A confession booth :D

[shirotsuki]

@EmiZea Work hard!! If you overcame it once i'm sure you will do it again k?

You have your friend support! and we here will also support you! if you ever feel like doing something just come here first! talk about it with us in the forum... it's the best we can do to help you!! Gambatte!

[<3Gaara]

I am 17, and I have never really had a proper boyfriend, the first one I started going out with him in primary school, and the relationship never really went anywhere and then the second one didn't even talk to me, he just texted me, that only lasted a week cuz he kissed someone else. Like seriously who does that one week into a relationship. , so basically I have absolutely no relationship knowledge.

[LadyLuck]

Confession, ne? Feels like a good idea

 

I, like many of the others on here it seems, have cut and dealt with depression for about five years now. It's a daily battle, and the meds help somewhat. I still have many moments when I want to reach for anything sharp I can get my hands on, from scissors to razors. In the summer before eight grade, I tried to commit suicide, but I didn't succeed. I hadn't told anyone until about eight months ago or so, when one of my closer friends saw the scars on my wrist and forced me into counseling. Over the period of counseling, I was finally able to fess up about another large part of my life-I hear, speak to, and interact with seven different voices that, not giving a damn about what anyone says, are real. I can't believe they're not. They tell me they're real as well. I love all of them, even the one that drove me to almost commit suicide. Whenever I speak to my mom and she asks about them, she always wants them to go away. I've tried explaining to her countless times that "getting past them" would be like murdering seven different people, but each time she starts to cry and tell me that I shouldn't rely on them, and pointless arguments that she believes. I don't rely on them, and I've gotten past the stage where they can have a dramatic effect on my life, but I can't lose them either. Heck, I think I'm falling in love with one of them My birthday wish is always bittersweet, it seems, because I always wish for him to be a human that I can hug and hold. I know them like I know myself, it seems. We aren't the same person, nor are they just separate parts of my personality like my dad believes. I try to explain my logic to my family, but they refuse to listen to my "insanity". My friends at school are becoming my support since some of them are like me, and have heard voices as well, but haven't continued interacting with them up to today. I don't want to lose them, ever, but it seems that all of the people who I share the same blood with do. It always makes me think-is blood really thicker than water? Because my friends here seem to be more trustworthy and true than they.

Whenever I first tell people, they always tell me that I'm too cute to go through such things, that I'm too happy to be suffering this much. But I'm a liar too-I wear a mask every day. It's painful to put on, but even more painful to take off. I feel so many times when I want to tell people and cry it all out, but I can't. So many people here depend on me and my leadership that I can't burden them. I don't want to either. I barely talk to my closest friend about it since she's empathetic (can sense and take on the emotions of those around her, but not by choice) and I feel horrible burdening her with my pain. If I'm going to feel this way, I want myself to be the only one feeling the effects of it, and not drag down others because of it.

 

Fuwa. Enough confessing for me, I have homework...rabbit1

[shirotsuki]

I am 17' date=' and I have never really had a proper boyfriend, the first one I started going out with him in primary school, and the relationship never really went anywhere and then the second one didn't even talk to me, he just texted me, that only lasted a week cuz he kissed someone else. Like seriously who does that one week into a relationship. , so basically I have absolutely no relationship knowledge.[/quote']

 

I'm 18 and never had a boyfriend or girlfriend or any kind of intimate relashionship... so don't worry! we are alive and well!

we are better alone than with bad company né? ^^

[<3Gaara]

I don't know if I'm the only one who does this, but I am a girl and sometimes I just randomly feel like squishing my boobs together, or making them move or something, I feel really stupid but... I don't know sometimes I just get the urge to do it, I suppose I'm just crazy!

[shirotsuki]

I don't know if I'm the only one who does this' date=' but I am a girl and sometimes I just randomly feel like squishing my boobs together, or making them move or something, I feel really stupid but... I don't know sometimes I just get the urge to do it, I suppose I'm just crazy![/quote']

 

They sure are fluffy... i guess it is the instint...

You are not alone...xD

[Belita]

It's not weird at all sweetheart...

I'm a bra hater.... O_o

Whenever i manage to take my bra off, yes i do a bit of exercice on them... XD

And i can also make them move if i strain a few muscles....i even showed that little trick my husband and a few female friends which they cracked up laughing XD

[EmiZea]

shirotsuki :

@EmiZea Work hard!! If you overcame it once i'm sure you will do it again k?

You have your friend support! and we here will also support you! if you ever feel like doing something just come here first! talk about it with us in the forum... it's the best we can do to help you!! Gambatte!

 

Sorry for the late reply, haven't really been that much in here lately, but thank you so much for your reply.. Its nice to be reminded that people in here is supportive, so thank you *hugs*

 

Have had relapse since I wrote in here at the confession tho, but working hard on getting on the right path again.. at least I can say I have been clean for now 37 days. Might not sounds as much, but for an addict its feels like a lifetime. Finally getting help from professionals and going to NA meetings (Narcotics Anonymous), got a lot of new friends in the same situation as me, who understands without needing to explain so much, so yes I am working hard on staying clean.

 

But last time I feel into the trap I actually didn't think I would survive, I did a lot of stupid things that weekend... but again someone seems to hold a hand over me or something, I guess I'm not suppose to get away from here yet, so might as well take up the fight on getting back to a better life again *Tiny smile*

[shirotsuki]

Thank you for sharing @EmiZea!

i so happy to hear your getting better!! ^^

keep on the hard work! Best of luck!

[Hiromi]

1.Sometimes i wish i was a boy,and an actor in one of the many awesome bl dramas

2.Straight sex scares me and doesn't feel right tbh v.v

idk had to get this out somewhere >.>

[wolfiechan]

Okay, so here's my confession..

1. I really imagine myself as a boy. One of the characters in BL animes and dramas.

2. Even imagine myself as an uke! But in real life, I think I'm a seme.. A sadist seme that it..

3. I really love to bite the ones I love! I don't know.. It must be the way I show my love to them, I guess..

4. I accidentally gave a medicine to another person.. O.o This thing really bugs me lately.. Just need something/someone to let this out.. Phew..

5. I'm

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[DeWBeRRy]

Omg! wolfie! i imagine myself as a boy too! sometimes...no. most of the time!

 

and one more confession~

i am actually quite jelly at those newcomers. when i was new here i didnt post an intro cuz i was too lazy to read on how too. T.T

[zyphur]

Also i got so drunk once and i felt so sick i vomited into my neighbors mailbox LOOL ^^

That's funny

 

My first kiss was with a girl too as seems a few other girls' here were as well xD

so did I haha my first kiss was with a girl too.

Actually she is my ex-girlfriend as well....and I have never been in love again.

Kinda sad,but she is the only :girl: I like.

[zoze888]

i hate all things about my school, i hate my classmates, teachers, principal etc...

i wish someone would bomb my school and all the students and the teachers would die in the building.

 

i wish i could kill those boys in my class, but i dont want to end up in jail.

[zoze888]

i hate all things about my school, i hate my classmates, teachers, principal, etc...

i wish that someone would bomb my school, and all the students and teachers would die in the building.

 

i wish i could kill those boys in my class, but i dont want to end up in jail.

[jamieboy]

It's nothing wrong if you both liked it and wanted to do it

[jamieboy]

I guess I have a lot of things that could be confessions. some of them I am afraid to say even here. One thing I can say is I like to imagine being a girl. when I was a kid my older cousin (a girl) dressed me in girls clothes one time when we were at her house alone. She had some old clothes of hers that fit me and she did makeup on my eyes and fixed my hair to look a little more girly. it was just like something to do because we were bored but I really liked it and I couldnt believe how much I looked like a girl. ever since then I have loved to think about that and when I am with a guy I love if he treats me more like im a girl than a boy.

 

idk how to explain that exactly but with some guys it can be like that and I like it

[jamieboy]

Ok so here goes...shit a married woman saying this...well f....it.

I was like 12 or 13(dont really remember)and me and my neighbour(girl)made out in the back of our house.......

Dont know why we did it, i never really saw girls in that kind of way but it just happend

Felt good thought

Not even my husband knows about this....surelly we would be delighted if he knew (i think).....

well if you liked how it felt than be happy about it. You shouldnt feel bad just because your older now and think back on that in a different way

[jamieboy]

I slept with my "practical" instructor in college. He taught us hands on stuff in a real world setting. he made a pass and I accepted. I wish that I had had better sense than that but it was a long time ago so... What a dope I was LOL

When I think of it now I cringe and feel embarrassed. At the time it seemed kinda romantic - Wahhhh so embarrassing.

 

If you enjoyed it then and thought it was romantic, why are you embarassed now and cringing? Just have it as a good memory and be happy!

[rotten boy]

rabbit14

Sometimes I let people think I'm a boy cause it amuses me. Plus I think they believe a girl can't write good gay romance. Romance is romance, ne? Just the parts are different. lol

 

No, some of the best yaoi artists are girls and I think their art is great.

[rotten boy]

Sometimes I wish I was a girl that was having sex with a cute guy.

I like to tease my nipples.

I have dressed in girl clothing.

I slept with a friend.

I have play toys.

I like both guys and girls and do not care who I have slept with.

[Jezzibelle]

I fell in love with the person I hate most in this world...My sister.

[elfmist]

I have a terrible one, and I feel so stupid about it.

 

Lets just keep it a short post. My ex, [boyfriend back in the days] was on holiday. I called him up.. And this -girl- got on the phone.. telling me he's doing an orgy with several friends.

 

Yes, I got furious and instantly cried several times that night, until he called 7 days later, the last day of his holiday, that he's all good. I ditched him when he got home.

 

Now I dont know if they where kidding, but I was so embarrest/sad/feeling stupid, while I was completely inlove with him.

 

haven't spoke to him since that fiasco, and still dont dare to.

[cherryyuri]

@jezibelle you mean your sister... your sister?

 

@elfmist well.. to talk it's always the best solution. and then it's up to you to belive or not and to continue or not. but if you feel you have to, then talk to him..

[elfmist]

@Cherryyuri I totally should, but I've been such a jerk, and its been longer than a year -,-