Winter's Delight(In need of older Seme.)

[JR_TheRandomFan]

Dylani wasn't as naïve as some would label him to be. From some would say he was one to simply save face. If someone didn't want to talk about certian things,then who was he to push it. It didn't take him long to figure out that Chad was from his lover's past,and he could hear the name that Jun used to be called,a slight name for whatever he left all those years ago. The blonde trusted that Jun will tell of his past over time. But for now,he had to change a few things to keep his Jun happy,to let him know that he could be trusted." It's about us," he began," and how I feel you're not truly happy.I hate it that I've made you hold your tongue,that I've stopped an old habit,and that...I can't let you just take me as you want to. I want to change all of that,and I'm starting with these things. Smoke of you want. Don't hold back what you really feel and just say it,and when we get back,I want you to show me how much you've been holding back. No matter how much I cry out. I won't say anything until you're truly satisfied."

 

Dylani came to face him before gripping tightly to his hands." I want to see you happy,Jun.You haven't done anything to change me. So why should I do that to you? I-I'm sorry about this...I just want you well,big it doesn't mean anything if you're not h-happy..."

[Sosuke0549]

" It's about us," [/Quote]

"Oh boy.."

He muttered.

" and how I feel you're not truly happy.I hate it that I've made you hold your tongue,that I've stopped an old habit,and that...I can't let you just take me as you want to. I want to change all of that,and I'm starting with these things.

Jun's eyes widened slightly. His full attention turning to Dyanli.

" Smoke if you want. Don't hold back what you really feel and just say it,and when we get back,I want you to show me how much you've been holding back. No matter how much I cry out. I won't say anything until you're truly satisfied."[/Quote]

"Dyanli..."

His boyfriend suddenly came up to his face, gripping his hands tightly.

" I want to see you happy,Jun.You haven't done anything to change me. So why should I do that to you? I-I'm sorry about this...I just want you well,big it doesn't mean anything if you're not h-happy..."[/Quote]

 

Jun bit his lip. It was too crowed here, and they were blocking all the other people trying to walk. He quickly pulled Dyanli aside, between a tight alley way. Not carrying that a ton of people were walking by and watching them.

 

Sure having Dyanli around sometimes irritated him.. He was so painfully pure and innocent...but it was a CHANGE he LIKED. He wanted the other to remain the same.

"Dyanli...listen. I am happy, you make me happy...and I haven't done anything to change you because your perfect."

He sighed.

"You wanted me to quite smoking because you knew it was bad for me.. because you cared. And I've been working my ass off and shivering like crazy going threw withdrawals for you... No one's ever cared about my health or well being but you. And when you make me watch my tongue... it does get frustrating, because there are so many dirty and provocative things I wanna say and do to you... but you hold me back.. And I'm not going to turn down your offer... But you holding me back.. I hate it and like it at the same time. I've always broken the rules or pushed pasted people's boundaries...but I can't with you And it drives me so insane. "

He deeply stared at the younger male.

"Your so very different... your nothing like..Chad or anyone else. I don't want you changing... because what made me love you was the fact that you were different... if you started becoming like them... I think I'd fall out of love with you."

He gently culled his face.

"I'm afraid that if I go all the way with you, not holding back.. it'll remind you of..him

He said him..with such bitter and disgust. Referring to the man that abused Dyanli.

"I'll show You...what I'm like when I'm not holding back... if you really want to see it.."

He lightly kissed the boys lips.

[JR_TheRandomFan]

"Dylani,listen...I am happy,you make me happy...And I haven't done anything to change you because you're perfect."

The blonde couldn't really believe what he was hearing. Never had he figured himself to be perfect. He found himself flawed,and just too worrisome to most. He figured that he didn't even deserve someone like Jun.And he couldn't say that to his lover. So he kept listening,light eyes shining slightly with tears.

"You wanted me to quit smoking because you knew it was bad for me,because you cared. And I've been working my ass off and shivering like crazy going through withdrawals for you...No one's ever cared about my health or wellbeing but you."

It wasn't like he couldn't help himself. All the peoples eyes knee were always on his mind more than himself. What kind of lover would be be if he did t worry about the one he loved?

"And when you make me watch my tongue,it does get frustrating,because there are so many dirty and provocative things I wanna say and do to you,but you hold me back...And I'm not going to turn down your offer but you're holding me back..I hate it,and like it at the same time."

Perhaps there would be a bit of love and hate for certain traits on a relationship,but he couldn't help but to feel guilty. He didn't want to hold on to so much control. Not on Jun.

I've always broken the rules,pushed past people's boundaries,but I can't with you and it drives me so insane...You're so very different...You're nothing like Chad,or anyone else. I don't want you changing because what made me love you was the fact that you were different. If you started to becoming like them,I think I'd fall out of love with you..."

Those words were what finally brought the tears to his eyes. Each word he said just brought his heart to throbbing. This was one of the reasons why he fell for him. All of it,was for him to act like himself.

I'm afraid that if I go all the way with you,not holding back,it'll remind you of him...I'll show you,what I'm like when I'm not holding back,if you really want to see it..."

As they kisses Dylani softly sniffed,holding tightly to his shoulders as he shuddered against him." I have to push myself... If you didn't push me,then we wouldn't have made love in the first place. And I know that you wouldn't intensionally hurt me... You truly do love me..."

[Sosuke0549]

Jun sighed, as he slowly broke their kiss. Listening to the other.

"Okay..."

He gently ran his thumb across the others bottom lip.

"You still wanna get something to eat.. or do you wanna go back home... because as soon as that door closes behind me..you'll see a different side of me.."

[JR_TheRandomFan]

Dylani rubbed into his arm for a moment before looking to to him." Let's eat first Jun. I-I guess that the two of us are going to be up for some time tonight." His cheeks soon turned a bright red when he said that. Eating would give him enough time to prepare what rough night he signed himself up for. Glancing over him he smiled before tugging his hand." Found the shuhi place Jun.Let's get going."

[Sosuke0549]

He sighed a little biting his lip.

"..okay."

He followed the other into the restaurant. His eyes mostly staying on his lovers body.

"Table for 2 please..and we'll have the seafood buffet.."

He told the waiter. She smiled at them. Giving them a table, cups and silver wear. All the plates were near the good where you could get as much as you wanted, And next to that was drinks.

"Go ahead and get your plate. I'll get the drinks. What do you want."

He smiled at the other softly.

[JR_TheRandomFan]

"Um...I'll just have a glass of water Jun. Thanks." Dylani cloud feel his cheeks heat up every time the two of them met each other's glances. Never had he seen Jun so trained on his body before. Sure he did give those looks from time to time but never this intense. What could he really say about it? He asked for this,and he supposed that this was part of it. With food in hand the blonde sat back down and began to eat.

[Sosuke0549]

Jun returned with the others glass of water and him with a soda. He then went up to the buffet to grab his own food, eating a few bites here as he sat with his boyfriend.

 

He so desperately wanted the other.. he knew he'd hurt him... But for once he didn't want any boundaries.. For once he wanted to show his dark side.

 

Jun finished eating rather quickly. He smiled at the other setting his plate aside.

"You want desert?"

[JR_TheRandomFan]

Setting his plate aside the blonde ran a hand through his hair shakily before he spoke." No...I-I think I'm full for now." He couldn't help but to feel nervous next to Jun then. He knew what was coming. He asked for what was coming,but still in his heart he flashed back to times before."Jun's not him,I know that he's not. I just need to calm down." Taking a breath he sat himself up and stretched." I take it that you're ready to go..."

[YellowPerch]

I'm not sure if I'm too late. But if your still in need of a seme then I'd be glad to help

[Sosuke0549]

"Oh.. I want desert."

He put some money on the table.

"But your the only thing I want and I can't really eat you here~ "

He smirked and reached out his hand to the other.

"Come on princess"

He winked at him.

[JR_TheRandomFan]

Grabbing his hand Dylani walked out of there completely silent. On their ride back he couldn't help but to flash back to their first few attempts at sex. The closest that they were a single phrase rung through his mind.

I'm going to violate you until you can't walk..."

His grip on him could become tighter at the thought of it. There was no way to avoid it. That would be Jun as soon as the door closes. Thinking about it he wasn't even sure if he could handle it. When they came home the blonde let out a silent sigh before gripping on to his arm."..."

[Sosuke0549]

His lover took his hand but he stayed completely silent. Jun kept his eyes on the other.. sensing his nervousness. As they got on his bike the other still didn't talk, But held on to him tightly. He bit his lip.

 

When they came home, Jun closed and locked the door behind him. His blonde lover let out a silent sigh, before gripping on to his arm. Jun pulled away.

"Don't do that. You act like I'm forcing you. "

He frowned and threw his jacket on the couch before taking off his shirt. He grabbed Dylani and slowly pinned him against the wall.

"You clearly don't want this..that sigh you made just proves it..."

He pulled away And went into the kitchen for some water.

[JR_TheRandomFan]

Feeling sick Dylani rushed to the bathroom mom the second floor,closing and locking the door behind him. He fell to the floor and let out a soft sniff."I messed up,again."he thought."Why can't I just do these simple things? I don't understand..." Letting out another sniff he rose to the mirror and looked over his face. The blonde couldn't remember a time where he looked so ashamed." Why do I even try?" He asked himself." I can never fallow through with him. If this can't help us, then what will? I-I just wish..." He sniffed before letting the tears fall from his eyes." I-I wish I didn't do this to him..."

[Sosuke0549]

As soon as Jun had his back to his lover he ran away. He could hear him rushing up the stairs, but he hesitated. Not sure if he wanted to go after him. Was he just...wasting his time? Yes... he believed he loved Dylani.. I mean this had to be love...but... he wasn't sure the other would like his dark side. He had raging hormones just like Dylani, just like any other man.. but unlike Dylani who always seems satisfied, he just...isn't. It wasn't fair.... to constantly hold back, he hated it and yet he'd keep doing it over and over...for Dylani... perhaps he was just stupidly and madly in love with him..

 

After taking a sip of water he headed up stairs to check on his boyfriend. He quickly discovered that the younger male had locked himself in the bathroom.. and was... crying?

He put his ear to the door, trying to listen.

" Why do I even try? I can never fallow through with him. If this can't help us, then what will? I-I just wish..." [/Quote]

He sniffles... no doubt he's crying.

" I-I wish I didn't do this to him..."[/Quote]

It's true.. the other was such a tease...however.. so was he.. Jun knocked on the door.

"Dylani...."

He sighed and lightly hit his head on the door frustrated.

"I'm...."

He clenched his hands into fists for a moment before sighing.

"...I'm sorry..."

God how he missed smoking. He heard his lover say it.. He could never fellow through with him...He'd.. have to control himself...forever..

"Unlock the door..."

He wanted Dylani... he'd never tell him this... but seeing him cry was so arousing. He's whimpering in bed... his desperate gasps... there was so much Jun wanted to do to his body...

[JR_TheRandomFan]

"Dylani..."

When he heard his name called the blonde uncovered his eyes before slowly approaching the door. He could hear Jun get closer, planting his fists on the door in his frustration.

I'm...I'm...I'm sorry...Unlock the door."

Letting out another sniff he sat at the door before speaking." D-Don't apologize Jun,it's my fault. If I wasn't leading you on like this then we wouldn't be here right now. I'm ashamed to actually think I could try to do as you were meant to do. I-I wish I wasn't so soft. I-I wish my memories from the past would just go away forever... I-I hate it. I hate myself...I-I just don't know what to do."

[Sosuke0549]

"Stop saying that...Dylani..Open the door."

He bit his lip waiting.

"I'm not going to tell you again.."

His voice was stern..He'd show him.. He just needed the other to stop hidding. He already knew everything about him. He couldn't comfort the other if he stayed locked behind the door.

[JR_TheRandomFan]

With a gentle sigh the blonde slowly got to his feet and held the knob,leaning against the door before unlocking and opening it. He tried his best to rubbing away his tears but they kept coming down,causing his cheeks to redden in the process. What could he really do? He still felt ashamed from what he'd done. Taking a breath he tried to speak." Jun I-I..."

[Sosuke0549]

He waited until he heard the other unlock the door. When Jun saw the younger boy he frowned slightly. Dylani was struggling to fight back his tears. Rubbing the salty water from his eyes but in doing so, caused his cheeks to redden. He was so innocent, and yet so damn adorable...

It's like a sadistic lion fell for a innocent baby lame. They were so....different

" Jun I-I..."[/Quote]

"Shut up.."

He cupped the others face.

"Just shut up..."

He kissed him passionately, his thumbs whipping the water from his eyes.

"We already had this talk...stop putting yourself down..Stop hating yourself, it's not attractive"

He suddenly picked the blond up, his body pressed up against his and his hands fondling the others behind. He carried the other out of the bathroom and into the bed room, where he let the boy fall to the bed.

 

This would keep happening. The two would continue to hurt each other until one of them gave him. Either Dylani had to learn to take things rough.. or Jun had to learn to be gentle and control himself. Which was very slim.

 

Perhaps it was only a matter of time before Jun cheated on the other. Because if Dylani couldn't take it the way he wanted it, there was always someone else who would.

Jun climbed on top of the smaller male, looking down at him.

"...when you reach your limit.. say Uncle.. and I'll stop...otherwise I'll keep going... "

He waited to see if the other understood before going to touch him..

[JR_TheRandomFan]

"...!" The blonde was rather surprised when his lips were overtaken by the other's lips. The heated kiss causes his cheeks to heat up even more then they started. He didn't even realize that he was being picked up until he felt Jun's hands on his rear. He wanted to say something, but stopped himself when they made their way to the bedroom. His clear eyes looked up to his older lover when he climbed on top of him. They were actually going to go through with this. He had to last out,no matter how hard it got.

...When you reach your limit,say uncle...and I'll stop. Otherwise I'll keep going."

With a single breath Dylani shifted under him,giving him a nod as a means to say that he understood." O-Okay..."

[Sosuke0549]

Dylani breathed, and shifting underneath him, before nodding.

" O-Okay..."[/Quote]

 

Jun stared down at the boy lustfully. He didn't have to hold back tonight.. he finally could do what he wanted...at least until he heard that five letter words.... uncle.

"I'm going to do some very naughty things to you..."

He whispered, leaning closer to kiss the boys lips... starting slow, but then forcing his tongue into the younger males mouth. One hand moving threw Dylani's hair, only to grab and pull at his roots.

His free hand moving down the males body, groping his man hood.

"Dylani~ "

He bit down on the others lip, hard enough to break the skin, tasting his blood.

"Oops...sorry.."

He muttered licking at his wound, breathing against his face.

"I wanna hear you cry out my name...~"

He smirked a little as he let the other go, but only for a moment, yanking off The boys shirt and tossing it aside.

 

He then took Dlyani's hands and pinned them above his head.

"Keep your hands above your head...no matter what~ if you move them... you'll be punished."

[JR_TheRandomFan]

The lust in Jun's eyes at that moment was something that caused his heart to shudder. What he heard from his older lover said to him next would only make it shudder more.

"I'm going to do some very naughty things to you..."

Dylani would've tried to say something but he was stopped by the older man's lips. The forced push of his tongue caused him to gasp,only making him attempting to twist his own around Jun's."M-Mmph..." Clear eyes half lidded as a means to ease the pain of the hard tug on his hair. The groping of his crotch through his jeans made him shift once again. The only thing that brought tears brimming to his eyes was the hard bite of his lower lip. Even with Jun licks the wound the younger man still could place the coppery taste of his blood on his lips.

"I wanna hear you cry out my name..."

At that rate he would be crying out for him,among other things. The pops of the buttons on his shirt as he yanked off his shirt. He wasn't sure if he should say something. He would try,but stopped himself when Jun pinned his hands over his head.

"Keep your hands above your head...No matter what~. If you move them,you'll be punished..."

The only thing that he could muster as a response to his was a weak whimper. Dylani closed his eyes and locked his hands together by his wrists. The fear in him was riding,but he decided to ignore it.

[Sosuke0549]

When Jun told Dylani to keep his hands above his head, the only response the shy boy could muster was a weak whimper. He closed his eyes locking his hands together looking so vulnerable and cute. Every shift he made...every flinch and whimper...was breathtaking.

 

Jun's hands moved down to the boys jeans, quickly undoing the button and zipper only to remove them, along with his undergarments. He was fully naked now.

"So cute....your so cute Dylani~ "

He whispered hovering over him.

"Look at me.."

He took his chin, as he gave the boy a heart pounding stern stare.

"Spread your legs... and don't close your eyes...I want you to watch me ravsh you.."

He leaned in kissing his nose softly before biting it lightly. His tone very sexual.

[JR_TheRandomFan]

It was getting much more difficult to hide the fear he felt at that moment. As Jun pulled off his pants Dylani could feel himself shuddering in the open air.

"So cute...you're so cute,Dylani...Look at me..."

The blonde's heart quicken as he slowly opened his eyes. He was greeted with a rather stern state,a state that only made him feel more frightened to speak up. What Jun said next however,didn't help his nerves either.

"Spread your legs and don't close your eyes...I want you to watch me ravish you..."

Gulping softly Dylani could only comply by slowly spreading his legs apart,leaving his whole body exposed to his older lover. Everything felt so strange to him. Never in his life had he felt so scared,so vulnerable. In an attempt to keep himself calm Dylani looked up to Jun with tears brimming at the corners of his eyes." I-I love you J-Jun..." He said weakly.

[Sosuke0549]

Gulping softly Dylani did as he was told. Jun struggled... he struggled in trying not to notice how frightened the other looked. It... hurt him.

To truly be himself... was something He could never do...because Dylani was scared of him.

 

The blond slowly opened his legs,leaving his whole body exposed to him. Jun was very much aroused by his younger lover.

"Keep you eyes on me~"

He kisses Jun down his neck... chest..and then stomach moving lover to suck him off, But stopping hearing the others voice.

 

Dylani looked up at him with tears brimming at the corners of his eyes. Why... Why did he have to be so...addicting. So desirable!

" I-I love you J-Jun..." [/Quote]

He said weakly. His eyes widened slightly, as he stared down at him.

No...he couldnt do this to him...

 

And yet... HOW BADLY HE WANTED TO ... to touch him with no restraints, to say whatever he wanted with no restraints, to fuck him as hard and wildly as he always fantasized about.

Was it right for him... to be greedy just this one time?

"And I love you..."

He bit his lip, as his hands grabbed the others inner thighs, stroking them a little before giving head, blowing him with a rough and wild tongue, even deep throating him for a moment. He wanted to hear that sweet, lovely voice of his.