Love vow (Ryouta Basket and Ayakashiu)

[Ryouta]

He held his back tight and closed his eyes and beat his lip as Ru entered "Ide !"he said quietly ,tried to breath normaly but he could feel something is wrong .like some body held his mouth tight so he couldn't breath, it was the same.He started to sweet , moved his body so he could breath better, along side that the pain around his hips made him wanted to cry, he was just to tight and not a body strong enough for a seme like Ru , he said"I'm going to move now"Yu closed his eyes , he was ready for the most pain ever .as he moved inside him , Yu 's tears came down and he let out a long but quiet moan"Ah!"as he moved more and even faster and rougher , his moans gotten louder and louder, he was hurting a lot that he tried to talk to Ru about it but as he wanted to speak his voice wouldn't just come out.he could feel the sickness all inside his mouth and every other member of his body, he started to feel weak while he was still doing it , he let his friend go and throwed his hands on the floor,.He had a headache so he closed his eyes but he couldn't open it anymore, I felt more and more dizzy .he noticed that Ru already stoped it , asking him somethig but he couldn't hear anymore, he couldn't move his body either, The last thing was a tear on his cheek.

[Ayakashiu]

"Yu?" He was still not replying, so Ru shook him gently. "Yu? Are you okay?" He tried turning him around, on his back, noticing that his eyes were closed. He didn't know what was wrong. Did Yu fainted? Was he too rough with him? But he told his to say, if he was hurting; since his friend stayed quiet, he deduced he feels okay. So why was he now unconcious? Ru didn't know what to do, since he didn't even know what was wrong. He tried shaking his friend again, hoping that he'll open his eyes and everything will be alright. He felt so guilty and scared.

[Ryouta]

He could feel somebody calling his name,"Where am I?"he tried to open his eyes, he felt still dizzy but he could remember what happened last time"Ru, no, Ru , will be worried! Ru..."he was saying this inside then he tried call his name"Ru, Ru'Ru..."he moved around .His body was still hurts, He had a sore throat, earache but more importantly his hips hurt"Ru"he hardly opened my eyes , he could see him .I want u Ru.I got my hands up tried to reach him but I couldn't, suddenly my tears came down, , Don't u love me, Ru? Why? Why should I be the only one?, he felt his heart was going to stop from love, he could understood how was it feel when somebody got rejected.he looked away without anyother movements

[Ayakashiu]

Ru was so relieved, when he saw his friend regained consciousness, but Yu didn't want to look him in the eyes, so he was still worried about him. "Yu, are you alright? Are you hurting somewhere?" He cupped his face in his hand, turning it towards himself. "Yu, please talk to me." He saw the tears, streaming down the other boy's face and he tried to wipe them down with his thumb. Did he really hurt him that badly? But why did Yu agreed to do it in the first place then? He should just say no to him! But what was done, was done.

[Ryouta]

Yu could understand what is his friend saying after a while , he was acting like he was worried"Yu, are you alright? Are you hurting somewhere?"*He didn't answer since he didn't want to make him worried but his whole body hurts,a pain in his hips , made him cry more but in silence. But the most pain was Ru , Ru hurt him twice.frist was that he didn't payed even a little attention of what he said. Second, He forced him .but Ru's calm voice woke him up from dreaming"Yu, please talk to me"Yu just couldn't resist that kind voice so he looked back but as he saw his face, the tears started to come down and after a while he started to cry loudly"you stupid!"he turned back and continued crying"I said I loved u , I let u inside of me because I loved u abd what u desire but u just..."Yu looked back with an angry face that he never made at Ru"You just thought of me as a toy"he cried for a while then he stoped and tried to stand , as he did he noticed the pain in his feet so he leaned to the wall tried to stand stright by his hand but he suddenly fell.

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[Ayakashiu]

Ru was surprised at this outburst. He let his friend go, thinking about his words. He always saw Yu as a friend and that's it. The sex was only sex, he didn't plan to use him as a toy or anything, he just wanted to do it with him, because he trusted him. All of his other sex buddies were people he trusted too. Ru didn't belive in one night stands, but he loved sex way too much to wait for that special someone. "Yu! You're my friend, I always thought of you that way. I didn't plan to use you as a toy, you're still my friend. But if you didn't want to do it, you should have said so before!" He was angry at his friend for all this accusations. How did everything turned into such a mess? But suddenly, Yu fell as he was trying to stand up, so Ru rushed up, trying to catch him, but he was a little too late, so they both crushed to the ground.

[Ryouta]

He got even more angry, he shouted"i said I didn't want to but ..."he fell on him and their lips touched again , he got back with a blush on his face "u keep saying that I am ur friend but how can friends have sex?I 'm saying that I love u , I will be hurt having sex with u whom I love if it would be for fun"he put away his tears and looked down "then tell me..."he said slowly and his voice was shacking"if it isn't a toy thing, what do u call it? Friends raping ?"he couldn't stoped shouting at him"all this past three years I was in love with u and looked how u answered me when I confessed after this long time! Thank u so much for caring for me,"he said those things while laughing and crying.he looked down"its ...over, Ru"I put away my tears and looked at my hips .both of them were black and hurt ."I don't want to see u anymore"

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[Ayakashiu]

Ru was speechless for a moment. Was Yu serious when he said he loved him? He quickly pushed that thought aside. He was angry when his friend called what just happened rape, but as he looked back, he did kind of force himself on him. He wanted to lash out on the brown-haired boy, shouting on him, but he knew that won't solve anything. So he took a few deep breaths, trying to calm himself, saying "Yu, don't be absurd. You don't love me. Ok, maybe you have a chrush on me, but that's not love. And I really didn't want to play with you or your feelings! I want to have sex with you again, if you want it too! You are still my best friend and I care for you; I don't go around, having sex with random people you know??" He was starting to shout too, so he stopped, took another deep breath and started again. "You really don't want to see me again Yu? Can't we just talk first? Talk without all this shouting.." All that Ru wanted right now, was a shower and a bed. But as he said, Yu was really his best friend and he didn't want to ruin what they had, so they needed to talk things through. But..shouldn't having sex deepen the bond between them, not break it?

[Ryouta]

Yu saw him with hopeful eyes' he really doesn't get what I say, he is even want have sex again, am I even important to him, what I did today was the wrongest thing I've ever done! I shouldn't have had let him all my body.I want to crush him but frist I want to kill myself, damn it , why did it ended up like this, Shouldn't it be ended happily like Films.but really...no, unfortunately this is real and this is the end'he sigh and he turned back"no" he stood up ,picked his clothes up"We can't talk anymore until u understand my feelings,I don't want to see u until then"he tried to walk but he was walking odd , sweets came downfrom his body .he was feeling sick and bad, the pain had gotten more and he felt dizzy.he looked at Ru .after all of this he still didn't wanted to let him go'should I stop this meaningless speach or no..."he said slowly "please leave before I get more angry and..."he put his clothes on the closet then he went to his table picked something up like a medicine box and walked to the door of bathroom in his room"nothing important"i opened the door hoped that u leave.

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[Ayakashiu]

"No! I won't leave until we talk! How do you expect me to understand you, if you don't talk to me?" Ru was so angry. He wanted to fix things, but his friend refused to cooperate. He stood up, walking to Yu, pushing him in the bathroom. "We will both have a shower now and then we will talk! If you won't take it by yourself, I'll do it instead of you!" Ru stood under the door frame, hands crossed, determined that this will go on like he wanted too. "Come on, take a shower. Or are you waiting for me to join you?" Ru smirked.

 

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[Ryouta]

[email="Ru pushed him inside the bathroom, locked his way not wanted to leave, Yu looked down and beat his lips and he kept his hands hidden behind his back , not wanting Ru to understand about the medicine he is using , he had no choice in that moment. "Close the damn door"He said slowly then He sigh after he did .He looked at the box with a sad face that he suddenly felt dizzy again and put his hand on his head .He slowly walked to the shower and picked his glass ،filled it with water .He picked his medicine then he drank water"I picked it an hour late "I put it on the washing machine then I opened the hot water , went under it.He started to feel better , He slowly washed himself from top to bottom. Then he wore his towel and went out of the bathroom.He saw Ru waiting for him in his room, he steped back.

[Ayakashiu]

Ru was lounging on his friend's bed, waiting him to be finished with the shower. When he came out he asked him, "what kind of medicine are you taking? I didn't know you were sick." He stood up, getting closer to the smaller boy seeing him flinch. "Tsk! I'm only going to take a shower. You don't need to act like I'm gonna attack you or something.." He went to the bathroom door, leaning on the frame, waiting for his friend to answer his question.

[Ryouta]

He saw him walked to him, he looked down, wanted to avoided him that Ru said"what kind of medicine are you taking? I didn't know you were sick."*Yu shocked by that'he.. noticed?'Yu fisted his hand as he wlked by"its none of ur concern"Then he remembered that he left the medicine box inside the bathroom, that had written about it on it.He turned back and ran inside and picked up the box then he looked back at him and started walking to the door "take a shower and leave."he said while passing by him

[Ayakashiu]

Ru just made a rude noise, after hearing his friend's order. Like hell he'll leave, they needed to talk first. He wondered what medication Yu's using, while he was taking his shower. He'll need to check that later. When he was finished, he didn't want to put on his sweaty clothes. He pulled on his jeans, since they look usable still, but decided he'll ask Yu for a shirt. Ru went to find Yu, deciding they will have that talk now.

[Ryouta]

Yu dressed up and went to the kitchen. He put his medicine on the cabinet . He felt hugry then he sigh and went to the refrigerator and opened it.He took a fast look and picked some things and put them on the cabinet,wore his cute apron and started slicing mushrooms .since he was living alone , he used to do all his works himself, he cooked well too.He was making some kind of food for himself that he thought for a moment.'Ru surly won't leave, should I make some for him'he looked down'after all of this I'm still worried about him, what am I ? A baka?'he sliced for one more person then he mixed all of them together. He turned on the oven and broiled them.after a while He prepared two dishes he heard a voice he turned back, saw Ru half naked, he blushed and turned back"Don't u have something to wear?"

[Ayakashiu]

"Eeee..nope. I wanted to ask you if you can lend me a t-shirt or something." Ru smelled the air, saliva gathering in his mouth. "What are you cooking there? Can I get some too? Since it's smells so damn good!" He put on a begging expression, and came closer to Yu "Please? I promise I'll wash the dishes later." He knew Yu wouldn't be able to resist his begging, he never could before.

[Ryouta]

Yu sigh "u can choose which ever u like , they are in my closet "he picked the dishes up and put them on the table"I already made some for u , so no need to beg me,BAKA!"he took of his apron and put it on its place and started cleaning the oven.but after a while his back hurt so he put his hand on it and sat on the couch , closed his eyes.he started thinging about his good times, after a while he noticed that he is all thinging about middle school and the times with Ru, when he frist saw him, when he fell in love , of how much they were close .they even slept in a bed together but that time Ru was different from now , always laughed from the bottom of his heart, it made Yu happy.of how they grew apart.it made Yu cry again not to know when he fell asleep while crying.

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[Ayakashiu]

Ru went to his friend's room, to find something to wear. Since he knew it well, being here a thousand times already, he found a shirt that fitted him quickly. He must have taken longer than he tought though. When he entered the kitchen, saying "Yu! I'm ready, so we can eat now.." he saw his friend sleeping on the couch. He just stood there for a few moments, watching him, feeling warmth spread over his body. He was so cute when he was sleeping. He tought of waking him up, so he could eat, but changed his mind, since he was probably really tired after the sex and needed the rest. He gently lifted the smaller boy off the couch, carrying him to his room, tucking him in.

[Ryouta]

He was seeing a beautiful dream , so he smiled softly when He was asleep .He felt good in the the bed .he slept for 3 hours , he felt really hungry so he opened his eyes.Now he could feel the fever and he had a bad sore throat , he was breathing by his mouth.he cough and tried to sit the bed, he looked out of the window."Its dark already? "Then he looked around , he noticed he was on his bed then he saw a coat of his school uniform on his shoulders, he brightly brushed"He brought me here"he stood up "Ru left already?"he walked out of the room .looking around ,he saw both of the dishes still on table untouched, I sigh "so , he left"Yu was sad , he suddenly remembered something and looked at the cabinet"the medicine box!"he shouted that he noticed some body behind him.he saw Ru with the box on its hand looking seriously at him.

[Ayakashiu]

Ru was waiting for Yu to wake up, so he could explain this to him. He was curious, so he rummaged through his apartement and found the medicine box. He didn't exactly know what this medicine was, but it looked like his friend had to take it reguraly. When Yu woke up and saw that he was holding the box, he saw that he wasn't happy. Now he really wanted to know what this medicine was for. "So Yu, want to explain what is this?"

[Ryouta]

"So Yu, want to explain what is this?"Ru asked showing him the box, Yu didn't know how should he answer that.He thought,it wasn't a way to tell him that he is not using it but he already knew .'what should I tell him about this?I don't want to make him worried"but it was late .he knew that Ru won't leave him alone until he explain it to him.he was embarrassed about this"I use it because my doctor said so, he said that I have a very weak body, I get easily sick and sometimes passed out.I even once poked some blood .He said that I should be careful and use this, if I don't will will have a Le..eh...bad sickness , I think!"Yu couldn't said it after all .'he will surely get angry of me now'I smiled "its nothing , I'm not important to you anyway..."

[Ayakashiu]

Ru raised his eyebrows saying "So it's really serious then? For how long are you taking the medication? You didn't mention anything to me.." He was feeling angry and betrayed. Best friends should tell each other this things right? So why didn't Yu tell him anything? He put the box down, waiting with crossed arms for his friend to explain everything to him. He wondered if it was okay for them to have sex, if his friend was sick.

[Ryouta]

He was still staring at the floor "from pre school I think , frist it wasn't a strong medicine but it got by time."he looked at Ru's eyes , knew that he was angry"what should I say now?"he said inside, squeezing his hands ."I'm so sorry Ru, I just didn't wanted to make u worried, so I didn't tell a word about it and..."he looked down "when my parents moved to another city, they said its because of work, but I knew that they didn't need a weak son for themselfs.thats why they did it.I thought , if I tell u someday , u would leave me just like they did"remembering of that made Yu shake.

[Ayakashiu]

Ru was horrified. "From pre-school?? And you never bothered to tell me?" He started pacing around the room, too much feelings raging inside him. They were friends all this time, but he didn't even know the basic things about him. "Don't you think you should tell me about that? What if something happened and you needed your medication?" He felt so helpless. What if something really happened? And that explains why he was so weak after they had sex. "Can you even have sex in your condition??" he asked his friend, fear creapping into his voice.

[Ryouta]

He was quiet"I'm sorry Ru, I just..."he started crying in silence"I just couldn't imagine a future without u, I'm so sorry, I just can't help it .I love u so much"he looked at the red hair boy with his cute green eyes that were shining."Can you even have sex in your condition??"he asked."I don't know"he didn't want make him worried "I don't really know, but I think it is, so don't bother urself about it"he walked to him, even after what he had done to him.He couldn't let him go, the tears num growed as he asked"Are u going to leave me Ru?"