Black Paradise ~ (Sosuke0549 & mik3la)

[mik3la]

"Hmm?!"

 

He said looking at the boy but he already ran a few steps further to see the fireworks. It felt so empty without him in his arms. He could get used to it. He got himself up aswell reaching Jin's hand turning to face him. Without any warning or time for the other to react he kissed Jin, placing one hand on the boys waist and another on his neck, keeping him steady. The noises of the fireworks on the background wasn't bothering him. In fact he didn't cared about them. The main idea of that trip was to get the chance to be alone with Jin, and he succeed.

[Sosuke0549]

Jin was surprised when Saji followed after him and grabbed his hand, turning his face. He blushed brightly when the other kissed him with out any warning. His hand on his waist and the other was on his neck. He felt butterflies in his stomach and he closed his eyes getting lost in the taste of Saji. Jin's lips teased like cotton candy. Saji...wasn't like Kengi...he was...different...He felt different...he felt...good.

He heard the fireworks in the back round but it didn't stop him from hesitantly kissing the other back.

[mik3la]

Feeling Jin's respond his heart started to beat even faster. Yes he was afraid.. Afraid that Jin was to disgust of this after all that Kenji did to him. He was afraid of being rejected. But seeing that Jin was actually responding to his kiss, he was feeling confident. He had such feelings before and got hurt, and now they have return to him by a spoiled little brat. But he liked it. That little brat was making his life more spicy so to say.

 

Breaking the kiss to take some air he looked into Jin's eyes, caressing the lower lip with his thumb. He wanted more. He wanted to taste all of him. So he jumped into another kiss, invading Jin's mouth with his tongue exploring the sweetness inside. With his hand that was on the boy's waist, he lowered it on his behind, grabbing the but-cheeks firmly, pushing Jin's body closer. He was already aroused by him and wanted the other to feel what kind of effect he had on him.

[Sosuke0549]

Yes...Jin was scared. What if Saji touched him in a way that reminded him of Kenji. What if Saji broke his heart. What if someone saw them kissing...found out about this...up and coming relationship. What would happen? The only time he ever felt remotely safe was when he was with Saji...and even now his fears were slowly being drowned out by Saji's affection. His manager suddenly broke their lip lock, allowing him to breath. The famous actor and model blushed brightly as Saji looked into his eyes and caressed his lower lip with his thumb. His bottom lip quivered in excitement. Jin... didn't want to stop. His eyes fell to the floor, feeling as if the other was invading his thoughts and soul just by making eye contact. The dark haired boy was surprised when Saji pulled him into another kiss, this time invading Jin's mouth with his tongue. The boy tensed in the others grasp, slowly opening his mouth so the other could taste him. He felt Saji's hand move lower down His body, touching his behind and grabbing his ass. He gasped, his body trembling slightly. "Hha- ..n..nnm.."Saji pulled him closer and Jin weakly broke the kiss looking down.. S-Saji was...hard?! He could feel the others boner against his body. "Y...y-Your..hard"He was shocked that he had such an affect on the other and a little embarrassed.

[mik3la]

He could get drunk only from his sweetness. How could an arrogant spoiled child be that sweet? That wasn't normal. The moans of the other were like music to his ears, only making him more greedy. His breath got harder after the kiss.

 

"Y...y-Your..hard"

 

Saji smiled gently, being amused by the innocence of the boy. The blush in the others cheeks was beautiful. He was beautiful. "That's a normal reaction when someone likes someone" he said turning Jin with the back on the tree that was a few steps away from them. "And I like you Jin ... " he said closing the space between them, kissing the boy's neck. "Even if you are a spoiled little brat" , he smirked " ... I like you", he whispered with his lips still on the boys skin, moving it up and down the neck line. "And I desire you", he whispered in Jin's ear, biting the earlobe.

[Sosuke0549]

"That's a normal reaction when someone likes someone"[/Quote]

He said, pinning Jin'a back to a tree the boy froze, looking a little scared.

"S-Saji s-stop joking. "

"And I like you Jin ... "[/Quote]

"L-lier! "

He closed the space between them, and started kissing Jin's neck. Jin clenched his eyes shut feeling Saji's lips. His body trembled slightly. He gripped the others shoulders, weakly pushing him back.

"Even if you are a spoiled little brat ... I like you"[/Quote]

He whispered, his lips moving up and down his neck line. Jin moaned very softly. His hair falling in his eyes. Saji felt....good.

"..w..why...ha..nhh~...why..m-me...saj--"

"And I desire you"[/Quote]

He whispered again. This time biting his earlobe. Jin's heart was racing and he started to feel very warm and wet in between his legs. He felt embarrassed and quickly looked away.

"d-don't look at me! S-stop...stop lying"

[mik3la]

"d-don't look at me! S-stop...stop lying"

 

Saji stopped for a moment and forced Jin to look at him by turning his head with his fingers. "Why would you think I lie? I may look like a player but I am not one", he said in a serious tone. "I wouldn't risk my job for just a fun", he added kissing the boy's lips gently. "Plus ... you like it. Otherwise your body wouldn't react like this", he whispered licking his lips, touching the boy's crotch, feeling it respond.

[Sosuke0549]

Saji suddenly stopped for a moment, taking his chin had forcing Jin to look at him. He blushed brightly.

"Why would you think I lie? I may look like a player but I am not one. I wouldn't risk my job for just a fun"[/Quote]

Jin's eyes fell. Why him? Why did he like him. Jin always acted like a jerk so people wouldn't like him! Saji kissed his lips gently making him flinch a little.

"Plus ... you like it. Otherwise your body wouldn't react like this"[/Quote]

He whispered licking his lips and touching his crotch. Jin panted, feeling warm and wet in between in legs. He was growing hard.

He couldn't deny it anymore...he liked Saji...as much as he didn't want to admit it...He couldn't deny the way He was making him feel.

 

The fire works in the back round stopped, meaning the festival was over and people were starting to leave.

"n..no..n-not there."

He shook his head, being shy. He tried to stop the others hand from touching him in such a private and embarrassing place.

[mik3la]

Saji's heart was pounding so hard that could easily get out of his chest. Feeling the hardness of the other only made him happier.

"n..no..n-not there."

His voice was sweet and cute. Just like a drug. Saji removed the material of the kimono from the front, revealing the boys legs and got closer to mask the emptiness. One hand remained on the hard dick and the other run on Jin's behind. "The festival is almost over .... I cannot stop now .... " he whispered grabbing Jin's lips in another passional kiss.

Stroking further the boy's crotch was making him more arouse but he could handle it, he could manage to hide it from the others, but Jin was to embarrassed, to shy and to innocent. Moving his hand up and down he felt the other shiver in his arms. He moved his hand from behind a little further, finding the little place which needed to feel the gentle touch of a beloved person, and not a brute. He moved his finger in circle, then insert it, growling in pleasure. He wanted to do it, not his finger, but it was plenty of time.

"Let me hear your sweet voice", he added breathing hard, pinning his forehead on the other's, moving both hands quicker.

[Sosuke0549]

Saji removed the material of his kimono from the front of him, revealing his legs and length.

Jun trembled feeling the other go past his clothing, panicking.

"Hhhaa- ha..ha- S-Saji..p-ple-- "

One hand remained on his length as the other touched his behind, Jin gripped the others clothing, shaking.

"The festival is almost over .... I cannot stop now .... " [/Quote]

He captured his lips into a kiss, making him whimper. Saji didn't stop, he continued to stroke him meanwhile his other hand found his entrance, and started to touch him there. The boy arched his back, shaking his head.

"N-No..ha..nnuuhh- n..no.no!

He was scared that it would hurt. Tears starting to fall down His face, remembering Kengi. What if it hurt? He was...afraid..

"S-..saji- auhhh-ha...ha..ha.ha...haaa-"

He moved his finger in a circle, before insert it inside him. Jin moaned softly, feeling Saji finger him. This was...so embarrassing, to be so vulnerable!

"Let me hear your sweet voice"[/Quote]

He pressed his forehead against his moving quicker.

Jun couldn't hold out anymore. He body jolted as he shrieked like a virgin coming for the first time, coming all over Saji's clothes.

 

After releasing he panted hard, leaning into Saji, exhausted, his tears still falling..it...didn't hurt at much..in fact...it barely hurt at all...it actually felt..really good. His fear was...for nothing. Saji...was being gentle.

[mik3la]

After the boy found his release Saji caught him in his arms, keeping him close in his arms. "Sorry if it was to much" he whispered to the boy, panting his hair. "I was caught away" he added finding his normal breathing aswell. He was happy that he got the chance to see him so vulnerable. He was so cute that could kill a person with his cuteness. HE hated that Kenji got that kind of view ... or did he? He forced himself onto him.

 

"We should get back to the others", he said in a low voice lifting the boy's chin kissing his lovely lips. "The other's might start ask ..."

[Sosuke0549]

"Sorry if it was to much"[/Quote]

He whispered to him, panting his hair. Jin shuttered, sniffing softly.

"I was caught away"[/Quote]

Jin shook his head, He was mad at Saji...and yet happy at the same time.

"We should get back to the others. The other's might start ask ..."[/Quote]

He went to kiss his lips but Jin pulled away, turning his head to one side and removing himself from Saji as he breathed and fixed his clothes, rubbing his tears away.

"D-don't...I'm mad at you.."

He muttered.

Jin was trying his best to be tough and not get scared but..he was scared of having sex with Saji.. every time he touched him it was exhilarating and yet frightening. He was scared it would hurt if Saji fingered him or put himself inside him just like Kengi did. He didn't want it to hurt and he just wanted to focus of Saji but it wasn't that easy.

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When they got back Jin went straight to the bathroom to shower, leaving Saji and his friends in the living room.

[mik3la]

"D-don't...I'm mad at you.."

 

That shock him letting him paralized while looking at Jin. Did he do something wrong? Was it to much for him to handle.

The road back home was noise, partly from the others that were laughing and talking about how fun it was. Saji was looking at Jin with narrowing eyes, not understanding his behaviour. It hurt him to hear the boy saying he was mad at him and didn't want him to be touch.

 

Once they were in the house Jin went to his dorm, letting Saji looking worried.

"Hei, something happened with Jin?" asked Rao.

"Did he got drunk?" asked Layto.

"I ... I don't know", he said letting his eyes to one side, getting in the kitchen starting to drink again.

The others were confuzed not understanding but didn't want to dig deeper.

[Sosuke0549]

Jin stood in the shower, letting the water fall over his body. The young famous actor/model hugged himself, feeling conflicted.

His fears eating away at him.

Would he ever be happy? Could he be happy with Saji? Or would be hurt him too?

Jin kept thinking about tonight. How Saji touched him....how he so easily had him pinned to a tree and was touching him past his clothing. How he saw his manhood and heard his sounds and saw his climax expression. He was so vulnerable.

"...s...saji"

He muttered to himself. The thought of the other fingering him sent chills down His spin.. tonight...Saji's finger didn't really hurt to bad it felt.. strangely good, but just thinking of them going further frightened him...the first time he had sex with a guy was horrible and very painful.. he was afraid Saji would do the same thing to him as Kengi did.

 

He wanted to trust Saji... but was too traumatized. He just kept pushing the other away When he truly didn't mean to.

[mik3la]

It was the last night from the vacation. Tomorrow they had to turn back to their boring life's and do what they always do. Which wasn't much. But turning back that meant that Jin would close up towards him again, and he didn't want that. Even if now he did that and run away from him. Did he do a mistake when he moved towards him in that way.

 

The others went to bed in order to rest for tomorrow departure, and Jin didn't come out from his room. Saji was sitting in the kitchen, drinking glass after glass trying to ignore the feeling of miserable that he had in his chest. Did Jin didn't like him? Was he resembled to much with Kenji and it was to much for him to handle? So many question ran in his mind that it was driving him crazy.

[Sosuke0549]

It was later in the night when Jin creeped out of his room. He assumed everyone was asleep and stepped into the kitchen to get himself a glass of water.

The younger male froze suddenly seeing Saji there, at the table drinking.

Jin's eyes fell as he looked away and got himself a water bottle from the fridge.

"Y..You...You shouldn't be drinking this late...s-stupid. "

He muttered, turning to leave the room. Everybody handled there issues differently it seems he had made the other pretty upset.

"..n-night.."

[mik3la]

"Y..You...You shouldn't be drinking this late...s-stupid. "

 

Saji looked up at the boy lifting an eyebrow not understanding this mood change of his, but he changed his mood aswell. "Why do you care ... After all I am just a manager and I'm still on my free time ... Tomorrow I'll be more responsible", he said with narrowed eyes continuing drinking.

 

If all that happened between them here didn't mean anything, back home he would stop and just be the boys manager and nothing else. After the fact that it was difficult for him to keep the distance from him and not wanting to scare or anything the boy, now he was rejected like a big bang. He felt like he was the worst of them all.

[Sosuke0549]

"Why do you care ... After all I am just a manager and I'm still on my free time ... Tomorrow I'll be more responsible"[/Quote]

 

Jin froze in the door way hearing Saji change his tone. It was tolerant...or sweet...or intimidating... it was...cold.

Why would he..say that? After all I am just a manager? Then what did tonight mean? What did those...kisses mean? The thought of tonight not meaning anything to Saji made tears build up in his eyes.. Was the whole point of this trip for Saji to touch him.. get laid by him only to go back to being...just a manager?

w..was I...used again?

If Saji was just a manager, Jin would of never let him touch him...He was suppose to be something more! Something different!

"..I HATE YOU!"

He shrieked, his voice cracking as his tears fell.

He quickly hurried down the hall way to get to his room.

"S- stupid- stupid stupid! "

He muttered under his breath.. he was stupid for letting tonight happen if Saji was the same as Kenji.

[mik3la]

A deep pain flew through Sajis heart at the sound of thous words again. He was started to hate thous words. Turning his head to look at the boy and reply to him, he saw him running upstairs. Why does he always run away ... Cursing in a low voice he went upstairs after Jin, knowing that it was gonna get noisy from all the shouts that will start after he would manage to talk to him.

 

"Jin ... Stop!" he shouted getting closer and closer to the boys room, managing to stop it from closing, just in time for him to enter inside, and closing it after behind him. "What the hell is your problem? What did I do now for you to hate me again?" he said narrowing his eyes, trying to keep his tone a little bit lower.

[Sosuke0549]

"Jin ... Stop!"[/Quote]

Jun tried to close the door on Saji but his manager pushed his way threw and entered his room, closing the door.

"What the hell is your problem? What did I do now for you to hate me again?"[/Quote]

"My problem is you! You used me! What was tonight? Huh?! What did it mean to you?! I.. I wouldn't just let anyone touch me! Your just my manager right? So why touch me like that! Why Say those things and kiss me IF YOU WERENT INTENDING TO BE SOMETHING MORE!!"

He was yelling. He didn't care if he woke up his friends or if they found out..he just wanted to yell at Saji.

"My problem is You because I hate the way you make me feel. I hate that I never know what your thinking! I hate how when ever you touch me I get scared and nervous and excited all at the same time! I hate you! How could you say you like me when you...You...."

He bit his lip, struggling to whip his tears away.

His voice dying down.

"I hate..it...when you look at other people and not me.. when y-You..make me shy and..breathless..."

He whispered.

He took a few steps away from Saji, trying to keep his distance.

"..j..just go away! I was normal before you came and turned everything up side down! "

[mik3la]

"My problem is you! You used me! What was tonight? Huh?! What did it mean to you?! I.. I wouldn't just let anyone touch me! Your just my manager right? So why touch me like that! Why Say those things and kiss me IF YOU WERENT INTENDING TO BE SOMETHING MORE!!"

 

Wait .... what?! Saji woke up instantly from his drunk state looking in shock at the boy which was flipping out in front of him. Used him? Since when i was the one using the other?

 

"My problem is You because I hate the way you make me feel. I hate that I never know what your thinking! I hate how when ever you touch me I get scared and nervous and excited all at the same time! I hate you! How could you say you like me when you...You...."

 

Saji's mouth felt down more shocking with every word the other was saying, letting him speechless. I-Is that a confesion from his part? He didn't know what to think anymore.

 

"I hate..it...when you look at other people and not me.. when y-You..make me shy and..breathless..."

 

How the hell could he know all of that stuff. He was the one rejected in the first place and now Jin was way to much for him to handle. Did he really made him feel that way? Was Jin really .... possibly .... in love with him? he is to cute when he is upset ... but ... why did he say he hatted me? why pushing me away not yelling at me cause i said i will only be his manager ... wasn't that what he wanted in the first place?

 

"..j..just go away! I was normal before you came and turned everything up side down! "

 

Saji took a deep breath and closed the space between them two in just a second, grabbing the by the neck and pulling him in a forecefull kiss but passional at the same time. No one had ever said thous things to him and it was to damn cute and also annoying that he was keeping them away from him.

 

"I've never used you" he said breaking the kiss forcing the boy to look at him. "Listen to what I say ... I never used you. What I said on the hill it was true, but ... you rejected me and I ... I thought that you didn't want me so ... I figured that you want me just as your manager ... nothing more" he said all at once keeping the boy close to him, letting one hand on the other's waist so that he couldn't push back.

 

"I like you Jin ... I liked you from the moment I saw you .... even if we couldn't get along at first but .... I did ... And what happened on the way here I'm sorry if your world got messed up because of me but I am not sorry for kissing you in the first place. And I am not sorry now either", he finished saying waiting for something to come out of Jins mouth.

[Sosuke0549]

Jin was being childish...but he was so upset he couldn't help it. When Saji closed the space between them He panicked and tried to move away but his manger was too quick and grabbed him by his neck, pulling him into a forcefully yet passional kiss. The actor froze, tensing in the others arms. Eyes wide and full of tears.

t..this...k-kiss,.

It felt...so good.

"I've never used you"[/Quote]

"L-lier! L-let me go!"

He struggled against him being difficult.

"Listen to what I say ... I never used you. What I said on the hill it was true, but ... you rejected me and I ... I thought that you didn't want me so ... I figured that you want me just as your manager ... nothing more" [/Quote]

Jin stopped, his eyes falling to the ground.

"...I...I didn't...."

He shivered feeling Saji place his hand on his waist, keeping him close.

"I like you Jin ... I liked you from the moment I saw you .... even if we couldn't get along at first but .... I did ... And what happened on the way here I'm sorry if your world got messed up because of me but I am not sorry for kissing you in the first place. And I am not sorry now either"[/Quote]

Jin was blushing. He felt so flustered and confused, and happy.

He kept his eyes down and covered his face with his hands, whipping his tears away and hiding his adorable blushing face.

How could be respond to that. How should he respond to that?!

He liked him? All this like he...wanted him?

[mik3la]

Seeing Jin so upset he felt useless. Did he really hurt him that much? Did his kisses were so painful for him? He didn't know. He couldn't read others minds, he needed to be told. That way he could know how he should act or what to do. Slowly he let his arms on Jin's hands and took them away from his face.

"Don't hide away" he whispered looking at him with a gentle smile, stroking the others cheek, wiping away his tears that were falling down. He saw that the boy was blushing and he was really cute.

"You have to tell me how you feel Jin ... Is this ok for me to come closer to you or do you want me away?" he said in a low voice feeling his heart hurting with the last words. He didn't want, but if the other wanted so, then he wouldn't force him.

"I am new in this kind of stuff aswell ... I cannot tell what you think or what you would like ... I have to learn that to. So please help in this if you like me to", he said lifting the others chin, getting away the tears from the others eyes. "I don't want to hurt you", he added locking his eyes with the other.

[Sosuke0549]

Saji forcefully removed his hands from his face, making him meet his eyes.

"Don't hide away" [/Quote]

He whispered, smiling at him and stroking his cheek, wiping away his tears. He was being so...gentle. how could Jin ever be so scared of Saji's touch?

"You have to tell me how you feel Jin ... Is this ok for me to come closer to you or do you want me away?"[/Quote]

Jun shook his head, feeling like a child. He didn't want to be alone... he didn't want Saji to go.

"I am new in this kind of stuff aswell ... I cannot tell what you think or what you would like ... I have to learn that to. So please help in this if you like me to", [/Quote]

He took his chin, and at that very moment Jin could feel butterflies in his stomach.

"I don't want to hurt you", [/Quote]

His lips trembled.

"..s...saji..."

He clenched his eyes shut and looked away breaking there eye contact feeling extremely flustered.

"..s-Stop..m-making me...f-feel so...h-...happy"

He blushed more.

"Y-You..s-stupid.. I don't want you to go... I.. I want you...to stay..."

[mik3la]

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"..s-Stop..m-making me...f-feel so...h-...happy"

 

The boy had confused him again, but he smiled seeing him blush. That meant what he was saying wasn't a bad thing. Maybe the other was scared and that's why he was pushing him away even though he wanted him close.

 

"Y-You..s-stupid.. I don't want you to go... I.. I want you...to stay..."

 

Saji's hear skipped a beat at thous words, making him widen his eyes. He didn't thought that such simple things would make his heart race so fast. In just a second he locked his lips on with Jin's lips, kissing him passionately, not wanting to let him go. When he felt there was no more air in his lungs he broke the kiss, locking his eyes on Jins, keeping his mouth only a few inches away from the others.

 

"Tell me what you want Jin" he whispered brushing his lips over Jin's lips. He didn't cared if the others heard them before or they found out about them. He was only carrying what the boy in front of him would say.