Dave! This top floor is for me and only for me. And now that my father has his current girlfriend over, he won’t care about what I’m doing or who is visiting. Up here, we’d be perfectly on our own and no one will bother us,” he replied, standing up so that he could kiss his boyfriend again. Holding onto one of Dave’s butt cheeks, he pulled it slightly apart so that he could rinse the tender skin in between, continuing to kiss his lover longingly. Smiling at Dave excitedly, Jared’ skin once again tingled. “We could walk around my apartment naked and no one would say anything…” he winked.

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Dave let out a soft sigh as he shook his head and closed his eyes, letting the other wash his body. "I don't think that'd work." He muttered out quietly as he sighed softly and put one hand on the wall to keep himself up - and it was most certainly a good idea since his boyfriend decided that it was just about time to grab his cock. His breathing hitched and shuddered as he put his hands on the other's shoulders, biting down on his lower lip with his cheeks red. All this attention was making his length erect again...

 

A rather loud whimper left the teen's mouth as Jared crushed his face against his cock... His knees shook as he bit down on his bottom lip harder, the young singer let out a small whimper and puffed out his cheeks before lightly slapping the drummer's face - not hard, just enough to get his attention. "Careful, would you? How would you feel if I punched you there?!?" Dave asked with a frown as he huffed and pouted. That was enough for his slowly growing erection to simply disappear... Ouch.

 

The singer sighed out softly as he pressed his chin up against the firm chest and closed his eyes. "That's it, you're gonna carry me around for the rest of the day." He said firmly as he huffed and brought his arms around the taller man's neck. "And... Please don't do anything like that for now... One time is enough, y'know." The man said softly, quietly as he kept his blue eyes closed, holding onto his boyfriend slightly. "Just, don't let go."

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That sure came like a slap to Jared’s face. He’d been so happy that Dave had agreed to stay, when everything he’d heard from his boyfriend up to then had been “no, not this” and “no, not that” and “I’ll cut myself again” and “don’t push”. Jared had been prepared to place his hand in the fire that Dave was going to reject his offer to sleep over. And then, when he honestly and happily kissed his boyfriend intimately, Dave went all soft and useless. Jared didn’t understand the world anymore and found Dave’s command to be carried around the whole day, paired with his princess-like manner of decreeing that sex once a day was enough a total turnoff.

 

And the irony, Jared thought as Dave expectantly looked up at him, seeming to seriously believe that Jared was going to play his mule for the remainder of his stay at Jared’s house. Had Dave been this strict with his former boyfriends who had used and abused him? Probably not. Had he been that squeamish when it came to sexual activities? Judging by the rakish way he had dealt with his father having almost walked in on them, Dave had a lot of experience when it came to such situations and this added more insult to injury. Jared lowered his arms from around Dave’s body and taking a step back, shook his head.

 

“No Dave, I won’t carry you around,” he stated quietly, but firmly clear. “I’m not your bodyguard and I’m not your horse or dog- I’m your boyfriend. Aside from that, you’re here at my house, so please don’t treat me like the guest. I want you to feel comfortable here, but I’m not your drudge.” Taking Dave’s hand, he switched the shower head off and opening the door, stepped out with Dave, handing him the largest towel. “I’ll go fetch you some extra clothes- be right back,” he said, suddenly needing to get away from Dave and his unforeseeable mood swings.

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Dave blinked a few times as he heard his boyfriend say that he wouldn't carry him around in such a serious way. His jaw dropped slightly as he stared at the drummer and his eyes slowly widened - he'd done it wrong again! Of course he had to ruin everything again... The singer took a small step back while lightly biting his lower lip as he just quietly listened. His blue eyes seemed to be close to tearing up, but... Then he realized there was no point for that. The blond just shut out all emotions as he nodded faintly. “Okay, I'm sorry.“ He said quietly as he stepped out of the shower.

 

The teen took the towel quietly, pushing away the sadness that was gathering in his heart. Jared didn't need him making the situation any worse anyway. The young singer breathed out softly as he wrapped the towel around him and glanced over at the mirror. He looked terrible... Once Jared was gone, Dave started slowly drying himself. Would Jared still want him to sleep over? Maybe he should leave? Or would that make Jared even more... Angry? Upset? Dave couldn't put his finger on which emotion it was.

 

The blond sighed softly to himself as he wrapped the towel tightly around himself once more, standing there in the bathroom and feeling alone - yet he tried his best not to show it. Dave knew he was a mess, he knew he was far too hard to deal with and he knew that Jared would get tired and annoyed - if he wasn't already. The singer let out a soft sigh as he slowly sat down on the toilet seat. By just waiting here for the drummer to get his clothes, he probably seemed like a bitch - an attention whore, even! Yet, he couldn't help it... Dave first felt attention and softness like this - it was hard not to use it.

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As he gathered up new clothes for Dave, Jared breathed out calmly again. Somehow, trying to have a serious conversation when he was face to face with Dave’s delectable groin wasn’t the best idea. And now that he had had some time to think, Jared turned what had happened over again and analyzed the situation once more. Dave was his first boyfriend after all, and he still had a lot to learn, whereas Dave had already experienced a lot more and probably expected Jared to know better.

 

Okay yes, so Dave had had more boyfriends than him- so what? Did that make him a bad person? Certainly not. If anything, that only showed that Dave had needed to find someone who would love him and give him the attention that his family hadn’t been able to give him and he deserved. Thinking back to his own relationship to his parents, Jared had to admit that a part of him could understand Dave perfectly. After all, his own father was hardly ever around and when he was, he only gave Jared the feeling that he was disappointed in him and expected a lot more. If it hadn’t been for Mary and a handful of really good friends, who was to say that Jared wouldn’t have taken the same road?

 

He’d been too harsh on Dave, that was clear now. Standing up and patting a pair of rolled up white socks onto the sweatshirt he’d selected for himself, Jared hastened back to the bathroom, feeling like a monster when he saw his boyfriend’s sad, lonely face. Kneeling down and placing the clothes onto Dave’s knees, Jared lifted his face to Dave’s and kissed it gently. “I’m sorry, I’m an imbecile. I was just so happy that you wanted to stay over that I ruined your arousal. And I’m not asking you to stay over to only have sex with you- all I want is to spend time with you and cuddle and have an excuse to hold you. I wish I’d voiced my need in another way, but this is how I feel.” His green eyes were sad as he took Dave’s hands in his. “Do you understand what I mean?”

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Dave had his eyes closed as he ran a hand over his wet hair - he was trying to shut down all emotion, he was trying to feel nothing, yet he seemed to be failing anyway. Tears were filling up his eyes under the closed lids as he took in a shaky breath - then the door opened and his boyfriend came in. Trying not to show that he was being the same bitch again, Dave straightened up... Yet all that faltered when he received that soft kiss from his boyfriend. Soft, gentle, warm and loving - it made Dave's heart warm up no matter how upset he actually was.

 

A small, soft smile was on his face as he listened and lightly shook his head as he put one hand on the other's cheek, lightly stroking it. "I understand... But there's nothing you should be sorry for - I mean, I'm probably one of the worst choices for you to be with... And yet here you are, still worrying... Still trying to help..." The blond said quietly with a sad smile as he tightly wrapped his hands around the taller male's neck, pulling him close while biting his lip to fight off the tears.

 

"I really... I really don't want to lose you..." He almost whispered out as he held Jared close, tears welling up in his eyes, yet he still tried to shake them off. "I'm sorry..." The singer said quietly as finally, a small tear managed to escape and rolled down his cheek, yet the man quickly wiped it off and took in a deep, shaky breath. "C-Can I still stay over?.." The blond asked quietly, clearly afraid and uncertain. What if Jared said no? He would spend the say alone in his big, empty house... He didn't want that. He really didn't want that at all.

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Jared’s heart fluttered as Dave reached out to caress his cheek softly. The gesture was so sweet that Jared leaned into the hand, nuzzling his cheek against it and sighing softly. He could clearly see that his boyfriend was fighting his tears, so he turned his head to kiss Dave’s hand sweetly. Hearing what Dave was saying, Jared’s eyes flew open with indignation and he shook his head adamantly, reaching out to take Dave’s face in between his hands.

 

“Dave, that’s not true. Please, stop saying that- you’re not the worst possible thing that could have happened to me. I love you, already forgotten that, silly? I don’t want to lose you either, Dave. But we’re both going to need some time before we figure out how to best cope with your needing to cut yourself and my not knowing how to prevent it. But let’s stop worrying about the future and just concentrate on the moment. Yes, of course you can sleep over- I want you to sleep over at my place. Just the thought of you returning to that house of yours, where you’d be all alone…that makes my heart ache. You and Trevor have to stay.”

 

Standing up and feeling much better that Dave had given him the time to explain himself, Jared took in a deep breath, letting it out slowly. A huge weight had been lifted from his shoulders and reaching for the first garment, he held it out to Dave. “I hope you find something to fit you. I’m a little taller than you, but that shouldn’t be a problem,” he said grinned, scratching the back of his head. “Here’s my deo- tonight you can also use my new toothbrush,” he offered, turning a little pink. Was it just him, or was this really exciting that Dave would be sleeping over and from that night onwards, Jared would be able to keep something from his boyfriend there with him always?

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Dave slowly got a shy smile on his face which turned into a wider one while his boyfriend continued talking. He wiped off the tears in his eyes while sniffling softly, hoping not to start sobbing - this time he actually made it. His blue eyes showed both love and sadness as he listened and let out a weak chuckle before lightly pressing his lips against Jared's. “I love you too...“ He said softly as he smiled, the few last tears gathering and Dave didn't manage to hold them in - they rolled down his cheeks while he let out a small laugh and shook his head. “S-Sorry...“

 

The blond smiled as he wiped off the tears again, looking up at his boyfriend with big, soft blue eyes. He slipped on the clothes and chuckled at how the shirt hung loosely on his body. It was so comfortable... “Hey... Could you give me a sweater or something like that? Please?..“ The singer asked softly as he nervously tucked a few hair strands behind his ear again. Was he asking for too much? He just got cold easily - and often got sick as well. With wet hair and a shirt with nothing else, it wouldn't take long for him to catch a cold... The teen blinked a few times as he sneezed and shook his head as if to get rid of the feeling. His expression was rather cute -almost confused as he rubbed his nose and let out a chuckle. “I don't wanna get sick... Any chance you have a hair dryer?“

 

Dave smiled once more as he gently wrapped his hands back around the other's neck and lightly nuzzled his head into his chest. “I have to repay you somehow...“ He muttered out with a smile as he hugged Jared tightly. The singer was trying his hardest not to think about anything like cutting or making his boyfriend sad in any other possible way. He really hated it... And he was starting to hate himself for causing it. “And also... Is Mary still coming?“ Maybe talking with a person who'd know just what was happening would help him...

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Dave poked his head out the neck of his T-shirt, laughing quietly inside his head at Dave’s adorably confused expression. Why did basically everything Dave do seem so cute to him? It had to be because he was so deeply in love with the lead singer of his band. “Of course I can get you a sweater. Just come into my bedroom with me and you can select one yourself,” he suggested, taking his boyfriend’s hand and swinging it slightly as he led the way back into his bedroom. Opening the lower left cupboard across from his bed, he stepped back to show Dave the neatly folded piles there. “Help yourself.”

 

He turned towards his radio as Dave sneezed. “Oh! Bless you,” he responded, chuckling somewhat. “I hope you don’t get a cold, love. Well, and if you do, I guess I’ll just have to nurse you back to health,” he shrugged, his heart fluttering at the thought of sitting beside his boyfriend’s bed and feeding him soup, changing the cold, damp towel on his forehead and reading him something to help Dave fall asleep. When he heard Dave tell him that he needed to do something for hi, Jared shook his head adamantly. “No, you don’t have to, Dave. I just want to have you here near me- that’s all I need. And I want you to try and work with this cutting business. But I’ll help you in any way I can.

 

Mary? Oh sh- I completely forgot,” he admitted, slapping his forehead as he pulled out his cell phone. “She’ll probably be over any minute now. Well, we’ll eat together and then maybe the two of you could talk? Ah- the doorbell, that must be her,” Jared smiled, hurrying out the room. Pressing the buzzer beside the elevator door, he impatiently sent the elevator down into the garage, waiting for it to come back up with his cousin. Three minutes later it chimed and as the door opened, Jared’s smile widened even more when his red-haired cousin beamed back at him and engulfed him in a happy hug. “Mary! I’m glad you’re here- come with me; I want you to meet someone very special to me.”

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Dave smiled softly as he lightly squeezed the other's hand while he was being lead into his bedroom. He couldn't help but enjoy the warmth that he was getting from the seemingly simple touch... His blue eyes shone in graditude as he glanced at his boyfriend and smiled softly. "Thanks~" He said softly as he crouched down to pick out one - finally deciding on the one he thought would be the warmest. It was a simple, white woolen sweater - the blond immediately put it on and almost purred out at the amazing feeling - it even smelled like Jared! That was definitely a plus..

 

The blond rubbed his nose as he looked at the taller male, the over-sized sweater hanging on his lean body loosely as he pouted slightly. "But I really should help out somehow..." He mumbled out with the same pout as he sighed and plopped down on the bed, letting a small chuckle at how he bounced slightly from it. He tilted his head to one side when the other said he'd forgotten about Mary and let out a soft laugh. "Okay, okay, that's good with me~" He said softly, with a warm smile on his face. It was so nice knowing that Jared truly cared - made him feel that tingling sensation in his chest again... He liked it for sure.

 

The blue-eyed male watched quietly how the other sent the elevator down - he was starting to feel slightly nervous. He decided to stand up when he saw that the elevator was coming back and a bit awkwardly stood behind the dark-haired male when the door opened and a girl hugged his boyfriend - all he saw was a pile of red hair. Dave let out a small, nervous smile as he tilted his head and blinked. "Hey- I'm Dave." He said with a smile as he extended his arm for the girl - he wasn't too sure what to do, o be honest. This felt really awkward to him...

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Mary took one look at Dave…and let out a scream. “AAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!” she cried, beginning to fan her face crazily. “Jared, J-A-R-E-D!! That’s Dave freaking Thornton!” she gulped, her eyes going wide like that of a fangirl’s. Jared let out a booming laugh. “Mary, you knew that I jammed with him-” His cousin hit his arm lightly. “Yeah, but this is the first time I’ve actually met a real celebrity,” she whispered out reverently, her eyes wide as she stared at Dave and then a pretty smile appeared on her face as she stepped forward and hugged Dave tightly. “I’m Mary, J-J’s cousin. Oh, you have no idea how pleased I am to meet you- I really hope that you and J-J stay together forever and ever,” she gushed, stepping back to smile at Dave genuinely again.

 

Jared breathed out in relief. He and Mary had known each other for years and what she thought was very important to him. Of course he had known that she was a fan of his music, but it was another thing entirely to have her meet and approve of Dave being his boyfriend. Slipping an arm around Dave’s waist and kissing his cheek, Jared nodded towards his bedroom. “We’ve prepared some snacks to eat. Come eat with us- we have something we wanted to ask you about,” he admitted, leading the way.

 

leading the way.

Mary didn’t waste a minute. She’d hardly sat down on Dave’s other side before she giggled. “Dave, you sure look like you’re swimming in J-J’s clothes, that’s really sweet. So, when did the two of you realize you had the hots for each other? Who else knows?” she inquired, bunching up her long red hair and tying it up in a ponytail, looked from one to the other. “I can’t imagine Uncle T knows- he’s such an asshole,” she confided in Dave with a roll of his eyes. “He’s never supposed to find out about J-J’s being gay, but my parents both know and fully support him. You have to meet them sometime, too- we love J-J to bits. My parents love him as if he were my baby brother or something. What about you, Dave? Does your family know about your preferences?”