큰 꿈: Big Dreams (1x1 Funny Otaku and ~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~)

[Funny Otaku]

All James felt was pure pain...Pain that he had never experienced before by another person. But James being as stubborn as a brick wall, and besides the pain all that was on his mind was Shun and If this man killed him..It's wouldn't count as a suicdie just an accidental death..His family wouldn't feel as bad...well more like his granny...And Shun..Like the other said he was an actor and had a great body he could find someone else. He smiled..His body was really damaged and well..He had always been ready to pass on...James unlike most people wasn't afraid of death, no he saw it as a second chance to start a new journey but this time with his mom, grandfather and others before him. He never thought of death as something dark, more like A bright light to guild you to happiness.

"Do me one favor you, ignorant twat, dick breath mother fucker that shouldn't have been born, tell Shun...I love him and alway will, it's okay to move on though." He said the last part gently then spat on the other.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

"You really are pathetic." Was all Harusei says, before letting go. Watching as James fell. And turns away, smirking slightly. He wouldn't get in trouble and he knew it. He leaves the room, a sober expression now on his face, and after a moment he reaches the room, and opens the door, ready to step inside, now with fake fear in his eyes. But like his brother, he too was a pro at acting, and he could fool anyone.

 

~Minutes earlier~

 

Shun hears a crashing sound echoing, and shards of glass flying down to the ground below. He jumps from his seat, and runs over to the window, opens it, sticks his head out and looks up, his heart almost stopping at what he saw. James was dangling top half out the building on the top floor. He watched, eyes wide, as he begins to fall.

 

The others had run over too, and grab on to Shun as he sticks his body out, and reaches to grab James, managing to catch hold of his arm, and halt his fall. He grunts from the weight, and almost slips out the window, but the others heave him back inside, along with James.

 

As soon as James was inside, Shun begins to freak out, tears pouring from his eyes. "Jemesu! What the hell happened, oh my god, oh my god. Are you okay? Please say you're okay! Oh god!" He wraps James into his arms and holds him close, his body rocking back and forth, trembling. He buries his face into James's hair, his tears falling on him. The others look at each other, wondering what happened. "Jemesu...Jemesu..." he moans, crying hard.

[Funny Otaku]

When James was dangling out of the window for once in his life he felt fear. He didn't want to leave Shun what was he thinking. Tears slipped down his cheeks he tried to move body, he couldn't. He didn't care if he was being used...Being used was better then being nothing. His eyes were drooping from the pain and blood loss.

"Im sorry Shun." He whispered as he felt something grab his arm.

His eyes were closed so he just thought it was death or a grim reaper or something.

Soon he felt warmth all around him and and screams saying what happened. He slowly opened his swollen eyes.

"Shun." He coughed, he must have looked terrible. "Sorry..." He muttered...James being james tried to put some humor in it. "What Is your family part of the mafia or something...I thought he was really gonna kill me." He coughed/laughed out.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

Shun sighs in relief when James opened his eyes. "Haha, very funny." He murmurs, still shaking slightly, tears still falling from his face. He hears James talking, and he frowns. "Damn him. He planned this out from the beginning. He's always doing things like this!" He hated Harusei so much right then and there, he would have killed the guy if he wasn't so worried about James.

 

Harusei walks through the door and sees James in Shun's arms. "He survived, thank goodness!" Shun looks over at Harusei, and glares. "You knew this would happen! You set this whole thing up! I'm going to kill you, you hear me?" Harusei rolls his eyes. "Shut up. I did it for you. James was in no real danger. And yes, you're right I did set it up. God, you're such an ass sometimes."

 

He snaps his fingers, and a camera crew comes filing into the room. Everyone was silent, and James smirking. "What the hell?" Shun demands, and Harusei sighs in annoyance. "Just be quiet! People were beginning to doubt you, and were saying you were a lying player. So, I set thus whole thing up, to prove them wrong. Right from the moment you guys stepped from the room upstairs the cameras started rolling. I'm sorry. What I'm trying to say is, forgive me...brother. I was wrong. And I apologize to you too James-san. My doctors will fix you up if you'd like." Harusei then proceeds to bow low in respect and deep apology. His face was sincere. Even for a seasoned actor, no one could fake the sincerity he was displaying right now.

 

Shun was speechless. He just stared at Harusei. "I-I...I don't believe it. I don't believe you! Jemesu?" He looks to James, wanting his opinion.

[Funny Otaku]

James was in blatant shock.He tried to push Shun off him to hit the other again but he was to weak.

"You are real ass you know.." He coughed. "I would never of that to him..I tried to get along with you then you said Shun was using me and I said you were lying and that Shun was a wonderful person. Then you said I was lower then dirt, and Shun was even lower.....so I tried to hit you but you just flipped me over and engaged it more....Im so confused..why would you tell everyone that it was FAKE.I ALMOST DIED THE SECOND TIME IN 3 WEEKS! I DON'T WANT TO DIE I WANT SHUN AND GRANNY AND THE OTHER!" HE screamed which right now was not very loud and boy did it hurt. Tears were streaming down his face, clutching shun more and more, and tighter...

"I thought I was dead...you told me i was dead."

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

Harusei punches his hand against the wall, leaving a dent and several spider-web cracks along the wall. He glares at James. "I did this for him! To protect him! I played the bad guy to make others stop doubting Shun! The words said towards him were NOT fake! Yeah, i may have been stringing you along, but it was to protect you and my brother! So the least you could do is say thank you, you ungrateful bastard!" With those words, he leaves the room, everyone was silent.

 

Shun stares at his hands, and after a moment he looks at James. "Jemesu...I think he was telling the truth. He's never said things like that before..." He sighs softly, when the door opens again, and a woman doctor walks in, and over to them, kneeling down next to James. Without a word or any questions, the doctor begins to fix James, cleaning his wounds, placing bandages, etc.

 

The others, Tamashi, Aki, and Kajima had left after Harusei, so it was just Natsu, Takashi, Reiji, Shun and James, plus the doctor. After a moment she stands up, and hands James a bag with several bandages and other medical thibgs like cleaning solution, antibiotic ointment, and others, before leaving. "Well, that was awkward... " Reiji says, breaking the silence.

[Funny Otaku]

James frowned. He tried to stand up but fell. He was pissed how could Shun believe that lier.

"How could you do this.....I fucking defended you and now you believe the asshole that shares your blood!" He turned glaring at James.

"Maybe I should have died...Get out of the picture, so you and the other could be a family again." He grabbed his head and was on his knees. "I must be going crazy because 5 minutes ago he said it was okay if you dropped dead." He started laughing.

"You fucking believe him." He had a crazy look i his eyes and a crooked smile....James had lost some sanity. "Shun Im sorry that I ever thought that I meant something to you, your brother was right....You did use me....I should have never trusted you.......All you wanted was sex. Don't come near me, send Hope to room 206 in the apartment complex next to my old one..." He stood up ignore the pain and pulled out his phone....

"Rei I need you to pick me up...I was wrong...I do need you...I...I should have trusted you." He spoke into the phone.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

Shun just stares at James, not sure what the hell was going on. One minute things seemed like they were about to go back to normal, then the next, this. He felt as if his heart had been shattered into a million pieces at what the other was saying, and all he could do was look at him with shock, not a single word able to be uttered from his mouth. Slowly he begins to shake his head, tears once again stinging his eyes. "No...No, no, no!" That wasn't true! He wasn't using James, not at all!

 

Tears slid down his cheeks, not believing a word that was being said. "No, please. Don't leave. I-I'm sorry! I want you to stay! Please!" He stood up too, staring at James, an empty feeling pressing on his chest, his stomach churning, he couldn't breathe. Any other break up he'd had didn't feel quite as bad as this one. Why was it so different? He finally gives up, and turns around, leaving the room, the faces of the other's shocked.

 

"I can't believe you'd do something like that man. I thought you were cool..." Reiji mutters, taking off after Shun. Natsu just shakes his head and follows suit. Takashi was left, and tears were in his eyes too. He looks to James. "Shun-kun really liked you. I could tell. He'd never acted that way with his other ex's, so I could see that you were different. So why would you do something like that? Over him finally getting his brother back? James-kun, I'm disappointed." He sadly looks at James, and leaves James alone in the room.

[Funny Otaku]

James grumbled.

"Fuck them they don't know anything."

He stomped out of the room and found Rei waiting. He hugged him.

"What happened?' He asked worried.

"Nothing don't worry." Was all James said, the nest thing he knew was he was at Rei's house..well apartment.

They had Random junk food while laying on the couch, watching Sherlock, rei knew fluent english. As they ate chips, James eyes got heaveir and heavier..today had been a rough day. He felt rei put his hands through his hair, it felt nice soon he was asleep.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

Shun had hurried home, and locked himself inside. He hadn't felt so miserable in his life. He goes to a certain drawer, and opens it, revealing a midnight black gun. He picks it up, the weapon heavy in his hands. For a moment he stares at it, before slowly raising it to press against his head. He stares at his reflection, tears staining his cheeks, his clothes a mess from running all the way there, his hair tangled.

 

He takes a deep breath, and closes his eyes, his hand steady, not shaking one bit.

 

"Jemesu..."

 

His heart pounds, and he looks at his refection, one last time.

 

"Goodbye..."

 

Shun squeezes the trigger, and then...

 

~~~~~~~~

 

Shun's eyes fly open, and he gasps for air, sitting up in a bed, sweat dripping down his skin, tears falling from his eyes. His heart was pounding, and he was short of breath. Shun runs his hand through his hair, his whole body trembling. A knock comes at the door, and Mitsukuni's voice comes through, saying they'd be arriving to their destination in about fifteen minutes.

 

He looks out a window, staring at the clouds, and the scenery that flew by, as he was currently in a plane, headed to America. He sighs softly, and gets up stretching. "It was just a dream." He laughs, it had felt so real, seemed so real. And yet, put of all of it, the thing that felt most real, was James.

 

Getting dressed, they arrive, and he steps off of the plane, immediately getting into a car, and driving off, Shun in the backseat, staring at the buildings as they passed. It had been all over the web about Shun's debut in America, all of his fans probably going nuts with the fact he was doing this. He orders the driver to go to get something to drink, sayinghje wanted to go in, and they stop at a cafe. The car parks, and sure enough, fan girls, and guys, began to scream.

 

Stepping out the car, he waves and smiles, before the guards made a path for him to go inside. Right as he stepped in,moments later after gazing around, his eyes land on someone. Someone he felt like he'd known forever, but at the same time, only a few seconds. "Jemesu..." he mutters, gazing at the other, before looking away. Trying to convince himself it had all just been a dream.

[Funny Otaku]

"GET YOUR ASS OUT OF BED YOU"LLL BE LATE FOR YOUR FRIENDS!" Granny yelled in James's ear, flicking it.

"Ow,duh fuck?"

"WATCH YOUR LANGUE YOUNG MAN!" She yelled stomping out of the room.

James sat up looking around his childhood room and holding his head, It seemed he had a pounding head ache. He looked over at the cage with Hope in it on his desk, standing walking to it. HE took Hope out hugging him.

"Hope, your never gonna believe me. I had this weird ass dream about how I went to Japan you know for my abroad study in a few months. and Shun, Fuckin Shun, was there and we dated and....so much shit happened." He talked to his rabbit.

Looking around at his old room he had out grown the small bed and had posts of his art on the wall, along with posters of the Korean boyband. He set Hope back down feeding him.

"God I should get dress." He looked at his phone seeing that Jenny had Texted him about meeting yesterday.

He stretched and got his blue plaid cotton shirt, his skinny jeans and black bowtie with white music notes. He grabbed a messenger bag with his art supplies and books about animal care. He Jumped down the stairs granny yelling to be careful and back by 1 am.

"Love you" he yelled to her.

He jumped into his crappier then crap old mustang he got for his 16th B-day. He picked up Jenny and Ben on the way their, and they were gonna meet Erica and Sam their.

Once they got their He saw them..for some reason it felt longer then a week since he had seen them. They ordered Coffee and talked about College and such.

"I still haven't picked my Major, I want to go into animal care but I also love art.." James muttered, pulling out his sketch book and showing the others the drawings he had done at the park a few days back.

"James these are amazing"

Once their coffee and food came, he dug into his muffin........He looked up and met eyes with the one and only Shun. His friends saw and all their jaws drop.

"Guys Its him."

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

Going up to the counter he makes an order, his voice stumbling to find the right words, and eventually one of his body guards had to step up and help him out. He blushes in embarrassment, and grins at his guard, thanking him for his help. Rubbing the back of his neck, he glances over at the table where James and his friends were, biting his bottom lip, unsure of what to do.

 

Without another thought towards the situation, he casually walks over to them, trying to hide his nervousness with one of his amazing signature smiles. The girls at the table giggle, but the only person Shun was really paying much attention to was James. Or at least a person who looked liked the James from his dream. He doubted that there was any way the guy could actually exist.

 

He stops at the table, and smiles at them all. "Hello. America is nice, yes? Place is confusing though. Crazy." He makes a circular motion with his forefinger around his ear. "Do you mind if talk with you? While waiting for my drink?" Shun looks to James, then away again. "I apologize...my uh, English is no good really." He grins, sticking his hands in his pockets casually, glancing at James every now and then.

[Funny Otaku]

They all gawked at the man infant of them. When he spoke his voice was so cute..

"Totally. Come one sit." Jenny said excitedly.

James looked at him taking out a pencil and his sketch pad.

"This is like a once in a life time.....thing...and...and...do you mind if I sketch you?" He asked so nervously.

He looked down....He really liked the other guy...and it was weird because of the dream....

"Oh ya James over there is a great artist." Jenny laughed.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

Shun smiles brightly, and places his hands in front of him, pressing them together and bowing in gratitude. "Sank yu!" He meant to say thank you, but couldn't pronounce it quite right. Sitting in a chair across from the James look a like, he noticed how the other had taken out a sketch pad and a pencil, looking over at him.

 

"No, I don't mind. Go ahead." He places his arms on the table, resting his chin on the palm of his hand, and glances over at his guard, who was watching this carefully. Then he turns his gaze to the male in front of him, who looked really nervous for some reason, his eyes shifting to the girl who speaks up, saying that this guy was really good at drawing, and his name was... James.

 

He blinks, containing his surprise with a bit of laughter. "Oh, well then, I hope to uh, maybe see this after...uh...Jemesu is done with it, is that okay?" Shun look straight at James, his husky blue eyes shimmering with some hidden recognition and emotion. The guard comes up to the table, and places the drink that was done down in front of Shun, before backing away again, and Shun sips a bit from the straw.

[Funny Otaku]

James looked at the other man...The dream....He concentrated on his face, the curves the straight parts everything. Each stroke creating an identical looking sketch minutes passed.

"It's...It's done." He squeaked.

He set it on the table for all to see. John jump on him hugging him.

"See you should major in art I was right." He laughed as the others kinda dog pilled on their friend.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

The drawing was finished sooner than he expected, and looks at it when James shows it to him, smiling at how well drawn it was. "You are right, it's very good. Well done. You could maybe study art as a second thing if you want. Right?" Slipping off the chair, he stands up, his empty cup remaining on the table.

 

"Well I must go now. Sank yu for letting me sit here." With a wave, he turns around and leaves, his guard following after him, and he returns to the parked car, getting in, and letting out a deep breath as he leaned against the back if the seat. That had been really weird. Not only did that guy look like the James from his dream, but his name was in fact James. This was way too much to be a mere coincidence. Or was he thinking too much into it?

 

Whatever it as, it was freaky. He glances back at the cafe, taking one last look at the building, feeling he'd somehow meet James again, but at the same time he feared that the encounter they'd just had was to be their last. Sighing, he closes his eyes, and puts headphones in his ears, trying to drown out his thoughts with music.

[Funny Otaku]

"Oh my god did that just really happen?" Jenny squealed.

"Ya.." James muttered "Let's go check the movie." James smiled.

They all walked to the local theater. They were seeing the Loin king it was in theaters again.

"Do you see the love to night." James sang as they left the theater after watching it.

"I just wanna be king." They were laughing running down the street jumping and singing. James was carrying Jenny on his shoulders. They jumped on lamp post and finally made it took the local park as the sun was setting..They were all still laughing ad sing.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

After attending one meeting after another, Shun finally was allowed to do what he wanted for the rest of the evening. He decided to drive around, though of course he wasn't driving. He sits in the back seat of the car, headphones in his ears, listening to music and staring out the window as the scenery went by, the sun beginning to set.

 

Nearly thirty minutes pass until he spots a park, and tells the driver to stop. Stepping out of the car, he walks across the grass, and of course his body guard follows. He ignores the man, and follows the path that wound through the trees of the park, eventually coming to a stop to sit on a red bench. He pulls his phone out, and checks the time, before putting it back in his pocket.

 

As he pulled out one of his ear buds, he hears loud singing and laughter nearby, a curious expression on his face as the voices kept getting nearer and nearer to where he was sitting on the bench. He glances at his guard, then back towards the direction of the loud voices. Waiting and wondering.

[Funny Otaku]

They were heading towards the picnic spot. It was near the benches and had a few tables. They jumped on the table James belting out Hakuna Matta, with the other boys with him. None of them could sing good but none of them cared. James had jumped on Ben's shoulders, Ben was a big dude 250 pound and 6 foot 4, so he could handle James.

"Onward my fine stallion." He yelled.

Jame was quiet the extrovert with his friends he had gotten to trust and hold for 7 years. He laughed as the other started to trot.

"Where do you want me to go my flamboyant rider!" Ben yelled and James laughed so hard he almost fell off.

"Into battle."

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

The owners to the voices come into view, and Shun sees that it was the group of teens/young adults from the cafe, and James was with them. He watched from the bench for a few moments before getting up and walking away, not even bothering to try and stay hidden, heading down the path. They all looked like they were having a lot of fun, and he hated to admit it, but he was jealous. Yeah, he had Reiji, Natsu, and Takashi, but it just wasn't the same.

 

As he walked he sang along with his music, trying to keep his mind from wandering to James. Was it the same one, or was it not? That was his main question. He walked around the circular path, and ended up back where he'd started, by the picnic area benches. However this time one of the girls spots him, nudging her friends, James included.

[Funny Otaku]

James got off the others shoulders and ran other the others following.

"HI."

Erica being taller then James leaned her head on the top of his.

"Do you..do you..want..The picture I drew I mean...." James was stuttering.

"James he probably have so many people give him drawings of himself..." She muttered

"Erica your right." He turned to Shun, taking his book out of his messenger bag. "Uhh, would you like a hyperrealistic drawing of my pet rabbit.....something so I...I can feel like you would remember me....Your my idol....and i feel as though we met before.." He mutter

He looked down waiting for a response.

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

His eyes grow wide as they all run over to him, and he takes a tiny step back. Shun was surprised when James offers him the drawing, and was about to accept it when the girl named Erica muttered that Shun probably had a ton of fan drawn pictures of himself. So, instead, James then offers a drawing of his pet rabbit instead.

 

"Sure. By the way, would you be Ereeka Smeeth? I still have your drawing you sent last year..." He tried saying Erica Smith, but of course it didn't turn out well. She blushes, and nods. In fact, he had a whole wall in his house dedicayed to fan art and letters, he enjoyed getting those sorts of things. "If you want, I can sign drawing, yes?" He offers James, for the drawing of himself that James had drawn.

 

Shun smiles at the comment, and nods a bit. "I get that a lot, but I feel same way." Chuckling softly, he glances at the guard, who backs away a bit.

[Funny Otaku]

"No that's okay.. I mean this is crazy seeing you again in one day and your probably busey...." He grumbles handing him the drawing of Hope.

"It's name is Hope." He smiled " it's so weird... And right after the dream I had.." He spoke to himself."

Erica was still on his head yawning.

"Hey guys it's getting late. If you wanna head back to my place and stay the night it's cool, granny will make popcorn too." He smiled. "Ay but Erica and Jenny, no makeing out I front of us anymore were adults." He grumbled. "And my house so only guys can make out there" he laughed. Erica and Jenny were two of the few other gay people that we're in his school.

"Shun...can I call you that??? Um you can come if you want but..." He was looking down... "I'm sure you've got cooler stuff then hanging with us...sorry I asked."

[~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~]

"Oh...okay." Taking the drawing, he slips it into his pocket, noticing that James was muttering to himself about a dream. He doesn't say anything, but looks at them all silently, a smile on his lips. Then the conversation switches to something else, Shun having a hard time keeping up with the conversation, his confusion etched across his face. What he'd managed to pick up was that they were going somewhere else.

 

Shun goes to turns around, when James spoke to him again. "Yes, you can." He pauses, a little surprised by the invitation. "No, it's fine I have nothing to do now, so I would like to come, if you would allow me to." He saw this as a golden opportunity to not only see a sample of a lifestyle of his fans, and American, but also learn more about James.

[Funny Otaku]

"Really?" James asked excitingly he was happy this was his idol. He ran twards the othe cuaseing Erica to fall flat on her face. He giggled

"SErveces you right using me a thing to lean on." He laughed.

James grabbed Shuns hand..

"I hope you don't mind my granny's there.. It's her house and she is my guardian." He smiled he was happy he felt like he had known shun....

"I also hope you don't mind sing along and werid ass question those two will ask." He pointed to Erica and Ben. He was happy sure when he got home he would have to take 6 meds to stay that way but for

Now he was happy. holding Shuns hand he ran/dragged him to his rickidy old car and they all hopped in.