I'm Not Gay! (mik3la)

[mik3la]

Riku clenched his teeth getting pissed of the boys behavior. Trying to keep him steel he continuued walking to his car and spoke to him.

 

"Would you stop acting like a brat? I'm not gonna eat you or anything. Think of me like stranger, that you dont know and just stay still. I know that you are hurt cause i saw how they hit you so knock it off!" He raised a little his voise, demanding that Haruki stopped squirming.

 

"I know that you dont like me and that your disgust but I am still a human being and when somebody closest me gets hurt I have to take care of him. So, is not up to you" he said reaching his car, openning the passagers door and carefuly letting Haruki on the seat.

 

"After you see a doctor you can not talk to me, but until then, behave" he said looking at the boy, closing the seatbelt around his waist and closing the door.

 

Getting on thr drivers seat he start the engine and drived to the nearest hospital in silence.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki tried to squirm in the others grasp, protesting against him and the idea of the hospital "I don't need to go to a hospital, I"m just fine!" he protested, before wincing slightly as his stomach hurt again from the smallest movement. He huffed in irritation as the other finally snapped, yelling at him to pretty much just deal with it and keep quite and still while he tried to help him.

 

Hiroki frowned, and reluctantly fell silent with nothing more to say to the other after that. He stopped struggling so much, though it was clear he was still uncomfortable. Sighing, he let the other help him in the car, and as he waited for Riku to get in the drivers side and start driving, Hiroki was - unfortunately - finally able to really real the focused pain coursing through his body. He sighed, closing his eyes as he leaned against the door, one hand gently holding across his stomach. He figured he probably just had some more bruises on his body, and it hurt more because he'd already been sore and bruised, and with more hits onto old bruises he thought thats what caused the intense pain. He had no idea the combination of the two lead to something more.

[mik3la]

Riku started driving like a lunatic, keeping an eye on the boys aswell as on the road. In a few minutes they reached the hospital, parching near the entrance. Taking Hiroki back in his arms he entered and looked for a doctor. Imediatly some nurces came and took the boy while he remained to fill up some papers for him. He thought to call his dada but after he though that it was better not to.

 

The doctor examined the boy seeing all the old bruises and bandaging him, giving some pain killers and lay him into bed so that he can sleep and have some rest. Letting the little one allone, the doctor got out of the room and talk to Riku, telling him about the rest of the bruises. Now Riku started to understand a little. Thats why he was a fraid in the bathroom that he was going to hit him. Somebody is beating the ahit out of him but he doesnt say anything. Getting in a room, he sat on a chair looking at the boy, laying his head on the edge of the bed, falling asleep.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki leaned against the door as he tried to ignore the throbbing pain inside him. Closing his eyes, he let out a heavy, pained sigh, before they soon arrived at the hospital and he opened his eyes. He glanced around, and moved to open the car door, but before he could even step out, Riku was grabbing him and picking him up to carry him again "H-hey...I can still walk, y'know..." he sighed, but didn't fight the other seeing he wasn't going to have any of it. He was soon brought to an examination room, where a doctor looked over him and all the bruises, ending up finding that he was actually internally bleeding in his stomach. Hiroki was laid to rest in the bed as the doctor had some nurses set up an IV with some fluids that would help with the internal bleeding and stop it, meanwhile the doctor went to talk to Riku. Hiroki was fast asleep by the time the old friend of his had come to see him in the room, and he remained asleep for quite some time.

[mik3la]

Riku was still sleeping , having a nightmare in which Hiroki was running from him and in the end he got in a tragic accident and got in a hospital. He then woke up screaming and sitting up from the seat looking around, not knowing for the moment where he was but seeing Hiroki he sat back, taking his hand into his, sighing.

"Why didn't you tell me? Why did you had to hide from me?" leaning his head to the boys hand he closed his eyes and breath deep.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki was fast asleep, not having gotten a good nights sleep in weeks because of his insecurities at home, for obvious reasons. He slept soundly, until he heard a screaming which woke him up. He shifted, eyes fluttering open as he slowly woke up to the sound and someone talking beside him. As his vision focused, he glanced to his side feeling pressure on his hand. He realized it was Riku, but, he was too sore and tired to even try complaining and moving from the other "Riku...?" he spoke softly. He was confused why the other was there. Where was there, anyways? Glancing around, he realized he was in the hospital, and slowly remembered everything that happened.

[mik3la]

Hearing his name been called he raised his head looking at the boy with a sad expresion on his face, but quickly trying to change it in a happy one.

"You're awake ... how are you ... how do you feel? Are you alright?" He started asking looking consorned. "Why didnt you say something" he started imediatly. "Why didnt you say that you were beaten. We ciuld have had found a solution. Damn it Hiroki you're a mess because of thous things" he was refering about the brusses that were from the hits.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki looked back at the other when he spoke to him, listening to him with tired eyes. He frowned a bit, looking away with a bit of a guilty and ashamed look "I'm sorry, I just...I didn't think it was really any of your business..." he muttered softly with a sigh. He looked back to the other, and then shifted to try to pull himself up to sit up, only to wince, hissing in pain as he fell back down on the bed, it hurting too much to move a lot because of the internal bleeding, along with the various bruises "Please Riku...if you could just forget you knew of any of this..." he muttered, glancing to the other.

[mik3la]

"Lay back ... your not allowed to sit up" he said quickly, putting his hands on the others shoulders. Riku narrowed his eyes when the boy wanted him to forget. How could he. He almost died because of this. He clentched his teeth looking serously.

"How can you tell me to forget when I almost lost you" he breath in deep, sighing softly. "Your still not thinking at yourswlf only at others. Thats why i liked you" he added siting back on the seat.

"The doctor said that for the moment you have to stay under supervision. Its not safe to let you go home in this state. I dont want to see you in a coffin" he said looking to the other direction.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki sighed a bit as he looked to the other, reluctantly listening to him and laying back on the bed, relaxing a bit. His whole body hurt and felt like it was hit by a truck. Sighing, he looked to Riku as he spoke, and frowned "Riku, relax. It's not like I almost died....sure, maybe it's bad. But I'm fine" he huffed, lightly as he frowned. The othe twas worrying so much over him...it warmed his heart, but at the same time, reminded him how much how he couldn't be with the other. "What did the doctors tell you?" he asked, wanting to know if the other had seen his injuries or not. When the other mentioned why he liked him, he frowned more, going silent as he looked away from him "You have to stop that" he muttered.

[mik3la]

"Not like you almost die? Are you stupid? You could have die idiot. All thous bruises had caused some internal injuries and not all of them are caused because of my so called friends. You had them before" he said starting to walk along the room being to angry.

 

"Stop what?" he said stopping near the bed. "Stop carrying for you? Stop worrying for you. Sorry to disappoint you but I can't because I still love you like an idiot" he said grabbing the boy's face and without a warning he started kissing him. "And no matter how far you're pushing me away I will not stop it" he whispered pressing his lips against the boy's.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki frowned a bit when the other paced around the room, talking about how he indeed could have died. He sighed a bit, averting his eyes as he bit his lip. "I'm sorry, I didn't mean to worry you" he muttered softly. He really hadn't. He didn't think he would ever get this bad. Or maybe he did know that. Main point was, he didn't want Riku to find out. Because he knew all of this would then happen. He just sighed a bit, closing his eyes as he tried to ignore the other, asking him to stop.

 

"Please...just stop. Riku. It isn't right, I know that now, and you should too. My fath-" he started to go on but cut short quickly, not meaning to expose his father, and that he was the one who had done all this too him. even though he wasn't talking about his injuries, it would be clear enough if he said his father was the one putting these thoughts and ideas into his head, how it was wrong to be gay and everything. When he suddenly felt his face grabbed though, his eyes snapped open wide before realizing what the other was going to do, and he quickly squirmed "What are you-mm!" he gasped, struggling against the other. His face grew hot, and tears puddled in his eyes, for fear his father may find out and beat him twice as much for such an act like this. He squirmed against the other fearfully, shoving him away "Stop!"

[mik3la]

Hearing the boy speaking he stepped back and look at him. He knew that all thous bruses were done by someone close to him because he barely was out from house. He breath deep in looking at the boy and brushing his hair with his hand trying to keep calm.

 

"You know I can't. This is the problem. You don't understand. You feel it to. Maybe it is wrong. Maybe the whole world is against us or think that it is wrong, but you feel good. You feel safe with" he closed his eyes and then spoke again.

 

"Move in with me. Please. I don't want to stay with your dad anymore. It's to risky. I don't want to come next time to your funeral just because he is a stupid and ignorant man" he said through his teeth.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki frowned a bit as the other continued to speak and went on about how he couldn't stop loving him, and how it didn't matter and everything. he grit his teeth as he looked away from the other with his clenched teeth "Just stop trying" he huffed painfully. His heart clenched in his chest, pained by not being able to be with the other. But he knew he couldn't. "You're wrong. The only thing i feel for you is disgust" he glared with a frown "I only get beat up because of us. If it weren't for you then I'd be fine. SO I don't need you in my life, Riku" he spoke with a sigh.

 

He knew he sounded cruel, and mean - nothing like his usual self. But he was trying to be. Because he hoped maybe it would finally push the other away. But at the same time he knew how stubborn and determined Riku could be about things. Sighing heavily, he just looked away from the other "There's no way I'd move in with a freak like you. Just leave me alone. Don't you get it?" he huffed in irritation.

[mik3la]

He felt a thousand knifes stabbing his heart when the other was saying thous words. He stepped forward grabbing the boys hand forcing him to look at him.

 

"Look into my eyes and tell me thous things. Say it to my face. And i'll leave. Tell me!" He said through his teeth.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki had been avoiding the others eye contact for the majority of the time. He just bit the inside of his cheek, trying to keep his calm and appear as serious about the situation as could be. He gasped a bit when the other grabbed his face, fearfully and instinctively slapping his hand away, for the fear it was another sort of attack. Not from Riku, of course, but because of his father, he'd just been mentally driven into a constant fear, not unable to be touched without being scared and without expecting some sort of pain. His eyes widened a bit, realizing it was Riku, and he sighed heavily as he closed his eyes "I...Riku why....I can't love you" he murmured with his eyes closed, unable to meet his gaze.

[mik3la]

Riku bite his lip, not wanting to make another scene. He thought that it was enough for one day. Even if he was exausted, he would not give up on the boy. He loved him. And even if the world was against them he would fight till his last breath to keep him safe and next to him.

 

"Fine" he said through his teeth heading towards the door. "Just ... get better ... please" he said in a whisper, looking behind his shoulder to the boy and then he got out from the room. He planned to go to his home and kill his father for what he had done to him. Fuck it! It was his child. Then how sick can one person be to beat this child like that. Like an animal. This just couldn't be let like this.

 

Driving his car to the house, he went to the front door starting to knock, waiting for the boy's father to come out so that he can punch him in the face.

[ChibiMonkey]

Hiroki bit his lip, expecting more of a reply from the other. He prepared for another verbal assault, about how it couldn't be true and all of that. He mentally sighed and prepared himself for it. He knew the other wasn't one to give up easily. He listed to the other speak, before opening his eyes and looking at him. He frowned a bit, unable but to help feel guilty hearing the others words. Why did this have to be so hard? He sighed heavily as he heard the door shut behind the other and he left. He relaxed back into the bed with a frown, thinking to himself.

 

Meanwhile, back at his own house, Hiroki's father Juro had been getting ready for work and ready to head out. He was dressed in his office suit, about to open the door when he heard a knock. He blinked a bit, frowning in confusion at who it could be, and he opened the door. He raised an eyebrow as he looked at the other "Can I help you?" he asked.

[mik3la]

Seeing the man before him he felt his blood raise in his body, almost boiling. He was pissed off because his lover was in a hospital because of this retard. Without any warning he turned his hand into a fist and punch the man in his face. After he started to hit him even more, punching and punching without thinking straight. He was to nervous.

 

"This is for the beatings" punch. "This is for the bruises" punch. "This is for you being an animal" punch and kick. "How does it feels to be beaten up?" he was saying through his teeth while kicking the man.

[ChibiMonkey]

Without warning the kid at the door had suddenly punched him, and pretty hard too, in the face. Having been completely unsuspecting to it, he stumbled back and received a direct hit in the jaw. He grunted, putting a hand to his jaw as he glared at the male "What the hell?" he huffed before the other was suddenly hitting him and beating on him. He struggled for a moment against the other, the assault being completely unexpected. He grunted a few timed before he regained his composure and overpowered the other with his larger and stronger body.

 

He had shut the door, and now pinned the other roughly against the wall, holding his wrists to keep him from hitting him, and putting a knee between the others legs so he couldn't flail and kick him with them. "Who the hell are you, to come in my house and start hitting me?" he demanded, glaring hard at the male "Just what the fuck are you even talking about?" he growled, irritated and now in a pissed off mood.

[mik3la]

He growled when he was pinned on the wall, struggling to free himself but it was almost impossible.

"Your an animal. How can you beat up your own child that he has so many bruises on his body and now is in a hospital because of internal damage!! How can you even be called a father!! Your a disgrace!" he started to say through teeth, trying over and over again to free himself or to punch the man.

[ChibiMonkey]

Juro kept his cold, hard glare on the younger male beneath him with narrowed eyes, unrelenting. He listened to the other as he yelled and spat at him, insulting him. It only angered him more, until he was slightly surprised to hear his son was in the hospital "What was that?" he asked, voice not quite as angered a moment ago. Juro hadn't mean to hospitalize his son, that wasn't his intention. It wasn't long though until he was soon again glaring at the younger male "I see now. You're that filth of a kid that's been corrupting my sons mind, aren't you?" he growled, and while keeping the male pinned on the wall, brought his knee up to slam into the others stomach.

[mik3la]

Riku narrowed his eyes , clenching his teeth when the man started to speak. It was like he couldn't manage his anger to get calmer. With such a specimen in front of him he just couldn't. When he got hit he felt his inner muscles and organs sending pain to all his body, almost letting him without breath. He started to cough a few times, lifting his head to look at the man.

 

"No. I'm the guy who loves your son and protected him all this time, when you all you did was beating him to death" he spit out , breathing hard.

[ChibiMonkey]

The father glared down at the male. Every word he spoke only angered him more. He punched him hard in the gut once more "You're disgusting. It's impossible for you to love my son - your a male" he scoffed as he pulled away from the other "Now get out of my house before I call the cops on you. And you stay the hell away from my son, you'll only confuse him. He knows he doesn't love you, so don't play your mind tricks on him" he said as he crossed his arms "So get out. Now. I have a son to visit in the hospital" he huffed.

[mik3la]

He cough a little more after the punch. The old man was hitting quite hard. Trying to lean on the wall looking at the man before him, feeling all angry because he cannot do much more.

 

"Your the one that mess his head. He is afraid even when someone touches him. And I'm not talking about me or another male. Another person. He is so frightened that trembles. You have a son to visit? Ha!" he started laughing like a crazy person. "Maybe I should call the cops for child abuse because that's what your doing with him!" he said stating still, not moving an inch.