Behind the Scenes (Exellda and Zombie) [18+]

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Zombie's character:

 

 

 

 

 

 

Name: Raphael Pangwood

 

Age: 27

 

Height: 5'10

 

Occupation: Bassist in a punk rock band F.I.L.T.R.

 

Orientation: Pansexual

 

Personality: Laid-back and casual. He barely ever stresses about anything, the only exceptions being his family and close friends. Despite his job, he's very good with children, and would like to have a big family in the future. Even so, casual sex is no stranger to him. He finds it easy to talk to new people, therefore he has a ton of friends, which isn't a surprise purely by looking at how popular his band is. He loves to go to a good party, though there are those nights when he prefers to stay in and watch Netflix all night.

 

Bio: As a kid he had a pretty messed up family. His mother had always had drug addictions and his brother kept fucking around, quite literally at that. He found his escape in weed, which he hasn't left up until now. He never got into any heavier drugs, though alcohol has been his best friend throughout the past few years. He's a huge fan of red wine, especially. At the age of twenty-one he started a band with an old friend. At first they were "Purple Rose", though as more people joined in, the name "F.I.L.T.R" was born - Floyd, Isaac, Lawrence, Thane and Raphael. From that point onward, his life kept getting better. Their band was gaining popularity, and Raphael soon found a new purpose in life - helping others. He volunteered in shelters when he could, bringing fans along with him, he donated money and he always helped out people in need. Especially homeless youth. They have a special place in his heart.

 

 

He always loved the cold weather. It gave him an excuse to put on three layers of clothing, a huge scarf and a jacket on top. It also helped him hide from his fans, a thing he wanted to do some days, like today. Raphael wandered around the town with his hood placed over his head, his hands in his pockets next to his phone, blaring loud music through the earphones. It was snowing pretty heavily, and he honestly couldn't fight off a small smile from his face. He felt like a kid during a snow day. Christmas was near, too, and today was one of the few days that were free. F.I.L.T.R. was doing really well, so they practiced more than ever, to make sure they were at their best condition. Even they needed a break sometimes, though.

 

Raphael turned towards a bakery, "Blue Jay", that was right around the corner. It looked really cute, though he'd never been there before. He stepped inside, the bell ringing softly to announce his presence. The man reached up with his gloved hand to take off the hood, revealing the black hair he kept in a messy bun on top of his head. He looked like he stepped out of some movie - all dressed in black, just his icy blue eyes shining from his pale face. He wore heavy black boots, skinny jeans and a big jacket which reached to his mid-thighs. The man looked around before stepping closer to look at the pies they had to offer. He didn't even look up to see who was waiting behind the counter right until the moment he decided on what he wanted to order.

 

Finally raising his head up, Raphael's lips parted to voice his order, but... He froze up a little as his gaze fell upon a young ginger standing right in front of him. He definitely knew that guy... "I... I'll have the biggest mocha with mint syrup and an apple pie with whipped cream." He ordered a bit absentmindedly, fishing out his wallet out of his pocket. "I feel like I know you." He murmured, a smile stretching out across his face - then it hit him. "Wait, I do know you! Jem-... Ji-... Jerimise, was it?" Raphael's smile turned into a wide grin, one he often bore on his face. "I haven't seen you in ages... Do you even remember me?"

 

Oh, he knew the guy standing in front of him, alright. Raphael had helped him years ago. He could still remember that day clearly. He was heading back home from rehearsal, back when his band wasn't as famous, when he saw some guy sitting on the street. The boy couldn't have been older than seventeen, though even now he looked barely eighteen. Back then, Jerimise had gotten kicked out of the house for, as Raphael later was told, being gay. Of course he pitied the kid. Raphael helped him find a place to stay in at least for a couple of days, gave him enough money for a month's worth of food, or rent if he needed that. They exchanged phone numbers and from time to time Raphael checked up on the kid. Time went by, though, and they lost contact. Raphael still thought about that scrawny kid he helped from time to time. He felt like that was the day he decided he would help whoever he could.

 

"I can't believe this. I never thought I'd see you again." Raphael's features grew soft with the smile that staid on his face. "You'll have to tell me all about what you've been doing. You... You've grown." He couldn't help but feel like a proud brother, goddamit. "Still have that wild mess of hair, though. You'll never let me fix that, will you?" Raphael teased, feeling as if he'd reunited with a best friend. God... He hoped he wouldn't turn things awkward like that. It would be the worst thing, to be fair.

[Exellda]

 

 

 

Ginger hair:

 

Physic: Body Type and Glasses:

 

 

 

 

 

 

Name: Jerimise Jackson

 

Nickname: JJ (Jay Jay)

/ VintageBoy

 

Height: 5'7

 

Occupation: Owner and baker of the bakery called "Blue Jay"

/Porn star

 

Orientation: Gay

 

Personality: Jerimise is rather laid back and very sweet, much like the goods he bakes. He likes to have fun, learning and exploring. His passion is baking. He always wanted to be his own chef, a baker, and own his own business. Jerimise is clever, flirty and ambitious. He also hides a scandalous secret from most people; he's a porn star. This side of Jerimise comes out when he is alone, or with someone he plans to bed or even has romantic feelings for. Sex is not foreign to him yet not second nature either. When it comes to filming, Jerimise has taken up the name 'VintageBoy' and has become quite popular as a porn star. He is mostly embarrassed to admit it.

 

Bio: Jerimise had an easy life up until the moment he came out as being 'gay' to his parents. Everything came crashing down on him as his parents were repulsed, kicked him out and left him homeless. He lived that way for a while before a kind stranger saved him, gave him money, food and a home... Jerimise could never repay that man. After that, Jerimise slowly got back onto his feet. At first, he got a dead end job until he was 18, from there he took up porn. When JJ first started, he was learning the basics, but as time went on, he made a name for himself and became increasingly popular, to the point that he was paid a grand amount. This money he invested into his life-long dream of owning a bakery. Once he bought the place, "Blue Jay" became a reality. And now the ginger resides, living above the bakery.

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Winter was his favorite season alongside fall. It gave Jerimise an excuse to cuddle up, wear more clothes and have freshly baked goods on the ready. It really was the happiest time of the year for him. The cold provided enough excuse to keep the oven going. Fresh loaves of bread, pies, cake and so much more filled the room with a pleasant warmth. There wasn't that many people here today as the holidays drew closer. Nevertheless, JJ planned to have the bakery open until the week of Christmas. His cute little bakery was already prepped and decorated for the holiday. There was white tinsel outlining the counters making it look like snow. A special mistletoe hung right in the doorway of the bakery, Jerimise found that some customers appreciated the gesture. There was holly that decorated each table along with one fake candle. In the corner there is a decent sized Christmas tree, decorated to the brim with ornaments, candy canes, more tinsel and pretty lights.

 

The room is square. In the bakery, there is a main walking path that lead right to the register. Along the counter are see through glass shelves that hold baked goods. To the right of the register, sweets decked out these shelves, like pie, tarts, cake, or even chocolate. To the left, baked good like bread, baguettes, or croissants. Each good, Jerimise made himself. The ginger often worked by himself, especially right now when there were not many customers. He only had one part-time employee. A senior in high school, a girl named Lily. She was a sweet girl, much like Jerimise, only she actually was going to finish school... And he was happy to have her help, whenever he needed it. Along the left side wall of the bakery was three booths. Somewhat near the center are two tables able to sit four people, accompanied by chairs. And along the right side wall are four small tables, set for couples, accompanied by chairs. Lastly, near the entrance, on both sides are cute, small, bookshelves.

 

The bakery as a whole provided a homey feeling to it. As if the place itself could talk and say, everyone is welcome here. Today was like any other day. Simple and very enjoyable. The ginger was wearing a green, plaid button up shirt with the sleeves folded, pushed up to his elbows. Skinny jeans hugged his legs, thighs, and butt perfectly. He was wearing black converse shoes. A lovely, light pink apron accent his waistline, being tied snug around his waist and hooped around his neck. There was a little bit of batter on his freckled cheek. His unruly ginger hair was a mess as always and his glasses were slightly crooked because he hadn't had the chance to fix them yet.

 

His breath got caught when the door opened. A man in all black walked in. Jerimise waited to see who's face would come out of it- A small gasp left Jerimise. His eyes automatically knew who this person was. He was literally speechless as the man approached slowly. Did he not recognize him? Jerimise so dearly wished to speak up, but he was shocked, happy, to see someone after it being so long... Blue eyes followed the other male, watched him closely in astonishment. The moment he heard his voice, memories flashed back through his mind. He could cry... "R-Raphael..." He finally said, feeling his cheeks heat up slightly. A smile graced his face, "Of course I remember you, silly."

 

For Jerimise, it only seemed like yesterday that Raphael saved him... Gave him a place to live, money, and food to last him. If it were not for this man, he wouldn't be standing here. "It took you long enough to recognize me." A soft chuckle escapes the ginger and he looks up at Raphael. "Same here. I didn't think I would see you..." Ever again... His thought completed the sentence. He appreciated that, even after all of this time, Raphael could still talk so nicely to him and tease him. And smile at him... Make him feel fuzzy on the inside from being so giddy. "Don't worry about paying, it's on me. It's the least I can do for you." The ginger commented, moving to make the other male a mocha. He glances over his shoulder, "You know my hair has always been unruly." A soft chuckle escapes him. "I might let you try later..?"

 

He really wanted to have the chance to talk with Raphael. It's been so long. "I don't know if you're busy... But if you have time, I am closing in less than an hour. I'd love to talk to you for a bit, if you want." He whipped out the mocha with mint syrup, just like Raphael wanted. Then he snagged a slice of apple pie, splattered some whip cream onto it. He served both right up, quickly. "Here you are, Raphael. A large mocha with mint syrup and an apple pie with whip cream. Anything else I can get you?" He paused gazing at Raphael, a smile still tugging at his lips. Geeze, he was so happy to see him after so long. He cleared his throat. "I know what you can give me." He said, "You can give me your phone number... And while you're at it, a nice affectionate hug." He teased, not wanting a half-assed hug after all of this time.

 

"How did you loose my number anyway?" He asked curiously, already making the accusation. He knew it was not his fault. More than likely it was Raphael's... But that was okay... Somehow, life had magically brought this man back into his life! Jerimise was already taking off his apron. He was assuming that the other male would be okay with a hug, given how casually he greeted him. There was only two other people in the bakery anyway, so it wasn't like Jerimise had anything else to do right now. His eyes glanced back at Raphael, silently asking if it was okay that they hugged. He hoped it wouldn't be crossing some invisible boundary.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael offered a sheepish grin, his head tilting to one side to reveal the various earrings he had in his ear. Usually he also had one piercing on the left side of his lip, but today he went without it, as the day before it felt a bit swollen. Along with these piercings, he also had one in the middle of his tongue, he even had his nipples pierced and - which was the most secret - he had a few piercings in his cock, too. It was always amusing to show off that little surprise to people. He was no stranger to tattoos, either. Of course, during winter they weren't visible, but he had many on his arms, his back, even his legs. Raphael never felt the need to get any on more visible places like his neck, face or hands - that was Floyd's thing. That guy was covered in tattoos from head to toe and girls still swooned over him.

 

"Well, I haven't seen you in what, three years? I'm sorry for not being to recognize people the moment I see them! You know how many people I know, add that to the fans and it's a miracle I even remembered you." Raphael whined softly, leaning against the counter with a sheepish smile still on his face. The smile only widened when he heard that Jerimise would let him try doing something with his hair. "Can I shave some off? You'd look bomb with an undercut. I can't believe you let yourself walk around with that nest on your head, God, you can't be trusted to look after yourself without me!" Raphael laughed warmly, reaching over to lightly push away some of the curls away. He really missed this guy. He was a real sweetheart, it was such a relief to see someone like that when everyone around him was twisted in all ways possible.

 

"I'll wait for you to close. It'll be your fault if I attract paparazzi here, though." Raphael grinned, winking playfully at the younger man. His tongue peeked out between his lips, wetting them slightly as his order was presented to him. "This looks great. And since you won't allow me to pay, I'll just leave a tip." Raphael looked up with a soft laugh, taking out his wallet. He grabbed out fifty dollars, rolling the bill up before pushing it into the tip can. His smile turned sheepish once more when the phone number was mentioned. "I'm sorry about that." He chuckled nervously, leaning over the counter, half-sitting on it to pull Jerimise into a tight hug. "You know I'm required to change my number from time to time, and my contacts keep disappearing every time I do. It sucks!" He whined again, pressing his lips against the other's cheek before pulling away. He was so used to doing this to everyone, he didn't even think for a single moment that this could be awkward. Hell, it wouldn't be any problem for him to make out with JJ if he so wanted.

 

"I'm gonna go and eat my pie before it gets cold." Raphael smiled warmly, still sitting on the counter before looking around for a pen and a piece of paper. "Gimme your phone, I'll give you my number again. Wanna add me on facebook, too?" He asked, looking up at Jerimise with a warm, friendly smile stretching out on his face. There were no boundaries for him, at all. Not with people he could be friendly with, at least. JJ was his friend, even if they hadn't talked in a while. Tilting his head to the right, Raphael bit down on his lip slightly, unconsciously swiping his tongue over the hole for the piercing. "I feel like I've seen you somewhere else lately, though... You haven't been on TV or anything, have you?" He asked curiously. Of course Raphael watched porn, how could he not? He was still young, his sex drive was high, and he didn't always have someone he could fuck. He did have a favorite porn star, though, someone who made unique things - VintageBoy. Raphael could never shake off the feeling that he knew the star, though, but he figured he just knew someone who looked similar, or perhaps VintageBoy was one of his fans.

[Exellda]

"Oh, ouch." Jerimise frowned slightly. "How could you forget my face- Me in general..? I was kind of hoping I made some kind of impression on you. Well at least you did remember me... I suppose I'll have to find a way to make an imprint on you memory so you can't forget me." The ginger said out loud, playfully, a small chuckle escaped him. He allowed his eyes to dip down, taking in Raphael's entire appearance. Geeze this man was sexy, although JJ felt a little too bashful to say that out loud currently, especially with customers still inside. Last he saw him, Raphael only had a few piercings... Now look at him. His tattoo collection probably grew as well... And Jerimise could only imagine what and where Raphael had them. Mentally, he was liking the idea, more and more, to see what Raphael was hiding under those warm winter clothes.

 

The ginger, on the other hand, did not have tattoos or piercings. He was mostly indecisive- He couldn't pick what piercing he wanted, and if he got a tattoo, where and what should he get? Probably if he asked Raphael, he would have some decent suggestions. On the other hand, not having anything to mark him kept his identity in check. So he could either have a sexy benefit, possibly more views- But he would have to deal with the risk of people stalking him if they figured out who his was... Or he could be plain as he was and let his natural figure tempt the eyes of men- One in particular. "You think so..?" He asked shyly. Jerimise never really thought about cutting his hair. He rather liked the length... But if anyone could persuade Jerimise to get something like that done, it was going to be Raphael. "H-Hey, it's not that bad!" The ginger exclaimed, blushing lightly from embarrassment. Man, if Raph thought that, who knew what his customers might have thought!

 

It was a relief to hear that the other male would be hanging around. Great! He would finally have his chance! Not only would he get to talk to Raphael, learn about his adventures over the years... But he would finally get the chance to... Confess- probably a couple of things. His thick glasses were pushed back up and adjusted so that he could see properly, his eyes watched the other male drop a fifty in his tip jar- which totally defeated the purpose of a free meal... Jerimise huffed, puffing out his cheeks for a moment as he placed his hands on his hips, surrendering in defeat. But... It was the thought that counted. "Thanks... Even though that defeated the purpose of a free meal." Raphael was so nice... How could a man like him even exist?

 

However, before Jerimise said or did anything else, Raphael pulled him into a hug. The ginger gladly returned the favor, leaning into the embrace and wrapping his arms around the sturdy man. Somewhere in the back of his mind didn't appreciate the fact that Raphael was sitting on his clean counter- but he let it slide once a kiss was placed upon his cheek. "It's okay, Raphael, I understand. You should write my number down, or better yet, memorize it, you dork." A smile broke out onto his face, "Well if you're so scared of attracting paparazzi, I'll give you the key to to my home. I live right upstairs." He suggested right after they broke apart. "Definitely." He reached for his phone, feeling giddy that he would have Raphael's number again, it had been so long since he last had it...

 

While in the process of handing over his phone to Raphael, Jerimise pauses for a moment, feeling butterflies in his stomach. "I... No... I have not been on TV..." And then he mumbles, "Per se..." His eyes dart away shyly for a moment. He might bring it up when they are finally alone... Surely Raphael hadn't noticed a resemblance... He wasn't sure how he could notice. He himself did a side by side comparison of what he looked like on the film, dressed up verses how he normally looked. Honestly, he considered himself the textbook definition of a pastel gay nerd. He had the thick glasses to prove it... The resemblance was striking when he took of his glasses though... As stupid as that sounded, Jerimise literally looked like a different person without his glasses. Unlike certain superheroes, Jerimise's glasses were authentic and he couldn't see worth a damn without them. His eyes and face looked a little distorted by the thickness of his own glasses. JJ didn't mind this at all. While he liked being a popular porn star, he didn't necessarily want people lined up down the block to sleep with him.

 

Although Jerimise often fantasized about having contacts... Ditching the bulky glasses...

 

"There's so much that has changed since the last we saw each other... I was more hoping we could talk about it personally, after I close the bakery, alright?" Jerimise clarified, knowing that Raphael would more than likely tag along. "Eat at your leisure, there's only fifteen minutes left until the bakery closes anyway. I'll start cleaning up." He said before stretching his arms above his head, letting out a yawn from a long day's work. Oh, but he wasn't actually tired, no, if Raphael gave him the chance, he would show him otherwise. But also, he really wanted the chance to reconnect with the other man as well.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael rolled his eyes, shaking his head as Jerimise whined about being forgotten. A grin was on his face, though - he liked the guy, he really did, but each day he got to meet tens of new people. Faces quickly disappeared from his mind, he really couldn't help it. It was a miracle he ended up remembering JJ at all! Though he supposed the guy left his imprint on him after he saved him. After all, that began his goal to help people, and that was pretty damn important for him.

 

Raphael's grin widened as he nodded, lightly messing up the younger man's hair. "Believe me, you could look a whole lot better if you took care of your hair better." He teased, gently running his fingers over the soft locks. "They're super soft, though, I'm jealous." Raphael whined softly. His own hair was silky enough, but nothing compared to JJ's. His hair felt like the feathers of a baby duckling. Jerimise looked cute, sure, but there was so much room for improvement. Raphael was already working out a plan on what he wanted to do with his hair - how much to shave off, what to cut off, what to curl a bit more... Jerimise would look incredible after he was done with him.

 

Raphael would have gladly added another fifty to the tip jar, honestly. "I could take a bath in cash, I'd rather give some of that to you. I'm so proud of you, you have no idea." Raphael laughed, leaning into the hug a bit more. "You should know better than to trust my memory. I could get a tattoo of your number!" He exclaimed, his eyes shining slightly. It was a great idea, that way he would never end up losing the number again. The man burst into laughter at the following suggestion. "No thanks, I'll wait for you." He chuckled, taking the cup of coffee to sip the beverage. Afterwards, he took the other's phone, adding himself to the contacts as 'Raphael' with at least a dozen of different hearts. He found himself on facebook as well, adding his private account and even went as far as adding himself on Snapchat and Instagram. "There, now you'll be able to find me anywhere. If you ever lose my number, you'll be able to reach me everywhere." Raphael seemed awfully proud of himself as he gave the phone back.

 

Raphael narrowed his eyes at the nervous reply, opening his mouth to ask further, but for once in his life stopped himself before he blurted out something stupid again. "Well, I know I have." He said instead, warm laughter following his playful words. The man smiled softly, nodding at his friend before finally getting off the counter, taking his pie and coffee along with himself. "Alright, cutie." He winked playfully, grinning widely as he walked away to sit down at a table. Unzipping his jacket, Raphael revealed an over-sized dark blue sweater with a white collar peeking out from beneath it. Like this, he looked a lot more like a hipster rather than a member of a rock band. The man gladly dug into the pie, letting out a soft huff of bliss. Gods, the food here was amazing.

 

After he was done, Raphael waited for Jerimise to finish closing up the shop. "D'you think I can stay the night at your place, then? I'm way too lazy to go home now." He asked with a carefree grin on his face. He was leaning against the chair, having taken off the jacket entirely, his scarf draped over the chair on top of it. The man looked at JJ, his white teeth peeking out from his lips as he grinned, lightly tapping his fingers against the table. "Oh, also, do you mind if I smoke or should I go outside for that?" He asked with one raised eyebrow, tapping his left pants pocket to make sure he still had everything. He didn't really like cigarettes, but weed was a whole other thing. He was absolutely addicted, that was for sure, but it wasn't as harmful as other drugs could be... He wouldn't be a band member if he didn't do some drug. It was like an unwritten rule.

[Exellda]

The ginger blushed lightly as the dark haired male messed around with his hair. He absolutely adored the feeling, especially since it came from Raphael. It was like he was mentally torturing him though, because Jerimise had a major crush on the guy and he wasn't even sure if Raph knew it or not. And if not, JJ wanted to make it clear to him sometime soon. He caught himself wanting to nuzzle the other male, and pull him down for a kiss... But quickly stopped himself. He had to be professional, sadly... Even though what he really wanted was to be under Raphael. The idea itself is enough to make his blood start to flow down south.

 

So he quickly changed his thoughts to the topic at hand. Besides, they were done hugging anyway... Once he received his phone back a smile formed on his face. Raphael had put so many hearts near his name... If only he knew how much JJ was melting inside. "Awe..." He cooed, his eyes scanning over the many hearts. "I almost don't know what's cuter, you or all of the hearts you put after your name on my phone..?" Oh that was an easy answer, but he figured he would play around with Raphael. "Nah, you win, hands down." He giggled. "Thank you." Boy was he ever glad to have all of Raphael's deets. If the other male wasn't too careful, JJ might go under cover and spice things up.

 

"Tell you what." Jerimise said, hanging up his apron for the day. "You can't smoke in here, it is a bakery after all... So if you really want to spoke, go outside or wait until we're upstairs." Jermise could practically feel his heart leap out of his chest when Raphael asked to stay the night. "Of course you can stay." You can even sleep with me if you'd like! Jerimise thought. That's what he really wanted to say but he held his breath. He didn't think Raphael liked him that way... Or at least, not yet. JJ was confident that he could somehow sway his opinion otherwise... Or at least, Jerimise really hoped Raphael would like him back... He's the only one the ginger had a crush on. The man was something special to him, and he would probably do almost anything for him, if he so asked.

 

Jerimise got out some cleaning supplies. He began to wipe down the counters. By now the other customers left so now it was just them. Jermise felt a little more nervous now that he was alone with Raphael, but he kept reassuring himself that it would all be worth it. Any time with Raph was time well spent. There were so many questions he wanted to ask, he didn't know where to begin! And even so, he wanted Raph to enjoy his food. So Jerimise thought it would be best to leave him alone while he ate. In the meantime, Jerimise began to wash down the tables. And while he cleaned, Jerimise would openly glance over at Raphael, admiring him. He was just so damn attractive. Jerimise could barely think of any reason why he shouldn't make a move, other than the crippling fear that Raphael would hate him afterwards... It was only after he was done with all the tables except Raphael's did he say, "So tell me, do you like my cooking?" He asked sweetly as he stood across from where the other male was sitting.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael pretended to be insulted when JJ questioned whether some emoji hearts were cuter than he was. "Mean." He huffed, shaking his head. "I can't believe you'd even joke about this!" He whined dramatically, though he failed to keep his act up and burst out laughing anyway. "Of course I win. I'm the cutest person ever." Raphael winked, grinning playfully, shaking his head. As he was told he could only smoke outside, the man nodded, his smile still lingering on his face. "Alrighty, and thanks for letting me stay." His smile turned softer, gratefulness apparent on his face. He was really curious to see how JJ lived now, actually.

 

While he was at the table, Raphael couldn't not notice JJ staring at him. He only pretended not to notice, at least for a little while. When the ginger came up to him, Raphael having finished his food by then, the raven leaned back against his chair comfortably, smiling up at the other. "Well, if you were my husband, you'd have to make me desserts every night." He laughed, looking straight into JJ's eyes. "They're really good. I'll come here more often, that you can be sure of." Raphael added, his expression softening as he rested his head on his hand. "You'll have more chances to stare at me like that, too. You didn't even try to be subtle. D'you want me to model for you?" He teased, clearly having no problem whatsoever with the almost-flirting. Raphael couldn't really see JJ being romantically interested in him, though, so he himself didn't even think about it either. He thought of JJ more like his little brother, not a romantic interest... That thought just seemed weird. JJ was so pure and innocent, after all, while Raphael was, well, himself.

 

"I'm gonna go out and have a smoke, then. You sure you don't wanna join?" Raphael asked with one raised eyebrow as he pulled out a blunt of weed out of his pocket. "I'll try not to get too high." He laughed, holding the blunt between two fingers. By now he was almost always at least somewhat high. It made getting through life so much more fun. He tried not to overdo it, of course, but it wasn't that easy to just quit. Quite frankly, he was getting worried that he may not even be able to quit by now. He didn't want to go to rehab, though. Those places absolutely sucked.

[Exellda]

The ginger could just melt over how... Simply amazing Raphael was. Okay, maybe he was overexaggerating... But, goodness he was cute, handsome- hilarious! The man knew how to make Jerimise feel so much better, so much more happier. How could he not like Raph? JJ loved to play along with Raphael, because in a way, it was like he could vent all of the things he wanted to say, without making it weird between them. Jerimise was just so scared that he would mess this all up. That he would somehow scare Raphael away... He had always dread that... And for the longest time, a small part of Jerimise thought that Raphael had 'lost' his contact with him, was because he no longer wanted anything to do with him...

 

Alas... What a relief this meeting was. For Jerimise, this was like picking up where they left off, and then some. "Well gee, if I'm suddenly your husband, where's my ring?" He playfully sounded offended, when a part of him wished the scenario to be true. "I mean, I'd gladly make you dessert whenever you wanted it, though." Jerimise laughs softly, having fun with the idea in his mind. Another thing Jerimise liked about Raphael was how he could make eye contact with him, not broken. There were not many people who looked him in the eyes anymore, leaving JJ to feel lonely quite often. But that's okay... He had- technically- two businesses to fun, no need to get so distracted... Of course Raphael was the only except to that.

 

Ah-ha. Raphael pointed out that he had been staring at him. This had Jerimise looking a little bashful, a light blush on his cheeks, but he wouldn't deny it. "What can I say, not only has it been forever... But I cannot deny your charms." A smile formed on his face, pale plush pink lips revealing some pearly whites. "You can model for me if you want, though I might have a hard time resisting after a while." A brief thought crosses his mind as he wonders if he could 'pose' better than Raphael could. That was a thought to be entertained, hopefully one day... "It might surprise you... But since the last time we have seen each other, I've grown. I can be very direct sometimes, whenever I want to be. I'm not as shy as a was when I was a teenager."

 

Jerimise could feel his heart pick up a bit. "Well... I haven't... Done anything like that before." He wasn't sure if drugs were for him. It was bad enough that he did porn. "Let me just wipe down this table really quick and then we can just go upstairs." He shrugged, "No need for you to go out into the cold. Besides, you're the honorable guest, my home is your home- Therefore, make yourself at home." Jerimise said sweetly, and after Raphael moved from the table, he went ahead and wiped the table down. As he wiped the table down, he thought about some of the things he wanted to tell Raphael. There was so many things he could tell him! After all of these years... So much was different. He was just so excited to talk with Raphael.

 

It didn't take long for the smaller male to finish his cleaning duties. In fact when he was done, he had a smile on his face. Another successful day at work, another fun day at the bakery. The ginger made an effort to expertly put everything away before officially closing the bakery. He turned to Raph, "I'm sure you're probably bored waiting for me to clean up." Although he was very relieved, he knew that just because he was taking so long, didn't mean Raph was going to leave. After all, he did say that he would spend the night... "Let's go." He hummed softly, walking towards the back of the bakery, opening the door and leading the way up a set of stairs. "You might think it's small... But for one person living by themselves, it's certainly livable." Jerimise comments, climbing the stairs.

 

Once upstairs, Jerimise waits until Raphael is all the way inside before closing the door behind them. Nerves were building inside of Jerimise. This was the first time Raph would be seeing his home. Crap, he hoped he didn't leave any of his toys out... "So uh... Welcome to my humble abode." They were in the kitchen right now, split off on the other side was the living room. A hall led to three doors. The first door on the right was Jerimise's room, unlocked and slightly ajar. The back right was technically the extra bedroom, one of which JJ used for his hobby, porn, locked. The only door on the left side of the hall was the bathroom, unlocked and ajar. All in all, it is a cozy home, small, but seemingly perfect for Jerimise. "Have a look around."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

"I definitely got you a ring. It's your fault you lost it." Raphael replied, sticking his tongue out before laughing playfully. His expression softened when Jerimise said he'd make him dessert whenever he wanted to. "You do realize I'm gonna hold you to this, right? I love me some dessert... Though if I start eating too many sweets I'll get fat. And if I get fat, people won't love me anymore." Feigning dread, the man shuddered, shaking his head. "How about I come once every week to get some of your delicious pie? The other times I'll just come for tea and to bother you." He laughed, smiling up at his friend.

 

Raphael raised an eyebrow at JJ's next words, a grin stretching out across his face. "Nope, you'll always be the little kid from the street for me." He grinned, though a part of him was very confused. Jerimise's words almost sounded like flirting... But that couldn't be it. No, no way. He decided to just leave it at that. He didn't want to push it or make things awkward... Especially after he said he wanted to stay the night.

 

"Oh, you're such a cutie." Raphael cooed, ruffling up JJ's hair. "Don't worry, I won't let you smoke too much. You can just try it out, if you don't like it it's fine." He smiled reassuringly. He wasn't about to pressure his sweet, innocent (in his eyes) friend into doing something, anything he didn't want to do. His smile softened even further as JJ said he could just smoke in his apartment. "That's so sweet of you." Raphael grinned, pressing a kiss to the other's cheek. "Thanks." He smiled again. It seemed that when he was with Jerimise the smile never actually left his face. God, it was so good to see the guy again. He missed him. Standing up from the table, Raphael leaned against a wall, waiting for JJ to clean up. Watching his friend, Raphael couldn't fight back the feeling of proudness again. Jerimise had really achieved a lot, it seemed. Nothing made him happier than this.

 

As they made way upstairs, Raphael began twirling the blunt between his fingers. "I think it's perfect for you. You're a tiny person, so it only makes sense for you to have a cute tiny apartment as well." Raphael laughed, teasingly messing up Jerimise's hair. After receiving the invitation to look around, Raphael smiled, nodding before lighting the blunt, inhaling slowly, then puffing out a few rings - mostly to show off. Lowering the blunt, he went for the door on the right, leading into JJ's room. Opening the door, his smile faded out for a moment, surprise and confusion replacing it. "Err-... Is that yours?" He asked slowly, eyes fixated on the five vibrators on the shelf, as if put out on a display. Gulping down, Raphael found himself unable to tear his eyes away from them. They all ranged from purple to pink, and... All seemed bigger than anything he'd thought JJ would use. The biggest one, a light pink vibrator, was also ribbed. "Y-You... This... What?" The confusion was written all over his face, it was almost ridiculous as he turned to JJ, clearly waiting for some explanation. To calm his nerves, he moved his hand up, inhaling the blunt deeply into his lungs, trying to calm himself.

[Exellda]

It was funny, because if Raphael had given him a ring, Jerimise certainly wouldn't have lost it. He let the joke slide for now. "Alright, that sounds good. Visit me anytime of the week. The bakery is open almost every day anyway. I'd be happy to have your company." Wow this was happening so fast. Jerimise felt so happy that he could have his friend over. It must have been magic that they found each other again after a couple of years. He chuckled, "Whatever you say... I guarantee that I'll change your mind somehow..." He said, thinking of how in the world he could accomplish such a task. Between Raphael ruffling his hair and kissing him on the cheek, Jerimise found himself lightly blushing from all the attention. It made him gush on the inside, completely excited and feeling like he could do anything. Dare he say that he felt appreciated and loved.

 

Things went... Not as he had planned when they were in his home. Raphael... just... Immediately went to look in his room and Jerimise had literally no time to either warn or prevent him from looking into his room. What had been seen could not be unseen. And even though JJ had closely followed Raph, nervously, he couldn't stop him from seeing the prize collection he had. Five vibrators, each a different color, shape and size. Well, this could have gone better. In fact, he was a little speechless for about a minutes, almost mentally freaking out as much as Raphael was. "W-Well..." He tried to say, thinking of what he should be saying in a situation like this. "Um..."

 

The ginger decided that, even though this was not the circumstance he wanted, it would be the best time to come out with a couple of confessions... Jerimise adjusted his glasses, pushing them up the bridge of his nose. "There's no hiding them now that you've seen them. I... Well... Yeah they are all mine." Jerimise sounded a little nervous to admit it, somewhat embarrassed actually. Mostly, he had a tiny fear that he would make things awkward between them or that Raphael wouldn't like what he was about to say... He had noticed that Raph was inhaling a whole lot more... Perhaps he wasn't going to take this well? That thought only made him worry... But Jerimise didn't want to hide it from him. No, Jerimise trusted Raphael enough, he had kept the secret for so long. Jerimise thought that Raphael was the one to tell the whole truth to.

 

"I have been wanting to talk to you about this, I hope it doesn't make it awkward between us... But... Aside from being a baker, I have another hobby. More scandalous... Admittedly, I am a porn star." Jerimise said with a straight face. He surprised himself that he could say it so honestly and so openly. It was so nice to finally admit that to someone... So then JJ more or less kind of slipped past Raphael, casually picking up the largest, pink dildo, as if it was an ordinary idem right around the shaft. "Before I tell you my username... Do you by chance recognize this vibrator? Assuming you've seen the pron star of which it belongs to. It's customized for me only so there shouldn't be another like it." Jerimise was going out on a whim, assuming that Raphael watched porn as much as he did, and if he even watched VintageBoy. He wondered if Raphael had seen VintageBoy- Just how many episodes had he watched. "Give it your best guess." Jerimise hummed, shaking the vibrator lightly.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

If Raphael was surprised from seeing the vibrators, the next news blew him away completely. First of all, the vibrators were indeed Jerimise's, and even more - he was a porn star. Raphael could feel his cheeks heating up as he stared at his friend with his mouth open wide, the blunt slowly burning out in his hand. He couldn't even bring it back to his mouth again. The man moved slightly to let JJ past him into his room, still shaken by the new fact. He couldn't wrap his head around it. Porn and JJ... They just... Didn't fit. At all. They were two completely and entirely different things with no possible connection whatsoever!.. Or, well, so he thought.

 

"Oh my God." He whispered as he stared at the vibrator, the blush spreading across his face, even making his ears red. He covered his eyes with one hand, letting himself slide down against the wall, clearly embarrassed. "Oh my God." He repeated quietly. "I-... You-... Oh my God." Gulping down, Raphael slowly removed his hand from his eyes, his tongue darting out nervously to wet his lips. "I'm, uh... I guess I-..." He couldn't remember the last time he'd felt this nervous. He couldn't remember the last time he'd stumbled so much over his words, either. "I guess I'm a fan of you?..." He trailed off, trying to squeeze out a smile but the embarrassment took over again and he covered his eyes once more. "I can't believe this. Oh God." He whispered to himself, his cheeks burning.

 

"You-... You were so innocent, and pure, and... You were so little!" Raphael began, shaking his head as he sat down on the floor, extending his legs before letting his hand drop from his eyes to his lap, instead bringing the blunt to his lips, taking a slow breath. "Jesus fuck." He exhaled, looking up at Jerimise with the same embarrassed expression on his face. "So that's where I've seen you. God. I-... I..." He stuttered, a new wave of embarrassment flooding over him. "Oh God, I've jerked off to you so many times-..." Raphael nearly choked, staring at the wall in front of him with an expression full of disbelief. It was true. VintageBoy was his go-to when he needed to get off. He loved his episodes. They had that almost innocent vibe, but at the same time they were classy and still managed to be sultry. It was an amazing combination... And now he felt so guilty.

[Exellda]

Well this was... Certainly not the reaction that he had expected. Jerimise had never seen Raph like this before. He had never seen anyone so flustered before, with the exception of himself. Wow. He almost- No, Jerimise felt incredibly flattered by Raphael's reaction. It brought much relief. Raphael's reaction was just perfect. Spot on. He seemed to really be a fan of his 'work'. And for a while there, Jerimise just stood there in shock of how Raph reacted to his confession. If anything, he felt like a heavy weight was lifted off of his shoulders. JJ felt so giddy, excited, nervous and happy all at once. It was really hard to keep calm.

 

There was a soft nervous giggle that escaped Jerimise, "N-No... While I admit that my videos are good, I am not 'God'." He joked lightly, wanting to calm Raph down enough so that he wouldn't freak out anymore. Raphael was the cutest thing, blushing like he had never seen before. Heck, Jerimise was blushing because of what Raph just admitted to him. "You.. do?" He asked, referring to Raph jerking himself off while watching his videos. Oh wow... Oh wow! "So you're a fan, are you?" He hummed softly, finally sitting down on the edge of his bed. "Well don't worry... The feeling is definitely mutual." Jerimise admitted finally, and boy did it feel really nice. Man, it was so nice that Raphael seemed to be cool with his... Hobby. Now he only had to see if things would get awkward between them.

 

Jerimise glanced over at Raphael, smiling softly, almost shyly before pulling off his glasses. "I know this is stupid, but I really look like a different person without my bulky glasses." And true to his words, JJ looked more perverted, more flirty-looking. He had that 'bedroom' look about him, almost a sex appeal... But then again, he was a porn star and anyone who had seen him couldn't possibly think that he was the same innocence man who was sitting there moments ago. Jerimise was the striking resemblance to VintageBoy. "I can't see without them... I'm extremely nearsighted." He placed the dildo right next to him, somewhat gazing in Raphael's general direction. He had a couple of other things that he wanted to say... But he also wanted to make sure that Raphael was on the same page with him. He bet that Raphael would want to know, probably the most important question... "I don't suppose you'd like to know who I think about when I film? More than, I'd say 80 percent, of my videos I thought about only one man..." He was sure Raphael could guess. It should be obvious. Regardless, JJ would tell him, now that he knew his secret.

 

"I know... That you probably don't think of me the same way... I understand if you don't." He hoped Raph wouldn't be weirded out by what he was about to admit. "It was you." Jerimise said, pausing only for a second before continuing, "It was you I thought about almost every time I filmed..." JJ couldn't look at Raph while he admitted it, he felt so embarrassed with himself. "I want you to think about every concert that you've had... Think of the videos that I would have the TV on in the background. I'd have the audio off and a mic on me so you couldn't hear the TV... You couldn't see the TV... But if you could hear what was going on, you'd know that I was watching your concert, jerking myself off. I'd do a video while the performance would go on, and then another right after. The second video I always liked to imagine that it would be like a personal showing for you, despite all the other viewers... That's why some days I posted twice." Whew, that felt nice to admit, embarrassing, but nice... "I've only been to two of your concerts..."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael couldn't lessen his embarrassment even a little. This was fucking unbelievable. He couldn't get himself to look at JJ. He felt like he'd stained his image. Jerimise was this cute little innocent boy he'd saved from the street, definitely not someone he'd jerk off to - and yet here he was. Now that the connection was made, he couldn't stop thinking about how Jerimise looked in those little outfits, fucking himself with a vibrator... Oh no. Raphael's eyes went wide, one leg slowly pulling towards his chest. Oh, fuck. Fuck, fuck fuck. The adrenaline combined with the reason for his embarrassment... Well, he had a slowly growing erection. Fuck.

 

Raphael glanced over at Jerimise when he took off his glasses, his cock throbbing in response to the sight. After all, whenever he saw this face, it meant he was getting off. He couldn't speak properly. Raphael only nodded slightly when JJ began speaking about the man he thought about while filming. And... Well, it definitely caught him unprepared. "Me?" He asked meekly, his fingers shaking slightly as he brought the blunt to his lips again, hoping that the high would finally come and snap him out of this, but it didn't seem to be working. He was too worked up about the situation. "God, Jerimise..." He breathed out, letting his head fall back against the wall, the blush slowly beginning to fade away. "Dear fucking God." He groaned, shaking his head, closing his eyes for a few moments. "I've watched you so many times, I can't believe... I can't believe I never recognized you!" He almost cried out, clearly ashamed of himself.

 

"This is unbelievable." He whispered to himself, seemingly beginning to calm down. "I, uh... I might have a bit of a problem." Raphael muttered out, staring down at the floor, his erection pressing against his jeans, throbbing to remind him of its existence. He couldn't ask Jerimise to do anything for him, though. It still didn't feel right for him. This wasn't like some random hookup, though he'd had plenty of those. Hell, he'd even gotten a few STD's a couple of times. All of them were taken care of and eradicated, of course. "D'you wanna try?" Raphael offered sheepishly as he held out the half-smoked blunt, trying to hide his arousal as much as possible, even if he'd voiced he had a problem already. He could just go into the bathroom and finish it up quickly when he got the chance. He'd do that as soon as possible. The last thing he wanted to do was make JJ uncomfortable.

 

"I'm, uh..." Raphael stuttered, groaning loudly as he looked over at his friend, scratching the side of his head. "I'm... Kind of flattered... But also very confused." He admitted finally, sighing heavily as he licked his lips again, wetting them once more. Suddenly, a question rose up in his mind - one that made him feel scared. "Wait, fuck, you're not doing this because you need money, right?" He asked, worry settling in. Hell, even in this situation he was still worrying about the other's well-being. Fuck if he knew, maybe JJ still had some loans to pay, or maybe he was in some kind of a trouble... "Who else knows about this? No one's blackmailing you, right?" He questioned, his eyebrows furrowing slightly. Having dated porn stars in the past, he knew this was a common thing, especially if the said porn stars didn't reveal their identity in real life. He hated assholes who used chances like this to use people. Raphael gladly beat someone up himself because of this reason.

[Exellda]

What a twisted turn of events this night was turning out to be. Jerimise felt much better now that he had fully come out to Raphael. "So you... Don't hate me or anything? This doesn't make our relationship, as is, awkward or anything... Right?" He asked, hoping that by coming out with everything he hadn't damaged their relationship. Then a nervous laugh escaped him, "I'm surprised you out of everyone else didn't know who I was. Geez, Raph... You're such a silly guy." But he liked him anyway. "And yes, you, Raphael, I thought about you. I'll keep reminding you if you need me to." He said with a wink, lightly flirting. He felt nervous about it but golly, he couldn't hold it back anymore, but only if Raphael is okay with it.

 

"I'm glad you're not ashamed of me... Porn isn't exactly everyone's career goals..." Jerimise said sheepily. "For the longest time, I was waiting to see you again in the hopes I could tell you these things. I... Practiced talking to myself in the mirror, probably a thousand times, imagining how you'd react. Admittedly, I always feared that you'd reject me or our friendship would be awkward afterwards..." He laughed nervous, "Silly, right?" But now, here he was, sitting on his bed, vibrator next to him, literally blindly looking at Raph. However, when Raph said that he might have a problem, he couldn't help but to wonder what it was. "O-Oh... What's the matter?" He asks, tilting his head slightly. Oh no, had he spoke too soon? He didn't do something wrong did he?

 

Then suddenly, Jerimise's face bloomed almost as red as his hair. "W-What?!" He stuttered, misinterpreting what Raphael had said. His mind went the other direction. Being nearly blind didn't help the situation, because all he saw was Raphael offering his hand towards him asking if he wanted to try. For a second, he thought Raphael was asking if he wanted to... Oh... Oh. Oh! "Oh my goodness, Raphael... I'm sorry. I thought you meant- But I didn't think you'd want to- With me- I mean..." Jerimise breathed, clearly embarrassed. Jerimise fumbled with his glasses and quickly pulled them on. Of course he would be nervous, Raphael was his crush. "Okay..." Jerimise raised his hand into his ginger locks of hair, ruffling his locks slowly. "I haven't tried it before... So don't laugh if I cough."

 

Jerimise stood up slowly, placing the dildo back onto the shelf. He smiled softly, still nervously and made his way over to Raph. He sat across from him, taking the blunt from him. His eyes inspect it slowly, unsure if he should try. But perhaps it might be something nice, something that would calm him down a bit... Maybe? However, he was also listening to what Raphael was saying. JJ looked alarmed. "N-No... It's not that at all... I am fine. No loans, No debt. No blackmail... I just don't want a line at the bakery with a bunch of people wanting to sleep with me. That's why I hide my identity. I mean, maybe at the beginning I used the money from the porn I make to help start up my business... But other than that, I have made way more than what I started out with. So don't worry about it, Raph... I already can't thank you enough from helping me out as a teenager... So... Yeah..." Then bringing the blunt to his lips, Jerimise inhaled- And for one moment he was completely fine, the next he was coughing. Jerimise ended up coughing for almost a minute before shaking his head, "How the heck to do you smoke these all of the time?"

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael was quick to shake his head vigorously at the first question. "Of course I don't hate you. That'd be a stupid thing to do." He reassured the other, exhaling slowly as he scratched his head. His cheeks flushed red again at the flirting, to which he simply couldn't respond. Had it been anyone else at all, he would've gladly accepted that offer, but... This was Jerimise. God, he still couldn't believe the other did such things. And to think that he watched his friend all this time... And fuck, he enjoyed watching VintageBoy's videos more than any other. This felt fucked up.

 

Raphael ignored the other asking about his "problem", too. He could just hide it and pretend he wasn't hard. His sweater was big enough to hide his groin, thankfully. Thank God for winter and big sweaters. Confusion was apparent on his face again as Jerimise stuttered, soon realizing what he must've thought - he could only wonder which one of them was blushing harder. This was fucking ridiculous. "Just... Don't inhale it into your lungs, keep it in your mouth. It'll be easier that way." He suggested, passing the other the blunt when he walked closer. Please don't see my erection. He begged internally, even though he was sure it was impossible to see over his sweater.

 

Relief flooded over him when Jerimise assured him that he wasn't in any kind of trouble. "Oh, thank God. I'm still willing to help out with whatever you want, though, you know?" He smiled gaze fixated on the other. When he began coughing, Raphael couldn't hold back a quiet, small chuckle before taking the blunt back into his hand, gently patting and rubbing Jerimise's back as he coughed. "I know how to. You don't. You've gotta start with little amounts, then you can move on to more." He smiled, inhaling the smoke deeply as if to demonstrate. Closing his eyes, the man let the smoke go out through his nose, his lips pulling into a smile. Raphael opened one eye to look at JJ, his smile widening slightly. "Do you wanna try again?" He asked, holding what was left of the blunt in his hand. He could feel the high coming, and boy, he couldn't be happier. At least this way he wouldn't be panicking about JJ's "hobby" that much.

 

"I'm just... God, you really have changed." Raphael muttered, turning his gaze to the wall, nibbling on his lip slightly, absentmindedly tracing his tongue over the piercing hole on the bottom lip. "I... Could record some music just for you?" He suggested with a sheepish laugh, his head falling back against the wall with a slow exhale. "Like, I've probably seen every single video you've made. I can't believe I never managed to recognize you. You're... I can't believe I'm saying this." Raphael closed his eyes, inhaling deeply. "You're, like, really fucking good. I won't be able to stop watching your videos... Fucking hell." He groaned, opening his eyes. "Well, at least we're thinking about each other." He laughed, shaking his head while rubbing his forehead slightly. Something clicked in his mind. "Wait, wait, wait." Raphael's eyes widened as he looked straight into Jerimise's eyes. "Wait. Does this mean you like me?"

[Exellda]

To hear Raphael say that he did not hate him absolutely made Jerimise feel a whole lot better. Finally, after all of these years, he could be at peace with himself, at ease with his choices. No one else's opinion mattered. Getting approval from his crush was the thing that Jerimise had dreamed about. A soft, sweet smile forms on JJ's face, "I know you'd help me... You're one of those stereotypical 'bad boy' looking guys who have a soft, plushy inside." He laughs, after saying that out loud. It was true, in his opinion, that Raphael was exactly that kind of guy. Someone who looked 'mean' but was a complete softy on the inside.

 

"H-Hey..! I told you not to laugh..." Jerimise whined although he didn't take any offense to Raphael's laughter. His eyes narrow, focusing on the blunt when Raphael takes a hit. He notices the way his lips wrap around the blunt, followed by a slow intake and then an exhale of smoke. Resisting the urge to fan the smoke away from him, he pauses, thinking if it would really be a good idea to try again. "If it were anyone else, I might have said no..." Jerimise admitted. He wanted to try it again even though in the back of his mind he knew that it wasn't for him. If he were being a little honest, he did feel a tiny bit of pressure to try, given that Raph was literally the guy he looked up to. Besides, two puffs wouldn't kill him any sooner. "I'll try again." He said and took the blunt from Raphael. This time he brought it to his lips and did, the best he could, what Raphael had told him to do... It was more or less successful. Jerimise ended up holding it in longer, but he cringed suddenly and started to cough again. His body was obviously not use to the drug.

 

"I-" Jerimise coughed, "T-think it's not for me..." He coughed again, this time clearing his throat. "I think I'll just stick to my videos and baking." He commented after breathing in slowly a couple of times. He handed what little of the blunt there was left to Raphael, officially calling it quits for now. When Raph finally agrees that JJ had indeed changed, Jerimise chuckles, "Well... I tried to tell you... But I guess you didn't believe me at first." Which by knowing Raphael, that wasn't a surprise. Jerimise didn't ask any farther when Raph had said he was okay... But he did look slightly uncomfortable. Maybe he was still getting over the shock of it all. That's okay... Raphael could take his time getting use the fact. It wasn't everyday that someone you knew came out as a popular porn star.

 

The ginger could just melt right now... Raphael was actually complimenting his work! Oh, he had only dreamed, only fantasized about this day. Jerimise felt incredibly happy. Wow, and he was also a dedicated fan! Oh my goodness! JJ could just squeal, but he held it in, trying to hold himself together. "You... Want to what!?" Jerimise exclaimed with excitement. "I'll gladly accept!" Like hell would he turn down the offer. Mercy! Mercy! His mind called out. He'd get his own exclusive songs! "Yeah..." He said almost dreamily when Raph pointed out that they had been thinking about each other... Then suddenly it seemed like Raphael had come to some sort of conclusion, Jerimise had looked over, locking eyes with him and-

 

Found that he was more or less prepared to answer that question. Jerimise's immediate reaction was to slam his palm onto his forehead. He was conflicted over whether he should laugh really hard or sigh. "Raphael... I feel like that you already know the answer... But just in case, I'll confirm it for you. I thought it would have been undoubtedly obvious considering that I literally jerk off to your music... I have respect for you... You're such a nice guy and incredibly attractive too, so what's not to like?" Jerimise huffed and removed his hand gazing at his long time friend. "So yeah, Raphael, I really do like you, a lot... And I've always wanted to tell you... But when I was younger I was too shy, then we lost contact and I became afraid I would never see you again... And here we are... I finally get to tell you after all this time." The ginger looked at the ground, right next to his feet. "You make me feel so happy..." He said softly.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael snorted at the other's description of him. "And you're one of the few people who get to see my true self." He winked, laughing quietly. It was true, though, in public he tended to act a lot colder, especially when dealing with paparazzi. He hated paparazzi so much. Thankfully, being in a band like F.I.L.T.R. gave him the excuse to flip off and yell at paparazzi when they got him in more intimate situations, like if he was on a date. He didn't mind posing from time to time, but God, it could really get tedious after a while. Especially if he was tired.

 

"Alright, alright. I ain't gonna quit though." Raphael replied, smiling up at JJ before finishing up the roll. He shook his head, exhaling softly as the other spoke about him changing. He couldn't help but see the image of that lost boy he helped back then, it was really hard to realize that the man in front of him and that boy are the same person. It was confusing. "Guess you're not that little anymore." He trailed off, closing his eyes for a few moments. He looked around to find some place to toss it out, but didn't find anything immediately. Instead, he stuck two fingers into his mouth and used them to stop the blunt from burning any further, effectively keeping himself from getting burnt as well, as the saliva kept him safe.

 

Raphael's lips pulled into a happy smile when JJ accepted the offer of getting songs exclusively from him. He was sure he'd have fun recording them as well. His smile turned sheepish as he watched Jerimise facepalm at his question. He let out a nervous chuckle as his friend spoke, looking away for a few moments, trying to collect himself. Else he would've started giggling like a schoolgirl. That would've been extremely embarrassing... Nothing new, though. "Well, in that case..." He trailed off, biting down on his lip slightly before reaching out to cup Jerimise's cheek, pulling him in closer. Letting his lip free, he pressed their lips together, closing his eyes as he let himself drown into the softness of JJ's plush lips, truly enjoying the moment. He had to admit - while watching VintageBoy, the thought of doing things to him himself crossed his mind more than once.

 

Raphael exhaled against the other's lips after ending the kiss, a quiet chuckle passing through soon after. "So... You wanna go out with me sometime?" He offered, the weed finally settling in, making him way more relaxed and flirty. He moved his other arm around the other's waist, just to pull him a little bit closer. He didn't intend to do anything even remotely sexual. Not yet. "If you become my boyfriend, though, you'll have to come to every concert. If you miss even one I'll get really offended. Then you'll have to bake me a whole cake." He murmured, pressing their foreheads together with another breathy chuckle slipping past. He meant everything he said, of course, it was just easier to say while high.

[Exellda]

"Well I am glad you can be yourself around me." Jerimise said softly, happily. That meant, to a degree, he was special or more special than Raphael's fans. Gosh he was so happy right now. "I won't make you quit, as long as it doesn't start to affect you negatively." He said, worried for Raphael's health. He knew that the other male smoked his blunts often... And as far as he could tell, Raphael still looked okay and still acted that same as he did... So Jerimise would let it slide for now. For the most part, he was happy if Raphael was happy. And he could also tell that he was struggling to find someplace to put out his blunt. Just as he was about to tell him where the trash can was, too late Raphael put out his blunt using his spit. To be honest, it looked like it should have hurt him... But it didn't, regardless, it relieved JJ to see that he wasn't in any pain.

 

Jerimise was watching Raphael, smiling softly. He blinked, wondering what Raphael would say to his confession- Only, Raphael didn't say anything, no, he was reaching towards him! If he didn't know any better, JJ would say that his heart skipped a beat. In the back of his mind he had an idea of what was about to happen- And oh boy did he just let it happen. Come what may. The ginger had noticed the way the darker haired male bit his lip while looking right at him. Jerimise longed to have something like this become a reality. He had thought up a million different scenarios of how this would go down... This very moment, when Raphael cupped his chin, pulled him closer and sealed the deal with a kiss. Jerimise closed his eyes, leaning into the kiss he so dearly wished for. He was so giddy that after a moment, he smiled against Raphael's lips right as they parted. It was everything- and more- that he could ever dream of. He was totally enamoured by the moment.

 

Literally a dream come true- that was Raphael in this moment. His eyes seemingly fluttered open at the question, a light blush forming on his cheeks. Wha- Really? "You... want to go out with me? I- I mean, yeah, yes of course!" Jerimise sounded a little dazed there for a second, but then quickly realized what was being asked. "I'd love to go on a date with you." But then his breath got caught in his throat when Raphael wrapped his arm around him. This was it. This was his new reality. JJ felt so proud of himself for coming out to his crush and he felt ecstatic that his feelings were being returned. "I'll go to however many concerts you want me to go... And I'd be happy to bake you cake as well, anytime, I promise." He said, already liking the word 'boyfriend' passing Raphael's lips. JJ stayed there, holding still with his forehead pressed against Raph's... What a rush he was feeling right now...

 

The pastel baker boy moved his hands up Raphael's chest, brushing his sweater gently as he slipped up and around his neck. JJ tilted his head so that he could hug Raphael and press his cheek into his shoulder. He was so happy right now. "I really don't even know what to say right now. I'm really happy, though... I'm so glad that you stopped by my bakery- You have no idea." As he spoke, he was lightly squeezing Raphael into a tighter hug, not too tight of course. There was so many things on his mind. Now that he had this opportunity, there was so much more that he wanted to tell him. However, Jerimise held his breath. He was so overly excited about being a potential boyfriend to Raphael that he almost forgot his manners. He pulled away slowly. "Sorry if I'm a little overly excited... This has kind of been a dream of mine- that's actually coming true..." A gidy laugh escaped past his lips.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

As a general rule, Raphael was very relaxed about his relationships. Jerimise was probably the only exception. He wanted to do things right with him, with no rushing especially. Even when it came to sex. He didn't want to do anything they weren't ready to do... Anything he wasn't ready to do. Sure, both of them shared intimate thoughts about one another, but actually having sex - that was a big step... At least that was how Raphael saw it. Yes, even with his current erection, which, by the way, wasn't going anywhere. If anything, it only reminded him of its existence after the kiss.

 

"In that case, I'm gonna come get you tomorrow after the bakery closes. We can... Go see a movie or something." Raphael chuckled, sliding his hand up into the other's hair, slowly running his fingers through it. "And tonight I'll take care of your hair. If you have the tools... If not, the next time I come over, I'm bringing everything I need." He grinned, massaging his fingers into Jerimise's scalp. "But... You know... People will realize quickly that we're more than friends... Are you sure you want that?" He asked quietly, gently continuing to massaging the younger man's skin. The last thing he wanted to do was put Jerimise at risk of being found out.

 

Raphael's lips parted with a soft laugh when he was hugged, gladly returning the gesture, along with a small kiss to the top of his head. "Woah, woah, where do you think you're going?" He teased, pulling the other back to him when he pulled away. "I'm not letting you go now. That's it. You're mine." Raphael grinned, pressing a warm kiss to his cheek, a happy smile lingering on his face. "And don't ever apologize for being excited. That's bullshit." He murmured, slowly stroking his waist before hugging him closer. "Being high is great." He exclaimed, a laugh following his words. "Buuut... I really need to go to the bathroom. I'll come join you in a bit." Raphael chuckled, slowly pulling back. He desperately needed to get rid of his erection. Especially since it seemed like they were going to cuddle - a hard-on was not a good thing in that situation.

 

"Which door was it again?" Raphael asked, raising his eyebrow. Did JJ ever even tell him which door led where? He felt like he didn't ever get that information. Or maybe he did and just couldn't recall. No... No, on the other hand, he had to check himself where the bedroom was, meaning that Jerimise didn't warn him which room was which... Happy with himself that he figured it all out, Raphael stumbled slightly while getting up, leaning against the wall to wait for the world to stand up as well. "You know, your lips are... Really kissable." He commented with a sheepish laugh before leaning down to catch the said lips into another kiss, sliding one hand to the back of his neck, holding him close. He loved kisses, in general. Hell, he loved platonic kisses as well. Kisses were great.

[Exellda]

This would certainly be a new beginning for Jerimise as well as Raphael. He was sure things would be... Quite interesting from now on. Something told him that there would be no turning back, probably would never be able to achieve a 'friendzone' status again. Does this mean they were official? Oh goodness! His followers would flip when they found out. JJ was already excited to both piss a whole bunch of people off and to make them jealous... If they were now boyfriends, Jerimise saw no issue with 'showing off' to some extent. Jerimise felt very lucky to have this opportunity and wouldn't let Raphael get away from him so easily. He had a crush on him for so long... It was only a matter of time before he got to explore everything with him, learning new things about each other... It all sounded like a dream...

 

"A movie sounds lovely..." Jerimise said happily. He almost didn't care what movie it was- Or if they didn't see a movie, heck, probably any date would be okay with him. All in all, a date meant that he would have quality time with Raphael. "My hair?" He questioned nervously, unsure if he was ready to 'part' with his hair yet. Although he had agreed to it earlier... It would be a big difference in his appearance. "I don't think I have what you need, sorry. Maybe that can be part of the date tomorrow, then?" Jerimise closed his eyes, leaning into the other male's hand, enjoying the sensation. The ginger almost felt like he was some sort of cat that Raphael was petting. It was kind of cute honestly.

 

When Raphael mentioned other people seeing them together, he more or less shrugged it off. "Well... I guess it more depends on if you're worried that people will find out I'm a porn star. The most you'll do is bring me business." Jerimise laughed. "But don't worry about them... Just worry about me." He gave Raph a wink. In a sense, he wanted Raph to know that he required -almost- all of his attention and that he didn't plan on seeing anyone else while they were together. "Although, now that I think about it- If you give me that hair cut, people will notice the resemblance between me and VintageBoy a whole lot easier. To be honest I don't mind... If you don't mind." The worst it could do was affect his bakery, either gaining a whole lot of customers, or possibly losing some. Maybe both.

 

A giggle escaped Jerimise when Raphael had pulled him back to him, embracing him once again. A kiss to the top of his head and then after being brought into another hug, a kiss to his cheek. "Careful, careful-" Jerimise laughed, "You might bend my glasses... And also, if you keep saying things like that, I might want to hear them often." He liked hearing that he was his. It was quite a lovely tune to his ears. "You know, if you hadn't of barged into my room, we might actually not have had this conversation." JJ pointed out. "And if you would have waited, I would have gladly told you where everything is." Jerimise cleared his throat as he now looked up at Raph who had separated from him just moments ago.

 

Blushing lightly at the presumed complement, Jerimise just smiles softly at Raphael. The ginger let the dark haired male go, clearly unsuspecting of his 'problem'. He had noticed him stumble a little bit, however before he could say anything about it, Raph pulled him into another kiss. It would be hard to deny him a kiss, JJ knew that he couldn't do it- Heck, would there ever be a reason? Nope. Raphael's kisses were sweet and slow... Almost made JJ wonder how they would be in other situations. Guess he would have to find out sometime. For now, though, he enjoyed the kiss. He wouldn't say it yet, but he felt some tension just from this kiss, a longing for Raphael. He didn't realize it for the first kiss because he had been so hyped... But for now... JJ inhaled slowly as they separated from the kiss. The smaller male would make sure the bigger, dorky male was up to 'doing' things like that.

 

"Say... Uh, the weed you smoked won't make you forget what I said, will it?" He was referring to the morning. The ginger was completely in the dark when it came to knowledge about drugs. Of course he had assumed that Raphael wouldn't forget, he just had to make sure. "Oh, and the bathroom is across the hall... My 'studio' is the room next door. The doors locked though, so if you really wanted to see inside, you'll have to ask nicely." Jerimise teased.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael hummed to himself, listening to JJ speak. "It's in no way a thing for me to decide... If you're comfortable with people knowing your identity, I... Hell, I shouldn't even get a say in this at all." He laughed, pressing a kiss to his cheek. "As long as you don't go around fucking people without me knowing, I don't care if people know you're VintageBoy or not." He chuckled, a smile lingering on his face. This was probably something they needed to discuss as well... Raphael tended to have a lot of casual sex. Who knew if Jerimise would be comfortable with that continuing in their relationship. Especially if Raphael refused to have sex with him at first - which he would. He didn't want to make the other insecure, that was for sure.

 

"Well, can't change the past. Plus, you were the one who told me to look around. Which I did." He replied, messing up Jerimise's hair again. The question that came after they kissed had Raphael giggling quietly. "No, no, no. Beer does that. Not weed." He laughed quietly, winking at the other. "As for the studio... I'll wait a bit more." He grinned, and moved to finally go into the bathroom. He struggled with the lock for a few seconds until the door was finally locked and he could relax. Biting down on his lip, he undid his belt, hastily gripping his hard cock into one hand, the other pressing against his mouth to make sure he kept silent. He knew he could be really loud when high, so... He tried to avoid it in this situation. Letting his hand slide over his length, the man closed his eyes, letting his thoughts roam free. Surely, they ended with Jerimise - with VintageBoy. He was still a bit conflicted about jerking off to the idea of him, but what other option did he have? He couldn't deny that he loved the videos.

 

Raphael managed to keep most of the sounds in, others he could only hope wouldn't be heard through the walls. They weren't that loud, anyway. His head fell back against the door as he climaxed, staying still for a few moments before opening his eyes to look at the sticky mess over his hand and cock. It took him around ten minutes, and he honestly hadn't even realized he'd taken so long. Going to wash his hands, the man almost forgot to flush, just in case, before turning to open the door again. Thankfully, he hadn't forgotten to tuck himself back in, safely in his underwear, the sweater covering his groin anyway. He slipped into the bedroom, a smile playing on his face. "Sorry for the wait. You know how it is with celebrities - we're always fashionably late." Raphael nearly snorted at his own joke, somehow finding it incredibly funny. Only then did he realize that Jerimise wasn't in the room. "Wh-... Rude." He scoffed, venturing off to find the other.

 

Finally finding him in the kitchen, Raphael was going to complain about Jerimise not waiting for him in the bedroom, but he was, err, distracted. "How the fuck are you so cute?" He whined, unable to tear his gaze away from the young man. The adorable little pastel pink shorts he was wearing revealed his gorgeous milky thighs. That was the first punch to his guts. The next thing - his button-up shirt, as well pastel pink, but with tiny white bunnies scattered across the fabric. Second punch to his guts. The last thing was his bunny slippers. Fucking bunny slippers. Raphael actually stumbled backwards, his cheeks turning a soft rosy color. "Fucking hell, JJ. Fucking hell." He groaned, scratching the side of his head with a heavy sigh. "I lowkey hate you right now. You're too cute." The man whined, slowly walking up to him, wrapping his arms around his waist to pull him into a quick kiss. "This kinda thing is for me only, okay?" He murmured against his lips, exhaling softly.

[Exellda]

"Alright, alright..." Jerimise said softly, "Then how about we just go with the flow? Let come what may. I'm sure we can work it out." He smiled as Raphael kissed his cheek. "And you needn't worry about me sleeping around, Raphael. I've only ever had sex twice... And they more or less a failed attempt to get over you. It was a phase I went through... It's kind of stupid honestly." Jerimise admitted. Indeed, he had gone through a phase in a pathetic attempt to get over Raph... The first time he couldn't stop thinking about him and the second time, JJ might have accidently said Raphael's name a couple of times.

 

"Ah, okay. I was just making sure... I didn't want you to wake up in the morning, suddenly forgetting everything talked about tonight." Jerimise said matter-o-factly. "Go to the bathroom, you silly before you piss yourself or something." He joked, laughing. He was completely clueless to Raphael's 'problem'. Once Raph was gone Jerimise waited in his room for a whole minute before deciding to get on some pajamas he was sure the other male would appreciate. And if not, well, that was too bad. Opening up his dresser, he pulled out one of his favorite pajamas. He thought they were so cute! They were adorable little pastel pink shorts along with his button-up shirt, as well pastel pink, but with tiny white bunnies scattered across the fabric. After getting his pajamas on, he slipped on his bunny slippers.

 

And seeing how Raphael wasn't back yet, into the kitchen he went. Jerimise wanted a drink and maybe a snack to eat. Quietly heading out into the hallway, he glances over at the bathroom door, thinking about knocking to check on him... But Jerimise knew that he was a grown man and could take care of himself. And so, he finally made his way into the kitchen. Opening up the fridge, he browsed the contents until he saw his jug of apple juice. With a smile on his face he grabbed the jug and then reached into his cabinet, bringing out a small glass cup. Pouring himself a small glass full, Jerimise then returned the jug to the fridge. Honestly, just how long was Raphael going to- Oh wait. JJ just heard the bathroom door open, he would be here soon.

 

The ginger didn't even bother calling out because he knew the other male would find him soon. He snickered under his breath when he heard what Raphael said from the kitchen. Taking a sip of his apple juice, he placed the cup down when Raphael was nearby. And there he was, JJ smiled softly at seeing the other male- who looked almost stunned. "You sure get all blushy more than I thought you would. It's kind of cute though. Haha, totally manly." He joked, letting out a small giggle as the other male approached him and pulled him into an embrace. He kissed him back, "Don't worry about that, I only get 'cute' for special people."He winked, "I've never worn these pajamas in front of anyone before though, but after seeing your reaction, I take it that you like them." He laughed softly.

 

Jerimise reached over for his apple juice, taking a sip, glancing at Raphael over the rim of his cup. "Want a sip of apple juice?" He offered. "And you took forever in there. Did you have fun in there or something? Got lost?" He teased, poking Raphael's chest with his index finger. "Say... Aren't you getting warm in that sweater? I don't think I have pajamas in you size... They would be too small, probably. Otherwise I would offer..." He said, feeling slightly bad. Plus, he didn't even know what size Raphael wore.

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael huffed angrily, glaring at JJ slightly. "Oh, shut up. I am manly. Manlier than you, anyway." He stuck out his tongue playfully, though he still couldn't get over how cute the other looked. And how lucky he was to know him... And have his as his boyfriend. That still seemed weird, though. "I love them." He responded, pressing another kiss to his lips. If it was up to him, he probably would make Jerimise wear only shorts when around him. Any excuse he could get to see his figure like this. Or... Tennis skirts. God, he was weak for tennis skirts. Imagining JJ in one drove him crazy. Or crop tops. Raphael was already sure that he'd buy his boyfriend a fuckton of clothes like that in the next few days, just because he could.

 

Raphael brushed off the questions about why he took so long. No way in hell would he admit he got hard and had to jerk off in JJ's bathroom. No way in hell. "Nah, I can just sleep in my boxers or something." The raven replied before moving away to take off his sweater, revealing a simple white button-up shirt that was underneath it. "I mean, if you don't mind." He added after it was off, looking at the other with slightly parted lips. To be honest, he mostly slept naked. He found it to be the most comfortable like that. He also often went commando, though why should anyone know that? There was something liberating about not wearing underwear that he loved.

 

"Oh-... Right, this is, uhm, a bit of an awkward topic, I think, but..." Raphael stumbled over his words, looking at JJ with a suddenly serious look in his eyes. "Thing is, I like casual sex. I do. Would you... Be okay with me continuing that? Because if not I'll definitely stop. And it's just sex. I promise." He spoke hurriedly, a tad flustered. Clutching the big sweater in his arms, the man nervously awaited a reply of some sort. Why did he ask something like this?... Though, if Jerimise really could understand this situation, he would be so happy. "Because, like... I... Want to do things right with you, and I-... I don't want to start this off with sex, and I, I just..." Raphael groaned at his inability to express his thoughts once more. "Fuck, you're different from others." He finally said, looking away slightly. Oh, God, he really hoped JJ would understand.

[Exellda]

Jerimise giggled, thoroughly entertained by his new boyfriend. Holy fuck this man was just as goofy, just as funny, just as sexy as he was when they first met. The way the other male looked at him, made him so very curious as to what Raphael was thinking of. He could only hope that whatever it was, Raphael was thinking of him... Oh boy did that make Jerimise giddy. "Mmm, how cute, just boxers. I don't mind at all... In fact..." The ginger said shyly but seriously, "I mean... If you wanted, you could have slept naked for all I care." He said slyly, teasing the older male. Although he might have had a harder time keeping his hands off of the gorgeous man.

 

Then Jerimise raise a brow... Raphael still could be rather childish when talking about 'adult' stuff. It was hilariously cute. The ginger giggled as the taller male tried to explain himself. Oh, he knew too well what Raphael was trying to say, but watching him stumble all over his words was worth the wait. "Well..." He started to say, as if he was thinking about it- when in all reality, Jerimise knew what he was going to tell Raphael. "No." He said flatly. "Because I like you a lot. I've had a crush on you for the longest time. Like hell I'll share you unless we agreed on a threesome." Jerimise said with a little sass. "So I guess you'll have to stay abstinent until you decide you want to have sex with me. I don't care if you jerk yourself off to porn... But if I figure out that you've had sex with someone else, while we're in a relationship, so help me... I might tie you up, make you beg... You'll have to give me a good apology and a good reason why I should stay with you." Jerimise said seriously.

 

But then the ginger laughed, breaking his facade, "Just kidding- maybe! I don't think I could be that mean, who knows... But I'll be upset with you... So really, you kind of have three options here. Stay abstinent. Handjob to porn. And whenever you're ready, we can have sex." He said, letting Raphael know that he already had his consent. "And I think it's really sweet of you to want to treat me right... I feel the same way. Normally, I might not have cared if my partner had casual sex... But it's you, Raphael... And I don't care if I have to wait to have sex with you... Besides, there's more to a relationship than just sex, you know? I've been wanting to spend time with you for so long... I've missed you and..." Jerimise sighed, frowning, "I'm rambling on and on... Sorry."

[Zombie_In_A_Box]

Raphael looked up expectantly when Jerimise began with 'well', but was incredibly disappointed afterwards. His lips pulled into a small frown, disappointment rather obvious on his face as he pushed his hand into the pocket of his pants, the other loosely holding onto the sweater. He looked down at his feet, waiting for the other to finish up talking. He was upset about this, of course. He let out a soft sigh, looking up when Jerimise apologized, the same frown still on his face.

 

"That's..." Raphael let another quiet sight part his lips, leaning against the table as he looked at his boyfriend. "I know there's more to a relationship than sex. That's why I thought you'd be fine with this. I'm just... God, I'm just used to, y'know, like, going to a strip club from time to time, leaving with someone and then never seeing them again after that one night. It's nothing else, just sex. I don't keep contact with them. I-, uh..." The man reached up, scratching the back of his head slightly. "I'd say I have a really high sex drive." He let out a nervous chuckle, looking back up at his boyfriend. "Are you really that against it?... Can I even go to strip clubs anymore?" Raphael seemed to be terrified at the idea of not being able to visit his favorite clubs anymore. He was so used to living such a carefree life, it would be difficult to adjust to something different so suddenly. Perhaps if it was gradual, but not all at once... He'd rather keep himself happy than completely revamp his whole personality for someone else, no matter how precious they were to him.

 

"The guys are still going to drag me out from time to time. You can't expect me to change so suddenly... I don't want to change, either." Raphael admitted, tilting his head to the side. "I mean... I really wouldn't mind if you, per say, decided you want to have casual sex with people. As long as you only have something romantic with me." He said, setting the sweater away behind him to pull JJ close to himself by his waist, though his hands ended up slipping a bit lower, lightly cupping his ass. "I really do want to do this right with you. Like... Going out on dates before we do something serious. I want both of us to be ready... Because I sure as hell am not ready to let go of the thought that you're still the same cute boy I saved years ago." Raphael laughed, leaning in closer to press a soft kiss to his lips. "And you'll probably always be that boy to me. That's why you're so precious to me." He admitted softly, his thumb slowly caressing the fabric of the shorts.