Fire over Fame (vyssini &ayais) 18 +

[ayais]

Lee groaned happy hearing Raz moan “ sweet music…” He hummed as moved in and out picking up the speed when he his love called his name he couldn’t hold it in any more. He saw that Raz had already released “ I am gunna” he tried to warn his lover but released in to Raz tight little hole.

[vyssini]

Raz secretly wished that this moment would last forever, hoping that the two of them would stay forever! Looking at Lee, he was at loss for words. He didn't know what to say and even when he did, the words would disappear when they reached his tongue. He pursed his lips and looked at his man once more. There was an undeniable fact that his heart had been chained to Lee despite the separation two years ago. His eyes were clouded with tears.

 

"I love you." With his silvery voice, he confessed.

[ayais]

Lee panted and warp his arms around Raz he could not believe he got to make love to him. It was like a dream he held him close closing his eyes. “I love you too… if you need to writ a song I have a note pad in my night stand and the studio is to your left down the hall..”

[vyssini]

"hmm."

Raz felt tired and his eyes were heavy. He rested his head on Lee's arms and buried his face on his partner's chest. Lee's gentle voice comforted him. After several seconds, Raz' breathing became calm and tranquil. Watching this, Lee's expression became pleased and amused, the corners of his mouth turned up. Oblivious, Raz was already deep in sleep.

[ayais]

Lee smiled and feel asleep “ be here when I wake up..” he sighed and watched him sleep for a few moments happy to have Raz back in his life. Lee had a reason to fight now a reason to live but would raz stay with him when he would be to sick to make love?” He feel asleep happy “ my love..”

[vyssini]

When Raz opened his eyes, an exquisitely tender face greeted him. Seeing Lee up close was an absolute visual enjoyment. His fingers lightly brushed the raven strands that fell on his lover's face, shamelessly gawking and inspecting it. His gaze fell to the pair of charcoal arches that accented Lee's face and contribute to his attractiveness, his long eyelashes and his aquiline nose. But when his eyes traveled to the red-colored lips, a hint of pink colored his cheeks recalling the night of passion they shared.

 

Unwilling to move his gaze away, he reached for a pen and paper and soon his elegant hand writing filled the white sheet. With one last look, he left his notes on the bedside table and he slipped under the blanket, carefully stood up afraid of disturbing the sleep. He grabbed a robe and entered the shower.

[ayais]

Lee eyes widen as he wake up in a empty bed “ no…” he was hurt then he saw the note and smiled he heard the shower turn on.. “ he let out a sighed of relied he tried to get out of bed but he was feeling fatigue he finaly got up and walked to the bathroom with noting on . “ Raz baby.. do you want breakfast?” he asked sofly steping in to the bathroom enjoying the sight.

[vyssini]

Raz hurriedly reached for his robe and tried to cover himself. He actually lost himself in the memories of last night when the man in his fantasy just entered and accompanied him in the shower with uninhibited attitude.

 

"Wh-why are you here? C-Cant you see that it's being used? I'll be done in a while, can't you wait outside?" His face was crimson hot with embarrassment.

[ayais]

Lee laugh “ oh I can see its being used. He stepped in the shower as he used his body wash on raz back before kissing his neck . “this is why I got such a large shower..” he purred “did you have fun last night?” he asked going to wash his front taking extar care on his cock . “ what would you like for breakfast …”

[vyssini]

The touch aroused his half awake organ. "You, please.." Raz pulled Lee's hair to level their heads. He planted a sensual kiss that begun as a series of smaller kisses, and then, slowly, deepens. He felt his breathing change. Raz decided to be honest with his desire.

[ayais]

Lee hummed as he keep kissing him liked this side of Raz “my love..” he purred I have a doctor coming to the house sometime tonight will you be here I told everyone your on lock down till you make your single . “ he smirked he knew he couldn’t keep raz here forever sol long as he came back to him he didn’t care.

[vyssini]

"Lock down? How about my prearranged schedule?" Raz raised his eyebrows. "I don't want to cause trouble for Jean." He knitted his brows in concern. Though he also wanted to stay and talk to the doctor about Lee's condition. He was torn between leaving and staying. He bit his lower lip and hung his head in deep contemplation.

[ayais]

“Its already been rearranged you have two days with me . Lee kisst him “ then you have your normal schedule back but I have it set that your free after 9 other then on weekends were there are party “ he groaned he did feel like eating . “oh wow that’s odd..” he got out of the shower getting dress in pajamas bottoms . I have no meting today only about a hour of paper work.

[vyssini]

Raz fixed himself up. He wore the clothes that Lee left for him in the bed. 'This is rather big..hmm' While holding a towel and drying his hair, he dialed a number he knew by heart. The other side answered in the first ring. "Hey." Raz sounded cheerful.

"..."

"I know I inconvenienced you." Raz said apologetically. He continued talking since the other doesn't seem too enthusiastic about talking.

"..."

"Don't worry, I haven't forgotten the promise. I'll work harder and I won't disappoint you and company."

A deep breath was heard. "Have you had your breakfast?" Jean's voice is as gentle as ever.

Raz smiled. Jean was kind but scary when he's angered. And staying with Lee would be easier if Jean could support him. "Not yet. Don't worry about me. And I'm really sorry about this."

"It's my job." Jean's voice was formal and bland.

"Yeah, I have things to tell you. But it can wait. See you when I see you!" Raz brushed his hair and walked to the kitchen.

[ayais]

Lee waited for raz he sat the breakfast table picking at his food he knew he had to eat for Raz sake he eat halfe of his egg it’s the most he eat in week He waited for Raz to come to come to the table . “ morning “ He drunk his coffee he was so happy he could still drink it and not get sick.

[vyssini]

He gave a smile to the other man before lowering his eyes. Raz felt his hunger when he saw the food. Last night, he was too tense to even taste his food and eat properly. He sat on the chair opposite of Lee's and begun stuffing food.

 

"Don't give me that look. I'm not just a little hungry, I'm famished." He said when he noticed Lee's attention on him. To his embarrassment, his actions seems like a little amusement to the guy. He pouted and pretended to lose his appetite.

[ayais]

“please eat” Lee smiled “ its nice to see food not going to waste “ lee had small portion on his own plate already . “I do miss eating..” He sighed looking at Raz “I have some paper work to do so if you like to use the studio you can..” he moved over to kiss him deeply going to his home office to but as soon as he hit his chair he felt so weak . he rested his head falling asleep.

[vyssini]

Raz saw Lee's back retreating to his home office. He felt ill at ease. He finished his plate and drunk his tea. But he wasn't relaxed at all. He went to their room and picked up the random notes he had written this morning. The corner of his lips turned up. He grabbed a guitar and played with the strings a bit before heaving a big sigh. His concentration wasn't any good. His discomfort led his feet on a door but he hesitated to knock. 'What could he possibly say? He has work to do and so am I.' He looked solemnly at the door and retracted his steps back to the studio. With a sigh, he started adding some tune to the notes.

[ayais]

Lee woke up to a phone call “ yes .. of course .. tell him he needs to take a break after this tour and come up with some new stuff its been 8 years “ he sighed getting off the phone doing his best to get his work done. He walked to the studio and smiled “ how about reunited with your old lover?”

[vyssini]

Raz was focusing too much on his work that he failed to notice Lee's approach. His heart skipped a bit when he suddenly heard the voice of his inspiration. Of course, as usual, his songs were meant as an outlet of his emotions. And right now was exactly a perfect time to write as the lyrics and the notes flow directly into his note pad.

 

He bend down to pick up the papers that fell earlier when he got startled. His gaze ended up on his lover and he suddenly knitted his brows. "You're pale. Are you alright?" He let the papers fell and touched Lee's face.

[ayais]

“Just sick…” Lee smiled and kiss him get to work…. “ He hummed and picked up the paper and pen “ I love you …you don’t think am selfish do you ?” He sighed he was so focused on spending the rest of his life with raze he didn’t even think about the fact that his love would have to watch him die. “ We can make what happen last night a one time thing.. if you want.. “ Lee sighed he had to push away form Raz he didn’t want to but he also wanted Raz to think of him as powerful and strong and sexy not weak and fail he maybe had a good two months maybe more before it spread .

[vyssini]

Raz face paled then it twisted in anger. "What's wrong with you?" His voice higher than he intended. "I am doing fine by myself. But you just have to come and.." He stopped and heave successive deep breaths. He steeled himself and his eyes redden. He didn't let the tears flow though. He grabbed Lee's shirt, glared at him and hissed coldly. "You won't get rid of me THAT easily. Just like how you did. Even if I have to remind you every minute of each day that it was you who barged into my space." Raz couldn't comprehend Lee's reasoning. One night? He wasn't that stupid and needy. Perhaps, not doing it for a long time dulled his skills? But he seemed to enjoy last night. was he acting? Or was it that? His face darkened. "Do you think its funny? Is playing with me makes you feel good? Or do you intend to do this from the start? Are you getting back at what I did before? "

[ayais]

Lee didn’t mean to make raz upset he held on to him . “I am sorry I didn’t think this out I just wanted to spend the rest of my life with you but then I relizied how short I have… and soon I wont be able to have sex or do much of anything… “ He kisst Raz “I would never play you I love you.. I have always loved you but I don’t want you to watch me die unless that what you really want..” he sighed and held him close. “will you still love me when I am unable to pleasure you..?” Lee closed his eyes as he started to cry he had not cryed in a long time not since Raz left him.

[vyssini]

Raz's gaze softened and his vision blurred. He closed his eyes and let his tears flow sharing his lover's anguish. "Don't ever mention those awful words again. I won't be forgiving next time. You're not allowed to be selfish, mine's enough for both of us." He knew he's acting like a child but he didn't care. They stayed in that state for a while before deciding to pull away. He kissed his lover's tears away and cupped his face. "Listen, you can't give up easily. I'm here now so you don't have to carry everything by yourself. We will share it and find a way together." He intently stared at his man. He has to find a way, even if he has to give what's his. He won't stand to lose him, not this time and certainly not this way.

[ayais]

Lee kiss him if I wasn’t in the pupils eye I would go try to buy a liver but is not legal..” he sighed and kiss Raz I hope they find someone I don’t want to leave you I and to be with you I want to be around for you to retire and then get married and live happly .” He kiss him deeply I am sorry I dragged you in to this mess..” he held him close. “But I love you I couldn’t stand being with out you anymore.