Your Choice Of Telling.

[YaoiFanfictionWriter]

This is where you go when you want us to know how you feel today in one word in the beginning with a full back up story of why you feel that way.... I should probably start so you get it. No judging people.

 

~Psychotic~_

 

Well....Where do i start really? I've never really been an ordinary child. When i was born i had Polydactyly and Webbed Toes. I was also meant to have a twin brother but he didn't survive the birth. I was born with an extra toe one each foot and a couple of my toes were webbed. When i was 2 years and a half, i finally got a surgery to get the extra toes cut off but it seemed that on my left foot, the doctor cut off the wrong toe, now my big toe is the same size as my pinky toe and can't touch the ground at all. They didn't separate the webbed toes since it would cause too much scar tissue on my feet so now i have to wait until i'm 17 or 18 to get my toes separated. After i turned 1 years old, my little brother came, he was born with Patent Foramen Ovale, a hole in his heart. The doctors started to think that my condition and my little brothers condition are connected somehow so we are going to be getting blood test soon. I also had a speech problem, i always stuttered and could get my f's and th's mixed up so i ad to go see this woman that could help me with it but as soon as i stopped going, i started talking like i used to. Over the years i couldn't do things like other people could, i couldn't run, i wasn't allowed to walk for a long time because if i do the pain in my legs would only get worst and i would need to rest for a few hours. Since i couldn't do much sport, i ended up being bigger then people my age which i hated. I have been called so many names freak, fattso, unwanted person, weirdo, all types of names. I have no confidence in myself so sometimes i get to stay home from school so i don't have to have a bad day again but when my second oldest sister doesn't know that i am going to school, she beats me. My sister, Leila, isn't normal either, in 2011 she was sent off to a prison for juvenile in November and didn't come home until April 2012, so for 5 months she was in prison for. My sister does drugs, alcohol, smokes, all that type of stuff but since i'm younger then her i can't stop here. There have been times when i have seen my oldest sister get bashed in front of me by the second oldest sister, Leila. I sometimes witness my sister beating my mother but my mother doesn't do anything abut it. I never really had a father figure, when i turned 9 he stopped coming over to my birthdays and even forgotten when my birthday was. Things have started to get worse, i've started to see strange things and hear things. My mother tells me that she sometimes see's me talking to nobody but i believe that i am talking to my dead twin brother. When i get mad, i snap and the next day i don't remember what happens, that's when i started to get called Psycho b!tch, and people keep telling me that i should be in a mental hospital. My family never pays attention to me so i couldn't tell them about what's been happening cause they always say it's in my head. I've been under so much stress. So the only thing i could do to get away from the stress was self harm, cutting and burning myself. I did bad things, i carved the devil sign into my body but it would only leave scars that couldn't be seen from a distance. The only way i can escape from the hell of my life is with roleplay. The only real friends i have are online.

 

And there is my story....

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