Toxic Love (shisu-chan & confidant_v)

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya felt the sharp intake of breath against his lips as if he was touching it specifically. He moaned softly against the other as he felt the blood slide down his throat. The small demon couldn’t even speak his name anymore to call out for him, he was so shell shocked from the toxins that his small body couldn’t handle anymore. The fact that Kasen could hardly say anything at all made Shinya moan in return. He wanted to enjoy the fact that his obnoxiously loud demon was unable to say anything at all.

 

Shinya knew it was coming close to an end. He still had at least another round in him before he could fully release. Kasen was so high at the moment that anything was going to push him over the edge and as the vampire spread his cheeks sliding into him deeper he felt the spray of warmth over his stomach. He was panting hard as he held Kasen’s body down on his own, stopping the movement for just a moment to relish in the clenching of the others spasming muscles. He leaned his head back with a moan closing his eyes as he felt the others walls close around him and then open up as if trying to swallow him more.

 

He groaned digging his nails into the others ass as he waited for the other’s body to relax for a moment. He wasn’t finished and his hard cock sat patiently waiting for the demon to gather his senses again. Shinya gently held the other sliding his arms around his waist tightly, “Kasen…” he spoke softly almost with a worried tone in his voice. The demon couldn’t say a word and he could hardly hold himself upright. His eyes lowered on the others face as he pulled back just slightly so he could see his demon.

 

A hand traveled to his face and he gently leaned into it as it explored his face. Shinya smiled softly kissing the fingers that touched his lips only to nod, “Alright handsome.” He said softly shifting and guiding Kasen’s body down to the mattress. He kissed his chest softly as his cock slid out of him almost entirely only for the vampire to reposition himself. Kasen lay on his back with the vampire between his legs, still connected at the hips. He moaned softly as he felt the others muscles tighten around his cock as he pulled his hips closer, thrusting slowly into Kasen as he did so.

 

A hand moved behind the others knee pulling it up and holding it against his chest. The vampire shivered lightly tightening his fingers into the others thigh as he pulled out of him only to thrust up into him slowly. He didn’t want to move too quickly for the demon who had just released again and was more than sensitive now. Shinya sped up his hips, his cock twitching inside of Kasen as he wanted to cum himself but would need to hold off for just a little bit. They had at least another round in them seeing as Kasen was withering under his body.

 

He wanted to see him completely ruined. He was already pretty close. Their bodies clad in sweat and blood and cum. So many slick bodily fluids clung to the two of them as they slammed into one another again and again. He couldn’t help but moan as Kasen’s voice called over the room probably waking all the neighbors. He didn’t care though and wanted to make it loud enough that Kasen wouldn’t have a voice tomorrow and his neighbors would give them dirty looks in the morning. He wanted to make it so the demon never forgot about him, never thought about finding another fuck buddy.

 

The vampire leaned his head back as his cock delved deeper into Kasen searching out for his soft spot. He wanted to make him cum again and again until he was covered in himself. Until the two of them were completely spent. He felt himself getting closer to his own release from the constant bombarding of contact against his cock. Shinya just wanted the demon, he just wanted to feel his hands on his body and his ass tightening around his length like a vice grip. He just wanted Kasen.

[confidant_v]

Shinya could do whatever he wanted to Kasen. There weren’t many people Kasen trusted, but Shinya was one of them. He knew that Shinya would never hurt him, never put him in danger, never betray the faith that the demon put in him. It was why Kasen allowed his vampire to do these things to him. It was why he felt safe even though he was nearly incapacitated, practically immobile. Shinya took care of him and his body so Kasen had no problem handing himself over to the vampire entirely.

 

He was hardly aware of how Shinya was handling him though. He recognized that he was being set on his back, he didn’t really recognize that he was laying on a bed, and he certainly didn’t recognize anything other than the fact that his vampire was slowly pushing in and out of him. Even with his slow speed, Kasen could feel Shinya in every part of him. His voice was loud, crying out as if he were being fucked relentlessly. His sensitive body reacted to everything Shiny was giving him. His walls tightened around the other and each and every part of him screamed as that thick cock glided along his tender insides.

 

His voice grew as Shinya began to speed up. It carried through the apartment and then some, his cries and moans begging for Shinya to never stop this. All he wanted was his Shinya. He wanted his bites, he wanted his cock, he wanted his kisses and affection and love. His desire for him was tearing him apart, and it was all he could do to keep himself together. Not that he was together in way possible. His mind was cracked, lost to the toxins swirling inside of it. His body was far beyond it’s normal realm of sensitivity. It belonged entirely to Shinya, who knew exactly where to touch, where to kiss, and where to bite. Even his blood belonged to the vampire… Everything was his now and Kasen was more than happy to give it.

 

A sob left his parted lips when he felt Shinya hit that perfect spot. His back arched slightly and his head lolled to the side as he forced his hips harder against his vampire’s cock. He needed to feel that again. He needed those fireworks to shoot through him again. He needed Shinya to aim for that spot again, to never stop hitting him there for as long as he lived. The frustration at not being able to speak increased in Kasen. He tried so hard to tell him to hit there again, to hit that special soft spot again, but all he could manage was moans and incomprehensible mumbles.

 

“Shinya!” At this point it was all his mind could formulate. His hypersensitive body pushed out any and all logic, and it was a miracle he could even say the name. That was probably the toxins at work; it was the toxins that took away his mind and replaced everything with Shinya. Shinya was his air, his blood, his heart, strength, and mind. He was everything.

 

Yet Kasen needed more of him. He tried sitting up only for his weakened body to fall back down on the bed. Every moan that came out of him was a cry for Shinya to keep making him feel this way, to fuel that fire even more, to hit those particularly sensitive spots that sent Kasen right over the edge. His body writhed under the other, twisting and turning, gripping the sheets and his hair and latching onto whatever he could find. His hips automatically began pressing against Shinya’s perfect cock; Kasen could hardly control his own actions. He may have been weak, but his body craved Shinya in every way possible. He attempted to aim for that spot that he knew would make him go insane. Shinya wouldn’t let him down though; he never did. It was just one of the many reasons he desired him so badly.

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya moaned lowly tightening a hand around his thighs as his hips start to get harder. He leaned his head to the side biting the others thigh as he angled his hips searching. When he hit that perfect spot he heard a loud cry from Kasen pulling a smile from his lips as he pushed down into his hips once more.

 

A hand snaked around sliding around the others cock as he started to stroke Kasen off. He realized the other wanted to sit up and he pushed the demon against the bed sliding his tongue over the wound he had made in the others thigh. “Kasen…” he panted softly his lips painted red from his feeding and his cheeks pink with the life his demon had been giving him. It was obvious that the demon was so sensitive at the moment that he most likely wouldn’t have noticed if Shinya hadn’t been hitting the right spots.

 

Shinya could feel the pulling in his balls as they pleaded to release their fill into Kasen. Deep into him as Shinya slammed into Kasen harder after he found that perfect spot for him. He leaned his head back with a moan his lower abdomen tightening hard as he felt everything inside of him warm up. Coming alive once again as if he was human again. He was panting hard as his body slammed into Kasen. He leaned down softly kissing the others neck as he picked up his pace, groaning softly as his cock twitched inside of Kasen threatening to release everything he had been holding in for weeks now.

 

As he shifted his hips sliding into Kasen just a little bit deeper he felt his body push him over the edge. He groaned hard tightening his hands into the others thigh as he came inside of him, filling him up to the brim with his warm cum. He shivered hard against Kasen’s body having to stop his hips for a moment as he rode out the waves of his orgasm. He leaned down softly kissing the others chest with a moan, “Kasen…” He breathed against his chest sliding a hand down gently slapping Kasen’s ass. “Tight…” he breathed out softly biting the others throat and kissing up to his jaw.

 

He gently tilted his face down and kissed his lips softly as he pulled out of him feeling the cum slowly follow him as his cock slides out of him. He let out a shakey breath and couldn’t help but chuckle softly, “Have you quenched your thirst for me yet Kasen or do you need another round?” he asked softly kissing the others lips before biting one softly tasting the warmth in his mouth like it was his favorite candy. He was still panting softly and he was still hot and bothered. He could go for another round if Kasen really wanted to but he didn’t need it. IT was enough seeing Kasen so…out of his mind.

 

As he looked down at his demon he couldn’t get over the beauty of his demon. He was pale and sweating and covered in red. His beautiful white skin was dotted with the dangerous hues of red sliding down his legs and arms from the wounds that were there. Looking down at him Shinya realized he had bitten him more than usual. He felt gorged with blood, with Kasen. It felt like kasen was inside of him, coursing through his own veins. He felt like he was 20 again before he turned into a vampire and he felt like he was..living. It was so nice to feel alive and only Kasen could make him feel that way.

[confidant_v]

Kasen felt the bite to his thigh and it was all he could do not full on scream. If Shinya took more blood from him, that was fine. When he finally regained his mind, Kasen would be happy to know that Shinya took all he needed from him. If this is what Kasen could give him, then he’d share without complaint. All the pleasure coursing through him was a gift from Shinya, so it was no problem to gift something back. His blood belonged as much to the vampire as it did to him.

 

It was all over when Shinya started to stroke him. Kasen’s moans turned to shouts and he knew his body could only take so much more. The double pleasure of being stroked and fucked at once drove him mad with euphoric joy. His walls tightened around Shinya and it was then that he felt it. God, he’d missed this feeling so much. Shinya released inside of him, the heat of it filling every part of Kasen’s body. His sensitive body could feel it swirling inside of him, and he closed his eyes as he released as well, dirtying the two of them once again. He’d wanted to feel his precious vampire inside of him so badly, and now that he got that wish he wanted to feel him cum inside of him again.

 

He whimpered softly when Shinya pulled out of him, his liquid following after. It made a mess on the bed, but the sheets were already covered in cum and blood that it wouldn’t have mattered much. Kasen knew he’d been bitten many times tonight, but he couldn’t quite register just how much blood he’d actually lost. He could heal quickly enough, but for now his body needed a break that his mind wasn’t privy to. He was about to attempt to beg for more, but he was interrupted by a quick gasp at his ass being slapped before his lips were captured in a kiss. When they pulled away Kasen was breathing heavily, as if he’d just run a marathon. He could hardly understand what Shinya was saying to him and he cocked his head slightly as he tried to make out the words that were spoken.

 

Another kiss stopped him from attempting anything, and he squeaked when he felt the other bite his lip. How many bites had he taken this night? He loved every single one of them and wouldn’t have minded if his vampire took more. His vampire could take whatever he wanted from him and Kasen wouldn’t care. So long as he could experience this more, he didn’t care what Shinya wanted from him.

 

More soft whimpers escaped him when he realized this was probably the end of their night. He did his best to wrap his shaky arms around Shinya’s neck and pull him down for a kiss. His tongue ran along the other’s, the metallic taste of his blood filling his mouth. The toxins still worked to keep Kasen mostly sedated, and even as they made the demon want to beg for more from his vampire, his body simply couldn’t. He’d have to regain his strength before going another round with his favorite toy.

 

“I…” He swallowed hard as he tried to speak, still finding it difficult to formulate words let alone full thoughts. In his weakened state his hand eventually fell from Shinya’s neck, though he rested it on his stomach, unaware of the stickiness of the blood and cum covering him. “I wan… I want you…” He mumbled, his half-lidded, cloudy eyes staring into Shinya’s sharp ones. A smile made it’s way onto his lips as he turned his head to the side; his body was fighting against the toxins now. It knew it needed rest, but the invasive toxins kept Kasen awake with his desire for Shinya.

 

A moan left him as he squirmed slightly under the other. All in all, Kasen had no idea what was going on. His body worked to protect him from himself, but all he could think about was his Shinya. He couldn’t take his eyes off of him; his handsome vampire whose lips were bright red with blood, his eyes hazy with lust and fullness, his body strong and supportive though also covered in red… Not that Kasen paid too much attention to that.

 

“You…” It was getting slightly easier to speak as his body worked to shut away the toxins. His mind was still mostly gone, but it was beginning to form cohesive, genuine thoughts once again. The toxin's ability to get Kasen to spill the truth was still in effect, and Kasen could hardly stop the words in his brain from falling from his mouth. “You are… I… I think….” Kasen blinked a few times, tilting his head at the beautiful creature above him. “I think… I love you…” Kasen took a deep, shuddering breath as his body began to shut down on him. Little black spots appeared in his vision, covering Shinya’s lovely face. “Why… Why won’t you stay…?” He shook his head to keep himself awake. He didn’t want to be away from Shinya. Even sleep was too far away from his precious vampire. Why was it so difficult to just be with Shinya? It was the only thing Kasen wanted… Why was it so hard?

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya felt slightly bad for drinking so much from the other seeing him so weak under his body. He knew that his demon could heal relatively quick but he still felt a little bad for hurting him so much. He flicked a tongue over the others lips as his arms pulled him into another kiss. Shinya shifted and gently pulled Kasen deeper into the kiss swirling their tongues together tasting the taste of his blood in his mouth. When he pulled back he heard a soft whimper from his demon. A soft smile formed on his lips as he watched his demon try and formulate words for what he wanted to say.

 

Shinya leaned down kissing the others shoulder as his hands slid off his neck. “You should rest little demon…” He spoke softly licking up the bleeding wound on his demons nipple. He groaned softly at the taste, not needing anymore but wanting some anyway. He sighed softly hearing the soft want from the other as he tried so hard to keep his lidded eyes open. “I know…” He said softly running a hand through the others hair as he started to talk.

 

Another moan racked his demon and he slid a thumb over the others bleeding lips as he leaned down kissing his cheeks softly. “I know Kasen…shh…just close your eyes.” He said softly against his cheek sliding off the other to lay beside him pulling the small creature against his chest. He embraced him hard. He didn’t know that Kasen had actually probably loved him. The realization made him smile like an idiot and he was happy the demon couldn’t see it in his state. He let his hands roam through the others hair as he held him close letting him fall asleep on his chest. There was no way Kasen could stay awake any longer. He didn’t know if it was the toxins that made Kasen think he loved him but at the moment the vampire wanted to believe him.

 

“I can’t stay with you Kasen…even though I would want nothing more…” he knew the demon was probably asleep but he kissed his head all the same and answered his question as if to ease his own mind. He sighed and laid his head back on the pillow looking up at the ceiling as the soft breathing of the demon next to him eased his mind. The only times he could ever sleep was when he was full and at the moment he felt his eyes slowly starting to close.

 

Possibly it was being exhausted from fucking Kasen so hard or maybe it was the comfort of the demon resting against him, so defensless and trusting. He started to feel his own mind slipping, getting sleepier as the moments passed. Time seemed to stand still and all the sudden he was out. He was breathing heavily with the demon sleeping on his chest and he couldn’t be happier.

 

The two had rarely ever spent the night together cuddling. This was a break from their normal pattern and it wouldn’t go unnoticed in the morning. They slept soundly in their own bodily fluids not really minding that they were covered in cum and blood. If Shinya hadn’t had so much to drink he would have taken Kasen to the bathroom, washed him and his demon off, and then carried him back to bed before falling asleep next to him. Sadly, he himself was exhausted and too full to really do much about it. He just welcomed the warmth of another body and the comfort of Kasens body against his own.

[confidant_v]

Kasen typically woke up gently, with the kind tongue of his favorite pet snake flickering on his cheek and her soft scales gliding over his arm and neck. It had become a routine to be woken up by her, and it helped Kasen start his day calmly and happily. However, he put his snake away when visitors were over, which was rare. Shinya had been his first visitor in quite a while, but it was just as nice waking up with him than with his pet snake Amelia. It was one hundred times nicer even. When Kasen’s eyes slowly fluttered open, they were met the sight of his beautiful vampire. His hand was resting gently on Shinya’s chest and he lightly ran it down the soft skin. He felt evidence from their rough escapades last night and smiled to himself.

 

“Naughty boy,” he muttered, his voice hoarse from shouting so much. He cleared his throat, though it did little to help. Instead of focusing on that he pressed himself closer to Shinya, relishing in the warmth coming from the other. When had they ever cuddled like this? It felt like they were actually a couple, like Shinya wouldn’t run off today or tomorrow to go and fuck some loser who didn’t appreciate him. It was frustrating… Why couldn’t Shinya just stay with him? He’d get an answer out of him today if it killed him.

 

For now, he put the thought on the backburner and instead indulged in his precious toy. He pressed a few kisses to his chest while his finger swirled over one perfect nipple. Shinya always had a way of driving him wild. He was unsure if the vampire was awake or not, but he tried to lift himself up so he could kiss those plump lips of his. Unfortunately he was stopped the moment he tried.

 

“Fuck!” He cried out and flopped onto his back. He didn’t expect the sharp pain in his lower body nor did he expect all of the little stings from where he’d biten. Last night had been one of the best experiences of his life, and now he was paying for it. “Hey…” He lightly tapped Shinya on his side over and over again. “Heeeeey….” He pressed a hand to his own abdomen, again smiling at the dried cum and blood he’d felt here. He looked down at himself and raised an eyebrow. It had definitely been one of their more incredible nights together. There was a lot of Kasen did remember, and a lot he didn’t. He mostly remembered the feel of it all, the way is body burned and begged for Shinya and how Shinya did everything in his power to give him everything he wanted. He remembered losing his mind to pleasure, allowing Shinya to have his way with him just as he always did. It was such an amazing feeling to give himself over entirely, to let Shinya do with him as he wanted and knowing he would love every bit of it.

 

What he didn’t remember was the little things. How he begged Shinya to fuck him, how Shinya might have made fun of him, things Kasen might have said… Probably for the better. Most things that came out of Kasen’s mouth were offensive and rude so the less he remembered the better.

 

“Shinya….” he tried to shout the other’s name, but his throat was too sore for him to even try. He flung his arm over so his wrist would land on Shinya’s mouth. “Can I have a little, Shinya? Just to help with the pain? Come on, don’t be mean…”

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya was a vampire and he woke the moment he heard Kasen soeakcthay first raspy hey. He just didn’t open his eyes. Instead he patiently waited for the demon to get impatient. The soft jabs to his stomach and the pleadingthat cane from his little demon were like music to his ears. He did however get worried hearing a wince from the other. Obvious signs of their previous evening together. Shinya was more than shocked that he was even still in bed with the other considering they never spent the night together.

 

When he felt the others pulse against his lips he smiled nipping the skin playfully but not breaking the skin. “You know you grow far too dependent on those Kasen. It was you who begged me to keep fucking you last night even though you knew it would hurt this morning.” His red eyes flashed open peering at his demon as his tongue flicked over the wound from last night that was red and angry looking on the demons wrist. “Not my fault you got me so worked up.” He leaned over and pecked the others lips softly. “I’m surprised there isn’t a little bit left from last night...I...” he looked down st the demons body and chuckled softly. “I certainly did a number on you.”

 

He pecked the demons forehead before rolling out of bed feeling sticky and gross. He stretched his arms over his head, not ashamed of his nudity as he walked to Kasens side of the bed and bending down. He picked up the demon and smiled a little as he walked him to the bathroom setting his still sheet covered ass on the counter. Having brought the sheets so the other didn’t get too cold. He turned on the water and let the shower water warm up before plugging the drain and starting a bath.

 

“I’m sorry...” he spoke softly as he walked back to the demon. He felt a little bad seeing him in the light of day with the multiple bite marks in his skin. “I didn’t mean to be so tough with you. I don’t know what happened. I would love to take the pain away but I’m afraid...I’m too full to keep drinking from you.” He lightly brushed a hair out of the others face.

 

He was still full from the night before and he didn’t think he could take on any blood for at least a few days. And that was if he didn’t move around a lot. He lightly rubbed his tummy and smiled a childish smile, “Are you trying to make me fat Kasen?” He walked back to the water seeing it was full and he turned off the water. He moved back to his demon slowly removing the sheet before picking him up and setting him down in the water. The vampire grabbed two towels and sat them on the towel rack for them when they were finished.

 

He then turned and sat behind the demon pulling his body against his chest and resting his chin on his shoulder. “Why don’t i stay more often...?” He asked softly as if wondering to Kasen why he wasn’t invited over more. In truth he was asking himself why he didn’t trust in the demon more and take him up on his offer. Aside from the legal reasons why he couldn’t his heart wouldn’t mind if his body was used by Kasen. In the bedroom the little demon commanded everything when he wasn’t doped out of his mind. He was the only client the vampire let push him around and he was the only one he drank from. That had to be special right? That meant the demon meant something more than just a client right?

 

Shinya didn’t know the answers and as much as he wished he could just say yes to Kasen it wasn’t that easy. He had been working for this company for a long time and it would be a little strange if he decided to quit out of nowhere. His boss would need an explanation and a good one. Then again the vampire could just kill everyone, pack up his things and his demon and change towns. He wouldn’t mind a change of scenery and a new job. He had been stuck in the sex industry for a long long time. A change started to sound nice.

[confidant_v]

Every day could be like this if only Shinya would stay. They could wake up every morning from a wonderfully sex filled night, cuddle and kiss and tease each other, and then start their day together. Having a life together sounded like a dream come true and yet Shinya continually rejected Kasen. Over and over, Kasen had to accept the fact that he could only see his Shinya when he put in an application to do so. Well, no more. Things would change starting today. Even if it was just one small thing, Kasen would change something just so Shinya knew he was always welcomed here regardless if Kasen applied to see him or not.

 

For now, he held back his frustration and let the vampire take care of him. Kasen couldn’t remember a time he’d been treated so gently. He snuggled against Shinya’s chest when he was lifted, relishing in the other’s scent. He may not have been able to receive any more toxins, but he could trade that off for this kind treatment. Knowing that Shinya cared enough to help him and take care of him warmed Kasen’s heart. He left little kisses on Shinya’s neck as a thank you, refusing to stop until the other set him down so he could run the water.

 

“Don’t ever apologize for being rough with me,” Kasen said, winking at his companion. “I love the things you do to me. Do you love being with me too? Do I satisfy you the same way you satisfy me?” Kasen pressed a quick kiss to Shinya’s lips before laughing at his joke about making him fat. Kasen gently pinched his vampire’s stomach, giggling at the lack of actual fat there. “Well, you know if you’re fat it means you’re being well fed. I’ll admit, I’m glad you were able to get full off of me.” He cleared his throat, annoyed that his voice was so sore. Shouting and yelling any time soon seemed unlikely.

 

When his body hit the water Kasen let out a gentle sigh. His head fell back as the warmth started easing his tense, pained muscles. Even better was the warmth that Shinya offered him. Kasen rested against the other, turning his head to kiss his vampire’s temple and cheeks. He smiled at the soft words the other spoke, lifting his still weakened arm to run his hands through Shinya’s hair. “You can always stay, Shinya. I’m not going to kick you out or send you away.” His mind started working on how exactly he’d be able to keep the vampire here. Honestly, why wouldn’t he want to stay with Kasen? The conversation started last night, but was quickly dropped off. Shinya had said there was no client he liked more than Kasen so what was the problem?

 

Kasen took a deep breath as the water slowly invigorated his exhausted body. His eyes closed as he continued peppering Shinya’s cheek with kisses. This was the kind of thing couples did. If Shinya just stayed, then these little moments could become the norm for them. “You know, Shinya,” Kasen started, deciding to just go ahead and say what was on his mind. “If you did stay you would never be hungry. I’d let you feed off of me whenever you wanted. You often come to me hungry and I don’t know if it’s because you can’t find food or you aren’t given food, but that would never be a problem if you stayed. I’d never let you go hungry.” That was true. Kasen refused to let his precious vampire grow weak just because he couldn’t get any blood. “Also, we could have sex like that every night. The pain is worth the pleasure. I’d do anything for you in the bedroom, and I’d like to believe you’d anything for me. Do your other clients allow for that or do you just follow their boring orders?”

 

Kasen turned Shinya’s head so they were facing each other. Those sharp, red eyes were hypnotizing and it took Kasen a moment to gather his thoughts again and not fall under the vampire’s spell. Just looking into those eyes made Kasen’s heart pound in his chest; it would be a miracle if Shinya didn’t hear it. The things this vampire did to him without even trying was incredible. “I’d take care of you if you stayed here, Shinya. I’d do my best anyway. I may not really know what you need, but you can tell me and I’d try to provide for you. I know I say stupid things and I know that I’m insulting, but I’d take care of you. Isn’t it time someone took care of you for once?”

 

With a heavy sigh he turned away from Shinya and faced forward, grabbing a washcloth from the rack and handing it to his vampire in hopes he’d wipe him down. He wasn’t so much worried about getting clean; he just wanted to feel those hands roaming his body again. There was never a time Kasen didn't want Shinya's hands on him, even when was supposed to be recovering from their intense night. While his body continued to desire his vampire, his mind wondered if Shinya was actually hearing what he was saying. Even after all of his convincing, Kasen had a feeling Shinya would reject his offer. He always did. The conversation from last night wasn’t forgotten, but Kasen wanted to at least wait until he’d eaten before delving into something that was probably more serious than his immature mind wanted to admit.

 

Instead of continuously begging Shinya to stay like he usually did, he had a new offer for him. This one wasn’t so direct. It showed that Kasen wanted to strengthen their friendship while also indicating that he wanted Shinya to stay. “Shinya… Even if you decide you won’t stay with me, then at least know that you can come by here any time. Any time, day or night, my door is open to you. You can stay as long as or little as you want, and you don’t even have to wait for my confirmation. I’ll give you a key before you leave so take care of it and just know that you’re always welcome here.”

[Shisu-Chan00]

The sigh that came from the other was like a relief all to his own. He sighed himself tilting his head a little bit as he heard Kasen speak up. His eyes closed as he felt the other kiss his cheeks waiting for him to speak up more. Sure Kasen would never kick him our or send him away but he felt that he still couldn’t. Right? Kasen seemed like he was going to drop it only to hear him speak once more. The vampire sighed gently as he heard the other begin on a conversation that would most likely get them into a fight.

 

Shinya shifted his head and looked into Kasen’s eyes as he guided his face that way. He looked into the others eyes and searched for something there that he wasn’t sure he would find. Kasen, sadly, was readable. He heard the short pause of the demons breathing and that heart of his speed up as the blood through his veins started coursing faster and faster. He smiled a little, wondering if it was because he was staring at him this way or because his mind was in the gutter. He wondered…for a split moment…if those three muttered words last night were actually true.

 

When he was given the rag he took it from the other sliding it into the water before starting to wipe down the others back as he waited to see if the demon was finished speaking. Sure the vampire had things he wanted to say but the demon was having a conversation with him, a real one. He wasn’t being selfish he was asking shinya questions and wanting answers from him. It seemed that these thoughts had weighed on his mind for a long time now and as the vampire started to roam his hands over the others shoulders wiping him down he wondered if the demon would ever be finished.

 

The offer of his own key to the apartment shocked him. Shinya was in no place to be with Kasen that way. They had never been more than just master/slave in their little outings. This was the first morning they had spent with one another and the vampire was a little shocked at how second nature it was to take care of the demon like this. He hadn’t been with someone like this in…more years than he could count. He sighed softly against the others shoulder and smiled softly. “Thank you…for the offer I mean.” He slid his arms around the others waist and pulled him harder against his chest, stretching the other out so he could clean his front.

 

“Listen…” he started and stopped shaking his head. “No…that’s not right.” He started again and rested his chin on the others shoulder as he cleaned him. “First of all, I come to you hungry because I prefer your blood over those around me. I could drink from any of my clients if I asked them to…you would be surprised how many are infatuated with me and my otherworldly habits.” He kissed the others shoulder softly. “I have no lack of food supply. I just haven’t found anyone I want to drink from more than you. Fresh anyway…I have my own storage of blood in my place but when I’m wanting to feel…alive I need you.” He paused a moment his hands pausing at the others lower abdomen. “You’re the only one who makes me feel human…the only person that can make me feel alive again. That’s everything to my kind…being human was my prime. I didn’t ask to be what I am and I didn’t want to kill people for food. You make me feel 20 again..” He sighed a little and shook his head a little upset about it.

 

“I would love to come stay with you…or have you come with me considering I have a house that’s bigger than eight of these tiny flats you have.” He chuckled a little. “Surprisingly its not here…we would have to travel to get there. I have a summer villa and a winter home in the mountains we could bounce back and forth from. There is just a tiny problem…with my work.” He hugged Kasen to him kissing his neck gently. “I can’t just up and leave it and I can’t just…be taken away by a client. Even if it is one of my most paying clientele. There are other reasons why I can’t stay with you…unless I murder everyone I work with. I’m the only vampire at the shop and you would imagine how upset people would get if I just left. I would have people looking for me, for you, for anyone that they could get their hands on to blackmail me into coming back.” He closed his eyes burying his face in the others neck as he just basked in his scent.

 

Kasen had a very unique sent to him that Shinya could smell and pick him out from the others if he was within a few miles of him. This is why he always knew where Kasen was before they met one another, he didn’t need a map to find his demon. His nose was his own little map to finding him. Perhaps it was the blood or perhaps it was the connection between the two of them but something wouldn’t let him forget that scent. Demons had a long life span…but they were not immortal. Kasen would eventually deteriorate and die. Sure they may have centuries before then but Shinya would outlive his demon if they decided to go this route. Unless…he killed himself with the demon. He blinked a few times as the thought crossed through his mind feeling like an old epic tragedy.

 

“How about…we compromise? I’ll take the key to your place and I’ll come over. You don’t have to put in an application. I’ll give you my personal phone number and when you wanna see me or I wanna come over I’ll just shoot you a message and tell you I’m coming over. Or you know just surprise you by being here one day.” He shrugged biting the others neck playfully. “How does that sound for now?”

[confidant_v]

Kasen chuckled as Shinya went on and on about his large, numerous houses. He clicked his tongue and raised an eyebrow as his hands started to roam over the other’s thighs. “So what you’re saying is that you should be paying me instead of the other way around? I think can strike a deal with that.”

 

Though it seemed another deal with struck. Shinya accepted Kasen’s offer to give him his key, and he even sweetened the pot. He had gone from being a client to a friend. Part of him felt overjoyed at this new development in their relationship, but another part of him couldn’t help but feel disappointed. Kasen was someone who always got what he wanted. He was someone who never had to wait, never had to question if he’d get something, never had to negotiate. Shinya wasn’t someone who just allowed Kasen to have his way and this was something to get used to. He’d do it for his vampire though. Shinya was special to him and it was about time he let the man know it.

 

Little butterflies fluttered in his stomach at Shinya’s sweet words. Kasen wasn’t exactly sure how much it meant for a vampire to feel alive, but based on what Shinya said it was a fairly big deal. Knowing that Kasen could give Shinya that type of warmth, affection, and feeling made his heart swell. “You make me feel alive too, Shinya. You turn my cold blood warm.” He giggled, enjoying the fluffy feelings inside of him. That being said he didn’t like all of the things Shinya was saying about his jealous clients. Regardless of how hard Shinya pressed the seriousness of it, Kasen couldn’t see it. He’d protect Shinya and he knew Shinya would protect him. “You know, Shinya, people quit jobs all the time.” He bit his lip, closing his eyes as he stopped to think about his words. He didn’t want to offend Shinya again so when he opened his mouth it was only after he carefully thought about what he wanted to say. “Maybe later today you can explain to me what I’m missing here. I’m… I guess I’m not understanding the severity of your situation. You’ll have to really explain it to me. S-sorry….” Kasen wasn’t used to not being obnoxious, but Shinya was good at making Kasen change.

 

He turned around, twitching as a jolt of pain shot through him. The warm water had eased his pain, but it wouldn’t leave him so quickly. He let out a slow breath as he relaxed in his vampire’s arms, his body slowly settling again. His own arms wrapped around Shinya’s neck and he placed a soft kiss to his lips. “Sometimes I don’t like the emotions you make me feel. I only like being happy, but you make me miss you. I’m disappointed you won’t stay with me, but I’m excited that you’ll come see me more. I’m glad I don’t have to apply to see you anymore. We’re friends, aren’t we? Very, very close friends?” He smiled widely as his lips found Shinya’s again. He kissed him deeper this time, sighing against the kiss as he let himself fall into vampire’s taste and scent and spell.

 

Shinya was the most intoxicating being alive. Even without the effects of the toxins, Kasen was hypnotized by his vampire. He cupped the other’s face in his hands as he kissed him, running his tongue along those sharp, addictive fangs. He moaned softly, his heart pounding in his chest harder and harder as he deepened the kiss. Kasen refused to let Shinya go. He didn’t know how much time had passed, but he felt like if he broke the kiss then Shinya would just disappear. He always disappeared and Kasen couldn’t admit how lonely he was when Shinya was gone. He had his snakes and his pets, a few superficial friends but that was it. In a way, Shinya was all he had.

 

Minutes passed and Kasen still refused to let Shinya’s lips go. He breathed through his nose as best as he could, but he honestly didn’t care. All he cared about was keeping Shinya as close to him as possible. Another moan escaped him, though it was more like a whimper. His desperation began to show as he pressed his lips harder against Shinya’s. His tongue played with the other’s and regardless of the pain in his lower body he straddled Shinya’s waist. As happy as he was that Shinya accepted the key to his apartment, he couldn’t handle the thought of him leaving once again. Anything he could do to keep Shinya there he would.

 

Unfortunately, the time came to finally break the kiss. The vampire may not have needed air, but Kasen did. He reluctantly pulled away, though his tongue licked at his lips one last time. His breath came in heavy pants and he stared into Shinya’s eyes. Kasen's own eyes were cloudy again, as if he were under the spell of the toxins. “Shinya,” he mumbled, pressing their foreheads together. “Will you at least stay with me today? I know you’re busy, but… can you please just stay with me for the rest of the day?” It was unlikely Shinya could. He never stayed. The two of them never spent a morning like this together, and while Kasen hoped this could continue he doubted it could happen. Shinya had clients and other people waiting on him… People other than Kasen.

 

A sigh signaled Kasen’s resignation. He’d accept whatever Shinya could give him regardless of his own feelings. This vampire was the first person he ever put his feelings aside for, and he knew he’d always do it. He’d possibly even die for him. Letting out another sigh, Kasen pressed Shinya’s head to his neck. “At least give me enough so I can stand up and make myself breakfast. Please?”

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya shifted slightly and smiled seeing that the demon was a little happy about their little agreement. Of course the little demon wasn’t exactly excited about it but I mean he would have to deal. Shinya just couldn’t drop everything at the moment. His boss was a high level demon that held a contract for Shinya to work for him for at least 20 years. Shinya couldn’t remember what he had done to place himself in the debt of the demon but he had done it and his contract wasn’t up yet. He had 6 more years on his sentence and he wouldn’t be able to just move away with another lower level demon and leave him bankrupt. Half the money, more than half the money Shinya made went to the boss in hopes to pay off the contract to get out of it.

 

As much as Shinya wanted to leave the establishment and run away with Kasen it wasn’t that simple. He would have to fight the demon, pray he wins, and then he would have to take over the company because no one else would. In which case he would just move it to wherever he and kasen decided to go. Shinya was pulled out of his thoughts when he felt the other turn in his arms to hug around his neck planting a gentle kiss on the vampires lips. A soft smile formed as he heard what his little demon had said. He was feeling, something more than just a childish need to be happy. He was thinking things over before he said them and he was trying his hardest not to be a dick.

 

Shinya could appreciate that enough and when he slid his arms around the demon and kissed him again he felt that he could sit in this tub forever. Kasen was just as intoxicating to Shinya as the vampire was to the demon. As their kiss grew a little more heated, and long Shinya started to wonder what the problem was. He felt his hips straddled and he groaned lowly against the others lips as he heard another whimper though this one didn’t seem sexual at all. Worry flashed in the back of his mind as the kiss was broken and the little demon sat on his lap panting. He nipped his tongue softly and looked up at Kasen with a soft smile.

 

He had kissed himself back into a little daze and the offer to stay with him during the day shocked him. Shinya looked away a moment feeling Kasen shift on his lap resting his head against the others chest. Shinya sat for a moment and he had to think carefully. He had a few meetings today he couldn’t not go to but after that he was finished. He hadn’t taken on a night customer this evening because he felt like he wanted a little time to himself. So he could stay…least for a little while and until he needed to meet up with those clients to do them a favor of some form or fashion.

 

Shinya didn’t sleep with all of his customers. Some just asked him to come with them on a business trip, or would ask him to go out with them to make them feel loved. Some would just take him to parties, show him off, pay him, and then never speak to him again. It was all about images and who was dating who. Shinya was a beautiful creature and anyone would be happy to have him on his or her arm. Of course, Shinya didn’t always act the way they wanted him to.

 

He kissed the demons shoulder softly, “No Kasen…you had plenty last night.” He felt like a mom scolding her son but he was right. Kasen had had plenty of toxins last night and he wouldn’t be giving him more. Least not right now. He kissed his shoulder again, “I have two meetings today Kasen but other than that I’m free. How about I leave when I need to and come back when I’m finished? They each shouldn’t take more than two hours tops…” He trailed off rubbing little circles with his thumbs on the others hips. “I could stay…tonight…?” he asked a little nervous but not knowing why. He felt like a teenager in high school asking their crush if they wanted to go out for the first time. It was a stupid little thing to be nervous about but he was.

[confidant_v]

“You can stay tonight,” Kasen said, though he was disappointed again. His fingers gripped Shinya as he tried to control his annoyance. He wasn’t so much angry that Shinya was leaving. He hadn’t expected him to stay in the first place, but he didn’t see why they couldn’t meet halfway. “I’m going to be alone and in pain, trying to make myself food and feed my pets and do whatever it is I do during the days. I’m happy you even want to come back, but the least you can do is help me out some and give me the toxins to help the pain. I’m… I’m trying for you, Shinya. You asked me to not be so aggressive towards you and to treat you better and I’m trying. I’m doing my best to change these things about myself because I want you to know how much I care about you. So you can offer something too.”

 

Kasen wasn’t good at talking. He wasn’t good at expressing himself, but he tried for Shinya. It was the only way Shinya could understand how much he really cared about him. He adored him. He wanted to to stay with him forever if he could, but he couldn’t change every aspect about himself off the bat. He didn’t feel like he was asking anything unreasonable. “I’m not some fucking drug addict, Shinya,” he said, slowly pushing away from his vampire. He wondered if that’s what Shinya thought about him. Kasen loved these toxins and he could admit that maybe he was a bit more attached to them than he should be, but this was different. “I just need a little for the pain and if you aren’t even going to be here to take care of me, then you can offer me some, no?”

 

With a sigh Kasen stood and stepped out of the tub, twitching as he did so. A sharp pain hit his lower back, though he did his best not to show it on his face. He didn’t want the toxins anymore just out of the spite. He grabbed a towel and dried himself off, limping as he made his way to the living room where he kept his animals. He didn’t bother getting dressed; it was far more fun to walk around his apartment naked. He pulled his favorite snake from her glass home and smiled as she wrapped around his arm.

 

“What’s wrong, dear?” she asked. Being a snake himself gave Kasen the ability to communicate with them. Kasen flopped onto the couch, finding it still too difficult to continue walking.

 

“I don’t know… I just feel like Shinya is asking a lot of me and not trying to meet me halfway. He keeps talking about how hard it is to get out of his industry, and I accept that though I want a bit more of an explanation. He said he can’t stick around with me today, but that he’ll come back tonight which is fine. I didn’t expect him to stay. Though I went so far as to offer him the key to my apartment and I’m changing myself for him, but he can’t even try to start thinking about putting me first. I have or at least I’m trying, but he’s got excuse after excuse. All I want is some medicine for this pain and he said no. All I've gotten from him this morning is no.”

 

“He’s got his reasons, dear. I’m sure he’ll explain himself soon enough about this whole industry he’s gotten himself caught up in. He’s about as terrible at talking as you are so have patience.”

 

Kasen pouted only to receive a quick lick from his snake. She was right, and he knew she was right, but Kasen wasn’t used to putting in so much effort to not even be met halfway. He just wanted to be first for Shinya, much like how Kasen had decided to put Shinya first in his life. He wasn’t expecting Shinya to drop everything for him, but seeing just an inkling of him being put first would have been nice.

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya felt the words like a knife in his chest. Even offering to spend the night with Kasen didn’t make him happy, the demon was still pissed off about something. It was as if the push away from him was even worse to his heart and he blinked a few times trying to understand what he had said to make Kasen so angry. He knew that the demon was trying but it wasn’t like Shinya wasn’t putting everything on the line to have a relationship with a client. He watched the other stand and watched him get a towel only to leave the room. He sighed softly and stood soon after draining the tub. “This is why I don’t stay…shit always goes south.” He sighed under his breathe as he quickly wrapped a towel around his waist. He walked to the demons room looking for his clothes. When he found them he quickly got dressed drying his hair as he finished up.

 

He had made Kasen angry…though it wasn’t all so simple. Shinya knew what he felt in his heart but he couldn’t voice it under the current circumstances. He grabbed his phone, wallet, and keys before heading out of the bedroom. A hand ran through his hair as he found his way into the living room. “Hey…I’m sorry for making you upset. Things are more complicated than you think. If you’re really hurting that badly I’ll give you some…I just don’t want you to get dependent on them. Toxins are only exchanged when I drink from you, I can’t just bite you and release them I have to take something from you in order to give them. I’m more worried about your health than the pain in your body…I took more than enough from you last night and you were so weak I didn’t want to take from you again because of how weak you were yesterday.” He leaned up against the wall his head leaning back against it.

 

“You may be a demon but I drink fully from you Kasen…I’m not frightened of drinking you dry because you are a demon and you have more blood than the average human but I can still make you very weak if I drink too much. I just…don’t want you to lose too much blood because of me…because you want toxins or because you think I need to feed.” He peered over to the other who was laying on the couch.

 

“Does that make sense or are you still mad at me? I don’t think I can take you being silent to me.” He rubbed the back of his neck looking more than a little nervous and anxious about the entire conversation. Sure he wanted to tell Kasen what was going on but that took more than he had. The demon was pouting basically, he knew he had hurt him but he couldn’t do much about it.

 

“I refused you because I was worried about you…not because I’m being mean or cruel or because I don’t want to.” He sighed a little and heard his phone go off. He pulled it out of his pocket and read the message feeling a groan pull to the surface. One of his clients wanted to extend their evening till later, in the hopes that Shinya would sleep with her. He had no interest and he wanted to message her back saying no but she messaged again saying his boss had already approved her extension because she couldn’t get ahold of him last night.

 

Dread flowed through his veins and he realized he was going to be out till at least 10 tonight. And that was only if she wanted to go one round and call it quits. Apparently she was paying a lot or his boss would have never gone over him to accept one of his clients. He had to tell Kasen but at the moment the demon was so mad at him he didn’t want to add to the fire.

[confidant_v]

Kasen stayed silent, petting his snake as he listened to Shinya’s words. Everything made sense now. Kasen may have been an unreasonable prick, but he was trying to change that for his vampire. The exchange of blood and toxins was nothing new to him, but he didn’t know how even just taking a little bit of blood to give him just a small amount of toxins could ruin him. There was a balance that he was unaware of. When it came down to it, Shinya was just trying to keep him safe. That thought warmed Kasen’s cold heart. He smiled to his snake, who nodded at him as best as she could. The negative air around Kasen seemed to lift as his mood did. He was happy again, more than happy. He felt like he’d fallen in love with Shinya all over again. It was one thing to know Shinya would protect him and it was another thing to actually see it.

 

In the middle of Shinya’s explanation, Kasen let out a loud laugh. He was sure Shinya thought he was just laughing at him, but he wasn’t. He turned to face his vampire, his toothy grin wide on his face. “You can’t handle me being silent, yet you’re always so happy when I decide to keep my obnoxious mouth shut. Which is it, hmm?” He laughed again at the irony of such a statement. Perhaps Shinya didn’t hate hearing Kasen speak as much as they both thought. With a sigh, Kasen pushed himself off of the couch, his snake sliding away from him as he limped over to Shinya. He wrapped his arms around the larger male, his mood soothed even more from Shinya’s delicious scent. “I’m sorry too, Shinya,” he said, resting his head on Shinya’s chest. “I understand now. Listen, I don’t try to piss you off. Never. I just don’t understand the reasons why you do or don’t do certain things. Now that I know I understand why you told me no. And I appreciate it.”

 

He placed a sweet kiss to Shinya’s neck, lightly nipping it with his fang. “Besides you probably like seeing me limp like this, don’t you? A reminder of all the things you’ve done to me.” He chuckled and took a step back from Shinya, though he held the other's hands as he looked his vampire up and down. “Do you remember the first time we met?” The memory was a fond one. He never would have expected a night out with an escort would turn into him offering up his apartment key. “You rocked my world that night, Shinya. I wanted you to come back every single night. At a certain point I guess… I guess I started to care about you. To really care about you. And I know you can tell.” If there was one thing Kasen did know, it was that Shinya could practically feel the blood pumping throughout his body. He took Shinya’s hand and placed it on his chest, right where his heart was. “I know that you know how fast my heart beats when you’re around me. And I know that you know it shows how much I care about you. You can pretty much touch my feelings for you, Shinya. You can hear how my heart goes wild when you’re near. So if I do something obnoxious or if I piss you off or if I scream at you or storm away… Just remember this feeling in my chest. Remember how I feel about you.”

 

Unfortunately, Kasen couldn’t feel Shinya’s emotions in the same way. Snakes bite to kill. The only thing they felt were the nerves of their victims twitching under them as they slowly died. Speaking like this made Kasen wonder exactly how Shinya felt about him. He knew Shinya cared about him, but how much. More than how Kasen felt for him? Less? Well, it didn’t matter. All that mattered was that they cared about one another. The snake demon and the vampire… An odd yet strangely fitting pair. Sometimes Kasen thought he was in love with Shinya… It was hard for him to even think about love, but he imagined that whatever he felt for Shinya was something akin to it.

 

“Maybe we should go on a date, Shinya. A proper date. Maybe we should take some time out to actually get to know each other. It might help us avoid these arguments in the future.” There was obviously so much he didn't know about Shinya. He just barely knew how the blood/toxin exchanged worked. He knew pretty much nothing about Shinya's job and Shinya's personal life was a completely mystery to him. The more he thought about it, the more he realized he knew so little about his vampire. The reverse must have been the same. Kasen wasn't someone who talked about his personal life or his past. He and Shinya were alike in that regard. Yet if there was anyone he would talk about his life to it was his vampire. He didn't care if Shinya knew all of his deepest darkest secrets; in fact he wanted him to know, and he wanted to know all of Shinya's secrets too. That may have been asking too much, but Kasen wanted to know everything. Shinya was his after all, and he was Shinya's. It only made sense that they knew each other inside and out. Literally.

 

He placed another kiss on Shinya’s lips, though it was interrupted by a cell phone going off. Kasen pouted as he looked into Shinya’s eyes. “A client?” Kasen imagined the only time Shinya’s phone went off was when it was a client. Par for the course. There was no reason to get mad though. Shinya would come back later tonight and they would have another wonderful night together. All he had to do was wait. “You can go, Shinya.” Kasen cupped his vampire’s face in his hands and planted a soft, though passionate kiss to his lips. “Just remember to come home tonight, okay? I’ll be waiting.” He made sure to purposefully use the word “home.” He wanted Shinya to really, truly feel that he was always welcomed here. He wanted him to know that he could show up when he wanted, whether Kasen was here or not, that he could be comfortable here, that he would be protected here, that he could stay for as long as he wanted. For as many houses and flats that Shinya had, he probably didn’t have a place that he felt truly at home. If Kasen could show Shinya that his place could be his home, then he would.

 

Still, he hated that Shinya had to go. Even though he told Shinya that he could leave, he held onto him tightly, snuggling into his chest. Being naked only added to the warmth that he felt from the other. His apartment was always at a steady heat, but holding onto his vampire made him feel even warmer. “Shinyaaaa~” He sang, wishing they could just stay together.

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya winced a little at the laugh feeling like maybe it was about him and then he sighed seeing as the other just thought his comment was funny. He smirked a little and shook his head, that smile on the other meaning he was no longer angry with the vampire. When the demon limped his way over the vampire took a few steps to him to close the gap so he didn’t have to walk as far. He hugged him around his waist his hands comfortably sitting on the others low back.

 

The vampire listened silently as the demon spoke his eyes closing at how close he was only to open when he felt the other pull away. He hadn’t completely pulled away but he still had and as Kasen took hold of his hand and brought it to his chest Shinya sighed softly. “Kasen…” he spoke softly as the other spoke to him before pulling him back into his chest. He gently buried his face in the others neck closing his eyes with a sigh.

 

When the demon started to speak again he was chipper and happy. Shinya pulled away and chuckled, “A date? Alright. I have a few centuries of stories in me to last for a few dates if you like. You’re not like most of my other clients…most don’t even make it to the bedroom with me. Its usually just you.” He kissed his cheek softly and smiled. “A date sounds good…but maybe after you can walk properly again.” He smirked a little and hugged the other closer.

 

It was true that they two had never really had a deep conversation about past lives, or about their personal lives or anything. They hadn’t really talked much about anything other than sex or the fact that Shinya was being mean for not coming to the other all the time. As if the timing couldn’t be any worse his phone buzzed again and he groaned against the others lips. “Probably…” he said softly and rested his face in the others hands with a gentle sigh. He accepted the kiss with a soft groan of excitement before pulling back a little. “Thank’s…I didn’t plan on just going to my place so I mean…having you around is better than an empty home.” He hugged the other closer and kissed his neck.

 

“Kasen? I’ll need to go…my meeting starts at noon and its already 11.” He nipped the others neck playfully and pulled his body closer despite what he had just said. “I’ll be out late tonight…I probably won’t be back till late so you can go ahead and get to bed without me if you like…don’t stay up for me.” He kissed his cheek softly. He didn’t want to tell him that he was sleeping with another client but that sort of said what it needed to say all in its own. He didn’t want to go, he didn’t want to do it, and he didn’t think it was fair but that’s how life was and he would need to go and do his job.

[confidant_v]

Kasen hated that his vampire had to leave, but he also understood. Shinya’s job was a tough one. If all of his clients were as demanding as Kasen, then he could only imagine what type of people Shinya dealt with on a daily basis. A heavy sigh escaped him, and as hard as it was he stepped back, letting go of Shinya fully. “Go on. Just call me when you’re free again, okay? I probably won’t be doing much today and tomorrow anyway so I’d be happy for you to come by again.” With another kiss to his cheek, Kasen sent Shinya on his way. The apartment felt oddly alone with him. Even with his multitude of pets Kasen couldn’t shake the feeling that something was missing. With Shinya gone his home felt less warm. This place that was once his sanctuary was now just an apartment. Nothing more, nothing less.

 

Still, he wouldn’t stand around and wax poetic about his vampire. He’d be seeing him again soon enough. Patience was problem with Kasen, but he could manage if it was for Shinya. Waiting made it all the more delicious when they finally got to be together. With that thought driving him, Kasen set to doing his own work, starting with taking care of his bedsheets. They were a mess of cum and blood and sweat, but still a sweet reminder of what occurred last night. Kasen wasn’t sure if Shinya had ever taken that much blood from him, nor given him that many toxins before. If their sex life was stepping up, then maybe their personal relationship could too. He was hopeful to say the least.

 

He’d been busy around the house--not bothering to put on any clothes--for about an hour, feeding his pets, feeding himself, cleaning his room… He was in his bedroom about to finally put on clothes when a loud crash shook him out of his calm mood. His heart began racing and his senses magnified as adrenaline coursed through his system. Loud stomping and the vibrations he felt through the floor told him that there were at least three large men who had broken down his door and barged into his home. He snarled though he knew he couldn’t take on three men, some of which were possibly demons, by himself. There were no escape routes from his bedroom so his first instinct was to dive under the bed and try to bite their ankles as they walked by. Unfortunately, that plan failed.

 

Right as Kasen slid under the bed, he was pulled back out by a heavy hand on his leg. He clawed at the ground, though it did nothing to help. He was ready to strike, to bite whoever these men were who dared enter his home, but it seemed they were well aware of his deadly venom. The biggest man easily tossed his small body onto the bed and grabbed him by his throat, forcing him to open his mouth to try and get air in his lungs. Someone else immediately put caps on Kasen’s fangs, effectively preventing him from injecting his venom into these invaders.

 

“Who—who are you??” He asked frantically, once the larger man let his throat go. He would have tried to fight more, but the other two men quickly pinned his arms to the bed allowing the other man to climb on top of him. He looked down at Kasen; the man’s look of malice, amusement, and hunger forced a nervous whimper from the demon.

 

“We’re friends of Shinya,” the man said, his eyes drinking in the sight of Kasen’s body. Another whimper came from Kasen when he felt a rough hand slide down his body. He twitched and tried to squirm away from the man only for his wrists to be pinned down harder by the other two. “Our boss noticed that he’s been spending a lot of time with you so we decided to see what made you so special.” He tilted his head at Kasen, grinning as he leaned down and licked his neck where Shinya’s two puncture wounds were. A choked sob came from Kasen. He’d never felt so helpless before, and all he could do was hope Shinya walked back through those doors and saved him.

 

“We can see why Shinya is so attracted to you. We walk in and you’re naked, ready for us and willing.”

 

“No….” Kasen shook his head, his eyes growing wider and wider. “No, don’t…”

 

“And to think Shinya takes blood from you too. You see, he’s told us that he doesn’t take blood from his clients. He’s lying… I think the boss will be interested in that.” Kasen let out a quick yell when the man touched his hip where Shinya had bit him. These horrible touches made Kasen’s stomach turn, and it was all he could do to not start crying, though his fear was obvious on his face. With a laugh and a smirk, the man started to undo his pants, laughing even harder as Kasen’s shaky voice cried “no, no, no” over and over again.

 

“Here.” One of the other men handed the man on top of Kasen a cell phone. Kasen was far too scared to notice it was own phone. The only thing he could pay attention to was the fact that the man had lowered his pants to his knees and his disgusting, large, veiny cock was out and erect. Seeing this was what made Kasen finally let his tears fall. It was too much to hope that someone would come save him. It was too much to hope that these men would just let him go. It was all just too much to hope.

 

“Maybe we’ll call Shinya and let him know how much fun we’re having.” A cackle left the man as he clicked Shinya’s name, putting the phone on speaker. He handed the phone back to one of the other men as he prepared to slide into Kasen. Kasen knew there was nothing he could do… Nothing except beg. The moment Shinya picked up the phone that’s exactly what Kasen did.

 

“Shinya!!!” He screamed, allowing himself to sob fully when he felt the man’s dick against his still sore hole. “Shinya, please!!” His voice cracked as he sobbed and cried out for his vampire. “Shinya, help me… please, please help—AAHHH!” He let out a scream when the man roughly forced himself inside of him. Pain shot through him and his screams echoed through the apartment, each one aligned with when the man aggressively pushed deeper inside of him. Kasen never imagined he’d go through something like this. The fear and pain were overwhelming, almost as overwhelming as the toxins from Shinya. This had to have been a dream… A horrible nightmare and he would wake up beside his vampire and laugh at the fact he had such horrid dream.

 

“Shinya…” he called, his voice strained from as his body was penetrated over and over. “Shinya, please it hurts! Please, Shinya!”

 

“Hey there, Shinya!” The man on top of Kasen spoke over the demon’s yelling. His own voice was peppered with pleasurable moans as he shoved himself in and out of Kasen. He wondered if Shinya could hear his skin slapping against the little demon’s. “So boss man isn’t too happy, but it’s okay! We’re taking care of the problem, aren’t we little snake? We thought we’d just see what was so appealing about your… favorite client. I must say, after trying him out I understand why you always come running back to him.”

 

“Stop!!” Kasen screamed, thrashing against the man in an attempt to get away. The men holding him down were too strong, and he was far too weak from his loss of blood. “Stop it!! Please…. please stop….”

 

“See how much he’s enjoying it, Shinya? Now there’s three of us, each wanting a turn with the pretty snake.” The man let out a groan as Kasen’s walls tightened around him, though that only caused more pain to shoot though Kasen’s body. “God, he’s good… So tight…. You should share your toys, Shinya!” His laughter mixed in with Kasen’s distressed screaming, though after some time he grew annoyed with the noise. He slapped the demon hard on his cheek, only making him cry harder. “Why don’t you tell our vampire how much you’re enjoying this, demon? If you do, maybe only two of us will play with you instead of all three.”

 

“Please no… Get off of me!! No!!” Kasen thrashed around more, stopping only when one of the men pulled something from his pocket, handing it to one violating Kasen. “Sh-Shinya… Shinya, He has a knife! Please help me, Shinya!” He gasped when he felt the knife dig into his side. Small, soft whimpers escaped Kasen as he felt the knife pull at his scales and finally a heavy cry came from him when they were cut off. His body had small patches of scales peppering his legs, back, arms, stomach, and face. These little patches were more sensitive than the rest of his body, and the never healed quickly. Having one completely cut meant a long and painful healing process. He’d never survive this. By the time Shinya got here the only thing that’d be left was a corpse. As pain swarmed through his body, intensifying each and every time the man forced himself into him, the only thing that stayed at the forefront of his mind was Shinya. He knew his vampire would blame himself for this, but it wasn’t his fault. He couldn’t control these men. Kasen knew the guilt would overwhelm Shinya, but he didn’t want his vampire to feel that way.

 

“Shinya…” he said softly, begging quietly as groans of pain came from him. “It’s okay… it’s okay… I don’t blame you… I—gahhh!”

 

“Oh you should blame him. We’re only doing this because of him.” He raised an eyebrow at the demon, his hips slamming harder and harder into him. “Wanna talk to him, Shinya? What do you got to say to your favorite client? Oh actually, hang on. I got a better idea. Why don’t we let Shinya see for himself.” With a snap of his finger the men let Kasen go, though he barely had a chance to fight back before he was flipped onto his knees, his hands grabbed and bound to the bedpost by one of the man’s belts. He screamed as he felt his captor’s cock shoved back into him, scraping against his sensitive walls. This wasn’t the worst of it though. He noticed one of the other men holding up his phone… He was recording… Worse, they had video called Shinya so he could see the whole thing unfold. “No…” Kasen whimpered. “Please no... “ He lowered his head, ashamed and embarrassed and ridden with guilt that Shinya had to witness this. “I’m sorry, Shinya… I’m sorry…”

 

“Hey, make sure you get a good look at this!” The man forcing himself into Kasen sped up his thrusts, his heavy hands holding Kasen’s hips still as he rammed into him. “Almost… And…” The man laughed as he finally came inside of Kasen, causing Kasen to let out a wail as he felt the warm, sticky fluid inside of him. The man rode out his orgasm, smiling at the camera was up close and personal on the action. He pulled away, his fluids dripping from Kasen causing them all to laugh loudly. “Alright who’s next?”

 

“Me!” The phone was passed off as he next man positioned himself behind Kasen. By this point Kasen was inconsolable, screaming and crying and begging for these men to leave him alone. As much as he didn’t want to cry for Shinya’s help he couldn’t stop himself. He knew doing this would only increase his vampire’s guilt, but in his mind it was all he could do. The only help available to him now was Shinya, and Kasen reached for that as best as he could. “Shinya, help me!!!” He screamed, sobbing as the second man wasted no time in shoving himself into the demon. “Shinya!!! Shinya, please please please!!!!” This man was even rougher than the first, and he had more fun slicing Kasen’s skin with the knife. He took it a step farther even, pulling the demon’s head back by his hair to expose Shinya’s puncture marks. “What happened to you never taking blood from your clients, Shinya. The boss hates liars!” He bit roughly into Kasen’s neck making the demon scream even more as his skin was torn apart. He could feel the warm blood seeping from the new, jagged wound. His mind was barely there anymore; all he could do was cry, scream, and beg for Shinya to help him. He hardly realized the one pulling his hair cut a large chunk of it with the knife, if only to add insult to injury.

 

Not that it mattered. Kasen was too distracted by the burning pain swimming through his body. It was unbearable, but the men were unsympathetic to Kasen’s screams and begging. It provoked them more so they took their time pleasuring themselves with Kasen. Eventually the second man came, though he opted to cum on Kasen rather than in him, making sure Shinya saw every bit of it. He pulled himself of Kasen before he came, standing and stroking himself as he made his way over to Kasen’s face. One of the other men held the demon’s face still as his rapist came all over it. Kasen cried harder, his tears mixing in with the stick cum. Even after all this he knew it wasn’t over. It was the third man’s turn and he was just as harsh and cruel as the first two.

 

He pierced Kasen first with the knife, digging into his body and watching the blood mix with the first man’s cum. Kasen’s screams and begging spurred him on as he pushed the knife in and out of the demon. “Like music to my ears,” he said into the camera, speaking about Kasen’s screams. “No!!” Kasen yelled, and at this point it was the only thing he could manage to yell. “No!! No please no!! Stop it no no no!!!” When the man had had enough of the knife, he simply stabbed it into Kasen’s side, letting it sit there as he forced his erect cock into the small demon. He moaned at the warmth of the blood and cum surrounding him; out of all of them he looked to be experiencing the most pleasure. He took his time, slowly pushing in and out of Kasen before he sped up his thrusts. Being a risk-taker he dared to slid his fingers into Kasen’s mouth, though he knew there was no risk involved. The caps on Kasen’s fangs prevented him from injecting any venom into the men, so the captor had no worries as he shoved his fingers down the demon’s throat.

 

The pain in his body had hit it’s maximum. Kasen didn’t know where if he was being stabbed with a knife or bitten or scratched or if he was hair was being pulled again. It all mixed together and he couldn’t recognize one type of pain from the other. Even now he could hardly hear his muffled screams. He tried to bite down on the fingers in his mouth, but his teeth were useless. He cried harder, his chest heaving up and down as he slowly lost his mind to the torture. The man shoving himself into him could see Kasen losing himself. He took his fingers out of his mouth to listen to those delicious screams. They’d grown more hysterical, more desperate, so full of pain and sorrow that it practically fed the three men. Kasen had forgotten that Shinya could see all of this. The only thing running through his mind was how much longer he had to suffer this. How much longer would these men use his body as their plaything?

 

“Alright, boys… I think we’re… Done!” He yelled out the last word as he came inside of Kasen, grinning and moaning loudly as pleasure shook his body. He groaned as he rode out the orgasm, slapping Kasen on his ass a few times just for fun. “Yeah Shinya… That was amazing. This demon is so tight and warm… No wonder he’s your favorite.” He winked into the camera, leaving Shinya off with one last word. “We’ll be happy to taste him again. Oh, make sure you contact the boss okay? Bye~”

 

Kasen didn’t know how long all of this lasted. He couldn’t think about anything except the pain, the fear, and Shinya. By the time it was all done Kasen was again covered with blood and cum, though it was not from a wonderful night of pleasure. He’d been cut, pierced, penetrated, slapped, beaten, violated… These men had their fun raping him and would leave Shinya to pick up the pieces. The left only after teasing Kasen with their fingers, laughing at him as he sobbed and begged them to stop. Once alone Kasen couldn’t move his tired, aching body… He couldn’t even fathom that this had even happened to him. He was weak, unable to defend himself and not only did he have to suffer because of that, but so did Shinya.

 

Tears continued to fall down his cheeks as he sit on his knees still tied to the bedpost, his body bleeding and sticky. He stared at the wall, his mind both blank yet reliving everything that had just happened. Thank god the men were gone, but what if they came back? What if they did these things to him again? The only thing he was capable of doing now was laying on the dirty bed, tears streaming down his face, and waiting for Shinya to come home.

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya smiled gently pulling Kasen back to him and kissing him deeply. “I’ll be back before you know it. Don’t worry alright? I’ll call you when I finish up.” He smiled a little and leaned down to let the other kiss his cheek once more before the vampire moved to the door. He put on his shoes and grabbed his keys before waving back to Kasen. He then left the apartment, unaware of the horrible events that would soon take place there. He put his hands into his pockets and pulled out his shades before making out toward his first client. It was a small luncheon that would take no longer than an hour or less and then he would be onto his big client.

 

After the lunch he kissed his client goodbye before heading to the train to head to his other client. He felt eyes watching him, feet following him and he wanted to groan inwardly. The boss was keeping tabs on him apparently, and it wasn’t just one set of men. He had ten followers, some were infront blocking his path and as soon as he noticed them the men behind him came out of the woodwork. His eyes flashed around him and he stopped walking his hands moving up as if surrendering. “Hello boys I figured it would be a little longer till the boss man wanted to see me? Have I done something wrong?” He asked a smirk on his lips as he spoke.

 

One of the bigger men stepped forward, “The boss wants to teach you a lesson. Come quietly or we have means to take you ourselves.” He said in a huge burley voice. Shinya didn’t know that men were headed to Kasens apartment at the moment in hopes to beat him in.

 

The vampire shrugged, “Not much you can do to me boys I’m sort of immortal.” He followed the other but was hit over the head by one of the other big guys throwing him to the ground and knocking his shades away form his face. He groaned touching the back of his head coming away with blood. “Tch…I said I would come quietly you bastards…lets get this over with I have people waiting for me.”

 

One of the guys kicked him in the face throwing his body against the ground hard. “Bullshit. Your client got cancelled. We are your new company for the evening. Pick him up.” He ordered one of the other guys and two of them reached down grabbing Shinya under his arms and throwing him into the back of a car. He felt his head hit the metal and he was out.

 

When he woke up his head was fuzzy and he was sitting in a chair. His eyes blinked a few times as he groaned softly feeling his wrists tied behind his back. “What the…?” he asked his eyes blinking completely open as he looked around the dimly lit room. The leader of the crew came out holding ropes drenched in what looked like water but Shinya knew all too well that it wasn’t water.

 

“Glad you’re awake. So you see the boss isn’t very happy with you and so we are going to teach you a little lesson. I’m sure you’re not stupid…so I’m sure you know what I have here? Holy water rope…you wont be able to move much and you’ll be in constant agony.” He threw the ropes to one of the two guys standing beside Shinya as they wrapped the rope around his upper body. His shirt having been removed leaving his bare skin open to the abuse. He cried out in pain as his skin started to sizzle under the ropes feeling it secured tightly to his wrists. He was panting hard already his eyes peering up to the leader of the group. “Who are you?”

 

“Oh I’m hurt Shinya. It’s me! Dan you know me~ We work together. Or rather…I put you in line when the boss doesn’t like your clientel. You see there is one little client you’ve been giving special treatment. The boss isn’t too keen on that you see? A few of my friends are paying a visit to this little…demon of yours.” He smiled a little a knife dangling from his fingers.

 

Shinya bulked against the rope not minding the pain, “What the fuck are you talking about?! I don’t have a special client?! I don’t even now what you’re talking about!” As soon as the words left his mouth that knife was thrown from Dans fingers and buried itself deep into Shinyas side. He doubled against the ropes in pain, steam rising up from his skin as it was being singed away. “Bastard…” He breathed out the best he could coughing through the pain.

 

“Oh Shinya! Don’t lie to me! I’ve been watching you. You meet with him every week just about. I know where he lives-“ Another knife sank into his shoulder as Dan took a step forward, “I know what you guys do-“ And another, “And I know just how much he means to you.” And finally he stood before him a knife under Shinyas chin pressed hard against his throat.

 

The vampire looked up at him anger and hate written on his face as blood pooled from his body. “If you touch him I swear to God I’ll kill you.” He seethed out pressing his throat harder against the knife feeling blood trickle down his chest. “If you lay one goddamn had on him I swear I’ll kill you and everyone you’ve ever cared about!”

 

“Not so fast now Shinya…I thought you didn’t know who I was talking about?” He clicked his tongue and turned to one of the men. “Hand me his phone.” He took it and waved it infront of Shinya’s face. “We, are going to get a little call here soon, and I’m going to show you exactly what is happening to your little demon.” He kissed Shinyas cheek before jabbing the knife that was on his throat into Shinya’s stomach. He sputtered and coughed blood trickling from his lips. They were trying to bleed him dry, make him the weakest he would ever be so he couldn’t fight back. His body couldn’t heal because of the holy water and he was losing blood fast.

 

As soon as he finished speaking the phone rang and Shinya’s head snapped up. His eyes moved from his phone to Dan holding it and he fought against the ropes. As the phone connected he heard Kasen on the other side of the line, screaming for him. “What the hell are you doing you son of a bitch!” He pulled harder on the ropes wincing at the pain but caring too much about Kasen on the other end of the phone. “Kasen!” His voice broke as he heard the other screaming for his help and he felt like he couldn’t do anything. He pulled on the ropes trying to get free but couldn’t.

 

He could hear him crying, he could hear him begging. It was miserable, he couldn’t get out even if he wanted to. Each movement pushed the knives deeper into his body pooling blood at his feet. He heard his name, from a different man and he growled. “Don’t you dare! Don’t touch him!” He screamed pulling agains the ropes. “Please let him go I’ll do whatever you want just don’t hurt him!” He felt tears prickling at the side of his eyes as he heard Kasen screaming and begging again over the phone.

 

His entire body shrank, “Don’t touch him please! I’ll do whatever you want just stop!” He begged fighting against those ropes hearing the sizzling as it bit through the first layer of skin. A sickening slap could be heard over the phone. “Don’t you dare hit him! I swear I’ll kill you! I’ll hunt all three of you down and torture you before ripping your heads off and feeding it to your kids! I swear!” He was silenced by a heavy punch to the face slamming his head to the left.

 

“Shut up and listen!” Dan yelled at him forcing Shinya to spit the blood out. He heard Kasen cry out “Please you can take me just stop hurting him!” He begged his cheeks streaked with tears as he heard Kasen’s screams over the phone. “Kasen listen to me, I can’t…I can’t get there. You need to be strong for me okay? They have me tied down…I-I’m so sorry…This is all my fault. I shouldn’t have left today.” He shook his head and tightened his hands on the ropes.

 

His eyes blinked a few times as the phone was turned his way and he saw a picture instead of a blank screen. Shinya felt like he wanted to throw up. Anger and pain filled his chest as he pushed against the ropes, “Stop please!” He didn’t want to watch but he felt like he couldn’t take his eyes away. “Kasen don’t you dare apologize. This isn’t your fault. It’s okay…you’ll be okay just…” he couldn’t get the words out as he forced a cry inside of himself. He couldn’t keep it in, the pain the sounds everything just became too much and Shinya unloaded his stomach onto the floor.

 

“Oh nasty! You boys look like you’re having fun.” Dan said as he slapped Shinya his head bowed as his own form of torture was taking its toll.

 

“I get it okay I get the picture! Can you just tell them to stop please!” He had to turn his head away as Kasen was entered again by another man and roughly slammed into by his cock. He shook his head, “Please stop I’m begging you he’s done nothing wrong! I’m the one you want!” He pushed hard against the ropes crying silently as he had to watch the entire thing play out.

 

Shinya was too weak to really even hold his head up and when it dropped Dan walked around and held his head upright with his hair making him watch the video. “Watch it. You did this to him. You deserve to be forced to watch every minute.” Begging and crying was doing nothing and as Shinya watched the men defile the man he loved he couldn’t help but feel sick.

 

“Kasen I’m so sorry…I’ll be there soon I promise. It’ll be okay.” He could only give the other a few words of encouragement that everything was going to be okay. He couldn’t watch it anymore. It had been going on for too long. He hated it, he memorized each mans face vowing to kill them all if it was the last thing he did. “Please stop…” he whispered softly hearing Kasen’s cries grow more desperate, more needy. He couldn’t take much more of this but he had no strength left and his body was dripping in blood. He couldn’t stand even if he wanted to let alone flint to Kasen fast enough to get there in time. Even if he didn’t he wouldn’t have the strength to fight the men in this state. “You sick bastards…I’ll find you all…” he said glaring at the camera before it clicked off.

 

Dan sighed and dropped the phone on the ground crashing it under his foot. “Oh what a good show! I’m a little hard just from watching it. I can’t imagine that didn’t get you a little excited right? Yall have kinky sex as it is.” He said happily before looking over at the other. “I’m sure they aren’t exactly finished just yet so how about you and I have some fun before then yea? I do have a little problem of my own and you are a prostitute.” He shifted and stood infront of Shinya.

 

“You’re beautiful. Even covered in blood and tears you are still one of the best escorts we have. I wouldn’t mind if you took a little time on my own here.” He unzipped his pants and let his hard cock slide out of the opening. “Now, if you bite me I promise I will send them straight back to kill him do you understand? Just be a good boy and let me use you.” He slapped Shinya’s mouth as the other glared up to him before he nodded. “Good boy! Now open wide.”

 

Shinya groaned as his mouth was forced open and the others cock was forced into his mouth deep. He heard Dan moan happily pushing his cock even deeper into the vampires mouth. He didn’t need to breathe…this making him the best person to go deep throat with. Dan pushed the others head hard against his waist as he started to fuck shinyas mouth not minding the gurgling sounds coming from the vampire.

 

After a few minutes he came inside of the others mouth causing the vampire to cough a little and then swallow it along with the blood in his mouth from earlier. He pulled his mouth off the other and spit out onto the floor as Dan was panting happily. “Ah…that’s what I needed.” He zipped up his pants and slapped the others face. “Next time I think I may use you myself. I hear good things about you from the other clients.” He looked to the men beside him, “Cut him loose. Let him go. His demon may or may not be alive…it’ll take him a minute to get there anyway if he doesn’t kill someone first.” Dan laughed and left the room.

 

The two guys just cut him loose and Shinya fell to the ground the knife in his side sliding out of him and clattering to the floor. He groaned and pulled the others out before he felt the ropes fall from his body. “Tch…” He didn’t have time to waist. He grabbed his shirt and pulled his arms through it wincing hard as his wounds moved with him. He didn’t bother to button the shirt up for it was already drenched with blood.

 

He didn’t bother with his phone or anything he just left. Stumbling out into the night as he tried to find his way back to Kasen’s. He was a few blocks away still but it would take him forever at this rate. He needed to feed, but it was too risky. He could kill someone. He shook his head his vision fuzzy and blurry as he stumbled against a wall. He didn’t know how long he had been walking but it felt like ages. Finally he saw the demons apartment and it was like all the pain in his body was gone. Panic insued and he started to run the best he could up the stairs and to the others room.

 

“Kasen!” he screamed as he entered the apartment stepping over the fucked door and running into the bedroom. He paused at the door and felt tears prickle at his vision. “Oh my god…” He ran to the bed and started to untie the other and when he was finally able to get it off he pulled Kasen into his arms hugging him tightly. “I’m so sorry….I-I would have gotten here sooner I just…” he shook his head feeling the cum, blood, and other bodily fluids on his body but he didn’t care.

 

All he cared about was Kasen and he was hurting. His mind started to reel and he pulled back his hands pulling Kasen’s face up so he could look at him. A thumb rubbing against his cheek, “I’m so sorry I left…I promise I won’t ever let anything like this happen to you again. I should have been here.” He felt the tears coming faster than he could keep them in. “…Kasen…” He paused a moment his fingers roaming over the others cheeks not minding the cum that sprawled there, he was wiping the others tears away. “I can give you some of my blood…it’ll heal you some…Kasen I…I can’t do much more than that…” he shook his head his voice breaking as he spoke. His broken, beaten and ruined demon laying in his lap.

 

They had cut scales from his body and Shinya couldn’t help but feel hate rise up in his soul. “Those assholes…” He looked over the others body once more before shaking his head bowing his head as he couldn’t believe he had let this happen. The condition of his own body didn’t matter, he would give anything to make Kasen feel better. A bath was probably something first on the agenda but he didn’t want to go too fast. It was probably freaking Kasen out he was even holding him at the moment after this had all happened…but it was the best he could do to not go mad with guilt.

[confidant_v]

Kasen didn’t know how much time had passed before he heard his name being called. Initially he was startled and frightened that those terrible men had come back, but he quickly realized that his vampire had finally returned. “Sh… Shinya….” Seeing his face was like seeing hope manifest. Even with his body in so much pain and his heart as heavy as a rock, knowing Shinya was here brightened his mood more than he could imagine. Tears brimmed in his eyes when his vampire appeared before him. The sharp sting in his wrists shot up his arms when Shinya undid his binds; they were cut and bleeding but he hardly noticed as his vampire gathered him in his arms.

 

Kasen couldn’t stand hearing Shinya apologize over and over. This wasn’t his fault. There was nothing he could have done to stop this. Regardless if he had been here or not these men would have shown up and done these terrible things. They still would have raped Kasen and they still would have forced Shinya to watch. Nothing would have been different and nothing was Shinya’s fault. Kasen wanted to tell his vampire all of this but when he opened his mouth all he could do was whimper.

 

Guilt welled inside of Kasen. He should have been strong enough to defend himself. He shouldn’t have had to rely on Shinya so heavily. They both suffered because of him. “Shinya…” Kasen closed his eyes when Shinya cupped his face in his hands. No, no, no…Shinya shouldn’t touch him like this. He was covered in blood and the cum of other men; Shinya shouldn’t have to touch him. With tears streaming down his cheeks Kasen pushed Shinya’s hands off of his face as gently as he could. “You shouldn’t… You shouldn’t touch me,” he whispered, his voice hoarse and strained. “I’m so… I’m so dirty, Shinya. You shouldn’t have to touch me.” He allowed himself to break down, crying into Shinya’s chest. All he wanted was for Shinya to touch him and hold him and take care of him, but how could he ask that? How could he ask Shinya to put his hands on him when he was like this? He was disgusting, covered in other men, and yet Shinya was here trying to touch him… His amazing vampire didn’t care, but Kasen cared. “I want you to hold me, but you shouldn’t… I’m so disgusting right now, Shinya.”

 

Kasen trembled, pressing himself harder against Shinya’s chest regardless of the words coming from his mouth. He wasn’t sure if it was his own cuts, but he felt something wrong. He slowly pulled away and blinked at Shinya’s chest. He only then noticed the burn marks and he gasped, bringing a hand to his mouth before lightly touching the burn. “Oh god… they hurt you too. Shinya, they hurt you! No, no, no….” Kasen wrapped his arms around his precious vampire, holding him as tightly as his weak arms would allow. If only he could have protected him, but how could he protect him when he couldn’t even protect himself? All he wanted was for the two of them to be happy. All he wanted was to keep falling in love with Shinya and for them to stay together forever. Why did these people try to rip them apart? Why did they want to hold onto Shinya so badly, badly enough that they would hurt both Kasen and Shinya this way?

 

“How—how can we heal you?” Kasen barely heard Shinya offer him his blood. Even though his own body was in pain he was concerned about his vampire. He couldn’t even think of healing himself until he could help Shinya. He frantically wiped tears from his eyes, his breaths coming in heavy pants as panic overtook him. His state of mind was far from stable and all of these horrible things that happened crashed down on his broken mind and body. His thoughts were clouded and muddled and he couldn’t stay calm as he tried to think of ways of how he could help Shinya. “You—you could take m-my blood.” He stared up at Shinya with wide eyes, his hands weakly gripping the vampire’s shoulders. “I don’t know if I have much left, but you can have as much as you need. J-just… Maybe clean me first. You shouldn’t drink from me when I’m like this…” He was unsure how much blood he lost, but he knew from the cuts on his body and being raped by the knife plus the hard bite on his neck, he’d lost more than he could recover from the night before. On top of that he was so disgusting. There was no way he’d allow Shinya’s lips on him when he was dirty like this. Still, he couldn’t just let his Shinya suffer.

 

“I’m sorry, Shinya.” Kasen didn’t know why he was apologizing. He was sorry that he couldn’t keep his vampire safe. He was sorry that he couldn’t defend himself. He was sorry that Shinya had to watch those men doing those things to him. He was sorry that something terrible had happened to Shinya. He was just sorry. “I’m so, so sorry. These men… They… they….” Kasen drifted off as a sob rose in his throat. Words were coming out of his mouth, but he hardly knew what he was saying at this point. He was in shock; he had no control over his thoughts. All he knew was that he wanted Shinya safe. More so than his own well-being, he wanted to know that Shinya was okay.

 

He wanted to say more. He wanted to comfort his vampire as much as he could and yet he felt like he failed at even that. He was a crying, whimpering mess, holding onto Shinya in his weak grip with nonsense coming out of his mouth. Even through all of the nonsense coming from him, he managed a few words of clarity.

 

“It’s not your fault, Shinya. It’s not your fault. You know I don’t blame you and you know that I love you so please, please don’t blame yourself. And… And….” he blinked, seemingly losing his train of thought as his mind was filled with frightening memories and concern for his lover. He eventually swallowed hard and said the only thing that seemed to make sense. “Now… we should get clean.”

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya heard his name and it was like everything inside of him broke. He shook his head his tears sliding down his cheeks. “Kasen…” he spoke softly his lips barely moving as he gathered the other closer to his chest. He felt his hands pushed away from Kasen’s face and the demon might have well slapped him. He looked hurt but it almost fell as soon as he heard the reason why.

 

“No…shh…” he pulled him closer and let the other cry into his chest running his hand through his hair. He pulled his shirt off wincing hard as he wiped the others face clean as he rocked his demon in his arms. “You’re not dirty…You’re not disgusting.” He kissed his demons head gently holding him tighter as he felt the other pull him closer. He didn’t seem to actually want the vampire to stop touching him and that was fine with him.

 

The tears sliding from Kasen’s cheeks were like ice on his burns and he sighed softly, his chest trembling under him. When he finally noticed Shinya shook his head, looking more than exhausted. “No…I’m okay….Don’t worry about me Kasen. I want to heal you.” He said shaking his head, “Kasen calm down. Listen to me…” he gently tilted the others face up to his and kissed him gently, “I’m not drinking from you…not because of how you are but because you don’t have blood to give.” He leaned down gently kissing him again stopping the other from talking and apologizing again.

 

“Don’t say youre sorry…” He brushed the hair from the others face and winced softly at the action. He pulled the other into another hug holding him tightly as he started to cry. Started to console him, trying to say anything to make the vampire happy. There wasn’t anything he could do at the moment to make him feel better. “”It is my fault…” He said softly before he shifted sliding his arms under Kasen’s legs and picking him up with a groan. He wasn’t particularly heavy but in this state he felt like a million pounds.

 

He shifted a little and walked toward the bathroom pushing it open with his back before setting grabbing a towel and throwing it down into the tub to soften sitting down. He then sat Kasen down into the tub with an exhausted sigh his head bowing as he had to take a moment to breathe. “Kasen…please drink from me…” His eyes looked to his demon and worry and fear clouded them. “I love you…I can’t lose you…please. It’ll heal you…the pain will subside and you can…” he stopped himself and shook his head his hand tightening on the side of the tub. “Please just let me do this for you…I felt so helpless and I still do…” He felt fresh tears roam down his cheeks. “I know this isn’t a good time to tell someone you love them but I’m telling you know and I just…I’m so sorry…I’m sorry I couldn’t get here…” He couldn’t hold himself up any longer and rested his head on the side of the tub his eyes closing slightly. “Please….just drink from me…”

 

It wouldn’t take the pain away but it would close the worst of the others wounds and would start regenerating blood at a faster pace than what he would normally do if they had to do basic human medical tactics. He just wanted to help, he wanted to do something other than just sitting here. His body was weak, and hurt, and it was bleeding still but he wanted to help Kasen. He didn’t care about himself, he didn’t care that he was getting weaker and weaker. It didn’t matter, he couldn’t die. Kasen…kasen could die and this was his worry. He felt so horrible for not being able to save him that it was the least he could do to help his demon.

 

He felt like he couldn’t even look at Kasen, he felt he didn’t have a right to. He said he loved him but did he really? If he couldn’t protect him from something like this. Was he lying to himself? Saying that just to make himself feel better? He closed his eyes baring his neck to Kasen, “Please…” he was practically begging him to just drink from him. It would make him feel a little better even if it wouldn’t change the memories and the feeling of those men’s hands on his body.

 

Shinya felt a sting of pain in his lower abdomen. A pained groan left his mouth as he doubled over in pain tightening a hand around his stomach. Holy water had lasting effects until he was able to heal the wounds properly. He would have moments of peace and then his body would start to react again, trying to expel the water from his system. Having sat on his open wound it had gathered in his blood and sent his body reeling. He tried to conceal it not wanting the other to worry about him and not take the offered chance to heal just a little faster than normal. He could sleep his pain off, he could fight it like an illness…as his body tried to heal at a slower rate but Kasen couldn’t. His stomach felt sick as he reached over turning on the water and making sure it was warm. Blood started to turn the water red, and then pink, he was panting softly as he tried to go about the such simple actions but couldn’t.

[confidant_v]

Shinya was so kind. He was so kind and gentle and caring. The affection he felt from Shinya turned his tears from those of sorrow and guilt to love. Nothing mattered except the fact that they were together now. It was all Kasen wanted… To be together with Shinya was his dream and if this awful event could bring them closer together then so be it. It would be something good that came out of this darkness. Any light was far off though… Right now, for as much love as Kasen felt coming from Shinya and for as much love as he felt for Shinya, they were both in pain, traumatized, in shock, and ridden with guilt. It wasn’t fair. It wasn’t fair that they had to suffer like this and it was unfair that they both had to suffer more to try and heal.

 

Kasen closed his eyes when Shinya picked him up. It was different than how it was this morning. He could tell that Shinya was struggling to carry him… Kasen couldn’t imagine what kind of pain he was going through. The burn marks looked deep, though he hadn’t ever seen anything quite like them before. They didn’t look like they were caused by flame… In fact they looked more like acid burns or even an effect from a particularly bad snake bite. Even then, they were too neat for liquid acid or venom… What did they do to his darling vampire? As he was carried Kasen placed a soft kiss on Shinya’s chest, careful to avoid those horrific wounds. The pain had to have been unbearable, but Shinya still did everything he could to make Kasen comfortable. He set him down in the tub, a towel laid under him.

 

“Shinya… You should…” Kasen tilted his head when Shinya sat outside of the tub. “No… Sit with me….” Though the other asked--begged rather--for Kasen to take blood from him. As much as he loved how much Shinya was taking care of him, he also knew that he was weak. He was hurt and pain and they both needed healing. It wasn’t fair for Kasen to be healed and not Shinya. After all, Shinya was putting in so much effort so the least Kasen could do was something, anything, to heal his love. He reached out and rested a hand on Shinya’s cheek, staring hard at his precious vampire.

 

Then something else came from the other’s mouth. Kasen’s mouth dropped a bit at those sweet words… It was something he’d always dreamed of hearing, but never imagined he would. Their relationship before had always been master/slave… Client and escort… Just this morning they’d decided to take that to the next level and be friends. And now… Now Shinya was saying he loved him. He loved him. He truly, genuinely loved him. Even in this dark, horrible situation Kasen felt his heart lift. It was as if he received a burst of energy from those kind words. His smiled softly, placing a kiss on Shinya’s cheek. “Don’t blame yourself anymore okay. Promise me….” He dared to kiss the other on his lips, wishing Shinya felt as light as he suddenly did. He hated hearing Shinya blame himself and he hated hearing him beg him to take his blood, but knowing he loved him… It was all he wanted. Kasen was loved and he loved this man back.

 

“You’re in so much pain,” Kasen said, holding his vampire’s face in his hands. “I love you so much, Shinya, and I don’t want to see you suffering. So listen… I’ll drink from you if you promise me that you’ll drink from me once I’ve healed enough. Okay? And I’ll drink from you if you promise not to blame yourself for this. It’s not your fault. I don’t think this is your fault and I don’t want to feel guilt over this.” Tears stung at Kasen’s eyes as he pressed a deeper kiss to Shinya’s lips. His poor darling… He noticed how he gripped his side, how he winced as he moved, how he could barely talk without gasping in pain. Still, the only way he could help his vampire was if he helped himself. He knew he’d still be weak but Shinya needed blood too. He needed his blood and the only way he could replenish it was if he took from Shinya.

 

“If you pass out, I’ll take care of you okay?” he whispered in the other’s ear. Just knowing how much Shinya loved renewed his strength. He was still weak, still tired, still in pain, but his determination grew within him. All he wanted was to help his lover and he promised himself that he would. “Look…” Kasen smiled widely, revealing his long sharp fangs. “My fangs are longer than yours. Does that mean something?” He placed a kiss to Shinya’s lips, hoping his small attempt at a joke lightened Shinya’s mood even just a little. It was all he could do right now. He wouldn’t play victim, not when Shinya was suffering just as much. The two would take care of one another; this wouldn’t be one-sided.

 

It was easy for Kasen to control his venom, so there was no concern about him accidentally injecting venom into Shinya. He closed his eyes as he bit into his vampire’s neck, piercing the skin with his large fangs. This was first time drinking from Shinya, and he to admit that he was delicious. He only took a little, not wanting to make his vampire any weaker. Hopefully it would be enough to replenish enough blood that he could help feed Shinya. When he pulled away, he licked at the wound, making sure not to waste even a droplet of blood. “Are you okay?” He leaned out of the tub and wrapped his arms around Shinya, pulling his weakened body into a hug. “Why don’t you come into the tub now? The water will help your wounds.” He would eventually ask what these men had done to him, but for now he just wanted to take care of is vampire.

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya felt a soft kiss to his cheek making him blink his eyes open, “I can’t…not blame myself…” he spoke softly as he felt the other kiss him on the lips. As much as Kasen was telling him not to blame himself he couldn’t….not. He felt so helpless and ruined and he just wanted to protect the only thing that mattered to him. Kasen was home and without him the vampire felt lost in this big world. Before they had met the vampire had vowed to never fall in love again. He had lost his human lover and couldn’t bare to lose another. When the demon came along it was just a playful sex filled relationship that was all business. Until…eventually Shinya started to feel something more. He kept his feelings hidden not wanting to push Kasen away and he didn’t want the others to find out about him and his feelings. It would mean an end to their relationship…be it client or not Shinya couldn’t love him in this line of work.

 

Shinya leaned his head into the others hands his eyes blinking up at him with a light nod. He didn’t care what he had to do to help Kasen…he just wanted to help. In this weakened state his blood wouldn’t do the wonders it could do but it would heal the wounds relatively quickly…and while Kasen slept they would mostly be closed. Shinya shifted forward a little kissing the demon softly back his body wracked with another bout of pain as he pulled away from him.

 

“I won’t pass out…You probably can’t walk…least my wounds don’t hinder that…” he spoke softly back as he leaned into him kissing him softly again. He chuckled lightly wincing from his stomach tightening, “Hey…don’t make me laugh right now…” he shook his head and brushed a hand through the others hair. He guided the demons mouth to his neck groaning lightly as he felt the other bite into him. There was no pleasure in being drank from for him, it was painful. A hand tightened into the others hair as he held him there till he was finished. When is fangs finally slid out of Shinyas neck and the other licked the blood away he nodded. “I’m fine…” He hugged the other back softly. “I..” he breathed out his eyes looking into the tub not wanting to overstep any boundaries with Kasen who had just been raped.

 

He knew it would make him feel better and he nodded. “Alright…” He wiggled out of his pants and then found his way into the tub somehow with a lot of groaning and panting. Once he was finally sitting behind Kasen his body relaxed, wincing as the water touched his wounds. His head leaned back against the tile of the bathroom feeling the tub still filling with water. It was about to their waists now and it was inches from his first rope burn. It would hurt more than it would feel good…his body was trying so hard to heal itself it was basically shocked from it all. Trying to expel the holy water was like poison in his veins.

 

As of now though he could relax a little as he pulled Kasen against his chest holding his breath as the other leaned against the burns on the front of his body. They would heal, eventually, but it would take time and until he could feed it would be agonizingly slow. “Hey…” he whispered softly an eye opening before he leaned forward and rested his chin on the others shoulder. “I’ll be okay…Don’t worry about me. The blood should start to numb the pain a little…” he tightened the other in his arms ignoring the protesting of his wounds. “Then they will start healing…slowly because of how weak I am but It will still start. Once…I can get my strength back you can have more and it should heal you relatively quickly.” He kissed the others neck softly on the other side of his mangled skin. “I’m so sorry I put you through this… I can’t…” He stopped himself and rested his forhead on the others shoulder. “I promise you I’ll find them…and I’ll make them suffer just like they made you. I promise you they won’t get away with it.” He was trembling both from anger and from sadness as he felt fresh tears pull from his eyes.

 

He couldn’t stop blaming himself even if he wanted to. He couldn’t stop apologizing. He couldn’t stop trying to make it better even though he knew nothing he did was going to erase those men’s hands on his lover. Nothing was going to take the memories away and nothing was going to stop the nightmares that were most likely going to come at night. He couldn’t do anything and this was one of the worst feelings he’s ever felt. He wanted to help, wanted to take away the pain. Wanted to give the other something but the only way he could was to feed from Kasen and he had no blood to give. Shinya was stuck feeling like a helpless man watching his lover be abused and used by other men. He felt like he was next to the hospital bed all over again watching his lover die for the first time. It was like a nightmare all in its own and he hoped that he could pinch himself awake and it all be a dream.

[confidant_v]

All Kasen needed and wanted was his vampire near him. The only person he’d ever wanted to close to was Shinya, and he felt the same way now. Pushing him away would only hurt the both of them. For a moment Kasen wondered how he would feel with Shinya so close to him… Would he pull away out of instinct? Would he be reminded of those horrible men’s hands all over him? His trauma could show itself in a variety of ways, but in his heart he knew that his body and mind could only heal if it was close to Shinya. Thankfully, his body relaxed against the other’s without much trouble. Perhaps his trauma would appear in a different way, but at least he wouldn’t have to worry about being unable to hold Shinya close to him.

 

He signed softly, leaning his head back against his vampire. He let the warm water take away the blood and remnants of the other men. A part of him still felt dirty, like he was unworthy of Shinya’s touch. Somehow even though it was all over those men were still on him and inside of him. A few tears stung his eyes, but he didn’t wanna cry. He had cried so much today and Shinya had to watch all of it. Tears weren’t going to solve or fix anything, but now wasn’t the time for action. Now was the time for healing. Shinya’s blood had already set to work healing his body. He imagined his scales wouldn’t heal correctly… They were cut haphazardly and roughly; he’d be lucky to just have normal skin cover those wounds.

 

The smallest hint of a smirk touched his lips at Shinya’s promise to find the men who had done this to him. He reached up and gently ran his fingers through Shinya’s hair. “I know you will. I know you’ll find those men and ruin them.” Would it be possible for them to take down this whole damn organization? Did they stand a chance against such horrible people? They raped Kasen and did who knows what to Shinya all because Shinya decided to choose his application a few more times than everyone else’s. There had to have been something more behind all of this. Something sinister was lurking in the depths of this organization and if they were going to try to interfere with Shinya and Kasen, then the two had no choice but to find out what that thing was.

 

Some time had passed with the two of them sitting in the tub together. All of the grossness had washed away from him and he was ready to let all of this sickening water wash down the drain. “I… I’m sorry, Shinya, but you’re right. I can’t…. I can’t walk. I’m so sorry, but… Can you carry me to the couch? N-not the bed please… The sofa.” He felt so guilty. Even after taking his love’s blood he still couldn’t walk. Shinya was in pain and yet he had to carry him around. He knew it was too much for his vampire to do, but it was all the two could manage. Hopefully by tomorrow Kasen would be healed enough and he could focus on taking care of his Shinya.

 

“You’re amazing,” Kasen whispered, pressing a kiss to Shinya’s cheek as he was lifted. The two worked together to dry off; it was harder than it should have been and far more painful than usual, but they managed. Finally, Shinya made his way to the living room where he gently set Kasen on the couch. Kasen grabbed a blanket from his nearby loveseat and wrapped himself in it, not wanting to be so naked any longer. His eyes traveled to the broken door… Maybe later he could put a curtain up until there was time to fix it. In the meantime he wanted to be with his Shinya.

 

He curled up beside his vampire, pressing himself against his side. Those harsh marking on Shinya’s body drew his attention. “What did they do to you, Shinya? I’ve never seen markings like that before.” They had to have been acid or something similar to it. “How can I help you? Is there something we can put on those wounds or do we just have to wait until my blood replenishes?” It didn’t even make any sense that these men marked up Shinya like this. If he was the favorite escort then wouldn’t they want to keep him as pristine as possible? This only served to piss off Kasen even more. Why did this have to happen?

 

He’d save his anger for later. Right now Shinya needed him. Shinya felt responsible and guilty and Kasen knew that no matter what he said he’d always feel this way. He turned the other’s face towards and gave him a soft kiss. The least he could do was try to comfort Shinya in any way possible. “I’m happy to know you love me. I’m so, so happy. I know you think this isn’t a good time to tell me, but it’s the perfect time. It’s exactly what I need to hear. I don’t know if it’ll help you any, but you know I love you. You know I love you so, so much.”

[Shisu-Chan00]

Shinya didn’t mind carrying the other to the couch. It wasn’t like he had another option. The entire time they were in the tub he was fighting his eyes from drooping too low and not waking back up. He fought so hard and when the other finally spoke to him it was like a jolt to him. He nodded and stood before helping the other out of the tub. They both slowly dried off sharing winces of pain as they did. When they were dry Shinya picked him up and walked him all the way to the couch before laying him down on it. The vampire grabbed another blanket before wrapping his lower body in it and sitting down next to Kasen with a heavy sigh.

 

He felt the other press up against his side and he smiled gently trying to not think about what had just happened. When the other asked about the marks on his skin he looked down at them gently touching one with a soft wince. “Tch…I don’t have very many weaknesses but Holy water will do it…” he chuckled softly leaning his head back on the sofa letting his eyes close. “Fucking water is what did this…isn’t that stupid?” he asked lightly wrapping an arm around the other. He didn’t answer the other question just yet and he didn’t really want to. When he felt the other move his face and those soft lips against his he couldn’t help but open his eyes and peer into Kasen’s. “I…heh the first time you told me you loved me you were passed out …” He smiled a little and kissed the other again. “I don’t think you remember it but I could hardly believe you had just said it and literally sat there trying to understand you. When I realized what you said you were already asleep.” He moved a hand gently caressing the others face.

 

“Listen I know…I know you want to help me Kasen but you can’t do anything. My body is rejecting the healing process and that’s why I’m in so much pain. The only thing that would help would be blood but I was too worried about you to stop on the way and I was more than likely going to kill someone if I drank from them on the street. I’ll be fine until you’re strong enough…” he smiled a little and rested his forehead on the others. “They’ve never used tactics like these before on me…so when they sat me down in that chair and the first rope hit my skin it was a feeling I hadn’t felt for centuries.” He shivered a little and sat back giving the others cheek one last brush of his thumb before relaxing into the sofa.

 

“Shit…its been ages since I’ve felt that...it was like a slap in the face. Heh well I got that too but they aren’t afraid to hurt me considering my body will just heal. It doesn’t scar, it doesn’t bleed longer than my wounds stay open and it doesn’t ever not go back to its pure state. They love my body because I’ll keep bringing them in money…and when I step out of line they can do whatever form of torture they want because my body will just heal and they can start all over again.” He was rambling now and the words just kept sliding from his lips as if he couldn’t stop them. When he finally stopped talking for a moment his eyes blinked open and he looked over to Kasen. He was such a handsome demon…even in his tuckered out sad state he was in he was still the most beautiful thing Shinya had ever seen.

 

“You don’t have to touch me if you don’t want to Kasen…I’m not going to be offended if you can’t stand being touched by another man for awhile. I didn’t even think about that when I rushed in there I just knew I needed to hug you…and let you know I was there…” He looked away form him. “I just want you to know that you don’t have to force yourself to touch me if you’re not feeling up for it…you’ve been through a lot and I understand that you need your space. Your body is…hurting and was abused. I can’t imagine you wanting someone even your lover to be touching you right now.” He leaned his head back onto the sofa his eyes growing incredibly heavy. He was getting more than sleepy and he wanted to curl up into a ball and just pass out. He wanted to lay his head in Kasens lap and feel the others hands roaming through his hair as he slowly fell asleep.

[confidant_v]

“Holy water….” Of course. Kasen knew all of the mythos surrounding vampires, but he never thought he would see anything like it in action--or rather the result of it. The wounds looked horrendous, like they would never heal. “It is stupid…” Kasen said with a smile, pressing a kiss to his love’s cheek. Even he wasn’t in the mood for humor, but he knew it could lift their spirits if only a little. Anything Kasen could do to get his vampire happy, even if it was just for a second, he would. Hell, who knew when the next time either of them could truthfully smile would be? At the very least these little bouts of humor could keep them going until they found happiness again.

 

It seemed Shinya had the same thought. Kasen giggled as he listened to his vampire’s story. Honestly he wasn’t surprised. “That sounds exactly like something I would do.” He kissed his precious vampire back, feeling the tension in the air ease just a bit. The story was so cute and funny. Kasen couldn’t even deny doing something so ridiculous. “So I just left you alone trying to figure out what it was that I said and meant. I’m so obnoxious, aren’t I?” He pressed his nose to Shinya’s shoulder, nuzzling him gently. A few days from now, when they were both fully recovered, they would have to face the dangers that came before them. They would have acknowledge all that happened and figure out where to go from here. There was so much they would have to do, but for now the most important thing was to heal. Laughing was a good medicine.

 

Unfortunately, the light mood fizzled out almost as soon as it started. Kasen listened intently as Shinya explained how his company treated him. His eyes grew wide and his hands started shaking from anger. How the hell did Shinya wind up with a company like this? Kasen never considered himself incredibly smart, but he thought differently of Shinya. Shinya was everything he wasn’t… Surely he would have looked into something like this before joining? Or maybe he was forced to join... ?

 

Well, for now how he wound up with this company didn’t matter. All that mattered was that they recover. He gently moved Shinya’s hair away from his face as he placed small kisses on his cheek. “We’ll stop them. I don’t know how, Shinya, but we will. They won’t get away with what they did to us.” This was something Kasen promised. Kasen wasn’t someone who just sat around and waited for things to come to him. He was a go-getter. He ran after what he wanted and he refused to stop until he got it. What he wanted right now was the heads of those men who hurt him and Kasen on pikes. Then he wanted Shinya to get his just revenge of the owner of such a fucked up company. It would happen one way or another. Kasen always got what he wanted.

 

The more Shinya spoke the more Kasen realized his vampire was close to passing out. That was fine. He needed his rest. He pulled his vampire into his arms, letting him rest his head on his chest. It was his turn to hold and comfort Shinya. So far he felt so helpless and useless. There was nothing he could do to help Shinya’s wounds heal until his blood replenished. Hopefully holding his darling would be enough for now. Though the words that were coming out of Shinya’s mouth saddened him. “Shinya… I need you to be near me right now. I think I’ll lose my mind if you’re away from me. But… I…” He took a deep breath as tears welled in his eyes. “I don’t know if I’ll be able to… You know….” The thought of having sex made him want to vomit. Even when he thought about Shinya being the one with him his mind turned his vampire into those three men. He saw them penetrating him and stabbing him and hurting him. He heard his own screams in his mind. No… It wouldn’t be easy for him to warm up to the idea of having sex. “It’s no fault of yours though, Shinya, so please don’t think I don’t want you touching me. I just… Need time.” His voice was soft as he spoke and he only realized his darling had fallen asleep. He kissed the top of his head, staring at the wall while his lover slept.

 

Sleep didn’t come for Kasen. Whenever he closed his eyes all he saw were those men. The night was long, but he made it through only because he held Shinya in his arms the entire time. His body healed some though. Some of the stab wounds he’d endured had healed entirely. The only ones that hadn’t were the the places where his scales had been cut off. His body was still sore, still tired, but he knew he could walk again. It may be hard for him to do more than walk, and he knew he’d be walking slowly, but he wouldn’t need Shinya to carry him around. His blood though…

 

He didn’t know if his blood had been replenished or not. At least some of it had to have returned. As the night ended and morning shone in on them, he knew his vampire would be in bad shape if he didn’t get some blood in him. “I love you,” he whispered into his ear, pressing a kiss to his head. “Drink now.” Shinya was still asleep and Kasen knew a vampire’s hunger could be a driving force. In Shinya’s state he couldn’t deny blood if it was simply put into his mouth. Kasen was slowly recovering and he wanted Shinya to feel somewhat better too. It didn’t bother him at all to press his wrist to Shinya’s mouth, pricking his skin on the other’s fangs. Blood flowed into the vampire’s mouth and hopefully he would suckle it and drink as much as he could.

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Even without him wanting it to the world started to slowly close in around him. He felt his body was so weak and exhausted he could only listen to Kasen as he spoke. It was like relief in his veins when his head rested on the others shoulder and he shifted his body to better lay comfortably on kasen. He peeked up at him a moment and reached a hand up lightly brushing his face before he smiled and closed his eyes again. He knew it wasn’t going to be any time soon that they would be having sex. He didn’t mind it and he wouldn’t ask Kasen otherwise. He was still an escort and it wasn’t like he wasn’t getting plenty of night activities.

 

He wanted to whisper a soft ‘its fine’ but he was just too tired. Instead of being able to say anything his words fizzled out as he listened to Kasen try and finish what he was saying. Then, as if all the sudden, his mind blinked out and he was out. He didn’t know how long he had slept for. Sleep never came so easily to him being undead but today it was like something unnaturally grabbed ahold of him. He didn’t dream, he didn’t have thoughts of Kasen or nightmares about his own torment. It was just black, emptiness and nothingness followed him throughout his dream world and he didn’t mind it. The solitude was suffocating him by the time he was ready to wake up however, his body wouldn’t listen to him.

 

He didn’t wake as the sun started to rise and he didn’t wake up when kasen spoke to him. He was dead asleep unable to move or get up, his body worn out from trying to heal itself. The taste came almost as quickly as the smell. When Kasen pricked his wrist on the others fang it was like an alarm clock was sounding off in his head at the loudest volume it could.

 

He unconsciously swallowed and that was it. Hunger took over and he couldn’t see anything but red. His hands moved quickly gripping onto Kasen’s arm pulling his wrist closer as his fangs bit deeper into the others wrist. A moan left his lips as he started to feed on Kasen, a craze over his mind that was unlike anything he had ever felt. He hadn’t been this hungry in a long time and it was as if he was a fledgling all over again and he couldn’t control his hunger. Soft moans left his lips as his grip tightened on Kasen’s wrist, drinking more than his fill.

 

Something in the back of his mind told him to stop, told him that he had had enough. His animal instincts were too keen and as he quickly pulled away and flinted across the room slamming into the wall it took everything not to run back to Kasen and drink him down to the last drop. Shinya was panting hard blood dripping from his lips as a shaky hand wiped it clean. “Kasen I’m sorry…” he groaned out as he held his breath. “Please…” He couldn’t control himself. After years of having the self control of a priest he had broken everything in a fit of need. His hands tightened around his arms digging his nails into his skin feeling blood trickle down his forearm. “Kasen…you have to cover it…”He knew the other had a rather good dose of toxins. Probably a little too much for the vampire in him had no intention of letting Kasen go.

 

He had wanted to drink every last drop of his blood and even now the lust, the hunger was deep down in the pit of his stomach. His nostrils flared as his scent came to him again and he had to breathe hard to not run to him. Kasen would have to stop the bleeding or he would attack him again and this time no matter how much love he had in him for Kasen he would drink him dry.

 

When he was like this it terrified him. Shinya wasn’t a killer and he didn’t kill on purpose. Every death on his head was on accident, one pull of blood too much and they were gone. He wiped the blood from his lips on the back of his hand having to look away from Shinya only assuming he looked like a monster. He had never lost himself infront of the demon, had never broken his perfect little shell he had. Now it was like he couldn’t put it back together. He had cried infront of him, ruined himself by showing pain, had attacked him basically. This blood letting wasn’t like their sensual times in bed, it was animalistic and raw. Shinya was going to kill him and it wouldn’t have mattered if the human part of him loved Kasen or not, it wouldn’t have mattered until after the monster inside of him had gotten its fill.

 

The total realization that he was literally about to kill Kasen ran through his mind and tears started to streak down his cheeks. He felt like a child, like he couldn’t figure out the difference between right and wrong. “I’m so sorry…” he just kept whispering it over and over again trying his hardest to make it sound genuine but he was still in a feeding craze. He had to blink multiple times to see anything other than the blood. To feel anything but the hunger he had to tighten his grips on his arms and bask in the feeling of his own blood dripping from his fingers. He would rather hurt himself than Kasen let along killing his lover. After everything that had happened he had the nerve to attack him. OF course this had to happen now and of course he couldn’t do anything but apologize once again. This time the abuse was his own and it wouldn’t be healed over so easily.