Insanity rp (1x1 Pigeon and pandamonium)

[pandamonium]

Mathis shook his head. "I'm not bringing much with me. In leaving the majority of my possessions here. I'd love to help you pack. There's a flight for late tonight. We have plenty of time." He finished his meal and took his dish into the kitchen. An uneasiness in his stomach. He felt an uneasiness in his stomach, but he couldn't new negative. He had to make sure things were to go as planned.

[Kotorichan]

Ryan brought his dish to the kitchen too and gave Mathis a gentle smile. "I'll clean up the dishes, okay?" he said, planting a light kiss on the man's forehead. "you made breakfast so it's only fair"

[pandamonium]

Mathis smiled and chuckled. "Thank you! It'll give me a chance to shower and get ready for the day." He returned the kiss and walked towards the bathroom.

[Kotorichan]

Ryan nodded and started to wash the dishes. He kept his gaze away from the knives in the kitchen, trying not to remember his nightmare... It was so terrifying to think of how Mathis had actually killed people. The memory of the time he had seen the murder flashed into his mind, making him drop the glass he was holding. With a loud smash it broke into tiny pieces. "fuck..." Ryan quickly crouched down and started to pick the pieces up, blinking back tears.

[pandamonium]

Mathis was in the shower, standing and watching the water go down the drain. He knew mustmust still be shaken by his discovery. He sighed and began to scrub himself. A faint crashing took him out if his thoughts. He finished showering and wrapped a towel around his waist. A trail of water followed him ass he made his way yards the kitchen. "Ryan. Are you okay? I heard something breaking."

 

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Mathis was in the shower, standing and watching the water go down the drain. He knew mustmust still be shaken by his discovery. He sighed and began to scrub himself. A faint crashing took him out if his thoughts. He finished showering and wrapped a towel around his waist. A trail of water followed him ass he made his way yards the kitchen. "Ryan. Are you okay? I heard something breaking."

[Kotorichan]

As soon as he heard the shower turn off Ryan moved so his back was to the door. "I-I just dropped a glass, sorry" he tried to keep his voice from shaping but it was pointless, tears were already starting to run down his cheeks.

[pandamonium]

Mathis didn't believe Ryan. He tried to see Ryan's face. "I don't believe you. Please, tell me what's wrong." He bent down to begin picking up the broken dish.

[Kotorichan]

Ryan wiped his eyes as quickly as possible, trying to choke back sobs. "I-I'm sorry, it's really nothing important" he focused on picking up the shards of glass, not even noticing that he cut one of his fingers open.

[pandamonium]

Mathis turned to look at Ryan and noticed a small puddle of blood. He grabbed Ryan's hand. "you're bleeding. It can't be nothing or else you wouldn't be crying. I won't pry, just be careful."

[Kotorichan]

Ryan looked down at his bleeding finger and suddenly burst into tears. "I-I'm sorry, I-I keep thinking about when I s-saw you k-kill and I-I'm having nightmares and I h-hate it"

[pandamonium]

Mathis felt a tightness in his chest. He stayed crouched on the ground. "I'm sorry. I knew it wouldn't work out. My past will continue to haunt me. It's best we don't leave the country. It's not your fault your afraid and constantly suffering from my actions. It's mine." He stood up and walked away from the kitchen.

[Kotorichan]

"Mathis! No!" Ryan stumbled to his feet and rushed after the man. "I want to stay with you, i-its my fault for not being able to forget about that stuff..." He wiped his eyes on his sleeve and tried to grab Mathis' arm. "Please..."

[pandamonium]

Mathis kept a blank expression, staring at Ryan, intently. "Ryan, just...look we'll never get passed this. It isn't something we could just shrug off and go on with our lives. It's best we just end it here and move on with our lives."

[Kotorichan]

Ryan clung to the man's arm and shook his head desperately. "No... Mathis please... I can move past all this I swear, I just need more time" he blinked back more tears that threatened to fall. " please give me another chance, I won't think about it, I won't talk about it... Please"

[pandamonium]

Mathis pulled his arm away from Ryan. Giving him a harsh slap across the face. "Ryan. Please, for the love of God, understand. This won't work. It will never work. We could fantasize about a fairytale life together all we want, but it won't come true. Face reality. We will never get pass this. It'll be in the back of our minds for as long as we stay together." He began to hyperventilating from frustration. Tears ran down his face. He stared Ryan, intently.

[Kotorichan]

Ryan winced at the slap and started to cry, his shoulders shaking in despair. "n-no... Mathis please... I-it's all my fault for mentioning that... p-please forgive me..." he managed to look at the man, his vision blurred by tears. "I-I'm sorry..."

[pandamonium]

Mathis growled and tugged at his hair. "Ryan! Snap out of it! Listen to me: this will never work." Let's just end it here and now." He wiped his eyes. He headed towards the door, not daring to look behind. Every time he tries to leave Ryan, he crawls back to him or Ryan comes running towards him. The only way it seems that they can just end this is for one of them to...die.

[Kotorichan]

"Mathis!" Ryan ran towards him and grabbed his arm, trying to hold him back. "please just let me try... if we can't make it work after a week I won't bother you ever again, just please don't leave me" he sobbed uncontrollably, unable to think straight.

[pandamonium]

Mathis very calmly turned to Ryan. He gave a grin and chuckled. He could end it all in one week. He'll just humor Ryan. "Alright. One week. We'll see how it turns out in one week." He nodded. This could work. He thought.

[Kotorichan]

Ryan's legs shuddered and gave out beneath him as he felt himself overwhelmed by relief. He landed heavily on the floor and looked up at Mathis, still clinging to his sleeve. "P-promise you won't try to break up with me or disappear before that?"

[pandamonium]

Mathis nodded. He dropped down to look at Ryan. Leaning forward and giving Ryan a rough kiss. He pulled away just as fast. "I promise. This week will be unimaginable, to say the least."

[Kotorichan]

Ryan smiled shakily and placed his hands on Mathis' cheeks. "t-thank you... I-I'll do better this time so you can love me again..." he blinked back tears and pressed his forehead to the other's.

[pandamonium]

Mathis felt a painful tinge in his chest. "It's nothing you did wrong. I'm the one at fault. You're already amazing as it is. I'll always love you." Mathis turned Ryan's head and kissed him, softly.

[Kotorichan]

Ryan fought back tears as he returned the kiss. His hands moved to cling to the front of Mathis' shirt in an attempt to stop the other from moving away. He was still scared that Mathis would just disappear and they would never see each other again.

[pandamonium]

Mathis felt his guilt eat away at him. He had never felt such gilt towards anyone, why was Ryan the exception? He knew Ryan needed someone better than him, but he wouldn't listen to reason. He needed to do something about all this. He thought.