I've Returned... ((Ryouta Basket & Sosuke0549))

[Sosuke0549]

"Is he going to be ok?!"

"Sir- step back your too close."

A women said to him as she and another person put Tsuki in the back of the ambulance truck.

"Let me ride in the ambulance with you please! "

"What's your relationship to the patient?"

"He's my- my boy friend! Please let me stay with him"

The women was a little surprised by the boys response. But sighed.

"Alright..."

Aoi quickly got in and took Tsuki's hand...he'd stay by him as much as he could. When they reached the hospital. Security had to to stop him from going into the emergency room with Tsuki. Tears in his eyes as Tsuki's nurse tried to calm him.

"Sir...Sir please calm down. We are doing every thing we can for your friend. Please understand. He's going to be okay..."

The nurse hugged him...and for three hours Aoi paced Up and down the hall way. Worried sick.

 

He was so happy when they finally let him in to see Tsuki. He was all bandaged up but Aoi loved him no differently. He sat by his bed side for hours, sometimes crying... sometimes apologizing...Sometimes kissing his hand, telling him to get better... he was so tried..that he fell asleep.

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He heard a very low voice calling to him...it sounded...so familiar.

"Aoi..."[/Quote]

He felt something move in his hand, squeezing his hand a little... Aoi slowly opened his eyes and sat up, hearing his name again. His red eyes widened. They were red from crying so much.

"Yout awake! Your finally awake"

Aoi quickly wrapped his arms around the others neck, barring himself into the others neck.

"Idiot! You stupid...stupid idiot! Don't you ever scare me like that again- I won't forgive you..."

His voice trembled, His body was slightly shaking. He had thought he had lost his love...

"I can't lose you....I'm sorry...I'm sorry I didn't come when I promised..."

[Ryouta]

Tsuki could barely see, could barely hear thought he was trying his best to keep his eyes open and to keep his ears exact to a sound so he might hear something from his only beloved. Yes, he loved Aoi and he wanted him to talk to him. He knew that he hated him now though he couldn't give up on hope and wishing for Aoi coming back to him just like old times. When they were madly in love! In just those 5 months. He wanted to have another chance so that he could make those days to turn back to them and even better! He would do anything to make Aoi happy this time, not only as his friend or boyfriend but also as his lover and the person whom he shares his life and place with.

 

He wants to hug him and give him kissed or maybe receive one after he got back home. Those dreams were just so beautiful that Tsuki couldn't believe that one day they would be real. Though wasn't about to give up! Since he heard something like Aoi was back for him this time and to stay, he heard that when he was unconscious talking with Aoi so he was not sure if he had heard right or not but that...born out a light of hope in his heart...if it only had been real, he would appreciate it.

 

He tried hard to stay awake and it seems that he was succeed to attract Aoi`s attention. The boy took his head away from the bed and looked up at Tsuki with his red eyes. Was he crying that much? Tsuki breathed heavily, seeing his lover like that made him hurt and blaming himself for it. The shorter`s boy`s eyes were now widened by seeing the basketball player finally awake, was he...surprised? Happy?

"Your awake! Your finally awake"

Finally? When did he collapsed? Was it too long until he wakes up? Did he make Aoi worried? The questions were making him feel worse and worse but he couldn't help it since his mind and heart....both were connect to Aoi. He wanted to say something but didn't know what and even if he did, he wouldn't have time to since Aoi wrapped his arms immediately around his neck, barring himself into it afterwards.

"Idiot! You stupid...stupid idiot! Don't you ever scare me like that again- I won't forgive you..."

He won't forgive him? It wasn't the word that Tsuki could bare at the moment. He breathed heavily a few more times. Each time he did, an amazing familiar smell he felt...it was Aoi`s scent, it made his heart to beat faster and his mind all messed up, even harder to breath and harder for having the other`s arm around his neck.

"I can't lose you....I'm sorry...I'm sorry I didn't come when I promised..."

The pianist voice trembled and his body could be felt shaking and it made Tsuki`so sake along with it. He cough a few times. Hearing the boy apologizing like that made his eyes to fill with tears again. He could barely move or speak but he mouth upped to say something. He tried his best.

"I love you...sorry..."

He whispered in a very low voice when his right hand was raised up to reach the other`s face, to caress it and touch it but didn't have the power to, his bandaged hand because of the cut of the glass`s injury still burning out of pain, the hand fell as his tears started to fall one by one. All he could to was to stare...with no touch.

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Tsuki coughed a few times. Making him worry about the other even more.

"Tsuki.,"

He looked at him, seeing his eyes fill with tears again.

"I love you...sorry..."[/Quote]

He whispered in a very low voice, the other could barely speak...

"I...I love you too."

The others right hand raised up, as if the other wanted to reach his face, to caress it and touch it but didn't have the power to, his bandaged hand stopped him. And his hand fell, just as his tears fell...

"No..No...don't cry... Tsuki.."

It pained him to see the other banged and hurt and crying. He cupped his lovers cheek, slowly whipping his tears away.

"I love you...I love you so much... when I saw you collapse, I felt my hole life stop.. I was terrified that...you'd leave me. Just like my parents...when you get better...I'll move in with you... I'll stay with you. I'll do anything just never leave Me...!"

He looked into him eyes, His voice cracking.

"And I know- I'm being unfair and selfish! But I can't help it. Y-your...your mine.."

He whispered. A tear slipping from his eyes.

Yes.. his...Aoi wasn't scared to say it. The other was his and no one elses! He refused to share him with anyone. Tsuki was hia family now...his best friend and lover... he was everything! And meant to much to him!

[Ryouta]

"Tsuki."

Hearing him calling his name...again, made him really happy. His heart started to beat faster as he took a deep breath, still looking at the other. It felt good even if he wasn't sure what was he going to tell him next. He wanted to apologize again and beg him to stay but he also didn't want to fore himself on Aoi...He was up to him to choose though Tsuki knew that how painful it was going to be and anything...anything he was about to say, changed his destiny.

"I...I love you too."

Really? He did? Tsuki breathe heavily again, each second it was harder and harder to breath and to keep his eyes open though he had to bare and he hadn't to watch...had to listen what was Aoi going to say....maybe it wasn't all a dream. Tsuki was happy...that at least the other didn't hate him and still loved him back...it was a miracle.

"No..No...don't cry... Tsuki.."

He couldn't, it was not something possible...they were just falling by their own...After hearing the other confessing, it made hi heart to stop beating for a second and tears to fell more though Tsuki was silence, there was no sob, no words...there was just a hopeful eyes gazing at Aoi`s lips...Waiting for a few calming words since he wanted to trust the thing named 'hope' and didn't give up.

The other gently placed his hands on his cheeks, caressing his face, putting his tears away. He finally talked out his thoughts, his voice cracking.

"I love you...I love you so much... when I saw you collapse, I felt my hole life stop.. I was terrified that...you'd leave me. Just like my parents...when you get better...I'll move in with you... I'll stay with you. I'll do anything just never leave Me...!"

Tsuki`s eyes widened when the other whispered, he saw the other let a tear fell on his cheek.

"And I know- I'm being unfair and selfish! But I can't help it. Y-your...your mine.."

That was the first time that...Aoi had told him he was his...there were many times that Tsuki said that Aoi was his and he wouldn't hand him over anyone and....he wouldn't let anybody to touch him but this time, he finally answered the thing that Tsuki wanted to know. Tsuki was happy, too delighted that breathing got hard again as he cough... All he could just do was to give the other a gentle smile as he nodded and closed his eyes.

"Thanks you..."

He talked once more, this time a bit more louder as he raised his hand up once more and he managed to wrap his arm around the other`s waist and pulled him closer....it seemed like that Aoi`s words gave his arm a power so that he could touch him and feel him again...

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Aoi had finally did it. He told Tsuki that he was his. His lover often told him that he was his and no one else's but...now the tables had turned and he finally told him that he was. Aoi didn't want to lose Tsuki... or share him...or argue with him. He wanted to be with him...live with him...maybe even...marry him.

 

Tsuki knew him better then He knew himself!

His lovers breathing got hard again as he coughed giving him a gentle smile as he nodded and closed his eyes. Aoi was worried about him, even tho his nurse said he'd be ok.

"Thank you..."[/Quote]

He said, raising his hand up once more and he managed to wrap his arm around his waist and pull him closer. God Aoi loved him!! Here he was... banged and hurt and yet he was still trying to comfort him...

"Go to sleep...get better...I promise I'll be Here when you wake up..I...I won't leave with out you...Tsuki.."

He whispered and gently kissed his forehead. He'd look after Tsuki until he was well.. He felt like part of this was his fault, and he needed to make it up to him somehow. What they had.. Millions of people wanted badly... they had true.. real... pure... love..~

[Ryouta]

"Go to sleep...get better...I promise I'll be Here when you wake up..I...I won't leave with out you...Tsuki.."

Aoi whispered as he kissed the other`s forehead. He was so kind and so warm....it made Tsuki calm though he didn't want to sleep just like that. The basketball player shook his head when he looked directly at Aoi. He felt like that he was better to talk probably now. He couldn't take the damn room. He hated hospital and it made him feel that he is weak to go there.

 

He pushed the other a bit closer, he didn't want to miss the chance that the other was actually this close again.

"Please...I just want to leave, tell the nurse..."

He whispered as he tried to sat up in the bed. He knew that probably Aoi would stop him and he would like it when he was worried. He felt completely refreshed when Aoi talked to him like that so he could feel his strength back to his body again. He sat up completely as he tried to take a rest and leaned to the wall.

 

Still having the other in his arms, he pulled him closer and kissed him gently on his lips. Oh god! He had missed the softness and almost forgot the taste. It wasn't like the Tsuki that felt not well on the bed just a second ago. It seemed like the usual Tsuki when he licked his own lips seductively.

He smiled gently at the other when pulled him closer and let the other to bury his face in his chest. He leaned his head on him and closed his eyes.

"Let`s just..stay like this a few seconds then leave..."

He whispered and then kissed the other`s forehead. He started to smell him afterward...the scent seemed to be changed from the last two years... which shampoo was he using now? There were many things that he wanted to ask, he wanted to know!

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Tsuki pulled him closer

"Please...I just want to leave, tell the nurse..."[/Quote]

Aoi was rather surprised, he shook his head.

"You have to get better"

He said refusing. Tsuki tried to sit up but Aoi tried to stop him worried.

"Tsuki! Lay back down!"

Tsuki still had him in his arms pulling him even closer and suddenly kissed him gently on his lips. Aoi kissed him back, he loved feeling his lips. So he couldn't resist. He smiled gently at him, bearing His face into his chest. Tsuki smelled so good! And was so happy He was ok, Tsuki leaned his head on him and closed his eyes.

"Let`s just..stay like this a few seconds then leave..."[/Quote]

"T-Tsuki...they want to keep you over night..."

His love kissed His forehead, making him blush.

"Are you ok? Your feeling ok? Do you need the nurse? "

[Ryouta]

Aoi seemed surprised, he shook his head to refuse the basketball player .

"You have to get better"

He was even trying to stop him from sitting, in a very worried way, come on!Tsuki was not a child!

"Tsuki! Lay back down!"

Though Tsuki probably knew every part of him and to how stop him from nagging ad telling him to lay back. His kiss worked on him and made him to kiss the taller male back. Tsuki probably knew that he couldn't resist how passionate the other was. He loved that and he just couldn't wait to tease him for another reason.

"T-Tsuki...they want to keep you over night..."

He sighed as he looked at the view of the window. He wanted to go out and he would.

"I don't care what they want, I don't want to stay in the hospital, I hate it so we'll leave!"

Aoi blushed when he was kissed, it made the other grin evilly.

"Are you ok? Your feeling ok? Do you need the nurse? "

"I don't need one, I'm fine!"

He said as he hugged at the other tightly, trembling a bit. He slowly pushed away as he placed his feet on the bed and tried to stand. He soon as he let go of the bed, he lost balance and sat back...he groaned, he hated to feel weak though he had to accept that he was not feeling well yet and couldn't walk like that. He looked back at his lover.

"Help me Aoi, I can't do it myself!"

[Sosuke0549]

Tsuki sighed. Aoi followed his gaze. He was looking out the window.

"I don't care what they want, I don't want to stay in the hospital, I hate it so we'll leave!"[/Quote]

Aoi didn't want to argue with the other but, he wanted him to be safe. To be healthy and heal himself. Why was He so stubborn!

" Tsuki there professional's, even If you don't want to stay its probably for the best! Don't make me worry about you! I promise to stay here with you"

When he offered to get a nurse his lover quickly refused.

"I don't need one, I'm fine!"[/Quote]

The basketball player put his arms around his small frame, hugging him tightly, that's when he realized that Tsuki was trembling a bit. What was wrong? Was he...scared of hospitals?

"T-Tsuki..."

The other slowly pushed him away as he placed his feet on the floor to stand But as soon as he let go of the bed, He lost his balance sitting back down and groaning. That was it! He couldn't even stand! He had to make Tsuki stay. His love looked back at him.

"Help me Aoi, I can't do it myself!"[/Quote]

"...Tsuki...I know you don't want to be here but..they want you to stay over night..they are doctors and nurses for a reason. There job is to make sure your ok! If you don't lay back down I'll....I'll..tell the nurses to tie you down!"

He threatened but...Aoi was too adorable to take seriously.

"I'm not going to help you- please just...stay the night.."

He took the others hand and held it tightly. Worry in his eyes.

"...Tsuki...this is where I lost my parents...in a hospital just like this one..I don't want to see you go either. Your bleeding finally stop...And I was so scared be cause there was so much blood...just...please just give yourself time to heal...and listen to the nurses. Do it for me..."

He looking into Tsuki's eyes. They were sad...

[Ryouta]

Tsuki was tired and exhausted, being in there just made him angry and irritated, he wanted to go home.

" Tsuki there professional's, even If you don't want to stay its probably for the best! Don't make me worry about you! I promise to stay here with you"

Tsuki sighed once more, Aoi just couldn't get him! He knew already he was going to stay, that wasn't the problem, he couldn't bear the place.

He hated a place just with one color and hospital was exactly like that! It had rooms with white walls and stuffs, it annoyed him and he`d rather to leave the place.

He started to feel that from a special day though he didn't want to talk about it with Aoi...

There was just once that he`d ever entered the hospital and that was the time he was trying to kill himself...after he found out that Aoi had moved and he couldn't in him, after he noticed that he was going to be alone...

"T-Tsuki..."

Hearing the other calling him made him snap out of the thoughts and also he was a bit irritated that he knew that he wasn't going to leave the hospital on his own feet since he couldn't stand though he just had a little hope that Aoi might help him but he was wrong...

"...Tsuki...I know you don't want to be here but..they want you to stay over night..they are doctors and nurses for a reason. There job is to make sure your ok! If you don't lay back down I'll....I'll..tell the nurses to tie you down!

That was a bit mean to tell him that he was going to have the nurse tie him down, though it didn't make Tsuki angry and also he found it funny as he chuckled. He looked at the other with a gentle gaze, raised his hands, placed it on his cheek and stroking it gently, still chuckling.

"They are not going to do that with someone like me, my injury is not that serious and I'm not a crazy person to be tied up to bed."

He explained to the shorter boy though he wasn't about to give up.

"I'm not going to help you- please just...stay the night.."

He held the boyfriend`s hand and squeezed tightly, you could see worry in his eyes. Those words kinda made Tsuki to change his expression to a serious one...he hated to be force on something and Aoi probably had to knew that more than others so why wouldn't he understand...His gaze turned into a serious one...

"...Tsuki...this is where I lost my parents...in a hospital just like this one..I don't want to see you go either. Your bleeding finally stop...And I was so scared be cause there was so much blood...just...please just give yourself time to heal...and listen to the nurses. Do it for me..."

Tsuki looked away, he felt hurt to hear that but Aoi was just too worried, Tsuki didn't cut his wrist or something, there were just a few cuts of glass on his hands and feet and a bandage on his head...He was alright so why...Aoi was acting like he was something really special, he couldn't resist anymore. He just laid back on bed as he closed his eyes, tried his best not to tear since he heard him talking about his parents again. He agreed to stay but just couldn't say in words.

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Tsuki chucked as Aoi threatened to tell the nurses to tie him down if he didn't stay. He looked at him with a gentle gaze, raising his hands and placing them on his cheeks stroking them gently, but still chuckling!

"They are not going to do that with someone like me, my injury is not that serious and I'm not a crazy person to be tied up to bed."[/Quote]

Aoi frowned. Perhaps he had a point but still!

Tsuki's expression suddenly changed to a serious one once Aoi told him that he wasn't going to help him. His love looked away from him no doubt feeling hurt. But to his surprise he laid back down on the bed closing his eyes.

Aoi wanted to smile but didn't.

He looked at the ground.

"Thank you...and...i-I'm sorry..."

He said in a quiet voice, looking down at his bandaged wrists. He had cut himself alot the other day but hopped Tsuki wouldn't see.

"Um...try to get some sleep.."

He said standing up to grab a blanket for himself. He'd sleep in the uncomfortable chair by the others bed side, He didn't want to leave hos side be cause to him, Tsuki was very spiceal.

[Ryouta]

Tsuki had only a person to love and to protect and that person was Aoi, sitting next to him on a chair and waiting for him to get better...it was for his sake, right? So he had to give up and just stay there, though he hated to do that he had to since it was Aoi`s request...he had to...

"Thank you...and...i-I'm sorry..."

Tsuki couldn't resist hearing him apologizing...He had to say his sorry, damn it!

He wanted to to somehow talk to the other again though didn't know what to say or how to bring up something. He didn't know what the other was doing but he could feel that he voice was quiet. He also wanted to know where Aoi was was in the past five days...

Who was he with?...

And what was he doing all that time?...

"Um...try to get some sleep.."

Tsuki looked back at the other, he couldn't resist the way the other spoke to him, he felt like that he was being controlled by Aoi and he'd love it...h didn't mind Aoi to do anything to him.

He didn't want to be apart for hm so before he could walk away for the blankets, he grabbed his hand and looked into his eyes deeply, pulling him gently.

"At least ay down next to me.."

He requested and wished hopelessly that he could hold him in his arms. He loved Aoi and wanted to treasure him...

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Aoi could feel Tsuki's gaze on him. Before he could walk away to get himself a blanket Tsuki grabbed his hand and looked into his eyes deeply, gently pulling him closer. Aoi blushed.

"At least lay down next to me.."[/Quote]

His love requested. Aoi bit his lip before glancing at the door. He wondered if the nurse or doctors would be upset with him if he did. And there wasn't really any room from him, unless he was practicality laying on top of the other. And he knew if the other began to tease him it would be hard to resist him.

"On...one condition...no..teasing me.."

He said rather firmly. He waited for the other to say yes. And he knew he would...He flicked off the hospital light and slowly climbed into the small bed with Tsuki. He sat up, and pulled the others head to his chest, His fingers gently sliding three the basketball players hair. He felt guilty and thought it was his fault that Tsuki was in here. So he'd pamper him just a little. His free hand touched Tsuki's gently intertwining and locking there hands together. He had always taken care of him...and now that he was hurt, it was time for Aoi to return the favor.

"n-now..try to go to sleep"

He muttered. He couldn't help but think Tsuki would try something tho. He always did...but maybe he was too tried too. And maybe...his injuries would prevent him.

[Ryouta]

Aoi bit his request when heard his request and looked at the door, he was probably worried about others like nurses or doctor saw them and get angry but Tsuki wasn't at all one bit, he was actually looking for a way to leave immediately so if they complained about anything...

"On...one condition...no..teasing me.."

Tsuki blinked as he chuckled, he couldn't help found the other really cute when he was thinking of some passionate things like that...Tsuki wasn't intending on doing that that all but anyways he'd to except so that the other would come to him, he had no other choice since he knew that he couldn't relax on the uncomfortable bed without Aoi in his hold.

He nodded in order to tell the other that he'd agreed!

Now that he accepted, he wanted to pull the other close though he didn't have the time to do that since Aoi went to turn of the room`s light and then got back and climbed into the small bed, next to Tsuki..and pulled the basketball lover`s head closer and let him to bury it in his chest. He closed his eyes as he squeezed the other back tightly, smelling him as a bright blush appeared on his face, he liked it and felt really calm with the other`s fingers digging into his black hair, Tsuki felt a small hand locking into his and he did the same...He had truly missed the other.

"n-now..try to go to sleep"

Tsuki opened his eyes as he trembled, he took the other`s hand tightly and moved it closer to his lips, pressing a kiss on his fingers as he saw something around the other`s wrist, were they...bandages? On Aoi`s wrist? Tsuki tensed as he sat up back on the bed, still holding Aoi`s hand, he forcefully pulled the sleeve up and gazed at the wrist in shock, dd he cut himself??

He was out of control now again, angry and mad at himself and Aoi, he bit his lips as he glanced back at the shorter boy, trying to not yell but...

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS AOI? answer me!"

He shouted, his voice cracking, he was tired and hurt, he had pain and he had to suffer with the other hurting himself too, he was at his limit.

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It was nice, it felt so nice to have Tsuki back. To pamper him a little bit. But his joy quickly came to an end, becoming sour. His love opened his eyes as he trembled taking his hand tightly and brought it to his lips, making Aoi blush at the sweet and charming move. Tsuki suddenly

tensed as he sat up again on the bed. Aoi looked at him confused.

"What is it?"

The other still held him close and Aoi's eyes widened when Tsuki forcefully pulled his sleeve up and saw His wrist! Aoi quickly struggled to pull his hand away, and hide it from the others gaze.

"I-it's nothing...! I..I'm ok"

But it was too late Tsuki blew a fuse! Getting upset with him.

He bit his lips and glanced back at him and raised his voice at him as he yelled.

"WHAT THE HELL IS THIS AOI? answer me!"[/Quote]

Aoi flinched hearing Tsuki yell at him. The younger boy covered his wrist. His eyes watering.

"n...nothing...I...I'm..."

He began to hide his face, rubbing his eyes as his hands trembled. Trying not to show the other that his eyes were watering.

"I'm...I'm sorry..."

Did the other hate him now?

[Ryouta]

Aoi blushed when the other took his hand and pressed a gentle kiss on the small fingers and after a few seconds confused about his boyfriend`s action. Did he want to play and act like that nothing had happened, even if it was obvious with the bandages around his wrist? Or he didn't notice that Tsuki found out?

Tsuki couldn't believe that he did it again, what was the point of cutting himself anyway??

"What is it?"

Asking in that cute little tone of voice...Why was he doing that? Each time he spoke made Tsuki`s heart to break apart...Why should you do this? He thought inside, still gazing at the bandage around the wrist which he was holding.

"I-it's nothing...! I..I'm ok"

Nothing he said then with his widened eyes, he struggled to push the hand away.

If it was nothing then why was e acting so strange, it was a bit too late to lie unfortunately...

Aoi almost flinched hearing Tsuki yelled at him, maybe Tsuki was going too far but he was scared and worried...he didn't want to lose him because he'd cut his hand for nothing!

"n...nothing...I...I'm..."

The boy managed to take back his hand, covering the wrist and the eyes gathered with tears, he tried to hide his face, rubbing his eyes as he trembled...probably didn't want to show the basket lover that he was crying but Tsuki had already seen it.

"I'm...I'm sorry..."

Tsuki didn't seriously know what to say...he looked away as his tears gathered around his eyes as he started to sub in silent like a child...regretting for meeting Aoi again...

"Maybe I should have never came back...you were living happily anyway..."

He paused, his throat was blocked and he couldn't speak much...

"I wished that I were never made you fall in love with me, you could have wonderful world without me in that way..."

He fast covered his body in the blanket...He ignored the other...completely...

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Tsuki looked away from him. And what happened next made his heart shatter into a million pieces.

"Maybe I should have never came back...you were living happily anyway..."[/Quote]

Aoi' s eyes widened As he stared at the other not wanting to believe What he just heard.

The other paused, clearing his throat.

"I wished that I were never made you fall in love with me, you could have wonderful world without me in that way..."[/Quote]

No...no! This wasn't happening!

"T-Tsuki--"

He went to touch him, but he quickly shielded himself with his blanket and began to ignore him...completely... Doing such a thing hurt Aoi extremely. Tears streaming from his eyes like never ending rain. He wanted him to look at him!

"Y-you don't mean that! You don't! Take it back! Take it back! "

He raised his voice, His voice creaking as he cried. He gripped the others blanket.

"Look at me! P-please...please look at me Tsuki! ...I'm sorry...I'm really sorry! "

He sobbed. Begging and demanding Tsuki to look at him. Aoi's chest felt all tight, his body trembled. He had suddenly got this awful gut wrenching feeling. The same one that he got the day Tsuki broke up with him... He hated this feeling. HE HATED IT!

But he felt like no matter what he said right now...the other would ignore him. It hurt...God it hurt. It hurt so much to have that man you love pretend you don't exist.

Please...please don't ingore me

He thought. Unable to take it any more, he stood and hurried out of Tsuki's room. Leaving him alone as he ran outside the hospital building to cry.

 

Aoi Sat in the grass, in the hospital's garden. Trying to cry silently so no nurse or doctor would hear him. He stared at his bandaged wrist. No pain could compare to what he was feeling now... he wanted to make the Pain go away...and cutting helped him do so...but it never completely got rid of the pain He earned to get rid of. Was the other so upset that he'd break up with him again. That was Aoi's greatest fear.

"y-you promised..you said...you wouldn't hurt me again"

He whispered to himself. As he continued to cry. He hated himself...were the two them just destined to hurt each other. Was there love...pointless.

[Ryouta]

Before Tsuki could turn his face from the loved, he could feel the little boy was shocked, frustrated!

"T-Tsuki--"

With such widened eyes...he kept starring at his broken heart boyfriend, probably didn't want to believe what he had just heard though it was the truth.

Tsuki didn't want to accept it but he was at the limits!

It just sucked!

He seen the hand was raised up probably to reach him half way until it was out of his side when he turned his face away from the other...he wondered what face did the other made in that moment...was he angry? Scared or Disappointed? He couldn't tell until he felt his sense telling him that the pianist was crying!

"Y-you don't mean that! You don't! Take it back! Take it back! "

He raised his voice, yelled and Tsuki guessed right. He was crying...The voice was terrible!

"Look at me! P-please...please look at me Tsuki! ...I'm sorry...I'm really sorry! "

Continued crying with the same cracked tone of voice, he began to grip the sheets...It seemed like that he was asking for him to look at Aoi in the eye though to Tsuki it seemed more like a demand though he didn't have the courage to look back at the boy...

And the way the othewr said his sorry! It hurt Tsuki so much! Aoi was just taking all of this wrong.....it wasn't like that he broke up with him again...like hell he would do such a thing though he couldn't forgive himself for making such a suffering and horrible life for his lover, maybe Aoi would forgive him though he couldn't forgive his own self...

Damn it, why are you apologizing, what have you done to hurt me? Can't you understand....that I'm no good?

He thought on his heart, wondering if he should just give up ignoring...

 

Though it seemed a bit to late for that! He heard the other`s steps out of the room. He could feel the loneliness...again, maybe he hadn't lose his parents though he never loved them to feel what is losing them meant! He felt alone as always! He squeezed his body in the blanket, his whole body shaking, his tears falling...he knew that Aoi wouldn't come back to him and he wouldn't trust him for the third time, it was the worst and he wanted to die though he noticed it himself that Aoi...probably had only the basketball player now with him...

He had to go...even if he was injured, he had to clear up the misunderstanding!

He slowly sat up as he moved to the edge fast, he forcefully pushed himself up in order to stand...it hurt, it his legs hurt a lot though he didn't give up, grinding his teeth! He leaned to the wall and with the help of that he could manage to leave the room...

Continuing to do the same in the hall so he could find a way to leave the building, looking everywhere for his beloved though he couldn't find him until one of the nurses saw him and ran to him to take him back to the room though as Tsuki noticed, he started running out of nowhere...he could feel he was out of breath but still resisted...he could finally escape from the nurse and ran out of the hospital...he had a headache now, his body aching, he leaned to the wall again, breathing hard, sweating badly! His arm holding the other one as he saw his beloved on the grass, crying! He bit his teeth as he tried to call him loud but he wasn't feeling well and his voice didn't reach him...

"Aoi...Aoi..."

He called...again and again and when felt that his voice was useless, he tried to take a step as he fainted on the stairs...the people around the hospital screaming and going for the poor teenage as the nurses came out themselves to take him back.

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Aoi was silent as he sat in a hospital chair. Sitting by Tsuki's side once more. Recalling what had happened...the other had went out to look for him despite how much pain he was in...the doctors and nurses ran to Tsuki's side when he fell down the stairs and Aoi was shocked and worried about the basketball player. He did all that for him...even tho he was upset with him.

Aoi looked at the ground as he held Tsuki's hand with both of his hands... his eyes red from crying so much and so was his nose.

"Y-You know...I use to be really scared of hospitals...I still think I am..when my parents died...I told myself I could never step into this hospital again we're they left me...But...I'd come in here a hundred times over for you Tsuki! I'm sorry..I'm sorry I upset you...I'm sorry I cut myself... I've- I've done it for so long...when you left..and they left...all I had was a knife and my wrist...I'm sorry...I'll stop...I'll force myself to stop, as long as your not disappointed in me as long as you look at me! Please...please don't ignore me..your...your everything...you mean everything to me...and it hurt..it hurt so much when you pretended I didn't exist..."

He sniffles a tear sliding down his face. Aoi was a cryer, growing up, He was always told to release his emotions...and one of his main ways of doing so was crying.

"P-please...please don't be mad at me...please don't break up with me...I promise! I promise I'll stop cutting...I'll do anything to make you stay with Me...I Can't...I can't go on with out you Tsuki...i- I can't...I can't"

He let go of the other hand covering his face.

"I love you...I love you so much that it hurts inside..."

Aoi desperately wanted to stay by Tsuki's side and often thought about marrying him someday when the time was right.

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Tsuki was trying to get a hold of himself when collapsed though he didn't got the time to since he felt really dizzy and people gathered around the stairs, looking at him until the nurses and doctors came...He couldn't breath probably and didn't recognize any of the people around him trying to help him until somebody familiar got close that seemed so worried about the red eyed boy. Tsuki tried to clear his version and noticed somebody so important to him...he was glad that Aoi came for him once more even though he said all those things to him.

Now they were back in the room again, he was taken there by the nurses and doctors examine him once more...afterward he was alone with Aoi. He didn't know what to say, should he had to apologize now? He wondered though he didn't think that he was angry with him since his hand was being warmed up by the other`s both hands. As usual his nose and eyes red from crying much...

"Y-You know...I use to be really scared of hospitals...I still think I am..when my parents died...I told myself I could never step into this hospital again we're they left me...But...I'd come in here a hundred times over for you Tsuki! I'm sorry..I'm sorry I upset you...I'm sorry I cut myself... I've- I've done it for so long...when you left..and they left...all I had was a knife and my wrist...I'm sorry...I'll stop...I'll force myself to stop, as long as your not disappointed in me as long as you look at me! Please...please don't ignore me..your...your everything...you mean everything to me...and it hurt..it hurt so much when you pretended I didn't exist..."

The poor younger teenage sniffed and a tear started to drip down from the fair skin of his cheek. The boy was a real crier, Tsuki always wondered before and he did it again. How much more did the other had tears to let them fall?

Tsuki couldn't be nothing but more hurt when he talked about his parents again though it made him feel better when Aoi promised to stop himself from cutting his wrists. The only thing his lover wanted instead was to stay with him and don't ignore him...Aoi was exactly like the basketball player...they were both hopelessly in love.

"P-please...please don't be mad at me...please don't break up with me...I promise! I promise I'll stop cutting...I'll do anything to make you stay with Me...I Can't...I can't go on with out you Tsuki...i- I can't...I can't"

Tsuki had never intend on doing that...he knew that he had to clear up the misunderstanding though he liked the way the other told him he couldn't go on without him. He felt delighted inside...

The boy let go of the other`s hand, covering his face...that was the time Tsuki sat up back on the bed, gazing at the boy.

"I love you...I love you so much that it hurts inside..."

Exactly the same feeling he had...it was too much deep that he couldn't say it himself. It was so powerful and painful for the taller male. He tried to not lose himself though, Aoi needed comfort so he had to give him. He slowly moved closer as he wrapped his arms around him and hugged him tightly. He let the other bury his face in his chest, he stroked the back of the boy`s hair...making him relax.

"I love you too...and I know that I'm the reason for all of your suffering and pains though I won't leave you...not anymore, I'll take responsibility and stay with you forever, I Promise..."

He muttered in the other`s ears and smiled, his eyes fell sightly.

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Tsuki must of known he needed comfort. He slowly moved closer to him wrapping his arms around him and hugged him tightly. Aoi quickly bared his face in the others chest, calming down and relaxing as he stroked the back of his hair. Tsuki's touch was so gentle...so perfect!

"I love you too...and I know that I'm the reason for all of your suffering and pains though I won't leave you...not anymore, I'll take responsibility and stay with you forever, I Promise..."[/Quote]

Forever? ...Tsuki would stay with him forever?! Aoi nodded quickly. He wanted Tsuki...and now he had him...forever. He was so happy to finally hear those words.

"T-thank you...thank you.. s-so much..."

He whispered.

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Aoi quickly buried his face into the other`s chest, calming down...Tsuki was happy to that and he was relaxed to finally hear that the boy finally decided to stop hurting himself and if it was only Tsuki he needed to live. Tsuki would absolutely give upo his own life to protect the musician. That's what a boyfriend does!

"T-thank you...thank you.. s-so much..."

Aoi nodded after he heard the other and whispered the sentence. It made Tsuki to tighten the hug. He now felt a bit better. He could feel and he knew that seeing the other happy and next to him from now on until forever turn the power back to his body and washed away the pain. Tsuki let go gently and then pressed his lips against the other`s gently, wondered if the other would kiss him back.

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Tsuki tightened the hug. Aoi loved those big strong arms around him. He felt so safe and loved... Tsuki let go of him and suddenly gently pressed his lips against his. Aoi was practically powerless against Tsuki... He slowly closed his eyes, kissing him back and opening His mouth a little bit so the other could slip his tongue in His mouth if he wanted. He loved the basketball player with all his heart...and He was happy He came back for him.

[Ryouta]

Tsuki loved the way the other kissed him back.It made him to smirk, he slowly moved his hand to the other`s soft hair and pulled them up, playing with them as he felt the mouth was opened for letting him slip his tongue inside...He let his eyes fell again and then kissed him back harshly with his tongue attacking the inside of his mouth. The strong move make the smaller boy to being pushed back so Tsuki caught his back immediately so he wouldn't fall from the bed...he wasn't like that they kissed each other the other day, it felt like ages for the basketball player.

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Aoi could feel the others lips curl into a smirk, as he slowly moved his hand to his hair. Pulling on his locks, and playing with them, Aoi gripped the bed sheets, getting up a little from his chair to kiss Tsuki even more. He was addicted to the basketball players kisses. Aoi flinched as his love harshly kissed him, his tongue attacking the inside of his mouth. The strong move made Aoi begin to push back so Tsuki caught his back immediately so he wouldn't fall from the bed that he was now on... his frail and elegant body hovering over Tsuki's . Aoi struggled to play With the others tongue, panting a little. As he gripped the boys shirt. The room so dark...Aoi was blushing as he slowly broke their hot kiss...a thin line of saliva connecting them. His eyes in a haze of lust..and Want..

"T...Tsuki.."

He whispered the others name, cupping his face for a moment only for his hand to wonder into his dark locks, gripping his hair forcefully.

"O-one more.."

He whimpered. He knew the other was probably still not feeling well so he didn't want to over do it.. but he loved it when the other was rough and a little mean to him. It got him so aroused, however he'd NEVER admit it.