The pessimist (private: raimeowmeow x Ayakashiu ) 18+

[Ayakashiu]

The hands on his face felt so good. He saw the arhitect moving his lips, but he didn't hear what he was saying. Oh god..those lips.. When the arhitect's face started to close in, Max's brain experienced a total meltdown. He forgot, that they are in an office, that the man opposite him is his boss, he could only think of those lips and how they felt the last time they kissed. Those lips seemed like the most important thing right now.

 

When their foreheads meet, a colorful pallet of feelings rushed through Max's body and he couldn't wait anymore. He needed to feel the man under himself. He jumped on him, making them both land on the floor, frantically kissing him. The feeling of those soft lips, his taste, when he pushed his tongue inside his mouth, it all made him go berserk. He grabbed the man's shirt, roughly pulling it open, not caring if he ripped something in the process. The skin under the shirt was so hot and his fingers quickly found the nipple, starting to caress it.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

"W-what?!" Kyou felt the hard floor off his back as Max lunge towards to him, and a hungry kiss followed, hurting Kyou's teeth. His shirt was open abruptly, sending him a rushed of cold air from the AC, slightly giving him goosebumps. His skin was sensitive to touched, because the truth of the matter is , it's been quite awhile for the sad architect.

 

But his cut runs deep.

 

Due to exhaustion and flood of emotions he can't control, with trembling hands, Kyou reached for Max face, and stroke it with his thumb very gently. "Max, i have no strenght to fight you off right now. But...if you please.. please stop. If you still need to..." he can't even finish what he was about to say and close his eyes. Covered it with his arms and sob, like an embarassing little kid.

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

The gentleness with which the arhitect replyed to his attack, paused Max. He stopped doing what he was doing, realising he made the man cry again. He groaned and burried his face into the arhitect's neck, apologizing to him. But since he probably didn't want an almost complete stranger touching him like that, he was off of him the next moment, sitting on the floor beside him. "I'm really sorry, I didn't plan on doing this it just..happened." He sighted irritaded with himself. He usually didn't loose control around other people, especially not around the ones he didn't even know. He pulled his hair, frustrated with the situation. "But seriously, you shouldn't go around touching others like that! People might get the wrong idea!" Those words came out, sounding angry. He didn't mean to blame the arhitect, oh no, the blame was all on him, but touching his face, in the way that he did, didn't help. He looked at the man, lying on the floor, wondering what he can do to console him. He hesitantly put a hand on his shoulder, asking him "Em, can I do something to help? Do you want me to leave?" But he really didn't want to leave. The truth was, he really wanted the man; the bulge on his pants was proof enough of that.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

"It's not your fault. And you're right. I shouldn't go on and touch people like that with such familiarity." Kyou is still lying at the cold floor, knees bend in one leg. He tried his best to hide the trembles in his voice but he just can't. The day were he went tiring himself is finally taking effect on him. And now it seems he can't really stand up. He use his elbow to prop himself to sit, he gave Max a bitter smile. "I'm a guy too, and gay at that... so.. i'd be lying if i said i am not interested." He sniffs and use his handkerchief to wipe his face and blow his nose. " I just have problems with being intimate like that... so forget about me and find other targets. You shouldn't involve yourself in troublesome things." He skim down and look at Max, who apparently is very arouse already. "Ahm, i don't mind you staying.. though i think you should take care of your penis first. Or maybe going home is the best option for the both of us." He looks really shy. Uncharacteristic of the pessimistic, egotistical, workaholic Architect.

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

"And gay at that..so.. i'd be lying if i said i am not interested" When he heard that, Max's heart skipped a bit. So he is not the problem. He thought the arhitect refused to kiss him because he was a guy. A problem with intimacy huh? But why is he making such a face? Max blushed and groaned. When the arhitect looked shy, he only wanted to jump on him again. But he held himself back, since that would really be a bad idea. He thought about the arhitect's words, concluding it would be really best for both, if he would go home, but there was something he needed to do before that. "Hm, yeah, I should really take care of this. Can I use your bathroom? I actually don't know where it is exactly." He blushed some more, since the arhitect knew what he will do in the bathroom. So embarassing..

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

"Oh, we are renting in this office building so we have comfort room available every floor. When you go outside, just hed straight down the hall and you'll see it. In our office, we only have one. But...ahm you might be uncomfortable to use, that.." Kyou was slightly hiding his face with his undone brown hair and looking down on the floor. This situation is very akward and embarassing. Kyou fidgets in his seat, looking like he was guilty of something.

'Shit! Why am i arouse too? All these penis talks and masturbating and pent up desire decided to back stab me!'

 

 

"Ahm Max, i think you should use the one outside. I'll....use the one here."

'I should just die now.'

 

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

He'll use the one here..? Wait! He'll use it for..that too?? Max looked at the man more carefully, his heart beating really fast in his chest, seeing that he's fidgeting and looking really ashamed. Oh god..he's aroused too.. Max knew, he should just leave the office, do his thing and then go home, but seeing the arhitect in this kind of state..he just couldn't resist. He bit his lip, deciding it was all or nothing. "Em..you know, I can help you with that..if you want me too that is. I mean, you know, if we're both gonna do it, we can just do it together right? I mean.." He sighted, irritated that he can't even get a normal sentence out. Fuck it.. He started to clumsily open the arhitect's belt, explaining "Look, this will just be a hand job, nothing more. No kissing or anything, I'll just help you with your little problem and you'll help me with mine, then I'll leave and we'll never mention this again. Okay?" He looked up, stoping what he was doing, waiting for the other man's answer. He figured it would be better, if he at least got to touch him once, instead of him doing it alone and fantasizing how it would actually feel like.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

He jolt and step back, hearing the mumbling from Max's mouth. He didn't knew what was happening, all he knew is that his face is warm and his actions are ignominious. He comb his hair back and tried to button up his shirt when !ax scoots in and reach at his belt. 'Did he just say hand job? Did he really did explain to me what a hand job is? This fucking kid?'

 

Kyou head bonk Max enough to hurt himself too. "Look i know what sex is.. i said i have intimacy issues, not that i am a virgin." He sighs and open his own zipper. "Okay,then if you say no strings attached then that is fine. Dating is such a pain." He said in a very low voice. 'Huh, apparently , my brain has died and my other head took over.'

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

He said yes? He really said yes? Max felt the excitement in every part of his body, but the most in a certain lower region. He nodded, confirming that there really ain't going to be any strings attached, then rushed to please the arhitect.

 

He pulled his pants down a little, so he had complete access to his cock. He gulped hard, then moved his hand towards it, holding it. He wanted to make this really good for Kyou, wanted him to remember this. Although, considering the arhitect's age, he probably received much better handjobs. He rubbed the tip of his lenght with his thumb, squeezing his penis a little, then moving his hand down and up again. He watched it intently, like he never saw something like this before. He really felt like a virgin around this man. He teased him a little, moving his hand really slowly, then suddenly leaning down, licking the tip, then sucking on it. He didn't know why he did it, they agreed on a handjob, but it just came instinctively to him. He wanted to taste him, not just feel him.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

'What is happening to me?' Kyou ask himself as part his lips from being touch by a seemingly not so experience guy. 'Does he even pitch?'he looked at how Max, worked his penis with his hands. Looks like Max is nervous but he knew what he was doing, slowly taking his time. Kyou was embarassed, true. But Max said he knew what he wanted out of this and that's what Kyou wants. Starting to reach out for Max pants to get him off as well, Kyou was stop short when Max started to blow him off. "Oi..." Kyou yanks Max's head off of him and held him by the hair. "We agreed on hand jobs, involving other parts is prohibited." 'Or else i might cum pretty quickly and that's embarassing.' ..."Now mister,. Take off those pants and sit in front of me. I'm gonna jerk you off." He said, slightly annoyed at how close he is to giving it up again. Kyou reached for Max's pants while he grease his other hands with spit.

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Max licked his lips then sighted. "You really don't know how to relax, do you? Does it even matter with what part of my body I do it? As long as you come at the end.." He smirked, feeling more confident, now that they are actually doing it. But he still obeyed what the man ordered him, not wanting to push him over the edge again. He scuttled closer to the man, putting his legs apart and over the arhitect's. Now they could both reached each other's cocks, Max almost sitting in the other man's lap. He liked the position, since it felt more personal, when their bodies touched like that. "Is this okay?" he asked the other man, continuing with the slow rubbing.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

Kyou was admittedly excited for the first time in such a long time, maybe the relentless lusting after him rub off on him-figuratively and literally. As their bodies touched, he slowly loosen up and his inhibitons started fading away. He grab Max's shaft and use his thumb to massage it, while he stroke it up and down with his spit filled hands. He didn't want to see what kind of face Max was showing, maybe because he didn't want to make this so intimate. They are here to jerk off, so he focus on the man's penis. It was okay, something you'd expect to see in a foreign blood guy like him. 'Geh! Where is your focus?! You need to finish him and you quickly.' He schooled his expression and leaned back a bit, licking his lips to wet, that open shirt and disarrayed hair. "Max, press ours together will ya.. " like a demanding king, he used his hands and press it on the floor, supporting both their weight. He then started moving his hips thrusting upwards to make his cock rub on Max's..

 

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

"Oh mon dieu" Max said, not even noticing, he's speaking French, when the arhitect started thrusting. Things were getting better and better. It felt so good, feeling Kyou's cock rubbing against his. It was so hot and Max couldn't help but groan. He definitely didn't see this coming. He thought they were just gonna jerk each other off, feeling awkward and all. But this exceeded all his expectations. He squeezed both of their penises a little more, so the feeling of the arhitect's thrusting became even more intense.

 

Max couldn't hold it anymore; seeing Kyou like this, thrusting, and feeling his cock, rubbing his own, it was all just too much for him and he moaned one last time, releasing his semen. Since Kyou was still thrusting, it spread over his cock too, lubricating it, a part of it dripping on the floor. This was all too erotic for Max, so he was still hard.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

The hot flow of Max's load send a waves of sensation to Kyou and that instant, his stomach felt weird and he moaned, releasing his load to Max hands. His thrusting stops, still cooling down from cumming, but nowhere near turning soft. "Tch." He click his tongue with his predicament. But then he felt the cock that still press against him. It's still hot and hard, undoubtedly not satisfied like him. 'And here i thought to make him cum faster and get this over with.' He thought.

 

Hands still press at the floor and still leaning back abit, Kyou looked at Max face. Uncontrollably, his cheeks warmed . Very sure he is blushing, Kyou ask "So.. what do we do about.. this?"

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Max was relieved and pleased, that the arhitect also wasn't satisfied yet. It would be awkward, if only he stayed hard and since that was not the case, obviously the arhitect wasn't so immune to him either. When he saw Kyou blushing, he almost lost it. Don't jump on him again, don't jump on him again.. He was repeating the words in his mind, trying not to act on an impulse again. But it was hard. Seeing the older man blushing, feeling embarassed, turned Max on, a lot! But he was old enough to control himself..well, at least a little, and he didn't plan to ruin probably the only chance he'll ever get.

 

He licked his dry lips and swallowed hard, before he could speak. He was still under the influence of the orgasm, he just experienced. Then his lips slowly broadened into a smile and tilting his head, he teased the arhitect. "Weeeeell, I do have a few ideas what we could do about this. For example, you could let me suck on your thing..?" He raised his eyebrows suggestingly, nervously waiting for an answer. He hated that he always turned everything into a teasing or into a joke in serious situations, but he just couldn't help himself. When he was nervous, he started acting overly confident, so he could cover up, how not confident he really was.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

Kyou has notice the subtle changes in expression Max. The parting lips, the gulping. He was far too old to know Max wanted to get it on already. If he was being an honest he wanted that stimulation too. How long has it been. Three four years? But he wasn't gonna start now, he just cant.

 

"No, just .. i think it's enough that we jerk off. My lap is kinda numb Max, can you move?" He said in a low voice, head facing down again. He was shy at how Max was confident about this and he was shy at how he was easily swayed. His wall and barrier was smash down by his lust. He sighed heavily and shifted, waiting for Max's next move.

 

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Max was indecisive. Should he push the man a little more or should he just stick to the deal? He really wanted to taste him, but he didn't want him to have a breakdown again. He wasn't that mean. He sighted, deciding he will be really nice tonight, hoping that the other man will notice, how much it will take him to act like that.

 

He shifted and stood up, going around the man and plomping himself down behind him. He pulled him close, so he could reach in front of him and hold his shaft. He leaned his head close to his ear, first breathing out, so his breath grazed the arhitect's ear, then he said, "You're right. We made a deal; only yerking off, no strings attached. This way, you don't even see it's me, that's doing it, so you can close your eyes and imagine someone else.." He started to rub his member again, burying his head into Kyou's back. He inhaled deeply, liking his smell. He felt really noble, doing it like this. But the feeling had a bitter after taste. He wondered who will be in the arhitect's mind as he was touching him..

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

He was relieved when Max stood up but it was replace with panic when he plops behind him and started breathing at his neck and ears. He wanted to squirmed out but the feeling was tempting him to stay. Then Max started to rub him, before he said something that made him shiver his spine.

 

"ugh!" He bit his lips as the friction was pleasuring him once more. He was stiffling his moans and closing his eyes. Trying to relax but he was starting to near his climax again. The sniffing and breathing was stimulating hsi old rusty senses. A few minutes more and he trembled,clenching his fist and cumming hard. "Uhh... Max.."

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Max tensed, when he heard his name. That can't be..Did I heard it wrong? His heart skipped a beat at that one word. He felt happy, really happy in that moment. It was a long time, since he felt that way. His life was somewhat like a dream; and not really a nice dream. But this felt so real. He smiled, snuggling to the man in front of him. With his head, buried in his shirt, he tried to calm himself. He could barely hold in the giggles. What was about this man, that it made him feel like this? Just like a teenager with his first love.. As soon as that thought appeared in his head, he tensed. He didn't really belive in love. At least not the one from books and movies. He let go of the arhitect. "So..I guess it's your turn now, right?" He only wanted to think about sex and getting some pleasure out of the man, not about feelings. Feelings always complicated things. What he felt, was only desire and nothing else.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

He is still cooling down from cumming and he can still hear his own heartbeat when he felt somethign warm at his back. 'Is he snuggling with me?' He was about to say something to reprimand the kid for his cheekiness, or rather him showing such affection when he heard the line that woke him back to reality.

"Ah yes, please give me a few seconds." He said while he pinched his brows and cleaned himself with his handkerchief. He was feeling something weird again. This time is was painful stabbing feeling at his chest, 'Why were you surprise? Isnt it you who wanted this?' His conscience whose name he called harpy Kyou shout inside his head. He turned around after he zip himself and with out looking at Max, he used both hands to get him off. One tickling Max's balls,while the other one jerk him with thumb action, massaging his shaft up and down, hitting ensitive spots all over. 'What a pro.' He turned his face down , hiding behind the hair and gave a sad smile. Feeling so exhausted from all the no sleeping days he had.

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

To Max, everything felt kind of distant now and that's how he prefered it. No strings attached..that's how he wanted it and that's how it should be.. He felt the arhitect's hands on him, but as he looked down, he didn't meet his gaze. The arhitect was stubburnly looking down. It's better this way..not so personal.. It felt good, being touched. It showed that Kyou really has years of experience on him. Well, Max had enough experience too, with women, but with men, not so much. At least I'll learn some things tonight..

 

He couldn't really relax and when he finally came, he didn't feel as much pleasure as the first time. It was all mechanical for him now. He only managed to say a curt "Thank you" while he cleaned himself too. When he lifted himself, to pull his pants up, he turned away from the arhitect, not being able to look him in the eyes.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

The good thing about being a pessimist is that he already expected the worst out of eveything. So when Max turned around like nothing has happened, he just stared at the mans back. He got up and sigh, he rumage his desk drawers fora change of clothes. When he found one, he removed his ruined one and toss it in the rubbish bin. Changing into a poloshirt with this pants was kinda off. But he has no choice. He headed for the wash room silently, not knowing or caring where Max is. Washing his hands and face and slightly wetting his hair abit. Drak circles around the eyes isn't really pleasant to look at. That and his shameful face.

 

He clenched his chest and breathe a little heavier. 'I knew i shouldnt have let this happen.' Talk about emotional rollercoaster. He was a mess. Wiping his face with some paper towels, he slap himself to wake him up and then he went on his desk. Finding no inspiration at all to continue work, he doze off leaning back on his chair.

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

As soon as the arhitect left the office, he left too. He needed some fresh air, feeling like something is pushing down on his chest. He rubbed it, not knowing what is causing the feeling. He convinced himself the whole way to his house, that it's better that he left. Kyou wanted it like this and that's what he wanted as well. He got his release, well two in fact, which is even better. So why am I feeling like this now?

 

When he got home, he just threw himself on the bed, not really caring that he's dressed, or that he needs a shower or that he has to go to work tomorrow. He just wanted to sleep and forget about everything. But that stupid word kept coming back, floating around in his mind. Of course this isn't love! That would be just stupid..I'm stupid, for even thinking about it! He pushed his head under the pillow, wanting to shut the world out and catch some sleep.

 

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[Rhye_Meow]

"Eh?! Matsuo-san.. where is Max?" Yui was looking left to right but only saw Kyou napping at his chair, arms cross at his chest. Kyou groaned and open one eye "He wenr home after he woke, he probably felt it's better to sleep at his bed. " Kyou leans his elbows at his desk and press his temples. By the looks of it, he only slept for 3 hrs. Well that's anaccomplicement for him. But his body was extra tired for today,because of what happened earlier. "I brought him change of clothes, but well whatever. " Yui went plug the airpot, boiling water for Kyou's tea. This was occasionally his job, and seeing his boss today, he knew he needed one badly.

"Yui-kun, i finished all my blue prints draft just in time. I want you to deliver this one to Max, make sure he wakes and comes to work. Im headed home to rest, cause i think im having a fever. Dont want you guys ro get sick." He said and tske his jacket and waved at him goodbye.

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"Hello! I'm Max workmate Yui. I understand i'm early, but can i talk to him?" Yui's voice was over excited over the intercom. He wanted to see what kind of house Max have. And ask him something else..

 

 

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Max was being woken by one of the servants, but he just groaned, hoping they would leave him alone, and turned around. The next moment, he was already out of bed, searching for the clock. He totally forgot to set the alarm for today and he was late for work. He rushed in the bathroom, still feeling the effects of the alcohol and..the effects of what happened yesterday. He looked at his reflection, flinching when he saw how bad he looked. The servant was still there, demanding his attention. He said, annoyed, "What do you want?? Can't you see I'm in a hurry?" The servant started to apologize, explaining who was waiting for him downstairs. "Yui? Oh fuck.." He quickly tried to make himself presentable, not really suceeding. He didn't even had time for a proper shower.

 

On his way down, he thought that Yui was probably here to let him know, he's fired. He just started the job and he was already late and Kyou probably wouldn't mind, if they didn't see each other anymore. That was the only reason he could think of, for this visit. He pulled his hair, irritated, knowing he acted like a total asshole yesterday. "Well whatever..he was probably happy that I was gone as soon as we were finished.." he murmured, entering the guest living room, where his colleague was waiting. "Good morning Yui! I'm really sorry for being late! I forgot to set the alarm clock yesterday, so I overslept and after what.." He stopped talking, knowing that he can't really say 'after what happened yesterday with Kyou..' but lost on what he should say now.

 

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