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[Jota]

 

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Name: Retta konshko

Age: 18 years old

Brithday: 4th january

hair: Dark grey almsot black

eyes: Blue

Favorite color: All color except brown.

Likes:cat , leader, swimming and watch movies all type,party.

Dislike: Dog , reading book , meat , sad music and ride the bus.

Bio: Retta live with his mother and his little sister , his father pass away ten year ago so he was taking care of his family , he was like grown up , Retta was handsome and have little tough personality , he like to hang out with his cute childhood friend ( Jinro ) and sometimes Retto go to sleep in his house, Retta was gay he have boyfriend since one year, he now that Jinro hate his boyfriend his name "Tori" Retta think it's because his childhood friend was straight but he didn't know his real reason.

 

 

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Name: Jinro Hitsuba

Age: 18 years old

Brithday: 18 februar

Favorite color, yellow, red and orange

Likes: Sing, listned to music, watch movie

Dislike: Ghost, insect, thunder

Bio: Jinro Hitsuba grown up in four family and have one year older brother with name Riro so he is very close to.

His personalty can descripe as cheerful since he always posetiv and rarly negativ.

He like to sing and listned to his favorite music.

He have childhoodfriend with name Retta he is very close

 

Jinro was sitting on fountain in the park close to his home sing his favorite song he learn from his grandmother before she died and play on his guitar.

Here is the song he is singing.

[Jota]

It's already morning and Retta wake up of his sister voice, he was sleepy and tired but he get up, Retta take a quick refreshing bath, as he finished and get dressed, "Good morning mam" Retta said and sit to eat the breakfast ,"you wake up early today" Retta mother said every one know that Retta like to sleep alot, Retta finish his food and said" i will go to Jinro house if you need anything just call me" as Retta wear his shoes and walk to Jinro house, Jinro house was in same area as Retta,"Hello sunshine" Retta said to his cute childhood friend and he nodded do you still sing this song, Retta smile when he hear Jinro reaction,"we should get ready for the final exam" Retta said touching Jinro hair,few minutes Retta phone rang it was his boyfriend"Hiroki".

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Jinro stop sing and play on his guitar, he smiled"it's your stupid boyfriend so calling you, why don't you pick up your phone, I'm sure he would be happy to hear your voice" he sighed and raise himself up from fourntain.

He lay his guitar in guitar bag and pick it up, start walking towards school

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Retta pick up his phone and start talking to his boyfriend." yes sure ,see you at 8pm"Retta said to Hiroki"his boyfriend",as he hang up the phone.Retta "wait for me why are you in hurry "he said to Jinro as he added "come with us this night we will have some fun ".Then he reply his cute childhood friend"Why you don't like to hang out with Hiroki?"Retta didn't know the reason .they arrived to school they are in same class ." I hope we finish studying, i really get Boredom" Retta said as he signs and sit in his place.few minute Retta said to Jinro "if you change your mind just tell me , hope you do"as he smile and wink.

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Jinro smiled"I'm coming with you but I'm going to hang out only with you" he sighed after he said that.

He wished at Retta didnt have any boyfriend so he could be Retta boyfriend, it have been his dream for long time now and he hope it Would come true someday.

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"I'm happy,as you wish my friend"Retta replying Jinro, the teacher coming and they stopped talking they concentrate at the lesson. "finally it's break time let's get some drink i feel dizzy" Retta said as he buy the drinks,they start chatting about the places they will go today and few min the bell rang Retta nodded and said" let's go back to class we will continue after school .As the school finished Retta walked with Jinro to the gate as he wave saying "see you at 7.00".

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Jinro smiled"sure see you at 7.00" he kissed Retta check and walked towards home, lucky his home was close to school so he could just walk home without take any bus.

After awaile he arrived home and open the door walked inside, took off his shoes, walked upstairs towards his room, walked inside his room and start to do homework.

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Retta get in the car and greet his mother. While they arrive Retta hug his little sister and go to his room as he take quick shower and study little. Few second he felt sleep. It's 6.00 already and Retta still sleep few minute his phone rang and it was his friend Jinro Retta answered and was surprise that he didn't feel the time " Hi Jinro, i will come and take you give me 30 min to get ready". Retta jumped from the bed clean his face and get dressed. "Mom i will go with my friend , don't wait me for the dinner and if you want any thing just call me" Retta said to his mother as he wave goodbye. In his way to Jinro he get text massage from his boyfriend telling him that he is sick."Hi sunshine look like we will hangout alone today" Retta said as he added " let's go to our favourite place" ,as he put his hand on Jinro shoulder and walked.

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Jinro hugged Retta and smiled"what hurra and lucky for me since I have you for myself now, When we come to our favorite place, want to listned to me sing? I have song I made for you" he stop hugging Retta and continue walking towards their favorite place with Retta

[Jota]

Wah you are so happy. Stop saying weird think we are just friend , some times i feel like you love me. We arrived let's set i'm starving. Retta and Jinro start eating few second Retta added "Jinro i really need help in math and you are good on it can you teach me" as Retta smiled and said "sure, i will be in time". Retta finish his eating and suddenly he feel sick his stomach was pain him "Ahh .. Jinro i feel sick help me to get to bathroom". Few minute Retta get out from the bathroom and Jinro was worried about him Jinro was waiting out Retta reply " yes i feel better now, i don't know what happen all in sudden" as he added "let's get back to house i really need to rest".In the way Jinro was silent Retta asked "What's in your mind that make you silence" . Suddenly Retta feel Jinro lips he want to push him away but he was weak his body was exhausting.

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Jinro continue kissing Retta and after awaile he stop kissing Retta and looked sad at Retta"I'm sorry about that, I just couldnt control my feelings anymore, I love you so much, you are everything to me, I have been in love with you for long time now" he walked past Retta and start to cry very hard, he walked towards home

[Jota]

Retta get little angry he was useless"sick"."What are you talking about we are childhood friend nothing more, stop thinking weird and don't forget that i have boyfriend" Retta said as he looked at Jinro eyes and suddenly Jinro start crying Retta opened his eyes he didn't expect this reaction. Retta want to stop and calm Jinro but he didn't say a word. Retta arrived his home thinking of Jinro, Retta don't want to hurt his cute best friend, but he didn't understand Jinro feeling it was weird because he is his friend. "i'm back mom..." Retta said as his mother reply "welcome..,what happen to you, you look sick come and sit", Retta take some medicine and go to his room to have some rest. He lay in his bed and few minute he sleep. In the morning Retta didn't get better so he didn't go to school.

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Jinro was worried about Retta since he was not at school, so after school he decide to visit Retta and aplogize for the kiss.

He hope Retta was still not mad at him for the kiss.

Some hours later was school finish and Jinro walked out Of school, start walking towards Retta house, after some min he arrived at Retta house and knock on the door.

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Retta was sleeping while his mother cook for him some healthy food for his sake."It's afternoon,Retta wake up and clean your face you should eat to get better " Retta mother said , Retta went to the bath and clean his face few minutes he got out of the bathroom to change his clothes as the other knock the door." come in the door is open" Retta said as he surprised when he saw Jinro," What are you doing here Jinro" Retta said wondering. Retta was mad about what Jinro did to him but he also hurt Jinro feelings. " Of course i'm mad, but i forgive you because you're my best friend idiot" Retta said when he saw the other crying as he hugged Jinro and added " but don't do it again then i will not be able to forgive you". Retta smiled and said " let's go and eat the lunch is ready, and i didn't forgot that you will teach me math today".

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Jinro sighed"I have fiancee now with name Oliver, so I'm going to marry When I gradutate from school, I'm going to meet him tomorrow after school and I'm sure I Would fall in love with him, I just want to let you know, afterall we are friends" he walked towards kitchen for to eat launch

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Retta eyes widened as he get in silence he didn't believe it but, "Really - When did you meet her and how you know her " Retta asked wondering how that happen suddenly. Retta was surprised about the all idea , Retta stopped Jinro talking and said angrily " Getting married this fast are you kidding me". Few minute Retta calmed down he doesn't want to hurt his friend more, Retta rubbing Jinro head and said " I'm happy for you sunshine ", but Retta wasn't, he felt there's something wrong.

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Jinro smiled"thank you very much and its not a she, I'm getting married to guy and I have not meet him yet, he its coming tomorrow and its going to stay with us until I gradutate and I'm going to marry him after I gradutate from school"

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Retta stopped eating then he turned and looked at Jinro eyes suddenly he laughed loudly he didn't believe that his childhood friend will love a guy as he said chuckling " stop kidding, i will not believe that you will marry a guy ". Retta keep looking at Jinro his smile start disappear his cutie friend was serious. Suddenly Retta grabbed Jinro hand as he said " mom we finished eating, we will go to my room " as he pull Jinro to his room. Retta closed the door and get in silence few minute then he started screaming at Jinro " are you crazy, you will marry someone you didn't see him before... " Retta keep screaming at Jinro, then he feel something weird in his heart as he said in his mind wondering " why i'm so jealous " . Few second Retta phone ring it was his boyfriend Hiroki.

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Jinro smiled"shall you not pick the phone, its your boyfriend so are calling and I'm going home now, I'm must do myself ready for to meet my fiancee tomorrow and yes I'm gay, like you, so try accept that Please" he step out from the bed and walked out Of room, downstairs towards door, open the door and walked out, closed the door after himself, start walking towards home

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Retta answered his phone as he said to his boyfriend " I will call you back Hiroki" as he hang up the phone. Retta want to understand the situation but he couldn't he know Jinro since they were children and he didn't see Jinro like this before as he didn't know that he in love with guy, as the other leave, Retta get shocked " meet him ? ready ? " Retta said in his mind. Retta didn't follow Jinro he was in shocked as his heart start beating feeling weird . Retta feel he will lose the other and don't wanna that as he start thinking what to do to get his childhood friend back to him . Retta know that he rejected Jinro feeling several time but he don't wanna lose him any more.

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Jinro was now home and he was just finish talking to his father about his fiancee he is going to meet tomorrow.

he walked upstairs towards bedroom for to do homework and take shower.

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Retta take a shower he want to relax, the day was shocked enough for him as he clean his body he was thinking about Jinro and how he turned like this suddenly. Few minute he thought that his cute childhood friend was maybe Jealous the fact i have boyfriend but Retta rejected this thought cause Jinro was serious about it ~ he want to get married. Retta want to calm down but he couldn't, Jinro was important to him. He feel like he wanna to do something before someone take him away he doesn't know why~although he rejected Jinro feeling several time. Retta get out from the bath and lay in his bed as he take his phone want to send a message to Jinro.

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Jinro was finish with homework and was in his bed reading book about marriage since he is getting married after he finish school so he decide to learn and know what marriage its about.

He was soon finish reading the book and decide to take shower after read the book

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Retta start writing message as he don't know what he will write to Jinro~that will fix the all things... he only want for his friend to be happy and don't want to mess up " Hi Jinro.. i'm really sorry for what happened earlier, as i want to say i will be happy for you, if it make you happy about it.. so~good luck with him and see you tomorrow". Retta wasn't sure what will happen tomorrow as he decided to meet Jinro boyfriend few minute he fall asleep, In the morning Retta waked up early taking shower as he dressed and eating his breakfast fast as he waved to his mother " thank you for the breakfast .. goodbye" and went to jinro house, he want to catch him. " good morning sunshine " Retta said waving as he saw Jinro with a guy wondering who is he he never see him before, few second his eyes widened saying " is he.. his boyfriend " feeling weird in his heart.