~Two sides of a man~ (Bellala99 and Ayakashiu) 18+

[Ayakashiu]

This was..a total failure from his side, Liam was thinking, as he was getting pulled to the suitable place. He was figuring how to get rid of Pierre, since he was too shy to do it in front of him. He didn't want to be rude but it would be just too awkward if he would be watched or if the blonde stayed somewhere near.

"You prefer handjobs or blowjobs?"

W-wha..what kind of question is that?" he blushed and looked away from that piercing gaze. "I never got a..blowjob before," he added quietly. Liam found it hard to speak, as the other started to touch him down there. It felt really good, but he barely knew the guy, they can't just do this kind of stuff together. He grabbed his hand, intending to pull it away, but the blonde's words stopped him.

 

Is it really okay, to let him do this for me? We hardly know each other and we're both boys.. Will he expect me to return the favour? But it feels good and I want to be touched by someone else. When he thought about how old he was and still without experience, his mind was made. He let go of the other's hand, saying shyly, "Would you..please give me a blowjob?" His face was burning, when he requested that, but he was resolute to discovere new things, so why not start with this?

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"That's a very proper question for this kind of a situation." Pierre murmured into the other's ear, letting out a quiet chuckle. Thanks to that, a bit of hot air was blown straight into Liam's ear. "I'd be glad to be your first, then." He whispered out as his hand worked over the other's length, gently touching and stroking it through his pants.

 

When his hand was grabbed, the blond glanced up at the younger one. However, his lips stretched out into a grin at the request. "My pleasure, cutie." He said with a quiet chuckle. Before moving to his main job, the man pressed a soft kiss to Liam's neck. Nothing more than that - just his soft lips pressing to the delicate skin there, leaving a lingering touch. He always liked neck kisses... They could mean nothing, or they could mean the start of something more.

 

Slowly moving to his knees, Pierre first gave the other's cock a few licks through his pants, all the while looking up at him with his sharp eyes. "Can I?" He asked with a light grin as he gently tugged on the other's pants. The blond licked his lips slightly, his other hand gently sliding up Liam's thigh. He wanted to feel his skin... It was probably smooth...

[Ayakashiu]

A gust of air, Pierre let out when he chuckled, hit Liam's ear directly, making his member twitch. He didn't know his ear was that sensitive, or his neck. He felt a shadow of the kiss even after the other moved away. He also didn't know, he can come really fast, if there was someone's mouth near his lower regions. As Pierre kneeled down, Liam had trouble keeping it in. He was on the verge of bursting and all the licking and touching him, didn't really help with his self control.

 

Liam gave a jerk with his head, giving the other the permission to do whatever he wants. He was already panting and he was barely holding the moans in. Why am I so aroused? Is it because this is my frist time? Or is it because this is Pierre? He decided it was best to speed up things, or he might just come into his pants, like a high-school boy, who just hit puberty. He didn't want to embarass himself in front of Pierre, although he probably did already.

 

He started to unbuckle his belt, his fingers trembling a little, awkwardly opening his zipper and unbuttoning his pants. "J-just..do it already," he got out through clenched teeth, his panting making it hard to speak. He slipped on of his hands in Pierre's hair, wanting to touch him too, but only reaching his head.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Pierre couldn't hold in the soft, quiet chuckle at how embarrassed the other was. The blond watched quietly as Liam unbuttoned his pants and undid the zipper. For a short moment, he stayed still and quiet, wondering just how long would this guy last. It would be no fun if he just came like that... Maybe after this they could go further? Not that he was neccessarily going to get hard, but he didn't like things that took too short.

 

Gently taking and pulling down Liam's pants, Pierre laughed quietly at the sudden length that sprung out of the boxers. He glanced up at Liam with a small smirk as he, rather roughly, trailed his tongue over the whole length. The salty taste of precum was something he liked... He was used to the taste, but each person still had a bit of a different flavor. Just slightly...

 

Slowly putting his lips around the tip, Pierre finally closed his eyes and slowly let the other's cock slide into his mouth. His tongue somewhat lazily licked along the sides, even when the cock was in his mouth. The other's hand in his hair felt nice... Lightly pushing into his touch, Pierre started sucking. He went slow at first, but that was just how he started... Just... Who knew if he would even get to speed up at all.

[Ayakashiu]

Feeling uncomfortable, Liam looked down on the blonde, thinking why he's smiling all the time. Probably because you're such a virgin, who can't even hold it in.. he thought to himself. It was hard for him, getting teased like this, having no experience beforehand. Usually, when people were nervous, their erection faltered; apparently I'm the freak of the nature that just comes, as soon as somebody touches me there.

 

Suddenly his eyes met Pierre's, who looked up, and Liam shivered when he watched the other's tounge slide up his lenght, even groaning when it came to the top. Oh god, Think about something horrible..like my worst nightmare, what's my worse nightmare?? But nothing could help him now. He felt Pierre's hot mouth close around him, his wet tongue darting around all the time, and then the sucking begin. Liam's body jolted, when he tried pulling the other male's head away, feeling the orgasm taking over.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Pierre was definitely taking his time with giving the other a blowjob. Needless to say, he was disappointed when the man tried to push his head away - of course, he didn't even pull away and continued sucking, doing it a bit harsher now. Soon enough, he felt warm liquid flooding his mouth. The blond swallowed everything, cleaning Liam's cock off with his tongue before pulling away, licking his lips.

 

"You don't think I'll be satisfied with something this short, right?" He asked a bit huskily as he wrapped his slim fingers around the younger male's cock, stroking it slowly just enough to bring him back to hardness. His tongue gently trailed overt Liam's earlobe, panting hotly into his ear. "I want to make you feel even better..." The taller male almost purred out, his other hand placed gently on the other's lower back.

[Ayakashiu]

When he rode out his orgasm, Liam noticed, Pierre didn't move away. Did I just came into his mouth? He got the answer a moment later, when the other licked him clean than licked his lips, like he was really liking his taste. That felt incredibly erotic to Liam and it made him gulp hard, when he was watching the scene below him.

 

"You don't think I'll be satisfied with something this short, right?"

Liam groaned at that remark, feeling even worse, now that it was pointed out. "I..I'm..really sorry about that..I usually don't come so..fast," he sighted, wondering if there could be anything else he can mess up on this date. He was surprised when he felt himself getting hard again, 'cause he usually needed more time, after he came once. Well who wouldn't get hard, if Pierre would tease their ear this way.. Liam totally felt the licking down there; he never noticed that before, but his ears were really sensitive.

 

"Make me feel even better?" Liam repeated after the blonde, not really understanding, before he put his hands on the other's waist, saying with a face beet red, "Em..it's probably my turn to make you feel good..right?" He never jerked off someone else, beside himself, not to mention a blowjob, but he kind of wanted to try it on Pierre; he wondered how he tastes like..

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Pierre chuckled hotly against Liam's skin, letting his hand slip underneath his shirt. "Mhmm..." He grunted out softly as he trailed his tongue up the other's neck, a small smirk on his face. This guy was so cute... So innocent... So fun to play around with... He didn't want to let go.

 

"Yes, I can make you feel even better." The blond repeated with a small smile on his face as he let go off the other's hard cock, moving it to his mouth to lick off the precum. "Hn? Don't worry about me, Liam.." The brown-eyed male purred softly as he smirked lightly, covering the fingers in saliva. "If you let me do this... We'll both feel good..." He promised in a husky whisper as he slowly moved the hand to the younger male's ass. "So just relax..." Pierre always liked guys better than girls. Guys took more preparation before the main event...

 

Moving his lips to Liam's, he caught them into a kiss as he slowly pushed in the first finger. It was obvious he didn't even think of the possibility of being pushed away. That didn't happen with him - he was a stripper, people were asking him to have sex with them... Not the other way around. This time, sure, it was different, but he definitely couldn't be rejected. Ever.

[Ayakashiu]

Is it really okay? Liam thought, feeling kind of bad for not making the blonde come too. Is it because I'm such a noob at this and he knows I would suck? was another thought of his, which brought him even more down. He was feeling insecure, wondering why the other guy was even bothering with him, seeing how he was awkward and inexperienced, messing every thing up.

 

But his thoughts were suddenly interrupted, Pierre already taking it one step further. He felt like stepping under a cold shower, realizing what the other meant by feeling even more good. He didn't put much thought in how two guys have sex before, but he was getting a quick course about it just in this moment, the daunting realization dawning on him, that he was to be the one, who will be the bottom.

 

Liam grabbed the arm that sneaked into his pants, feeling really uncomfortable with where the blonde was sticking his fingers, trying to pull it out. "No..just no..you can't do that!" Liam groaned, burying his head in Pierre's shoulder. "I'm sorry but..I can't do this." Liam sighted, before continuing with a slightly accusatory voice, "You always have sex on your first date?" They went over his comfort zone a long ago; he thought first dates were supposed to be to know the other person. But apparently Pierre wasn't so interested in knowing him..only his body.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Pierre felt himself being pushed away. What? His expression seemed shocked as he stared at Liam, slowly, hesitantly pulling out the finger. "Why not?" He asked with a confused expression on his face. "It's just sex..." He muttered out quietly, slowly pulling back. Just a few steps, staring at Liam in pure confusion and suprise.

 

"I don't really have dates. Mostly people I have sex with. That's it." Pierre said with one raised eyebrow. "Why would this be different?.. That's how it usually is, no?" The blond seemed utterly confused now. "We'd both feel good, so why not?.." Pierre continued questioning the same thing. It wasn't that he just couldn't take it without having sex with Liam... He just honestly didn't understand.

 

With him, he would always have sex on the first night... That often was the last, too. He had a bit of an understanding about relationships, he wanted one, too, but it seemed like a far-away dream. Did people not have sex in relationships? What was the point then? Sex was almost like an every-day activity to Pierre by now... It was kind of weird when people didn't want it.

[Ayakashiu]

Liam did enjoy spending time with Pierre, he really did, even thought they did all this stuff he wasn't comfortable with, he kind of liked the guy. But he got another cold shower. He didn't want his first time to be just some casual sex; he knew that hoping for the first time being really special and perfect was stupid, but he at least wanted to keep it in a good memory. Fucking in an abandoned building in the park didn't really qualify as that.

 

"I see.." Liam answered with a cold voice. The other guy looked genuinly suprised at the refusal, almost like people just waited for him to fuck them. Liam couldn't believe he was so stupid; he even told the guy some stuff, even his friends don't know. "Well for me it's not just sex, so I think it's better if I leave now."

 

He turned to leave, buttoning his pants as he was walking. He stopped a few steps away, remembering something. "Oh and I would appreaciate if you didn't mention what happened today to anyone..or what I told you. If you do that, you don't have to worry about me telling about you." He tried to stop his voice from shaking, but he did felt a little hurt by what he just found out. I should have known..he is a stripper..maybe he even sleeps with people for money..what was I hoping for, anyway? Liam didn't know the answer to that question, but he did know he was feeling, like his hopes were ruined.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"...What? Wait, why?" Pierre continued questioning when Liam said it would be best for him to leave. The blond's eyes held confusion as he stared at the other, though the smallest bit of sadness was mixed in as well. Really now... Guess it really was hopeless for him to start a relationship, huh?

 

"Then what is sex for you? I don't get it!" Pierre said loudly before a heavy sigh left his lips. The blond pursed his lips when Liam turned to walk away. Hell no. He was about to call out to him, but... Liam talked first. "Hah? Of course I won't tell anyone." The blond said quietly before grabbing the other's hand to hold him back there.

 

"What did I do wrong, then? Can't you at least explain me?" He asked quietly, his grip loose enough for Liam to pull back if he wanted to. "What was I supposed to do?.." The blond continued asking, looking up into the other's eyes. "I mean... If you don't tell me, I really won't understand. And I want to understand!" Pierre said with a bit of pain in his eyes. This guy might as well be his tiny little chance of getting a relationship. He didn't want to lose it that quickly. He was ready to do anything to keep him. Anything... Though he wasn't too sure why. Maybe he was jumping in too quickly?

[Ayakashiu]

Liam was getting pissed with the guy; he only wanted sex with him anyway, so why doesn't he leave him alone, now that it's clear that he's not getting any? A hand grabbed him and made him stop. He turned around, wanting to shout at the other, but the expression on the blonde's face and his next question made his anger dissolve.

 

"Sex for me is..the highest form of intimacy between two people. I'm not saying that you should only have sex with one person, I'm not that old fashioned, but I at least want it to mean something. I don't want to be just another of those faceless one night stands, you don't even remember anymore.." His voice started to tremble a little, when he spoken those last words. I really got hurt by this, didn't I? So stupid..

 

Liam cleared his throat, before continuing. "But it's clear it's not the same for you, so I think it's better if I leave. I had a good time tough.." It was definitely a date he'll always remember; too bad he couldn't say the same to Pierre. It's better if you find a nice girl, like mom and dad said..that's right, you'll just find someone else and everything's gonna be just fine.. But while Liam was thinking this, his heart squeezed uncomfortably in his chest and he unconciously rubbed the aching spot.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"Huh..." Pierre blinked a few times as he looked at Liam, still holding onto his hand. "You're not a customer though. I'm pretty sure I wouldn't forget you... Especially if this wasn't the only time." The blond murmured out quietly as he looked down at the grass. Was he making the situation worse? Or not? He could hear Liam's voice trembling and.. That actually made him feel bad. Really bad.

 

"Hey, come on, don't just do this!" The man immediately said as he tugged the other closer. "I mean... If you want something else, just tell me! I'll do what you want... I..." There the blond bit down on his lip and slowly let go off Liam's hand. "Nevermind." He said quietly as he turned his head away. Who was he kidding? Who would even want a relationship with a stripper?

 

A soft sigh left his mouth as he looked back down at his feet. "If you ever feel like talking to me again, just call..." He murmured out softly as he turned away. Really, he was like a pro at screwing things up. He should just leave already. This guy had a life to live, unlike him.

[Ayakashiu]

Hearing the word "customer" made Liam flinch a little. So he is selling his body too, not only dancing.. He didn't like the thought of someone touching the blonde's body like that, hell, he didn't even like the stares and comments that women gave him, when he was dancing!

 

"Wait!" Liam screamed after the other, he being the one who grabbed the blonde's hand this time, not wanting him to leave. "You said you'll do what I want right?" he said in a soft voice, blushing a little, feeling embarassed, "Well I want to actually date y..I mean..I want to date someone, like not just having sex but hanging around and getting to know each other.."

 

He couldn't believe he was really saying this, but he didn't want it to end here. Liam had so many question about this guy, wanting to know why he works as a stripper, why he moved out of France..he wanted to know all those answers. "But, if you want..I mean..we could just be friends right? We don't need to date or anything, we could just hang around a little and..stuff.." Liam was looking down the whole time, not wanting to see the other's reaction, too scared to look up.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Pierre flinched lightly when the other screamed after him to wait. He stopped, but kept his eyes away still. Was Liam going to scold him or something? He already explained himself... However, Liam's hand on his own felt nicely warm. He himself longed for simple touches like that...

 

"I did say that." He agreed quietly, glancing at the blue-eyed male for a moment. What was he going to do now?.. The answer he heard to the unsaid question made him a bit surprised. He wanted to date? Pierre could feel a small smile spreading across his face as he turned back around, taking Liam's hand in his a bit tighter.

 

"I'd love to date you, actually." He said with a small smile, all the while looking straight into the other's eyes. "I don't want to be just friends. At least not forever." The blond muttered out quietly as he sighed out, with his other hand reaching out to lightly stroke Liam's cheek - just a small, short gesture. "You really seem like a nice guy, and... I don't think you should be in a relationship with someone like me, but I also don't want to let you go." Not when he was so close to a relationship. A proper, nice relationship.

[Ayakashiu]

"I'd love to date you, actually."

This simple sentence made Liam's heart start to beat frantically and he couldn't really believe his words right away. He got the feeling the blonde only had him for fun, nothing else. And why would a guy want to date me anyway? But hearing his next words..

 

"I don't want to be just friends. At least not forever."

..made Liam's heart stop for a long moment and he couldn't breathe. Why am I so nervous and upset about this? He did wanted to have somebody, have a proper relationship, but his reactions were bordering on painful and Liam never acted like this before. He felt shivers go down his spine, at the light touch the other gave him.

 

"You sure about that?" he said with a hoarse voice, adding, "Even if we don't have sex right now?" He was nervous of what the answer to his question migh be. Will he made me sleep with him? Give me an ultimatum? "But why do you think I shouldn't be in a relationship with someone like you?" Liam found Pierre really nice; the guy went to all the trouble of preparing the picnic and after..he made Liam feel things he never felt, pleasurable things. But then he remembered the things the other said to him, about his job and Liam felt bothered about that, even though he didn't have any right to be. Pierre wasn't his, at least not yet.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"I won't force myself on you..." Pierre muttered out softly before letting out a quiet sigh. "I'm sorry, okay?" He said, clearly upset by that question. "I'm as sure as one can be..." The blond muttered out as he looked away. If one looked very closely, his lower lip could be seen trembling a little bit.. Just as if he was about to start crying.

 

"Why? You really still have that question?" Pierre asked as he stepped back a bit, stretching out his arms to the sides. "I'm a stripper! I sell my body, to make it worse." He said, pain flashing in his eyes. "I want someone who actually... Wants me for something more, I guess. I'm sick of this." The blond said with a trembling voice. Really, his life wasn't the brightest... He didn't want to pull in anyone else unless they were absolutely sure.

 

His light brown eyes held sadness in them as he looked at Liam, lightly biting on his lower lip. Slowly, he walked back up to the other and pulled him into a tight hug. He burried his face into the other's shoulder, his breathing shaky as he held Liam close to himself. Just a little bit... Just a few moments...

[Ayakashiu]

Liam was relieved to hear, Pierred doesn't plan to force himself on him. He was still a virgin, a very unsecure one, so he didn't want to rush things. Although given how old he already was, maybe a little rushing wasn't so bad..

 

"Oh..well but that's just a job for you right? You don't actually..like to do it..right??" Liam really hoped tthe answer to this question will be negative, because he didn't know if he can deal with Pierre, liking to sell his body. He was good at what he did, as was obvious to Liam from the one visit to the strip club, but that didn't necessarily mean he likes it. "And I hope you don't think I only want you for your body.." Liam added, with a hurt voice.

 

It was a nice surprise, when he was hugged by the blonde, and Liam hugged him back, after a minute of hesitation. He felt so warm and Liam got a strange wish to caress his hair, so he sneaked a hand on his neck, playing with his hair, finding it really soft. The guy also smelled really good and Liam became aware, he didn't even took a shower before coming here. He pushed Pierre away, ashamed expression on his face. "I'm sorry, I probably really need a shower badly," he muttered, realizing he probably sweated a lot during everything that happened.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"I don't know. It's... It became so common for me to do it, I don't know anymore." Pierre answered quietly, looking away from the younger male. He did like sex, he enjoyed it, but... He wanted for a relationship, too. A proper relationship with dates... He wanted to know what it felt to be in a relationship with someone. Anyone.

 

"You?.. I hope you don't want me for my body only, too." He answered quietly, glandly leaning into the other's hug. It felt nice... Just simple body contact like this was very nice... The blong closed his eyes, a soft, content sigh leaving his mouth when Liam began playing with his hair. God, that felt nice. Really, really nice...

 

However, when he was pushed away, Pierre felt like he was abruptly awoken from a really nice dream. "What?.. No, what are you talking about?" He was slightly confused before sighing and shaking his head. "Sorry about that." He murmured out and turned away. "Anyway... Wanna continue the picnic for a bit?" He asked with hope in his voice as he looked at Liam.

[Ayakashiu]

Liam didn't really liked the answer, hoping it would be different, but at least the blonde didn't say he likes it a lot. That's a good thing.. "Of course I don't want you for your body, although it's really nice.." Liam remarked, the memory of that night still etched into his mind, as was the fact that he got aroused by only watchig the guy dance.

 

"No! I'm the one who should be sorry..I was searching for a part-time job before I saw your message, so I didn't have time to go home and change. It must be uncomfortable hugging me.." Liam explained, a little ashamed. He didn't want to give that kind of first impression. He looked at the sky, noticing some clouds gathering. "I would love to continue the picnic, but it looks like it might rain, so are you sure you want to?" He did want to spend some time more with the guy, so he quickly added, "But we can just go to my place and eat there? If you have some more time.."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Pierre blinked, looking at Liam with slight confusion. "I really don't mind hugging you." He muttered out with a small frown as he pushed his hands into pockets. "Kay, lemme just collect all that stuff... I can't just leave it there.." The blond said with a slight smile on his face as he walked towards the place they had the blanket and snacks. The man huffed softly when he saw a squirrel stealing a cookie. "See, even animals like my food." He said with a quiet chuckle as he walked closer, and the tiny rodent ran off.

 

Pierre then collected everything into his bag, but left the cookies in his hands. "Want some?" He asked as he offered them to Liam. A quiet sigh left his mouth as he looked around. "I'll have to leave at, like, seven. Is that alright?" The blond asked as he glanced at his date with a small smile. "Can't be late to work."

[Ayakashiu]

Liam was relieved, hearing those words. But I should still take a shower when we get to my place..at least a quick one.. "Yeah sure, need some help?" he offered, but the blonde quickly took care of everything. "So you made those cookies? Since you mentioned this is yours..and yes, please." Liam took a bite out of the cookie, really liking the taste. "They are really good you know? You can cook also?"

At seven already? And he works today again.. Liam took his time eating the cookie, thinking about some stranger touching him tonight. He didn't liek the idea at all. "Sure..you really can't be late to work." Liam managed a small smile.

 

They were soon at his place. "Please, feel like at home," Liam said, letting Pierre in. He liked to keep his place clean, so that was one thing he didn't have to worry about. "Oh do you mind if I take a quick shower? I'm all sticky.. but we don't have much time left, do we? Maybe I can just take it after you leave.." Liam was indecisive, wanting to spend as much time with the blonde as he can, but wanting to be clean too.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"Hm? Yeah, I made these. The other snacks, too." Pierre said as if it wasn't anything special as he tossed in a cookie into his mouth with a small smile on his face. "I'm glad you like them~" His mood seemed to have lightened up from before, for whatever reason. Maybe it was because Liam agreed to date him... Oh, which reminded him. "Say, do you mind teaching me a bit about what do you imagine dates like?" He asked with a curious expression.

 

"The owner would probably kill me if I came in late..." The blond said with a sigh as he rubbed the back of his neck. "Well, can't be helped." He muttered out quietly as he looked around. One of his biggest secrets about his stripping carreer was that it helped him get into the college, seeing as he'd dropped out of high school. One of the teachers said a good word about him in exchange to some private lapdances. Awkward, but worth it.

 

"Thanks... And go ahead, don't worry about me." Pierre said with a smile as he looked at Liam and lightly pushed away a few of the blue-ish hair strands off of his face. "We still have, like, an hour. Pretty sure we'll manage." He said with a wide smile on his face. There, he went back to hiding his feelings again.

[Ayakashiu]

"What I imagine dates like?" Liam asked surprised, not really sure how to explain it. "Well you know, going to the cinema together or having a dinner out, or like we did today, have a picnic..em..I guess I imagine it like spending some time together, do fun things and talk about important stuff."

 

"You sure you don't mind? I'll be really quick!" Liam said, rushing to his bedroom. "You can go through the fridge, if you want to drink something!" he yelled, so the blonde might hear him, quickly grabbing a pair of clean jeans and his favourite T-shirt.

 

While he was under the shower, he thought about Pierre's job. Could I really date someone, who works as a stripper? But on the other hand, Liam wanted to see him dance again. He was done in ten minutes, quickly pulling on his clothes, noticing he didn't bring any boxers in the rush. Not wanting to waste any more time, he hoped Pierre won't notice.

 

"I'm done!" Liam called out. He still had a towel in his hands, trying to dry his hair off a little more.