Funny Otaku Posted January 21, 2015 Share Posted January 21, 2015 "What don't you understand....You are s much higher then me......derseve someone who can deal with their emotions. It not that I don't know others go through hell it's that i want people to not be hurt by me ever again....I have obviously hurt you....That's the last thing I wanted...I love you...you saved my life multiple times......I want you to be happy...I don't want you to be hurt....I want you to be happy and not have issues with the media..im scared for you...My mind won't shut up about how unworthy I am of you....You are Shun K-Pop star but...IM just an american running from his fears and sadness but it keeps following him. I love you and you may like me but I will only do you harm..It's an abusive relationship. The last thing I wanted to put you through." He softly put his hand on the others cheek, looking deeply into his eyes. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 21, 2015 Author Share Posted January 21, 2015 Shun just sighs. His words weren't getting through it seemed. Maybe his actions would better. He cuts the other off, by kissing him, pressing his mouth firmly against James. He let the feelings he felt flow through to James in the kiss. Let him see that he didn't care about all that trivial stuff. He wanted James to know, that he'd do anything he could do to make him/feel good, to make him feel loved. He didn't care that there was someone else seeking this, that the person had taken a picture. That in three hours the picture would go viral. He breaks the kiss, caressing James's cheek, tears spilling g from his eyes still. "Just stop. Please. And let me show you. That one can love you. That person being me. No more excuses, no more tears. Just me and you...okay?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 21, 2015 Share Posted January 21, 2015 James nodded..He cried and grabbed on to Shun.. "I love you! I love you! I love you! I never want to leave your side!" He said through his sobs holding on to him as if he would fad away. Shun was his ground right now..He had no other way..Grandma was in America.... "Don't leave me please! The world is scary and I'm scared. I need you." "Don't let them take me away..I want to go home with you, hope and me!." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 21, 2015 Author Share Posted January 21, 2015 He smiles, and holds James closely, listening to the other's repeated 'I love yous'. He hugs James, letting him hold onto hm as long as he wanted. "Don't worry. I'll never leave you. Not ever. And I won't let them take you away either." For a while they remain like this, but eventually Shun breaks the embrace. "I'll fill out some papers, so you can come to my place with me." He gets up, and assures James he'll be back. After an hour, the two were now standing in Shun's apartment. It was really really fancy, everything had a modern design. Shun guides James through the house, taking him to the guest room. Opening the door, revealing it to James. It was huge, with a queen sized bed. The room was done in green, blue, and white, and had a nature like feel to it. There were even plants in it. And a balcony leading outside. And, sitting in the corner of the room, on top of a desk, was a rabbit cage, with Hope inside. Shun looks at James and smiles. "So? What do you think?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 21, 2015 Share Posted January 21, 2015 As James sat there waiting his mind went into panic.It was repeating that he would never come back, why would he. As soon as he cam back he hugged him. On the way to the apartment, his therapist called saying that he had a perception of a higher douse and they got it. They must had contacted him. It was Welbutran and Some other anti- depressant, mix with 2 anti- aneitxy and one Ptsd pill...FUn When they got to the apartment it was huge. "Where were you when i was homeless at 4" He mutter. His mom had lost her job and they lived in a shelter of 2 months before Grandma could let them in, back then she was taking care of grandpa...They walked to his new room, the room was amazing and all but he saw Hope. "Hope, brothers back." He said tears running down his face. He opened the cage and held him in his arms ignore the pain that felt so bad in his arms. "Ow ow ow." He muttered, but he didn't care he had Hope, his babby he had, had Hope since Hope with born he was there when he was born. He held him close. "Brothers here." He repeated crying, some from the pain some form the sadness and most because he was happy to see him. "The rooms amazing..please what can I do, pay you? rent? Cleaning? laundry? Whatever is good please let me pay for it some how." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 21, 2015 Author Share Posted January 21, 2015 Shun watched with a smile as the other went over to his rabbit, silently watching as they reunited with each other. He had heard the mumbled comment that James had made, but says nothing, pretending as if he'd heard nothing. Where had he been? He'd been in Korea at that time, only five years old, living with a alcoholic abusive father, and a depressed mother who didn't take care of her three children. He waited, letting the two family members to enjoy being back with the other. He shakes his head when the other asks what he could do to pay Shun. "Don't worry about it. I don't want you to pay me." He pauses, a thoughtful expression on his face. "I know. How about you repay me by not talking about depressing topics, and just letting me show you how it feels to be loved? That would be payment enough, in my opinion." He smiles, a faint blush on his cheeks. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 21, 2015 Share Posted January 21, 2015 James nodded... "I can't promise...That i'll always but i will try and i will definitely let you love me." He smiled, setting down Hope in his cage.. "Love you honey." He whispered closing it and walking towards Shun...He hugged him...Rubbing his face against his chest.. "My arms hurt.....Im tired I want you!." He hugged him tighter. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 22, 2015 Author Share Posted January 22, 2015 "Well, as long as you say you'll try, that's good enough for me." He smiles, and opens his arms to James, who had put Hope back in his cage, and then embraces the other male, hugging him back, enjoying the feeling of James's face rubbing against his chest. He looks down at James, who had said his arms hurt, but he was tired and wanted Shun. Hugging Shun tighter. "Don't worry, you can have me..." He murmurs, kissing the top of James's head. "But lets get you something for your arms, yes?" He gently pries himself from the other's grip, and taking his hand, leads James to the kitchen, which like the rest of the house, was fancy, with all ultra modern equipment and furniture. He opens a cupboard over the shelves, and pulls out some pain medicine, and then pours a glass of cold water, handing the glass to James, and two pain pills. "Take these. Those should help. If you're hungry, I can make you something to eat?" Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 22, 2015 Share Posted January 22, 2015 James looked at Shun shaking his head. "No i'm not hungry..sorry." He muttered sorry. James took the meds along with his other meds. He looked at shun his hand out reaching and touching the others face..He felt butterflies in his stomach., the blush was flooding his face. "Your face is nice."He muttered. Leaning on the other man... "Hey fun fact Im technically a virginish, I've only done as far as oral." He laughed. He didn't know why he wanted to tell shun... Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 22, 2015 Author Share Posted January 22, 2015 "Alright then. But when you do get hungry, just tell me, okay? Then I'll make something to eat." When the other took the meds, he had looked away for a moment, but was soon surprised by the sudden feeling of James's hand caressing his face, touching it softly, and causing him to blush just as deeply as James was as he leaned towards Shun. He felt his heard flutter, and smiles again. "Thanks. You have a nice face too..." He felt the blush deepen as James moved even closer, then suddenly tells him that he was still a virgin, that all he'd ever had was oral. Shun feels a tightness in his stomach, but says nothing, only smiles. However, after a moment he nods. "I see, well...that's good news..." He had no idea why James was telling him this. But for some reason it made him feel giddy. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 22, 2015 Share Posted January 22, 2015 James nodded. He held onto Shun. "Im tried can we just lay in bed.." He muttered. His butterflies grew, feeling tight in the stomach. "I feel weird around you." He whined. Hugging him tighter. "why! why is your face nice and your muscles are too.." He groaned. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 22, 2015 Author Share Posted January 22, 2015 Shun looked down at James again, listening to the other muttering about how he was tired, and just wanted to lay in bed. Noticing that he'd said 'we'. Shun was quiet, but then speaks up, wishing the red on his face would just go away. "Yeah, we can lay in bed if you'd like..." He murmurs softly, running his thumb along James's upper arm, in a comforting manner. He wondered why James felt so weird around him, and why he hugged him as if he was afraid Shun was about to disappear. Shun wasn't sure what to say when James asked about why his face was nice, and his muscles too. "I-I...uh...Um...I dunno. They are just like that...I guess..." He felt flustered, his cheeks now deeply red. He was glad the other wasn't looking up at his face. "Alright, let's just go lay down..." He took the other's hand and led him towards the guest room, but changed his mind, and instead took him to Shun's own room. It was bigger than the guest room, and so was the bed. He motions for James to lay down, and when he did, Shun slipped on the bed after him, wrapping his arms around James's waist. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 23, 2015 Share Posted January 23, 2015 James nuzzled against Shun... "Thank you." He squeezed him. He was blushing so deep. His face looked like a tomato. "What...WHat should we do from now on..." He asked confused. He's heart beat faster, he was nervous after he asked the question. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 23, 2015 Author Share Posted January 23, 2015 Shun sighs softly when James once more nuzzled against him, the blush faint compared to the one on James's face. His was as red as a ripe tomato, making Shun smile and chuckle softly. He was confused slightly by the question that was asked of him, and it showed in his eyes. "What do you mean, 'what do we do from now on'?" He asks, shifting slightly so he was sitting up, and looking down into James's eyes. Did he really expect that so soon? He could feel James's heart pounding against him, and saw how nervous the other male was. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 23, 2015 Share Posted January 23, 2015 James laughed nervously.. "haha, never mind. Goodnight." He said scared then pulling the covers over his head. James felt sacred, neverouise everything. Nooooooooooo. He closed his eyes praying he would survive. His heart was beating so fast just to lay next to Shun, it felt like it was going to explode.. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 23, 2015 Author Share Posted January 23, 2015 Shun was so confused at that point, he just decided to go with it. "Alright then....good night." He watched as James pulled the covers up over his head, it was obvious the other was hiding something, for some reason he knew not. Was he scared? Nervous? Something like that? He didn't blame James though, in fact the first time he had been with another guy, Shun had been scared too. He eventually lays down next to James, and falls asleep, listening to James breathing next to him, the rhythm of his heart beat eventually slowing down. The next morning came all too quickly, and by the time James had woken up, he'd find that Shun wasn't in the room. The smell of breakfast filled the huge apartment complex, as Shun decided to get up and make breakfast for the both of them. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 23, 2015 Share Posted January 23, 2015 As the other man fell asleep, the heart beat and Shun's scent helped him fall asleep. His dreams were bad....For some reason he had a memory dream about his mother when he was 4...They were in a homeless shelter. "Mommy when are we going home." The young James asked "Sometime honey for now this is our home." His mother replied They had been there for a month, his mother had lost her job and soon after they lost the apartment. Months passed. 6 months of living there and his granpartents finally saved enough to get a bigger house to fit the two. He would never forget the day he got a bed. The dream was a sad, happy memory. He woke up with tears spread on his cheeks.....THe smell led him to the kitchen. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 24, 2015 Author Share Posted January 24, 2015 After finishing the pancakes he was working on, he starts on some sausage, when he hears movement. Glancing behind him, he sees a very sleepy looking James standing there, and a smile forms on his lips. "Good morning sleepy." Shun says, placing a few pancakes on a plate, and sets it on the small table that was set against the wall. He didn't feel bothered to go to the actual dining room that morning to eat. He also places a thing of butter, and syrup on the table, and some silverware. Getting two glasses from the cupboard, he asks what James wanted to drink, and when he answered, got him it, placing it on the table next to the plate. "Eat up, sausage should be done in a little bit." He goes back to the pan, and turns the sausage, the aroma and sound of the sizzling breakfast meat filling the room around them. He hadn't noticed the tears on James face. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 25, 2015 Share Posted January 25, 2015 James had wiped the the tears from his face. He sat tooling sips of the water. "How did you sleep?" He asked He took a bit of the pancakes. His was so sweet and fluffy. He smiled, the pancakes were so good he blushed at the tough that Shun made them...James blushed very ealisy. "Shun...You good very goo." He commented. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 26, 2015 Author Share Posted January 26, 2015 Shun glances over at James when he spoke up. He then looks down at the pan again, turning the sausage one last time, before going over and putting a few on both plates, then sits down at the table across from James. "I slept alright" He replies, taking a sip of his cappuccino. He watches from over the rim of his mug as James at the pancakes, seeing the blush on his cheeks, and smiling. "Well, I'm glad you like them." He sets the mug down, and picks up his own fork, and begins to eat his pancakes too. After he finished the bite he was chewing, he looks to James again, "Do you have any plans for this afternoon? If not, I have a short meeting at eleven, but after that I'm free for the day. I was thinking we could go and get you some things, like clothes, and such? At six I'm meeting with my group, but you're free to come along if you wish." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 27, 2015 Share Posted January 27, 2015 "No I don't Have any plans but...it's fine I don't want to interrupt you guys." He smiled. He was blushing a lot and still eating....He took a bite of the sausage....It was really good.. "Shun...thanks..for letting me stay here, but please don't feel like you need to buy me anything or stuff. " He looked down. He was scared and nervous and embarrassed. He kinda wanted to kiss shun...Or have him, hold him within his arms. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 27, 2015 Author Share Posted January 27, 2015 "It's fine, don't worry about it, I want you to come." He smiles at James once again. He wondered why James thought the way he did, but then again, there were things about each other they still didn't know. He had finished his food, when James spoke up again, Shun looking over at him. "Don't worry. I want to do this, okay?" He reaches out, and softly cups James's cheek in his hand, rubbing his thumb against his skin gently. He leans forward and kisses James softly, their lips brushing against each other for a few seconds, before Shun pulls away. "I need to get ready in a little bit." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 27, 2015 Share Posted January 27, 2015 "Okay should I get ready too..." He asked. If he went with shun....he got to meet everyone. "Shun...will they like me....what if the media starts rumors..what about your reputation......What will the others think..your manager." He asked he was scared for Shun. He didn't want to hurt his employment or his friends. He laid his head on the table and held Shun's hand...It was warm and nice. Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
~*~FaLlEn*SnOw~*~ Posted January 27, 2015 Author Share Posted January 27, 2015 "You don't have to get ready just yet. The meeting I'm going to you unfortunately can't come to. And don't let it get to you, okay? It'll be fine. And as for Mitsukuni, my ,manager, let's just say, she's totally into stuff like this. I saw her notebook once and her desk at the office..." Shun's voice goes low. "Yaoi...everywhere." he winks, a huge grin on his lips. He backs away, and heads to his room to get ready for the meeting. When it was time to go, he tells James he'd be back at around 12. "Be ready when I get back." He leaves, and his driver takes him to the place where the meeting was. Like he'd suspected, it was boring. He rolls his eyes at all the comments about his recent actions, though over half the people there were totally for his relationship, they thought it was hot. Then again, over half the committee at the meeting were women. There was a break, and he calls the hone phone, waiting for James to answer. When he answered, Shun sighs in relief. "Hey, how you holding up? I know it's only been thirty minutes, but you're not used to my place yet and all. .." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
Funny Otaku Posted January 27, 2015 Share Posted January 27, 2015 When Shun left, james got Hope and held him for awhile..He also had this thing it was like a baby holder that strapped to his chest so he could hold Hope wail cleaning and well thats what he did. James enjoyed cleaning, it gave him somthing to do and he felt like he was earning his stay. As the phone rang James ran to it. "Hey shun...It's good, I'm cleaning and stuff, god you really should dust more. Hows the meeting...." He asked He was nervous. James didn't like know that Shuns rep was in his hands.. "Oh I also got to call my grandmother. She yelled at me and said If I ever pull a stunt like that again she'll bring me back to a america and kill me herself....I miss her..I also told her I was living with you and...She wants to talk to you to see if your good enough for her grandson...." Link to comment Share on other sites More sharing options...
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