My Demonic Slave (Bellala99 and Pigeon)

[Kotorichan]

Lousal gently rubbed the demon's back as he threw up. "sh... calm down Tartaros... just take a deep breath" he murmured, holding him closer. "I did it because I knew you weren't going to just listen to me... you've made it clear that you don't really love me, you just have that bond thing..." he looked away with a frown. "you were going to keep seeing Thomas... and then he wouldn't just steal you from me, he'd do horrible things to you and he'd hurt you more than I ever have..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros sniffled softly as he looked at Lousal with teary eyes, his lower lip trembling. He had a horrible taste in his mouth... "What makes you so sure he'd hurt me?" The demon snapped, however even more tears appeared in his eyes. "From what I've seen... He only wants what's best for me.." The blond whispered, his body slumping slightly as he shuddered. "...I'm cold." He muttered out, letting out a shaky breath. Truly; he felt awful.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal gently picked the demon up and carried him towards the bathroom. "let's get you cleaned up..." he sighed. He started a bath and sat down on the floor as the tub filled up. "He acts like he only wants the best... but it's not true... I don't know what he's told you but I know that he likes to mix lies with the truth and make it hard for people to figure out the differences... I've met some people that he got tired of and it's... it's worst than what I do..." he shook his head. "but you don't believe me about any of this do you? that's why I had to hurt you..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros dug his nails into the other's shoulders as he was carried, pressing his shaking body close to Lousal. "I don't believe you." He whispered, biting down onto his lip. "What did he do to them?" He still asked, his breathing shaky. Silently, he begged for Lousal to not put the collar back on. His skin, for whatever reason, wasn't able to regenerate itself. There was a clear burnt out mark on his neck, the meat showing. The slightest touch on it hurt like hell. "You didn't have to hurt me. You wanted to hurt me." The demon whispered, honestly scared at the moment.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal felt anger building up in his chest again. He practically dropped the demon into the tub, not caring if it hurt. "See? Isn't that proof enough that I had to hurt you?" He snapped, turning the water off. "You don't trust me, you don't love me, if I had tried to talk to you then you would have laughed it off or attacked me. I don't want you to be in pain but you're not giving me any fucking choice"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

A pained wince left Tartaros' mouth when his body hit the tub. His eyes filled back up with tears as he drew his knees to his chest, looking away. He didn't know what in the world he was supposed to say now. Though he tried to stop, soft hiccups still left his mouth, making his body shudder with each one. He wasn't even angry, he was simply scared. It hurt; everything hurt, and he didn't know what to do. All he knew was that Lousal was scaring the shit out of him.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal got out a first aid kit and crouched down next to the tub. He poured some rubbing alcohol on a cotton ball. "This is going to sting" he muttered before pressing it to the wound to disinfect it. "Well? Aren't you going to throw a fit about how I'm a horrible person?"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros winced again as the alcohol was used to desinfect his wound. Seeing as it went over his whole neck, the demon was barely able to take it. "Why?" He only said this to the other's question. There wasn't a need to say that if he already knew.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal carefully disinfected the whole wound before grabbing a roll of guaze. "Because you hate me, and I'm sire you still think that I just love to hurt you" he firmly wrapped the guaze around the demon's neck and sat back down on the floor. "Maybe you should go off and find that monster again, that's probably what you're planning to do as soon as I turn my back."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"You make it seem so. It looks like you adore hurting me." Tartaros replied quietly,his body tensing up as gaze was wrapped around the wound. "Thomas is no bigger monster than you." the demon said and looked up at Lousal, his lip trembling. "Actually, you may just be a bigger monster than him."

[Kotorichan]

Lousal grit his teeth and pulled away. "Why the hell am I even trying to help you? You stupid fucking whore!" Lousal slammed his fist against the wall, barely able to contain his anger enough to avoid hitting the demon. "Fine! If that's what you want then I'll go call him! Why should I waste my time trying to love some freak who doesn't listen to a word I say?"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros flinched at the sudden rage from Lousal, pursing his lips tightly while tears slowly rolled down. The demon slowly ran his hands over his body, washing off the sweat while looking away. "I'd listen if you said it in a way I'd understand. You yelling and calling me a whore won't get you anything." The demon spoke quietly as he washed off his face and let out a shaky sigh. He sunk deeper into the water, having no intentions of getting out yet.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal slowly sat down on the floor and took a deep breath. "I'm sorry... I just... I don't know how to act around you... and thinking about that monster just gets me really upset" he held his head in his hands. "what... what did he tell you about me? I'm sure he said something to make me seem even worse..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros pursed his lips into a frown as he looked away, almost ignoring Lousal and what he was doing. Truthfully, it didn't even matter to him all that much. "He told me about your brother, your father and what they did to you. Nothing that would make me hate you." The demon said quietly, seemingly a little bit irritated.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal visibly flinched at the demond's words. "Let me guess... He told you that I blame him for everything my brother's ever one to me?" He let out a pained laugh. "Yeah, he did that to a pet I had...I didn't really mind because I didn't acually care about him... But I found him later and he told me all about the little sob story that Thomas have him"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros nodded quietly, furrowing his brows in disbelief. So... The story he told is a lie? Then what is the real story?" He questioned, only his head above the water. His body was small enough to fit completely into the tub, even. One of the good thibgs about it...

[Kotorichan]

"Well, that's the thing... Its mostly real. I mean, my dad abused my brother and my brother did the same to me..." Lousal stared at the ground as he spoke, trying not to actually think about it. "And then my brother got into some trouble and summoned Thomas... And... And I thought I was saved, I thought I wouldn't have to be hurt anymore... Thomas was really nice to me for a couple of weeks and then he... He got bored of being nice and just became more cruel than my brother even could have been" the man choked on his words and took a deep breath, trying not to look as weak as he felt

"I... I eventually just stopped reacting to the things he did and he got bored again and moved on... But he still likes to try to torment me... I think that's why he's trying to get you... He knows I can't stop you from doing what you want and so I just have to watch while he does. To you the same thing he did to me"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Though Tartaros was trying not to, he still felt guilty. The demon bit his lip as he reached out with one hand to lightly cup Lousal's cheek. Guess he was becoming too humane after all. "I get what you're saying. I don't understand why." The blond said quietly, actual concern showing a hint of itself in his eyes. No matter what he said, Tartaros really did love Lousal. A lot. He just wasn't too sure where to draw the line on what was alright to do and what was not.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal closed his eyes and leaned into the touch. "because... because you act like you don't care about me or trust me at all... And I figured that if I tried to explain it to you then you'd just think I was being jealous and spend more time with him..." he sighed softly. "I wasn't even planning to do that... It's just then when I saw my chance I couldn't think of any other way to stop him from hurting you... I thought that hurting you for just a little bit would be better..." he sighed. "It was stupid... And I know my apologies don't mean anything to you, but I'm sorry"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

There was a frown pulling at Tartaros' lips as he ran his wet fingers over Lousal's cheek. "That's the dumbest thing to do. You don't want me hurt by someone else so you hurt me yourself... I don't get it. Then again, I don't get humans at all." The demon said with a sigh, carefully touching his neck with the bandages. "If you would've explained properly, I would've understood." He said in a slightly colder tone and pulled his hand away, looking away as he sunk back into the water. Tartaros didn't quite look like himself like this; probably because he was still sick.

[Kotorichan]

"I know it was dumb... I'm sorry.." Lousal look away and hugged his knees to his chest. "Its just... I thought that just physical pain would be better than what he would do to you... And you wouldn't listen before when I tried to tell you how sorry I was for hurting you... I thought it might just seem like a lie to get you to stay with me" he hid his face against his knees. "I just don't want to lose you"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Tartaros stayed completely silent throughout the whole time Lousal talked. The only sound from his side was when he shifted in the bath a little. "Saying it doesn't mean you are." He muttered out quietly, staring at the water. "You know I won't leave you for a long time... I would've found out myself at some point. Then you wouldn't have hurt me." The demon talked quietly, a small shake in his voice. He was quite hurt, and honestly, he wasn't one to hide it. If he suffered, others had to as well.

[Kotorichan]

Lousal leaned on the edge if the tub. "Tartaros please, I'm so sorry... I won't try to do it again, I was so stupid... I was scared and I wasn't thinking straight..." He looked up at the demon sadly. "Go ahead and hurt me as much as you want... I'm sure I deserve anything you might do to me..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"How can I know you won't for sure?" Tartaros asked coldly, though his own eyes showed fear, distrust. The demon bit down on his lip when Lousal continued, however. "...I don't want to." He muttered out quietly, looking up at the ceiling. The blond sneezed and groaned softly, sinking back into the water for warmth. He had to get a warm sweater for sure...

[Kotorichan]

"I promise I won't... And if that doesn't convince you then I'll just have to do my best to regain your trust..." Lousal reached out to touch the demon's cheek. "I'm sorry... I love you so much Tartaros, I've never loved anyone like this so I'm doing everything wrong..."