A Wolf, A Human And An Egg (Zombie and Pigeon) [18+]

[Kotorichan]

Athan's cheeks flushed at the question, somehow being asked made it even worse. "I wouldn't have sat here if it wasn't..." He mumbled, trying to focus on the tv instead of how close their bodies were. It felt like his heart was beating loud enough for Samuel to hear.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel smiled, letting himself relax against the other. He pulled Athan closer, gently tracing his fingers over his arm, up and down, moving rhythmically. He stared at the tv, enjoying the warmth from his boyfriend's body. He tugged Athan towards himself until he was leaning on the werewolf's shoulder. He liked being so close, it felt nice...

[Kotorichan]

Athan grew tense at the way Samuel's fingers moved, and then even more so when he was pulled close. It took a moment for him to relax, and finally after a few minutes he allowed himself to fully lean on Samuel's shoulder. He was still tense, but it was just because he wasn't used to this much physical contact.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel could feel the tension, but he didn't quite realize he was the one causing it. Gently continuing to brush his fingers over Athan's arm, he actually hoped to soothe him. The werewolf always wanted to have physical contact with others, sometimes it helped him make sure it wasn't a dream... He often felt like he was dreaming, and not actually real. "So... Do you think we can go out to dates or is it too soon?" He asked a bit hesitantly, gently holding the other to himself.

[Kotorichan]

Athan barely heard the question, he was too focused on keeping up the appearance of relaxation. "What...?" He looked up to Samuel's face, trying to process the words. After a moment his face went red. "D-Dates?" He shrunk away from the other man, looking away to hide his fear. "I... I mean... I want to... It's just..." He trailed off and lightly touched the scar on his face. "People.... Already stare.... I-if they see us together..." His hands started to tremble. "It's not that I don't want to b-be seen with you, it's just that I d-don't like people l-looking at me, a-and they always whisper and try to pretend they aren't staring" at this point he was just babbling and his entire body was shaking like a leaf. His eyes were wide and unfocused, the only thing he was able to see was his own memories.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel grimaced slightly as Athan pulled away from him, obviously terrified. "Hey, hey, hey, we don't have to do anything you're not ready to do. Just... Think of this as an idea for the future." He reassured the other, pulling him into a warm, gentle hug. "We can start from places with very few people. Just... Ease into this whole thing." He suggested with a light smile, pressing a small kiss to his forehead. "Plus, if someone stares, I'll just beat them up and they'll leave us alone." He chuckled, trying to lighten the mood somehow. It honestly hurt him to see Athan so worked up about their relationship. He wanted it to work. He needed it to work... But if Athan got scared this easily, he wasn't sure how he would handle Samuel being a werewolf. He couldn't hide that forever.

[Kotorichan]

Athan hesitantly pressed into the man's chest, trying to relax in his arms. "I'm sorry..." He mumbled, still shaken. "I want to be able to do those things with you... I want to go on d-dates and stuff... " he lightly wrapped his arms around Samuel and clung to his back. He really hated himself for this, he was going to hold Samuel back because of his stupid insecuries. How could Samuel talk to him about things if Athan panicked over something so small? "I'm sorry..." He repeated. "W-we can just go on dates if you want... I-I'll be f-fine" it was a complete lie, but Athan couldn't handle the idea of holding Samuel back from doing fun things.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel's heart skipped a beat when Athan clung to his back. It was absolutely adorable, honestly. Had the situation been a bit different, he probably would've teased his boyfriend about it a little bit, but now he figured it wouldn't do any good whatsoever. "I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable." He replied softly, gently running his fingers through the other's hair. "We can test out the waters at some point. Don't think of it that much different from when we hang out as friends. We don't have to do anything much, okay?" He spoke, pressing a soft kiss to the top of his head. "Don't try to force yourself to do things you don't want to do. Tell me, and we'll figure things out."

[Kotorichan]

"I don't want you to be h-held back by me..." Athan admitted softly. "I want you to be able to go on dates and stuff and not be disappointed that I can't do things with you.." He looked up at Samuel, his eyes watering. "And I don't want you to think I'm a-ashamed to be dating you. If anything I d-don't you you to feel ashamed of being seen with me" He looked away sadly. "I-I know i'm being stupid..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel sighed heavily, reaching up to brush away the tears from Athan's eyes. "Calm down." He murmured softly, gently caressing his cheek. "I'll wait for when you're ready. Don't push yourself." He repeated softly, pulling his boyfriend onto his lap, wrapping one arm around his waist. "It's not about other people, it's about us." The werewolf said quietly, pressing a sweet kiss to his cheek. He really was ready to wait however long it took. He was just scared that by the time Athan was okay with them together, something would happen. Like, he'd end up hurting the other unintentionally. He was terrified of that possibility.

[Kotorichan]

Athan leaned into his chest, half closing his eyes. "Thank you..." he sniffled softly. "I'd be okay with going on p-picnics to parks that aren't busy... Or to cafe's or restaurants that aren't very crowded" He tried to fully relax and breath. "I want you to be happy with me..." He blushed softly and nuzzled into his neck. "You're really... Really important to me..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel smiled, lightly ruffling up the other's hair before letting his fingers wander over the scars on his face, going down to his neck with a touch as soft as a feather. "That sounds nice. Too many people can be a bother in general." He chuckled, his gaze turning a bit absentminded as he stared off at the TV. He wasn't good with managing his anger in the first place. His fears began pilling up inside, but he couldn't tell Athan about them. Maybe... Maybe Samantha? He felt like he trusted that woman more than anyone else.

[Kotorichan]

Athan froze at the feeling of Samuel's fingers on his scar. He hated having people touch it, it always made him feel sick to his stomach. He couldn't even remember the last time he let someone touch his scars. But he didn't want to let his fears get in the way of this moment with his boyfriend. He focused his gaze on Samuel's face, forcing himself to take slow shaky breathes. This was Samuel touching him... Not some asshole teenager who thought it'd be funny to tell him how gross the scar tissue felt. It was Samuel, someone who loved Athan and wouldn't hurt him. He kept reminding himself of this, even though his entire body was trembling slightly.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel rested his hand on the other's hip while leaning his head against the couch. What the fuck was he going to do? This relationship was probably a mistake. He would end up hurting Athan both physically and emotionally. He would screw up. He wouldn't be able to do this. His thoughts began spinning around in his head, his slightly sharper than human canines lightly gnawing at his lip. His teeth didn't look too unusual to suspect his different race, however they still looked a bit abnormal, dangerous, even. His arms tightened around Athan's waist as his lips parted with a soft sigh. He'd tell his boyfriend... Someday.

[Kotorichan]

Athan hesitantly took Samuel's hand from his hip and lifted it to his lips. He gently kissed his fingertips, his cheeks flushed. "Samuel...? Is there something wrong? You got all quiet..." He looked away shyly. "You know I really want to be able to talk to each other... I know I'm bad at talking about stuff, but I... I want things to work out well..." His face was bright red by this time. "s-sorry that sounds stupid"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel was brought from his thoughts by the sound of Athan's voice. Looking at him with slight confusion as his fingertips were kissed, the werewolf let out a soft smile, shaking his head. "I'm just a bit tired." He murmured, gently stroking his waist. "Don't worry about me." The man added, leaning his head against his boyfriend. He should tell Athan to go and never come back. Why did he have to be so selfish? His guilt would end up eating him alive at some point. Moving closer, Samuel pressed their lips together into a gentle kiss, hoping to drown his own insecurities.

[Kotorichan]

Athan blushed softly and leaned up into the kiss. He really loved the feeling of Samuel's lips... Even though he hated being touched, the gentle kisses made him strangely relaxed. After a moment he broke the kiss. "Samuel, can I ask you something..?"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel suddenly felt cornered. He found himself hating the question. His fear didn't show on the outside, thankfully. "Go ahead." The werewolf smiled, while his heartbeat picked up quite a bit. What was he going to ask about? Why did he want to ask about something at all? Was it something really important. Samuel found himself getting terrified.

[Kotorichan]

Athan didn't notice the terror his boyfriend was feeling, he was too caught up in his own anxiety. "Would you... H-Help me get over some of my fears..?" He looked away, bright red. "I want to be able to... You know, be t-touched by you... S-Someday... M-Maybe" He lightly fidgeted with his hands. "You don't have to... It's just that you t-touched my scar e-earlier and I w-want to be okay w-with that kind of stuff..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel was so relieved when he heard the question. It wasn't anything bad, thank God. "Of course I will." He reassured the other immediately, gently patting his hip. "You have to stop me if I go to far, though. Promise me?" The werewolf nudged the other's cheek gently with his nose, a rather playful gesture. Honestly, he was so scared of hurting Athan... He wouldn't be able to live with himself if he did. And the full moon was coming in a couple of days. How would he be able to get through that?

[Kotorichan]

Athan let out a sigh of relief when Samuel didn't laugh at him. "Thank you... I really don't wanna be a nervous wreck for the rest of my laugh." He laughed nervously. "I mean you probably already think I'm some kind of delicate little kid... And I haven't even had a full melt down in front of you" He meant this to comfort Samuel. Since it meant that nothing had truly upset him.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Samuel chuckled nervously, turning his gaze back to the TV. He was putting Athan in danger... But telling him to go now would probably destroy him entirely. His arms tightened around his boyfriend's body, fingers dancing across the surface. "Everything's gonna be just fine." He murmured, more to himself than to Athan. Except, he doubted either of them to believe that. At least he personally was sure that nothing would be fine in the end.

[Kotorichan]

Athan leaned up and kissed Samuel's cheek. "I really hope so..." He murmured. It really felt like Samuel was hiding something. Maybe his boyfriend was already having doubts about their relationship. Maybe Athan had already fucked things up. Asking to be touched? How weird was that? Saying that he could have an even bigger breakdown than what Samuel's seen? Of course he wouldn't like Athan after that.

He slowly began to pull away from Samuel. "I should probably head home..." He mumbled.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"What?" Samuel seemed shocked when Athan began pulling away. Unsure of what happened, or what he did wrong, the werewolf hesitantly loosened his arms, allowing his boyfriend to pull away. "So soon?" He asked, a bit sadly. "Sorry if I made you uncomfortable, I didn't mean to." He apologized softly, looking at the other with a rather sorry gaze. There, he already ended up hurting Athan. Maybe it was for the best that it wasn't physical.

[Kotorichan]

"N-no you didn't do anything wrong" Athan said quickly. "You just seem to have something on your mind and I don't wanna bother you if you have something you need to figure out" He forced a smile. "I can come over again when I won't be getting in the way." He didn't like that Samuel couldn't talk to him. It made sense of course, how could Athan help with anything when he always needed help?