Love brings out the weakness

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru started crying and he buried his face in Akira's neck kissing it softly. "You remember...I-i was so scared you wouldnt remember us.." He said and he let Eve go his hands going up to Akira's cheeks and pulled him close kissing him gently the tears sliding into his lips and mixing with the kiss. He felt Eve get up and leave as a nurse felt they needed their time alone. He pulled away silghtly tears sliding down his cheeks as he spoke. "I-I love you..." He said gently. "I dont need to think about anyithing anymore I want to be with you...when I-I almost lost you it flooded in how much you meant to me..and I cant have this happen again.." he said gently.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira smiled and hugged Hikaru to his chest and stroked his hair.

"Hush I'm fine now,I'm sorry for scaring you like that."Akira Kissee his forehead and wiped the others tears away with his thumb.

" We must live in the present while we can."Akira smiled and hugged Hikaru a bit tighter.

"I love you too Hikaru,I want to be with you for all of eternity and beyond."

[Arekushisu]

The fact Akira hadnt kissed him back hurt him and he pulled away from him, "Yea..you should rest.." he said lightly wiping his own eyes and standing. "I probably should rest as well...Eve sleeps with me now she has been having nightmares since you got sick.." he said softly and looked up as the doctor came in telling Akira that he would need to rest now. And that Hikaru needed to leave, he sighed softly and looked at Akira. "I'm sorry for kissing you...I assumed...- you know what necer mind." he chuckled lightly at his stupidity and he shook the doctors hand. "Be back in the morning Akira." he said gently now that the sun was low in the sky.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira frowned.

"Its fine I liked it....I don't want you ti leave."akira grabbed his wrist .

" I want to go with you,I'll force them to let me go."Akira stood up and hugged Hikaru tightly.

"I don't wanna sleep again so soon."

[Arekushisu]

He looked back feeling the small fingers against his wrist and he sighed turning and looking at him. "Well it's getting late...but we can stay up a little longer if you like." He smiled gently and he pulled Akira into his arms picking him up. "I'm taking him with me doc." He said softly and started up to his room. "Are you hungry? You haven't eaten a decent meal since you woke up." He asked nodding to people who spoke to him telling him to stay safe. He shook his head, "Akira...I'm so sorry this happened I had no idea Shina was capable..." He sighed and sat him down as he opened his door and walked in guiding Akira. "Do you remember this room? Do you remember..." He stopped himself wanting to ask if he remembered them making love multiple times but he knew he probably didn't.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira smiled as he was pulled into the others arms and rested his head agansit the others chest.

"Hungry?......I am a little bit." Akira paused as the other apologized.

"I k ow your sorry it isn't really your fault ."akira smiled softly and kissed Hikaru's cheek.

" this room? "He jumped down and flopped down onto the bed and inhaled deeply.

" yeah I do this is the bed we shared."akira rolled himself up in the blanket .

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru smiled softly and he sat next to him in the bed. "Yes love...we did share this bed." He smiled softly and he kissed his head and he sighed. He picked up his phone and called for them to bring him the dinner they had made. He hung up easily and he looked over at Akira looking him over. He said nothing as his eyes ran down his body just remembering his figure, he blinked his eyes away from the other male and blushed. "Do you...remember everything about us?" he asked gently looking over at him. "The hot springs?" he questioned.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira smiled softly and nodded.

"Yeah I rember everything." Akira sat in the others lap facing him,he lifted the shirt just enough to check the wound that was afflicted onto his lover before allowing the shirt to drop back down.

"I love you Hikaru." Akira smiled and kissed the other gently before getting comfortable in the others lap resting his head against the others chest.

[Arekushisu]

Hikarus arms went around the small body in his lap like they had done many times before. His hands ran up and down his back and he shivered lightly as his shirt was lifted. "It's begun to heal...and your wounds are healing as well. Slow recovery but it's happening." He smiled gently and kissed his head laying down on the pillows behind him pulling the boy with him. He let his fingers absently work on his back again and again just soothing him closing his eyes. "I love you too Akira...I missed you..." He said softly. He was mentally hurt and he still couldn't believe that he was before him smiling and happy and laying on him. He was scared tomorrow he would wake up and tell him he didn't know who he was.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira smiled as the other wrapped his arms around his frail body sharing eachothers warmth,he had missed the feeling ever so dearly.

"I know I've been keeping an eye on it." Akira smiled slightly and melted into the others touch as his fingers massaged his back.

"Thank you for being there for me,I couldn't ask for a better lover and hopefully one day a husband."

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru said nothing for long period of time simply enjoying the feel of the long lost feeling of Akira against him. He moved his fingers under his chin and pulled his face up kissing him gently pulling him closer. "I want to have you.." He said softly without being able to stop himself and he blushed lightly. He was saved by the sound of a knock on his door and he told them to come in. He looked up and was happy to see the food and he motioned them in and the servants sat them on the tables. He smiled lightly and thanked them then he looked at Akira. "How about dinner? Soft things for you for your tongue." He said smiling gently.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira's lips parted slightly as Hikaru lifted his chin causing Akira's eyes to be caught by the other male's, as soon as Hikaru kissed him leaving the small male wanting more contact missing the warmth of his lover.

"b..but we don't have time before they get here" Akira flushed slightly at the others bold words, a few seconds later someone knocked apron the door.

 

Akira watched as the food was brought in and looked at Hikaru his face still flushed.

"Only if you eat some too." Akira giggled softly.

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru tilted his head and he smiled seeing the soft blush on his lovers cheeks. He waited for the servants to leave before he sat down at the small table in his room patting his lap for Akira to sit in it. "After we eat we will have all the time in the world. If you're still up for it...and only if your body can handle it." He said gently his fingers going to a glass of wine and he took a drink from it happily. He looked about the table seeing the many different foods some American some Japanese and he gladly accepted them all. He started eating taking a slice of pizza which was homemade and started eating it happily. He knew that if he ate too quickly he would vomit and he wouldn't be able to eat too much without it hurting him badly leaving him unable to touch his lover as he wished.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira pondered for a moment before crawling into the others lap.Akira glaced at the other glass of wine but thought that drinking wine wouldn't be the best thing to do right now.

 

"As long as your gentle...its been awhile." Akira took a piece of pizza and began to slowly eat it over time.

"I feel so safe by your side." Akira smiled softly leaning agansit the other enjoying the warmth radiating from the other male.

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru looked at the other male and he was hurt at the hesitation in his words and actions. An arm protectively moved around Akira's waist and he looked down a moment, "Akira...I need to tell you something.." he said gently setting the food down and he looked at Akira and he kissed his shoulder gently. "About that night...when I was trying to find you..after he took you...I need to tell you what happened..." he did need to tell Akira that he had slept with Shina. He couldnt keep it in any longer and he did want to sleep with Akira to take away the feeling of the other boys flesh against his own. He was loose when Akira was tight and conformed around him like they were meant to be one together. He hated his skin, he hated himself what he did to get his lover back but he needed to tell him, nightmares were plauging him over it and it needed to be spoken about.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira looked up at Hikaru as he noticed the arm wrapping around his waist.

"I'm listening...go ahead." Akira stated not breaking eye contact with his lover, akira frowned slightly at the others words.

"The night I was kidnapped?.....did something happen between Shina and you?...he told me that he was going to steal you away from me." Akira gripped the others shirt slightly feeling the constant fear of letting go of his lover the fear of losing the other was too much for Akira to handle.

"D...don't worry I won't be mad..." Akira's voice broke slight as he spoke.

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru looked up at Akira and he sighed softly, "AKira...we need to talk about what happened...that night.." he said gently his eyes looking over the boy his eyes watering. "I need to let it out I cant keep it all to myself like this its hurting me..." he said gently and he hugged Akira tighter his face hiding in his shoulder. He was hurting, he had been keeping the fact he had touched Shina to himself because he was practically forced to touch the younger male to get Akira back safe and sound, he hoped akira wouldnt think badly of it.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira gently began to rub the others back trying to comfort him a but more.

"I'm here to listen go ahead." Akira looked deeply into Hikaru's eyes.

"I'm pretty sure I know what was going on in there with Shina due to the marks he left on you and what he said to me...I think he honestly only lusts for you..."Akira comforted the other male stroking his hair in a soothing motion.

" Shina forced you to touch him...and I will for give you because I know that you would never cheat on me unless it was for my own future."Akira kissed Hikaru's forehead softly easing his chin to look at him.

"I'll always forgive you my love,and I hope that you'll have enough love for me and eve both."

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru felt the tears running down his cheeks before he could register he was crying. He shook his head and looked down his shoulders shaking, "I didnt want to touch him Akira...I didnt want to touch him...he told me he was going to kill you that he was going to torture you till I did as he asked! I-i was so focused on getting you back to me I just threw him down and did as he liked and then turns out I didn't even need to!" he shook his head his hands going to his face as he cried into them. His large shoulders shook, and he did not look like the general he was. He looked like a man who had lost everything that was important to him and one that felt like it was his fault.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira frowned slightly and began to wipe away Hikaru's tears gently.

"I know dear,...it's ok I forgive you I know that you obviously feel disgusted ."Akira hugged Hikaru tightly his eyes beginning to gather tears at the corner

" I feared that he would have killed me but eve came along and heard the sobbing and let me out of the room." Akira smiled slightly and moved Hikaru's hands way from his face.

"Hikaru you are irreplaceable."

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru shook his head and the tears just kept coming, all the worry and stress and all the fear of Akira's impending death just poured out of him. Pent up emotions just left him like he was opening the flood gates fro the first time. He clung to Akira for the first time since they had been with one another, the first time he had broke infront of this man and he didnt care. He trusted Akira fully with his weakened self and he shook silently in his arms. "I put you into a coma! I-i took away your memories! All because someone wanted me...i-i put you in danger when I should have been the one hurt! I should have been the one kidnapped and or killed! You shouldnt have forgotten us! Of me!" he let the sobs leave his lips as his entire strong atmosphere died. "Y-you forgot everything...watching your eyes when I kissed you the first day you didnt remember me...y-you didnt love me and it hurt so much...my heart broke and I-i dont thiink i'm back together even now because I'm constantly worried you are leaving again! That in the morning you will forget me again! A-and Eve!" he said against him his eyes looking up to Akira. "I dont wish to be forgotten...you forgot how I loved you...how it felt for me to kiss you gently..you forgot my voice.." he said gently his eyes closing as the pain engulfed him.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira held the other tightly allowing the other to cling to him hurting him slightly but in the given moment he couldn't ask for anything more than this he missed having Hikaru by his side filling the hole in his heart loving him like no one had before Eve and Hikaru were all that he had now and he wasn't going to give them up so easily.

"Hikaru...hush don't worry I'm not going anywhere....please even if I do end up forgetting or falling asleep again don't give up on me...without you I probably wouldn't have been here right now."

[Arekushisu]

After a long long time Hikaru's sobs fell to small whimpers as his hands clenched and unclenched in Akira's shirt. He sniffled lightly and pulled away not looking at Akira as he pushed the boy off of his lap setting him on his feet gently. He stood next and walked to the bathroom door pulling the shirt he had on over his head and onto the floor after. "I'm sorry...forget I said any of that.." he chuckled softly wiping his eyes as he turned on the bathroom light. His hands worked on the pants he wore as he walked to the shower turning it on. He sighed gently as he leaned against the door his head leaning back. The bathroom door was open for Akira when he wished to walk in with him, if he wished.

[Bloodbunny]

Akira clinged to the other slightly as he was pushed away not wanting to leave the other male why wasn't he looking at him for talking to him as much as before?Akira letted out a soft pained sob as the other placed him aside and went to the bathroom leaving the door open although Akira didn't want to shower with him at the given moment and instead curled up crying beneath the sheets letting out the emotions that he was trying to keep from flooding out all at once but it hurt way more like this.

[Arekushisu]

Hikaru felt his chest tighten as he heard Akira start to cry. He sighed and his face contorted as he turned the water off. He walked back to the bed and he sat next to him. He shushed him lightly and he pulled the boy into his lap letting his head rest on his thigh. "Why are you crying..? Youve nothing to cry about love.." he said gently his fingers running through his hair as he looked ahead not wishing to look down at the pain filled face of his lover. "You have no guilt..no shame...you have no need to cry.." he said softly and hugged the male close to him.