Fire over Fame (vyssini &ayais) 18 +

[vyssini]

Aron's lip's slightly curved up. The place was fantastic. The ambiance wasn't half-bad and the savory smell coming out of the kitchen just made you love the place more. They were greeted by a staff and were led to their table. He let Gray do all the talking as he was the host too eager to impress him while Aron himself enjoyed observing in the sidelines.

[ayais]

Gray smiled and sat down takeing a hold of Aron hand and smiled “ this place is as nice as it says but you have to order I don’t know anything about French food so you have to order for us…” he smied as he tried his best to understand the meune but was faling “ it smells good and its nice..” he clear didn’t get out much.

[vyssini]

When allowed to be seated, he had the better view of the restaurant. He smiled as Gray gave him the rein. That's logical since he was the one who suggested French food. But since it was his first time in that establishment, he had asked for a specialty. "I’d like to order something to drink to start with." He motioned to the staff waiting on them. He decided to go for a fixed-price meal and expected to receive three or four courses that constructed a classic French meal since he didn't know the doctor's preference. He ordered Braised Pork with Pearl Onions and Grapes for the doctor and Bouillabaisse for himself. He chose Mango-Basil Vacherin and Mara des Bois Strawberry Napoleons for dessert. "If you happen not to like it, we can switch." He switched his attention to the man across him.

[ayais]

Gray smiled and saw that his little nurse seemed to be in his element not sure what he was ordering for them but it sounded good and when it came to dessert he laugh “we may have to I love strawberry’s he smiled and waited for there wine to come . he smiled and hummed tasting the wine “ its nice .. what do you think did I do good ?” he smiled maybe we can go dancing next date if you want a next date..?”

[vyssini]

Twirling a glass of fine wine between his fingertips, he smirked. "It would be perfect if you also covered the food." He said with a raised brow, obviously taunting. But he was really impressed since he only heard the name of the place. But he knew how hard it was to get a reservation, one needed to call at least months before and he did it just this afternoon. The place were packed and its reputation didn't fail his expectation. Though he wouldn't directly praise the doctor, his eyes betrayed him.

[ayais]

Gray smiled “ that’s just like you..” he smiled and wached him as there food came gray smiled and study Arone and sat down his wine glass he could tell he was having a good time “ so … ummm I can we do this agine.. you know how I feel about you I just don’t know how you feel about me..”

[vyssini]

Aron's body stiffened and his hands unconsciously picked on his food. He knew agreeing to the dinner would mean they had to have this talk. He took a deep breath before looking at Gray seriously. "You knew exactly where I stand." He eyed the doctor with a soft gaze.

[ayais]

Gray looked at him “ I wish I did … you either don’t feel the same or your afaird of what it will do to our work life…” He hummed he was trying to be brave but It was hard he loved Aron he couldn’t keep holding out hope he need Aron to tell him that all he was to him was his co worker then maybe he could get ride of these silly feeling he had.

[vyssini]

He knitted his brows. "I.." He swallowed his doubt before continuing. "I like you. But it doesn't mean we have to be more than what we are now." He couldn't held the gaze of the doctor so he looked away. He was being honest but only to an extent. "We're doing fine." His voice low and barely audible.

[ayais]

Gray hart shattered he felt like a fool wasting all his time wishing one day they would be more.. ”I see…” deserter came and he started to eat the strawberry’s I am sorry i been foolish yes we work well together …” he sighed this is clearly not what he wanted but he was still being nice even though he was hart broken .

[vyssini]

"Yeah." Aron could barely form words to say. He knew agreeing to this dinner was a terrible idea. He was just as dejected as the doctor. He didn't miss the slight tremble in Gray's voice. And he knew that he hurt him. Again. He tried to taste his Mango-Basil Vacherin which was supposed to be sweet but apparently, the nurse tasted nothing but bitterness. Silence permeated in their table.

[ayais]

Gray paid the check and stood up “ lets get you home.. I have a few metting tomorrow you should take the day off he walked out getting the car and waited for Aron to come out he wanted to cry he was more then hurt his dreams were over . he sighed touching his tie once Aron came to the car he sighed “I am sorry this was a mistek hopeful thing can go back to normal and we can forgot about this.. forgive me..”

[vyssini]

Aron didn't argue with the doctor. Silence. Neither of them talked in the car. Aron kept his hands on his pockets, secretly clenching and unclenching. He wasn't able to relax. His breathing was erratic. He bit his lower lip almost drawing blood. His eyes were hot and tears were threatening to spill. Of course, Gray wouldn't notice anything since the doctor refused to meet his eye.

[ayais]

Gray stoped at Aron apartment “goodnight…nures Aron..sleep well ..” Gray didn’t want Aron to see him cry he would go home to his empty home and cry tonight he should have never done this why did he think someone like Aron could love someone like him . How foolish he was but since lei was going to live and have his lover back he thouth maybe he deserved love to.

[vyssini]

Aron was escorted by Gray to his apartment. 'Nurse Aron?' It was painful to hear. He didn't like the sound of his name spoken like any other nurses. Though he always put professionalism as his armor, the doctor would always call him by his given name affectionately. And he was too blind to see the man behind the white coat. And he knew, that after tonight, he might never hear the fondness on the doctor's voice. 'Damn.' He wanted to run inside his apartment but before he even unlocked his door, his heart broke. He covered his mouth by the back of his hand as his tears spilled. He didn't dare make a sound, afraid that the doctor would notice his anguish.

[ayais]

Gray didn’t notice he was hurt “ good night “ he said before heading back to his he drove out of sight of Aron house and trun off the car and started to cry he couldn’t make it home he was to hurt he was shakeing and howling out good thing his car was sound poof someone may think of him as a mad man . it was better this way now he didn’t have to dream of a life he never have.

[vyssini]

"Stupid. Idiot." He berated himself. If he would cry after denying Gray, why he couldn't just be more honest to himself. But it always happened to him. Whenever he fell in love, he became too absorbed with his partner ending up alone. All his previous relationships ended the same ways. They would say his love was too much, it's suffocating. But Gray was different. The attraction was instant, the first time he laid his eyes on the gorgeous doctor. He couldn't help but try to touch him. He even went as far as pretending to fix the man's necktie just to breathe in his scent. After he got to know him better, he seriously fell in love with the man. He decided it was better to keep the status quo. Else, wouldn't survive the heartache if the man hated him. He was a coward. But he couldn't risk it. Just the thought of Gray looking at him with hate or indifference could stop his heart beat. If it really happened, it would kill him.

 

"How was this different?" He ended up heartbroken anyways. He sat on the ground trying to pull oxygen into his lungs. But this time he didn't try to stifle his sobs.

[ayais]

Gray drove back to arone place he knocked on the door he had been crying his hands were shakeing he couldn’t leave not “open the door!” he growled his voice hores form sobbing “ We need to talke nures?” he wasn’t sure how to feel he just need aron to say he hated him he only saw a lab coat he needed to hear it . “ Arone..” he banged on the door his eyes puffy form crying he didn’t want to go home .

[vyssini]

"Gray. Gray. Gray." He chanted the doctor's name while crying. As if on cue, Aron was startled by the loud banging on his door. He almost tripped hurrying to the door. He was trembling and opened the door without hesitation.

[ayais]

Gray looked at Aron “ why have you been crying?” he asked and touched Aron chine making him look in to his own eyes “ tell me what you see when you look at me… I need you to tell me so I can move on with my life and try to forget the hold you had on me since we 1st met…”

[vyssini]

He couldn't understand why the doctor was standing right in front of him. Wasn't he mad at Aron? The doctor had given up on him, didn't he? So why? Aron was trembling but he needed to be sure. He reached out and clasped Gray's tie and he suddenly was able to breathe. The man asked the reason for his tears but he kept his silence. He looked down, not daring to meet the eyes of the gorgeous doctor. In his vulnerable state, he was afraid that his eyes would reflect his desire. 'Why indeed!' Wasn't it because he was too much of a coward? Gray held his chin up so their eyes met and demanded answers. But he just cried and didn't speak, not because he didn't want to but because he can't. There seems to be a lump in his throat.

 

NO! He wanted to shout. Gray would move on and would forget about him. Someone would stand by the doctor's side. Someone who wasn't him. He didn't like it and the thoughts made him shiver. He lost the strength on his knees and wobbled.

[ayais]

Gray felt Aron touch on his tie he loved that feeling but he was hear to close the door on loving him. “No what… you have to tell me … everything now or ill walk away and we can just work toghter… “ he sighed “I cant keep dreaming its not healthy .. .” he sighed he was upset Anorn was avoiding giving him a clear answer

[vyssini]

Aron knew he had to speak up or he would lose any and all chances to be with Gray. He couldn't even feel his knees. He was shaking so much, he had to cling on Gray for dear life. "Don't be mad. Please. You can't be mad at me. Don't hate me. It would kill me. Please. Don't abandon me. I'm sorry. So. So. So. Sorry. Please. Stay. If I have to beg, I'll do it. Just. Don't leave me. I know I'm a coward. But. You can't give up on me. I'm sorry. Gray." He blurted out so fast between sobs, he couldn't even understand his own words but the rest was just an endless chanting of the doctor's name.

[ayais]

Gray held Aron he didn’t understand what he wanted “Tell me how you feel now.. Aron.. I cant keep doing this if you don’t feel the same about me I have to let you go.. I cant keep doing this to my self..” he sighed

[vyssini]

Aron was too absorbed with expressing his thoughts. His feelings. The things he was keeping from the doctor ever since the first time they met. He heard Gray's words without understanding. But he knew it was his last chance. If he failed to convince the doctor to stay, he would lose him forever. He did what he knew would explain everything and would make the doctor understand his heart. He tightened his grip on the tie and tugged him down. Enough so he could grab the doctor's hair and press their lips together. He closed his eyes. Waiting. Praying. Begging for response from the man he love.