You Are the Sugar in My Coffee:: Zombie_In_A_Box and Ciel

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"I didn't laugh because I thought it was funny. I laughed because I thought it was cute. You take everything that I do and make it seem like I'm a bad person and that I'm going to hurt you or something." pouted Aras the slightest bit, glancing away from the other, his eyes holding a bit of annoyance and hurt. Why couldn't this guy just ever stay happy for more than five minutes without having an anxiety attack? He liked the man, he was cute, but the fact he couldn't accept a single thing he said without getting suspicious or flustered was a bit much. "I'll stay if you want me to, because I don't want to leave. But please. I'm not here to harass you and make fun of you. I'm here to have a good time with yo, because you're my boyfriend!"

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John flinched the slightest bit at his words, his expression turning into an ashamed one as he stared down. "...I'm sorry..." He muttered out quietly. The man stayed silent after that, only nodding at what Aras said later on. What the man said didn't help at all. He didn't want to make him feel like he was attacked, but... John was feeling the same way right now. He just couldn't handle anything, really. And he was beginning to feel uncomfortable around Aras, too. Really, if there wasn't any talking, it would be so much better... So, the chubby male just hugged his boyfriend to himself tightly, hiding his face into his neck. He was a bit better with his actions than words, maybe...

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Aras sighed quietly and glanced away from the other, a slightly annoyed look in his eyes. This man was seriously annoying when it came to words... but he was so nice and sweet when it came to affection. Breathing in heavily, the young man let out a sharp sigh. "I'm sorry too." Maybe he should never talk or say anything to the other again. It seemed that whenever he talked to the other, the other just seemed to shrivel up into a ball and blush and stutter... Maybe he should learn sign-language, so that the other could be able to not hear his voice. Aras didn't even know what to do about this. It almost made him want to bash his head into the wall...

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John let out a quiet sigh, lightly pulling Aras to himself. Sign language was talking too, at some point. The man nuzzled his face into the other's neck gently, taking in the smell. "...Should I make some snacks?..." He asked softly, hiding his face from the other. After a bit of time he would manage to take at least some talking and actions with Aras, he was sure of it! But... They met just a few days ago, and they got into this "relationship" yesterday night. He barely even knew the man! "Hey... Let's play the question game." He offered shyly.

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Aras didn't know really what to feel about the situation. Though, when the other asked if he should make snacks, Aras shook his head and murmured, "You can make some if you really want to, I'm personally not hungry though." admitted the German quietly as he snuggled closer to the other, inhaling deeply. "Well, John....I don't want to make you uncomfortable. We can play the question game only if you're comfortable in doing so, okay?"

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John let out a quiet huff as he moved his face away and let out a shy smile. "O-Okay then." He said softly, trying not to make it seem like he was disappointed or anything. He figured that he should try a bit harder with all this... "I-I'm fine with this! I did offer it in the first place..." He trailed off softly and smiled. "Do you want to start?" He asked, trying to gulp down all his awkwardness and shyness. They were unneccessary right now.

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Aras smiled softly at the other and questioned, "So, does that mean that what you just asked me was part of the question game?" He chuckled softly and murmured, "Yeah, we can start now, I'll ask the first question..." His breathing was rather soft as he murmured, "Well..what is your favorite color? That seems like a rather simple question to ask....well, if you don't mind me asking that question..."

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John huffed softly and shook his head at the teasing question. He tried not to get insulted or anything about it - he knew Aras didn't mean it... When the other asked the first question - with all of those comments - John seriously doubted he wanted to answer. "Yellow." He said quietly, glancing away with the slightest bit of irritation. "Why would you think I would mind you asking me what's my favorite color?" He asked quietly.

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"Yellow is a nice color." said Aras quietly and looked away as well, a small sigh leaving his lips as he climbed off of the other's lap and decided to just sit next to him. What was the big deal anyways? Did he do something wrong? "Because everything I say or do seems to piss you off one way or another... or it seems to bother you or make you feel uncomfortable, that's why I ask. I hate it when you feel like I'm going to hurt you or something, you might feel like I'm attacking you, but you're hurting my feelings, even though you probably don't realize it." He glanced off in the other direction, pouting, his arms around his knees, drawing them up to his chest. He closed his blue eyes, his breathing a bit jagged and heavy. He felt like crying, but that was pathetic... why did he keep screwing up?

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John opened his mouth to stop the other when he was getting off his lap, but stopped. It would probably be weird... But he felt uncomfortably cold now. The raven shifted a bit on the couch as he huffed quietly. "Nothing pisses me off, ever." He said quietly, looking at his hands in his lap. "We met a few days ago, you know... I... I don't even know you! It's hard for me to do anything!" The man said as he turned his head to look at Aras, sadness in his eyes. "I didn't mean to hurt your feelings, but... Honestly... I'm still a bit scared this is just some mean joke." The chubby male finally admitted timidly, looking away with a soft sniffle. "Just... Sorry..." He murmured out quietly. What was he even apologizing for? For being himself? An awkard man with no social skills?

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"Why the hell would this be some sort of sick joke, huh? Who and what do you think I am? I'm not a low-life monster who tries to play with people's feelings." Aras felt a bit offended. Did this guy really think that he was that much of asshole. "Please tell me...what am I doing wrong? I'll do whatever you want, I just don't want to make you feel attacked or feel like I'm such a jackass." The German man inhaled heavily and glanced away at the seat, resting his head on the cushion, sighing, "What am I doing wrong? I'm trying to be nice..." He nearly choked on his voice... he was biting back the tears by then. Why was he such a horrible person in this man's eyes? What did he do to be perceived as a monster?

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John's breathing hitched a little bit at what he heard, but he continued staring at his hands. "I have no idea who you are... People aren't usually this nice to me..." He muttered quietly. The raven shook his head quietly, glancing at the other quietly. He didn't say anything for a second - he was shocked to see the German male biting back his tears. Hesitantly, the raven reached out for the man and pulled him into a gentle hug. "I'm sorry I can't fight back my anxiety." He murmured out softly, unable to think of anything else to say. His arms tightened around the man as he burried his face into his neck. If this would end up as a joke after all... He would probably never trust anyone else. He should... He should probably try to go along with Aras...

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"I don't know. I'm sorry." Aras murmured quietly, not knowing what else to say. Finally, he let the tears fall, streaming down his face. He was silent as he cried, blinking away the tears rather easily. As the other hugged him... he didn't quite hug back, he just allowed him to continue with what he was doing; which was resting his head in his shoulder. Aras couldn't really do anything about the situation; anxiety wasn't curable. He didn't really even know if he could help John... he thought that he was just shy...but no, he had anxiety. He felt helpless and useless... though he still didn't want to leave him, even though he felt that the only logical solution was to give up... but he didn't want to.

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John let out a quiet sigh as he hugged Aras a bit tighter, gently rubbing circles on his waist. He'd never really done this before... Trying to stop someone from crying - he wasn't sure if he'd be too good at it. He felt so weak like this... "Please don't cry... I-I can make some hot chocolate, and we can make some cookies or... I don't know..." His voice grew weaker as he talked, not knowing what to do at all. The man let out a quiet sigh as he gently rubbed the other's back, sniffling quietly as he tried not to cry himself. That wouldn't be good...

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Aras sighed softly as more tears came down his face, nuzzling closer to the other. He sneezed about three times, his chest heaving the slightest bit, his fingers twitching a bit before nodding. He wasn't sure what he should do...should he not talk? What if he just answered physically with a nod, a shake of the head, or a shrug? That seemed like it would work better. Inhaling deeply, he started to relax... crying was a bit pathetic... this wasn't his problem anyways.. he'd just try to think of the best way to interact with the other...

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John felt himself sinking back into his anxiety. Why wasn't Aras saying anything? Was something wrong? Did he do something bad? Of course he did, he always did! Tears began collecting in his own dark eyes as his lower lip trembled and he pulled the other closer. "P-Please s-stop crying..." He whispered out as he hid his face, the tears rolling down his cheeks at last. John was extremely sensitive about basically everything - simple interactions like this were hard already. His arms tightened further around the other as a few hiccups left his mouth while he tried not to start sobbing.

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Aras noticed that the other was pulling him closer... he sighed softly. Carefully, he wriggled out of his arms and re-positioned himself on the other's lap, a small huff on his lips as he drew the other closer, his breathing a bit heavy as he started to hug the other tightly. He didn't want the other to be sad like that, "You...don't cry either, please..." He nuzzled his nose into the other's neck, "Stop crying please..." Gripping the other weakly, his arms loosening, pressing his lips on the other's neck, his breath rather hot and heavy as his final tears dripped down on the ohter's neck.

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John's breathing was a bit shaky as he tried to stop crying - he felt ridicculous... The raven didn't do anything else when Aras got on his lap again - he just hugged him to himself tightly, sniffling as he bit down on his lip. Aras' voice was surpisingly soothing for him... It didn't take all that much for him to stop crying. And yet, just like a kid, he continued holding onto the other tightly, his face hidden into his shoulder. He hated crying, and he hated when people around him cried too... Sadness was bad in general.

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Aras breathed in heavily as he slowly stroked the other's hair, his eyes slightly open, glancing at the wall, "You're even beautiful when you cry..." His voice was warm, trying to soothe the other, to try and keep him calm. Slowly, he lifted his head and brushed his lips softly on the other's jaw, "Now let's go make those cookies... your cooking is amazing, dear." He offered him a goofy smile, his eyes the slightest bit puffy, his blue eyes holding a sense of warmness and a sense of calmness, the sadness and frustration slowly ebbing away.

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John let out a soft whimper at the first words from Aras. It wasn't true... He looked ridicculous when he cried. His eyes were red and puffy, his cheeks were flushed and he was just, well, ugly. As his head was lifted, the raven looked away for a bit before sniffling softly and looking at Aras with a quivering lower lip. The man nodded quietly as he sniffled softly, trying not to start crying again. "Okay..." He managed to murmur out, but he pulled Aras closer to himself, not showing any signs of getting up at all. He didn't want to.

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The German man let out a small sigh and cocked his head, gently looking at the other. He noticed the other's quivering lip, and glanced at it... he was tempted to take it into his own and see if their mouths fit perfectly together... though he decided against it. The man would probably want nothing to do with him and would probably never talk to him again if he ever got that close to his lips.. Grinning softly, he tried to think in the other direction of those thoughts. Though... when he noticed that they weren't going to be getting up for awhile, he nodded slowly and slipped back into the warmth that veiled him earlier, enjoying it... if they were going to nestle up together like this, he might as well get comfortable... he liked that the man enjoyed this..

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John sighed out softly as he nuzzled his cheek gently into the other's shoulder. "I'm sorry..." He murmured out finally, sniffling softly as he closed his eyes. He felt pathetic, actually. He tightened his arms around Aras, as if afraid he would just disappear. That he would walk away and not come back... "Will you stay?" The raven asked a bit childishly, but he needed to at least hear that. He hated being alone... That was probably one of his biggest fears. Being completely alone - no one to hug, no one to talk to, no one to... To love. Right now he at least had a cat...

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"Of course I'm not going to leave, you're my boyfriend, why would I leave you?" murmured Aras softly, nuzzling his nose against the other's, trying to show him he wasn't going to leave him anytime soon. Taking his face into his hands, he gently rubbed the other's cheeks and pressed his forehead up against the other's, though not making a move to do anything else, just enjoy the heat that the other gave off.

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John shrugged quietly as he sniffled, letting Aras do whatever he wanted. When their foreheads were pressed together, he let out a sad smile and sighed. "My mom used to do this..." He muttered out softly and hugged his boyfriend tightly. He just wanted someone to trust and hold... "Aras... Let's go make those cookies." He tried sounding firm, gently sniffling as he waited for the other to stand up.

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Smiling softly as the other mentioned his mother, he murmured, "Your mother must have been a lovely person, dear." And when the other requested to make cookies, he nodded softly and slid out of the other's lap, a small chuckle coming from his mouth, and stood up, "I'm not that great of a cook...I only really know how to make sausage with a cheese dipping.. though that probably doesn't taste too great.. but my family used to cook it a lot."