The psychologist and the phobia (private Saga x Tuffy)

[Saga]

Hour by hour, the time passed as by its usual schedule. Yunase wasn't the most lost case out of Ryuu's list with patients. But he surely was the most quietest. Usually Ryuu's patients liked to talk with the male, some said he made them talk even in his silence. Which particularly spoke how calm Zhang was around his patients, to the point of relaxing them in turn.

 

The busy part of the day has already been up, so Chou could relax on his couch in the cabinet. With arm hovering over half of his face, he just lied there mutely. The knocks on door though got him disturbed from his micro-nap.

- Ryuusei-san?

- Yeah.., come in. - so said the male rustled onto the couch to get up, loosening his necktie. It seemed his work for today was done.

- I thought you had an appointment with Minako. - Maria seemed to keep close eye on Ryuu's schedule. And it was understandable. Many people requested his help but for some reason he was picky. He wasn't the type who would accept each next case pin-pointed on the table. Only such that caught his attention. Besides, he was the daring type, so Maria had a reason to keep eye on him.

- She called to cancel it. Her kid has fallen sick...or something of the sort.

- ..Something of the sort? You don't really listen to your patients' problems, do you? - she rose a brow.

- I notice what is in importance, the rest is just decoration.

- You and your way of thinking... At any rate, we are going to drink tonight. Are you coming?

- Sure. What time?

- Well, we are waiting for Kushino-san. His last appointment is going to end in one hour.

- He doesn't have legs, or what? - Zhang stared dully into the woman. Why they had to wait for each other like some kids from the kindergarten?

- ...Well, we can go now, if you so insist. I just have to let him know where we'll be.

 

Ryuusei nodded and got up, if they were to drink tonight he had to drink one more coffee. The woman parted from his cabinet, so he could refresh himself before they gathered in the lobby.

[DeLuna]

Yunase woke up from his half slumber. What time was it? He picked up his phone to check it. Only 30 minutes had passed. A yawn escaped his lips as he got up from the uncomfortable position he was in. When he finally got up, after some difficulty, he realized that his body felt heavy and it ached.

 

Yuu's feet moved towards his computer to check his e-mail, to see if there was any work for him. Unfortunately he was out of luck, there wasn't anything in his inbox besides spam and other such things. Just as a sigh escaped his lips he heard a noise that indicated that he had gotten another e-mail. It was probably another spam mail, though he couldn't help feeling a bit hopeful, he really needed the money. When he opened up his mail again he felt his heart sink to the pit of his stomach, his hope extinguished. Just another junk mail.

 

Yuu's stomach growled. The cake he had eaten earlier in the day hadn't been enough satisfy his need for nutrition. Another noise from his stomach reminded him that he really needed to get some food into his system. But food was scarce these days just as scarce as money. His stomach growled yet again, making his hunger nearly impossible to ignore. A night walk would probably make him forget his hunger, or at least lead his thoughts away from food.

 

The cool night breeze blew softly against his skin as he wandered around aimlessly through town. It felt nice just walking, calming even. There wasn't much people around during this time either, so he didn't have to worry about having a panic attack. But even so, he still preferred alleyways and the streets he knew people didn't go to.

 

After wandering around for a while he noticed that people started to gather. More and more people started gathering, some of them even bumping into him. The boy's heart pounded, his palms became sweaty, his head ached. It was too much, he couldn't deal with it. He wanted to get out of there, wanted to get away from the large crowd.

Yuu ran as fast as he could, out of there, his panic getting worse and worse the more time passed.

 

Finally he managed to find a safe place in an alley. Unfortunately that alley led a dead end. He was stuck, and the crowd didn't look like it would dissolve anytime soon. There was no way out.

 

Yuu closed his eyes as felt his body heat slowly, but surely leaving him. If he drifted of to sleep he'd most likely freeze to death... but at this point, it might not be so bad. He didn't have to go hungry anymore, he didn't have to fear people's touch, he didn't have freeze.. but something inside of him wanted to cling on to life.

 

He slowly opened his eyes and somehow managed to get into a sitting position.

Yuu shoved his hands into his pockets, his hands searching for the little piece of paper he had gotten from the psychologist. It didn't take many seconds for him to find said paper. On it was the psychologist's name, address of the clinic he worked in as well as a phone number.

He quickly picked up his phone and entered the number that was written on it. After he had entered the last digit of the number his hand stopped moving. What would he say? ”Hey, I'm stuck can you pick me up?” ...Even he, himself thought it was pathetic. His eyes moved to the dial button on his phone.

”You're seriously considering calling him?” the voice asked weakly, still affected by the cigarettes. ”You don't know what he'll do to you”

He easily ignored it and pressed the call button on his phone

[Saga]

Meanwhile laughter decorated the atmosphere in a local bar. Almost all workers have gathered there to party, though Ryuusei was the quietest one. He wasn't the crazy-drunk-type that would undo his necktie and swing it up in the air like some idiot. While...

 

He glanced over to one of his co-workers who was doing exactly that. Though completed with the "yahoo" or "banzai" yells. It looked hilarious. Chou pinched the bridge of his nose, his other hand wrapped around his whiskey glass.

- Oh, come on, Ryuusei-san! You are so reserved!!! - some of the girls kept their eyes all night on Ryuu and indeed wanted to see some wild side of his.

 

Just when he was about to be blunt and probably too harsh in his reply, his phone buzzed. Whoever it was, they had a good timing. Probably if it weren't the phone-call, Ryuu would have upset the girls.

With a reach for his pocket, he took out the black metal device and the blue-glowing screen showed unknown number. He wasn't one to answer to unknown numbers, but sometimes his patients would get attacks during different time of the day/night. In fact, once a woman got such a panic attack, she thought she was stalked by FBI and they wanted to kill her. Thus she hid her phone-number for security. As ridiculous it sounded, Ryuu knew he was dealing with illogical minds, unique in a way that didn't fit the 'norm'.

 

With a slide of finger against the screen, he picked and got up to head for outside the bar.

- Chou speaking.

[DeLuna]

He took a deep breath before speaking.

”I.. umm... sorry to bother you at this hour...” he trailed off, his voice was shaky, both from the cold and nervousness. He really should've thought it through more carefully.

He took a breath and started again.

”I ran into some problems... and I'm stuck...” his eyes wandered towards where the crowd had been. They where still there. Still screaming at something... or was it cheering? He couldn't tell.

”Can....” a pause ”Can you get me out of here?” he asked and gave a descrption on where he was. He was so cold that he had problem getting the words out, but he hoped he had heard what he had said.

 

Yuu was cold, so cold, and it felt like he could've drifted of any second now. Leaning his body against the wall, unable to hold his body up, he wondred if he'd get to feel the warmth and calmness of Ryuu's hand or if the cold would take him first.

[Saga]

"Stuck...?"

 

Ryuu blinked once, that was something odd.He doubted the boy he met today would call for something small. Unless his panic caused something really bad to happen - more like, he looked the type to call only when of question for life-dead related things.

 

Once he heard the cheering from the other side, he quickly realized Yuu was outside. Probably hiding in somewhere though not so helpful if the voices of the crowd were audible even through the phone. The dark haired male listened to the instructions as much as he could hear. But as he had drunk, he couldn't drive. So only option was to take a taxi. Besides, it wasn't that far.

 

Basically all was in him. Keys, money, phone - only his bag with papers was in the bar. He quickly dialed Maria's number, while beckoning for a taxi.

- Ryuu~ Where are you~? - obviously the woman was in mood, rather in heat-like, so her voice was rather melodic.

- ... I have something to take care of. Can you get my papers and let them on my desk tomorrow?

- ..Am I your secretary or your boss? - she pouted.

- ...I'll treat you a coffee tomorrow. - he was cornered with a promise.

- Deal! - ever so cheerful she agreed.

 

It took him around five or six minutes to reach the place. It was some local banquette, and all people were enjoying the party outside with live music. Zhang was a bit tipsy from the whiskey but as a heavy drinker, he held his liquor pretty well. Only sign he has drunk was probably the slight bitter scent of whiskey. With a few glances from side to side, he looked for the so said 'dead-end street' Yuu told him about.

 

Weak steam got out of his lips, tonight was cold. He noticed the drop of the temperature and quickly looked over his watch. Well, he wasn't late but he didn't know for how long Yunase was out in the cold. With a major turn, he spotted the dark street. Typical place where someone with panic attack would hide from the crowd.

 

A few steps took him to there and as soon as he stepped in the street, he noticed a few huge boxes, probably from the nearby storage building. It was dark and he needed some time to adjust his eyes.

- Yunase-san? -walking calmly with his hands in pockets to not startle the male or cause him another attack, he made his presence known.

[DeLuna]

The voice, he recognized it, but he was too tired to remember where he had heard it.

”hmm” a muffled noise escaped his lips and his eyes slowly opened, lids stiff from the cold. As his gaze landed on the other male he felt a surge of fear well up inside of him.

”S...stay away” he said weakly, the fear evident in his voice.

 

Even though it felt like he could pass out any minute, he tried to get up. On shaky legs he stumbled backwards away from the other man. He didn't get very far before he knees gave in and he landed with his behind on a few boxes laying on the ground. A sigh escaped his lips, as he realized that he couldn't escape.

 

”Do....do whatever you want... Sensei” he said in a weak pitiful voice, thinking that if he didn't put up a fight, Motomi would go easy on him.

[Saga]

He paused his step. Something was really off. Well, the boy was always a bit off, but this was a bit too much. Ryuu's eyes finally adjusted to the dark street, seeing the boy fall onto the boxes behind him. Only one or two meters kept them apart, Zhang closed in and knelt down. The other seemed to be in a delirium.

 

Not saying much to what his ears heard, Chou drew his hands out of pocket, one reached down carefully to not startled the other, to touch the male's neck where the pulse could be felt the best; the other hand acted as a beat-meter. The watch on his wrist was useful to help detect the boy's pulse.

 

Zhang indeed had two degrees, but he never mentioned the other one. And it was obvious what it was. The male frowned lightly, the boy wasn't really healthy, it seemed. The dark street didn't help much since he couldn't see the skin color, the lips color. So all he could do is to check the temperature and the pulse. Neither of them were in the norm.

 

With a sigh he retreated his hands and took off his coat. But didn't really think it might look wrong to the boy on the ground, after all he was in a hurry to get Yuu out of the street and to some warm place. So worries such as to be hit or scratched were the last thing in his mind right now.

[DeLuna]

Panic, that was what he felt as he watched the man come closer and closer. He needed to get away from there, but his body wouldn't move an inch. A quiet sob escaped his lips, then a pain... a headache. It started as a dull ache, but it grew stronger and stronger the closer the man came. Soon it became unbearable. He lost his consciousnesses.

 

When his eyes opened, the shade a hue darker, the man was kneeling down, his hands on his neck. He was finally free again after all this time, and this is what he woke up to? Eyes watched the other male as he began stripping himself of his jacked.

”Ah... so this is what you want? ...I knew you didn't do out of the kindness of your heart” he thought.

 

He honestly didn't think Ryuusei was that kind of person, especially since he was a psychologist. But every person had a hidden desire, a hidden lust for something, maybe this was his?

 

”If you want my body that badly, I won't deny you your pleasure” he said, somehow managing a smirk, moving his hand shakily towards the other male's lower regions. What he said was true, he wouldn't deny Ryuusei the pleasure he thought he sought. His desires didn't matter, they never did matter. It was all about pleasing the other part.

[Saga]

The male stopped with the coat in hand, eying the hand that crawled up his thigh to reach for his crotch. If anything - 'that' was something he didn't expect. With a quick glance up, he noticed the eyes of the other - they never averted from his.

 

So after all there was something that the other psychologists missed. Split personality as result to the trauma. Now, that was interesting.

 

Zhang reached his free hand down to take the boy's one and move it away.

- I am taking you home. Your pulse is too low, and your body temperature is dropping quickly. - as if he wasn't effected from the switch of personalities. He threw his coat over the boy's body and lifted him up in arms. Even if his personality switched to bold one, the body was still weak.

 

- Where do you live?

[DeLuna]

God how he hated this body... this weakness... As he was being picked up, he hated this body even more. He felt pathetic. Utterly, completely pathetic being carried like some woman. He chuckled at his pitiful state.

His dark gaze moved to met Ryuu's eyes.

”Let me go” Yuu said, trying to making his voice sound threatening, but he failed, due to being weak and cold. My.... he really was a weak person, weaker than he remembered.

 

The body was warm, he couldn't deny that. It felt nice even, the other Yuu would've been delighted, if his fear didn't get the better out of him that is. This Yunase, however, didn't care for such things. Warmth, kindness, love. Everything Yuu wanted was all pointless to him.

 

”Why should I tell you?” he asked after hearing his deep voice. ”So that you can play...” his voice trailed off, all energy gone and he fell limp in his arms.

[Saga]

There were no struggles, only lips protested but yet not even enough to convince the male. Actually, there was nothing to convince him to, his intentions were strictly to save the kid, as he saw him as a kid. With a glance to the younger male, Ryuusei noticed his disorientation. And soon after, as expected, the other lost conscious.

 

Chou gave a sigh, the steamy white smoke escaped his mouth. The night was young but yet cold. With a glance and two, he lived not far from there but...

"Great.."

 

His shoulder leaned against the street wall, while arms were busy with the body of Yunase, slightly tipsy but rather moody.

Ryuusei hated to have people step into his house. In fact, ever since kid he never had someone to visit him at home. As a heir of Zhang, he had the best private tutors and according his father's teaching - there were no friends, only foes.

 

His eyes glanced down at the pale face of the boy and averted to side.

"...What a silly kid..", with a rock off the wall, he walked forth, then turned to left and soon an empty park led him to the neighborhood where he lived.

 

The sooner he got there, the better. Living on the last floor though wasn't handy, especially now. But at least when he got that apartment, it was mainly for the sight-view. Amazing, no matter the hour. But one had to admit, the night view from his apartment was breath-taking.

 

The male entered the room and without caring for the shoes, he walked into the bedroom to place the boy on his bed. Black sheets embraced the pale body, it was like a chase of colors. The male removed his necktie and headed for the kitchen.

"I feel like a babysitter..", lost in his own thoughts he went to prepare tea and get some more blankets.

[DeLuna]

Darkness had overcome him, he had slipped. Lost his hold on the mind that he shared with the weak, pathetic one. It was disappointing that his time on the surface had been so short. He hadn't even had had the chance to have any fun, but oh well, there's always a next time... however those opportunities where few and far between. It wasn't as if he had a choice though, all he could do was lie in wait for the window to open again.

 

”hmm” a muffled voice could be heard from the bedroom. The blonde one began to stir, his eyes slowly opened. He tried to move his body up into a sitting position, but his body was weak so he quickly gave up and sank back into the bed. As his body relaxed he noticed how comfortable it was. Yunase's eyes closed for a few seconds, feeling like he could fall asleep any second. How couldn't he, when this bed was way more cozy than his own bed? …his own bed.... wait, where was he? What happened? As these thoughts flew through his slightly aching head his hand unconsciously moved towards the wrist of the other, scratching it with his nails until he drew blood. His tongue darted out, catching the blood that dripped down said wrist as if to keep it from staining the bed. As he continued licking the blood like a kitty lapping milk, his eyes grew murkier and murkier.

“Seems like I still have some control”

[Saga]

As the steam spiraled upwards from a beautiful white tea cup, Ryuu made his way to the bedroom. The male has already taken off his coat, leaving himself with slightly unbuttoned shirt. Over his shoulder a blanket was hoped. With a quiet push, he opened the door and paused his step.

 

It wasn't an easy task to startle the male, more likely he never could get surprised. But for first time since ever, he just couldn't help but stare like dumbfounded.

- What are you doing, Yunase-san?

 

A few steps took him to the big bed where the boy was pretty much like having his meal, only that the meal was his own blood. The trace of the crimson decorated his soft lips, making them redder than usual.

Chou glanced over the wrist, to let the tea cup on the night-table next to the bed.

- I thought we had that cleared today...

[DeLuna]

An unfamiliar heat had built up inside of him as he was ran his pierced tongue over his sensitive skin. He paid it no mind he was too busy to keep the droplets from staining the sheets. He didn't know what suddenly had come over him, but at the moment he didn't care. He was too lost in his own little world.

 

As the blonde heard a deep voice call his name his murky eyes looked at the other, letting the drops fall freely. As his eyes licked every inch of his body, he felt the heat more clearly... it was uncomfortable.... he needed to make it go away...

 

Yunase cautiously moved closer towards the other male, his hand reaching for Ryuusei's to gently guided it to his mouth so that he could run his tongue over them. He wanted to stop the hand that reached for Ryuu's, but he found himself unable to, his inner desire winning over common sense.

[Saga]

Ryuu caught the movement reaching for his hand with the corner of his eye, to find the boy wrap Chou's fingers with the warm and damp muscle. It was very suggestive, but Ryuu knew very well the Yunase from this morning wouldn't do what he was currently doing.

 

With a gentle reach with his other hand, Ryuu tilted the boy's chin up to look into his eyes. One would think he was about to violate him but in fact...

- Your pupils are dilated. - his statement was from the obvious ones but said in a more 'polite' way. The boy was horny.

 

Another shift and Ryuu retreated from the other.

- The bathroom is to the right, down the corridor. Go and fix it. - he really had no intention to sleep with the other.

 

With a turn, he moved to head out the room. It would be for the best if he just stayed away from Yunase when the other was partly unconscious.

[DeLuna]

It all felt surreal, like he wasn't even there. When Ryuu tilted his to look into his murky blue ones, his own eyes closed. Just waiting....

 

Your pupils are dilated

 

He blinked as he heard the words, suddenly snapping out of his trance. It wasn't what he expected. An expression most called dumbfounded flashed over his face. His eyes quickly averted from the psychologists.

 

Where was he? What was he doing here? He remembered being cold then Ryuu-

 

The bathroom is to the right, down the corridor. Go and fix it.

 

His train of thought was suddenly interrupted. Fix? Fix what? The blonde was about to ask when he felt an uncomfortable heat in his pants.

 

When he left Yunase got up on shaky legs, his body still weak from the cold, and headed towards the bathroom.

 

He took of his pants along with his underwear, exposing the slightly hot organ. Yunase released a breath at being utterly exposed. Another breath, as he took it in both hands. Slowly his cold hands moved up and down.

”mm....haa....haa...aah” he moaned.

It grew quickly as he boldly moved his hands, a numbing pleasure creeping into his spine.

”mm... haa... haa... aah...”

Precum started to dribble everywhere, quicker than he thought it would. Warmth started to seeping in with the movement of his hands. It was then that he noticed a hand reach for him, his own hands stopping in turn. The blond, startled, looked up and saw a male. He had short blond hair and icy-blue eyes. His body was skinny, so skinny that you could see his ribcage and his lips was twisted into a creepy smile. It didn't take him a long time to realize that the one who was standing in front of him was himself.

 

The other didn't speak, he just watched him silently as he moved his hand away. Yunases eyes shut tightly, muffling a scream. It wasn't real, it couldn't be. He was hallucinating... yeah.. that must be it.

 

Afterwards he didn't feel much better emotionally... He wanted to go home, to the place where he could embrace his insanity. When Yunase left the bathroom he felt exhausted. He slid down the nearby wall and just sat there, too tired to take another step.

[Saga]

The balcony space that was like a continuation of the kitchen had a faint light, which came from the single candle pot he ignited. The man needed a bit of fresh air, and a drag. Ryuu was one of those smokers that lighted one now and then. His beautiful, long fingers slid against the cancer stick to move it forth; the smoke escaped his mouth, gently spiraling upwards.

And his ever so deep gaze wandered into the night cityscape.

 

It was indeed a cold night, so he was glad he made it in time to pick up Yunase; who knew what could have happened. Besides the night was a dangerous time to wander around the city, especially if not completely to your senses. Ryuu brushed off the dark thoughts right away and leaned a bit aback, guiding his body on his arm set on the balcony grill.

"I wonder if he can keep up living on like this.."

 

The male debated on a few ideas in his mind, but never really made a firm decision yet.

[DeLuna]

Yuu slowly opened his eyes. How long was he out? Looking around he found himself in a hallway. His eyes shut tightly as his headache returned.

“nnngh” he winced as he pushed himself up to his feet.

The male still couldn’t remember what this place was or how he got there. As he wandered through the hallway he regained some flashes of what had happened, but it was just that, flashes. Eventually he found the balcony where his psychologist was. After a few minutes of debating whether he should approach him or not, he decided to go to him. Slowly he walked towards his target, until he was standing beside him. Keeping his eyes on Ryuusei’s hands he took a breath.

“Wh…what happened?” he asked, moving his eyes to meet the psychologist’s ones for just a split second before turning his gaze downwards to his hands again.