"To be or not to be, that is the question..." (Yujiko x Ayakashiu)

[Yujiko]

Plot: Genji-Sensei is a family friend and Yoshi Sato has a crush on him, and has ever since he was little. The sensei always acted like a big brother to him, but lately, he's become distant and cold. For an unknown reason... It was then that Yoshi decided he would confess his love and try reignite the spark in their dying friendship.

 

The Sensei

Name: Atakamo Genji

Age: 25

Occupation: High school professor

Position: Seme

Personality: He's generally kind and soft spoken, but when he believes it matters he's clear and demanding. He knows what people are capable of and if you don't fulfill your potential expect a stern talking too. Though he's traditional, he understands times are changing and so is society- so he believes he can learn to accept just about anything. Once he knows you, he'll never forget you nor abandon you, but do those things to him more than once and don't expect forgiveness.

Likes: Learning, Teaching, Honesty, and Kids.

Dislikes: Liars, Slackers, People who betray him, Cheaters, and Things against Tradition.

 

The Student

Name: Yoshi Sato

Age: 17

Occupation: High-school student

Position: Uke

Personality: Happy, warm and innocent person. He is an open book, so he can't hide his feelings or what he's thinking about. Bad at acting or telling lies. Looks and acts cute, so he gets teased a lot, but he hates if people call him cute to his face. Very diligent, he's never late for school and does all his work on time.

Likes: Studying, reading, baking (another thing that he's teased about a lot)

Dislikes: Liars, messy rooms, poetry

 

...And so, the Story begins...

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"Ooh! Don't stop Atakamo!" So strange... This feeling... "Ahhhh!" Heavy breathing filled the air, gasps and trills of pleasure. Atakamo moved his fingers gently across the smooth surface, every stroke ecstasy. "Ahh... Atakamo..." Yeah- this is really strange... His fingers gripped the pen in his hand hard as he carved words into pale skin before him. "Ohh! Atakamo! Write more, write more!"

 

Shooting up from his desk, the man rubbed his eyes and face. What a strange dream... Dropping his hands down onto the desk gently, glancing at the blank book before him. Why can't I just make a damn story... Almost eight years of college and he still can't think of a decent idea for a novel. Glancing up at the clock just across from him. 4:00 am? Damn... I have to get to school in two hours. Standing to his feet, the teacher began for his room. Slowly undressing himself til he was wearing nothing but undergarments, he then plopped onto the bed. Closing his eyes he sighed. Just sometimes... I feel lonely.

 

"BEEP, BEEP, BEEP-" Groaning, the older man hit the alarm and rolled of the bed. Time to get ready... dragging himself to the shower he began his daily routine. Ironing clothes, brushing teeth, and making breakfast.

"Ping, Ping-" the man's phone rang," I guess it's that time". Standing from his dining table, Atakamo took his plate to the kitchen just before leaving for the school.

 

By 6:30 Am, the teacher was now in his class room, preparing for the lesson. The clock hit 7 Am. the students should be arriving any minute now. Atakamo Genji took his seat behind his desk, waiting for the crowd to enter the room.

[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi woke up early this morning, full of resolution. I'm really gonna do it today..yes..today, I will definitely do it! He took a few deep breaths, like an athlete before the race. He felt so nervous, but determined. Today, he will confess his love to Atakamo! Well, to Genji-sensei. He was his teacher now and he didn't get to see him a lot lately, only in school. They used to have such a warm relationship, but now, Atakamo acted so cold towards him. Yoshi didn't know if he did something wrong? Did he angered him with something?

 

While he was walking towards the school, his hands started to tremble. Maybe this is not such a good idea? No, no, no! I have to do it! Just don't think about it Yoshi. At first, when he realised his feelings towards Atakamo are more than brotherly, he decided that he will keep it a secret. But now, that they grow so much apart, he needed to do something to fix this.

 

The closer he got to school, the slower he walked, trying to buy himself a few more moments. He stopped in front of the classroom doors, knowing that he needs to do it now, or other students will start coming. He took another deep breath, then entered the classroom. He saw his teacher already sitting behind his table. When he looked at him, Yoshi blushed and stayed quiet. He didn't know how to say it. "Eem..sensei..I..I would want to talk to you about something!" he barely got out. He stared at the floor, searching for the right words. "So..um..I just wanted to tell you, that..I really like you..you're the best teacher.." he started to murmur, probably speaking too quiet for Atakamo to hear him.

[Yujiko]

Sighing at the clock, the young teacher twirled in his chair until suddenly Yoshi entered the room. Genji stop almost immediately and straightened himself parallel with the desk's chair space. The boy seemed... Well, off. Not like himself, or at least not his usual self. As the boy stopped in front of his desk, Atakamo leaned forward on his hands and elbows, interested in what the young friend had to say. After all, something was obviously on the teen's mind. "Eem...Sensei..I-i want to talk to you about something..." Yoshi was quite noticeably nervous, so, Genji gave him a cold stare that didn't break even when the young teen stared at the floor. "So-um... I just wanted to tell you, that... I really like you-" The sensei's brow furrowed together, Wha- "-You're the best teacher.." And those were the last audible words from the student.

 

The sensei sighed with relief for a moment, Phew... That was close, glad to know he's not like those other disgusting student's I've occasionally had in the past... Looking up at the younger, Genji stood. "Thank you for the compliment, you're my preferred student." The elder ruffled Yoshi's hair. "Now take your seat, the others will be here soon," The sensei twirled on his heels and staired at the black board. I hope they understand this older '-kana'...

 

((Sorry, I was at work all day lol))

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi couldn't belive he messed this up! Seriously Yoshi? You just had to add, that he's the best teacher?? He sighed, remembering how he practiced what he's going to say, and this wasn't what he imagined. He saw that his teacher's attention is already elsewhere, so he dragged himself to his desk, plomping his head on the desk. Why did he had to misunderstood me? And when I actually managed to gather enough courage, to speak to him.

 

Soon, his classmates begin to stream into the classroom, so his attention was tracked elsewhere, but when the lesson started, all Yoshi could think of, was his teacher. He was so great at what he did. He should be thankful, that Atakamo praised him as his preffered student, but those words only hurt him. His teacher only saw him as that, his student. He remembered how Genji-sensei's hand felt, when he ruffeled his hair; so big and warm.

 

His daydreaming was suddenly interupted by someone calling his name. He quickly looked around, seeing that the whole class was staring at him and that his sensei looked him with a questioning look. "Eem..yes.." he murmured, trying to remember what they were talking about right now, but he could only remember his sensei's hands. He blushed, afraid to look the teacher in his eyes. "I'm sorry, I didn't hear the question" he somehow got out, knowing that he might get in trouble for not listening in class. His parents were very strict, when it came to studies.

 

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[Yujiko]

"-And this here is an excerpt from the Yang Diary dated to the Golden Era of Japan's history. Now who can tell me what this quote is from that diary? It's a phrase we all should know by now... Sato-kun, could you answer this for us?" Genji-sensei looked up at the student, only just now noticing his lost and dazed look. Immediately regretting the fact he asked his favored pupil the question, he sighed. "A-ah, yes. -I'm sorry, I didn't hear the question..." Sighing, the sensei pushed his glasses up the bridge of his nose," What is this saying from the Golden Age Yang Diary?" Asked Atakamo as he pointed to the old "-kata" on the black board he had written that morning.

 

Come on Yoshi, I know you know this...

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi felt so bad, knowing that he disappointed his teacher. He gulped hard, trying hard to remember the quote, his mind all slugish. Fortunately, his brain decided, that it will start working then, so he quickly answered the question, relieved, that he did at least one thing right.

 

He made sure to listen carefully for what remained of the hour, making notes. When the class ended, he slowly put his things in his bag, waiting for his other classmates to leave. I should go apologize to him..and maybe, I can finish my confession! His heart beat frantically, as he approached his teacher. "Excuse me, Genji-sensei? I would just like to say I'm sorry, for not being focused in class today." As the man was still looking intently at him, waiting for him to go on, he countinued, "Em, actually, I wanted to speak to you about something else too." The pupils for the next class started arriving at the classroom then and Yoshi knew, that his chance was lost..again! "Maybe we could disscus it tonight, at our house. Will you come to visit us? It's been a long time since you did sensei." He hoped that Atakamo will say yes, that way, they could talk about everything. He used to spend a lot of time at their place, being a good friend of his parents, but lately, he hasn't been around much.

 

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[Yujiko]

As Yoshi approached Genji after class, he gave an exasperated exhale, and took a seat in his chair. He stared at the other with a deadpanned expression all the while he listened to the student stammering. Once the other was finished and the next class students began to pour in, he lifted his lenses and pinched the bridge of his nose, "Does this kid understand why I don't go over his house anymore?" Glancing up at the blonde he sighed, "Probably not..." Coming to his feet, the Sensei moved across the room," Fine. After all I do need to speak to your parents about how distracted you've been." Those cold discerning words had a warm lining to them, par usual. "Everyone take your seats, class is about to begin..." Looking back at Yoshi, he motioned to the door.

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi only nodded and ran out of class, heading to his next classroom. All he heard was sensei agreeing to come to visit him tonight. He didn't even heard the last part about talking to his parents.

 

Yoshi was already making plans for the evening and when school ended, he rushed home, ignoring his classmates who were calling him. First thing, he needed to clean his room. He didn't like to live in a mess, so his room was basicaly clean already, but he still wanted to make it look perfect for the sensei. The next thing on his list was making his mom cook sensei's favourite dish. She was surprised at his enthusiasm, but agreed none of the less. The last thing was his homework. It was already quite late when he was finished with preparing everything and sensei was about to come, so Yoshi got a little nervous, but he needed to focus on his work! Sensei won't be pleased if he found him slacking off on his homework.

 

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[Yujiko]

As the day came to an end, the chestnut locked teacher reclined in his chair with the end of a pen on his lips, drenched in thought. Why did Yoshi want to speak with him so badly? And why was he s determined to have him over? Shaking the thoughts of he came to his feet, then it it him...

"So..um..I just wanted to tell you, that..I really like you..you're the best teacher.."

Atakamo's hand flew straight up to cover his mouth as his back leaned against the black board in terrifying realization. The words the younger spoke... they weren't suppose to include "you're the best teacher" they were a confession! His ran hard through his hair, knocking his glasses to the floor- clunk- his hand hung on the back of his neck as he stood there for a moment, still in the initial shock. "Yoshi-kun... Likes me?" Turning to the black board, the Sensei closed his eyes and began to lightly bang his head against the wall, "Why? Why? Why? WHY me?" Stopping he looked blankly at the black board, in a sort of solace. And for a good few minutes just stood like that, thinking of nothing, letting it all sink in.

 

Before long he gathered his items and began for the student's home, still a little dazed. "How could I have been so Naive? I have to tell him that I don't requite his feelings towards me... It'll crush him. Could we ever been like we were?" Pulling up to Yoshi's home, he could smell the glorious scent of Ms. Sato's sweet stir-fry. Could this all have been planned? Could Yoshi have done so much to prepare to his confession of love? And could Atakamo live with killing this boy's hope and dreams... Forever? Now nervous, the dark haired teacher began up the steps, and once to the door, he knocked- taking a hard swallow.

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi was still busy with his homework, when he heard his mother greeting his sensei. His heart started beating frantically and he took a few deep breaths, trying to calm himself down. It's okay Yoshi, you can do it! Everything will be alright..

 

He headed downstairs, trying to not look too excited, but act normal. When he saw the sensei, he couldn't help but smile widely. He really did come! That thought made Yoshi so happy; he even thought for a few times that sensei might call and do a rain check. But that didn't happen, he was here.

 

His mother noticed him then and told him to go greet sensei and that the dinner is ready. Yoshi walked to them, turning to his sensei first. "Good evening sensei, I'm happy you could make it." He gave him a big smile, before turning to his mother. "Mom, I'm actually not so hungry and I still have some homework to finish. Can you just eat without me?" He turned to leave when his mother agreed, but stoped to add, "Oh sensei, can you please come to my room when you're finished? I have some..questions concerning today's lesson." He knew his mother wouldn't disturb them, if she thought they were studying and his father was working late anyway, so he won't be home so soon.

 

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[Yujiko]

"Good evening Ms. Sato," Grinned the teacher as he slipped his shoes off. She smiled her wide smile," A good evening it is indeed, Atakamo-san. Please come in!" The dark haired man entered the house. Everyone has secrets, some, things they don't want anyone but the person it's about to know, others they want no one to know. When the professor was younger, he couldn't deny that he had a crush on Lady Sato, she is beautiful now- but when she was younger, man... A warm smile arose on Atakamo's cheeks as he and his old crush began to chit-chat about life.

 

As he heard foot steps coming from the stairs, the dark haired man turned his eyes to see Yoshi, and the warmth seemed to fade. It was then that the dense teacher understood the student's trials, and gave a slight wave. "I need to try my best to understand him... I forgot how it felt to like someone unobtainable... There has to be an appropriate way of handling this situation."

 

Yoshi's warm smile made Atakamo nervous, "Of all the teachers in the world, he had to pick me- why couldn't things just be normal... Why'd you have to go and make our lives so complicated, Yoshi?" His smile faded as a teacher's would," Of course I made it." His expression now stern, but reassuring- well, I guess that would be normal for him. As the blonde told his mother he wouldn't be eating, but rather working on his studies- the Sensei felt a sense of pride. Maybe him visiting more often, given the situation would, cause his student to focus more on his studies. All was well until the blonde pupil spoke the last words, "Alright. I'll hurry up then..." He cleared his voice after the words, he was never any good at dealing with feelings and close friends.

 

"Well, please, have some Stir-fry Atakamo-san!" Yoshi's mother smiled warmly as she led them both into the dining room. "Sit any where you'd like, hun. I'll bring you some food-" Shooting his head in the mother's direction, the sensei was to late to offer his assistance with the food. Rather he smiled, giving a light chuckle, "You always were the best hostess, Mrs. Sato." Taking his seat, she brought both bowls out and sat across from Atakamo. "So, how's my boy doing in your classes, Atakamo? You keeping him in line?" She smiled playfully as she took her first bite. He fiddled with his food, eating a few pieces, "Overall, he's doing fine. But he's been distracted lately." Nodding, the mother cut in," Yeah- He has, even at home. He's always singing while he cleans, and getting lost in thought. I think he has a crush on some girl." She chuckles. The words stab the teacher in the gut, "Oh... No... This is far worse than I thought." The man's cheeks turning a faint pink. "Any clues on who the girl is?" Asked Ms. Sato. "Uh- Yeah... There's this girl, she's brunette. Wears glasses, and seems to really enjoy her studies..." Beginning to stuff his face and eat the bowl quickly, Atakamo slightly regrets his decision to eat with Yoshi's mother. "Oh! She sounds like a catch- reminds me of you when your were younger, Atakamo. Always the studious one!" She smiled as the teacher suddenly choked on his food a little. "Are you okay?!" She yelp with her voice slight higher than usual. Coughing a bit, Atakamo nodded," Yeah-" He cleared his throat. "Sorry, didn't chew that piece very well..." Upon taking the last few bits, the brown haired teacher stood. "Uh- Well, thank you for the food. It was amazing, I think I'll go help Yoshi now..." He said quickly running off. "Alright! You boys have fun!" She said smiling. A red tint covered Atakamo's cheeks, "I think I almost died back there..."

 

Walking up to the stairs, the chestnut haired scholar began up the steps, his nervous heart racing- and not from excitement. How was he going to handle this? Was the teacher prepared to deny one of his students? Sure. But a friend? Atakamo opened the door to the blonde's room stepping inside," It's me, I'm coming in..."

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi thought about sensei, when he was going back to his room; he looked nice..as always. When he came into his room, he plomped on his chair, looking at the books that were scattered on his table. His mind instantly wandered to his sensei. He only smiled fantly at him, when Yoshi greeted him. Was it because he didn't really want to be here or because he needed to act properly in front of mom? But Yoshi thought, that he saw a hint of pride in his eyes, when he told he was going to study. He was doing it for his parents and for him anyway, so he really hoped he didn't just imagine things.

 

"Okay now, I need to focus on my work!" Yoshi mumbled to himself, trying to finish his essay. But his thoughts wouldn't obey him. He started to wonder what his mom and sensei were talking about now and if he noticed that the dinner is his favourite dish. He will probably think mom was so thoughtful to make it for him though.. Yoshi sighted because of the thought, but he didn't let it dishearten him. He reminded himself again, that he should be writing his homework, instead of thinking about sensei, but he was out today.

 

He only realized how much time he wasted, when he heard sensei's words: "It's me, I'm coming in..." Yoshi straighten in his chair, cursing himself silently for slacking off. He wanted to show sensei how diligent he was, but now all he could show was something not even worth reading..and with hearts drawn all over. Wait, what?! Yoshi checked the paper again, realizing he was really drawing hearts all this time!! He quickly shoved the paper under the book, before turning towards sensei with a flustered smile. "How was dinner?"

 

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[Yujiko]

Giving the blonde a slightly puzzled expression, Atakamo shook it off walking towards the student's bed, plopping down on it. "This was a terrible idea... Why did I come over here?" Sitting up on the bed, the Sensei glanced at the paper beneath the book. "So how's the homework coming along?" He asked as he scooted closer to the student's desk. "Hmm- Why are you hiding you're work Yoshi-san?" Inquired Atakamo just before pulling the paper out from under the book, glancing at it. "Why did you hide it? There's nothing on i-" The dark haired teacher froze here. "There's.... There's hearts all over it..." Blushing embarassed, the teacher gave the paper back looking away with his free hand covering his mouth. "I'm sorry... I shouldn't have been prying..." Swallowing hard, the dark haired man looked to the blonde," So... You needed some help?"

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi tried putting himself between the piece of paper and sensei, but the latter still managed to snatch it away. "No! Don't look at that!" he screamed, but it was too late. His face burned up, when he realized how stupid he must look, for drawing hearts all over like a girl. Not to mention he didn't even finish his homework.

 

He took the paper back. "No..it's okay. You don't have to apologize." Yoshi chrushed the paper in his hand, throwing it in the garbage bin. Sensei looked really embarassed and the athmosphere became really tense. Yoshi felt tears gathering in his eyes, but he blinked furiously, resolved he won't cry in front of his sensei. "I didn't really need help.." he started to say, but he didn't know how he should continue, no words coming to him. Then he did what he never thought he would do. He simply leaned forward and kissed Genji-sensei. He was surprised too, his body acting on his own. But since he couldn't find proper words, his actions needed to speak instead of him!

 

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Yoshi tried putting himself between the piece of paper and sensei, but the latter still managed to snatch it away. "No! Don't look at that!" he screamed, but it was too late. His face burned up, when he realized how stupid he must look, for drawing hearts all over like a girl. Not to mention he didn't even finish his homework.

 

He took the paper back. "No..it's okay. You don't have to apologize." Yoshi chrushed the paper in his hand, throwing it in the garbage bin. Sensei looked really embarassed and the athmosphere became really tense. Yoshi felt tears gathering in his eyes, but he blinked furiously, resolved he won't cry in front of his sensei. "I didn't really need help.." he started to say, but he didn't know how he should continue, no words coming to him. Then he did what he never thought he would do. He simply leaned forward and kissed Genji-sensei. He was surprised too, his body acting on his own. But since he couldn't find proper words, his actions needed to speak instead of him!

 

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[Yujiko]

Suddenly uncomfortable, the Sensei swallowed hard, and adjusted himself so that he was sitting up properly again. The heavy awkward air weighting on Atakamo in a way it hadn't in years. Maybe he should just leave, he know Yoshi is a smart kid, he can do this on his own. "Yeah... I- I'll just leave, say goodbye and then we'll face the problem tomorrow!" Finally coming to an agreement with himself he looked up, lips parted to speak- but instead of words coming out, his lips were met the younger's. This wasn't anything he expected, not even a little... His eyes widened for a moment as his heart jumped in his chest. "Oh god- Oh god- Oh god- We're KISSING! He KISSED me! What do I do?! What the hell do I do?! What if Yoshi's mother come up here cause Yoshi yelled just a few minutes ago?!" Quickly, the Sensei grabbed his student's arms and pushed him away, hanging his head with cheeks dark red. "Don't. Your mother is down stairs. She could see us." The words were hard to say, he choked on each one.

 

But, wait... "Shit! I didn't say that I don't feel the same!" Looking up at Yoshi, Atakamo's face was red as can be, and his expression that same stern one. His eyes looking into the younger's, noticing the tears in his eyes from before. "No, he's crying! No-no-no don't cry, don't cry! What do I do? I could kis- No... But... He- and- bu-but me?..." Spontaneously, the brown haired man pressed his lips to Yoshi's, "This is a mistake..."

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Sensei pulled him away, breaking the kiss and Yoshi felt a wave of disappointement. Well it was to be expected, he probably shocked him. Sensei only saw his as a student now, nothing more, but Yoshi didn't want it to be like that! He wanted to be special to sensei.

"Don't. Your mother is down stairs. She could see us."

Yoshi knew, she wouldn't disturb them, not when she thinks they are studying, but it was a handy excuse for sensei. Yoshi felt fresh tears well in his eyes, but he pushed them back. He can cry when he's alone; he didn't want to bother sensei anymore. It was foolish of him to do this. Just as he was about to utter an apology, he felt sensei's lips back on his. He was stunned for a moment, not understanding what's happening at all, but then a wave of pure happiness hit him. He likes me! Sensei likes me too! He started kissing him back, a little awkwardly at first, since this was his first time. He leaned forward even more, pushing sensei back onto the bed, climbing on top of him.

 

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[Yujiko]

"Please- don't cry I'm sorry, Yoshi-kun..." His lips staying there as the younger remained stunned for a brief moment, "Maybe I read the situation wrong-" When the Sensei was about to pull away, he noticed that the blonde had begun to kiss back. Peeking at the other, the red in his cheeks seemed to subside, "I... Should... Pull away... Now-" Just then, Yoshi had slowly pushed the dark haired teacher back on to the bed, but the elder didn't seen to notice. Eyes now closed, Atakamo's hand sneaked up and onto the younger's hip, gripping his clothing tight.

 

It was here that it clicked in the elder's mind, "This is your student, This is a friend, and an underage boy." Suddenly, the eyes of the teacher shot open and he ripped his lips from the kiss turning his body away from the blonde above him. "I really fucked up! What the fuck me?! What were you thinking?! Was I even thinking?" "This is a mistake, Yoshi-san..." With eyes covered by his hair, Atakamo kept them away from the younger's gaze. "I'm sorry, I can't..."

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi couldn't think clearly anymore, all he could do was get lost in the kiss. It felt so good when sensei touched him and he hoped this will never end. But it did; too soon.

 

When sensei pulled away, Yoshi groan a little in protest. He seemed embarassed, hiding himself this way. Yoshi moved a strand of hair from sensei's face, not wanting to believe his words. "How can this be a mistake, if it feels so right?" It really did feel right to him. Nothing ever felt that right before, or that good! "And why can't you? Is it because..you're my teacher?" Yoshi knew that might be an issue, since his sensei was a good man. but he didn't plan to let that come in between them! There was only one year left, before he was finished with high-school and there won't be any problem then.

 

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All those words the younger spoke, so naive, so... Cliche? The red in his face fading, the elder man pulled himself away from the younger, and against the wall, sitting up. "This is wrong. One, we're both men. Two, Ages- I'm 8 years older than you and you're just a child..." Those dark eyes meeting the other's lighter ones," Can't you see? This is wrong and a mistake..." Teacher attempted to reveal what he thought was the truth to the student, with soft words. He wasn't sure it would get through to the pupil, but he hoped it would. That it would put an end to this moment and to feelings that the blonde had for him.

 

Shifting his eyes down, Atakamo spoke more," I don't know if I like you like this, Yoshi-kun. You've always been a friend and a student... You need to understand that I may never requite your feelings for me..." Dark eyes lifted to meet the younger's gaze," Seeing tears in your eyes broke my heart... And I just... Kissed you. It didn't mean that I-" Stopping himself, the Sensei moved himself as if about to get off the bed,"-Nevermind..."

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Yoshi listened to his sensei with his eyebrows up, saying nothing. At first, he wanted to protest that age doesn't matter in love and neither does gender, but what came next, chrushed his heart. Genji-sensei turned him down. Yoshi hoped, that the older male would at least give them a shot, that they would start as friends and then see where it takes them..

 

Yoshi thought of throwing himself at the sensei, begging him not to leave, but that would only inconvinience him and Yoshi didn't want that. He didn't want to be a burden. Sensei said he saw him as a friend, but he probably only said that to console him; if he really did saw him like that, he would visit him more often. "I understand..I'm sorry," he said with a detached voice, while getting up and sitting back on his chair. "If you'll excuse me now, I still have some homework left." He turned his back to sensei, staring somewhere in the distance as he pretended to pull out a new paper and write something on it.

 

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[Yujiko]

Those words made the dark haired man freeze for a moment,

"You're right... I'm sorry."

Said with such hurt and angst, the literary components made him bite his lip and hang his head. "Damnit... Fuck... Just get out of here before you do something else stupid, Atakamo." Standing the teacher walked over to the door, grasping the hand, but being hesitant to open it. He turned back slightly, mouth parted as if to speak words. He should just leave, and he knew that he should, and more than likely would. Those lips pursed together as he spun his body back around, and exited the room. As the door shut behind him, the elder stood there for a moment, still in a daze. "What am I going to do about this...?" Running a hand through his hair, the chestnut locked young man walked down the steps and towards the door. "Ah! Done already? Well, we'll see you next time, Sensei. Oh! You should visit again tomorrow! We miss having you." Smiling warmly," Indeed. T-tomorrow?" He slipped his shoes on," Sure...." The reply was nervous, and slightly delayed. "Tomorrow it is! Good night, Atakamo-san!" "Yes, goodnight Mrs. Sato," Spoke Genji Sensei as he left out the door. "Tomorrow is going to be so weird..."

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Just leave already, just leave already, just leave.. Yoshi heard, sensei paused before the doors, but he just wanted to be alone right now. He heard him talking to his mother, not really understanding the words only hearing muffled sounds and then the sound of the doors closing.

 

Tears started to pour down his cheeks, realisation that sensei is always lost to him, finally sinking in. He was such a good boy, always obeying his parents, always doing his homework and study..but this wasn't enough for sensei. He crushed the paper, which should be his homework, but it only had useless scribbles on, throwing it in the bin, missing it, but not really caring. He just shruged out of his clothes, heading straight to bed, crying his heart out. The scene of sensei's refusal kept re-playing in his mind, until he was finally able to fall into a fitful sleep.

 

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[Yujiko]

Dragging feet made slow, sliding noises across the ground as the teacher moved towards his bed room. plop The dark haired man fell face first onto the bed, letting out a groan before rolling over on his back. "Maybe I should call Kiako... She probably knows what to do in this situation..." Well, it was a difficult situation for the man. He never leaves a friend behind, and he knows that he needs to learn to accept how Yoshi feels about him. But how? And to what extent? Pulling his phone from out of his pocket, Atakamo scrolled down his contacts highlighting Kiako, and dialed the number. It had been at least two minutes now, and the teacher grew weary, maybe she wasn't going to answer the cell phone. But then," ONE SECOND! I'M AT A CLUB!" Yelled a girl's voice over the sound of loud dance music. Holding the phone slightly away from his ear, Atakamo waited patiently for her to find a quieter place. "Okay~ I'm in the bathroom. Sorry for the loud music. Anyways, Whats up Atakanji-kun?" Before he spoke, the professor pinched his forehead in distress. "What would you do if your friend confessed to you?" "Depends, Ataka. Same sex or opposite sex?" "Same." "Ohh- tough break dude... You have two options, Explore or Deplore." Atakamo sighed," And if... Let's say they made a move on you... And you went with... Sorta...-" "Oh Meh Gawd! You kissed him back?!" "..." "And then you told him the tale, right? Damnit Onii-tama." "..." "Just try it out, go on a few dates, have a heated season in an alley-" "It's Yoshi..." "Oh. Fakku. How long has it been since you flicked the bean with another person?" "Imouto!" "Atakamo." "Three months..." "NO WAY. Okay, go get screwed, and then explore the world of men. We don't need you in heat, makes you weak. Now go to bed Onii-san." "Okay... Night Kiako." "Night Onii-tama!" The phone beep off. "Sleep..."

 

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[Ayakashiu]

Bee-beep, bee-beep, bee-..thud! Yoshi hit the alarm clock, stopping it from beeping, but sending it flying in the process. He didn't really care and he didn't want to get up yet. When he did finally crawl out of bed, it was already late. He took a quick shower, prepared his school bag and headed to school.

 

When he arrived at the front gate, the bell already rung and he was in front of the class right when the teacher was entering. The teacher only gave him a questioning look, since he was a diligent student, who didn't cause trouble, but Yoshi only murmured a quick apology and took his seat. The next class was a bother too, since it was the first time he didn't do his homework, making the teacher question him what happened. Why don't they just leave me alone.. Finally, the lunch break was here, and he dragged himself to the cafeteria, not really feeling hungry, but forcing himself to eat, none of the less. His friends were asking him if everything is okay, but he just brushed them off, telling them he's not feeling good. He considered going to the nurse, saying he is sick, sleeping, instead of going to the next class.

 

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[Yujiko]

"Sleep... Sleep..." BEEP, BEEP, BEEP- Good morning with 102.5, this is Jun with the weather! Looks to be a sunny day out, but we might get some storms, so bring your umbrella tonight! Eyes wide open, the dark haired man just laid there in his bed. Looking at the clock, he sighed," Did I even sleep?" Against his will, Atakamo sat up, and stretched. Today was predetermined to be strange and overall awkward. According to his sister, he needed to get laid. Apparently, being unconsciously celibate for three months, could be affecting his judgement. Running a hand through his hair, the teacher stood and began his routine.

 

Before long he was at the school, in his class room, just sitting there. The sun now in the sky with clouds beginning to surround it, displaying it's future disappearance behind dark rain. Atakamo only stared blankly at the floor as he sat at his desk, prepared or his first class. Who didn't he know that give him that one night stand he "needed"? Before long his class began to pile in, and the elder brunette stood with book in hand. "Last night you had home work to read-" His voice continued on about the assignment and it's meaning within the book, but honestly, his thoughts were elsewhere.

 

No one came to mind in his circle of friends and acquaintances that would even be considered for the measures needed later on into the night. The first class was over, and the man sighed and slumped forward onto the desk. "What am I going to do?" Sun's rays slowly fell of the teacher's back as the forecast became current and right, it was about to rain. Brown eyes moved over to look out the window, and see a bench beginning to become drenched in cold rainfall. He couldn't help but imagine Yoshi out there alone, in the rain, sad and crying...

 

"Yoshi... Why are you out here all alone?" A younger version of Atakamo asked with an umbrella in hand. "I ran away from home..." He said with a pouting expression. A warm, and understanding smile came to the young Student's cheeks as he bent down to look up at Yoshi, holding the umbrella over them both. "Now, why would you go and do that...?-"

 

The memory was stopped short by the next class shuffling into the room, vexed about the storm and how it ruined their plans. Once again standing to teach, the instructor's heart was a bit lighter. "What a pleasant memory..." And again, the class was over quickly, and now a lunch break for him was in place. Though the man wasn't all that hungry in all honesty. Hands folded, his finger's moved against one another undecidedly. The teacher didn't want to bed a stranger, nor a friend. In fact, until last night, he hadn't even felt an urge to do anything remotely sexual. As the thought crossed his mind, Atakamo blushed a little," I'm such a pervert..." Letting his head fall against his desk, the Sensei sighed. "He deserves a chance... And I'll give it to him."

 

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