Instincts and Hidden Desires (18+, Private)(Sathenus and Virtualoo)

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Name: Adrian

Age: 18

Personality: Quiet, Adrian tends not to speak unless directly spoken to. It doesn't mean he doesn't care or isn't interested, it's just who he is. He's caring, and tries to be understanding. Often finds himself jealous of those around him.

Background: The youngest of two brothers Adrian is also the outcast. He has three close friends who keep things looking at least somewhat positive but is otherwise virtually ignored and looked over. Growing up he was close to his brother, it seemed to change early during middle school. As the years passed their relationship hasn't exactly gotten better, though at least he seems to be at least acknowledged at home compared to at school. His sexuality has been a constant struggle for Adrian, his attraction to other men making him anxious and unsure of himself. Though he knows that he's gay, he has not come out to any member of his family. None of his friends know either as he struggles to come to terms with it and figure out how to come out about it.

 

 

 

Adrian was waken up in the early hours of the morning by the insistent beeping of his alarm clock. Sighing he reached over and smacked the off button before rolling over, turning his back to it. Blue eyes slipping shut once more he tried to go back to sleep. Hearing movement downstairs was what made it impossible, once he was up that was it. There was no getting back to sleep for him, with a soft groan he sat up. The blankets pooling around his waist as he glanced around his room. Realizing he would have to beat his brother to the bathroom he slipped out of bed and grabbed a towel as he made his way out of his room and two doors down the hall. Slipping in a small smile crossed his face, quickly locking the bathroom door and turning on the water for a shower.

 

Mornings in the household were always hectic, that was what happened when there was four people and one bathroom. Trying to make his shower quick he stepped under the warm spray, being quick to wet his hair so he can wash it. It took him about fifteen minutes before he was finished washing up, stepping out of the shower he turned it off and wrapped the towel he had grabbed around his waist. Running a comb quickly through his hair he stepped out of the bathroom adorned only in the towel and quickly made his way back to his room. It wasn't like it was unusual for him to do so, in fact he never took clean clothes into the bathroom with him.

 

Back in his room he dug through his closet, pulling out what he was going to wear for the day. Slipping into a clean pair of boxers he tugged on shorts after and pulled a t-shirt on over his head. He knew it was going to be rather warm today, something he was truly looking forward to. Grabbing the things he needed for school he slipped on his socks and shoes and went downstairs, depositing his backpack near the front door before joining their parents in the kitchen. By this time the house was already starting to fill with the delicious scents of what their mother was making for breakfast and he heard his stomach growl.

 

Slipping into his usual seat he received a greeting from both of them, "Morning." he replied leaning back in his chair as a plate was set down before him. Picking up his fork he started eating, mind briefly wondering how terrible today would be at school. It wasn't to say that he never had a good day at school, but it wasn't like he really had good days either. It was either bad, or just okay there was no in between for him.

 

 

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Name:JulianAge:18

Personality: An outgoing and charismatic type of individual. A very social type of guy who is the life of the party.

Background: The oldest of two brothers, Julian is a social butterfly. Before middle school, he was close to his younger brother. He started spiking in popularity and soon grew further from his more timid shy brother. Julian got even more popular in high school once he became the captain of the swim team, having dated several girls by now and just got his first serious girlfriend with the captain of the cheerleading squad.

 

 

 

Julian woke up to the sound of his alarm, hitting the snooze button. Luckily he did not have to wake up early for a morning swim meet today. He was already frustrated enough that he took his girlfriend Anne on a date and a really expensive one. He took her to her favorite restaurant and he thought he would finally be able to have sex with her but she just went home at the end without anything.

 

It frustrated him too much to think about, really pent up. At least he got to still see her today at

school and still kiss her and all, but damn he needed it bad! Julian rolled out of bed and tried to get to the bathroom first. His brother just beat him to it, groaning in frustration. He went back to his room in the meantime, picking out his outfit for the day. Julian wore a tight v neck black t-shirt and some faded blue jeans, grabbing his swim teams captain jacket, the school logo on the back of the coat colored in the schools colors.

 

Once he was finally able to get into the bathroom, Julian took his clothes with him and took a hot shower. Julian blowdried his hair enough to not be dripping with water, getting dressed and heading downstairs to the smell of breakfast. "Morning.." Julian said to his parents as he picked up a fork and started to eat. At least today he would be able to enjoy breakfast and not rush out the door. He couldn't complain about his mothers cooking either. Enough to keep him going the rest of the day but not overly unhealthy. He liked to watch what he ate or at least how much so he can keep his body toned and in shape. At least of all meals, breakfast had to be his healthiest meal in case he had to miss lunch or eat a late dinner after a meet.

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Quietly enjoying his breakfast Adrian glanced up when he heard his older brother enter the kitchen. Watching as he greeted their parents before taking his usual spot across from him at the table. For a moment he watched Julius before he turned back to his breakfast. Taking a small sip of his orange juice before taking another bite of his food, it was easy for him to tell that unlike most days Julius seemed to be in no hurry to run out on them. That seemed odd, and it made him question why exactly his brother didn't seem like he was in a rush. Then again, he didn't understand why he seemed to care either. It wasn't like the two of them were closer or anything, not anymore anyways. Deciding to focus his mind on something else he continued his breakfast not saying a word.

 

When he finished eating he took his plate to the sink, rinsing it off before setting it in there with their parents plates from breakfast. Returning to the kitchen table he pulled out his history book, deciding to get a little ahead for classes today. Sipping more at his juice as he silently passed the time with his face buried in his text book. Only slightly aware of the conversation going on around him and happy to stay out of it. It was about a half an hour later that he glanced at his watch and shut his text book standing up from the table. "I'm going to head out. See you guys later." With that he grabbed his book and moved towards the front door where he had his backpack waiting.

 

Checking to ensure he had his phone and keys he slipped his history book into his bag and turned to leave the house not really waiting for a response from Julius or their parents. He preferred to walk to school, and so he made sure he left with more than enough time so he could walk as fast or as slow as he wanted. Usually it was the later, never really being in a hurry to arrive. A normal day at school meant watching his brother enjoy being popular and hanging out with his girlfriend while trying to keep his own eyes off of some of the guys that caught his own attention. He was almost positive that their parents wouldn't take learning he was gay well, and he didn't even want to think about what his brother would think.

 

In the end, such desires he kept strictly to himself and very well hidden. Even the very small group of friends he had didn't have any idea that he was attracted to other men. How was he possible going to bring up a topic like that? Deciding not to think about it he did take his time getting to school, by the time he arrived the campus was already crowded with other students. Walking into the building he made for his locker, and then he was going to head to his first class early. It was better than hanging out in the hall with people who barely even knew he existed.

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Julius would hang out with his girlfriend more during his lunch period and a bit after school before practice. Practice was scheduled for after school today so he would be coming home late. He had to save more money to try and take her out on a better date. He had to figure out something to woo her over as much as he enjoyed spending time with her on dates and not on dates. He really did like her but why did she have to be so stubborn?!

 

It was just like his brother to read his history book at breakfast, being the studious little student he was. He could read anywhere and even do it after school so why do it after breakfast before school even started? Julius would not even pretend to understand his brother, focused on killing time until he felt ready to leave shortly after his brother. Since there was no practice this morning, he should make good use of this time before school.

 

He jogged to the school to get some exercise in with practice being delayed to this afternoon. Luckily, it was not too warm out to make him sweat so jogging would not make him look like a mess. Julius focused as he got into the zone while jogging, running his only focus with the school being the only time he would stop jogging. He always looked to improve his stamina every day or at least as much as possible.

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The first few periods passed in a bit of a haze for Adrian. By the time lunch rolled around he had so much racing around in his brain that he found himself quite easily distracted. Especially whenever his eyes kept landing on one particular person. Of course he worried that someone might catch him looking and admiring but he couldn't help it. The other man had been someone he had admired for well over a year now and his crush was just getting worse. His courage to actually go speak with him was nonexistent, especially the fear that he may not feel the same way.

 

Of course that wasn't the only thing keeping him at bay. No one knew that he was gay and attracted to other men. Not his parents, and certainly not his brother. His group of friends consisted of him and two girls so of course that didn't set anything off either. Though he enjoyed their company and was glad he had some sort of friends, he still wasn't comfortable enough to even come out to them. A soft sigh passed his lips as he sat between the two girls at lunch. Eyes unconsciously seeking out the object of his desires, even if he knew he couldn't have any sort of relationship with him it didn't mean he couldn't look and admire from afar.

 

Lunch was also his opportunity to hide from his brother. If there was one thing that bothered him the most it was being stuck in his brother's shadow. Even if they were only a year apart he was often compared to his more athletically superior brother. It just came down to the fact that Adrian was not an athletic person. He didn't like running, swimming was okay once in awhile during the summer but not as a competitive sport. He didn't have the muscle -or interest- in play football, he didn't like things being thrown at him so even baseball was a no go. No matter how he looked at it, there just really wasn't a sport out there for him, not one that would make him remotely as popular as his older brother.

 

It often made him wonder that even if he was into such things if he would not be compared to the older man. He doubted it. In the end that seemed to be far to common for siblings, the younger ones were always compared to their older siblings. Just turned out he had Julius, the one person he truly couldn't come close to being. Drawn from his thoughts when he heard one of his friends speak he glanced towards her not even aware that they had been trying to talk to him. That was rather common when he found himself sulking about his brother. When lunch finally ended he moved off to his next class reminding himself there wasn't much more before he would be going home and have at least an hour or two before Julius would get home from practice.

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There was nothing he particularly cared about in his few first periods. Sure, he payed enough attention to have some idea of what was going on and pass his classes and tests. Julius didn't care about being a Straight A student but he did enough to at least get C's and the occasional B's. Could he do better? Was he a smart guy? Sure he was! He just cared more about sports than studying to be a straight A student. C's and B's were not to be angry about so why should he try even harder for A's he didn't really need that badly?

 

Soon, the bell had rung for lunch and he was on the way to the lunchroom to spend his lunch period with his girlfriend. "Hey babe" He said with a smile as he sat down next to her with his lunch. She smiled lightly and started talking about her classes and one girl she was not particularly fond of that made a passing comment about her hair. "Don't worry about her babe, you look beautiful enough for me" Julius smiled and kissed her cheek softly. "So...you want to come over to my place tonight? We can spend some...quality time together?" He smirked as he kissed her again.

 

When she said she was not ready for that, it took a lot for Julius to not sigh in frustration. "Okay babe, see you another time" Julius said as the lunch bell signaled soon after his girlfriend spoke. He left her with a kiss on the lips and soon walked off to his next class. How long had it been now? He was so sexually frustrated at this point. He loved his girlfriend and everything but man was this frustrating!

 

 

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A long overdue reply. I figured I would at least reply even though its been much longer than needed with little explanation. I am sorry mostly for not giving you any warning and just kind of disappearing when the rp hadn't even begun yet.

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Managing to get through his next few classes, Adrian was more than a little pleased when the bell rang signalling the end of the school day. He had very few run ins with his brother throughout the whole day really only seeing Julius as they passed each other in the hall. Which didn't require either of them to interact with the other. It wasn't that he didn't like his older brother, quite the contrary. They had been close when they were little but as they got older they grew apart. While his brother did sports and climbed the social ladder he kept his head down, studied and focused on his grades.

 

Sometimes it was hard to believe two such different people were related, but they looked to similar to deny their relation. As he stopped by his locker to grab what he would need to complete his homework assignments including two papers not due until the end of the week his crush caught his eye again. It was hard for him not to be drawn to such a person, and as long as he kept it hidden then there wasn't any problem. Shaking his head he grabbed the books transferring them to his backpack and leaving the school. It was a short but peaceful walk home, calling to his parents to let them know he was home as he moved up the stairs and to his room. The first thing Adrian did was clear off his computer desk of all but his laptop, a notebook and a pen and pencil. Setting his school books down on the desk he hung his backpack on the hook he had on his closet door before settling into his computer chair and getting started​.

 

It wasn't even forty-five minutes later when he heard his Dad's voice clearly coming up the stairs telling him that since Julius would be home late they were going out for a little while and that dinner was up to him. "Okay!" Adrian called back before returning to his work. By the time he was to hungry to continue he had finished most of it and had started on his English paper. He had two papers due at the end of the week but he was never one to wait last minute.

 

Wandering downstairs he just popped a TV dinner into the microwave waiting rather impatiently​ for it to finish. After eating he returned to his room, it was then that he realized he had the house to himself. It sinking in for the first time since his parents had left almost an hour earlier. It wasn't often that happened and he briefly wondered if it meant he could be more free with his desires. Deciding not to question it to much he reached over to push his bedroom door shut.

 

Humming softly to himself he slipped out of his clothes, it wasn't that often he got to really play with his own body the way he wanted to. Hell, ninety percent of the time he refused to acknowledge any desires he had. Pulling out a small box he kept hidden under his bed a small smile pulled at his lips. He wasn't even about to admit how he had acquired a sex toy, though the lube he was much less embarrassed about. Making himself comfortable on​ his bed he spread his legs and coated a few of his fingers with the lube. Not giving his mind the chance to question what he was doing he stated to gently tease his hole before slipping a finger inside. It wasn't like he could bring a guy home to satisfy his desires so this was the best he was going to get.

 

It wasn't long before he slipped a second finger into himself a soft groan passing his lips as he relaxed the best he could. It had been almost a month since he had a chance to do this. Before long he was stretched enough that he felt comfortable proceeding. Removing his fingers he lubed up the toy and pressed it against his prepped hole, slowly pushing​ it in as his back arched slightly. A deep moan escaping him which made him bite his lip. Even if he had the house to himself he didn't want to make to much noise. Pausing once the toy bottomed out inside if him he took a moment to rest and get used to it before he started to thrust it in and out of himself. Instantly his body was ignited in pleasure, his breaths becoming slightly labored as he increased the pace slightly. His mind running wild as a fantasy played out behind his closed eyes, hand moving between his legs as he thrust the toy into himself with the same pace as in his fantasy. Adrian quite easily losing himself and being entirely overcome by the desires he far to often denied.

 

 

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It's fine. People get busy, things happen unexpectedly​. Not really anything you need to apologize​ for. As a side note typed this up on my phone so I'll apologize ahead of time for any errors.