Skeletons and Wardrobes | (fruity x Pigeon) (18+) (private)

[fruity]

Jasper took notes on where Emilio put that small key to his collar. His arms trembled a little as they went off. As expected, his wrists were red and sore. It would take a while before it heals, he figured. But it was his upper arms that shook weakly. The classes, the work, the basketball, lifting that man up four floors, then struggling and --he shivered--actually coming for more than once in immediate successions while straining him in that position. Today was just far too long.

 

He... didn't lose anything. Not his life. Not his sanity. Not his strength. ...Okay, maybe his strength. Right now, Jasper just felt too sleepy. He was dozing off, and--- before he knew it--- he was asleep.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio gave the man a gentle kiss on the lips before going to the kitchen. He closed the bedroom door so that he wouldn't wake up his love. He busied himself making Jasper's favorite meal. Hours of practice had gone into learning to perfectly preparing all of Jasper's favorite dishes.

 

Once he finished making the meal Emilio brought it in on a tray and sat down on the bed next to the man. "Jasper dear, dinner is ready" He said gently, not wanting to startle him.

[fruity]

It was a light sleep. So light that he frowned when Emilio gave him a kiss. When the other moved away, he stared at the ceiling and somehow fell asleep again.

 

The next time he woke up, startled, was when he heard someone came into the bedroom. With heavy lidded eyes, he woke up. He didn't forget what had happened. If only he could. On the tables were all his favorite. Liking cheese, he was presented with carbonara, grilled cheese, and lasagna. Not what should be eaten all at once, the meals had too much calories. But dread filled his marrow, as he realized that that guy knew what he liked. Just... how much more did Emilio know about him?

 

Immediately, he felt nauseous. This would probably be his hated things from now on. Something crawled inside his skin along with the thought that he had to find something new to like, something that this man wouldn't know. Not now, Jasper, he told himself.

 

Instead of Don't fucking call me dear that he wanted to scream, he said, "I can't... You have to eat them first." There was no way he could be drugged again. Was Emilio's clothes the same? Yes they were. That meant, the small key was still on him. To be able to take the key... he had to... let Emilio approach him again?

[Kotorichan]

Emilio frowned slightly. "I don't plan on drugging you again... But if it makes you feel better..." He took a large bite of the grilled cheese sandwich, and then a bite of lasagna. "Mm... There, I probably made too much for you. But I didn't want to wake you up just to ask what you felt like eating, so just eat whatever you'd like right now" He took a bite of carbonara before offering the food to Jasper. "What would you like to drink? I thought about making you hot chocolate but I didn't think you'd want that with dinner"

[fruity]

"Just water," Jasper said, wanting the other to go away but at the same time, he needed Emilio to be close enough for him to take the key. Later, he might have a chance later. When he started putting the lasagna to his mouth, his hazel eyes watered. It was disgusting, but he still didn't throw up. Even though his mind wondered why he could accept things happening to him, his body just wanted to survive.

 

I'm going to get a heartburn for this, he thought before finishing both the lasagna and the grilled cheese. Looking around the room, he tried to find a clue of who Emilio was.

[Kotorichan]

"Oh, of course" Emilio hopped off the bed and left the room. He came back soon with a large glass of water. "Here you go" He gently set it down on the bedside table before sitting next to Jasper and snuggling close. "How is it? I've been practicing to make your favorite dishes, but I haven't been able to have you try them so I don't know if they're exactly to your liking..."

[fruity]

Jasper almost jumped when Emilio snuggled closer. His mind didn't want to, but at the same time, Jasper was reminded of Prince Hairy, his father's bearded Collie dog when he was a child. Not because of the hair (or the lack of it), but the warmth.

 

No, he shook his head. Don't think like that!

 

He took the glass of water and drank it all in one gulp. Eyeing Emilio's pocket where he put the keys into back then, Jasper figured he couldn't really take it discreetly. That meant he had to fake groping Emilio. "They're... good," he said, trying to make some kind of innuendo, but it was still too repulsive for him. "Talk about yourself, I don't want to be kept in the dark here," he finally opted to talk. Maybe by figuring out Emilio's personality or history, he could put a compliment when it was due.

[Kotorichan]

"Mm... I'm glad it's good..." Emilio murmured softly. He slowly opened his eyes and looked up at Jasper, his eyes wide. "You want to know more about me..?" It made him so happy that his love actually wanted to know about him. "Um... What to say..." He fidgeted with the edge of his shirt, suddenly shy. "Well, I already said I'm a med student... You probably noticed but I'm actually an albino, I know that might be a little weird..." He chewed his lip for a moment. "Um... What do you want to know about me?"

[fruity]

Jasper wanted to gag from how happy Emilio looked from just a question that he threw over. Even though it only lasted for a second, if he didn't control his impulses, he wouldn't get his cards right. "Things you like, and don't. Family maybe?" Looking around in the room, he didn't know if this was the bedroom Emilio usually used or not, but it was lacking personal inventories. "You're.." he trailed off, couldn't bring himself to say some praises. They just wouldn't go out from his throat.

 

"I might agree to go out with you, if we're in different circumstances." Such as, not him in a confinement wearing a collar that he needed to remove. Thankfully it was soft, so he didn't feel too restricted.

[Kotorichan]

"Don't worry... Even if you're unsure right now I know that you'll come around soon." Emilio lifted up Jasper's arm and wrapped it around himself. "I'll keep you here as long as it takes..." He closed his eyes, smiling happily.

 

"Well, to answer your question, I was adopted by my current family when I was four. I had a mom and dad and three older siblings. My parents adopted me because dealing with teenagers all the time was making them sad and they wanted a little kid again. So I was their cute child" He paused for a moment. "My older brother used to bully me all the time but I made sure that he stopped since my parents didn't do anything. I also stopped kids in my class from picking on me..."

[fruity]

As long as it takes for what? Jasper sorely held back from asking, arm stiff from the intrusion to his personal comfort zone.

 

"How?" Jasper asked. Did he punch them to death? No, he was too small for that. Did he blackmail them? Somehow, all he could think of was the worse possibilities. Even though they were the bullies, Jasper sympathized with them more as potential Emilio's victims. He had to. Or else, the otherwise would occur, and he didn't think it was good to sympathize with his kidnapper.

 

Jasper thought about his own parents who didn't check on him for a long period of time. He never let his friends in to his private businesses. All those who were close to him knew not to probe on how he spent his time after he went home. Jasper just didn't like to share private things, but that might have been his current doom. When he needed some time alone he would sometimes disappear for several days. His boss would look for him, but not out of care.

 

"Emilio, I have to go out the day after tomorrow to work. Can you let me out before then?" he finally asked, swallowing his fear and pride. If he played the sympathy card right, he probably didn't have to do something extreme. Hopefully. But if this didn't work, then plan B to steal the keys should commence.

[Kotorichan]

"How..? It depended on the person... I couldn't just use one method or people might start to catch on that I was doing things" Emilio could feel that Jasper grew a bit tense as he moved closer. His love clearly wasn't reciprocated just yet, not even close. But it would be, eventually...

 

"It depends, if I think you'll willingly come home to me then I might. But I don't think you'll be ready by then, I'm sure no one will really mind. I'm the only one who really cares about you" Emilio smiled up at him. "I'll keep you close until you realize that"

[fruity]

Jasper gritted his teeth; he didn't want to show how Emilio's words grated on his nerves. Wishing he could react more coolly, he tried to form some dialogues to speak to Emilio later. "I'm done here," he said after a while, then going back to bed; the leash seemed to be only as long as him sitting near where Emilio put the food on.

 

"You know what, Emilio, I--I'm willing to try," he said, feeling so fucking humiliated as he sat on the bed. "Getting close, I mean. To you. For that, I need to get used to you physically, right?" He had to practically drag those words out of his throat. Okay, it was going to work in the movies, and Emilio seemed interested in him enough not to refuse the offer. Opening his arm, Jasper waited for the albino's response.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio's cheeks grew red at the man's words. "Really...?" He snuggled close to Jasper, staring up at him. He couldn't hide how overjoyed that made him. If Jasper was already willing to try then maybe things would work out sooner than he thought. Emilio had been planning to keep his love here for months if necessary. Nothing could convince him to release the man.

 

"Um... You can touch me as much as you want" He nuzzled Jasper's neck. "I love you so much, I've always imagined how it would feel for you to t-touch me"

[fruity]

Chill ran down his spine as Emilio nuzzled on him. Jasper's neck was sensitive; he didn't let himself being hugged around. This kind of distance was already making him uncomfortable, but he had to do this. Trying to recall when Emilio put the keys, Jasper eyed Emilio's pocket. It should be there, but if he went straight to that area, Emilio might get suspicious, right?

 

Circling his arms, he tried to think that this was a huge doll. Or dog. Or some nice friend.

 

The warmth felt so weird. It made him think that the other was also human. In Jasper's mind, coldblooded criminals should be literally cold. Emilio's actions and words had been confusing, to say the least. He stroke Emilio's back, up and down, to mask the tremble; he had to get used to this. The albino's hair was soft and smelled good. If he imagined just a little further, he could forget what condition he was in. Releasing a breath, Jasper kissed the top of Emilio's hair while nudging the petite waist to face him completely.

 

I can do this, he thought, looking at Emilio's eyes, and brought their faces close.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio's cheeks were pink with happiness and slight embarrassment. His love was so close and so gentle. He pressed close to the man's chest. As much as he wanted Jasper to touch him more, he also wanted to let the man take his time.

 

He met Jasper's gaze, his eyes filled with pure love. Emilio looked almost innocent, like a child who just wanted to be loved by someone. In a way that was what he was, he wanted someone to actually love him despite all his flaws. He positioned himself so the he was on his knees, fully facing the man. "You're so handsome..." He murmured, reaching up to touch Jasper's cheek.

[fruity]

Jasper still reluctantly touched the other. It was disconcerting to look into Emilio's eyes, Jasper had no idea what to make with that kind of look. If this was any other situation, he might feel flattered. But right now, those eyes looked eerily preying on him.

 

His fingers trembled; he tried not to claw the other even though there was a lot of urge inside him to inflict pain on this creep. Jasper ended up pressing harder than before as he closed his eyes, frowning, trying not to jerk away from Emilio's hand on his cheek. This was his limit, he moved down and grabbed Emilio's ass, trying to slip his finger into the back pocket. But there was no back pocket, so was it in his side pocket? Jasper's fingers had blatantly inquired the other, revealing his intentions.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio was completely relaxed into the man's hands, he was just so happy to be touched by his love. The sudden grab at his ass made him moan softly. It took a moment for him to realize what Jasper was doing. When he did realize he jerked away his eyes wide.

"J-Jasper?" He knew that the man wasn't being sincere, but he hadn't expected the man to be so blatant. "Y-you're..." His eyes started to fill with tears. "Y-you're not even trying to be subtle, not at all.." He shook his head and started to climb off the bed. "I need to i-ice my ankle" Emilio felt that if he stayed here Jasper might do something to upset him even more.

[fruity]

Fuck, his plan went awry.

 

"Where's the damned key?!" he yelled, letting his impatience rushing out. "Fuck! As if I'd touch you willingly, you sick fuck!" Was it anger or panic that burst from Jasper's chest? He didn't mean to see Emilio cry and he felt a little shaken from that. He was always weak to tears. Of people being weak in front of him and showing their vulnerability. He couldn't stand being the reason why people would get disappointed, even though what he should be thinking right now was his own survival.

 

He should be.

 

"Release me!" he yelled, needing to get it out of his throat. That way, he would convince himself that that was what he wanted. "...release me..." he said, weaker than before.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio burst into tears, his hands clamping over his ears. "Stop! Why can't you understand?! Why won't you listen?!" He stumbled off the bed, almost collapsing when he ended up putting weight on his injured ankle. He steadied himself on the wall, still crying.

"I-I don't understand..." It was true, Emilio couldn't understand why Jasper seemed to hate him this much. It made sense that the man was scared and confused, but why was he acting so mean?

Emilio quickly stumbled out of the room and shut the door behind himself. His sobbing could still be heard for a few minutes before he turned on the shower to clean himself.

[fruity]

"Well, I don't understand either why you did this. Fuck!" Jasper lied down on the bed, his back faced the door. He didn't even care when Emilio walked out of the room. This was the worst day ever and he didn't know what tomorrow had in store for him. But there was a comfy bed, at least. And his stomach was full. And the whole charade made him feel more than exhausted. As soon as he closed eyes, he fell asleep.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio stayed in the shower for over an hour, scrubbing himself until his skin was raw. Even after he left the shower he spent a few hours cleaning the apartment to put off actually facing Jasper. He wasn't even sure what he was going to do or say.

 

Finally he made up his mind. He had come this far, there was no reason to give up after just a few problems. Emilio would just have to try twice as hard.

 

Before returning to Jasper's room Emilio dressed himself as if he was about to go on a date, making sure he looked absolutely perfect. He made a very rich and delicious mug of hot chocolate and put it on a tray along with a large bowl of soapy warm water with a sponge and towel. He lightly knocked on the door to warn Jasper before pushing it open and stepping in.

[fruity]

Jasper tossed around in his sleep. However, his subconscious worked differently than his common sense. His face frowned from the nightmare he had, but it wasn't one about being captive or drugged.

 

It was about him trying his best and kept being misunderstood. About him trying his best but had not enough talent to excel at anything. About someone else always doing better, that no matter how much he wanted to be a number one in anything, he couldn't. So Jasper buried those wishes deep. If he couldn't master anything, maybe being the jack of all trades worked better for him. If he couldn't be loved back, maybe he should just view others equally, sheltering himself with a nice guy attitude. People wouldn't care about him too much, but he wouldn't be hated either.

 

Still, getting into relationships didn't go any easier. They accused that he didn't care enough, because he had to divide his time for school and parttime job and hobby and friends. But even if he did his best, he would fail anyway, right? Something would definitely go wrong, rendering everything into waste. They wouldn't care for him anymore, because there were plenty of fishes that could replace him. Jasper's nightmare was one of hollowness.

 

The dream was deep that he didn't wake up even when the door was open and Emilio came in.

[Kotorichan]

Emilio frown deeply and set the tray down on the dresser before hurrying to the man's side. "Jasper? Darling?" He sat down next to him and gently touched his cheek. "You're alright my love... I'm here with you" He leaned down and gently kissed the man. It bothered him to see his precious Jasper looking so uncomfortable. "I'll protect you darling... I'll always be here with you to keep you happy."