The Dollhouse (Pigeon & Noise Prince)

[Kotorichan]

"I do not think any of the servants will tell him..." Shiori murmured, assuming that the question was on Bruno's mind. "They all seem to pity me enough that they will not do anything to make me suffer more."

 

He nuzzled into the man's chest. "But... I would prefer not to be too intimate in front of others... I do not enjoy that sort of thing." His body shuddered as he remembered the way that Carn would grope him in front of guests. "I do not want to be an object, even if it is only for a few hours a day."

[Noise Prince]

Bruno sighed softly, relieved. That's true… the staff were well aware of his situation, it was a relief to hear, still. They were Carn's servants, too, but he understood, knowing what they did, why they'd favor Shiori's wishes. It made him feel a little less alone, too, knowing that there were others that were trying to help ease Shiori's pain.

 

"O-oh, no, no…nonono," He assured him nervously, his face turning a shade resembling a beet. "No, of course not…" Images of Carn's possessive handling of Shiori only had Bruno believe that he went far more inappropriate around the rest of the staff frequently.

 

And Bruno hadn't even considered getting 'too intimate' in any context! He didn't know how Shiori could relax against his chest like that with his heart beating so hard next to his face.

 

"You'll be Shiori and nothing less when you have me, I promise," Bruno said.

[Kotorichan]

"Do you... Like me as Shiori?" The crane asked in a soft voice, his cheeks becoming flushed. "I would understand if you did not like who I am, it seems that no one does. Not even myself."

 

His hair fell in front of his face, hiding his fear and embarrassment. "I do not know if you were bothered by that kiss. I do not want you to think I usually do that sort of thing. You are the first one I have wanted to kiss."

[Noise Prince]

"Who else would I like you as?" Bruno asked, smiling, though he was a little confused by what Shiori might mean. Wasn't this Shiori now? Who couldn't like him? Himself?! Well, with a man like Carn for a husband, he could see how he might eventually hate himself living such a tragic life. He hugged him a little tighter.

 

"Bothered? Shiori… I was elated." He admitted, grinning cheekily. "I was so happy you were so close to begin with, I thought my heartbeat would be hitting too hard against your head when you leaned into me. I've felt for a while that I'd be resisting the urge to kiss you, so I'm happy that I won't always have to." He softly stroked his cheek. He was warm. His heartbeat was acting up again. He knew Carn had married Shiori while the crane was young, but to be the first he actually wanted to kiss?! Frankly, Bruno wouldn't have minded if Shiori had kissed every servant he ever had, he was glad to be the one being kissed now. But the first that he wanted to kiss! Well, that was something quite special…

[Kotorichan]

"Whoever it is that I am when I am with him... Or whoever you would like me to be." Shiori lightly ran his fingers through his long white hair. "I do not even know who I really am. So how could you really like me?"

 

He bit his lip and looked away. "I am sorry, I do not mean to be rude. It is just that I have been married to that man for so long. I can not imagine that someone would truly enjoy me for myself." He lightly pressed his forehead against Bruno's chest. "I hope that maybe you can help me change that."

[Noise Prince]

"I don't know… I just do," Bruno told him plainly. He was really out of his league, and it was apparent, he wasn't equipped to talk with Shiori at his level when it came to something as deep and complex as this. But he could be honest.

 

"You're not being rude," Bruno laughed softly. Though Carn was a strict man, so maybe any manner of frank talking was considered rude. He placed a hand lightly on the back of Shiori's head when he rested it against him. "I want to help you, I'll do whatever I can to make you sure of how I feel about you, Shiori…"

[Kotorichan]

Shiori hesitated for a moment before lifting his gaze to Bruno's face, his cheeks red. "Then... Would you perhaps... If it is not too inconvenient for you... K-k-ki..." His face grew even more red as he trailed off, unable to bring himself to request a kiss.

 

"N-no... Please forget that I said anything..." He hid his face against the deer's chest again, his wings fluffing up.

[Noise Prince]

Bruno's eyes widened when Shiori looked up at him, blush stretching over his face. Wow, was he really going to ask him for a kiss! It almost seemed like a fairytale, a princess asking a pauper for a kiss to save him from a dragon… But Shiori didn't live in a fairytale.

 

Normally, Bruno would do as he asked, and not do anything, consider the request 'redacted', and just let him hide in his chest. The feathers of his wings puffed up in his embarrassment, they looked so cute around the delicate man hiding his red face.

 

Bruno gently guided Shiori away from him, and lifted his face with one hand under his chin.

 

"Unfortunately, I have a very good memory," He whispered, before pressed a soft kiss onto his lips, like before.

[Kotorichan]

Shiori let out a soft coo of pleasure as he felt the man's lips against his own. His arms moved to wrap around Bruno's shoulders, as he pressed closer. It felt like like the deer must have been able to feel how fast his heart was beating against his chest.

 

The crane's body seemed to melt in the man's arms, fully giving in to the other's touch. For a moment the desire of wanting something more rose in his chest, but as soon as Shiori noticed it he pulled away. His face was bright red as he squirmed to push away his excitement.

[Noise Prince]

Bruno almost laughed before they kissed, finding the light coo Shiori put against Bruno's lips to be so adorable. He felt Shiori put his arms over his neck, his arms so thin, but the abundant sleeves gave them such a comforting weight. Shiori put more of his weight against Bruno's body, and he leaned back slightly to accommodate him, never letting their lips alone. He felt almost a glowing heat between them, and he parted his lips against Shiori's to open them- when Shiori pulled away from him, his face was incredibly red, in a way that made Bruno think the problem wasn't the kiss itself, or Bruno's daringness. That, and the fact Shiori hadn't given him a good slap…

 

He placed his forehead to Shiori's, closing his eyes, giving Shiori the time to recollect himself, and decide whether or not he wanted to continue.

[Kotorichan]

Shiori whimpered softly, his eyes closing slowly. "I am sorry... My body feels so strange when you kiss me..."

 

"I have never felt this way before. I do not understand." He looked up at Bruno again, his eyes wet. "I think I may actually be a very indecent person. Please do not be disgusted."

[Noise Prince]

Bruno couldn't help but smile, even though he could see the distress Shiori was feeling on his face. He'd really been with Carn for so long, a man who brought Shiori no joy, that he was starting to feel ashamed for having feelings?

 

"I feel strange, too." Bruno told him. He knew what his feelings were, of course, and they really weren't all that strange. But Shiori had never had the chance to feel them. "I want to be indecent with you, so let's both agree not to be disgusted by one another, alright?"

[Kotorichan]

"I w-will never be disgusted with you." Shiori gently pressed closer, his wings fluffing up a bit more. "If you also feel this way... T-then perhaps..." He trailed off, instead guiding the man's hands down to his hips. His cheeks were bright red with embarrassment.

 

"Of course, only if you would want to. A-and not right here... If you do not mind." He lightly bit his lip and looked away, a bit afraid to see the deer's reaction.

[Noise Prince]

Bruno beamed. He knew that Shiori would say something like that, but the assured way he said that he'd never be disgusted by him made him feel so warm. It felt like a promise. Bruno's eyes widened when Shiori guided his hands lower, lower, onto his hips, sensual and daring placement. He glance back up and saw that Shiori was getting flustered from his own advances, too.

 

"I-I wouldn't mind… n-not at all," He stammered, his suave reserves were running a little empty now. He would have loved to say something comforting and sweet, but he sounded like a virginal schoolboy. To think! Shiori was inviting him to do those type of things! This was his boss' wife! Though he certainly prioritized Shiori's happiness over Carn's desires. Especially if it was like this.

 

"Anywhere you want me, I'm yours," He promised.

[Kotorichan]

"T-then perhaps... M-my sewing room..." Shiori suggested, his cheeks still flushed. "I would rather not spend too much time in the bedroom... I have too many memories with him."

 

He rose to his feet, unable to meet the deer's gaze. "I-if you would like..." He turned away, his wings fluffing up. "T-then I will m-meet you there." The crane ran for his sewing room, needing a few moments to himself to collect himself. He felt so overwhelmed that he feared he might faint.

[Noise Prince]

Bruno could agree to that. He said he'd go anywhere, but the master's bedroom… that seemed too far, even for what they were planning on doing. Shiori stood up, and Bruno looked up at him, but Shiori didn't look at him. Soon, he was running back indoors, sheets of silk fluttering behind him. Bruno couldn't believe it. The sewing room. He was going to meet Shiori in the sewing room to! To!!!

 

Shiori was so delicate and nervous, so Bruno had to calm himself down. He might not actually care to go too far. Especially as Carn's wife. Especially with a servant of his. He pushed himself up on his good leg, took his cane, and walked back inside. He hoped Shiori had had enough time to himself to really consider this… He spoke like Bruno should come to him soon, but he ran ahead of him quite quickly, obviously wanting to be there alone for a while.

 

He knocked once, too softly. He knocked again, a little louder.

[Kotorichan]

Shiori flopped down on the floor of his sewing room, shutting his eyes tightly as he tried to calm himself. He hesitated for a moment before slipping his hand underneath his kimono, lightly feeling the growing erection. "A-ah..." He pulled his hand away, feeling even more flustered. He almost never got hard when he was with Carn, and when he did he rarely was able to cum. Carn never seemed to notice, that or he just didn't care.

 

He quickly sat up at the sound of the knock on the door, trying to gather his wits. In a panic he pulled all the stuffed animals he could reach off the drawers they sat on, hiding his body up to the waist. Even though he had made it clear to Bruno what he wanted, it was still embarrassing. "Ah.... P-please come in..." he called out.

[Noise Prince]

Bruno opened the door slowly and walked in. Shiori held a bunch of his hand-made plush animals to his body, an absurd amount. He was covered in so much fabric in his kimono it didn't seem necessary to be so shy. Maybe it was more than shyness.

 

"Shiori, if you're not sure… we don't have to do anything right now," Bruno told him. He was afraid Shiori was wanting to rush into it because he felt something he didn't feel with Carn, but bodies sometimes wanted something the person might not, doesn't mean the body should lead. He wanted to help Shiori, make him happy, but if he moved too quickly, he might just become another monster, and this time it'd be in his sanctuary.

[Kotorichan]

Shiori whimpered softly in embarrassment. "I... I..." He bit his lip and looked away, his cheeks becoming even more flushed. "I feel strange..." He squirmed slightly. "My body feels so hot... A-and it is n-not comfortable..." His feathers fluffed up, as he let his hair fall in front of his face, trying to hide his shame.

 

"I... I was s-so young w-when I met him... I-I have never felt this way before. I-I do not know w-what to do." Shiori had met Carn when he was 11, and had moved in with him by the time he was 12. Within a year they had been married. He had never developed his own sexuality, and so had never masturbated. The crane understood the idea, as well as the idea of sexual pleasure. But he hadn't experienced it. His eyes began to tear up. "I-I am sorry, if you do not want to then I-I can t-try to understand it m-myself."

[Noise Prince]

Bruno smiled softly. He really was experiencing all this for the first time. He was so confused, and genuinely scared of what was happening. He wanted to be mad at Carn for putting Shiori in such a position, for never making him happy or pleasured, acting so selfishly that Shiori didn't even fully comprehend what he was doing. But he couldn't, he was too focused on Shiori, and Shiori soothed him.

 

"Oh, please, please don't cry…" Bruno put his hands on Shiori's shoulders. "It's fine, I’m going to help you, okay? I want to…" He kissed his forehead. "I'll go very slow, if you don't like something, I'll stop doing that and do something you do like, would that be alright?"

 

He sounded a bit like his first 'real' boyfriend, days before taking his virginity. He also brought Bruno into it gradually, like getting into a cold pool. He hoped Shiori would have just as good an experience as he had.

[Kotorichan]

Shiori nodded, his eyes still watering. "I-I am sorry, I do not want you to hate me..." He leaned into Bruno's touch. "Is it strange for me to want to do this? I do not want to be strange..." He sniffled softly and wiped his eyes on his sleeve. His free hand moved to tug his kimono, trying to hide his excitement more. The panic was starting to build up in his chest again. What if he was going too fast? What if he was forcing Bruno to do these things?

 

Suddenly Shiori's flushed cheeks went pale, his eyes widening at a sudden realization. What if he was being just like Carn? He wanted Bruno to be something specific for him, maybe he was just ignoring all the signs that Bruno was against it? The tears began to run down Shiori's cheeks again as his breath stopped, too caught in his own mind to notice.

[Noise Prince]

Bruno lightly moved his arms around Shiori's shoulder, pulling him to his arms. He worried so much, he cried so much.

 

"I'm not going to hate you. And it's not strange. Lots of people have these kinds of feelings. Most really like it, too," Bruno told him, pulling away a bit so he could kiss his cheek. He wasn't sure what to do. His first boyfriend didn't have the obstacles Bruno did. Bruno know what he wanted and didn't feel bad about, he just didn't know how to go about it. With Shiori, he was a completely different beast.

 

He felt him tense in his embrace. He started crying again, but not normal crying. His body shook with it, but he wasn't breathing.

 

"Oh! Oh…!" Bruno breathed deep, trying not to panic. Was he accidentally murdering him?! Craneslaughter it might be called. "Shiori? Shiori, can… can you breath? Can you hear me?" He wasn't sure why he asked that, it's just something he felt people say in these situations.

[Kotorichan]

"I-I am the s-same" Shiori's voice came out as a pained wail. "I-I do the s-same. I-I want you n-nice and g-gentle and l-love and- and-" His English was becoming significantly worse in his panic. "S-so I just see nice and g-gentle and l-love but y-you- You not w-want."

 

"Your c-choice n-not." He tried to pull away from the deer. "I-I not him! N-not him! I s-sorry, s-so-" His hands moved to cover his face as he sobbed. "N-not him... N-not force... I die i-instead..."

[Noise Prince]

The same? Do the same… Shiori wasn't speaking whole or cohesive statements. It was difficult for Bruno to tell what he meant. He didn't recognize it at the time, but Shiori's grammar was slipping and he had a heavier accent.

 

Die. He understood that. It wasn't long ago when Shiori so casually mentioned the only thing preventing him from killing himself was that he might be blamed for it. It terrified him.

 

"No, no…" Even though Shiori had pulled away from him, he threw his arms around him again, and despite his breathing difficulties, he held tightly. "You're not forcing me to do anything! I want to do this with you! I want you to be happy, I just want you to be happy…"

 

He was failing, he was slipping… he had just made things even worse…

[Kotorichan]

"I same as C-Carn... I-I make you h-hate me..." Shiori's entire body was shaking as he leaned into the man's chest. "I- I rather die, than be C-Carn." He sobbed weakly. His body finally went limp in the deer's arms, exhausted from all the crying. "Not him... Not him..." He murmured, his eyes fluttering closed.